#She's Talking to Angels|Bethisms

[brooklynislandgirl]

Give Beth your unloved creatures. Give her those not pretty monsters, the neglected and abused. Give her the tired and the terrified. She will offer the love, the nurturing, the safety they lack. No one should ever feel unwanted.

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The Little Things You Love

List 5 of your muse’s endearing behavioural / personality quirks. The more minor and obscure, the better. Tagged by: stolen from the dash Tagging: Be Fae, do crimes.

The Nurse Shark || Beth Riley

touches everything very delicately, afraid to cause anything to break/hurt.

uses bikini tops and bottoms as bras and underwear, interchangeably.

Always has between 15 and 20 books scattered around the house in various stages of being read.

sings loudly in the car when she's by her self.

keeps a supply of care packages for people and animals in the trunk in case she runs into someone who needs help.

[brooklynislandgirl]

What was your response to the last time your heart was broken?

Beth has never bitten back words harder than she does now. Better than going for a throat with all of her teeth, and not in any way a test bite. The first time her heart broke nearly killed her the way it woke her out of dead sleep with a pain so excruciating that she is still haunted by its ghost. She has no way to explain the relentless suffering of having a portion of her soul sheared off. Of knowing that the only way to mollify that perpetual emptiness is to surrender this life and with a hopeful prayer for the next. She isn't even sure there's supposed to be another one. It wasn't too much later that it broke again, and again, Beth had to give up another piece of herself. That one she's justified into oblivion. She says it was taking the higher road, that it was saving a life and a career that she wasn't even sure she could follow in the footsteps of and it was the mature choice. It might be more truthful if she just admitted that she'd run away to lick her wounds and hope no one noticed. This last time? Still fresh as winter slaughter now that they're on the eve of spring? She's cried new oceans into existence and tries to tell herself that it doesn't hurt. That it doesn't matter. That she is merely a function, and ultimately one that doesn't matter either, not in the grand scheme of the Universe. Of course... She wears her heart on her sleeve, where anyone can touch it. And no one wants to keep it. Walls rise faster than empires and each emotional brick is sealed with a mortar of shame and self-recrimination. The only hint that the question as struck a nerve is how glassy her eyes become. The little uptick of her chin as she swallows. The smile comes slow. Devoid of warmth even ice would shiver in its shadow. Her voice remains remarkably steady, the same just-barely-more-than-a-whisper that it ever is. "M' life is perfect, wha' makes you t'ink anyt'ing of mine's evah broken, much less my heart?" She tells herself she doesn't have one. It gives away the lie by throbbing in her throat and it is bitter, bitter, sweet.

[brooklynislandgirl]

muse-based dash game: do not reblog. copy & paste!

objective: show your followers you see them by tagging 10 people your muse(s) personally want to get to know better. this can be taken as an invitation to approach a mun for plot development.

The Nurse Shark || Beth Riley

favourite colour(s): purple and green and maroon...oh! And glitter!

what’re they wearing right now?: Beth is wearing an oversized Air Force Tee-shirt and Bikini bottoms. Even though the AC is on, it's 80 something degrees in the house.

where are they at currently?: On the couch, reading the New England Journal of Medicine.

song stuck in their head: Eddie Vedder's "Blackbird" cover.

last song they listened to: Eddie Vedder's "Mother" cover.

3 favourite foods: Grilled Cheese sandwich, poi or haupia malasadas, manapua filled with kalua pork. {Occasionally, she'd kill for spam musubi, saimin, or loco moco.}}

dream trip: Amsterdam, Mount Kilimanjaro, and the Bolshoi Ballet production of Swan Lake or the Nutcracker in Moscow.

anything your muse wants right now: Maybe some long distance snuggles and a real shave ice.

favourite personal headcanons: Beth is love and life, which in some cases, are two opposing forces, but she always tries to find balance. Except when it comes to purple glitter pens, in which case, she can never get enough. OR. When Beth has had enough of People...she likes to become a sea sparkle...and hide in her Mother's waves.

favourite quote of the hour: "Speak the Word....The Word is All of Us." ~ Geoff Tate ~*~ Tagged by: Stole it off Lou @devorantescorda-2 who just left it laying around on her dash. Tagging: My mutuals from the last two months and anyone who wants to be fae and steal memes.

tagged by. no one i stole ittagging. whoever wants to do it

[brooklynislandgirl]

when do you gaze at your soulmate?

The Nurse Shark || Beth Riley

when they don't see you you love them and you're not sure they know. but that's okay. you're used to loving more than you are loved. you give more than is given. and maybe others don't understand but you don't expect more. you tell yourself the love in your heart is not meant to be savoured by anyone other than you. it's more than enough to get to exist at the same time as them. you stand in their shadow and you thank the sun for casting it. they touch your arm but they do not feel the same warmth which lingers on your skin for days. you gaze at them and they might even be looking right back but they are not seeing into your soul the same way you have memorised theirs. it's enough you tell yourself. it's enough. it's enough. but what if it's not? and what if you're wrong. what if they see you and all this time you have been too scared to ask what they're looking at.

~*~

The Dreaming Tree || Melakeni Ivers

when they're sleeping it's not just the way they're at rest. it's that they're at rest with you. it's not just that they're safe but that they feel safe enough to let you see them like this. it's trust and it's intimacy. and you're not sure you're ready for them to see the emotions in your eyes right now. they've been through enough. you both have. sometimes it scares you just how much you love them. it terrifies you that you feel happy as they lay there, eyes closed and hair a little messy. their features twitch and you know they're dreaming and it scares you because if you fall asleep too you won't have a nightmare tonight. you'll dream of them. or nothing at all. and either way it will make you need them more. and you're not supposed to need anyone but it's them. you want to hold them in your arms and never let go. you want to protect them but you know they want to protect you to. this is the kind of love you long for and it's the kind which will hurt if you lose it. but here you are anyway. it's too late now. you're glad it's too late to go back.

~*~ Personally Victimised by: my lovely K @kylo-wrecked Carrying on with: Take it if you want it!

[brooklynislandgirl]

CHARACTER FLAWS

(bold are very apparent qualities, italicized are less obvious)

absent-minded  |  abusive  |   addict   | adrenaline junkie | aggressive  |  aimless  | alcoholic  | anxious |  arrogant |  audacious |  bad liar  |  bigmouth  |  bigot  |   blindly loyal  |  blunt |  callous  |  childish  |  chronic heroism   |  cheater  |  clingy  |  clumsy  |  cocky  |  codependent | competitive  |  corrupt  | cowardly |  cruel  |  cynical |  delinquent  |  delusional |  dependent | depressed |  deranged  | disloyal  |  ditzy  |  egotistical  | envious |  erratic  | fickle  |  finicky  | fixated  | flaky |  frail  | fraudulent  | foul mouthed | guilt-complex |  gloomy  |  gluttonous |  gossiper  | gruff  |  grudge holding  |  gullible  |  hedonistic  |  humourless  |  hypochondriac  | hypocritical | idealist |  idiotic  |  ignorant  |  immature | impatient |  incompetent  |  indecisive | insecure | insensitive |  lazy |  lewd | liar |  lustful  | manipulative |  masochistic  | meddlesome| melodramatic | money-loving  | moody |  naïve | nervous  | nosy |  ornery | overprotective |  overly sensitive   | paranoid | passive-aggressive  | perfectionist | pessimist |  petty  | power-hungry |  proud  |  possessive  |  pushover |  reckless  | reclusive  | remorseless  |  rigorous  |  sadistic  | sarcastic |  senile  |  selfish  | self destructive |  shallow  |  sociopathic  |  sore loser |  spineless  |  spiteful |  spoiled  |  stubborn  | suspicious |  tactless  | temperamental |  timid  | thief | tone-deaf  | traitorous | unathletic |  ungracious  |  unlucky   | unsophisticated  | untrustworthy |  vain  |  withdrawn  | workaholic

tagged by: @kit-just-kit {{thanks, doll!}}

tagging: Hoist the Colours and raise the black!

[brooklynislandgirl]

𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐃𝐎𝐄𝐒 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐘 𝐄𝐌𝐎𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍? repost, don’t reblog! bold what applies, italicize what sometimes applies,

The Nurse Shark || Beth Riley

𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑.  jaw  clenching.  hands  balling  into  fists.  teeth  grinding.  yelling.  going  nonverbal. vocalizations.  stuttering  speech.  slow,  concise  speech.  rambling.  quiet.  arms  crossing.  shaking  head.  curling  lip  upwards.  baring  teeth.  tearing  up.  animated.  expressionless.  projects.  internalizes.  vents.  withdraws.  tighter  movements.  passive-aggressive.  direct.  physical  outbursts.  verbal  outbursts.  pacing.  going  still.  anger  boils  over  in  the  heat  of  the  moment  but  cools  down  quickly  afterward.  anger  brews  slowly  but  lingers  longer.  will  act  out  of  impulse  when  angry.  will  stew  on  their  anger  and  plot  revenge.  holds  grudges.  forgives  easily.  forgives  but  never  forgets.

𝐉𝐎𝐘.  easy  smiles.  fighting  back  grins.  suppressed  laughter.  loud  laughter.  giggles.  chuckling.  smirks.  whole  body  laughs.  covers  mouth  when  laughing/giggling.  throws  head  back  when  laughing.  looks  for  eye  contact  when  laughing.  sparkling  eyes.  bubbly  happiness.  quiet  subtle  happiness.  obnoxious  happiness.  wants  to  spread  joy.  quietly  savors  joy.

𝐒𝐀𝐃𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒.  crying.  bottling  it  up.  seeking  distractions.  wallowing.  meditating  and  processing.  avoidance.  seeking  out  comfort.  withdrawing.  swallowing  thickly.  talking  it  out.  internalizing  it.  sad  smiles.  depression  naps.  using  alcohol.  using  drugs.  seeking  out  sources  of  joy.  fidgets  with  sentimental  item.  sits  in  silence.  broods.  gets  moody.  wants  someone  to  share  the  misery.  tries  to  hide  negative  emotions.  nurtures  others  to  make  themselves  feel  better.

𝐄𝐌𝐁𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐀𝐒𝐒𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓  /  𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐌𝐄.  blushing.  looking  away.  rubbing  the  back  of  their  neck.  running  a  hand  through  hair.  clearing  throat.  covering  the  face.  laughing  nervously.  laughing  it  off.  overthinking.  letting  it  go.  self-deprecating  humor.  deflecting.  getting  irritated.  smiling.  withdraws.  crossing  arms  over  stomach.  crossing  arms  over  chest.  hands  in  pockets.  shoulders  sinking.  shrugs.  falling  into  silence  until  comfortable  again.  talking  a  lot  to  compensate.

𝐆𝐔𝐈𝐋𝐓.  avoiding  eye  contact.  shoulders  sinking  low.  head  hanging  down.  crying.  chest  aches.  lashing  out.  internalizing.  apologizing.  deflecting.  communicating.  withdrawing.  grand  gestures  for  forgiveness.  accepting  fault  easily.  punishing  themselves.  martyrdom.  victim  complex.  overactive  guilt  complex.  healthy  conscience.  internalizes  even  after  forgiveness.  seeking  redemption.  moves  on  easily.  denial.  shuts  off  empathy  to  cope.  lack  of  guilt/conscience.  sorry  they  got  caught  more  than  caused  harm.  can't  handle  knowing  they  hurt  others.

𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐑  /  𝐀𝐍𝐗𝐈𝐄𝐓𝐘.  trembling.  crying.  sarcasm/sass  to  cope.  humor  to  cope.  rambles.  going  quiet.  going  nonverbal.  getting  angry.  fidgeting.  freezing  up.  impatience.  clenching  jaw.  picking  at  nails.  chewing  at  lip.  pulling  at  clothes.  adjusting  jewelry/clothing/hair.  pacing.  swallowing  thickly.  eyes  widening.  over-reacts.  under-reacts.  calm.  logical.  panic.  irrational.  over thinks.  carefully  analyzes.  talk  to  themselves.  breathing  exercises.  flight.  fight.  withdraw.  fawn.

Tagged By / Stolen From: my beloved @morgansmornings Tagging: Be Fae, Steal Memes

[brooklynislandgirl]

[brooklynislandgirl]

14. What is your OC's "villain song". Though I feel this is going to get asked a bunch, so 12. as a substitute

The Fruit from the Poisoned Tree || Accepting 14. OC Villain Song ~okay, so I couldn't just choose one, so here's three. I. Feed the Tree || Belly I know all this and more So take your hat off boy When you're talking to me And be there when I feed the tree II. Head Like A Hole || NIN Head like a hole Black as your soul I'd rather die than give you control Head like a hole Black as your soul I'd rather die than give you control Bow down before the one you serve You're going to get what you deserve III. You Want It Darker || Leonard Cohen There's a lover in the story But the story's still the same There's a lullaby for suffering And a paradox to blame But it's written in the scriptures And it's not some idol claim You want it darker We kill the flame

~*~

12. If your OC was arrested, what would the charges be?

There wouldn't be charges, or an arrest, because the Admiral would have it all swept away and then ground her/abuse her on his own. If they did stand, she's got a great lawyer. I. Assault and Battery // Grevious Bodily Harm II. Destruction of Property III. Lewd and Lascivious Conduct IV. Accessory to Murder V. Aiding and Abetting a Known Fugitive VI. Arson VII. Improper disposal of human remains VIII. Medical Malpractice IX. Criminal Negligence X. Jaywalking

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information

basics

full name: Elizabeth Irene Riley {{Birth-Certificate: Elikapeka Ailine Alohaekauneikahanuola'Ilikea'wahine Riley}}

nicknames / aliases: Beth, Apples, Konachino, Jelly Bean {{the nurse shark}}

height: 5 foot even

age: 27-35 {verse dependant}

spoken languages: English, Pidgin, French, Latin, Spanish, Basic/some: Russian, German, Greek, Japanese, Mandarin, Kikongo {Kituba}, Masalit

physical characteristics

hair color: deep chestnut/mahogany brown

eye color: green/honey brown {central heterochromia iridum}

skin tone: sand/olive with warm undertones { "deep autumn"}

body type: delicate/petite {ectomorphic/triangle}

dominant hand: left

posture: straight, graceful, poised

scars: The shark bite scar/muscle atrophy/shortened tendon {right leg}

tattoos: sea turtle with the Hawai'ian island chain on its shell, with a hibiscus {left hip} {eventually the tree of life as above/so below near the bottom of her neck/between her shoulder blades} She has three sub-dermal studs just inside the arch of her hip.

birthmarks: freckles around her chin, across her nose, sharp 'little' teeth

most noticeable features: Wide doe-eyes, 'fangy' smile, nose crinkles when she does so unguarded/genuinely.

childhood

place of birth: Pearl City/Honolulu, O'ahu, Hawai'i. {for Turn: Brooklyn, New York}

siblings: Andrew Riley, Jayden Morgan

parents: The Admiral, Iwalani Kahananui {Riley} Stern

adult life

occupation: ER Nurse/ER Doctor {verse dependant, might be NYPD or SHIELD agent} {for Turn: Wealthy Socialite}

current residence: Verse dependent {for Turn: Philidelphia, Boston, NYC} close friends: this is an entire blog roll roster of my beloved mutuals, so verse dependent? {For Turn: Ben and Samuel Tallmadge, Caleb Brewster, Anna Strong, John Simcoe, Malcolm Baker}

relationship status: Verse dependent. Beth doesn't so much date as she lurks, closely. Waiting for all parties involved to tire out and just move in.

children: Beth is incapable of having children, but loves everyone else's. {Turn: None...yet.}

criminal record: various juvenile charges for destruction of property, vandalism, and the like. All neatly sealed and never to be spoken of again.

vices: entirely too fond of a glass or six of wine in the 'evenings'. workaholic.

sex and romance

sexual orientation: demi-sexual {{I would say she leans towards heterosexual but the body isn't exactly a concern for her, so long as she likes/feels connected to the person}}

turn-ons: Intelligence, kindness, wittiness, passionate, idealism, honesty, empathy, caring for other people, the environment, animals.

turn-offs: Cruelty, abuse {physical/verbal/of power, etc}, lack of respect, refusal to accept boundaries, one night stands

love languages: physical touch, acts of service, quality time

relationship tendencies: Beth tends to be slightly oblivious when it comes to relationships. She is avidly keen in getting to know people, cannot help but to try and nurture them in what seem to be natural ways as much as she's able to. She doesn't experience sexual attraction until well after feeling bonded to someone. This can lead to many mixed signals. When it comes to love/sex/romance, Beth tends to be a little naive and extremely trusting,and that has always broken her heart in the past. Beth doesn't do one night stands, or casual hook-ups, though she doesn't judge others for them. Some people might consider her clingy.

miscellaneous

hobbies to pass time: surfing, dancing, knitting, reading, gardening, card games, chess. {Beth is amusingly aggressive when it comes to competitive games/sports}

mental illnesses: Beth lives with bipolar disorder, shows signs of childhood trauma, and tends toward fear of rejection/abandonment self confidence level: Beth has all the self esteem of a banana slug outside of a medical-treatment setting. ~*~ tagged by: my darling M @honorhearted tagging: Tell me about your muses!

[brooklynislandgirl]

your muse as the solar systembold for what applies, italic for what can apply/sometimes applies

The Nurse Shark || Beth Riley

SUN  •   egotistical   •   melted wax wings and fingers   •   sunburnt skin   •  the most generous soul   •   blood in the fruit   •   halos   • anger on fire   •   high vitality   •   thunderous laughter   •   is pride really a sin?   •   halogenic aura

MERCURY   •   expansion of the mind   •  silver-tongued   •   an everlasting wanderer   •  polyglot   •   high dexterity   •   handwritten letters   •   innately critical   •   en vogue   •   eyes in the trees   •  hidden libraries   •   there’s always room for improvement

VENUS   •  in love with strangers   •  iridescent waters   •   love potions for your mirror   •  selfless devotion   •  shattering crystal   • sea-foam upon sand   •   the golden ratio   •  drowning in your own passion   •   material value & high principles   •  luring   •  plush lips

EARTH   •  fresh springs   •   tree hugger   •  we can start again tomorrow   •   a blazing rain forest   •  respects survival of the fittest   •  nature’s adversity   •   lazy bones   •   constantly evolving   • flowers sprouting from wounds   •   a granite altar   •  fossilised remains

MOON   •   illusory   •  silver shimmer off the ocean   •   secrets and gossip   •   cycles of reincarnation  •  a crybaby   •   physically ethereal   •   shared glances with a stranger   •   cat eyes   • mistrusting their intuition   •  fear is a prison   •   ornate magic wands

MARS   •   healthy competition   •  attraction and repulsion   •  magma and rubies   •   a blade being forged   •   wrath wrath wrath   •   malefic   •   intense eye contact   •   cannon fodder & fireworks   •  blood floods   •   copper taste on your tongue

JUPITER   •   red robes and a suit of armour  •   beacon of stability   •  leader by birth   •   thunderbolts and lightning   •   guilty but can’t stop   •   secret rich kid   •   golden touch golden tears   •  innate optimist   •  failure isn’t an option   •  constantly reaching for more   •   unfinished symphonies

SATURN   •   traditional   •   overbearing energy   •   a sculptor of reality   •   this existence is a karmic one  • has a heart, it’s just... way down deep   •   law, order & justice   •   avoid all necessary risk   •  the sound of shackles clanging   •   Sisyphus’ struggle   •   grappling with the reality of time   •   self-governing

URANUS   •   psychedelic funk music   •   overflowing cups   •  a rebellion with skin   • looking good in photo id   •   oblivious but caring   •   middle fingers in the air   •   double rainbows   •   icy diamond exterior   •   holographic   •  afraid of their own mediocrity   •   pearlescent smoke

~*~ Tagged by: Again, stolen from @devorantescorda-2 Tagging: 8 Geckos in a muumuu

[brooklynislandgirl]

"Aloha to me is a reciprocal kind of love that precedes anything else. It is an important aspect of human relationships between others and the ʻāina (land), providing us a sense of connection, purpose, and fulfilment. Aloha is powerful and it remains one of the most fundamental parts of the kānaka (human) experience."

[brooklynislandgirl]

what kind of fire are you?

The Nurse Shark || Beth Riley

hearth fire you're a very nurturing presence. you like helping people and may even be a people pleaser. in a group you'd probably be the mom friend and others would describe you as open and warm. stand up for yourself once in a while.

~*~ tagged by: stolen from dear @jessiebites tagging: anyone who has matches and fuel

[brooklynislandgirl]

the frog: frogs tend to become overworked and undernourished, so it’s important they practice self-care…what is weighing on your muse, and how do they handle it? what do they do for self-care?

the stingray: this is a pivotal point in personal growth. the moment when the stingray must decide between the old and the new, which can be complicated by family and friends….how does your muse handle these pivotal moments? does your muse rely on the old or embrace the new?

Jurassic Asks || The Lost Meme

Frog: Up to twenty hours a day are devoted to healing the sick whether that's tending wounds in the ER or the clinic she runs on her off days, organising and delivering meals to the elderly, care boxes for the houseless, helping her neighbours fill out forms for necessary services and extensions, ad infinitum. The more distance she can put in front of her own needs the better. She has more than she can ever need and the guilt of it coils around her tighter than those of Jörmungandr. It also gives her an excuse to send the Admiral's calls to voicemail. Even her priest, Father Vinnie, thinks she needs to take a step back. Not that she'd listen to him on that front. She keeps going until she literally cannot move another muscle. At least her cousins cannot fault her for breaking the rules, simple as they are, can they? On the rare occasion that Beth does make time for herself, she typically heads toward the sea. She can surf for hours when the cold grey Atlantic waves feel cooperative. She might pick up an exquisite and rare bottle of wine afterwards, her hair still damp with salt and see and the soft thwick-thwak of her slippahs cause minor panic to the Chanel coated sommeliers. The emotional pearl-clutching is so funny to them, especially when not a single person there has ever dived for their own jewellery. She might smooth on a kelp and clay mask to feed her skin while she eats some pad Thai while catching up on the latest medical drama. Laughing at the glaring mistakes from TV-Land. Beth might be a complex creature but her needs are pretty simple. ~*~ Stingray:

Every Sunday, even on work days, Beth goes out to Green-Wood Cemetery to have lunch with her brother's spirit, always attempting to commune with him despite the fact that she's never once felt his presence. The grounds are gorgeous, meticulously kept. Perhaps even sterile in its respite if she were to be honest, but she still stops by and visits Andy's neighbours, Basquait and Bernstein. One could consider it a ritual, but in truth, Beth cannot let him go, even in death any more than she could be parted from him in life. Andy colours everything from the type of person she might come to admire, how she eventually makes decisions ~imaginary debates with him~ and even how she keeps his room in the apartment sealed like a second tomb. She doesn't realise that maybe she's like that about everything, clinging to the old and comfortable because anything else is terrifying to her.