#THERE WILL BE MANY WRITING THINGS SOON IM JUST OBSESSED W VIDEO GAMES RN

[neurodivergantizzetwitch]

intro post :3

hiii! im [insert name here]: a stereotypical AuDHD trans girl who still hasn't settled on a name yet-- my life isnt... going well rn, but tumblr makes it a bit more bearable and every little bit helps.

im a trans fem, more specifically i like the term demigirl- which feels like it fits me. im also ace(ish), by which i mean im ace but pretty sex favorable- just don't experience sexual attraction. im also very gay and have the best partner in the whole entire universe (they said they were gonna join tumblr soon- so ill at them here once she does.)

oh yeah and my brain is funky. im a peer reviewed (and officially dxed, but im an advocate of self diagnosis) AuDHDer- which informs basically everything i do. i also have a bunch of the mental illness stuff, and have struggled w it a lot. idrk or care what the exact diagnosis is, spend enough time around insane ppl and you learn a lot of the specific labels are pretty arbitrary and a lot of symptoms are shared- i just describe myself as fucked in the head or legitimately insane

also im never consistent w tags- sorry. maybe one day ill try to be but uh... yeah not today. i do tag for potentially triggering content tho- and try my best to be consistent w it, so if you're sensitive to the following and want to follow me for some weird reason id reccomend blocking them:

#cw sex mention, #cw: substance abuse, #cw: abuse #cw: child abuse, #cw: gore, #cw: sh, #cw: si, #cw: disordered eating, #cw: bigotry, #cw: disturbing content,

id also say in accordance w the previous thing i sometimes say things about my life that are "dark" in a way that can cross a line, i don't mean to do this- and i want to respect everyone's boundaries- but accidentally sharing super dark shit is smth i struggle w.

im a committed anarchist, and i will unabashedly post in accordance w those views. i haven't been able to help people as much as id like to bc of the whole being a minor in a fucked up situation with no money energy or time thing, but im trying to do more. If anyone reading this has suggestions- lmk.

i also like a lot of shit. like A LOT of shit- and i get REALLY obsessed w it too, so it is not out of character for me to start posting a bunch about smth i had not known existed until i got obsessed (as mentioned, AuDHDer). what ill post about is just kinda based on what im feeling that day and my interests, but heres some of my favorite things that im enamored w in no particular order:

games:

mtg

minecraft

hermitcraft (which yes is minecraft and no isnt a game but shut up)

hollow knight / skilkskong 🤡

celeste

metroid

nitw

botw

hades

books

cosmere

the locked tomb

percy jackson

the sandman

six of crows

the hunger games

lotr

spec fic, especially non-traditional spec-fic

shows/movies

spiderman across the spiderverse

made in abyss

hazbin hotel

hunter x hunter

the owl house

Pan's Labyrinth (& other Guillermo movies)

miyazaki movies

wes anderson movies

animated movies & shows

cinematic/classic movies (not neccessarily old just like the literary fiction genre of movies)

weird/offbeat movies and shows

music

coheed and cambria

mcr

jhariah

girl in red

will wood

pinkshift

jack off jill

paramore

mother mother

the cure

chloe moriando

bauhaus

cardiacs

dead kennedys

lena raine

siouxsie & the banshees

milk in the microwave

mitski

penelope scott

sungazer

45 grave

other interests/hobbies n shit

drawing

d&d

writing

painting

guitar

bass

drums

singing

music production

game design

coding

animation

character design

video production

poetry

theater (yes im a fucking theater kid did you even have to ask that)

musicals

even though im solidly gen z, i havent really grown up on the internet the same way. some weird combination of my parents' disapproval of it, social anxiety, autism, and not being allowed to use it for years means that ive had this fear of posting stuff on the internet. for so many people like me the internet has been a place to escape and be themself, to me it's more often than not just a reflection of a reality that seems just as scary and ostracizing.

the thing is... i dont have a lot of friends. i dont have a large community really. and i think though there are some ways in which my aversion to social interactions including those on the internet has been helpful, there are other ways it's really isolated me- both from my peers and a broader community of people.

so im trying to put myself out there a little more. this stupidly long intro post is i think just a way for me to commit to that for myself. ive been so scared of doing it all my life, right now i think i just need some sort of outlet to be myself. who knows? maybe i'll even meet some new friends.

[jesuschristlivedinamotelroom]

1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans? teacups but also wine glasses and coffee mugs . soda cans if and when i was young

2. chocolate bars or lollipops? choco

3. bubblegum or cotton candy? gum

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you? i genuinely wonder because i work with kids and i thought i had my emotions and thoughts pretty muted but it is so clear what they think. they probably just described me as shy since i couldn’t utter a word

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups?cans

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear? tomboy grunge preppy n formal

7. earbuds or headphones? earbuds

8. movies or tv shows? tv

9. favorite smell in the summer? watermelon

10. game you were best at in p.e.?idk

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day?

12. name of your favorite playlist?

13. lanyard or key ring? lanyard

14. favorite non-chocolate candy? jolly ranchers

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment? dante’s inferno was cool

16. most comfortable position to sit in? criss cross

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes? converse

18. ideal weather? sunny w slight breeze

19. sleeping position? all possible

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)? laptop but i do like physical writing

21. obsession from childhood? rocks and money

22. role model?

23. strange habits? making my room as messy as possible and turning off my alarms subconsciously

24. favorite crystal? idk

25. first song you remember hearing? since you’ve been gone LOL

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather? used to be playin fun sports now i just like lying around drinking a nice beverage

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather? lying in bed or on sofa w roomies cuddled in blankets hehe and watching smth childish!

28. five songs to describe you? not sure ! like 3 depressing song one good pop karaoke bop and like an obscure 1975 song prob

29. best way to bond with you? i think i bond well with people most when we’re like? doing a long walk or like in a situation where talking is rly the only thing u can do since i get bored esp if im only acquaintances

30. places that you find sacred?my bed and forest streams

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names? just . a good all black outfit

32. top five favorite vines?

33. most used phrase in your phone? prob i wanna die or smth about sleep

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head? idk i judt have a radiohead song stuck in my head rn

35. average time you fall asleep? 2ish

36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing?probably one of those liek and rage quit memes

37. suitcase or duffel bag?suitcase

38. lemonade or tea? tea

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie? cake

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school? we had lunch ladies that had like a physical fight and the twitter video went viral lol Lso our principal had an affair w some other upper figure st our school

41. last person you texted? my sister

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets?pants

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket? hoodie

44. favorite scent for soap? any non citrus ones

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero? fantasy

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in? pjs

47. favorite type of cheese? blegh

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be? dragonfruit? or pomegranate

49. what saying or quote do you live by?

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have?

51. current stresses?

52. favorite font?

53. what is the current state of your hands?what

54. what did you learn from your first job?

55. favorite fairy tale?

56. favorite tradition?

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome? **** ******** thoughts and self image stuff

58. four talents you’re proud of having? guitar playing baking hair and sleeping

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be? comedy or horror

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?

62. seven characters you relate to?

63. five songs that would play in your club?just taemin britney spears and lady gaga on repeat

64. favorite website from your childhood?

65. any permanent scars?

66. favorite flower(s)?

67. good luck charms?

68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried? milk in general

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned?

70. left or right handed?iright

71. least favorite pattern? probably cheetah/tiger prints i find them cheesy now

72. worst subject? every

73. favorite weird flavor combo?

74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen? like a 2 LMAO if it bothers me enough that i think about it then boom drug me up!

75. when did you lose your first tooth? i think like 7?

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)? God. all of the fried.... mashed ... baked..chipped i literally cannoy drecide

77. best plant to grow on a windowsill? uh well i got a bamboo rn

78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store? coffee from gas

79. which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo? they both honestly look ok to me given how much i hate my face but my friends laugh at my school id sayin i look angry lmao

80. earth tones or jewel tones? earth but sometimes jewel

81. fireflies or lightning bugs? whats the difference

82. pc or console? pc

83. writing or drawing?draw

84. podcasts or talk radio?

84. barbie or polly pocket?

85. fairy tales or mythology?mythology

86. cookies or cupcakes?cookies

87. your greatest fear? failure

88. your greatest wish?to not rly worry too much about money

89. who would you put before everyone else? myself HAHA

90. luckiest mistake?

91. boxes or bags? box

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights?sunlight & fluorescents

93. nicknames?

94. favorite season? summer? maybe idk spring may beat it soon

95. favorite app on your phone? snapchat

96. desktop background? ghibli

97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized? 2

98. favorite historical era? idk