#Since it's kinda for my birthday it'll start on my birthday (which is a Monday this year) and we'll end it on Sunday!!!

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it is spring time and appropriately, i have been a very busy bee !!

i'm on much needed pto and it is wonderful. i somehow managed to get completely caught up on all my work before i left so i'm not stressed about when i go back next week

i've mostly been sleeping a lot which i desperately needed and i've been doing a lot of things i've meant to for a while now

namely scheduling doctors appointments and updating my insurance everywhere i need to and that sort of shit, plus some legal stuff my mom and i are doing for some of my dad's stuff.

since monday i also started finally working on my closet again. i had to stop last time and toss everything back in there because...yeah, but now that i can spread some things out again i've made a lot of progress so far

every day i go in with the goal of getting out at least one bag of stuff to throw away and i've also moved out a bunch of clothes i'll need to sort through and a few other things i might be able to give away

feel like i can actually breathe in there again so that's nice. needed that. i'll probably work on it some more over the next two days and then take a break but it should be a lot easier now that i've really gotten the ball rolling to finish it up and fingers fucking crossed this time it'll be all done by the fall where it can just be my nice closet again and i can actually find things !!

i also finally went to get my oil changed today and fortunately there were no other problems so that went smoothly !! i got it washed, too (not that it matters now because it's pouring rain outside now lol) and i stopped to get my mom a birthday card and a gift bag for her present since her birthday is on monday !!

other than all of that i'm just trying to take it easy and unwind. trying to still rest a lot and not push myself too hard or do anything i don't feel up to.

for the past, mmm, i dunno, while i've just been full of piss and vinegar if that wasn't evident so i've tried to just be real quiet and keep to myself until i can feel less overwhelmed.

i'm still in that time out corner for now but i'm starting to feel a lot better so that's something! i've been doing a lot of cleaning lately as well (i did my bathroom on monday and will be doing laundry all throughout the week as week as well as the usual dishes and garbage duty) so that usually helps me feel a bit better.

it's also very cathartic just...throwing a bunch of shit away !! and having more space !! yay !!

oh, i also finally had therapy again after like...a month and i'm not sure yet what my new insurance situation will look like, but i think we're all happy to be done with my old insurance (she was telling me about something weird they did that i just...cannot fathom (something about mailing her a paper credit card that no one would accept ?? idk), but oh well, good riddance !!) and i'm slowly but surely working on paying her back !!

lastly, i tried a new coffee place today because i'm still trying to figure out which local coffee spot will be my new favorite now that i no longer haunt starbucks or dunkin and i went to this new one today and i....i definitely ordered a chai...a 32 oz one at that because why not, i love chai.... whatever they gave me definitely was not chai.

i'm not sure what it is exactly, but it's definitely got coffee in it and i thought at first maybe it was a dirty chai but no. and it's no big deal, i took it and just drove on but what's baffling to me is i was the only customer at that time.

nobody in front of me, no one behind me and maybe they were doing a mobile order or something but i had to sit there for a few minutes while they made it and it was...not at all what i was expecting, but also not bad !! haven't had an iced coffee in a minute so i'll take it !! (they also put a little chocolate covered espresso bean on the top which was very good)

anyway, i thought that was kinda funny. i've also finished all my chores and errands for the day now so i might take a nap or i might read or who knows what i might do, i actually have time to myself !!!!

just wanted to give a little update since for once it isn't me just bitchin' about things XD

hope if you're reading this that you're doing well and i'll be back to being a human (or as close to it as i get) ....sometime !! <3

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"Happy birthday!" She said.

"Ah,thank you," I replied,not knowing that it is going to be the worst birthday ever.

It was on Saturday,my 13th birthday,which means there would be badminton training. I had a plan to tell my dad that I don't want to go to badminton on that day and just chill out at home. But no. He already made a plan saying that I will and must go to badminton training. It kinda sucked. I never liked badminton...

So instead,I went,without arguing. After the training,we went back home,took a shower and my dad said we'll be going out to eat and celebrate my birthday. So I thought, 'Maybe today isn't such a bad day after all. Maybe it's just bad in the beginning...' but nooooo. I was wrong.

On the way to the mall,it was quiet at first,but when we were nearing the destination,my sister suddenly asked me "What are you going to get for your birthday present?" And I said "What birthday present?" Then she said "You know,it's your birthday,so what are going to get?" And i just said, "Ah, I didn't thought about that..."

I actually never wanted a birthday present. The reason why was because,every time,when I saw a book I liked,I always asked my dad to get me the book. Especially when there are book sales,me and my mom would get lots of books and my dad would say that it'll be my next year birthday and I promised him that it will be my next year birthday. But I've never kept the promise...

So on that time of the year,my birthday, I wanted to keep the promise. I don't want a birthday present. I just want the day to get better,not just birthday presents...

So,after my sister asked that, I told her I'll think about it. But after awhile,she asked me whether if I am thinking about it and I was like, "What am I supposed to get? Another book? I can't ask for another book shelf since I already have two..." And then my dad said, "Another book? Why do you always want books for your birthday?" And I replied, "Because I don't know what else to get," and he said "But I thought last year you bought a book that is supposed to be you this year's birthday gift" and I wanted to scream saying 'WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT FROM ME??? MY DAY IS ALREADY BAD ENOUGH FOR ME AND NOW YOU'RE TAUNTING ME?? I ALREADY SAID I DON'T WANT A PRESENT BUT YOU JUST KEPT ASKING. WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME???' but, obviously I didn't... I just shrugged my shoulders saying "I don't know,"

So,after that,we went to the mall, and then we also went to the bookshop. My sister said she wanted to get revision books and so we went. We went inside,my sister was looking at the revision books,while I just walked alongside my mother,looking at books with no intention of buying any. And when my sister went to pay up, I was standing beside my dad and my mom,waiting for her turn to pay.

Suddenly my dad asked me, "Where's your book?" And and I said "I didn't get any," then he asked "Why not?" And I replied "Because I thought you were joking," then he said, "No I wasn't,go get a book," and so I did.

I went to the fiction aisle. I searched for the book I have been eyeing for a long time that I never mentioned to my parents before. I took the book and went back to where my parents were waiting for me. I showed my dad the book. And he said, "This book?" "Yes," I replied. Then he said "What's so nice about this book? Are you sure you want this book? Why do you like this kind of book? Why not take something that benefits you? Like your sister, getting revision books huh?" After he said all those, I just nodded my head,not wanting to hear more,tears started coming,but I held it in. Trying to keep a smile on, I nodded my head as in agreement to anything he just said. After that,he told me, "Nevermind,go pay up. Go get the card from your sister," seeing as my sister had already paid,she gave me the card. I stood in line waiting for my turn,holding back tears. My dad and sister went outside to wait for me while my mom stayed inside with me. I kept thinking, 'What's wrong with me. Why am I crying? It's my birthday, I shouldn't be crying. Plus, just crying over a stupid book. This day is just going to be the worst' I tried so hard to tell myself to stop crying. Saying it's useless to cry about this little thing. But I just can't stop myself from shedding a few tears.

It's useless to cry,isn't it?

After that,when I went outside with my mum,we went to get dinner. I held my mum's hand, while my sister and dad went ahead,going to the direction of the restaurant. I held my mum's hand tightly, letting her know that I'm not ok. For the whole day, I only walked beside her,not wanting my sister and my dad to look at me,for they would scold me for looking like that.

Making a sad face.

After we had our dinner,we went home,and I still felt sad. I went to bed early,and when everyone was asleep, I started crying. I couldn't stop. I felt so sad and hurt that I just don't want to wake up. I fell asleep while crying. And when morning comes, I just don't want to wake up,come out of my room. I just felt like staying under my blanket and wishing this feeling, would just go away.

I just couldn't help myself.

When Monday came,it was time for school. I felt relieved that i can go to school and stay away from my family for a while. But other than that, I felt more relieved to know that I can go to school to tell my best friend what happened. Hoping that she'd comfort me. I told her. And she said, "Don't worry. You may be having a hard time right now,but one day it'll get better. It's all going to be ok," and I felt a little better because she doesn't criticizes me about everything I tell her,unlike my family. But then ever since that day, I still couldn't shake the sad feeling away,as if it scarred me so bad. I tried being happy but it just wouldn't go away. I go to school, plastering a fake smile, pretending to be 'okay', but I wasn't. I am not okay. After what happened that day, I just don't have the heart to smile anymore.

It just hurt so much that I am not okay anymore.

Even until my next birthday. My 14th birthday. I just couldn't smile anymore. It just hurt so much to smile. I don't even feel excited for my birthday anymore like how I used to when I was a kid. My parents were taking pictures of me with my cake, saying "Smile~" and I tried. I really tried. But I just can't smile properly. And they just asked me,"Why aren't you smiling? Why can't you smile properly. Just smile. How hard is it to smile?" And I just said "I am smiling. Isn't this a proper smile?" I said,trying to smile a happily as I can. But I couldn't. It's just so tiring being happy all the time.

Now every time when it's someone's birthday,it just reminds me of what happened on that day. I tried to forget about it,saying that it's the past. But it just hurts so bad. Recently,it was my sister's birthday. And I wanted to feel happy. Because its supposed to be a happy day. It's her birthday. No matter how hard I try, I just feel this pain stabbing in my heart. It just hurts so bad.

To me,it's not a 'happy' birthday anymore.

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It’s Always Been Her For Him, But It’s Always Been You For Me// JEAN KIRSCHTEIN X FEM! READER X REINER BRAUNN

Modern AU!

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She knew it wouldn't have lasted, she can tell that he still has feelings for her but she loved him to much. Y/n L/n, she's in love with the horse face boy, Jean Kirschtein. The way he looks at her, the way he treated her, the way he talked about her to her and his friends, was nothing the way he did with her. The fact that it's her best friend, and she knows that her best friend doesn't like him. The girl I'm talking about is Mikasa Ackerman. Y/n boyfriend is in love with her best friend and she didn't feel the same.

And that day hit her like a pile of tow trucks. Y/n went to go surprise Jean for his birthday, and from that plan went down hill when she arrived at his house. His mom let her in, telling her that his best friend Marco is here and they both will be happy to see her.

As the h/c girl walks to the outside of her boyfriends room, she hears his confession. "I feel so awful! I been dating her for almost two years and I'm still in love with Mikasa." His voice booms on the other side of the door. "Just the way her hair flows, the way her eyes glow, the way she can take charge and just everything about her." One tear falls from the girls face. "I don't know how- I don't know how to break up with Y/n... I mean I do care for her but it's different, I don't know if it's more than Mikasa or less... I should tell her..”

"You should, you been leading her on for about two years." A voice that didn't sound like Marcos, which is in fact Reiners. "It's kinda of a dick move."

"Haven't you done it?" Marco questions it.

A huff escapes from the blondes lips, "for a few months, not two years. Look man, she's probably coming over later and you should tell her."

"We been telling you for the past year." Marco agrees with their other friend.

A soft knock is heard from Jean's door. "What is mo-" The three boy's face drops to see Y/n standing there in tears.

"Happy birthday." With that she drops the things she bought him and ran out the house. Jean stood frozen, he couldn't believe that she was there listening to that.

He grabs the two bags to see what were inside, his widen to see the new game system he's been wanting since it came out, along with a few games he also wants. "She's really in love with you, just like you are with Mikasa." Reiner states after seeing what she got him.

The first thing Y/n did when she got home was call her friend. When she came over, she brought over some f/f(favorite flavor) ice cream and the two of them watch her favorite movies. "Do you want me to beat his ass?" Her best friend bluntly states.

Y/n shakes her head, "If you do like him, Mikasa, it's okay."

A small giggle escapes her lips, "Even if I did, I wouldn't. For one, you know who I like. Two, you bought him the new game system that cost over four hundred bucks, along with some games, I deserve to beat his ass. It'll be my birthday present to him." A sigh escapes Y/n lips, "You don't deserve him, he didn't realize how much you love him."

"It doesn't matter now, now does it?" She questions her friend, stabbing at the ice cream with her spoon. "Am I heartbroken? Yes. But am I surprised? A little, but I'll get over it. It might take a few days...or weeks... or months... eventually I will." She places her best fake smile for Mikasa, so she doesn't have worry.

~time skip~

Y/n walks into her last class, and only class she shares with her ex boyfriend. Jean tried to speak to her but she has most of her classes with Mikasa, and she refuses to let him talk. And with the classes that Y/n doesn't share with Mikasa, she shares with Eren and he tried to get into a fight with Jean a few times when he walked into class trying to talk to you. But of course, this is the only class you didn't have with either of them.

Luckily, she has Historia and Ymir in her last class too. "We heard what happened..." the blond female asked.

"I'm okay." Y/n flashes a fake smile, a smile that Jean notices as he stares at her instead of listening to the teacher. His heartache after you left, he even told the two friends he had in his room.

Ymir lets out a laugh, "You're not. He admitted his feelings for your best friend yesterday."

"I mean..I'm still in love with him, but I- if he wants to chase after Mikasa when she clearly has feelings for Eren as everyone knows it, he can. If he's happy with it, then I'm happy. I just want him to be happy, even if it's not with me." She rants to her two friends.

"Class!" Their teacher shouts, causing everyone to get quiet.

After class, Mikasa, Eren, and Armin stand next to Y/n last room door. When she walks out, the four walk to their lockers. "You should switch classes-" Eren started off.

"-I'm not going to do that. I'm not going to loose this class because of him." Y/n stated, then sighs. "I know you guys are looking out for me."

This went on for months, "We can always tell your dad-" once again she cuts off Eren.

"That's not right, just because he's the principal doesn't mean I'll use the power of it." She states.

Mikasa sighs, "Why do you even still love him?"

"Why does he even still love you?" Y/n snaps back, giving shock to the trio. "Sorry.. I just... it's been hard to get over him. We been together for almost two years... I don't think I'll ever get over him."

As the tension rises of jealousy, Armin spoke up to cut it. "Are you going to the Christmas dance?"

The e/c girl shakes her head, "I don't think I am."

"Come on, lets go together." Mikasa offers, a sigh escapes the girls lips before agreeing. "Great." After school, Mikasa and her go to Y/n's house to get dressed. "I know that you don't want to go because you know who will be there, but I'm glad you are. It's been a while since the four of hung out."

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't let Jean get to me to much. Tonight it won't happen." After those sentences, someone knocks at the door. This causes both her and Mikasa to quickly put shirts back on(since they were changing).

Both girls walk to the door, opening to see surprisingly Reiner with flowers and chocolates, blushing looking away from the two girls. "H-hey." He clears his throat. "Can I talk to Y/n?" A smirk appears on the the raven haired girl before walking into a different room.

"Reiner? Wha, what are you doing here?" A blush comes across her face as she looks at the flowers he brought. Her favorite, along with her favorite chocolate.

"I know that you're not really over Uh Jean, but would you like to go to the Christmas dance with me?" He asks, handing her the flowers and chocolates. Before she can answer, he spoke once more, "It's okay if you don't..."

"I'd like to." She cuts him off with a smile.

"I get that I'm his friend but- wait you said you will?" Y/n gave a nod, holding the smile on her face.

"Of course. Where are we going to meet?" She asks him.

"I'll stand outside the school, waiting at seven." He smiles widely, wrapping his arm around the small girl. "See you later." He pulls away then walks off to his car with a huge smile on his face. Even though he has admit he has done what Jean has done to Y/n, but it was because he's in love with her. Reiner Braunn is in love with Y/n L/n. And he hoping to change her mind of his friend and have her fall in love with him.

Once y/n closes the door, a blush and smile is stuck on her phone. "Does someone have a date to the dance tonight?" Mikasa asks as she notices the smile on her face. 

She giggles, "Yeah..." she spoke in a loving tone, something she hasn't done in months. Y/n always had a liking in Reiner but hasn't really spoke to him only when he was with Jean. "Let's watch a movie? We have about five hours-"

Mikasa shakes her head, "I have two hours, Eren and Armin are going an hour after it opens." Y/n gave her sad eyes, trying to have her stay for the five hours. "Your puppy eyes won't work on me like the other two. I'll see you later. Maybe you'll kiss Reiner, I heard there's a lot of mistletoes." Mikasa winks before walking out the door.

A groan escapes the only person in the house, "What to do..." she whispers to herself before going to her room and turning on Netflix. As she watch a her favorite show, she started to drift off the sleep, so she quickly set an alarm in two hours before knocking out.

Once she woke up, she felt pain through out her stomach. Y/n quickly ran to the bathroom, only find it was her time of the month. Tears fall down her cheeks as the pain was so bad, she takes some aleve to light up the pain.

After she got dressed into her (color) dress and black wedge, the pain stayed as it's only a few minutes before she has to leave to meet up with Reiner. "I need to tell him I can't go.." she mumbles to herself. Y/n takes out her phone and clicks on his name, calling him.

"Y/n, are you on your way?" His voice sounds excited.

As tears falls from her face she spoke, "I-I'm Sorry." She stutters our.

"What's wrong?" He asks in a concerned tone.

She shakes her head, "N-no. My st-stomach hurts so much. I don't th-think I can make it. I'm s-so sorry."

“It’s okay, I’ll swing by-” Y/n cuts him off.

“-You don’t have too. I’ll see you Monday.” She sniffs before hanging up. The e/c girl climbs onto the bed, curling up into a ball of pain and tears. Still with her (color) dress on and heels.

After thirty minutes her door opens, “Dad please not now.” She mumbles, pressing her head against the pillow with pain going through her stomach.

“It’s uh, not your dad.” A familiar voice spoke.

She lifts her head to see her date. “Reiner? Why are you here?” She spoke with glossy eyes.

He chuckles before sitting next to her, “Well, since your stomach hurts, and as you always say that for your period, I wanted to make sure your okay. Here,” he hands her some of her favorite chocolates and candy.

A blush runs across her face, “Reiner, you didn’t-”

His finger goes to her lips, “I wanted to-I wanted to tell you at the dance. But since you couldn’t make, I’ll tell you now before you find someone else.” A confused look runs across the girls face after he removes his finger. “I’ve liked you for a while. Well, more like love you for a while. Before you were dating Jean.”

“But the other girls- the girls you used-” His places his finger on your lips once more.

“When Jean dated you, and kept tell Marco and I how much he loves Mikasa made my blood boil. But I also did that when I was dating those girls, I kept talking about how much I love you to Bert but you were dating Jean.” He sighs as the blush goes to his cheeks, “I really wanted us to be under the mistletoe tonight so I had a reason to kiss you.”

As it’s a very emotion roller coaster for y/n, her response was to cry. His eyes widen trying to figure out what to do to fix this, apologizing. “Don’t apologize, I’m just emotional right now.” She wipes her tears away before grabbing Reiner hands. “Well, um, I kinda painted the ceiling above me with a mistletoe when I was dating Jean so we could always make out for a reason.” She points above him, with a blush on her face. “There’s a mistletoe.” His head tilted up, to in fact see a painted mistletoe, not a very great painting but it was the thought that counts. “I wanted to take it off because of the memories every night, but you can help me make new ones.” Blush burns into both the their faces.

“You sure?” Reiner asks as his face is red, but luckily is dark enough to not be able to see it.

“Yeah.” Y/n smiles as does he. “I’m guessing that you’re going to help me get over him?”

“I hope so, but this will sound harsh, but you need to understand that it will always be her for him, but it’s always been you for me.” With that he captures her lips in his with his hand holding her cheek and other holding her back.

She wraps her arms around his neck, pulling him closer. She loves the way their lips move together, like nice and soft clouds. Reiner slowly places her back on the bed, with him hovering above her, without breaking the kiss. The more they kiss, the less clothes they kept. “I’m so in love with you.” He mumbles against her lips.

“Good. I may be in love with you.” She says back, bring their lips back together.

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Ava & Grace

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Grace: at the gym so I was LITERALLY blindsided cos every lad in there is so 💪🤳🏻 Ava: + 1 for not being that kinda douche Grace: but if he was I wouldn't have to leave every 🗨 like ✔ Ava: You don't know what to say Grace: duh what can I even Ava: Well, if you have nothing in common, not a lot Ava: but you gotta do some talking before you can find out if it's worth doing any more, like Grace: ive gotta run away so thanks for the party invite, babes Grace: v well timed tbh Ava: You can do that too Grace: yeah Ava: Why not give it a shot though Ava: you clearly wanna, even with the freaking out Grace: UM hello?? do you not remember the cringefest that was my life not that long ago?! Ava: We've all made questionable choices Grace: & now I'm doing this thing™ where I like don't make a total fool of myself 24 7 Ava: Can't relate, clearly 😂 Grace: well you're in a rom com sooo Ava: Yeah and we could be about to see me 💔💀 eating my weight in ice cream Grace: that would barely be a 🍦🍨 binge 👌👌👌 Grace: & boys don't just buy bracelets cos they're lost Grace: this bitch can't get a boy to do the clasp on her necklace Ava: They do regret in almost instantly though Ava: maybe he thought I was guilting him or some shit Grace: if he thought that he wouldn't still be 😍😍😍 Grace: which he obvs is Ava: It's a headfuck but hey Ava: what ain't Grace: mhmmm Grace: you're about it though Ava: He's a really good guy Ava: I'm aware how naive that sounds given but still Grace: he can be a good guy & bad for his 👰💍 Grace: or she's bad for him Grace: some couples don't work, can't even Ava: She's Ava: a whole other story Grace: how well do you know her? Ava: Her reputation preceeds her in a lot of ways Ava: and I know some of it as fact, basically so Grace: Ew Grace: she sounds so #goals honestly 🙄 Ava: You have no idea Ava: but there's nothing I can do about it Grace: it's the worst Ava: yeah Grace: anything else I can do I totally will Ava: Thanks, babe 💙 Ava: all you need to do is distract, and we'll have a good time to celebrate Grace: 💜 Grace: seriously looking forward to it Ava: Me too Ava: I'll invite every hot boy I know Grace: ILY you know Ava: Duh 😏 Ava: ily too but save it for the 🥂 Grace: 🙏 that's all I say Grace: I don't 💕 gym boy Ava: Just chatting about your 😍 Ava: stop me mentioning mine, please 🙄 Grace: shh no Grace: I wanna hear everything about yours Grace: & your lunch date, thanks Ava: Okay, that was pretty cute Ava: so he picked me up from school in an uber so we got to make the most of the limited time we had Ava: then we went to get coffee and tried like everything on the menu Ava: and we watched a kinda dumb kinda everything film and you know Grace: it's SO rude that he's already married & you can't 💍 him cos that's such a MOOD Grace: like okay never tell Jimmy about the whole menu cos he'll khs but whatever Ava: I know, had to tip the baristas and the uber driver so handsomely Ava: but it was worth it Grace: I can relate, mine have definitely 👀 some shit 😂😂 Grace: less worth it though & obvs not as recently 🙏😇 Ava: I'm sure they found it entertaining Ava: miss it, if anything Grace: 🤷💅 Grace: but for real, I don't Grace: not my reputation & everything Grace: though if your bf's wife can get a 💍 there's obvs hope still Ava: Good Ava: for real Ava: you don't need any of that bullshit Ava: oh girl please 🙄 Ava: you ain't about to force a marriage Ava: or even more shaming, have your parents come together to force a marriage Grace: declaring myself a no fuckboy zone has been good Grace: even if that does mean staying single cos duh Ava: There's far worse things in life to be 🤷 Grace: yeah like I thought it would be the WORST but Ava: Can't be worse than fuckboys Grace: true Ava: even the ones that ain't Ava: or seem like more Ava: total headfuck Grace: preach! literally living my BEST life until gym boy got on my radar and got me like !!?? Grace: 🙄🙄 Ava: yeah Ava: tell me about it Grace: gonna have to put my phone under 🔐 somewhere when we're 🥂💃 Ava: Confiscated at the door, naturally Grace: yours too so you don't call up a divorce lawyer for your boyfriend 😂 Ava: not even funny Ava: 😏 Grace: sorry babes Ava: it would be funny if it weren't true Ava: not for my sake though Grace: I know Grace: I can't even imagine how tragic he's living Grace: ugh Ava: It's genuinely fucked Ava: and like, not in a 'he's told me to get in my pants' vibe Ava: you can tell, even without the full story Grace: & like there's little kids involved it's so 💔 Ava: I don't even know how to feel about them Ava: or if I should think about them Grace: I don't know if you'll be able to not Grace: think about them Grace: & not just cos like he has to Grace: cos you're you Ava: They'll never know Ava: so I don't have to feel bad Grace: 💜🤞 Ava: It sounds like their mum's whole vibe Ava: and their relationship Ava: is like, Ava: enough trouble Ava: I'm not gonna bring anything else to the table for any of them Grace: well yeah she sounds like an evil 👑!!! Ava: She is Ava: was Ava: Ugh, idk Grace: you're not gonna tell me who they are like EVER, are you?! Ava: I can't Grace: it's okay Grace: like it's soo not but I'm not gonna be that bitch about it Grace: or any of your secrets Ava: You can fill in the blanks Ava: it's not as if anyone is gonna know so put whatever hot face suits Grace: I'm here, just like tell me what you wanna tell me, yeah? Grace: no drama Ava: 😘 Ava: I know its so frustrating though, I'd feel it too no doubt Grace: it's this fam & our track record with secrets getting me worried Ava: I know Ava: it's Ava: nothing to worry about Ava: I've got it Grace: just keep hitting me up whenever you need to 👌👌 cos that's something else none of us obvs ever do Grace: & everything's such a mess literally always Ava: I know Ava: I bet Edie would have some advice Ava: super dubious Grace: 🙄🙄 Grace: she'd have taken the bracelet & ✌ out Ava: Honestly Ava: is that not the right thing to do tbh Grace: duh depends how hot he is Ava: I doubt he'd be much her type Grace: I'd totally have to hook up with him though Grace: sorry not sorry Ava: 🙄 Grace: 😂 Ava: Ugh, I need to start drinking now Grace: what's he doing? invite him out Ava: He's with his family Grace: then he'll definitely wanna come Ava: Stop Grace: okay sorry 🤐😶 Ava: It's fine Ava: I am gonna go though, gotta get ready Grace: I should totally pick & pack a party outfit or I'll never be able to decide on a make up look Ava: Get busy, babe Grace: mhmmm Grace: you too hun Ava: 💙