#Tangentially related but someone I know online told me they thought I was trans cos I'd mentioned being so tall and having big feet once an

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i was telling a funny story to a (cis!!!!!) friend about how one time I held the door for a very masculine, visibly queer person who jokingly said "oh, you're such a gentleman, chivalry isn't dead" to me while I was wearing a pantsuit but still extremely femme and wearing a pride flag pin on my lapel, like... a queer man recognizing a queer woman and saying thank you in the absolute funniest way possible

And I was like, it was so funny because I'm so cis but something about the specific gayness of this exchange made me feel very sexy and comfortable in my skin in a way I think must be similar to what I've heard called gender euphoria

And they will not let it go that maybe I'm actually not cis! And tbh they've brought it up often enough I regret telling the story and debated whether I should even post this lest I get more but like

It feels bad to do something like, slightly GNC like when i say I like wearing suits or I wish I had a dwarf beard to braid and put flowers in, or to have an exchange that gently pokes fun at the gender binary like when I held that door and the funniest gay alive complimented me and I enjoyed it, and be told that these experiences are incompatible with being cis. Like I don't like that I am somehow being framed as contributing to the gender binary because it's "obviously egg behavior" and I must not know myself. And like 90% of it is coming from cis people in my life.

But I also worry if I am complaining about this or whatever it's gonna come off like i am somehow afraid of being perceived as trans, which isn't it at all. If a stranger or a casual acquaintance perceives me as trans I don't care, and I only care about a friend doing it because they should know me, lol. But the insistence on telling me that I MUST be and that I cannot know myself feels a) patronizing, b) cissexist and cisnormative in a gross way, and c) like it is happening to me with increasing frequency, and idk what to do about it. Like I've talked about it before but it really feels regressive that the slightest bit of GNC behavior means you must secretly be trans, especially when like I said it's mostly coming from cis people? Like what a weird way to police the binary. I'm barely even qualifying as GNC when I do these things wtf