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I currently need to throw my phone into a river because if my mum looks through my phone I'm fucked
#it'll out me as a system and having various mental illnesses#She'll get mad at me for having online friends#she'll probably force me to block them or something and I want to stay friends with them#Without them I have like 2 friends#And only 1 person I can actually be open with#And every single day I cry because I'm scared of losing the only person who knows me for me#I'll be cut off from the entire world and she'll expect me to be happy#I'm happy when I don't have to hide myself but I can't do that here#I'm in a country that hates me and you except me to feel safe going outside?#The only way I'd feel safe is if I changed my name legally and moved to a completely different country#I can't handle living in England and I don't feel safe in this town#I'll just get harassed or I'll see my rapist and have a panic attack#I need mental help so fucking badly but I live in England where my only fucking option is either better help#Or a Councillor who won't take me seriously#The last 2 counsellors I had were shit#The first one talked down to me constantly and there was a language barrier between me and the second so half the time I had no clue-#- what she was saying#My sh is only getting worse#I've finally started bleeding from my sh#And now I'm scared to show my arms around my parents because they'll blame the internet for it#Not the years of bullying or the emotional abuse or the fact I'm still trying to compute the fact I was fucking raped#I blame myself for everything#The internet is how I try to heal#If I get that taken away from me then I'll have nothing#I'll probably try to convert to Christianity just so I have something to believe in#Even though the idea of a god makes me really fucking paranoid#Nothing fucking helps anymore#The only thing I fucking have is my stupid fucking phone#I'm going to kill myself I swear to fuck#Because in this fucking society all I fucking get is oppressed
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AITA for taking pictures of my sister's house and not deleting them?
I (25f) and my adopted sister L (also 25) have grown up together since we were babies and are extremely close. I truly love her and want the best for her.
She has been married for 5 years to D (25m). They dated since they were 18 and got married at 20. I never had an issue with him except at times I thought he was immature. They have a kid together who is adorable and about to turn 3.
However, as they have been married i have an issue with him. I don't hate anyone, but he is highest on my shit list. Not an exhaustive list but he has (and I want to make this clear THESE ARE THINGS I HAVE WITNESSED I AM NOT LISTING THINGS SHE ONLY HAS TOLD ME ABOUT):
Whenever they argue yells at her. Even in front of guests (ahem me). She'll yell back and then he gets upset she is "raising her voice" at him, when he started it.
He won't let her get a job. He has canceled her applications for jobs before. She has sold some stuff online until he sold the materials she used to make things. Her only "income" is if he decides to give her an allowance and transfer money from his account to hers (please note they have BOTH their names on the accounts but one is considered hers one his). If she takes money from his account he gets mad. Bills, groceries, etc. Come from "her" account
Was always sweet but now uses her as jokes to his friends. Demeans her in front of them.
They move a state over after they got married, almost 5 hours away. Doable in one day, but many don't like to do it. Since being married, she has effectively not seen any of her friends except when they come into town to visit. I have went to visit her and one of her friends did, that friend confided they did not feel comfortable or welcome. That doesn't bother me cause personally I don't give a shit what D thinks and am there for my sister and nephew. But I have overheard D talk bad about all her friends, even me, snd encourage her not to talk to them.
The two friends she has made in the area D has told her to drop because they are "bad influences". The worst thing one has done was medical Marijuana that was prescribed to them. Not sure how they are bad except they've encouraged her to get a job and be more independent
D decided to get a cat, which my sister has a known allergy to. She didn't want the cat, but D brought it home. It has absolutely zero training and has destroyed their home. It pees everywhere, including my nephew's bed. It hates absolutely everyone except D, even attacking my sister for sitting on the couch next to D. D refuses to get rid of the thing even though it has scratched my sister and nephew multiple times and my nephew is afraid of it
Of course, there's more, but those are all things I have witnessed. The last part is what prompted me to take pictures of the bed that was peed on, the scratches on the kid and my sister. My sister showed me texts of her begging D to get rid of the cat and to me it seemed he threatened her, so I took a picture of that.
I personally believe D is an abusive prick. Definitely financially and emotionally, but not physically unless you consider neglect or him keeping the cat. He has never once hit my nephew or my sister that I have seen, and she has never stated he has. My sister has talked about leaving but then goes back to him, and I know on the outside it seems clear to me what to do but I know there is a cycle of abuse. When she is ready to leave him, she knows she can come to me and our parents.
However, D found out I took the photos. He called me drunk and extremely irate, but he didn't explicitly threaten me. It was implied. He called me an asshole, which is what made me think of this. He told me to delete the photos and that upon me doing so, he will get couples therapy.
On one hand I know they need therapy. On the other, what's to prove he will do this after I do that? My sister is begging me to delete the photos because she believes if they have therapy things will improve.
To be specific: D wants to be there when I delete them and make sure they are gone and to me that just proves how bad of a person he is because he doesn't want any evidence of any wrongdoing. My sister has sent me multiple texts and I know she has been trying to make a way for things in case it does go south, but she is afraid the inlaws will attempt for custody because apparently the inlaws have a bit of money and know the judge in our area. I dont want these photos to be used against her either...
AITA for not deleting them?
What are these acronyms?
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Hey honey bun sugar plummmm!! Could I get a baki characters with a s/o who has a fat ass (me)
Why of course, thine blessed thiccness will be appreciated!
Baki:
He's more of a tits guy (mommy issues, we all know this) but he absolutely doesn't complain about a bit more cake either. Be it a bubble butt or just genuine cake, he does not mind in the slightest.
That is his ass, thank you very much, so catching others staring or trying to cop a feel will very much wind up in him dishing out swift justice. He's chill about most things, and he doesn't mind others appreciating you as a whole, you're stunning, he knows it, but when they're being gross and pushy about it, that's when he'll step in.
He's got a habit of grabbing people's hips when he walks passed them, he may or may not cop a slight feel with you though. He doesn't mean it to be creepy or pervy, but he can't help but admire the curves you graced him with.
He's got his own cake as well, don't forget that, so the two of you walking side by side out in public earns a lot of stares for many reasons, but the fact that the two of you combined are an entire bakery might also have something to do with it.
Kozue:
Girl is flustered. Literally everyone around Baki that she ever met was cheeked up, and she knows how to appreciate a good behind, but she's a lot more shy about it than, say, Chiharu or Katsumi.
Worried about wardrobe malfunctions? Not while she's around, she is on it. Doing it to be considerate? Absolutely, of course. But was she also watching your ass before the wardrobe failure? Maybe. Perhaps. Perchance, even.
She's the kind of person to look through clothes online and show her friends when she finds things that she thinks would suit them or that they would like, so if you mention wanting something to accentuate your butt a bit, she'll pull out an entire folder.
Lord help her if she catches you in swimsuits, she won't know what to do with herself. Does she admire openly? Does she touch? Please help her lmao.
Hanayama:
Firm ass admirer, but in private. Only he is allowed to admire your ass, that's final. You don't get to stand while he's sitting down, he'll pull you straight into his lap and keep those big meaty hands on your waist, trapping you in place. You don't get up until he lets you.
He won't spank you, but he will give you light taps every once in a while. Just know: he absolutely wants to wind up and slap the soul out of you, but he won't because he doesn't want to hurt you.
You wanna wear clothes that accentuate your butt? It had better only be for his eyes, he's not going to tolerate other people looking at your buns, those are his to admire.
There will be times where he just lays down with you, acts super sweet and everything, and then just grabs your ass. For no reason. It's like watching a cat stare at something on the edge of a table before they knock it off.
Admires your ass while clothed, and while naked. You aren't safe from him, even if you're sitting down, because no matter how strong or heavy you might think you are, you are nothing compared to his strength.
Chiharu:
A menace. He will walk up to you and smack your ass so gotdamn hard that you just won't know what to do beyond pass away on the spot. He sees nothing wrong with it, and he will continue to do this. There's no rhyme or reason either.
Are you getting nasty with him? Don't let him near your ass, because he will bite you, it will hurt, and you can't even get mad at him because he does it out of sheer love.
Steal his pants. I'm serious, steal them. Just walk out with them on, he'll practically break his own neck doing a double-take. They look great on you, and they're incredibly comfortable. It's a win-win!
Feel free to torment him by returning the favour by the way, he knows he can be a bit much, but he can take what he dishes out and more.
Katsumi:
Problem child. He'll use any excuse he can to get at you in general, he's very touchy. That being said, we have seen how efficient this man is at slapping things. He slaps you once and it's over. He slaps your butt and you're going to need ice.
He's also the kinda guy to bite your butt, for no reason. Fresh out the shower? Chomp. Trying to relax in shorts? Chomp. He doesn't even try to explain or justify it, he just does it.
Much like Chiharu, you can return the favour. Unlike Chiharu, he's going to play up every little bit of his response. Did you slap him back? Oh he's going to moan and whine, and by the time you get him to shut up, you're both laughing so hard neither of you can breathe.
He will try and get you into a karate uniform from the Dojo. Is it for personal reasons? Mayhaps. He thinks that it'll look good on you either way, either way he'll get a nice look at his precious in a karate uniform.
Jack:
I don't want to say that he doesn't care, but he just doesn't make a big deal about it. He thinks you're stunning and perfect just the way you are. Does he appreciate a bit more to hold onto? Sure thing! Is he going to start grabbing at you randomly? Not really, no.
Does he occasionally admire? Oh absolutely, he managed to bag you, he's going to admire you every chance he gets. He's a bit dense, but he's not blind.
That being said, if you dress up all nice for him, all of what I've previously said goes straight out the window. He is LOOKING (respectfully) and he is going to be touching, mentally prepare for that fact, because once he starts he's not going to stop for a while.
Lord help anyone that dares to even think of copping a feel or admiring while he's around. He may be pretty, but this man is a solid 8ft tall and has a natural glare that could kill an army.
Kosho:
Also doesn't make a big deal out of it, but you know that he loves ass just by looking at him. He'll admire, he'll touch, and if you're laying on your stomach, he'll use the booty as a pillow in a rare moment of relaxation.
If you really want to drive him wild (re: insane) then wear some tights around the house. He's going to behave himself, he swears, but if you bend over one more time he cannot be held responsible for what he's about to do.
Which is to say that he'll slap the soul out of you and then drag you back to the bedroom. Will you emerge alive? Who knows! He doesn't, and you probably won't either.
Kureha:
He cares, but he's a bitch, so he'll make it seem like he doesn't. That being said, he's so incredibly obvious about his stares and his little hand twitches while he definitely doesn't fantasize about grabbing a hand full that it's almost comedic.
He lowkey (re: highkey) worries about your back, so sometimes he'll just walk up, grab your waist and start rubbing little circles into the base of your spine under the pretense of being bored and wanting to see what you're doing.
He will buy you clothes and expects you to wear them, because he likes they way they look on you. Even if you only wear them around the house for him, he'll be pleased.
Why yes, he is jealous, how did you know? If he catches anyone even so much as glancing at your butt, he's going to glare them into another dimension.
Retsu:
Virgin monk is a virgin, and he was raised not to stare because that's rude. That being said, he can't help it, he thinks your butt is beautiful and he'll outright tell you that whatever you're wearing looks flattering. Has he said this while you were naked? Yes. Yes he has.
Once he gets more comfortable, he's all about grabbing and squeezing at your hips, thighs and butt, though it's all in good fun, he means well by it, and he absolutely appreciates you letting him do this.
He has such comfy pants, much like Chiharu, so you should absolutely steal them from time to time. You know those things are flattering, you've seen them on him after all.
If you ever want someone to watch your form while you're doing squats or lunges, he's your guy, because unlike the others, who would absolutely take this seriously and not just use it as an excuse to stare at your butt the entire time.
#baki headcanons#baki son of ogre#baki the grappler#baki dou#grappler baki#baki rahen#baki hanma#kozue matsumoto#hanayama kaoru#chiharu shiba#katsumi orochi#jack hanma#kosho shinogi#kureha shinogi#retsu kaioh
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You've got mail!
Alt title: Single Ghost babes in your area
Yan Chain-Letter Entity + Amab/G.N "Loser" Reader [smut, mdni]
[Tags: light horror elements, masturbation, tit fucking]
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!WARNING!
Now that you've read this, there is no going back.
The woman in this photo was a young bride getting for her big day. Following traditions of her new family, she was forced to wear her veil the entire week predating the ceremony, and quite unhappy with her situation. Her marriage was arranged and she had yet to fall for her new husband. She begged for a way out, help given in the form a voice from the shadows offering to change her appearance the night before her wedding. When her husband and in-laws saw her new face the next day - they all went mad from terror. This image is the only picture of her face and she'll do anything to keep it hidden.
Send this message to eight people in seven days, or she'll visit you at midnight on the final day."
"...."
"... hear me out..."
The air stills - warranted caution to keep your big mouth shut where input was not needed - or wanted.
"Why is she hot?..."
A collective, drawn out groan harmonizes from those plagued by your company.
"..what the actual fuck is wrong with you?"
Below the totally scary and terror inducing text was a photo of a woman shrouded in darkness. Part of her dark outline rooted from the shadowy grey veil draping to her long, thin neck, and waist-length jet black hair framing her pale, ashen skin. Her sunken eyes and mouth agap in a silent scream stretched the cloth against her hollow cheeks - small, white irises fainty visible from her empty sockets and the veil that hide them. The same white eyes your friend had alleged to have been staring them back at them when they looked in the mirror all week.
As unsettling as the picture was to most in your group, your eyes had settled on the more pleasant sight of her shapely figure shown off in the tightly fitted, lacey gown she wore.
"What?! I can't be the only one that noticed how huge her tits are! I hate when people make these cheesy attempts to scare you, and the monster that's supposed to be sooo scary is just some ghost. You can't even really see her face in the first place!"
"God, how do we put up with you... Just make sure you send that back to the rest of us before you leave."
The bulk of your collective friend group had gathered to comfort the unfortunate soul who received the email, and squander their fears by sending it between one another to meet the chain letter's rule. You tagged along for the offer of free lunch, and now that you've gotten your meal you're ready to head home and avoid meeting these people again with the exception of an online space. You stand up from the table, tucking your phone into your back pocket.
"Yea, yea I'll do it when I get home."
"Y/n..."
"I said I'll do it later. I promise, as soon as I get through the door I'll do it."
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11:58....
11:59....
12..
Opening your eyes, you expect to find angry, sunken eyes staring back, but all you see is the blank white wall of your ceiling. A week ago, you sorta forgot about the whole chain letter scare by the time you made it home, and only remembered minutes before the deadline upon realizing how pathetic it'd look if you died with your dick in your hands when you opened a new priva tab on your laptop. As figured, not a damn thing happened upon the stroke of midnight and quite frankly you felt it must've just been some stupid prank by your friends after not hearing a word from any of them during that time frame. You guessed there'd be no hot ghost chick to cause your untimely demise this time - but it never hurt to make sure.
"Gee, I sure hope a sexy ghost doesn't pop out to kill me right as I pull down my sweatpants. That would sure suck, and the embarrassment alone would probably end me!"
Nothing. You reopen your laptop with a heavy sigh. "Welp- Since I'm still alive, guess it's back to tonight's scheduled plans."
Tugging one hand into the waist of your sweats, you pull up one of your usual sites for quality adult content - scouring for the right material to fit the mood. Alot of good choices, but strangely every thumbnail you clicked lead to a dead link. You switch to multiple sights, but the same thing just kept happening. Frustrated, you don't bother wasting time looking at the preview of a message sent by one of your friends as you scroll. If they could wait this long to text you, they could wait a little longer for you to respond.
Ready to throw in the towel and let your imagination work its magic - you finally manage to get a stream open through sheer determination and miscellaneous presses.
"Finally...." You push your sweats past your thighs as the video opens on a woman sitting on a bed. The room is too dark to see most of her, but the camera and lighting was centered on all you needed to see to pull out your swelling length. The woman's flowing gown hugged the plump flesh of her thighs, rolling up to her hips - and revealing the of her transparent fabric of her underwear as she parted her legs slowly. She removes one strap from her shoulder, long hair falling over her breasts as she contorted to better fit her face into frame.
Head crashing into your pillow with a small groan, you fist your cock to the woman's beautiful image and thought of her large tits in placement of your palm. Your hand could only mirror a fraction of their softness and you whine as your thumb pressing the tip, picturing plush lips closing around you as you came. Your entire being yearned to paint her pretty face and chest in your release - narrowly avoiding the unnatural whites of her eyes at the intensity and build up of your climax left your own body out of your control.
Peeling your eyes open for the second time, the speed of your hand slows as you start to get the odd feeling of being watched. Looking back at the screen, the woman stares back, appearing directly in front of the camera as cold sweat breaks down your neck. Her fingers slither along the glass, reaching through your monitor as your eyes widen in horror. You scream- throwing the laptop as far from your person as you coward against the bedframe. It lands, screen upwards feet from your bed. Loud cracks and snaps play from the speakers as the woman pulls herself free with janky, articulated movements. Her gown falls down to her knees and her veil washes over her face as she climbs to her feet.
You pull your blankets over your shamefully, almost painfully hard dick as you raise your hands in defeat. "Please don't kill me! I'll send the messages right now, for real!'
The woman cocks her head to one side - eyes shrinking as you cover yourself.
"Don't hide...."
She crawls over your quivering legs, gripping at the end of her veil.
"I've taken on so many face - yet, none of them have ever been called attractive before.... Tell me..."
The room light's flicker as she pulls the veil upwards - slowly revealing the dark void where her face used to be. Thin claw marks drew from the intact flesh of her cheeks and jaw to the permanent shadows gouging her features dug deep as if whatever had done this to her had taken more than just her face. The pearly points of her teeth and the whites of her eyes were all that remained of her mortal beautiful. Shaking in fear, your body betrays your fright as your cock jumps watching her drag her tongue over her sharp rows of teeth.
"Do you think I'm beautiful now?...."
At lost for words, you dip your head in reply - eventually squeaking through a strained voice. "You're the hottest ghost that's ever been in my room.
The woman's body writhes with a full body shutter as she takes the blanket in her hands. "Let's see that I'm the only person in your bedroom... living or otherwise."
You hiss from the cool air enveloping your cock as the entity tears the last shield protecting your shred of dignity away. It not like the had much to begin with, but sleeping with the ghost that most likely killed your friends definitely took whatever was left. Her heated breath fans your skin as your cock springs from your shorts and against her cheek. Turning her head, your muscles lock as her sharp teeth come to contact with the head of your penis. There's some give before them, lips hidden by the shadows of her face puckered around your weeping tip as an impossible long snakes from between the two and spirals down your girth as her breasts spill from her tightly fitted top.
Cradling an arm beneath them, the ghost woman sandwiches cards your dick between her breasts. Her tongue, still working around you, provides lubrication - and lewd suction as she bounces the weight of her large tits in your lap. The tip of her tongue grazes your balls and you feel them tighten as you rock your hips into the supple flesh of her chest. Her tongue squeezes at your increasing pulse and her veil falls back in place as she to uses both hands to better assist her assault on your pulsing dick.
You tangle your hand through her hair, cock swallowed by her breasts and plump lips. Your other gropes at her tits, toying with her nipples as hitched gasps and the growing sloppiness of your thrusts signed your peak. The coil in your lower abdomen breaks right as she pulls her lips from your swollen head, using her tongue, face and breasts to catch the milky fluid that pumps from you in thick spurts. The white streaks contrast the dark silhouette of her face and as she looks up at you, you use a discarded blanket to wipe some of it away before collapsing on your mattress in a sweaty, panting heap.
The cotton touch of your pillow is placed with soft flesh as the woman crawls beside you in bed and pulls you closer to her. She brushes hair away from your clammy forehead, raising her veil to kiss your skin as your arms fall around her.
"Sleep now, my love... We'll play more once you've gotten some rest. I look forward to all the things we'll do in the future. I'm sorry about your friends, but I seem to be more of the jealous type..."
You fight off the spell of exhaustion to shrug lazily with a reply that makes your new wife smile from ear to ear.
"Eh.... fuck 'em, it was worth it."
#yandere#yandere imagines#yandere x you#yandere x reader#yandere scenarios#yandere blurb#yandere insert#yandere headcanons#yandere oc#female yandere#yandere ghost#yandere teratophilia#yandere smut
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Ok so-
Idk how but @weirdsillycreature guessed the character
This is really monster from her past ;w;
She was the weird creepypasta girl back in time, who also almost a scene girl but that's all she able to do-
Soooo explaining of her past self and more because yes :3
- like I tolded before, monster were into creepypasta and also wish to marry someone like Jeff the killer, well she's now with the jeff but the ffs and tts lol
- she were a alt scene and didn't able to go in the style much due to her being too broke for much and the trauma her mother caused
- her half bangs are cutted and her one eye is purple and burned due to a bullying from her ex band friend (yes she were a band kid, she's a guitarist)
- monster often had either short hallucinations or sudden anger snaps due to the abuse she went through, that also caused her to win the Nick "monster"
- like I told long time ago that monster being a lunatic is started by that, she had the anger snap after she found out that her xxxxpist take advantage of her one new friend and got her(the friend) disabled from the lower part completely, for the revenge and all, she went to her old band place and disable the guy's neck out it's body by stabbing the sharp side of her guitar to it, she also beat up and caused 2 more of her old friends to die, one being died by being pushed through glass window and got her throat and chest cutted and the other by monster literally strangled her with bare ands and even snapped her neck (bad parent game style-), the last words of that strangled friend was her calling monster a monster and ever since then, she kept that nick
- her earings was a gift from her first online crush who end up being beaten up by monster after they met up on a side road and she found out it was her old bully (he's alive and uglyer now lol)
More random facts you didn't know it true :D
- before finding out that the gang stop trying to end Jett and Albert actually being monster's brother, monster burned up the paper writings of her plans and angry notes to kill hunter (especially hunter, idk why), she still hates them a little but at least not murdurest way now
- monster first liked Jett after he show that he cares about lim, but after monster moved on about it since lim now got a family of his own, she started to falling for jett (the ship that called dip is now a legend couple lol)
- it not so opened yet but monster is bi, or bi ish but never liked a girl before (because she never get that close with one like that but eh lol)
- monster actually didn't liked anyone at first, Thomas, Albert, the gang, the feeling, she never liked any of them at first but soon later she warm up to them
- monster speaks Italian if she got too mad or just woke up from a deep sleep, she forgot her english at that times lol
- she's a night owl
- she hates thanksgiving times because her mother abandoned them at the thanksgiving morning, Thomas offered that this be not bad and wanted her to participate in the table but it took her some time, but she at least join on the table for at least an hour after Albert also talked with her, then she just go to the living room till the dinner is over-
(Vicky had a chat with her all night)
- monster loves tiramisu, like, TOO MUCH.
- monster is actually has her silly sides, mostly teasing people like Thomas or Albert of she knew they have a crush on someone or just to mess with them, also silly pranks as spooking them kindly from behind places or poking them from the sides (she knows boundaries so if you told her that you REALLY didn't like it, she'll stop lol)
- she's currently 30 years old, her birthday is on 12th October (idk much about ages or birthdays for ocs, I use a birthday generator for it so correct me if I'm wrong about it-)
Aaaand that's all-
#incredibox#orin ayo#breakthrough#incredibox breakthrough#incredibox orin ayo#tragibox#incredibox e.v.a.c.u.a.t.e#incredibox fanart#incredibox oc#wekiddy
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TOGA HIMIKO HEADCANONS!!!!
from me, a very correct himiko fan :3
these are kinda sad so erm warning for that
no 1. she's intersex, specifically she has classic CAH. as someone who's intersex her childhood and the story really resonated w me so i hit her w the beam. sorry
no 2. due to being intersex she kinda feels othered from her friends. they don't really know her or what she's going through, quirk and otherwise, and it made her feel like some evil imposter already. she has always felt like the odd man out, like a wolf among sheep. it made her violently ill at times just thinking of spending time with them because she felt so bad for it. and she if she wasn't feeling bad about it, then her parents were shaming her about it as if it didn't plague her every day. girl was going through it
no 3. when she meets magne it's her first time being able to not only interact with another openly queer person but also the first time she's able to have a good girl friendship. they learn how they want to interact with femininity together, like in canon they're literally the sisters of all time. i love found family
no 4. since she wasn't able to be her true self for so long she's incredibly open about things, randomly spouting off thoughts and actions as she's doing them. this can be weird, from "i wonder if we're walking on unmarked graves right now and the dead guys are mad at us" to "i think i'm gonna poop in thirty minutes"
no 5. she loves a good horror movie, it's another thing she didn't really get to enjoy before leaving. in the league dabi of all people showed her jennifer's body and it's been her favorite movie since. she sometimes paces around in circles for a while replaying it in her head when she's stressed and can't watch it
no 6. despite her taste for blood and me drawing her eating raw meat, i don't think she'd like actual steak raw. if it's not charcoal she won't eat it. she's only eating her steak if it looks like dabi cooked it
no 7. when she still lived with her parents she had an online persona as her only release to be herself, and on there she and ochako were mooties :3 neither know that. one time himiko got online for the last time and posted "might not be on for a while, i'm sorry" and dipped. we all have that one old mootie who disappeared, she's ochako's now twice over
no 8. she likes to debate silly things, she sees debate as fun conversation and nothing personal. this has led to a ton of heated argument with the other person storming off and her standing there confused
no 9. she did have a brother, a twin brother, but her family made it nigh impossible for her to keep up with him. shigaraki, spinner, dabi, twice, they all take up the spot in her mind in different ways. she likes to watch shigaraki play games over his shoulder and not say anything till he's about to win- scares him out of his skin. he never lets her play with him though, and that's where spinner comes in. she'll play with him in the mha equivalent to cod and mario cart. dabi's that angsting brother role, and she likes to steal his jacket. he got her one that looked sorta like it, she wore it till it ruined beyond wearing, then dissected a stuffed animal and shoved inside as a keepsake. twice is a brother in the way the two naturally click in conversation, activities, everything. he'd be the twin she never had if she didn't have one
no 10. her twin is neito, the last time they ever spoke was a little interaction in public before he got into UA. she asked him if he wanted to catch up and he- out of fear of what their parents would say- ran. she didn't see him one on one like that ever again
#toga himiko#league of villains#intersex toga himiko#autistic toga himiko#headcanon#headcanons#hc#mha#bnha#im intersex btw if that wasnt clear#perisex ppl if you hate grrrr scroll away#please#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#Spotify
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Operation: Fix friendship
-DramaKing makes a new chat-
-DramaKing names New Chat to Operation: Fix Friendship-
-DramaKing added 5 participants-
-DramaKing online-
-CommanderHighheels online-
-Itsybitsyspider online-
-Steve online-
DramaKing: This is getting out of hand
CommanderHighheels: I know. It's been an entire week
Itsybitsyspider: I heard Megatron spoke with Illusion earlier today because of their break-up
Steve: They can't stop being friends!!! We need them
CommanderHighheels: I know but that argument from a week ago was brutal
Steve: yh, I could hear it from the other side of the ship
DramaKing: But the conditions they left each other in...
CommanderHighheels: I'm impressed Soundwave made sure she wouldn't lay a scratch on Shockwave
Itsybitsyspider: it shows how far the quiet kid loves the nerd
-ScienceShock online-
ScienceShock: What is going on here?
Itsybitsyspider: about time you're here
Steve: how's Soundwave?
ScienceShock: He's still recovering mentally
ScienceShock: Illusion will pay for this
CommanderHighheels: leave her out of this! She was mad
ScienceShock: Illogical. Who in the right mind would call Soundwave a freak?
CommanderHighheels: that's the lightest insult she ever gave to Soundwave. You should of seen the insults in the arena
Steve: you watched their fights?
CommanderHighheels: yh, I mean, how would I have met them?
Steve: cool
Itsybitsyspider: back to the mission. Shockwave, we need your help
ScienceShock: for?
Steve: Fix Soundwave's and Illusion's friendship
ScienceShock: pass
CommanderHighheels: DUDE! it's the only way Soundwave won't be upset anymore
ScienceShock: and what if she hurts him again?
Steve: she won't if she's really sorry
ScienceShock: hmmmm, logical
CommanderHighheels: good
In another private group chat:
-Buckethelm online-
Buckethelm: ILLUSION!!!
-CannibalHolocaust online-
CannibalHolocaust: w h a t ?
Buckethelm: have you talked to Soundwave yet?
CannibalHolocaust: no and probably never again
Buckethelm: I wish Prime was here to talk with you about this
CannibalHolocaust: you can add him
Buckethelm: oh
-Primeboi added-
-Primeboi online-
Primeboi: uh-
Buckethelm: Fix her
Primeboi: um why?
CannibalHolocaust: First 3 seconds, you haven't escalated to an argument yet
Buckethelm: don't jinx it
Primeboi: I need to know why is Illusion upset? I can see it radiating off her texts
CannibalHolocaust: You haven't lost your touch. I am upset
Buckethelm: she had a fight with Soundwave
Primeboi: physical or mentally?
Buckethelm: both
Primeboi: May I ask why?
CannibalHolocaust: he betrayed me
Primeboi: ?
Buckethelm: he's dating Shockwave
Primeboi: oh! Good for him
CannibalHolocaust: NO KTS NOT!!! SOUNDWAVE SAID HEVHATED HIM AND NOW HES DATING UIM!!! WHO THW FUCK DOES TYAT!? RYATS BULLSHIT!!!!
Primeboi: Illusion calm down. I can't even read your text for typing too fast
CannibalHolocaust: he said he's always hated Shockwave for his stupidity in following logic and now I find out they interfaced!!!
Primeboi: They can change their minds Illusion
Buckethelm: he's right. Like me and Prime
CannibalHolocaust: You both were brothers then enemies, and now brothers again
Buckethelm: see?
CannibalHolocaust: You guys suck
-CannibalHolocaust offline-
Buckethelm: she'll cool off eventually
Primeboi: I hope soon
-Primeboi offline-
-Buckethelm offline-
Illusion throws her small phone across the room as she sighs heavily
Illusion: 《HAZARD!!!》
Hazard appears from her nap as she looks up towards her mom- i mean master
Hazard: [What now? You're never usually pissy unless]
Illusion: 《Shut up and get me rust sticks》
Hazard: [can I have some?]
Illusion: 《no》
Hazard: [....]
Illusion: 《fine》
Hazard leaves and heads straight to the mess hall. She attempts to reach for the shelves by stacking empty energon cubes on top of each other.
Rumble: look who's trying to get some rust sticks
Frenzy: The little threat
Hazard turns her helm and glares at the twins.
Hazard: [FRAG OFF! my master is upset at yours!]
Frenzy: and ours is with yours
Rumble: you should get her to apologize to our pops
Hazard: [shove it down your tanks! I'm no messenger]
Hazard obtains the rust sticks but quickly starts to wobble of the stack of cubes.
Hazard: [Frag-]
Hazard falls on top of Rumble as the rust sticks fall in Frenzy's hand.
Frenzy: thanks. Cmon Rumble let's give them to pops
Hazard: [give it to me]
Rumble: no
Hazard: [..........]
-on the other side of the ship-
Soundwave is currently wrapped in blankets as he watches the monitor. Shockwave looks away from his phone and looks towards him.
Shockwave: Soundwave. It's illogical that you stay upset like this for a week. Everyone is worried.
Soundwave: /lies/
Soundwave buries himself in the blankets as Shockwave sigh heavily.
Soundwave: /where are the twins? I want my rust sticks/
Shockwave: I'm sure they're on their way-
Steve: SOUNDWAVE!!!!
Steve is currently catching his breath as both Shockwave and Soundwave stare at him. They hear loud noises coming from the other side of the ship.
Shockwave: what's going on out there?
Steve: the minicons...
Steve falls to the ground, exhausted
Soundwave: /what about the twins?/
Steve: They're trying to kill Hazard
Shockwave and Soundwave both look at each other before quickly bolting towards the door.
Soundwave: /MY KIDS!!!/
They'll be fine. Enjoy this post.
@chamm0y @mr-playlist @breakitoutwildbreak
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#transformers#illusion#soundwave#starscream#shockwave#megatron#arachnid#steve#Rumble#frenzy#Hazard#wavewave#decepticons
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This is a post for my anti fellow buddy @anti-gruvia-blog and not Gruvia friendly
I was originally going to privately send them this rant but I wanted them to have a easier chance to access it without scrolling up and down aimlessly. Hope you enjoy You asked for a rant. Heh you ain't even gotta ask twice my friend. My personal reasons and overall view why Gray should absolutely hate Gray from my 3 rewatches of the anime, 2 rereads of manga and audio script commentaries online.
Gray should see her as his biggest enemy for the simple fact that she doesn't respect him. There is not a single moment in the show she offers respect to Gray. Why does she need to give Gray respect? Because that's what equals do, she doesn't see Gray as a equal. Frankly she sees herself above him and he sees this. She demonstrates this "I'm better than everybody and I get what I want" attitude that frankly should repulse Gray because in his inner circle of close friends. He's only had Lyon with that mindset but he quickly checked that. Why does he falter with her? Plot and writing manipulation.
They try so hard to make you think Gray loves Juvia but it just falls flat everytime. If he hated her, it would make sense and justify all these useless gags with no payoff. I've seen 52 romance-comedy animes that delve into the will they or won't they territory but this shit was just pissing me off for the 100th time they teased it.
The "relationship" is only really seen through Juvia's lens and not Gray's. We don't get a deep look at his feelings for Juvia because if we did we'd only see irritation,hatred,agony and pain. She drives him mad but he scaredly tolerates because she'll fucking cry like a bitch and run off in total despair over it. This run and go tactic controls Gray in Juvia's eyes. She has him wrapped around her finger and it's just pleasing to the viewer or audience(that is if they have a brain) watching and seeing a young man voluntarily walk into his own demise or trap. He knows it never ends well with Juvia's schennigans. It's not some high school innocent crush that is confident with her feelings It's someone with a horrible ego that takes nobody's feelings except their own into consideration. It's fact Juvia thinks she loves Gray. It's a fact Juvia thinks she and Gray are destined soulmates. It's a fact she would die for Gray. It's a fact she hates anyone that steals time away from Gray. These are all signs of a severely controlling,manipulative,absuive and yandere-type of person that would do anything to convince the person they love..to love them back. In theory that is. The ever so presentable delusion of mind in humans is we convince ourselves that we actually believe something is real when all evidence points to it not. Juvia is that prime example of someone lost in their own head and doesn't take into account that Gray could actually not love her. It's almost offending and unbelievable to her that Gray could not hold her heart or her hold his.
She just doesn't stop and he needed a moment in the show to recognize. "This isn't right. We are not healthy for each other. I don't love you and...you don't love me" she loves this illusion of Gray that her mind manifested in their first meet. They didn't meet each other in a bar, they didn't meet each other by chance. They met each other in a war of guilds and she didn't care how misleading the circumstances are. NEVER taking Gray's feelings into account. That's my biggest takeaway from Gruvia, it's just so severely painfully annoyingly re** one-sided as fuck and for no good reason. This ship is taken seriously so the comedy excuse doesn't work because the writer drops these teases,hints and clues for you to ship them when you shouldn't.
Gray has absolutely zero reason to love Juvia because she hinders his relationships with others,takes his time away,doesn't respect his space,touches him without his permission and just geuninely doesn't appreciate his identity. She just wants him to exist for her to exploit. If he has free will and can actually think for himself than that's a problem for her
because her fake pathetic fairy tale(don't say it!) all falls apart in 1 breath. She has to keep persuing because the moment she slips and allows him to think than it's over and she can't have that. I frankly can't stand the sight of them together. The Invel fight was forced garbage to make you see their relationship outside of what it actually is not this "Male Tsundere waiting to come around to persuasive crush". IT'S DISGUSTING SOCIALLY EMOTIONAL RAPE! Juvia should have died and I will never forgive the fans crying about her fakeout and forcing Mashit to revive her back. Fuck Juvia,fuck this fake Gray,fuck the writer,not fuck to the people who ship it because they can ship whatever they want but fuck the toxic stans that gave me death threats and FUCK THIS SHOW FOR WASTING MY TIME!
You know why Gray,me,you,the writer,Juvia herself,the actors and fans should absolutely hate this horrendous sad disgusting ship? It's a lie. It's just a long con of lies with nothing convincing. How anybody can actually believe these 2 in any anime or show let alone a manga would ever function as a healthy couple need help. Their relationship is the definition of male victim,female aggressor,blind fans. Problem is everybody's tune would change FAST. Really fast if the roles were reversed, Gray was constantly groping and massaging Juvia's boobs,rubbing his back on hers while she's never consenting to the physical touches. The sight of him humping and grinding on a body pillow of her in a nightgown would be so traumatizing and downright disturbing. Like would anybody on this god green earth really keep quiet about a grown man intimidating this young female's friends that so much as breath around her? Nah. Would they be silent or content with Gray using his magic to entrap her? Nah. They would fucking lose their minds and that's what loses me the most with this ship. It's not real(Duh Jackson!). Well yes it's fictional but it just seems like a nonrealistic,fake,arbiturary big hallucination in Fairy Tail that doesn't fit in or make sense if you look at everything. The closest offender to it is Gajeel stringing up Levy and than getting with her or Natsu ALWAYS ALWAYS in Lucy's room without her permission. Like bro ask and please leave her tiddies alone. Thank you bye! Rant over. My brain is fried and hope you enjoy my friend
#anti gruvia#gruvia fans DNI#anti fairy tail fandom#anti fairy tail#gruviugh#I can't explain in proper details how much i hate this ship and what it psychologically does to me in my sleep
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» mentions of otherkin intolerance cw
I got my wig today
I finally look like myself
Soon enough I will take a photo of me wearing my old clothes. Some would call it cosplay, I'd call it my usual normal clothes that i was meant to wear since the beginning or something stupid like that
I missed all my classes last week but today I'm going back to uni. My friends must be mad at me, I left them in the middle of our group assignment. Last time, one of my classmates tried kicking me out of our group because I was nonverbal for a bit, but my dear buddy helped me keep my spot
She doesn't like otherkin unfortunately. Sometimes I feel like expressing this sense of terrible dysphoria to her but she'll never ever understand. I only met one person in real life who ended up coming out as fictionkin of a character she used to be obsessed with. But my parents don't let me hang out with her anymore. So I'm forced to hang out with people who probably would call me a weirdo for all of this fictionkin stuff
I do have online friends who know about it, but they're all not into this stuff either. They just tolerate it coming from me because they were my friends before i came out about it. I have a friend who seems to be touhou fictionkin but every time i try to bring it up to them, they always avoid the question and it makes me all confused
...I think I said too much
I'm not even sure how this turned into a vent post
Anyway
I got my wig today.
I will buy my cosplay soon.
You're probably not going to ever see me in real life since I don't leave in america, but if you do spot me at cons, be gentle. Please. I'm bad at conversation
I'm not sure if anyone would ever be interested in this blog, let alone seeing the dress, but... Ah, I'm doing this for myself, am I not
And no, I'm probably not getting my third eye, I don't have enough money to buy more props
#koishi komeiji#touhou fictionkin#touhou#regarding my appearance#otherkin#fictionkin#that was a lot#but i like the wig#it almost looks just like what i remember my hair looking like#i just need to make some curls and voile#my hair was not straight!!!! wah!!!
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Slight vent/rant since I gen need to blow some steam off or wtv
CW? None
I'm so fucking done with one of my best friends.(Let's just refer to her as K to not get confused) I love her so much but she's been pushing me to the limit for the past month.
For some context I used to mostly only talk to her and only her bc we got really close super fast, but recently I've gotten back in contact with one of my older friends and I've started talking to him a lot as well. And I'm not sure why, but K got distant after he commented on one of my videos on tiktok and I replied to him ofc. I noticed this really quickly, but she just became super dry and distant. So eventually I got tired of being the 'energetic' one since all she would reply with was : 'yeah', 'real', 'gn', 'mhm' etc.
So I started talking to her less, I still talked to her everyday but not as much.
After a while, she posted a video basically saying that everytime she gets a close to someone they eventually find a best friend and leave her. And in the caption she said "I know it's selfish but I just want someone to keep for myself'.
And tbh that pissed me off, because like I mentioned earlier, I used to only talk to her. But in that time she also talked to many other people, but apparently when I start talking to ONE OTHER FUCKING person it's not alright?? I don't understand this. I wanna talk to her about this but how do I even approach her abt this?? Istg I just wanna sob. I've communicated with her many times about some thoughts I've had but this one I just can't. I know we'll get even more distant if I do say anything. But it's so tiring since I'm basically stuck acting like everything when it's actually not.
A few days ago I posted a video saying "me after making every older person I know online my older sibing' and I tagged both of them. K asked who my online brother was and I told her that it was the other person tagged in the video. She then dm'ed me " omg... HIS NAME..." and said that she'll be keeping her eyes on him. I found that kinda funny so I told him about it, he got kinda mad(?) due to it. So now I feel like I might have to choose between them soon, which I don't wanna do. I love them both sm I can't just pick one of them. Why r friendships so hard istg they make me wanna sob
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1.Showdown On My Sombrero
A Sky Longing For Memories
"You have explicitly, expressed your contempt for me, You have got student loans to pay and can't risk alimony"
Nah, I am not writing a song lyrics, like I have even changed the first line cause even I am not interested in matrimony or stuff close to that, however the idea of having someone you like or can like, someone you can claim that when you go home you'll ask her out. Sometimes that someone can provide you a little hope and dream and a way to feel less miserable when you are suicidal. That sight of someone leaving actually hurts the most on the last day of school. Factually speaking I have got one more day to go to school as I have got an exam on 2nd April but its of a minor subject that only 25 out of 2-300 students had opted. So she'll not be coming . She has different subjects so she did not even come on 9th the day I saw most of my friends for last time. She has got an exam on 19th but I don't think I should go solely to meet her. After all I' ve got some self respect. Nah, actually I have not but I am haughty and if she was interested in me even half as much I was in her, she should have asked me out. I wouldn't have said no. Maybe. I wrote her messages. She didn't reply to any of them. None was informal, none was mentioning the sky I dream to go to with her. All were formal asking her to bring her books or whatever asking her to prepare for her part in the group activity we were in. Actually there were three of us and the other boy. Ah I so much love the classic love triangle .Thomas hardy wrote one with it- Far from the madding crowd.
"... and whenever I look up, there will be you."
She might be Everdene for me but I was none of her two lovers. I was the third wheel who watched all of it happen as if I had no say in the story-a proper NPC.A gal and a guy are talking in a room or in a walkway about physics ,chemistry or work .Suddenly a wild bidoof appears, and they stop talking, try to go away excuse themselves out. Bidoof texts the girl that he'll do this and that work and she'll do that work ,girl doesn't see even after being online. Sees it after a day, doesn't care to reply. Bidoof stops talking to her. Bidoof talks to the other guy who is a genuine friend and was a friend even before the gal arrived to know more about progress of work. The project is finished, group wins but gal talks and celebrates with guy. Bidoof also joins in. They talk for sometime. Go and collect award. Boy goes on to talk with other competitors and does no talk with team. Alpha male asks him to click his photos, he does but has no further talk. On the outset alpha is a general guy and bidoof has come to like him and respect him for he has also earned his place as one of the top 3 representing the school but so has bidof. Now what?
If you've been a third wheel before you know you are that bidoof. You are in team and you were critical at junctures , but no ONE cares. Actually one person cares and it's you Bidoof. MAKE SURE YOU DON'T CARE ANY LONGER , bidoof.
How do we fall in love-that would warrant another blog post. How love was manufacture d by durex to sell more condoms? And lawyers to make up reasons for women to marry men and take up half of their money when brain stops producing enough dopamine, oxytocin and like. And guys like Hardy and Dickens and Shaw and Shakespeare milked it to generate money. I might throw your pop musicians in as well for a good measure. Dylan, The Beatles, Cash, Smiths all talked of love even when they were in protest era, Even Vietnam vets CCR didn't shy from a song like that. And among fortunate son, Proud Mary and related stuff the most popular Creedence Clearwater Revival video is this one. Even most indie songs are of love as if you have nothing better to think about but about it, I'll talk next time.
I'll come up with more stories about her and love is something that makes a man drunkard or author. I didn't get to experience any of it in high school so at least I got to write out a few stories of encounters I had with her to make up for lost time and opportunities to be happy
youtube
#school memories#first love#crush#love#heartbreak#creedence clearwater revival#first post#college#memories#trauma#Youtube
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You may already be aware, but I actually found ppl going back and forth on Reddit about a post you'd made on here (re Viserys being a shite parent). It's under r/HouseOfTheDragon in case you ever wanted to check it out. I just recognized your name, as I follow you and it was shared as a screenshot from here.
lmao i will never get over how wild reposting on the internet actually is. that fucker has over a thousand comments and i had no idea until you told me just now! literally made a reddit account to try to add my voice to the din just to encourage people to discuss on the original platform so i can see but tbh people on reddit are a lot meaner than tumblr so i won't be mad if it doesn't get too many upvotes.
reddit's responses to this post is such an interesting case study in the polarization that's happening everywhere online. i get SO MANY accusations of being wildly biased from supporters of both "teams" all the time and it's funny because like am i too team green or too team black bc i can't be both right? mostly i think it's because people get really defensive when you criticize a character and assume it means you hate them. like bruh we are adults with big girl emotions can't it be a little more complex than that?
when i say i think viserys is a bad parent, i'm not saying it as team green propaganda. i've said before that rhaenyra is the rightful ruler and that i absolutely adore her as a character (let's just say aemond isn't my only babygirl). there's a reason i've written 100k+ words of fanfic designing a political scenario where she'll be able to happily rule without any of her children dying. spoiler alert: it's not because i hate her and think she's a bad ruler. and she's far from the only character on team black i love: daemon, jacaerys, lucerys, and baela all come to mind.
it's also really interesting to me that people see my opinion about viserys and, even though i literally did not mention rhaenyra, assume that i'm somehow shitting on her. it just goes to show how much they stand blindly by one team or another. that to criticize one member of their "team" feels to them like you're criticizing every member. like baby, i'm not the one making it about teams: you are! honestly, i understand why the team mentality was a good marketing move, but it really has been the death of critical thinking in this fandom. there are aspects of both that we're meant to root for, just as there are aspects of both we're meant to hate. none of these people are objectively morally good, and that's what makes it interesting, so why are we trying to pretend otherwise?
so while yes, i don't like viserys, why would i extend that dislike to rhaenyra? it's not like she forced him at gunpoint to do the things i'm criticizing him for lol. in fact, i think viserys did her just as dirty most of the time. i have another post in the works about this, but he neglected her for her entire childhood, groomed her best friend and dealt with telling her in the worst possible way, and made her heir in a bid for her affection yet did none of the actual work to honor her as a ruler. he could have made her his hand but instead he made her pour his wine?
now, again, just because we dislike part of something does not mean it's all bad. do i think viserys is generally quite a bad parent and person? absolutely. did i also cry ugly tears in the scene where he forces himself up from his literal deathbed to defend his daughter? yes. these two things can coexist.
also, because reddit is reddit, there are a bunch of comments that just miss my point about alicent and aemma entirely. i've already responded to those in a post here so i won't beat a dead horse too much. but to paraphrase: viserys married alicent because he liked her specifically not for duty or he would've married someone who wouldn't horrify the entire small council; and aemma didn't need to be alive and conscious for the pain she was put through at the end of her life. the things he did to his wives weren't necessary and i don't think we should be pretending they were.
lastly, it's really funny to me how many people incorrectly assumed i was a man in the comments. i'm genuinely the girliest girl to ever girl in real life (makeup jewelry and tits to the gods, sorority girly, the whole nine yards, i love it) and it gave me such whiplash. there's a joke to be made here about trying to weaponize male privilege somewhere.
#hotd#house of the dragon#viserys targaryen#viserys i targaryen#viserys#viserys i#rhaenyra targaryen#rhaenyra#alicent hightower#alicent#aemma arryn#aemma#show#books#team green#team black#hotd meta#meta
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AITA for asking my mother not to do certain things?
Let me start off by saying i'm homeschooled. I've been homeschooled my entire life. I don't have any friends offline, so I've pretty much come here to ask for outside opinions from my friend groups (online).
Prefer not to state ages, if that's okay. It makes me uncomfortable.
I have ocd, suspected autism, and either auditory processing disorder or misophonia (we're not sure which.) as well as a plethora of other issues. my mother is very aware that i have ocd (she has it herself) and i've mentioned misophonia to her several times. she doesn't know about my other mental issues, as for reasons you're probably going to see here, as i don't feel comfortable or safe telling her. (or, i've tried, and she doesn't listen, or tells me i'm "being dramatic.")
my ocd is quite crippling, to the point i've tried medication, herbal tea (chamomile seems to work a bit!), asking friends for advice, and even asking her for advice. as of the last year, it's had a grip on my life and has been quite a problem for me. i'm unable to do things i want or need to a lot, and especially struggle doing most things, even basic tasks. i'm unable to see a therapist/counsellor or psychologist/psychiatrist for personal/financial reasons.
a lot of my triggers (well, not exactly triggers for the ocd, but they stop me from doing things.) revolve around sound, especially people talking. whistling is a major trigger for my misophonia/apd, as are other high pitched noises.
my mother has a tendency to watch tv a lot, and i often ask her to not do this when i'm trying to do certain things, as it makes my ocd a bit worse, and it's often rather loud. (please note i wear headphones a lot of the time for sensory issues.)
however, when i ask her either to turn it down, pause it temporarily, or ask her to turn it off for a bit, she has a tendency to get mad/upset. to the point of throwing a bit of a fit over it, in a way that to me seems a bit attention seeking (in the bad way). she says things like "fine, whatever." and flaps her arms about dramatically or slaps her legs, or she says "i don't even wanna watch it now, it's ruined."
i'll go ahead and say she's a bit self-centered in a lot of ways. for years she has said i've "targeted" her and "treated her terribly" even though any time i was (to her) doing these things, i was usually defending myself or telling her to do something that she needed to do that had been requested for days/weeks/months/sometimes years. i also have a tendency to ask her what she's doing, either out of genuine curiosity, or because she has done something strange to me that i didn't understand. which she gets mad over.
she also gets mad if i ask if she's coming over here (i have a tendency to walk/pace in certain areas to music, it helps with stress/adhd/also helps me write/act things out. she is very aware of this and this isn't really a problem.) or ask how long she will be over here. she seems to think me asking this is telling her she can't come over, or desperately trying to get her to move. admittedly sometimes i DO want her to move, but 90% of the time i am just asking so i know if i need to move to a different area to walk or just stop temporarily.
sometimes when i am having a particular peak in my ocd/anxiety/whatever else, i ask her not to talk for a moment/few minutes, either so i can do something i need to, or because i'm afraid it will make it worse. she'll either get mad about this, or go on a tangent about "not catering to me" and saying things "the real world doesn't work like this, and nobody cares that you have ocd/issues." she has a tendency to take my issues as a personal attack on her, when in reality i would ask anyone to stop for a moment.
she has a tendency to belittle me in a sense for it. i've tried to explain some of it to her (without revealing details of my trauma she doesn't know about, as most of my ocd is linked to severe ptsd.) and she says it "doesn't make any sense" and i "need to stop" and i "need to just make myself stop." she has ocd, and knows compulsions are not always rational, and yet still says these things.
part of my desire not to go to a therapist is because of her. she claims they will either try to put me away take me to another home/put me in foster care, or drug me up on medication that will make me dull. (the other part is more personal, and unrelated to her, but to my aforementioned trauma.)
one of the things i especially ask her not to do is whistle, or make a few other certain noises (eating loud, using nail files around me, etc) because they are especially triggering to me. she'll either blatantly refuse and say i "don't get to tell her what to do" or i don't "control her" (please note i am just asking, but when i DO specifically tell her to stop, it is because she either already knows this sound is triggering to me, or i've already asked, and i'm losing my patience.) or she'll do it louder/more just to trigger me further (my father also does this. sometimes as a joke which in some ways is worse.) or she'll go on the "not catering + nobody cares" tangent again.
i know my ocd and other issues can be a bit interrupting, but i don't ask huge things of her or anyone else. all i ask is for them to not make certain sounds around me, temporarily ask them to not do something/stop doing something, or ask them to do it a bit quieter for me. please note she has the ability to watch tv/videos on other devices with headphones easily, she just chooses not to. and worse of all, they treat it like it's not interrupting to me, when it affects my everyday life in ways far worse than asking/telling them not to do something.
it makes me feel unwanted and unappreciated, and i'll admit, i've contemplated....not existing, if you will, many times over this issue and others.
i just don't really know if i'm asking too much, or if they're just being shitty. i want outside opinions on this.
so, AITA?
(id put a tl;dr in here, but i don't really know what to put. feel free to do it for me. also, i know this was kinda long, but i needed to put some extra things in, sorry if thats like an inconvenience or anything!)
(adding my sideblog here so i can get notifs, @ocdaitathrowaway)
What are these acronyms?
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ALEXANDER, HELP ME, IM DYING-😭😭😭 my bestie just said to me: hear me out, and im like, "what kind of abomination is your crush now?" and im fr, after she told me she liked Adam(HH) wITHOUT THE MASK I thought nothing could be worst. spoiler, IT CAN💀 she's like, "no, is a ship" and i just go "fuck" (she's the kind of person who shipps TojixGojo) ... im just going to copy-paste our conversation in here:
(i love her but bitch you r crazyyy):
Lili: it's a Moonlight Lovers ship
Me: If this is your Ethan x Ivan again I'm gonna punch you
Lili: it is not, hear me out😭
Me: u don't deserve me hearing you out after your James Potter x Severus Snape bullshit of the other day reading marauder's fanfiction but ok
Lili: ok, i realized that Vlad is an interesting character
Me: what do you mean by interesting💀?
Lili: that he just is such a cutie patootie that can be shipped with anyone in the manor except Ivan☺️✨
Me: WHAT
Lili: like Rapha x Vlad is such a cute couple, or Aaron x Vlad. is like a safe place.
Me: u r mad af
Lili: no, pls. like, Ethan x Vlad is just right. they can heal each other!
Me: u said this exact shit a week ago during the HP marathon in the scene Hermione punched Draco. wich im tempted to do rn, but we are, sadly, online
Lili: and Beliath x Vlad is just the perfect enemies to lovers! or rivals to lovers, better said. is my (second) personal favorite
Me: YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE A PERSONAL FAVORITE, THIS IS JUST INSANE😭😭😭
Lili: waittt, there is one more. THE one, with Vladiath. or the name is Belimir?
Me: NO💀 Lili, DON'T YOU Dare
Lili: 🥺🥺🥺🥺
Me: d-o-n-t s-a-y i-t
Lili: my top tier: Neil x Vladimir
Me: WHYYYYYYYY, WHY YOU GOTTA BE LIKE THISSS
Lili: but is just right 😭😭!
Me: make it have sense!!!! IT'S IMPOSSIBLE
Lili: it is not!!!
Me: ur parents shouldn't be ashamed of you being trans, they should be ashamed for this. u little fuck, whyyyy. just leave Vladimir alone!
Me: ur parents shouldn't be ashamed of you being trans, they should be ashamed for this. u little fuck, whyyyy. just leave Vladimir alone!
Lili: hsgajshkahsj, bitch🤣 ily, but i don't get how do you were chill after an actual conversion and mad about this
Me: I just have principles. My god, how crazy you are
Lili: Tumblr this to or verystrxxwberry! you'll see he'll have to agree with me on something.
Me: I swear if anyone in the entire world agrees with you on this I'll kill myself
anyways, she came over to my house and we're eating Nutella while i send this to you. you are both of us favorite's Moonlight lovers content creator, but my girl lili is just messed up in the head. (just joking, someday she'll be my bridesmaid,) it's awesome to be her friend, tho.
have a nice day, mah boi, and dON'T AGREE WITH THIS ATROCITY 💀💀💀💀.
You know, my heart did a giant backflip when I saw this giant message. Still, I am very glad I am very glad I am your fav ml content creator, that increases my ego 😎 (kidding but it makes me very happy to know!)
About ML ships... well, I genuinely believe that if we are talking about Vladimir, the healthiest ones would be with Raphael and Aaron. I never thought about the chance of Vladimir with Ethan or Beliath because they aren't his type at all, then Ivan is like the rebel kid on the mansion so.. no... but Neil 💀💀 I must confess he is my least liked character because I never ❗️ know❗️ what❗️to❗️write❗️for him❗️so my mind kinda deletes his presence most of the times. Still, it would be a very toxic ship if we dared to think abour Vladimir x Neil. If Vlad is already depressed, I think Neil would only drag him lower.
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piqued-curiosity/714824491771035648 and this is the post it's about: biphobia-central/710642957130268672 I'm sorry to gossip but this pisses me off so much. She really thinks it's ridiculous and unjust that bi women are mad she went out of her way to express support and admiration for a rape apologist that said bi women are just like TIMs. Of course she'll lecture bi women for "getting hung up" on something stupid and trivial like what worthless dick worshipers we are, but she won't ever ever criticize her friends reblogging those things uncritically. She doesn't see it as a bad thing if the woman she reblogged it from believes all those things lol the bad guys are obviously the dick worshipers that won't tell her she's justified for supporting this. Also like.... she's seriously comparing a random tumblr user that calls bi women dick worshipers to Andrea Dworkin? The prostitution and rape survivor that spent her life campaigning for women? Yeah Dworkin said some out there stuff but she's living in some fairy tale if she thinks Dworkin wasn't heavily criticized always. Just shows how she thinks the rape and effort of OSA women are insignificant compared to merely being a lesbian. Why doesn't she compare her beloved to the other random tumblr users here and now who get called porno shit by her buddies like once a month for saying they have a bf?
If someone frequently uncritically likes, reblogs, and interacts with biphobic/lesbophobic/misogynistic others, it's generally because they agree with the biphobic/lesbophobic/misogynistic others. Oh, it's infuriating, I just don't understand how some people can see an online friend/mutual make offensive, sexually degrading, or intellectually dishonest comments and simply look the other way. Like, whatever happened to being 'pro-women' and 'female-centric?'
There are unfortunately a huge number of radfems and radblr orbiters who do this and I'm honestly not surprised by P - I see her name pop up when I'm trawling through some of the most hateful biphobic blogs in the likes (but I can't say I know a lot about her specifically) (she's a recommended blog for some of them lol).
The comparison seems really lazy. Who's the rape apologist? Oh, and what do you think of the original 'postmodernism is bisexual supremacy' post?
#i don't disagree with the need to be critical of the second wave radfems - some of them were/are incredibly lesbophobic#(like julie bindel sheila jeffries marge piercy and gail dines - all are/support political lesbianism)#and i wouldn't blame any contemporary lesbians if they wanted to ditch their writings completely (i'd ditch historical biphobes tbh)#sorry i don't have more to say on P - i really don't know much about her or the context of that quote#anon
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I read online a rumor that an older Sylvie ends up behind the TVA and plays a villain. If that's true, it means Kang might get the Loki Treatment and be edged out of the show for Sylvie. Is Kang going to pine after her, too now?
I keep hearing the "don't like, don't watch" platitude about it all, but it's horrid. Our favorite character gets his own show after years of us latching on to the anemic trickle of Loki content. We look forward to it for so long, then it's got no characterization of Loki in favor of The Magical Mary Sue who's better than every character she meets no matter how strong they were originally. She'll treat them like some poo she stepped in, they'll fall for her after knowing her for not even a week regardless, and she goes "I don't have anyone 🥺" and we're supposed to feel sorry for her? And act like Loki finally loves someone when he loved several people (Thor, Odin, Frigga) to the point of desperation and self sacrifice.
And we're supposed to love Mobius, too. Aww, he calls Loki a cockroach who's only born to bring suffering and death, literally keeps him prisoner, locks him in a time loop to be beaten and degraded! So cute and sweet!
They been to rename the show Sylvie Sucks the Soul Out of Everything and Bureacratic Fascist is Just So Lovable. Sorry for ranting, this has been bugging me. A friend of mine loves the show but never saw the original movies. I had her watch A1 with me and she asked me why Loki was so scary and cold. Ugh.
(Love your blog and insights, btw)
Thank you dear 😉 And rant away, I don't mind it at all!
I heard that rumour too, it would be hilarious if Sylvie took centre stage in S2 after Kang is introduced in Quantmania and the fanboys got mad because she took the spotlight from him (we could use the "first time?" meme on them lol).
The "don't like, don't watch" always makes me laugh. When a movie/series is about to be released and someone says they're not interested they're hit with the "oh but if you don't give it a chance how will you know it's not for you?", so you do watch it but if you don't like it you voice your opinions and then you're hit with the "well if you don't like it don't watch it". Which is it then?!!!!! 😂😂🤦♀️
What happened to your friend is what bothers me the most about the series. For those of us who have been watching these movies for years we know the canon, we've seen them at a time when Marvel actually cared about Loki's character so we know his past. But now all the new fans who watch the series first are going to watch those movies with tainted glasses: they'll see the scene with the Kursed in TDW and think Loki is leading him straight to Thor and they will blame Frigga's death on him even though at the time did anyone ever think of blaming him? I doubt it. Now they'll see the NYC invasion and blame him and only him as if Thanos hadn't been the one to send him there -- we even have Banner admit as much in IW.
It sucks. If they wanted to ruin his character and a good chunk of his fanbase then mission accomplished. And my fear is they might use S2 to claim the Loki pre-series was never canon and no more than a Kang puppet who said and did whatever he wanted him to. I hope they don't do that but......... 🤷♀️🤢
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