#Shuhua Gidle
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First Light
Shuhua x Male Reader
Word Count: 16k
one-shot
You're in the lifeguard tower, a cubicle that smells of sunscreen and snacks, arguing with your supervisor about carburetors. He's talking about his Chevelle, and you pretend to understand, but all you can think about is the roar of the engine and how much you'd rather be on the road than here, where the warm breeze seems to glue your skin to the fabric of the chair.
"I’ve got some paperwork to deal with," he says, patting his pocket as if that would make the paperwork more real. "You got this?"
Of course, you’ve got this.
Nothing much is happening right now. The day will repeat itself quietly, like the previous ones—maybe someone will step on a jellyfish, but that’s about it.
For now, just sun-kissed bodies scattered like shells and the sound of the waves repeating the same eternal monologue.
Minutes pass.
Maybe five.
Maybe fifteen.
You see something at the edge of the beach. A crowd. People running to the same spot, like ants in a panic. You grab the binoculars, focus on the scene. Screams. Hands waving desperately.
Okay, maybe things would deviate from normal today.
You know what's happening before you even see the guy's head bobbing up and down, like a miniature castaway.
Your heart speeds up in a "it’s now or never" way. Adrenaline starts to boil in your blood. Without thinking, you grab the jetski and go. Each wave is a slap in the face, the sun a fluorescent lamp frying your neck.
You barely hear the voices around you. Everything is muffled, as if you’ve dived underwater. But you keep moving, your body acting on reflex, instincts forged in drills repeated to exhaustion. The jetski cuts through the water like a blade, spraying droplets that glisten in the morning sun. In the distance, the crowd huddles on the sand, small silhouettes blurred by distance and heat.
The man is floating, face up, but the waves keep pulling him down, away from where he should be. His body moves awkwardly, arms flailing in the water with the desperation of someone who knows time is running out. And you? You’re just an extension of the jetski, muscles and nerves automated, your mind cold as ice.
There’s no time to think. Only to act.
You slow down and approach from behind, tossing the buoy towards the man, who tries to grab it, but his movements are uncoordinated, sluggish. The current is stronger than it looked from afar. You need to be quick. One mistake, and he goes under. Without hesitation, you dive into the water, the cold impact enveloping you, but your mind stays sharp, focused. You feel the resistance of the sea against your body as you swim towards him.
"Grab the lifebuoy!" you shout, your voice lost in the wind and waves, but he finally manages to hold onto it, his fingers white from gripping so hard. You feel the weight of his body as you start pulling him towards the jetski. He doesn’t struggle, but he’s heavy, as if the water itself is trying to keep him.
You lift him just enough so he can lean against the side of the jetski. He’s gasping for air, coughing up water, his eyes wide with fear, but still, conscious. You climb back onto the jetski, keeping a firm hand on him as you steer the vehicle back to the shore. The return trip feels longer, the waves seeming to conspire to pull you both further away, but you don’t slow down.
On the sand, the crowd parts, creating a narrow path to where you’ll land. They’re silent, the kind of heavy silence as if they’re waiting to see if this will have a happy ending. You steer the jetski onto the shore, jumping onto the sand before anyone can react. With the help of a pair of arms you barely see, the man is pulled out of the water, his feet dragging in the sand as he tries to catch his breath.
The supervisor, the great major of this beach, is already there. From somewhere, he appeared, arms crossed, a smile on his face barely containing his pride.
"First rescue, huh, son?" He claps you on the shoulder as if you were a war hero. "Kid, you did a good job. One day you’re going to be better than me."
But the words don’t penetrate the layer of indifference you’ve built around yourself. You just shrug, looking at the man now sitting on the sand, supported by other lifeguards, his breathing finally returning to normal. People start clapping, soon becoming more intense. People taking pictures, a commotion to remember later, something to tell over dinner or post on social media.
Curious eyes, pointing fingers.
They say: "Hero," "Savior," "Blessed."
But you barely hear it, it feels distant, like background noise, like a TV in another room. All you can think is that this is your job. There’s nothing extraordinary about it. You did it because you had to, because it was either that or let a man drown.
Your father's hand is still on your shoulder.
"That’s my boy!" he says. You just nod, pretending to accept everything that’s happening.
But you look at the sand. Look at the sea. The sky. Anything but the faces, anything but the eyes of the people watching you. Because deep down, you know there’s no heroism in this. Just the inevitability of duty.
The man on the sand looks at you with eyes full of gratitude, but you just turn away, not wanting to feel the connection, the responsibility he seems to place on you with that look. Your father says something else, but you barely hear it, already starting to move away from the scene, feeling the weight of what you just did dissolve amidst the unwanted attention.
And then you walk away. The noise of the beach, the applause, all of it fading as you head toward the tower, trying to leave it all behind, but knowing that, somehow, the weight of it is still there, even if you pretend it’s not.
—
You're sitting on the steps of the lifeguard tower, and the sunset is the kind of show that nobody pays to see, but everyone stops to watch. Seagulls circle above you like little white demons, the waves crash against the sand with a rhythmic, almost hypnotic sound, and you feel the salty breeze cooling the skin that’s been under the sun all day. The air carries the scent of salt, of the sea, of a day that's dying.
You hear footsteps in the sand. Slow, as if each grain were an obstacle. And then you see her. The long dress floats around her legs, the wind playing with the fabric. The Polaroid camera hangs on her shoulder, as if it’s part of her. Something about her seems out of place, as if she’s stepped out of a different time and is now trying to fit into the present.
She stops a few steps away from you, her eyes scanning the horizon before they land on your face.
"Could you take a picture of me?" Her voice is soft but firm, like someone who’s used to getting what she wants without needing to ask twice.
You stand up, somewhat embarrassed that you didn’t realize you were sitting until now.
"Sure." You take the camera, and she positions herself so the lens can capture her alongside the vastness of the sea. She doesn't smile for the photo. It’s as if she's lost in some thought that the sun is trying to steal from her.
The flash pops, and the photo starts to materialize, the outlines emerging slowly as if painted by hand. She takes the image, studying it for a moment before smiling slightly, satisfied.
"Thank you," she says.
You can’t help but think of how beautiful she is. Not the plastic, symmetrical beauty of a magazine, but something rawer, more real. Her face has that shape you only see in classic paintings. Large, dark eyes, as if they want to see more of the world than it’s willing to show. Porcelain skin, long dark hair that catches the golden light of the setting sun.
"You're a tourist, aren't you?" you ask, more to fill the silence than out of curiosity.
"I am," she replies, without taking her eyes off the photo. "Just passing through. I leave on Monday."
It's Friday by the way.
"Ah, that's a shame," you say, and realize you sounded sadder than you intended. "Is it your first time here?"
She finally looks at you, and her gaze is something you didn’t expect. Like she's studying you, trying to understand something even you don’t grasp.
"Yes," she says after a pause. "And you? Do you spend your days here, saving lives?"
You shrug.
"More or less. It's my job."
She tilts her head slightly, her hair falling over one shoulder.
"You didn’t seem too happy when you saved that man today."
"I was just doing my job," you repeat, as if that could end the conversation.
But she doesn’t let it go.
"Is that all? I’d imagine saving someone would be something worth celebrating."
You hesitate, your eyes searching for something to focus on that isn’t her.
"It’s not like that. My dad runs everything here. He kind of pushed me into it."
She’s silent for a moment, as if processing what you said. Then, with a slight smile, she asks:
"And why don’t you want to be a lifeguard? Any guy would love to have a dad who's, like, ripped and cool, making a living on the beach, being treated like a hero."
You let out a small laugh, but it comes out more bitter than you intended.
"It's not just that. I wanted to play football instead of being a lifeguard."
She takes a step closer, curiosity growing in her eyes.
"Football? What do you mean? You wanted to be a professional player?"
"That was the plan," you admit. "But life happened. And here I am."
She nods, as if she understands perfectly.
"It’s funny how things don’t always go the way we plan, right?"
You agree. The sun is almost completely gone, and the colors in the sky fade, as if they’re tired of shining so brightly.
"Do you always travel alone?" you ask, trying to steer the conversation to something less personal.
She smiles, but this time it’s more challenging.
"And why not? I like discovering the world on my own. With no one to get in the way. Can’t a woman do that?"
"I think it’s admirable," you say, and you mean it. Something about the way she talks, like she’s always two steps ahead, makes you want to know more.
"I study philosophy," she reveals. "I’m on vacation, trying to see as much as I can before reality pulls me back."
Philosophy. Of course. You should have guessed.
"That explains a lot," you say, smiling for the first time in a while—long enough that you didn’t even realize you hadn’t been smiling.
She smiles back, and for the first time, it feels like she’s really here, in the present, with you.
"And you? Are you going to tell me more about yourself, or leave me to imagine?"
"Maybe I’ll tell you more if you come with me later. I’m going for a walk along the boardwalk. If you want company, we can meet near the broken statue at seven."
She pretends to think for a moment, but the smile on her face already gives the answer.
"Maybe I will. Who knows?"
You both fall silent for a moment, listening to the waves, the seagulls, the sound of the world turning. And then, with one last glance, she walks away, leaving you with a sunset that’s already turned to night.
A night that promises to bring something more than just stars.
—
You're sitting on the bench, waiting. People walk along the boardwalk, laughing, chatting, living their lives as if you weren't there, alone. Every passing minute, every step you hear that isn't hers, feels like the whisper of a tiny little devil saying that maybe you got it all wrong.
Maybe she changed her mind. Maybe she remembered something more important. Maybe you're not as interesting as you think. You start calculating how long it's acceptable to wait before getting up and leaving without seeming desperate.
Then you feel the touch. It's light, almost as if a breeze had turned solid for a second. You turn your head, and there she is. Shuhua. As if she had been materialized by your thoughts. Her dress, now shorter, clings to her body with the same ease that night clings to the sky. Her dark hair shines under the streetlights, and for a second, you forget how to breathe.
"You look beautiful," you say, because nothing else makes sense in that moment.
She smiles, as if she already knew, but still likes to hear it.
"Thank you."
You begin to walk side by side, the sound of the waves in the distance sometimes pulling you back to the moment of the rescue again, though you don't show it.
"What's it like studying philosophy?" you ask, because the silence between you seems fuller than any conversation. And because you want to know more about what makes her who she is.
She looks around for a second, as if someone passing by might hand her the answer.
"It's like trying to understand life as it happens. Like you're a spectator in your own movie."
"Then say something philosophical," you ask, half-joking, but half-hoping she'll reveal something that will change the way you see the world.
She stops for a second, and you think maybe you've asked too much. But then she smiles, a smile that doesn't quite light up her whole face, but brings a small light to the night.
"All we know is that we know nothing."
"That's Socrates, right?"
"That's right."
"Oh, come on. You can do better than that."
"So, what do you want to know, Mr. Deep?"
You keep walking along the boardwalk, your steps slow, almost synchronized.
"Do you believe we're really free to do whatever we want?" The question comes out of you before you have time to filter it.
"Nietzsche said that desire is what drives us. It's not just a choice; it's what we are, what makes us act. But the problem is that desire is never simple, never pure. It always comes with a shadow. And that shadow is guilt."
She turns her face to you, a slight smile on her lips, but it's a smile that doesn't reach her eyes, and she continues:
"We can do whatever we want, yes. But do we really want to? Or does desire just push us toward what's inevitable, toward what we try to resist but deep down know we'll end up giving in to?"
You try to process what she's saying, but it's like trying to catch smoke with your hands. It feels like her words carry more weight than the moment.
"So, desire always comes with guilt?" you ask, trying to sound more curious than worried.
"It's not guilt that accompanies desire," she says, her eyes returning to the path ahead. "It's that desire makes us go against what we should be, what we've been told we should be. And then guilt arises, not because we've done something wrong, but because we desire what we've been taught to reject." She lets out a small laugh, but it's a dry sound, without joy. "Deep down, desire is a rebellion against morality. And every time we give in to it, we're challenging the world, the rules, what's right and wrong. But no one comes out of a challenge unscathed. There are always consequences."
"And you? Do you feel guilty about anything?" you ask before you wonder if maybe it's too much, but you don't regret it. You want to know who she is, to understand what's going on behind that face that seems so impenetrable.
She's silent again, and for a moment, you think she won't answer. But then she looks directly at you, her eyes dark and deep like the sea at night.
"Guilt? Of course. But guilt... guilt is proof that we're still alive. That it still matters, that we're still human." She smiles, but it's a sad smile. "I feel guilty because I desire what I shouldn't. Because deep down, I know I'm going against something bigger than myself. And it destroys me a little more each day."
And you realize, at that moment, that Shuhua is talking more about herself than any philosophy. That what she's saying isn't just theory, as real as the ground beneath your feet.
When you pass by a street artist, he observes you for a second, the pencil twirling between his fingers as if looking for his next masterpiece.
"You make a beautiful couple," he says, his tone casual, as if he already knew he was right. "How about a drawing of you two?"
You open your mouth to correct him, to say that no, you aren't a couple, but Shuhua is already agreeing.
"Sure," she says, pulling you to sit next to her on the bench.
The artist smiles, as if he knew the battle was won before it even began. He starts drawing, the pencil moving with the precision that only excessive practice can provide. You try to stay still, but you can't stop looking at Shuhua. The way she's relaxed, as if this were the most natural thing in the world. Her scent, a soft perfume, mixes with the breeze entering your lungs, and it's an addictive sensation.
Time passes, but you don't notice. Only the sound of the pencil scratching the paper, the distant waves, and her scent.
Finally, the artist stops, gives the drawing a final touch, and turns it to show you both. The paper reveals the two of you sitting together, but there's something more there. Something the artist captured, something you hadn't noticed until now. He drew you looking at Shuhua with an expression you didn't know you were making. Admiration. Fascination. As if she were something more than just a girl.
As if she were a muse, and you, an artist trapped in her beauty.
"You, my friend, look at her like you're trying to decipher a mystery," the artist says, handing you the paper.
Shuhua takes the drawing, and you pay the artist, still feeling that strange weight in your chest, as if something important had been revealed without your permission. You both stand up, thank him, and continue walking.
She looks at the drawing again, a subtle smile on her lips.
"I like it," she says, and you realize she's not just talking about the drawing.
The sound of the sea never stops, not for a second. It's always there, in the background, a constant reminder that you're close to something bigger, vaster than anything you can do or feel. The waves break, one after another, like the sound of a clock ticking in a time that no one can control.
The kiosk appears ahead, with its yellow lights that seem to blend with the color of the night sky. The tables are scattered around, some already occupied by couples and small groups chatting in low tones, laughing about something only they know. You choose an empty table, away from the others.
The waiter approaches, young and cheerful, wearing a casual floral shirt. He hands you the menu and disappears, leaving you alone. Shuhua flips through the menu as if she's looking for something she already knows she wants, but still enjoys seeing the options. You choose something simple, a random drink that won't make you seem out of your element.
"Do you always hit on tourist girls?" The question comes from her naturally. But there's something more there, a curiosity she's trying to hide, but you notice immediately.
You smile, one of those smiles that's hard to decipher.
"No."
She raises an eyebrow, as if not entirely convinced.
"Then why did you call me? The beach is full of girls much hotter than me, with tanned bodies and everything."
The waiter returns with the drinks, placing them on the table skillfully. Shuhua takes hers and sips, her eyes still fixed on you, waiting for an answer that makes sense in the world she knows.
"Because I don't care about that," you finally say. The drink is cold in your hand, and the taste is strong, but you don't look away. "It's been a while since I went out with any girl. The thing is, you're different, Shuhua, you caught my attention."
She pauses, the glass halfway between the table and her lips, as if waiting for you to say something more. But you don't. Because there's nothing more to say. And, for some reason, that seems to be enough for her.
Shuhua puts the glass back on the table but doesn't drink. She tilts her head slightly, her eyes narrowing as if she's trying to see something beyond what's in front of her.
"You know," she says, "that almost sounds true."
You shrug, as if it wasn't a big deal, but you feel like something has changed in the air between you. As if the conversation had entered another territory, something deeper, closer to what really matters.
"Think what you want," you say, pretending not to care.
"Are you messing with me?" she asks, but now her tone is different. Lighter, almost playful.
"No," you reply, sincerely. And that's enough for her to believe you, at least for now.
You continue talking, about trivial things, about life, about what it’s like to study philosophy and what it means to work in something that isn’t your passion. But with every word, with every exchange of glances, you feel like you’re diving deeper, sinking into something more than just a night by the sea.
And her? She seems to relax, seems to accept what you’re offering, even though she’s still not sure exactly what that is. But there’s a sparkle in her eyes, a spark of interest that wasn’t there before. And that’s enough for you to keep going.
The waiter comes back to see if you two need anything else, but you don’t. Everything you want is there, on the table between you, in the air circulating around, in the words being spoken and those yet to come.
—
The boardwalk stretches out casually, Shuhua always by your side, her steps in sync with yours, as if you’ve done this many times before. But it’s the first time, and you’re still trying to figure out exactly what it means. The streets around are relatively quiet for a Friday night, with the distant murmur of other conversations floating in the air, but none of that matters much because, at this moment, it’s just the two of you.
“There’s a nice restaurant nearby, what do you think?” you ask her.
“I think that’s a great idea,” Shuhua replies. “Tell me the truth, were you nervous when you had to save that man?” she suddenly asks, curious to uncover what’s behind the tough lifeguard façade.
You glance at her sideways, a small smile on your lips as you respond.
“Actually, I was waiting for it. Patiently.”
She seems surprised by the answer, as if she expected something more heroic, something more dramatic. But the truth is much simpler.
“Since I completed training, I’ve never allowed myself to relax. I knew that, sooner or later, something like that would happen. It was just a matter of time.”
Shuhua lets out a small laugh, a soft, light sound, and shakes her head.
“That explains why you always seem so tense. I can see the tension in your shoulders.”
You raise an eyebrow, and there’s a playful note in your voice when you reply.
“Maybe if you gave me a massage, I’d feel better.”
“Maybe I will,” she says, and you know that part of her is really considering the idea.
The boardwalk unfolds ahead, a paved path that leads to anywhere you both decide to go. But before you can reach the restaurant you mentioned, something different catches your attention. A soft melody floats through the air, a mix of guitar, saxophone, and that unmistakable bossa nova beat. The kind of sound that makes you stop and listen, that reminds you there’s beauty in the world, even in the simplest things.
“Did you hear that?” you ask, but you don’t wait for an answer. Instead, you follow the sound, taking Shuhua with you until you find the source: a small band set up in the middle of the boardwalk, with simple instruments and an energy that doesn’t need a big audience to thrive.
And that’s when you do something that maybe even you didn’t expect. Pulling Shuhua by the hand, you lead her to the center of a small clearing among the people, a space that seems tailor-made for what you’re about to do next.
“You said I seemed tense,” you say, looking directly at her, a spark of challenge in your eyes. “Let’s see if I’m really that tense.”
And then you start dancing.
It’s nothing elaborate, nothing you need to think too much about. Just you, Shuhua, and the music. Your bodies move together as if there’s an invisible choreography that you both know but have never practiced. The rhythm of the bossa nova is smooth, easy to follow.
Shuhua watches you, her eyes shining with a mix of surprise and admiration.
“You dance well,” she says, and there’s a tone of genuine amazement in her voice.
“I did theater in school,” you reply, spinning her gently, as if proving there’s still more for her to discover about you. “I was in a few musicals. Nothing major.”
She laughs, her head tilted back, her hair falling like a black cascade that seems to absorb the light around. “I didn’t expect that from you.”
“I’m a guy full of surprises,” you say, and you know it’s a little true.
The music continues, and you keep dancing, lost in this moment that belongs only to you two. Every move, every step seems to free her a little more.
When the music finally ends, you and Shuhua stop, a bit out of breath but with smiles on your faces that don’t need any explanation. The small crowd around you applauds softly, and the band moves on to another song, but for the two of you, this moment has passed, it has fulfilled its purpose.
“Shall we go to the restaurant?” you ask, and she agrees, still smiling.
—
The restaurant is a hidden gem, the kind of place you only find if you know exactly what you’re looking for. It's near the boardwalk, just a few steps from the beach, where the sound of the waves mixed with live music creates an atmosphere that makes everything feel lighter, simpler. The tables are made of worn wood, coated with a thin layer of varnish that doesn’t hide the years of use but instead gives each one a kind of rustic charm. The chairs match, creaking slightly every time someone sits down, but no one seems to mind. Everyone is here for the same reason: good food, a fresh breeze, and a night that doesn’t seem in any hurry to end.
The outdoor tables are filled with couples, friends, and tourists who stumbled upon this place by chance. The lights strung between the posts sway gently, bathing everything in a golden glow that makes people’s skin look warmer, more alive. In the center of the restaurant, there's an outdoor grill, where the chef, a robust man with agile hands, flips fish and seafood over the flames with enviable skill.
You and Shuhua choose a table in the corner, close enough to the grill to feel the warmth but far enough that the smell of smoke doesn’t overwhelm anyone. She looks around, taking it all in as if she's absorbing the details to store them in her memory, and you realize that she does this with everything—every moment, every detail is important to her, which only heightens the sense that she’s just passing through.
The waiter, a middle-aged man with an easy smile, brings the menu, and you order without much ceremony: grilled fish, shrimp seasoned with garlic and herbs, and a white wine to go with it. The conversation flows naturally, filled with laughter and glances that last a second longer than necessary. The food is good, simple, and flavorful—the kind of meal that satisfies without pretense.
As dinner progresses, you can’t help but notice how completely comfortable Shuhua seems in her own skin, how she has a keen awareness of who she is and what she wants. She talks about her philosophy studies with a passion that makes even the most abstract concepts feel tangible, real. And as you listen to her, a part of you feels increasingly drawn not just to her obvious beauty but to the depth she reveals with every sentence, every gesture.
At one point, between a sip of wine and a bite of fish, you lean in a little closer, taking advantage of the intimate atmosphere to ask what’s been on your mind since the beginning of the night.
“When you go back home... can we keep in touch? I mean, you could give me your Instagram or something. You’re a cool, interesting girl. I’d like to get to know you better.”
There’s a second of silence, an almost imperceptible pause before Shuhua responds. She carefully places her fork on the plate, and when she looks at you, there’s a softness in her eyes that wasn’t there before. But there’s also something else, something you didn’t expect.
“You’re sweet,” she says, her voice almost too gentle—the kind of voice you use when you’re about to let someone down. “And you seem like the type who does everything for the girl you like. But... I don’t want you to get any feelings, whatever we are right now. This is casual, you know? I just want to make that clear so you don’t get hurt later.”
Her words fall on you like an unexpected weight, crushing the small hope that had been growing inside you since the moment she asked you to take her picture on the beach. You remain silent for a moment, trying to process what she said, trying to mask the disappointment that inevitably begins to set in.
“I understand,” you finally say, forcing a smile that doesn’t reach your eyes, a hollow smile that you hope isn’t as transparent as it feels to you. “Of course. No problem.”
The conversation continues, but there’s a subtle shift in tone, a new layer of distance. You make a conscious effort to keep things light, to not let on that her words affected you more than you’d like to admit. Shuhua, for her part, seems relieved to have laid everything out in the open, and she returns to being the same bright, spontaneous girl she was before, as if what she just said didn’t matter in the slightest.
Apparently.
Dinner finally ends, and as you wait for the bill, Shuhua mentions that she’s staying at a nearby inn. You consider her words for a moment, knowing this is a fork in the road, that whatever you decide next will determine the course of the night.
“My place isn’t far from here,” you say, trying to keep your tone casual. “If you want, you can stay over.”
She looks at you, her eyes shining under the restaurant's soft lights, and for a moment, you think she’s going to refuse. But then she smiles, a small, pleasant smile that seems like it might vanish at any moment.
“Sure,” she replies. “Let’s go.”
And with that, the night’s fate is sealed. You pay the bill, leave a generous tip, and together, you walk out of the restaurant, back to the boardwalk, which now feels even more deserted, more silent. It’s getting late, and the streets are emptying out, except for a few passersby who are in no hurry to get anywhere, and the sea breeze feels a bit cooler, carrying with it the scent of salt and something else, something indefinable that mingles with the excitement and nervousness growing inside you.
The walk to your place is short, and as you walk side by side, not saying much, you can’t help but wonder what exactly will happen when you finally get there. But at the same time, you know that’s a question that can only be answered when the door closes behind you, when words are no longer necessary.
—
Your home is modest but cozy—the kind of place that reflects the lifestyle of someone who spends more time outdoors than within four walls. Shuhua places the drawing of the two of you on the counter, says it’s all yours, and casually begins to observe the surroundings. The walls are a soft beige, and the floor is covered with a simple carpet. The living room is dominated by a comfortable sofa, a TV that seems barely used, and a similarly untouched video game console. There isn’t much in terms of decoration, but there’s a certain order to the chaos, as if everything has its place. A guitar resting in a corner and some posters of classic bands hint at personal tastes that go beyond the lifeguard job.
You offer her wine, a bottle of red that you’d been saving for a special occasion.
You pour the drink, trying to appear calm, but your movements are deliberately slow, as if prolonging something that shouldn’t be prolonged. Shuhua sits on the sofa, her legs gracefully crossed, the dress revealing a bit more of her pale thighs as she adjusts herself. She accepts the glass of wine, but her gaze is firm, determined.
She’s not here for the details of your decor, to watch that new Netflix series, or to talk about the idiotic lives of celebrities; she’s here for you.
"If we're going to do this, let’s do it now," she says after taking a sip of the wine, placing the glass on the coffee table. Her voice is almost a whisper, but it carries a calculated firmness. "Let's not prolong the formalities."
The sound of her voice resonates within you, making your heart race.
"I wasn’t sure you wanted the same thing as me..."
You approach her, setting your glass aside as well, your hands trembling slightly, but it’s desire that guides every movement.
Shuhua doesn’t wait. She leans forward, capturing your lips with hers, a kiss that starts soft but quickly intensifies. Her lips are soft, but there’s an urgency in the way she moves her tongue, exploring every corner of your mouth. Her small, delicate hands slide to the buttons of your shirt, undoing them with impressive dexterity.
She climbs onto your lap, your bodies touching only through the thin fabric of your clothes. The heat that emanates is good, it’s alive, but you want more. Your hands trace the outline of her hips, sliding down to her thighs, pulling her closer. Her response is immediate: a sigh, a small moan that escapes her lips as she presses her body against yours.
Shuhua pulls back slightly, just enough to remove your shirt and toss it aside. Her eyes travel over your body, admiring what she sees.
"You’re really hot," she murmurs. Her fingers trace invisible lines on your skin, exploring every muscle. "I’ve never fucked a lifeguard before."
“Well, I’ve never fucked a philosophy student,” you say. Your hands slide down her back to her waist, where you hold her firmly, pulling her even closer. The fabric of her dress is an obstacle you want to remove, but there’s something about prolonging this moment, savoring every touch.
The kisses continue for a while longer, until, without warning, she slides off your lap and kneels on the floor in front of you, her hands reaching for your pants, fingers swiftly unbuttoning the zipper with a speed that catches you off guard. She pulls your pants and underwear down, freeing your hard cock. You somehow feel vulnerable as Shuhua wraps her hand around the base of your cock, her eyes never leaving yours, a gaze that’s both intimidating and full of desire. With a decisive move, she leans in, taking your cock into her mouth.
The warmth and wetness are familiar, but there’s a newness to it—you’ve never felt a mouth so small, lips so soft, and a tongue so skilled sucking you off before. She turns a simple blowjob into something divine. You moan, your head falling back, fingers tangling in her hair as she continues to work you. Every movement of her tongue is calculated, teasing. She uses slow and fast sucks to give you pleasure. The pressure in your body builds, pleasure taking over your mind.
You want to fuck her.
But Shuhua doesn’t stop. She quickens her pace, the moans escaping her throat as she dedicates herself to the task with a commitment that nearly destroys you. When you feel like you’re on the verge of losing control, you pull her up, panting, and place her back on the sofa. She smiles, satisfied, as if she had been expecting this exact reaction.
Now it’s your turn to worship her with your tongue. You remove your shoes and fully take off the pants that were hanging below your knees. You pull up her dress slightly, and that’s when you realize she wasn’t wearing any panties. The shock of this revelation only intensifies your desire. She’s completely exposed to you, her skin smooth and warm under your hands. You kiss her again, with more hunger, your fingers exploring the wetness between her legs. Shuhua writhes under your touch, small moans escaping her lips as you stimulate her.
"I'm getting so wet," she whispers, her voice trembling with pleasure. There’s a mischievous glint in your eyes; you’re not willing to stop. You make her kneel on the sofa, turning her back to you. Shuhua pulls her dress up to her waist to reveal her perfectly round, juicy ass, practically begging for you to eat her pussy. You position yourself behind her, lowering your body, your mouth now replacing your fingers, exploring her with even more curiosity. Your tongue slides along her pussy.
Shuhua's moans grow louder, more intense, as her hands grip the back of the sofa tightly. When you sense she’s on the verge of exploding, you pull back, watching her with a desire to make her feel even more pleasure.
Then, without warning, she stands up, pulling the dress over her head and tossing it to the floor. She’s completely naked before you, and the desire burns even stronger in your chest. You sit on the sofa, and she climbs onto your lap, guiding your cock inside her with an ease that makes you sigh.
Her warmth envelops you completely. She lets out a small moan, closing her eyes for a moment, absorbing every inch as she settles. Her hands rest on your shoulders, nails lightly digging into your skin as she begins to move.
She starts at a slow pace, almost as if savoring the sensation, but soon she picks up speed, her body moving with a determination that leaves you breathless. Her tits sway gently with each movement, and you can’t resist the temptation to wrap one of her nipples in your mouth, sucking intensely. Shuhua lets out a louder moan, tilting her head back.
"You like this, don’t you? You like it when I ride your cock," she murmurs, her voice melting with the pleasure she feels. She smiles provocatively, her eyes locked on yours as she continues to move at a rhythm that drives you crazier by the second.
"Yeah, a lot," you respond through gritted teeth, your hands gripping her hips tightly, helping her maintain the rhythm. The feeling of being inside her, warm and wet, makes you crave more, much more.
Shuhua leans forward, her lips almost touching yours, her breath hot and quick against your mouth.
"Then fuck me harder," she whispers, the provocation in her voice as clear as day.
The urgency in her words awakens something wild inside you. Your fingers tangle in her hair, pulling her into a fierce kiss. In response, she rides you faster, moaning against your mouth, the sound vibrating through you as you increase the pace. Your hands move to her ass, squeezing and urging Shuhua to ride with even more intensity.
The pleasure makes your head spin, the room around you seeming to disappear, leaving only the sound of your bodies colliding, her moans growing louder and more desperate.
"Just like that," she moans. "Fuck me hard! Don’t stop, don’t stop."
The pleasure is overwhelming, guiding you to a speed that makes every touch feel more intense than it should. Shuhua writhes on top of you, sweat dripping down her skin as she gives in completely to the sensation. Her face is flushed, her eyes half-closed, and she bites her lower lip, trying to stifle the moans that escape her lips, but failing at the task.
"You’re going to make me come," she whispers, the words broken up by moans. Her gaze is a mix of lust and vulnerability, as if she’s at the mercy of the pleasure you’re giving her.
"Then cum for me," you respond, your voice low and laden with desire. Your hands grip her hips firmly. "Cum on my cock, babe!"
Shuhua responds to the command, her movements becoming erratic as the climax nears. She lets out a scream, her whole body trembling as pleasure overtakes her, and you feel the contractions around you, each pulse intensifying the pleasure already consuming you.
"Oh, God..." She gasps, her nails scratching your shoulders as her body writhes on yours. She’s completely lost in the moment, her face a mask of ecstasy as she continues to move, prolonging the pleasure as much as she can.
When it finally seems like she can’t take any more, Shuhua stops, panting, her eyes shining with satisfaction as she gazes at you.
"You made me cum so hard," she murmurs, a lascivious smile playing on her lips.
You smile back and reply:
"But I’m not done with you yet."
Before she has a chance to fully recover, you firmly grab her by the hips and lift her into the air, your bodies still connected.
Shuhua lets out a surprised gasp, her arms wrapping around your neck as you lift her. Her legs tighten around your waist, her fingers digging into your back as she feels you moving inside her again. The sensation is deeper in this position, each thrust pushing you further inside, making her moan loudly in your ear. Your bodies are pressed together, your sweat mingling as you fuck her in the air, your movements decisive and full of desire.
"Oh, yes... like that!" she moans, her voice trembling with pleasure. You can feel how intense the sensation is for her, the way her body clenches around yours, responding to every thrust. "Fuck, you're so hot!"
Each movement is stronger than the last, the sound of your bodies colliding echoing through the room, mingling with Shuhua's moans and sighs.
You keep her in the air, her legs around your waist, as you quicken the pace, your thrusts becoming more urgent, more desperate. Each movement intensifies the sensation in your body. Shuhua is completely lost in the moment, her face buried in your neck, her moans muffled but impossible to contain. She bites lightly into your shoulder, a mix of pain and pleasure that makes you gasp heavily, feeling her tremble as she cums again, her contractions increasing the pressure around you.
But you don't stop. Even when you feel her body trembling, her breath hot against your skin, you carry her to the table, driven by desire. With a firm movement, you set her down on the ground, still holding her by the hips as she leans against the table. Shuhua arches her back, and without much delay, you start fucking her again, the new position making her let out a deep moan, pleasure once again taking over her.
"I'm not stopping until you cum again," you murmur in her ear, your voice deep and filled with desire.
"Yes! Make me cum again! Mmm, so good," she responds, her voice completely surrendered, almost pleading. Shuhua places her hands on the table, her body leaning forward as you take her from behind. The sight of her in this position, completely exposed and vulnerable, makes your desire explode.
Shuhua moans loudly, her head falling forward as you fuck her hard, the table creaking under the intensity. Each thrust is powerful. She holds onto the table tightly, her moans turning into screams as the pleasure builds.
When you feel she's about to cum again, you turn her to face you. Shuhua smiles, panting, her eyes shining. She climbs onto the table, lying on her back, her legs spreading for you in a sight that almost makes you want to eat her pussy again.
She exposes herself completely, offering herself to you.
"Come on, fuck me until I can't take it anymore!" she says, her voice low and dripping with lust.
You position yourself between her legs, feeling the heat and wetness of her pussy already dripping down her thighs, then you start penetrating her again. Shuhua cries out, her moans reverberating through the room as you fuck her hard. The table shakes under your combined weight, the intense sounds of pleasure filling the air.
You fuck her with everything you've got, each thrust more intense than the last, the pleasure building to a point of no return. The rhythm between you becomes more frantic, desperate, until you bring her to another orgasm. Shuhua is completely lost in the sensation, her eyes closed, her mouth open in a cry of pleasure. The heat of her body, the feeling of her sweaty skin against yours, the sound of her moans—it all drives you wild.
Your hand slides down to Shuhua's belly, feeling her tense muscles, and you realize you're on the brink of exploding.
"I'm gonna cum," you warn, your voice cut off by the effort to stay in control. But Shuhua doesn't want you to hold back.
"Then cum," she responds. "Cum in me, I want to feel you."
Those words are what make you lose control. You let out a deep moan, your whole body trembling as you finally give in to the climax. With one last deep thrust, you bury yourself inside her, and then, with a quick motion, you pull out, jerking off as the pleasure overtakes you.
The first spurt of cum covers Shuhua's belly, hot and thick, spreading across her pale skin. She lets out a low moan at the feeling of the warmth on her skin, her eyes closed as she absorbs the sensation. You continue, each pulse sending more cum onto her, covering her abdomen, the base of her tits, until there's nothing left to give.
When the last spasm passes, you hold the base of your cock, feeling it pulse lightly, still sensitive. Shuhua opens her eyes, watching you with a provocative smile.
"Is there still more in there?" she asks, her voice soft but full of mischief.
You smile, tired but not done.
"Maybe a little more," you reply, leaning down to rub the head of your cock on her thigh, spreading the remaining cum on her soft skin. The sensation is electric, a mix of pleasure and sensitivity that makes you shiver.
Shuhua watches every movement, biting her lip as you spread the cum on her thigh, mingling with the sweat that glistens under the soft light of the room.
"Yes, paint me all over," she whispers, her voice low and filled with desire. "It's so delicious to feel you like this, hot, still turned on by me."
She reaches out, her fingers gently caressing the head of your cock, still sensitive, and you feel a shiver run down your spine.
"I could do this all day," she murmurs, her tone a blend of sweetness and malice. "I love seeing how you react to my touch, how you moan helplessly with every caress."
You can't help but close your eyes and sigh as she presses gently, her thumb grazing the frenulum as you continue to rub the head of your cock on her skin.
"Don't stop," you plead, your voice hoarse, almost desperate. Her touch is both torturous and pleasurable, a mix that makes you crave more, even after you've been spent.
Shuhua smiles, satisfied with your reaction, and continues, teasing you until every part of your body is trembling with the intensity of the moment. Finally, she stops, her fingers still sliding softly across your skin, and she looks at you with a gaze that weakens you before her.
"It's been a long time since I fucked someone with this much passion," she comments, her voice soft and filled with complicity. "You really wanted me, didn't you?"
—
You wake up to the barely perceptible sound of her footsteps on the wooden floor, the sun seeping through the half-closed curtains, filling the room with a soft, golden light. The warmth of her body still lingers in the bed, her presence imprinted on the rumpled sheets and on the pillow where her scent has mixed with yours. You’re not sure exactly what woke you—maybe it was the sound of her breathing, or the slow movement of her bare feet, trying to avoid the spots where the floor creaks. Maybe it was the absence of her body’s weight beside you.
She’s there, at the edge of the bed, wearing one of your shirts thrown over her body, long enough to cover halfway down her thighs. She’s not really trying to escape, not truly. But there’s a carefulness in her every movement, a hesitation that screams of an attempt to slip away without making a sound. She’s leaving, and you feel a pang of fear, something you didn’t want to feel, something you didn’t expect.
You watch her for a moment, her loose hair falling in waves undone by nights of sleep, the curve of her back outlined beneath the soft fabric of your shirt. She’s facing away from you, and you realize she hasn’t even noticed that you’re awake.
With minimal effort, you slide out of bed, your feet touching the cold floor as you quietly approach her from behind. And then, before she can react, before she can think of really fleeing, you wrap your arms around her, pulling her close, closer than you should, as if proximity could make her stay, as if your touch could be enough to anchor her there.
“Stay a little longer,” you murmur against her neck, your lips brushing the warm, soft skin as your hands glide over her waist, holding her with a need that doesn’t make sense to you. “Just a little longer.”
She flinches for a second, her body tense against yours, but then she relaxes, sighing as if exhaling all the resistance she had stored within herself. “I can’t,” she whispers, but her voice lacks conviction, as if she’s only saying it because it’s what she thinks she should say.
“Of course you can,” you insist, moving your hands to her shoulders, massaging gently, while your lips continue to explore her neck, the curve of her jaw, the spot where her skin is most sensitive. “Just a little longer, and then I’ll make breakfast. Like a good host.”
She lets out a soft chuckle as she leans back, surrendering to the warmth, to the moment, even if only for a fleeting instant.
“You know this isn’t right,” she murmurs, but her hands find yours, and she intertwines her fingers with yours, pulling you back to the bed.
“Maybe,” you admit, as you lie down together, her body curled up in your arms, her breath mingling with yours. “But who cares?”
She sighs again, as if giving up on fighting, and you stay there, lying together, exchanging gentle caresses, stolen kisses, and embraces that should mean less than they actually do. Her body fits perfectly against yours, and for a moment, everything feels right, everything feels exactly as it should be. But then she pulls away, just a little, enough to look you in the eyes, and there’s a seriousness in her gaze that you hadn’t noticed before.
“You can’t keep doing this,” she says, her voice firmer, more determined. “I don’t want you to get hurt, okay?”
You look at her, trying to understand what she’s saying, trying to decipher what’s behind those words.
“I won’t get hurt,” you respond, even though you know it’s not entirely true. “I just want you to stay.”
“And that’s what worries me,” she whispers, before getting out of bed again, the shirt still loosely draped over her body. “Come on, get up. I want coffee.”
You obey, even though part of you wants to drag her back to bed, keep her there, where everything seems simpler. But you get up, wearing only the sweatpants that were tossed beside the bed, and head to the kitchen to make breakfast. The smell of fresh coffee and toast fills the air as you fry some eggs and prepare slices of bread with butter and jam.
When you set the table, she’s already dressed in the dress from the night before, sitting at the table, watching you with a look that’s both curious and cautious. As if she’s trying to decide what to do with you, with what you two are—or aren’t.
“So,” you begin, as you sit down next to her, passing her a mug of coffee. “Tell me more about yourself. What do you do besides studying philosophy? Seriously, where are you from, anyway?”
She smiles, but it’s a fleeting smile, almost as if she’s trying to protect herself.
“It doesn’t matter where I’m from. And I don’t do much,” she responds, shrugging. “I travel when I can. I like to read. Sometimes I write.”
“Write?” you ask, intrigued. “What do you write?”
“Poetry, mostly,” she replies, but her tone is vague, as if she doesn’t want to delve into the subject.
You realize you won’t get much more out of her, so you change the topic, talking about light things, things of no importance. But you can’t shake the feeling that she’s keeping her distance, hiding something, and that only makes you want to know more.
“I want to see you later,” you say, almost without thinking, as you bring the coffee cup to your lips. “What do you think?”
She smiles again, but this time her smile is a bit more genuine.
“I’ll be the one to see you,” she responds, a sparkle in her eyes. “When I have time.”
That’s not what you wanted to hear, but before you can respond, she stands up, grabbing her bag and getting ready to leave. You follow her to the door, your heart racing, knowing you need to say something, anything.
“Shuhua,” you begin, hesitant. “I like you.”
She pauses, her hand on the doorknob, and turns to you, her eyes filled with a mix of tenderness and something you can’t quite identify. She shakes her head slightly, a small smile on her lips.
“I know,” she says softly. “But you’d better stop.”
And with that, she opens the door and leaves, leaving you alone in what’s left of a morning that should have been more than just another fleeting moment. And as you watch her walk away, a part of you knows she’s right, that maybe it’s better to stop. But another part, the part that still smells her on your sheets, that still tastes her on your lips, knows that you won’t be able to.
—
You’re sitting outside the lifeguard tower, on a wooden stool that always creaks a little, with the sun beating down on the sea and the beer cans stacked in a corner. Fourth? Fifth? Who’s really counting? The salt in the air, the heat. You’re relaxed, or at least you try to be. The sea foam dissolves into small waves, seagulls crying out as usual, and you almost forget everything. Almost. Until the sound of footsteps on the sand makes you open your eyes, and you see, like a ray of sun directly in your eyes, your father, arriving all beaming, that smile plastered on his face that you know well, almost a mask. But you know it’s real.
“Son, how many times do I have to tell you not to drink on the job?” he says, still smiling, but with a tone that can’t be ignored.
“I’m fine, I’m not drunk.” You respond, taking the can from your mouth and looking at him, defiant. You see the shadow of that smile fade a little, but he still keeps the sparkle in his eyes.
“If you have to do a rescue now, there’d be two drowned instead of one. That’s not what you were trained for, that’s not what your mother...”
He stops before finishing the sentence, as if the words dry up in his mouth. You look at him and feel that familiar discomfort. The pain that comes like an undertow, silent, but it pulls you down, without warning.
“I don’t care about drowning, honestly. Lifeguards are also at risk of drowning, you know. It’s just part of the job, I guess.” The words come out easier than you expected, but they hang in the air like cigarette smoke, hard to dissipate.
Your father looks at you, and the smile vanishes completely. He comes closer, crouching down to your eye level.
“What’s happening with you?”
You shake your head, trying to escape, but he keeps looking, with that piercing gaze. And then you give in, just a little.
“How do you do it? How do you stay like this, cheerful, even after she… left?”
He understands immediately, his expression softens, a little sad, but still firm.
“Because one day I’ll see her again.”
You look at him, unable to believe how easily he talks about it.
“And until then? How do you cope?”
“Until then, I look forward to that day.” He puts his hand on your shoulder and pulls you out of the cabin, the sun burning even more outside. He points to the pier, where the waves break gently, the sea calm, almost as if it’s waiting for something. “Your mother took me there one night, when we were young. She told me that if our souls were ever separated, we could meet again there, when the moon was full. Its light would make a silver bridge over the sea, and no matter where we were, we could reunite on that night.”
You stay silent, digesting every word, feeling the truth, heavy and luminous like the sun. That piece of history you never knew, a connection that was always there, but only now you can see. He looks at you again, a small smile at the corner of his lips.
“She never told me that.”
“There are many things we don’t know until we’re ready to know.” He gives your shoulder a light pat, something he’s always done to show he’s there, that he understands you.
And for the first time in a long while, you feel better. Just a little. But it’s enough to face the rest of the day.
—
You're walking along the boardwalk, with that killer sun reflecting off every piece of glass, metal, and tanned skin around. Your sunglasses cover more than just your eyes; they cover any trace of expression you don’t want to show. You pretend you’re just like everyone else, but every step, every movement is rehearsed, calculated to appear as relaxed as possible. The sea breeze carries the smell of salt and fried food, but you barely notice. Your vision is the only sense consciously operating, searching for one thing, or rather, one person.
And then, like a mirage in the desert, you see her. Shuhua, the girl of your thoughts. The wide-brimmed beach hat casting a shadow that draws half her face, her hair falling like a veil underneath. She’s smiling, waving, a vision amidst the chaos of half-naked bodies and hysterical laughter. You raise your hand to wave back, but then, right in the middle of it, the unexpected happens. A group of girls—bronzed bodies, bikinis too small, laughter too loud—bumps into you. They smile, toss their hair back, one of them even does that rehearsed laugh, like she’s in a summer commercial.
They start to circle you, flirting, their eyes lingering and hungry, their fingers almost touching your arms, your shoulders, inviting you to show them the beach in a way only you could.
“Hey, lifeguard, how about showing us where the best spot on the beach is?” one of them says, her voice full of insinuation.
You feel the heat rise, but it’s not the sun. It’s not the attraction you’d normally feel at another time. It’s not desire. It’s discomfort, the urgency to get away, to remove this obstacle. You look at Shuhua, see that she’s stopped, and for a second, just for a second, you think she’s going to turn around and leave. And that scares you more than the thought of having to redo lifeguard training.
“Sorry, girls, but I’m busy.” You spit the phrase out like you’re spitting sand from your mouth. A quick smile and you practically flee from the group, who giggle and make comments around you, but you no longer care.
You hurry toward Shuhua, and when you finally get close enough, she lets out a soft, almost imperceptible laugh.
“You seem to have a lot of fans around here,” she says, teasing, but with a tone that hides a hint of curiosity.
“They’re nothing, less than nothing,” you reply quickly, maybe too quickly. “I was looking for you.” And it’s not a lie. Not at all.
She smiles, her eyes narrowing under the hat, and for a moment, you think she really believes you.
“So, you found me. I was heading for lunch. Want to join me?”
As if she needed to ask.
“Sure,” you respond, with an enthusiasm even you don’t recognize.
As you walk to the restaurant, the tension in your shoulders that you always carry seems to dissolve a bit. Maybe it’s the sun, or the way she laughs at something you don’t even know. Maybe it’s just the fact that she’s here, beside you, and doesn’t seem to want to be anywhere else.
In the restaurant, the menu is simple, but who cares? Her eyes are on you, and you realize, for the first time, that she’s a bit smitten. In a way that makes your chest swell a bit because you know, without needing words, that she’s finding you interesting. Maybe more than she should.
“Do you have plans for later?” you ask, trying to sound casual as the food is placed on the table.
She looks up, that look that seems to pierce through you, but in a good way.
“Depends. What do you have in mind?”
You release the smile you’ve been holding back, the one you rarely use but know works.
“How about an ATV ride? At night. The beach is beautiful at night.”
She tilts her head, the hat almost falling, but it stays in place.
“Is that allowed?” she asks, but there’s a hint of mischief in her voice that says she knows the answer.
“No one needs to know.” Your answer is as quick as the beats of your heart.
She pretends to think, her eyes gleaming with a playful amusement you could almost touch.
“I think I can take the risk. Where and when?”
You already have the whole plan in your head. The meeting point, the path you’ll take. Everything is already planned.
“At nine, at the lifeguard station near the pier. I promise it’ll be worth it.”
She smiles, that smile that makes everything lighter, and you feel… complete.
“Then it’s a date.”
And just like that, with this simple nod from fate, you have the night planned. Something that calms the anxiety churning in your gut. Because this girl, this girl named Shuhua, she’s more than just a summer fling. Even if she never knows it. Even if you never say it. She’s the now, and for you, the now is all that matters.
—
Nine o'clock. The night breeze licks the beach, carrying the scent of salt, and the sound of the waves is the only thing grounding you to reality. The ATV is already waiting, and so are you. Adrenaline courses through your veins, mixed with a dose of anxiety. You wonder if she’ll show up. If tonight will be as good as you imagined a thousand times during the day.
And then, as if on cue, Shuhua appears on the horizon. The beach hat is left somewhere far away, her hair loose, blowing in the wind. She smiles in that way that illuminates even the darkest corners of your mind. She approaches with a confidence that makes the ground under your feet feel more solid, and you realize the wait was worth it.
“I hope this ATV is as fun as you promised,” she jokes, eyeing the sturdy machine like it’s a new toy.
“I promise you won’t regret it,” you say, helping her onto the ATV. She settles in behind you, her hands sliding around your waist until they find a comfortable position.
And then, without much thought, you accelerate.
The ATV surges forward across the sand, the wheels kicking up fine clouds that dissipate into the air. The engine roars, cutting through the night’s silence, and you feel Shuhua press against your back, an automatic reflex that makes your heart beat faster.
As the ATV picks up speed, the wind starts to whip across your faces, and Shuhua, without any warning, lets out a scream of pure joy. A sound that bursts into the night, echoing on the beach, and makes you smile uncontrollably. “Faster!” she shouts, her voice blending with the noise of the engine and the waves.
You obey, because, damn, how could you not? You push the throttle, feeling the ATV almost lift off the sand. The wind cuts across your face, almost painful, but it’s a pain you want to prolong. Shuhua keeps shouting, laughing with a freedom you can’t quite understand but desperately want to feel. And it’s as if, for a few minutes, the two of you are the only living beings in that slice of the world. Just you, the night, and the sea.
Eventually, you slow down because even freedom has its limits. Then you find a spot where the sand seems finer, almost white under the moonlight. You turn off the engine, and for a moment, everything returns to absolute silence. But it’s a good silence, for now, it’s good.
Shuhua climbs off the ATV, her eyes sparkling with excitement. She takes a few steps on the sand, looking around the beach. “Look,” she says, pointing to something on the ground. You move closer and see that they’re crabs, dozens of them, emerging from the sand and scattering across the beach like a small horde of creatures escaping from a nightmare. But there’s nothing threatening about it. Just nature in motion.
You both watch in silence for a while, each lost in your own thoughts, until you decide to break the silence.
“What did you do during the day?” you ask, trying to sound casual.
She hesitates, as if searching for the right answer.
“I went to the aquarium… and to a museum,” she finally responds, but something in the way she says it tells you there’s more she’s not revealing.
“Oh, cool,” you say, pretending not to notice. “There’s an institution nearby where kids learn to play instruments and make crafts. I thought about taking you there tomorrow. It’s amazing what they can do.”
“I don’t think that’s a good idea,” she says, but without the certainty you expected.
“We're talking about the last day,” you reply, and the sincerity in your voice makes her waver. You can see she’s considering it, weighing the options in her head.
She sighs, maybe accepting the inevitable.
“Okay, but only because it’s the last day,” she agrees, and you feel a small victory inside.
But before you can savor the moment, she changes the subject.
“I’m hungry. Take me somewhere that doesn’t serve seafood, please.”
You chuckle because, of course. Just because you’re at the beach doesn’t mean you have to eat seafood until you’re sick of it.
“How about pizza? There’s a pizzeria close by.”
“Hmm, great choice.”
And then, without further words, you help her back onto the ATV, and you head toward the city. The engine rumbles, the waves keep crashing on the beach, and you realize that, for a brief moment, everything feels right.
—
The pizzeria is one of those places that seems to have been founded alongside the city. The kind of place where the floor tiles have decades of history from people coming and going, dragging their feet without caring about what they leave behind. The walls are covered with black-and-white photos from old times, local landmarks, and some faded images of retired football players. Soft yellow lights, encased in rusty metal lamps, cast a tired glow over the wooden tables, where checkered tablecloths are worn from use.
The smell is a mix of melted cheese, tomato sauce, and something you can only describe as nostalgia. An old jukebox in the corner plays a melody no one is really listening to, but that somehow completes the scene. Shuhua chooses a table near the window, maybe to look outside, maybe to avoid having to look directly into your eyes. You're not sure. But it doesn’t matter either.
You order a pepperoni pizza because it’s the safest choice, and she agrees. While you wait, the waiter, who’s probably been there since the place opened, brings two beers without even asking. He must know it’s the only thing worth drinking here.
Shuhua fiddles with the rim of the bottle, her long, slender fingers sliding over the cold glass surface. There’s a nervousness in her movements, but you’re not sure if it’s because of you or because she’s with you.
You decide to break the tension… and ask what's been on your mind since morning.
“So, how long have you two been together?” Your voice sounds more normal than you expected.
She looks at you, confused.
“What do you mean?”
You take a sip of the beer, trying to appear relaxed.
“You and your boyfriend. How long have you been together?”
She hesitates, her eyes flickering from side to side as if searching for an invisible escape. Then, something changes. She gives up the lie she was about to tell.
“How did you find out?”
You lean forward, feeling the weight of the moment.
“I’m not stupid, Shuhua. It’s the only explanation for the way you’re acting. When we’re together, sometimes you look around as if you’re expecting someone to see you. That’s not paranoia. It’s guilt.”
Shuhua smiles, but it’s a humorless smile, something forced.
“Besides being a hot lifeguard, you’re also perceptive.”
You don’t care about the compliment.
“How long have you been together?”
She sighs, as if tired of hiding something that shouldn’t even be hidden.
“Since high school.”
Her words fall heavy between you, like a revealed secret that should never have been shared. You feel a pang of something, maybe jealousy, maybe anger, but you don’t let it show.
“Do you love him?” The question comes out before you can think.
She looks directly into your eyes, defiant.
“What difference does it make?”
You don’t look away.
“Answer honestly.”
A bitter laugh escapes her, laced with irony.
“It doesn’t matter what I answer. You still want to fuck me tonight, don’t you?”
Her bluntness stings, but you stand your ground.
“Why isn’t he traveling with you?”
She looks out the window, maybe trying to remember something good about the boyfriend she left behind.
“He’s taking care of his mother. Post-surgery. She had a mastectomy. It’s not serious, she’s fine, but she needs assistance. He didn’t want me to cancel the trip just because of him.”
You nod, not really knowing what to say. Then, you take a chance on another question.
“Why are you doing this?”
She hesitates, as if struggling with something inside her, and doesn’t answer.
“When did you figure it out?”
You shrug.
“This morning, when you left my place. I spent the whole morning thinking about you, about the night and the conversation we had, and eventually, I realized.”
Shuhua seems to absorb this information, and then she asks you something you didn’t expect.
“What does that make me?” You don’t have a ready answer. But she continues. “Are you still as interested as before?”
You lean forward, your eyes fixed on hers.
“At this moment, nothing else matters. I’m yours.”
She lowers her gaze to the table, the tips of her fingers sliding along the wood.
“Am I bad for doing this? You must think I’m a dirty person.”
You take her hand.
“I don’t care. I just.. don’t care. Shuhua, I like you so much, and if you like me too, that’s enough.”
Silence falls between you. This time it’s heavy, full of things that corrode, but somehow relieved by at least being shared.
Shuhua looks at you, her eyes softening a little.
“Take me to your place.”
You nod, saying nothing more. The waiter brings the pizza, but the hunger has been replaced by something greater. The bill is paid, the exit is quick, and the night air of the beach greets you like a cold embrace.
You realize that what’s happening is something you’ll never fully understand. But for now, you let yourself believe that maybe tomorrow you’ll understand a little better. Because believing is better than nothing.
—
You both enter the house in a burst of desire, your bodies colliding as if drawn together by an irresistible force. The kisses are urgent, hungry, a battle of tongues and teeth that almost makes you forget to close the door. Hands slide everywhere, eliciting moans and gasps of pleasure as they desperately try to rid you of the remaining barriers of fabric between you. Her breath is hot against your face, and her scent—a mix of soft perfume and pure excitement—invades your senses, making your heart pound in your chest.
Wasting no time, you gently push her down to the floor, your lips still locked on hers but soon trailing off to explore her neck, jawline, every inch of exposed skin you can reach. The salty taste of her skin, mixed with the heat radiating from her body, only heightens your desire. You feel her squirm beneath you, her nails scratching your back through your shirt in a desperate gesture.
There’s a brief moment where you both separate just enough to remove the remaining clothes. The sound of fabric being torn off, the muffled moans as eager hands explore each other's bodies, all blend into a cacophony of desire. When you’re finally both naked, the sight of Shuhua lying there, breathless, her eyes half-closed with pleasure and anticipation, is enough to drive you wild.
She lies back again, spreading her legs, offering herself to you without hesitation. The sight of her pussy, wet and throbbing, makes your cock throb with anticipation. Without wasting time, you lower yourself, your hot breath against her sensitive skin, before sliding your tongue slowly between her pussy lips, savoring every drop of pleasure. The taste is intoxicating, something that makes you want more, much more.
Shuhua arches her back, pushing her pelvis against your mouth as her hands tangle in your hair, pulling hard, urging you to go deeper.
“This feels so good,” she moans, her voice thick with need, encouraging you to plunge your tongue even deeper, exploring every corner, every curve, alternating with kisses on the insides of her thighs where the skin is thin and sensitive. Shuhua's moans grow in intensity, her hips moving in a rhythm that tries to guide yours.
“Fuck me,” she begs, her voice interrupted by moans. “Now, please, fuck me.”
You kneel, your hands gripping her ankles firmly as you lift her, opening her completely for you. With a deep thrust, you enter her, and the moan of pleasure that escapes her lips echoes through the room. Shuhua’s warmth envelops you, every internal muscle contracting around you, pulling you deeper, harder. You don’t stop, each thrust more intense than the last, the sound of your bodies colliding filling the space.
“Let me ride you,” she pleads, her eyes shining with a mix of lust and determination. Without hesitation, you lie down on the floor, the carpet almost cold compared to the heat emanating from Shuhua as she straddles you.
Her movements are slow at first, sensual, almost torturous. She moves like a goddess, each undulation of her body perfectly choreographed to maximize pleasure. Shuhua's moans intensify, her hands gripping yours as a point of support.
The sensation of her pussy, incredibly wet and slippery around you, makes you close your eyes. You feel every pulse, every contraction, and listen to every moan with attention. The pleasure is an electric current that runs through both of you, feeding off each other in an endless cycle of desire.
She leans over you, her small tits pressed against your chest, her face buried in your neck as you start pounding into her with force, each movement drawing loud moans from Shuhua. The sounds she makes—a mix of pleasure and agony—only increase the intensity of what you feel.
“Fuck me harder,” she whispers in your ear, the tone almost desperate. “I want to feel you deeper, I want to be completely yours.”
Her words are like gasoline on the fire of your desire. You increase the pace, each thrust deeper, more brutal, as if trying to merge with her, to become one. Shuhua's moans turn into screams, her body writhing beneath you as she surrenders completely to the pleasure.
Then, with a moan filled with pleasure and vulnerability, she whispers in your ear, “I want you to fuck my ass. It'll be my first time, so do it carefully.”
Her request is both shocking and exciting. You watch her as she turns over, getting on all fours, offering herself to you in a way that is both submissive and powerful. The sight of her small, tight ass makes your cock throb with renewed strength. You lower yourself, gently licking around the opening, exploring the texture and taste of her, feeling her tremble beneath you.
Every moan that Shuhua lets out as you lick her, preparing her, is an encouragement to go further. You wet your tongue thoroughly, rubbing it against the sensitive skin until she is completely lubricated. Then, slowly, you begin to insert a finger, feeling the initial resistance and hearing her moan, a mix of pain and pleasure.
“It hurts,” she admits, her voice broken, “but keep going… I like it.”
You move carefully, adding more lubrication with your tongue before introducing a second finger. Her ass gradually adjusts, the moans turning into deeper sighs of pleasure. With each movement, you feel her resistance decrease, her body adapting, opening up to you.
“Put your cock in,” she finally asks, her voice almost pleading. “I want to feel you all inside me.”
You position the head of your cock against the tight entrance, pressing slowly as you watch her every reaction. Her ass is incredibly tight, and you feel every inch slowly being swallowed by the warm, pulsing flesh.
“You're so tight,” you say, your voice thick with desire, as you push deeper, slowly allowing her to adjust.
“More,” she moans, her entire body trembling as you finally bury yourself completely inside her. The sensation is overwhelming, the heat and pressure around you intensifying every nerve, every fiber of your being.
You start to move, slowly at first, but soon Shuhua starts asking for more.
“Faster,” she begs, her tone urgent. “Fuck me faster, please.”
You comply with her request, increasing the pace, occasionally pulling out to lubricate in her pussy a bit before putting it back in her ass, which clenches tightly around you. Each movement brings a new explosion of pleasure. Her moans turn into screams, her voice hoarse as she nears climax.
“I’m almost there,” she warns, her fingers digging into the carpet as she holds on against the pleasure consuming her.
When she finally announces she’s going to cum, you don’t stop, continuing to pound into her with all the strength you can muster. She screams as the orgasm hits her, her whole body trembling violently as pleasure overtakes her, and you feel every pulse, every contraction around your cock.
Soon after, you feel your own climax approaching.
“I’m gonna cum,” you warn, your voice tense with anticipation.
“Cum inside me,” she begs, her voice full of desire. “Fill my ass with your cum, babe.”
Her words are enough to push you over the edge. You feel an overwhelming wave of pleasure as you finally explode inside her, filling her with everything you have. She feels every pulse of your cock, every hot jet filling her deeply. The pleasure is so intense that your vision blurs, the sound of your heart pounding in your ears as you continue to move, prolonging the moment as long as you can.
As you’re still catching your breath, she slowly leans forward, spreading her cheeks with her hands. Your cum begins to drip out, a thick white line trailing down towards her pussy.
Shuhua looks back at you, smiling.
“Mmm, you came so much inside me,” she says, her voice soft and full of contentment, as you watch your cum drip from her. “I didn’t know this would feel so good… Fuck, I loved it.”
—
You’re floating between sleep and wakefulness, remembering what it felt like to hold Shuhua, her body pressed against yours as if she were an extension of you. The morning light is starting to filter into the room, but you don’t want to fully wake up. You’d rather linger in the haze of dreams, reliving the sensation of her skin on yours, her dark hair splayed across your chest, her scent, her sleepy voice—everything that made up that intimate moment.
You recall how she whispered, almost shyly, “I’m scared to go home.” Her voice was fragile, as if it might break. You didn’t say anything, just ran your hand through her hair, trying to brush away her fear with a simple touch. In that moment, everything seemed possible. Maybe she would stay. Maybe you’d have more time.
But now, on the threshold between dream and reality, you feel the emptiness beside you. You turn your head and open your eyes. She’s moving quietly around the room, putting on the clothes scattered on the floor, just as she did yesterday. And once again, you’re not willing to let her leave like this, as if she’d never been in your home, in your clothes, in your bed.
“Hey,” you murmur, your voice still hoarse from sleep. She stops, her shirt halfway on, and looks at you, her expression a mix of surprise and something like guilt. Before she can react, you get up, slip out of bed, and reach her. Your arms wrap around her waist, pulling her back into the warmth of the bed. She lets out a sigh, caught between discomfort and desire. “Stay a little longer,” you whisper against her neck, your lips finding a soft spot that makes her shiver. “At least until breakfast.”
She closes her eyes, as if trying to find the strength to resist.
“I can’t,” she replies, her voice wavering.
“Of course you can.” You turn her to face you, her eyes meeting yours, looking darker than they did yesterday. “Just a little longer.”
She shakes her head, pulling away, creating a distance that irritates you.
“I’ll eat somewhere else,” she says, her voice firmer now.
You feel the tension rising. Something’s different.
“What happened, Shuhua? Why are you acting like this?”
She turns her face away, avoiding your gaze.
“It’s none of your business.”
Then you remember that, at some point during the night, when you were asleep, a phone rang in the living room, the sound so faint that you almost thought you were dreaming. But it was real. Terribly real.
“Of course it is. We had something here… I know you feel the same.” Your voice rises, you can’t help it. “When will I see you again?”
“Maybe later,” she replies, almost automatically, as if saying what she thinks you want to hear.
You feel nauseous.
“Later, where? What time?”
She moves toward the door, her hands trembling slightly as she tries to grab her bag.
“Anywhere. Anytime.”
“That’s not an answer,” you say, following her, frustration starting to replace what was once concern. “I thought we had something.”
She stops at the door, her hand already on the handle. She looks at you, her expression a mix of sadness and determination.
“We did. But I can’t… I can’t keep doing this.”
“Doing what? Being happy?” you snap, knowing the words will hurt her, but unable to stop yourself.
She closes her eyes, taking a deep breath before opening the door.
“You don’t understand. And I can’t explain it to you.”
She leaves, and you stand there, in the living room, staring at the door as it closes, listening to the sound of her footsteps fading away on the street. The feeling of emptiness is like a black hole, sucking all the light and warmth out of the morning.
—
You're back at work, with sand sticking to your feet as you guide a group of tourists, all sunburnt and wearing ridiculous souvenir caps.
“What kind of creature is that, anyway?” one of them asks, curious, pointing at the dead animal on the sand.
“Look, folks,” you begin, trying to sound more authoritative than annoyed, “This is a jellyfish. Under no circumstances should you touch it. We're in jellyfish season, so they’re everywhere, and they’re not exactly friendly. Be careful if you’re going into the water.”
The tourists murmur among themselves, some raising worried eyebrows, others continuing to snap photos of the creature. You shake your head, a little weary of the routine, and turn to head back to the lifeguard station. As you walk, the waves break gently on the shore, a sound you usually find relaxing, but today it’s just another background noise amplifying your anxiety.
You push open the door to the cabin and barely step inside when a voice explodes beside you. “Boo!”
Your heart nearly jumps out of your chest. You spin around sharply, only to find your dad laughing like a kid who just pulled off a prank. He’s standing there, hands on his hips, wearing that smile that, somehow, never seems to age.
“Geez, Dad!” you mutter, trying not to show how much he really scared you. “Are you trying to give me a heart attack or what?”
Your dad just laughs louder, the kind of laugh that always fills the room with energy.
“Oh, come on, kid. If I can’t prank my own son, who else am I gonna do it to?”
You roll your eyes, but you can’t help the small smile that creeps onto your face. That’s your dad, always full of life, always trying to make you laugh, even when all you want to do is dive into the sea and swim until you disappear from sight.
He pulls a flyer out of his pocket and hands it to you, still smiling, like he’s giving you a great gift.
“Look what I found out there!”
You take the paper, giving it a quick glance.
“What the hell is this?” you ask, but you already know the answer before you finish the sentence.
“Tonight’s luau! You remember the luau, don’t you? That town tradition, everyone gathering on the beach, dancing, eating...”
“Of course I remember,” you cut him off, tossing the flyer back onto the counter. “But honestly, Dad, I couldn’t care less about the damm luau.”
Your dad pauses, his smile fading for a second, like you just threw cold water on his enthusiasm.
“What? What do you mean, couldn’t care less? You used to love it.”
“That was when I was 15, Dad. Things have changed.”
He looks at you with an expression of disbelief.
“Changed how?”
You shrug, trying to seem indifferent, but Shuhua’s name is stuck on the tip of your tongue, almost slipping out.
“They just… changed. It’s not the same anymore. I’m not the same anymore.”
Your dad crosses his arms, clearly not ready to give up so easily.
“So what? Doesn’t mean you can’t have a little fun. There’ll be a bunch of tourists there, hot girls who love a lifeguard. And let’s face it, you need to blow off some steam, son.”
You sigh, your thoughts still stuck on Shuhua. The idea of seeing other girls, forcing a smile, pretending to be interested, feels unbearable right now.
“I’m not in the mood, Dad. Not today.”
Your dad watches you for a moment, trying to read what you’re not saying. He’s seen this look before, back when you were a teenager trying to hide some secret.
“Does this have to do with that girl I saw with you yesterday?”
You shift uncomfortably, the tension growing.
“Let it go, Dad. It’s nothing.”
But he’s not fooled.
“Listen, whatever it is, you don’t have to be stuck in it. Things are what they are, but you can’t let that stop you from living your life.”
“I know, Dad. But this is different.”
“Everything feels different when you’re in it up to your neck,” he says, placing a hand on your shoulder. “But trust me, kid. Go to the luau, relax a little. You might find some answers while you’re there.”
You nod, but your thoughts are still far away.
“I’ll think about it,” you say, just to end the conversation.
Your dad smiles, as if that’s good enough. “That’s all I ask. Now, keep an eye on the tourists. I’m gonna check on the rest of the beach,” and before leaving the cabin, he adds, “Oh, and no taking the ATV out for joyrides, young man.”
“Sorry, won’t happen again.”
He smiles, and you watch him leave, still with that air of unbeatable optimism, like the world is a place where everything always works out in the end. You wish you could feel that too, but all you can think about is Shuhua. Whether she’ll show up at the luau, or if that was the last time you’ll ever see her.
—
Night has already fallen when you finally decide to go to the luau. It’s not so much a conscious decision as it is an automatic reaction. As if your body is pushing you toward where your heart wants to be, even though your mind is telling you to give up. You spent the day searching in various places, trying to find Shuhua, but she seemed to have vanished. And now, with the darkness settling in, the luau is your last option.
You arrive at the beach where the party is already in full swing. The atmosphere is a blend of colors and sounds, like a vibrant painting brought to life. The flames of the bonfires rise against the night sky, casting dancing shadows over the people around them. Groups gather around the fires, some playing guitar, others just laughing and drinking, all immersed in a carefree sense of freedom. The music plays, a tropical beat mixed with the sound of the ocean.
But you don’t belong here. While everyone around you seems light and carefree, you feel heavy, out of place, like a parasite in a foreign body. The laughter and smiles around you hit like acid rain, burning instead of refreshing.
And then you see your father. He’s on the other side of the bonfire, laughing loudly and holding a drink, surrounded by a circle of friends. He spots you and his face lights up with that simple, contagious joy he always seems to carry.
“Hey, look who decided to show up!” he shouts, waving you over to join them.
You force a smile and walk over, but your father already sees the hesitation on your face.
“I’ll stay just a bit,” you say, trying to sound casual. “Unless... something shows up.”
Your father raises an eyebrow, catching your true meaning.
“Something or someone?” he asks, with a look that says he already knows the answer.
You just shake your head, looking down.
“Whatever.”
He doesn’t give up.
“Listen, son, I know you’re going through something. But... wearing that funeral face isn’t going to help. Look,” he says, nodding toward a group of girls by another bonfire, “that one over there, with the short hair, has been eyeing you since you arrived.”
You don’t even bother to look.
“I don’t care. I didn’t come here for the girls.”
“Really?” Your father tilts his head, as if trying to solve a riddle. “Then why did you come?”
“I don’t know,” you reply, more frustrated with yourself than with him. But then he points his chin toward someone.
You finally look in the direction he’s indicating, and your heart stops for a moment. It’s Shuhua. She’s there, as beautiful and carefree as ever, but there’s something different about her. She seems radiant, brighter than you’ve ever seen her. When your eyes meet, she smiles and walks over, her long, graceful legs moving with a confidence that wasn’t there in the morning.
She wraps you in a hug and kisses you, and everything feels strange. Not the kiss itself, but the way she acts, so joyful, so carefree. It’s as if the Shuhua from the morning, the one who was scared and confused, has been replaced by this sunny version, perfect for the luau.
“Hey,” she says, still smiling.
You force a smile in return.
“Hey. You... seem different.”
“Me? No, I’m just enjoying the night. What else should I be doing?”
You spend the next hour at the luau, doing exactly that. Enjoying. You dance to the live music, join a group playing guitar, singing an improvised version of some Jack Johnson song. Shuhua is light, fluid, as if the world was meant to be enjoyed just like this. She grabs two glasses of some sweet, strong drink, toasting with you before downing it in one go. You laugh, drink, dance more. For a moment, you allow yourself to forget the dark cloud hanging over you. For a moment, everything is simple.
But eventually, the fatigue begins to set in. The bonfires start to die down, and the laughter around you grows softer. That’s when you look at Shuhua, and she’s there, leaning against you, still smiling, but with something in her eyes.
“Let’s get out of here,” you say, taking her hand. “I want to show you a special place.”
She looks at you, curious.
“Where?”
“It’s a surprise. But trust me.”
She smiles, nodding, and you both leave the luau behind. The walk to the pier is quiet, just the sound of waves and footsteps on the sand. The pier is old, wooden, stretching out into the sea like a tongue reaching toward the unknown. At night, the place is deserted, lit only by the silver moonlight reflecting on the water below.
You walk to the end of the pier, where the world seems to stop. The sound of the waves is more intense here, crashing against the wooden pillars with a hypnotic rhythm.
Shuhua takes a deep breath, closing her eyes for a moment.
“This place is beautiful,” she says, her voice soft. “I like the darkness... Here, we’re just shadows.”
You watch her, trying to understand what’s going on inside her.
“Shadows,” you repeat, as if the word carries a weight you’re only now beginning to grasp. “Is that what we are? Shadows?”
She doesn’t answer immediately, staring out at the water.
“Maybe. But with the light of the next morning,” she says, her voice low and poetic, “the sun will sweep away the night’s shadows. Forever.”
The silence that follows is heavy, each word a stone thrown into a bottomless well. You wait for the sound, but it never comes. You look at the sea, where the moon draws a silver path across the waves.
“Look,” you say, pointing. “Do you see the silver bridge over the sea?”
She follows your gaze and nods.
“Yes.”
“That bridge,” you continue, your words coming more slowly now, “it can connect us, no matter where you are. Even on the other side of the ocean, there will be a bridge like this. And you can walk across it and come to me. I’ll be here, in this same place. It’s where I belong. And I’ll be waiting.”
Shuhua smiles sadly.
“One day, you’ll get tired of waiting.”
“I learned to be patient from a certain someone,” you say, moving closer to her, gently touching her face. “And I don’t care how long it takes. I’ll be here.”
For a moment, she says nothing, just closes her eyes and rests her forehead against yours, as if trying to etch this moment into her memory. “Thank you,” she whispers, her voice full of a sadness you don’t fully understand. “But... maybe you shouldn’t.”
You don’t respond because, deep down, you know she might be right. And there, on the pier, under the moonlight, you stay together. Shadows that, for now, still resist the morning light.
—
You hold her tightly by the waist, feeling her warmth blend with yours as you guide her toward the bed. The surroundings seem to dissolve under the intensity of the looks you exchange. Each breath is heavy with anticipation, each heartbeat a countdown to something inevitable, yet divinely uncertain. Shuhua is in your arms, so close you can feel the softness of her skin against yours, the intoxicating scent of her perfume mixing with the latent desire you both share. This is the last night you’ll have together, and that awareness is reflected in the intense passion shining in her eyes.
When you finally lay Shuhua down on the bed, your hands move with deliberate slowness, touching every curve of her body with an almost sacred reverence. Your lips find the delicate skin of her neck, delivering kisses that are both gentle and laden with desire. You feel her pulse quicken beneath your lips, a clear sign of the effect you’re having on her. Gradually, you move lower, removing the dress that covered her body, revealing her pale, delicate skin. Your kisses follow the path of the dress, leaving a trail of sensations behind. Your lips touch her tits with adoration, your tongue gently exploring every part, feeling the softness of her skin and her unique taste. You continue your descent, kissing her flat stomach, feeling the muscles contract under your touch until you finally reach the place where Shuhua’s desire is most evident. When your mouth finds her pussy, you suck with the uncontrollable desire you always have, each movement of your tongue making Shuhua moan with pleasure.
“I’m so wet for you,” she whispers, her voice thick with need and excitement, her body arching involuntarily with each new wave of pleasure.
Your response to her desire is immediate. You begin to remove your clothes, your cock already fully hard, pulsing with the need to be inside her. Shuhua, with a look that mixes lust and expectation, turns onto her stomach, her body’s muscles tense and ready.
“Fuck me now,” she begs, her voice husky, almost a moan, as she adjusts herself for perfect access. You climb onto the bed, kneeling behind her, your entire body alert, every nerve pulsing with the desire to possess her. When you finally enter her, the sensation is almost overwhelming. Shuhua’s pussy is incredibly tight, her legs slightly closed, amplifying the intensity of each thrust. You grab her ass firmly, feeling the soft, firm flesh under your hands, and start thrusting with fierce passion. Each thrust is deep and deliberate, drawing moans from Shuhua that fill the room like an erotic melody.
“Spank me... spank my ass,” she pleads, her voice almost desperate, and you obey, delivering slaps that make her pale skin flush with a bright red. The feel of your hand meeting her flesh is hypnotic, and every time you spank her, she responds with more moans, more pleasure.
“Like that... harder,” she demands, and you do exactly what she wants, feeling the connection between you deepening with each new slap, each new thrust.
With your cock now fully lubricated by Shuhua’s wetness, an irresistible desire to go further takes over you. Without warning, you guide your cock to her ass, the tight entrance offering a resistance that only heightens your excitement. The gasp of surprise and lust that escapes Shuhua’s lips is like fuel to the fire inside you.
“So good,” she murmurs, almost breathless, as she adjusts to the new rhythm. “It feels so good... fuck me deeper,” she begs, her voice trembling with pleasure. You lean over her, lying on top of her, your weight pressing her into the bed as you continue to penetrate her. The movements become even more intense, and you feel Shuhua tremble beneath you, her body responding to each thrust with a new wave of pleasure. you give gentle nibbles on Shuhua's earlobe, while your moans echo in her ear, an erotic song that makes Shuhua writhe in pleasure.
“I love hearing you moan in my ear, babe” she whispers, her voice thick with pleasure, and you feel the connection between you intensify even more, a mix of love and wildness that you both share without reservations.
The need for a change is instinctive. You both turn onto your sides, you still inside her, each movement smooth and controlled. In this position, the intimacy between you reaches a new level. With Shuhua’s body perfectly nestled against yours, you feel each of her breaths, each heartbeat, as you continue to fuck her from the side. Your hands roam her body, one holding her waist firmly, guiding the movements, while your mouth explores her neck, with kisses of affection and licks of desire. Shuhua’s moans grow louder, more urgent, and you feel her body begin to tremble as she approaches climax.
“I’m gonna cum, babe... don’t stop... please, don’t stop,” she begs, her eyes closed, her lips parted in ecstasy. You feel her body tighten around you, every muscle contracted in anticipation, and when she finally cums, you watch as she loses control. Her body arches, her moans turn into muffled screams, and you feel the wave of pleasure wash over her body, reverberating within you.
With her climax still hanging in the air, you continue, feeling your own pleasure rapidly approaching.
“I’m gonna cum,” you announce, your voice hoarse with desire and need, and Shuhua, still breathing heavily, quickly turns around, her body moving with feline grace.
“In my mouth... I want all your cum in my mouth,” she pleads, kneeling over you.
Her lips close tightly around the head of your cock, while her agile tongue slides and teases, pulling moans from you that echo through the room.
“Give it to me... fill my mouth with your cum,” she begs, and those words are enough to push you over the edge.
When you cum, it’s as if an overwhelming wave of pleasure sweeps through your body, and Shuhua receives every spurt of cum with an almost indecent enthusiasm. She doesn’t pull back; on the contrary, she sucks harder, her tongue swirling around the head of your cock, making sure not to let a drop escape. You watch, completely spent, as she swallows everything, her eyes lifting to meet yours.
“Mmm... Your cum tastes so good,” she whispers as she licks her lips.
“You’re incredible, Shuhua. Fuck… You’re so fucking hot,” and it’s all you can say at that moment.
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That night dissolved into fragments, like an old film burning at the edges, the moments flickering and disappearing before you could grasp them. But some sparks of moments were still vivid, like when you both ran along the beach, your feet sinking into the cold sand as the salty wind cut across your faces. Shuhua laughed, the sound escaping her as if joy was something impossible to contain. You didn’t know where you were going, only that you had to keep moving, because stopping meant thinking, and thinking was something both of you wanted to avoid at all costs.
You two danced without music, moving to the silent beats that only the two of you could hear. The moon lit you up, turning the sand into liquid silver. She spun, arms wide, head tilted back, her hair floating around her like a dark crown. And you followed her, because there was no other choice, because she was the only thing that made sense that night.
The sea called to you, the waves licking your feet, cold like the reality you were trying to escape. She laughed again, a sound muffled by the water, and you let yourself laugh too, even if it was just a pale imitation of what she felt. You walked back to town in silence, just following the lights that blinked in the distance.
The places you passed seemed unreal, like poorly painted backdrops in a cheap theater. There were lights, there were people, but none of it mattered. You were the only ones who existed, caught in a current pulling you toward each other, keeping you together while the world around you disintegrated.
You remember it now as if it were a dream. The blurred faces, the faded neon colors, the distant sounds. Everything fleeting, so fast that you barely had time to realize what was happening before it was already over. Everything, except her. She was real. She was the only thing that didn’t disappear.
Until you wake up.
The room is empty. You’re alone. Shuhua is gone, without a sound, without a goodbye. She slipped through your fingers this time, point for her. Well, maybe it’s easier this way. But you’re left with the feeling of something lost, something ripped away from you without warning. The bed still carries the warmth of her body, but there’s no one there anymore. Just the echo of what was and what could have been.
You remember her crying last night. Out of nowhere, as you were leaving a carousel, the tears just started falling. She didn’t say anything, just threw herself into your arms, as if she wanted to disappear. And you didn’t ask why because asking would only hurt her more, so you just held her, feeling the tremor in her body, the weight of the impending farewell. She cried again later, when you were both in bed after sex. You wondered how long she had been holding it in, if you were the first anchor she found or just the first one she had.
Now, sitting on the bed, you look at the spot where she was lying. The pillow is still a little damp. Secret tears she couldn’t hide, marks of a sadness you couldn’t heal. You pick up the pillow, holding it for a moment as if it could give you some answer. Something slips from it, sliding softly onto the sheet.
The photo. The Polaroid you took of her the first time you met. Hard to say exactly when she put it there, whether it was the first, second, or last night. Not that it matters, anyway. The sea is behind her, her long dress blowing in the wind, her face turned to the horizon as if waiting for something that would never come.
You turn the photo over and see the words written on the back, in delicate handwriting:
“This is where I stay.”
You feel a tightness in your chest because you know what she meant. This is where she stays, where she belongs. Not with you, but with the moment, the memory, the place that will never move.
She said goodbye there, in those simple words.
And you’re alone, holding a photo that’s now all that’s left. The distant sound of the waves reaches you through the window, and for a moment, you imagine a silver bridge over the sea. A bridge that could have connected you if things had been different.
But all you have now is this fleeting memory, a dream that you’ll eventually struggle to recall, already fading like shadows in the first light of morning.
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𓇢𓆸 You should stay in my good graces . . . @n-americano
#alternative moodboard#kpop moodboard#messy moodboard#kpop#aesthetic#dark moodboard#pink aesthetic#blue moodboard#kpop messy moodboard#kpop icons#kpop gg#kpop aesthetic#kpop moodboards#shuhua moodboard#shuhua icons#shuhua#gidle moodboard#gidle icons#gidle shuhua#shuhua gidle#green moodboard#pretty moodboard#cute moodboard#soft moodboard#ugly moodboard#vintage moodboard#grunge moodboard#white moodboard#green and white moodboard#gg moodboard
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ෆ̼ shuhua ( g idle ) lockscreens.
#ask#lockscreens#wallpaper#kpop lockscreen#wallpapers kpop#kpop moodboard#gg wallpapers#gg kpop#kpop gg#gg moodboard#shuhua#shuhua icons#shuhua lockscreens#shuhua layouts#shuhua lq icons#shuhua moodboard#shuhua messy icons#shuhua gidle#shuhua gifs#shuhua wallpaper#gidle#gidle updates#gidle shuhua#gidle icons#gidle instagram#gidle layouts#gidle lockscreen#gidle moodboard#gidle imagines#gidle packs
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SHUHUA ✧ 240804
#shuhua gidle#yeh shuhua#shuhua edits#shuhua gifs#gidle edits#gidle#gidle gifs#ggedit#gg gifs#girlgroup#femaleidol#femaleidolsedit#female idol gifs#kpop edits#kpop gifs#ultkpopnetwork#mygifs#mine#queue
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título: Oh Baby When You Talk Like That data: 1 de setembro de 2024 programa: ibis paint x doada para: @sanieland link: 🍊
★ insp: @xxpujinxx
eu simplesmente AMEI fazer essa capa. eu tive a ideia assim q vi essas fotos da minnie, ngm vai conseguir tirar da minha cabeça q ela tá igual a shakira do velho testamento. e essa shu tava LINDA (ela é sempre linda). ent fiz essa capinha bem tropical refrescante. e obviamente com a musiquinha da nossa mãe shakira shakira. quem quiser adotar é só falar!!!
#Spotify#capa fanfic#capa divertida#capa colagem#capa romântica#capa fluffy#capa para fic#capa para spirit#capa para fanfic#spirit fanfics#capa design#capa de fanfic#capa de fic#capa pra fanfic#capa#capista#fanfic cover#design simples#capa simples#gidle#shuhua gidle#minnie gidle#maluyoongi edits#maluyoongi capas#maluyoongi#capa colorida#capa de spirit#capa kpop#kpop#capa para doação
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°❀⋆.♥︎࿔*:・ allergy ୨ৎ⋅˚₊‧ 𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅ 𐙚₊˚⊹♡ 🎱˖ ᡣ𐭩 ⊹ ࣪ ౨ৎ˚₊
#dividers by dollywons 𖦹#divider by dollywons#gidle#shuhua#shuhua gidle#shuhua moodboard#gidle moodboard#gidle aesthetic#pink#black#vintage#vintage moodboards#coquette kpop#coquette moodboards#coquette#dollette#dollette aesthetic#dollette moodboard#tomie#tomie aesthetic#pink moodboard#black moodboard#girly aesthetic#girly tumblr#kpop#messy layout#messy#kpop layout#pink layouts#dividers by dollywons
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⠀⠀⠀᮫᪾ᥱׄu᪾ׅ⠀֢֢⠀ᥲ᪾᮫ׄꩇ᪾᪾᮫ᥲׅv᪾ᥲ᪾᮫⠀᪾ᥲ⠀(𝓒᪾᪾ꭷ᪾r)⠀dᥲq᪾᪾᮫꯭֢uᥱ᮫ᥣ᪾ᥱ᪾᮫s⠀ꭷ᪾ׅl᪾h᪾᮫ׄꭷ᪾s᪾
Download do vídeo. 🫶🏻
#shuhua#shuhua gidle#gidle shuhua#ilysmmmm#alternative moodboard#amino moodboard#ddc amino#messy moodboard#kpop bios#shuhua moodboard#shuhua messy icons#clean moodboard#colorful moodboard#coquette moodboard#by luca web#kpop moodboard
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𝜗𝜚 shuhua (g)i-dle lockscreens.
please don't repost! credits to me.
#★ 𝓣𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗂𝗌 🎑 l𝗶ricts#shuhua#shuhua gidle#gidle#shuhua lockscreens#shuhua wallpaper#shuhua wallpapers#shuhua lockscreen#gidle lockscreens#gidle wallpaper#gidle layouts#gidle icons#wallpaper gidle#gidle wallpapers#shuhua icons#shuhua moodboard#shuhua layouts#lockscreens#kpop lockscreen#kpop icons#kpop layouts#lockscreen#lockscreen kpop#kpop moodboard#gg lockscreen#gg wallpaper#gg layouts#shuhua messy icons#shuhua lq icons#lockscreens kpop
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⠀⠀⠀ֵ⠀⠀ׂ⠀shuhua⠀ׂ⠀⠀꒰⠀♥᪾ꨳ⠀꒱ֵ⠀ׂ⠀⠀יִ⠀ׅ⠀
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#kpop#icons#kpop icons#gifs#moodboard#gidle#shuhua#shuhua gifs#shuhua gidle#shuhua moodboard#shuhua icons#gidle ot6#gidle icons#miyeon#yuqi#soyeon#soojin#minnie#amino#amino moodboard#miyeon moodboard#miyeon gidle#seo soojin
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Señorita ~ ⋆ ˑ ❥ཱུ ‿۫ 💋 ᰣ ׂ ˳ ★
#yuqi-luv#1st 7th and 8th pics edited by me#divider by im4yeons#shuhua#gidle#shuhua gidle#gidle senorita#kpop#kpop moodboard#shuhua moodboard#gidle moodboard#gg icons#gidle icons#shuhua icons#dark red moodboard#red moodboard#black moodboard#yellow moodboard#orange moodboard#pretty moodboard#dark moodboard#cabaret moodboard
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꒰ ˀˀ ↷ shuhua ; simple ”♡ᵎ ꒱
like/reblog | @exolyxions
don’t repost our work or claim it as yours
#bia#shuhua#gidle#g idle#gidle shuhua#shuhua gidle#kpop#kpop gg#girl group#lockscreen#wallpaper#shuhua lockscreens#shuhua wallpapers#gidle lockscreens#gidle wallpapers#kpop lockscreens#kpop wallpapers#shuhua edits#gidle edits#kpop edits#lockscreens#kpop lockscreen#kpop wallpaper#wallpapers
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Shuhua icons 💘
#gidle#gidle shuhua#yeh shuhua icons#shuhua idle#idle shuhua#icons shuhua#shuhua icons#yeh shuhua gidle#shuhua gidle#shuhua kpop#shuhua lockscreens#shuhua lq#shuhua lq icons#shuhua layouts#shuhua headers#yeh shuhua#shuhua#icons gidle#gidle instagram#gidle icons#gidle updates#kpop gidle#gidle kpop#gidle lockscreen#gidle layouts#kpop gg#kpop icons#kpopidol#kpop layouts#kpop
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#dividers @anitalenia#ㅤ⠞ ͜͡❀ 1haqerin □ ˚ㅤ#moodboard#messy moodboards#moodboards#colorful moodboard#kpop#kpop moodboard#kpop layouts#colorful#brown and pink#pink and brown#dark brown and pink#dark brown and pink aesthetic#dark brown and pink moodboards#dark brown and pink moodboard#pink and brown moodboard#pink and brown moodboards#brown and pink moodboard#brown and pink moodboards#shuhua#gidle#shuhua gidle#gidle shuhua#shuhua moodboard#shuhua moodboards#shuhua icons#gidle moodboard#gidle moodboards
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꯭💤 。 𝗇᥆᪾꯭ ꞉ ᭥ׄ ֵ 𝖻𝗅𝗎𝖻ꫀׄ𝗋𝗋ꪱ゚࣭ꫀׄ ꯭⃝𝗌 ◌ ❟ׂ 、ׅ ⃝꯭࣪𝄞꯭ 的꯭֤ㅤ❵
#shuhua gidle#shuhua icons#shuhua moodboard#gidle moodboard#gidle icons#kpop icons#kpop moodboard#edgy moodboard#indie moodboard#indie icons#soft icons#ggs icons#ggs moodboard#amino moodboard#amino icons#paperheartt
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୨୧ shuhua ( g idle ) lockscreens.
#ask#lockscreens#wallpaper#kpop lockscreen#wallpapers kpop#kpop moodboard#gg wallpapers#gg kpop#kpop gg#gg moodboard#gidle icons#gidle instagram#gidle moodboard#gidle messy moodboard#gidle messy icons#gidle#gidle updates#gidle layouts#gidle lockscreen#gidle wallpapers#shuhua#shuhua gidle#shuhua gifs#shuhua icons#shuhua lockscreens#shuhua layouts#shuhua lq icons#shuhua moodboard#shuhua messy icons#shuhua wallpaper
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título: Dos You Like Me? data: 25 de agosto de 2024 programa: ibis paint x feita para: uso pessoal link: ❤️🔥
eu fiz essa capa pq eu amei essa foto LINDISSIMA da nossa mãe, ent peguei os materiais q eu já tinha de feed do ig (eu tenho pq eu fiz outra capa no mesmo estilo e q tá guardadinha pra surpresa) e fiz e amei tanto🥹🥹 essa fic vai ser escrita por mim e pelo @moonstar841 NOS AGUARDEM
#capa design#capa de fic#capa de fanfic#capa divertida#capa romântica#capa sexy#capa de spirit#capa pra fanfic#capa pra fic#capa para spirit#capa para fanfic#capa para fic#spirit fanfics#design simples#fanfic cover#gidle#soyeon#shuhua#kpop#capa colagem#capa fanfic#capa kpop#capa simples#maluyoongi edits#maluyoongi#maluyoongi capas#ibispaintx#soyeon gidle#shuhua gidle#capa teste
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