#RAHHHHHHHHH I'LL DIE I'LL DIE I'LL DIE.

[raticalshoez]

I'M SO. ILL. LIFE SERIES ETHOSLAB RANT TIME.

When Etho cares for an ally, he'll sacrfice something of his own to save them, and it often means losing things that betters his chance at survival. Survival is very important to him.

Like, he doesn't consider himself a protector, but DAMMIT man he's always protecting. He's said himself, "I'm not a protector, Cleo. I'm a runner." But when Scar threatens to forcibly take back the life he gave Bdubs, he rushes to sign that weird contract the wizard guy offered because he doesn't want Bdubs to lose his life again. When Cleo is being chased by practically everyone on the server, he refuses to disclouse her location, even when everyone threatens to kill him because he chooses instead to be loyal to her.

It's ETHO who parades around the server to try and save Bdubs at the expense of losing time to do a boogey kill. THAT will get him killed, and he doesn't even need to get a life for Bdubs, but he does. He knows he can't win a fight against someone like Gem, but he protects Cleo and Grian anyways.

He protected them with what he could do. What he does best is lie and deceive and manuver his way through life. He's a sneaky guy, not a strong one. He's a clever person, not a powerful fighter.

I wouldn't say Etho is particularly loyal, but I think that much is clear. Often he will prioritize his life first, even if it means that an ally of his gets hurt. He never outright betrays them, but as much as he cares for his allies, Etho still tends to be all about self-preservation. That being said, Etho still definitely cares about his allies, a lot. Hell, I didn't mention it up there, but he's also covered for and protected Tango from the hunt back in Limited Life. Man is more of a protector than he thinks he is.

Also uh...mind shattering thing my mind thought of while watching this week's session.

"I'd fail for you, yes."

"That's nice."

"Say you'd fail for me--"

"I don't know if I would go that far, Bdubs."

...

"Etho's just a survivor, Bdubs. He has no loyalty to you."

"Yeah, he's just a survivor man. That's all he does."

"...He loves me. He cares...he does!"

I'M SICK. I'M SO ILL.