#Posting this here cause tumblr won't let me answer the original ask

[tormentedsoldier]

Send me 🔪 to put a knife to my muse’s throat and see how they react. (Brock, please! @crossxxbones )

After a failed mission that brought back more memories than Hydra had bargained for, the Soldier had escaped and managed to stay off their radar. For how long he couldn't be so sure. A couple of days, maybe even a week or two... Long enough to understand that going back wasn't an option at all. He'd tried to stay in the shadows for as long as he possibly could and leave no trace behind, but ultimately it had all been to no avail. They'd found him again just as he had feared they would and compared to what he knew was about to happen once they'd dragged him back, the cold sharp blade to his throat suddenly seemed no longer such a threat.

"Is that supposed to scare me?" He uttered a scoffed response as his fingers curled around the wrist of the man pining him with his back against the stone wall; making it impossible for him to move. Still, his lips were curved into a smile and blue eyes meeting Rumlow's gaze as he decided that - no matter how slim his chances - he would be damned to give up without a fight. And if Brock ended up killing him for his trouble? Well, at the very least that optin would spare him the hell of a lot of agony that was their favored torture device.

"Gonna need something a lot more convincing than that knife if you plan on dragging me back there with you." He hissed.

[carawenfiction]

Will we have an update soon?

Tumblr won't let me make normal posts for some reason, so the update will have to be in form of an answer to this ask smh. Anyway:

Hey everyone!

This post is long overdue, I know. I’m really sorry to those who have been worried about my wellbeing, as well as those who have been waiting around for an update for so long.

I’ve put off writing here because this “update” is something I’ve been wrestling with for a long time. But I can’t keep going back and forth on it forever, which is why I’m now letting you all know that the Shadow Society is officially discontinued.

I know that this might not come as much of a surprise to anyone at this point. I’ve tried to salvage the story by remaking it into something I’m happy with through a rewrite. But I’ve rewritten the rewrite itself more than once, and no matter what I do, I’m just not happy with the result. Rewriting something that’s already published with all the coding it involves is a lot more tricky than I initially thought it would be.

This is not a case of me being needlessly harsh on myself, however; it’s simply a truth I’ve come to realize after struggling to find a way to keep going with the story. I’ll never be fully content with it, or even content enough, unless I’d be able to completely remake and rewrite everything from scratch – and consequentially, I will never find enough motivation to continue because of how unhappy I am with it.

I’ve seen some speculation about my reason for rewriting the story and my long absence, and that they’ve had to do with comparisons to other IFs (well, you know which one). This isn’t entirely the case. While the comparisons did happen and probably still do, and while they were discouraging in the beginning, I can definitely understand where people have been coming from when making them. I talked about this more in-depth in the forums right after the release of TSS.

The main reason for why I can’t continue is that it’s not a series I feel passionate enough about to work on. My tastes have changed, and so has my writing to some degree. I’ve tried to convince myself that I am passionate about it. It’s hard to admit that you’re not when it’s been in your head for so long, when you’ve tried for so long to make this work and when you know that one part is published and that some people are anticipating a continuation. But it had to be done sooner or later.

Other reasons:

-While I don’t think that my writing style has changed drastically, I feel like it is somewhat different from how I wrote back in 2018 (which is a GOOD thing). Whenever I tried working on the rewrite or second book and attempted to emulate the writing of TSS, it just didn’t sound right anymore, and that took a lot of fun out of it.

-With everything that has happened with CoG over the past few years, they are no longer a company I want to write for.

Please know that none of this has discouraged me from writing in general. I still love doing it. If anything, this has taught me a lot about what I actually want to write and the writing process in general. Whether I end up publishing anything else in the future or will simply do so for my own enjoyment we’ll just have to see, though.

I still have the idea of a shadow-like world in my head, and maybe it’s one I will revisit at some point. Maybe there will be another version of TSS someday, albeit very different from the original one.

But for now, I can only thank you all for the overwhelming love and support over the years, and apologize for any disappointment this has caused. If people are interested, I’d be happy to share parts of the rewrite and unused ideas. The Tumblr page will still stay up at least for some time, but I will probably not be answering any asks from here on out.

EDIT: Forgot to add, but if anyone wants a genuinely amazing IF read you should check out my friend's wip here: https://uroboros-if.tumblr.com/ ❤️ Play the demo here: https://mistyriousness.itch.io/uroboros

[curio-queries]

Hi I'm reaching out re. your post on the bts-polls blog, since you redirected people to contact you here. I'm not the same anon who sent the other ask. I understand your reasoning for personally choosing to continue engaging with HP fandom, that's your choice and it's fine as long as you don't contribute to JKR financially. I guess I'm just adding one more trans ARMY voice to say that seeing casual references to HP and other Rowling works immediately gives me a bad feeling and makes me feel unsafe and alienated in the community. I'm also Jewish, so JKR's recent holocaust denial and her support of neo-nazis like Kellie-Jay Keen-Minshul add to this feeling exponentially. This issue is related to so much trauma and ongoing abuse that it's honestly triggering to see 'fun' references to that material as if nothing's happening.

I know it's probably 'not that deep' to most people, but small things like this mean there's one more space where the majority can be comfortable, but I automatically can't take part... in the end it's your choice, but since that blog seems to be aiming to be somewhat of a 'community' space rather than a personal blog I thought it might be relevant for you to hear how people feel.

You seem like a thoughtful person, and I appreciate the arguments you made in your other post. I hope this doesn't come across as attacking you or trying to stir up drama, these are just my honest feelings. Also I'm not saying you should personally cut HP out of your life, I understand there are ways of engaging in a fandom that don't involve supporting the original creator. Thanks for listening!

Hello Anon,

I apologize that this has taken me ages to answer. I haven't been able to spend much time in tumblr-land recently but this topic deserves more than an off-the-cuff response.

For any of you that are not familiar, anon is referencing this post. I'll put the rest of my response below a cut so that anyone not up for further discussion on this topic can bypass:

First, I want to thank you for reaching out. The only way most of us learn how deeply affected by events is if we share, but I know it can be a very difficult thing to do. I don't know if I'm the right person to really do anything specifically on this topic, but I can absolutely share a little bit more about my thoughts.

So, professionally, I'm a technical systems subject matter expert. And it's impossible for me to hear about something without trying to narrow it down to the root cause to resolve there. Yes, there are also actions to be taken to fix the immediate problem, but if the source is left alone, it's going to continue happening.

So, if that won't resolve the problem, what will? In my mind there are two possibilities:

To me, the root cause of the issue isn't this specific woman, it's much bigger than that. Because if we were to remove her specifically as an issue, there would just be someone else spouting the same junk, maybe with less of a following, maybe more.

1. Not allowing people to form and share their own opinions on issues like this. After all, if we HAD to comply to a collective moral standing, then we'd all be on the same page and there wouldn't be all this suffering, right? Hopefully everyone reading this knows why that would be a BAD IDEA even if was possible. I'm not going to go into detail here but if anyone reading this has any doubts, we definitely can!

2. Stop giving power to the words of people that have no authority. This is honestly one of my biggest issues with celebrity culture. Period. Why on earth do the opinions of someone who has absolutely no expertise on an issue carry so much weight in our society?

I'll give y'all an example: Let's say BTS states that they enjoyed seeing the purple streetlights so now we should repave all roads everywhere in the world purple. Not only would this be a logistical nightmare there would be significant ramifications regarding safety and economically. BTS has no expertise in city planning or road safety. 'But they've been all over the world and seen how happy people are when they're surrounded by purple, we should listen to them!' No, we shouldn't correlation is not causation. If there is to be any benefit gained from such a change, it would need to be researched and trialed by actual subject matter experts. Idk, this example is pretty convoluted but hopefully you get my point?

Anyway, now that we've established that fame is not a good enough reason to give weight to someone's opinion, it just becomes a skill issue of recognizing when to listen/disregard and how to implement it on a large scale. Let's face it, both are difficult issues to tackle. The lines definitely get blurry about who has valuable contributions vs who is just the loudest voice. Especially with the ease that anyone can have access to a platform, there's very little threshold to finding countless individuals sharing 'facts' about issues of which they have absolutely no knowledge. I think all of us have seen that first hand in the BTS fandom so I won't list any examples.

So, the first challenge is how we discern the value from the noise. I am personally a huge believer in non-traditional education, so you can't just rely on the alphabet soup of degrees list after people's names either. The next hurdle is getting the majority to start doing this as well so that value is attributed to the correct people and not those who have no business with it. And that is what SHOULD be society's goal overall (in my opinion).

I truly believe that everyone is entitled to have and share their views and opinions but that doesn't mean we have to continue to listen or give value to what they say once we've realized they don't align with what is actually good for us.

To finally circle back to this before-named woman and the hateful ideas she shares, I genuinely don't understand why anyone continues to listen to what she's spouting, with one exception. When a creator shares a viewpoint that is malicious of intent, I think the created work should be evaluated to determine if there is an ulterior influence that can be gleaned from new audiences. Like I said in my post before, personally the effect that the Harry Potter world has had on me and the people in my immediate circles has done far more to foster overall inclusion and understanding of marginalized groups than pretty much anything. It was one of the few things to get past the heavily conservative religious viewpoints in the community that became a gathering point for those of us who didn't conform to the norms.

The great irony in all of this is the parallel that can be drawn between the author and the main villain who literally went insane breaking his soul apart for the gain of power. Perhaps she should spend more time reading her own work?

Anyway anons, I hope both of you are able to find some healing from the trauma these issues keep bringing up. I'm grateful you've entrusted me to share your concerns. I do think it's important to keep learning and growing from each other's experiences in a positive way rather than the heavy handed 'how dare you not comply to my specific viewpoint and conclusions on a nuanced issue' approach.

[penny-anna]

20 questions for fic writers

tagged by @evilwickedme, thank you!

How many works do you have on ao3?

uhh okay let's see!! *pulls up statistics page* I have 419 works on ao3!

what’s your total ao3 word count?

as of right now: 1,429,463. shut up.

What fandoms do you write for?

i'm usually a 1 fandom at a time gal but currently i'm writing for BTTF and Shazam and less frequently for the Witcher and Lord of the Rings!

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

in descendign order:

New Monster Stories (6803 kudos)

the world won't wait until you're older (4700 kudos)

The Price of a Touch (4245 kudos)

Somebody to Love (3629 kudos)

Tender, like a soft new sapling (3277 kudos)

at this point i've accepted that i will never experience the highs of the 2020 witcher fandom ever again

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

SO i used to respond pretty frequently but then i spent a while writing in a very very tiny fandom where every single comment was cherished & i got out of the habit of replying bcos in my mind once i've replied to a comment it's 'finished' so living them unreplied to meant i could enjoy them for longer. and then i got out of the habit!! these days i tend to only reply if i have something to say but i am grateful for all of them <3

What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending

im not gonna link any of them but in my Merlin days i did write multiple fics about my OT3 killing each other. im fine thank you for asking.

What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

huh i feel like this is harder to measure than the above?? hmmm. scrolling back through my recent-ish works, it isn't kind is pretty unabashedly fluffy.

Do you get hate on fics?

ehhh i've had some rude comments but i wouldn't say hate

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

these days not so often!! have ended up in a string of found family type fandoms. but yeah i got uhh 65 fics rated E on the ao3. most of them are m/m occasional f/f or f/m.

Do you write crossovers?

im more into fusions which is a different thing! but have on occasion written crossovers.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

yeah actually, had a fic taken once by someone who was habitually translating fics into a different language & posting them without acknowledging the original. i think they got reported but i don't really remember who it shook out!

Have you ever had a fic translated?

yeah quite a lot of times! u can see translations of my fics on ao3 here. disproportionately russian? i assume there's just a lot of russian fic translators out there!

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

NOT for 1 million years but yes i have

What’s your all-time favorite ship?

hmmm my go to answer for this is usually two/jamie so that's what im going with

What’s a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

i'm actually still sitting on a second doctor wip that at this point i think is a lost cause. i sent the opening scene (fake out character death lol) to some people on discord a while ago just to torment them.

What are your writing strengths?

i'd like to think dialogue!!

What are your writing weaknesses?

basically all forms of description tbph

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

im monolingual so i don't think i'd do this without assistance from a native speaker. i've actually published (like, professionally) a piece of fiction w some dialogue in another language and to my eternal gratitude some of my tumblr followers assisted me with the translation <3

First fandom you wrote for?

lord of the rings, when i was about 12

Favorite fic you’ve written?

of all time??? GOD. okay. first thought best thought the world won't wait until you're older.

ok uhh i will tag @uighean @limerental @a-kind-of-merry-war @megamindsupremacy

✌️

[paalove]

NOT ME FIC MASTERPOST

tumblr prompts: (ao3 link)

gramyok flirting while black seethes, 159 words

nuchgene friendship ep 7 coda, 336 words.

danyok angst, 490 words.

what if it wasn't todd who found white tied up? 125 words.

post-canon gramblack fluff, 462 words.

gram pov post-ep-10 twin reveal, cracky, 834 words.

black pov ep 11, 647 words.

russian mafia-connected white, 344 words.

brother-in-law postcanon sean+black, 220 words.

gramblack with pining black, 898 words.

the note is for black au, gramblack, 689 words.

gone series fusion, seanwhite+gen, 999 words.

NOT ME PROMPT MONTH - tumblr, twitter, ao3

ao3 one-offs:

walking on an edge (that's how i stay alive) - oneshot, 2225 words. au twin reveal where the whole gang sees them together. seanwhite. (original shorter tumblr version here)

now they're going to bed (and my stomach is sick) - oneshot, 2552 words. canon divergence au, cockblock black, seanwhite.

dreams i've borrowed - oneshot, 1683 words. post ep 9 fixit, seanwhite.

get that shit inside your head - oneshot, 1341 words. friends-nearly to lovers, canon divergence au, background gramblack focused on nuchgene.

(i'll be on the way) like a bat out of hell - 2/2 chapters, 4380 words. the insane four post ep 10 fixits i wrote in the four hours after the episode aired, i was DISTRAUGHT 😅. seanwhite.

don't need poltergeists for sidekicks - oneshot, 2145 words. ep 11 fixit. seanwhite

patiently burning - oneshot, 2084 words. black-centric ep 12 fixit, gen.

'cause i still am (and i still do) - oneshot, 1113 words. me shoving black into the van rescue scene because i love him. gen.

answers to questions (you didn't know to ask) - oneshot, 1005 words. eugene actually getting to have a reaction to revelations. background seanwhite, gen.

when it breaks (something you can't shake) - oneshot, 1560 words. black and gram are kidnapped, and gram is injured. gramblack.

you're in the race (to watch the roots corrode) - oneshot, 1225 words. NOT ME WEEK DAY 1 - "what was your plan b?" pre-seanwhite.

but it's much too late (when the storm decays) - oneshot, 1229 words. NOT ME WEEK DAY 2 - outsider pov. seanwhite.

it comforts me much more (fix your heart) - oneshot, 1629 words. NOT ME WEEK DAY 3 - body swap au. pre-seanwhite.

antihero (you look stressed out) - oneshot, 1010 words. NOT ME WEEK DAY 4 - "don't move." gen, black-centric.

you must build an altar where it rests - oneshot, 1027 words. NOT ME WEEK DAY 5 - "when did you notice?" danyok.

let it flood, let it flood, let it wash away - oneshot, 3643 words. NOT ME WEEK DAY 6 - fake relationship au. namogene.

take his body as a relic to be canonized - oneshot, 3137 words. NOT ME WEEK DAY 7 - time loop au. toddblack.

let's dream out loud - 2/2 chapters, 2848 words. didn't know we were dating trope, gramblack. (tumblr ch1, ch2)

you can sleep in a coffin - oneshot, 1000 words. uwma fusion, seanwhite. (original shorter tumblr version here)

rock away this feeling for me - oneshot, 2610 words. 5+1 hugs, seanwhite. (original tumblr version here)

we are the rust upon your gears - oneshot, 2941 words. mission+aftermath fic. explicit, seanwhite.

inside the warm embracing air - oneshot, 2636 words. ropes and piercings, explicit, seanwhite. (original tumblr version here)

feeling helpless to the tide (we fight this war on different sides) - 4/4 chapters, 2049 words. genderswapped ust between seanwhite, toddblack, seanblack, and toddwhite.

world above the ground - oneshot, 3116 words. white and the girls friendship fic, au twin reunion, implied future seanwhite. gen.

and my strings are digging in - oneshot, 1062 words. post-canon short with white getting hurt so sean won't go to prison. seanwhite. (original tumblr version here)

unlocked doors and windows cracked - oneshot, 1446 words. just before canon, black got some information on todd that was so dangerous todd needed to take drastic action. maybe that involved them fucking in the hot tub; here's some speculation. toddblack.

burning up together, baby - oneshot, 1115 words. postcanon gang hangouts! some seanwhite, some blackyok, mostly gen.

found a world worth dying for - oneshot, 1068 words. sean whump in which sean, over a day after some vague incident, stumbles back to the garage covered in blood. white takes care of him. seanwhite.

places inside me that i find you (leave me at the roadside) - oneshot, 25 words. 5+1 fic about sean, yok, and marks. some seanwhite, some more danyok, but mostly sean&yok.

ao3 multichapters:

fall out of the heavens/crawl up from under. 22/22 chapters, 47279 words. the blond!white fic. seanwhite and gramblacknuch

shape you like an ocean (come alive or come undone) - 17/17 chapters, 22471 words. post-van pre epilogue-y bits, blackyok. (original tumblr prompt here)

still lurk on distant foreign shores - 4/4 chapters, 6027 words. continuation of the mafia!white prompt above, seanwhite.

WIP - bone-dry, bloodshot eyes - 2/? chapters, 4371 words. au where everything's already gone as wrong as possible before white even finds them. character death in backstory. seanwhiteyok.

ao3 series:

i won't cross these streets until you hold my hand: au where sean finds white on facebook by mistake while white still lives in russia, comes up to the start of the canon timeline. total words: 38778.

are we just getting more lost - oneshot, 695 words. pre-seanwhite

i'll show you mine if you show me yours first - 3/3 chapters, 4179 words. pre-seanwhite, other background ships.

the part where the needle skips - 6/6 chapters, 13602 words. developing seanwhite, other background ships.

conspiring by candlelight (shine your light on me) - 4/4 chapters, 20302 words. seanwhite, background toddblack, gramblack, and namonuch.

(garage) of wolves: au where the garage gang are a werewolf pack. total words: 48612.

innocence for days - 7/7 chapters, 7045 words.

you see me creeping up these halls - 5/5 chapters, 41567 words. seanwhite.

you stole my heart but i had it first. established relationship gramblack canon divergence au. total words: 3889.

i dug this pain into my chest - oneshot, 1347 words. established relationship, canon divergence gramblack. (tumblr post here)

you and i drove off the darkest streets - 3/3 chapters, 5040 words. black tries to figure out wtf white has been up to, sean tries to stop him. gramblack, seanwhite. (tumblr)

i will die in this place. uwma fusion fic, total words: 5713.

you can sleep in a coffin - oneshot, 1000 words. the fated couple make eye contact (and so do the non-fated couple).

sometimes you scrape and sink so low - 2/2 chapters, 2101 words. some revelations about how their past selves died, and some meetings. pre-seanwhite, pre-????black.

but honey, what're you gonna do? - 2/2 chapters, 2610 words. car rides, rain, and couples starting to fall together pre-seanwhite, pre-gramblacktodd.

bitter years since i've been seeing - 3/3 chapters, 3238 words. more revelations about their past selves - and who one of them was related to. pre-seanwhite.

[improper-integral]

I posted 8,194 times in 2022

That's 2,259 more posts than 2021!

60 posts created (1%)

8,134 posts reblogged (99%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@stupid-lemon-eater

@thebadwulff

@annundriel

@snake-and-mouse

@upsidedowngoblin

I tagged 7,118 of my posts in 2022

Only 13% of my posts had no tags

#honestly me - 634 posts

#lmao - 476 posts

#supernatural - 288 posts

#our flag means death - 255 posts

#tumblr - 211 posts

#the devil judge - 195 posts

#cats - 187 posts

#destiel - 185 posts

#tgcf - 182 posts

#fanfic - 145 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#i don't care about mcr but this post distresses me cause i'm apparently like the same age as batman in the new movie which is uncomfortable

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Today I turn 34!

My 30s really have been better than my 20s, so far. Hopefully that trend continues for the upcoming year!

I took today off so I could have a 3 day weekend, and I'm going on a quick solo road trip to Big Bear (mountain area of SoCal) to celebrate 😊 Even though it might be rainy tomorrow, hopefully I can come back with photos to share!

8 notes - Posted August 12, 2022

#4

My blaze post finished last night and I got the "Blaze Report" after I went to bed.

Here are the stats: Impressions: 9223 Likes: 271 Reblogs: 114 Replies: 32 Follows: 2 Shares: 9

Yes, while some people assumed I paid for the $10 version, I actually paid for the $25 version, which estimates 7k impressions, so I'm surprised I got over 9k [insert meme here].

These stats don't line up with the notes on the actual post, which is curious. It has 40 comments (including 3 of my own), 184 reblogs and 356 likes. I'm guessing the difference comes from users who saw the reblogs and not the original sponsored post? Getting only 580 notes with 9k impressions is a little disappointing but that's tumblr for you

Anyway, that was super fun! I think I might try again sometime, but maybe with something less likely to have people curse at me lmao

9 notes - Posted April 25, 2022

#3

alivorte ➡ brillemos

I posted about this earlier today (thanks @tenacioustam and @lib for responding and helping me pick!) but I finally changed my url!

In case you missed it, brillemos means "let's shine" in Spanish! And is also a pun on my name, Bri, because I'm a cringe dork and proud of it 😎

I saved alivorte as a side blog and wrote a little JavaScript that will auto-redirect to my new url, even if you're just looking at a singular post, it will redirect to that post. BUT, it only works on desktop. I don't know how to make it work on mobile and I'm not particularly motivated to try. Sorry mobile-using followers 😅

9 notes - Posted April 19, 2022

#2

I'm registered for the Lesbians Who Tech Pride Summit this year and I recall that you went to the same event before (or something that sounded very, very similar to it). Do you have any tips to get the most out of it? I am still very much a tech newbie who wants to break into tech and the agenda looks a bit overwhelming. Thanks in advance if you have time to answer this ask! If not, it's okay...you sharing your career journey on tumblr has been inspiring, to say the least!

Aww thanks! I did go to Lesbians Who Tech back in 2018 when I was still in grad school. I think I also signed up for the virtual pride summit this year as well, though I probably won't be able to attend (work kinda gets in the way lol).

The biggest regret I have about when I attended in 2018 was being too shy to try to connect with other people there. I think that's probably the biggest benefit to attending events like this in the first place - networking. Which I've never been particularly good at, lol. So if possible, I'd recommend targeting sessions about networking or allow you to network.

Otherwise, as a tech newbie, you likely won't get much benefit from the more technical sessions, unless you already have some prior exposure to the topic or it's marketed as a beginner friendly session (like I found one called Intro to Native Mobile Development on Tuesday, if that suits your fancy). So I'd have some fun with it, look for ones that sound interesting to you! Or check out sessions in a variety of different areas of tech (coding, analytics, product mangement, etc) so you get a wider exposure to the tech world. I feel a little overwhelmed myself looking at how many sessions there are lol so I don't think I can give more specific advice than this, unfortunately.

I hope you have fun attending the summit, and if you ever have any more questions, feel free to reach out at any time!

13 notes - Posted June 1, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

585 notes - Posted April 23, 2022

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[thequietsrestricted-discussion]

New Intro Time

Welcome, Darlings, to The Quiet's Restricted-Discussion Room, where, despite the name, you can discuss anything and everything. I am Quiet, and I'll be the host of this lovely little game. Because it is a game, isn't it?

Reality-questioning thoughts aside, welcome to my blog. I don't plan to do much here except repost fandom content and discuss drama in a safe space. Fandom content, memes, and other miscellaneous posts, reblogs, etc., will be tagged appropriately in case you are only here for the tea. Anything regarding myself will be tagged with #Be Quiet✩°🎧 and anything pertaining to online drama will be tagged with #Quiet Speaks.

Now that all of that is out of the way, let's get to the general information about myself, and then we can get on to the rules regarding drama posts I make.

As said before, my name is Quiet. My pronouns are They/It, I'm demiromantic, cupiosexual, and I have a wonderful girlfriend. I also have a lot going on in my life at all times, so this blog may also contain rants and vents (all of which will be tagged with #Not-So-Quiet and will refrain from discussing identifying details), but they will be sparse. I also do not often willfully engage in discourse very often, however this was originally intended to be a commentary blog, so if I see discourse or drama (that I actually have authority to engage with), I will give my commentary. However, any comments and thoughts given should be taken with a grain of salt. I'm all of 20 years old, guys, I am not a genius, and I am certainly not perfect, as no one is.

Not much else to say about me, so here's the rules for interaction on my drama and discourse posts. First and foremost, everyone is human. Everyone makes mistakes, and therefore everyone should be given grace. It is okay to call people out, but it is not okay to harass, belittle, insult, or otherwise cause harm or strain to them.

Which brings us to rule number two; do not harass anyone mentioned in any of my posts. All people mentioned, as stated before, are human, and thus deserve the bare minimum amount of respect at the very least. This includes refraining from harassing them. Especially when it comes to threats. I will not allow any posts I make, which are meant to be informative, to be used to cause people harm.

Number three, Do not take my word as law. As said before, I am not perfect, I am not a genius, and I have flaws and faults as well. I aim to discuss these topics with as much connection to the real world, consequences, and genuine concerns and thoughts as I can. However, my word is not law, and I am also aware many will not share my sentiments or agree with my views.

This is fine, but it leads into our next rule; my dms are open to information ONLY. Harassment is a one-warning system for me, and my dms will be shut off if need be. If you have questions or concerns, do not bring them to my dms, but to my ask box. If I think the question should be handled in dms, I will answer the question publicly telling you as much, and will wait for you to reach out there.

Number five, if you know me, no you don't. I do have other tumblr accounts that I use for more personal things, but I will not link them, and I will not tell you what they are. My general rule, seeing as this account is meant to be disconnected from my personal blogs, is that even if you know me and I personally sent you this blog, you will act like you do not know me. You will call me Quiet, and you will treat me like a stranger, or you won't interact at all. Because this blog is meant to be disconnected, that also means that any and all identifiable information will be changed, censored, or redacted/expunged from anything I post here. Keep in mind that any names used, including my own, are false with the exception of public figures or names of those involved in online drama and discourse, and any correlation to real-world events, incidents, people, times, etc. is accidental, and fictional.

I think that's all I really need to say. I hope you enjoy your stay here, traveler. And welcome, once again, to The Quiet.

[t3chborb]

About me & this blog

Hello, call me T3, Birb, or Borb, whichever you prefer.

I've made this silly corner of the internet because I have an unhealthy obsession with a fictional character and want to contribute to the fandom, be it feeding the algorithms with likes n reblogs n shit or my own produce :P

Unique tags found on this blog:

Borb's Scribbles (art)

Borb's Rambles (thoughts, theories, etc)

Borb's Garbage Dump (works in progress, may or may not get finished)

Borb Answers (ask responses. May sometimes also feature scribbles and rambles, depending on the ask)

Not mine (obvious lol)

Unholy Abomination - universal mature tag, may contain either adultery or robot guts. Used liberally just in case, even if the art is technically sfw

Other noteworthy things:

English isn't my native language, my apologies if my words are hard to read or understand

This blog is hyperfocused on Ramram. Probably a stupid idea in the long run but this account is a semi-throwaway anyway

I don't reblog much as I lowkey don't see the point. This is a place for my produce, not a spam blog. That said reblogs do show up on the rare occasion. I do my best to make up for this by leaving likes and comments on other's posts to show support :)

I'm here to have a good time, not cause or experience discourse, so please don't be a jerk, just block me and ignore me if my existence bothers you

I am, to some extend, a pro-shipper. I barely have any preferences when it comes to Ram ships, I'm fine with just about any (including self-inserts and OCs)

There are some shipping dynamics I don't like, one or both characters being OOC as hell, general toxicity and abuse, underage x adult, non-con, things of that nature, but I'm fine with pretty much anything deemed "problematic", assuming the issue is handled reasonably well (and if it's not handled well... the creator has a right to vent via creative media, even if I don't like said media. Better have them let out their frustrations creatively than... you know. Actually acting on them.)

For Ram fandom's "problematic" ship specifically, I'm neutral on Ramyatta, slightly leaning towards the don't like it territory, but for reasons other than the whole pseudo-incest thing (it's not incest in my eyes because robots don't have genes and monastery titles, but I can see how Ram and Zen calling each other "brother" is offputting)

I generally don't take requests, but if I happen to vibe a lot with a certain concept, I might just draw it

I'm open to talking, but I'm shy and perfectionistic. So please don't take it personally if I don't respond for a while ;-; I'll try to do my best.

I am a-okay with naughty topics, just know that I'll probably be embarrassed about it

About my art:

Krita 5.2 + Huion Kamvas Pro 16

My "style" is inconsistent as fuck as I'm going to be experimenting a lot for improvement purposes

If you wish to use my art, I am fine with the following:

Profile pictures, profile backgrounds, device wallpapers (with credit provided somewhere easily accessible, if it's shown publicly)

Coloring uncolored lineart

Side Note 1: I would like to know about you using my work, but telling me isn't mandatory (provided you follow these rules)

Side Note 2: Almost all art posted has been heavily downscaled from the originals (about 3 times smaller), so they may look terrible in certain use cases. If you want the full res, reach out to me privately, I'll send it over if I'm confident that you won't misuse it

I am NOT fine with the following:

Commercial use of any kind

Feeding into AI generators

NFT nonsense

Modifications of any kind EXCEPT coloring plain lineart

Reposting anywhere, especially Tumblr. If you REALLY want to share my stuff, I'm flattered, but please use links instead...

[all-devouring-history-hub]

Announcement!

Hello, I wasn't expecting to make this today. I was originally going to do this tomorrow but due to some issues, I have instead decided to do this today.

As for those of you that have not seen the posts, I have been considering leaving Tumblr due to the chaos that was happening in the community. But while I have come to a decision, I guess I Should explain the reasons why 'm doing this.

First is my content. Now I understand that people are busy right now and that's fine, I'm not forcing you to like my content, But I just wish someone would give it a shot and check my essay on which I spend hours on it. The first History related thing I ever did, The Black Death essay got 9 notes while the Korean War essay only has 1.

While I mainly do the blog because history is my passion, It sucks to hear that people almost, if not pay attention to what I do. But that's the least of my problems, Although still a big one.

The second and possibly main reason is the Tumblronpa fiasco. Now, I haven't been here long enough to see how Tumblronpa works, But I have been told of it, Hell I made an oc. But after the drama that went down about that the last few days, I'm genuinely staying away from that now.

I don't know when this drama started, But I think it started when the mod for a Tumblronpa by the name of Dash started getting anon hate from a different source ( the person of which has never been found)

Now I bring Dash up because that might have been the start for me to think about the risks of being on a Tumblronpa, though not enough for me to quit. But things get stranger when another content creator by the name of Mentally Eli disappeared for a while ( She has since returned)

After this, I was starting to get a little nervous not gonna lie, but It still wasn't-enough. But then come the Aliza -chan situation and that's where my hope was shattered. Aliza almost died not once, but twice because of anon hate. It got so bad that she had to leave Tumblr, which was a smart move from Aliza not gonna lie.

But still, that situation and the fact that one of my friends and mutuals tried to off themselves because of anon hate, pretty much shattered my hope of ever being on a tumblronpa. I was fucking terrified.

If you don't know, I'm terrible with anxiety and stress since I was little. Often times I wonder why I exist if I just have no purpose. Keep in mind, I'm a teenager and this whole suicide situation scared the shit out of me.

And really It was the Situation with Aliza- chan as well as Mama Lexi( Although Lexi's was something entirely different from that and had nothing to do with Tumblronpa's or anon hate, Still I highly recommend that you don't disturb her now cause she's not in the best mood) That finally pressured me to make this post and have my overall thoughts on it.

I'm not in the best mood right now and the situations that have been going on have been increasing my stress levels up the roof and my fears of Tumblronpa hate altogether.

But let's get to the big question: Am I leaving Tumblr? Yes and No. Let me explain.

While yes, I said I thought about leaving Tumblr, I'm not willing to delete my blog because of the friends I made on this site as well as the fact that history is my passion. But I won't lie when I say that I Need some time off from this to calm down.

Starting tomorrow, I will be on a break from Tumblr. The ask box is still open, So feel free to send stuff there ( Though I highly doubt you will) and I will be sure to answer them When I come back.

My discord is still open as well, Though don't expect me to answer often on it. I will still answer If I have the time.

As for Tumblronpas? I'm done with it. I refuse to participate in one after what happened, and as well as my mental state not being the best right now, I don't think I can handle the death threats that come my way.

If this means I'm dropping out of Eden's Garden and Lumnieres roleplay blogs, then Yes, I Unfortualney have to drop out. Also, the picrew that I made Samuel in is no longer there, so I can't do any more sprites with him sorry.

But still, I'm staying the hell away from Tumblronpas in general now. If you want to ask me to join a Tumblronpa, I'm sorry, But I will have to decline. No Tumblronpas, No roleplay, I'm done.

Overall, I think that's my reasons for taking a break from Tumblr. I wasn't expecting to make it today, but I guess so. This year has not been kind to me, with some issues going on at home as well as some finals I have to finish up, Plus the fact that people don't care for my content and the whole Tumblronpa situation has broken my mental state.

Let's be honest, No one is going to care about this post or won't even see it. Honestly, I get so used to being discarded and ignored, That I just don't care anymore. No one cares and that is that, I just wanted to get my thoughts off my mind.

So, yeah I will be taking a break, I don't know when I will come back, but Maybe when I get my shit together. I hope you guys have a nice day and this is goodbye for now...

[silversweetpea]

Aw, hon, I'm sorry. I hope you're taking care of yourself both on- and offline.

That's alright, I actually started writing out my asks for you in my phone's notes after like, the second ask because I figured it was only a matter of time before the hellsite decided to swallow one. It might have swallowed it because the ask literally starts with 'I'm mad at Tumblr...' I was just making sure since it's always a possibility you're just not feeling up to answering asks at the moment, but also, y'know, there's the hellsite guarantee that something will go wrong at some point. But yeah, I'll resend that one in after this one, you can take your time answering both, obviously- just know you should have two asks from me. I'm glad my little #🦕 will be put in its rightful place and all will be right with the world once again. :)

I say let the fanfiction part of your brain run wild. Impulse control is overrated anyways. I say this mostly for my own benefit. >:)

Listen, listen, I'm a big baby who doesn't do angst. When I go to read fanfiction, I'm here for self-indulgence. That being said, angst with a happy ending is acceptable, depending on the ratio of angsty to happy. You have no idea how many times an angsty fic has popped up and I'll scroll all the way down to the end to see if the ending is happy or not. It it's happy enough and not like... 10k words of angst and then like, three happy sentences, I'll got back and read it. If not... I'm not a masochist, I'm (probably) not doing that to myself. The song does sound like it has angsty vibes (I've never beard it, but the lyrics and description you put on the original post give me that impression), but you have happy ending vibes, so I'm sure it'll balance itself out. If not, as I said, I'm holding you personally responsible for my tears and I might just die in protest.

Maybe if you sit down to work on one, you can keep like, one of those sticky note apps- y'know, the ones that just occupy a small amount of space and not the whole screen?- open on the side. That way, if you come up with an idea for a story you're not working on or a line or whatever, you can write it down so you don't lose it before going back to whatever you've set out for yourself? You might still write more for the other stories, but it gives you an opening so you can do both things, I think?? I don't know, just a thought. And yes, I am firmly team brain worms. Actually, I've just had a thought. All of your brain worms are now little Stevens. 'Cause Khonshu calls him worm and I just want to see more Steven, so I'm imagining that now... now I wish I had a little Steven to give me ideas... or just to have him at all...

Yeah! I'm also on team self-indulgence. One, because who doesn't love self-indulgence and two, because your self-indulgent fics are highly beneficial for me. :)

Also, if you write for yourself, you write your best work (I think, I haven't been able to come up with something to write in actual years, I think) and at some point, a like-minded individual who likes the same stuff you do will find it and think it's one of the best things ever I may or may not be one such individual. I'm also on team pure comfort, with only the occasional dash of conflict. Goodness gracious, I'm on so many teams. Conflict is fun, but fluff, comfort, etc. is my go-to.

Soulmate AU coming soon??? 👀👀👀 Alright, I won't die, but only because you asked... Ok, I say that, but I can't make any promises, Soulmate AUs are like, my favorite trope I can think off the top of my head right now. I'd say they're probably somewhat tied with found family? Maybe a teeensy bit ahead? I don't know if trope is the right word, but whatever. But I will try not to die (barring an unhappy ending on the potential angsty fic), for your sake. And also, because I need to know what that favorite line is. Do you think you could point it out when the time comes? 👀

And I always read your tags. How did you know I need to drink water and unclench my jaw? Are you watching me?? (No joke, I actually need to do both of those things.)

Ok ok, I'll take care of myself. I'm off to resend the copy of the old ask. I think I put in a couple of numbers or something from an ask game you did recently, so if you don't feel like doing that anymore, feel free to ignore that.

I appreciate it. Like I said it's been a bit up and down but I'm doing better now than I was and that has to count for something.

ajsldkfjdslakjfdlksajfdsafds Tumblr may be a hellsite but I love it for it. That being said I do think it's hilarious that your ask started with 'i'm mad at tumblr' and that's the one where they were like 'okay well then I'm going to eat this like a slice of pizza'. And I could never leave your asks in my inbox too long I like talking with you too much! I really am sorry about that missing tag though I'm not sure what was going on with me 😅

Once again I absolutely adore that you support my brain's horrid writing habits. That being said the impulse control is whats keeping us from having fics with cliffhangers (for now....I make no promises for the soulmate au) so it's really pulling its weight right now. Gotta earn its keep in my head these day with how much space the moon knight boys take up in there, ya know?

I 10000% recommend it its one of my favorite songs at the moment. It's sad but more in a bittersweet way than a melancholy one if that makes sense? Like it's obviously a goodbye song to a love that you never really allowed yourself to pursue for one reason or another but it's also a well wishing for the other person that whatever they found outside of the time you interacted was sweet and fulfilling and I'm gonna stop because I'm definitely just rambling but I really love the song. It definitely has the same vibes as trying to push someone away for their own good which screams Marc to me, especially in the time before the show where he left Layla and was hiding from Steven and was just a ghost in his own life, ya know? I definitely am the same way about angst though, If there isn't a happy ending I just can't do it so i'll read like a couple paragraphs and then race to the bottom just to make sure that my poor heart will be able to take it! I pinky promise that if I ever write angst without a happy ending though I'll warn you before you even hit the first word in the notes, but I'd really prefer if you didn't die out of protest because then what if I wrote a second part that was just fluff and happy ending and you never got to see it?

also I'm going to be thinking about 'you have happy ending vibes' for the rest of my life???? I know it's probably just in reference to how much fluff I write but it's just such a fun little descriptor and so sweet and yeah I'm obsessed with it. 💜💜💜

Oooh, that's a good idea! I'll have to try the sticky note method to see if it helps corral myself into productivity! So far i've mostly been using the site 4thewords which times you for your writing and makes it so I don't have the time to bounce between the different files as much? I like it so far.

DINO THAT IS SO CUTE TO CALL THEM ALL LITTLE STEVENS I'M ADOPTING THAT RIGHT NOW. (also big mood. 2022 is the year I manifest Steven Grant (mcu edition) into my life. I would love to just chat about mythology with him whether or not we were dating.)

I totally agree with the idea that you write best when you write for yourself also. I think a lot of the times i've felt less passionate about a piece it's shown in the final project, whether that was personal or academic there's just something about people's writings when they genuinely love and are excited for what they're saying. It's like the text version of the way people's faces light up I think. Although sometimes I worry that there's too much self indulgence in some of my pieces - like that Matt fic I just posted because like I said in the note it's highly specific to something that I actually do with my tattoos.

Still, the world big and it feels a little less scary with more comfort stores in the world so I can't really bring myself to write too much other than that.

Soulmate AU coming soon!!!! I have the first part's rough draft done I just need to edit a few things and make sure that it lines up with the rest of the story's outline so I don't accidentally make a plothole before we even get to the conflict of the story - however brief it is. Also are we in each other's heads??? because Soulmate Aus and found family are also my two top favorite tropes????

The idea that there is someone or several someones out there that are destined to love and be loved by me, whether that be romantic platonic or familial, and that we were always going to find each other???? The idea that there is a destiny and a fate and they care about every single person on this earth enough to make sure that they would meet someone that made them feel cherished and cared for and that that includes me????

But also the idea that someone chooses you??? that they decided one day, maybe quickly or maybe painfully slowly or maybe too late when they couldn't say it but you all already knew anyways, that they loved you and that they would do anything for you because regardless of if you shared a blood type they were your people and you were one of theirs? To look at someone and realize in startling clarity that you would move the sky and all its stars if they asked you to because that's your mom/dad/sibling/kid even if they weren't always???

Anways i'm going to stop because once again i'm rambling i'm just in a very expanise mood today sorry. I definetly will point it out when it's posted! Not going to lie the line/conversation its in is one of the main reasons I buckled and decided to start writing an actual multipart story instead of just one shots forever.

I just had a hunch because it was late at night for me and I was worried it was for you too and definetly not because I also was in need of water and a reminder to unclench my jaw adjfdlkjfalsdfasd

I'll try to get to your resent ask soon!! And don't worry about the numbers ask game thing I'll probably still answer because I really liked that game!! Also yes!! please make sure to take care of yourself!! I'm going to start sending you asks on your blog that are just daily reminders on self care!!

[chosenkeepersworld]

The Curses We Inherit - Chapter 14

Original Work

Date Posted: December 30, 2021 (Tumblr)

Word count: 1,003 words

A/N: I hope everyone is doing well and I hope you enjoy the chapter!

Masterlist / Part 13

"Is this really the best idea?" Liam swallowed the lump in his throat, pushing himself deeper into the backseat of Krysanthe's truck.

"Oh please, she's doing so well" Krysanthe waved her hand dismissively as Danika shifted gears then stepped on the wrong pedal causing the truck to lurch forward then stop. The blonde shifted gears again and the truck ran smoothly, Danika let out a sheepish laugh while Krysa turned to Liam and shrugged "She'll get better"

They were getting close to the biggest town on the island, just in time for the auction that would be happening later tonight. Everything was set and now all they had to do was get there. But as they got closer to their destination the heiress tightened her grip on the wheel, she became more and more anxious as all sorts of scenarios ran through her head. Krysa placed her hand on her friend's shoulder "Are you alright?" she asked.

Danika nodded "Yeah, just nervous. I hope everything goes well tonight"

"The sooner we get this necklace the sooner we get Danika safely back home" Liam said, keeping his gaze out the window.

Krysanthe turned and frowned at him but Danika was the one who spoke up, confusion evident in her voice "Nothing's happened to me since I left home. No one even knows who I am here, only that I'm aunt Aileen's niece"

A light flush slowly came on Liam's cheeks "I'm glad to hear that" he stammered "But don't you miss home?"

The car was silent and for a while Liam didn't think the heiress would answer him but when she did it was in a soft and thoughtful voice.

"Of course I miss home. I actually miss my daily schedule, I miss the comforts of home and I miss being surrounded by familiarity" she told him "But going on this trip has helped me in a lot of ways. I'm learning a lot"

Liam raised an eyebrow.

"I'm learning how to drive right now, aren't I?"

"That won't be enough," Liam told her.

"But it's a start!" Danika argued "I've learned more things here than I ever would at home, it may not seem much because you know how to do these things! For the first time in my life I get to decide how I want to live, I can get to experience things other people do and you have no idea how fulfilling it feels to make my own accomplishments"

The dark haired man crossed his arms and sighed "I get it. I never really had to work for much when I was running the family business, someone would always do majority of the work and I never truly understood" he lifted his head "It wasn't until I started working with your cousin that I finally got it"

"I'm sorry, I understand why you needed to do this but I'm not sorry I'm concerned. So if there's any danger, Danika, you should understand if Foalan and I will need to do something to ensure that safety."

Danika sighed "I know and I understand. You guys do what you have to do but fair warning" she took a quick glance at him "so will I"

"I wouldn't expect any less from Nika the Great," he chuckled.

The heiress froze. "What did you say?"

"Okay I think this is when we stop the lesson" Krysa softly interjected then instructed Danika to park the truck which the younger blonde was able to do but needed improvement on. The car behind them slowed and the window rolled down to reveal Jacqueline in the driver's seat "Everything good?" she asked

"Yeah, just switching places. I was giving Danika a driving lesson but I needed to take the wheel back now."

"Why, what did she do ?" Jac snorted "have a messy dashboard?"

Krysa rolled her eyes "Just drive ahead, Jacqueline. We'll follow"

"Fine, fine. In case we get there before you do, what do I say to the front desk officer again?"

The older blonde sighed "Is Foalan awake?"

Jac glanced back for a moment "No, totally asleep"

"Just text me when you get there or let Folan check us in," Krysanthe said with a tired smile.

"Gotcha. Safe driving, Krys" and with that Jac rolled up her window and drove off.

Danika and Krysanthe buckled in once they were able to change seats and followed after Jacqueline and Foalan. Once the car began moving, Danika quickly turned in her seat "How did you know that name?"

Liam sat straight in his seat, side eyeing the windows before finally looking at Danika. "I wasn't completely honest with you about meeting Foalan. I knew him when we were kids, my family and I were visiting the states at the time and that's when I met your cousin. I'd visit his house and we'd spend a lot of time together"

"That's weird I don't remember seeing you there, Alan would always have his friend there. The skinny kid, with glasses and he brought candy..." Danika trailed off as the realization slowly came to her. The blonde American gasped "Oh my god, you're Donny Alvern"

Liam winced and waved his arm "No one calls me that anymore"

"Wait, what?" Krysa asked, glancing back for a second.

"Is Liam your first or your second name?" Danika asked, her body shaking slightly

"That isn't important. But yeah I was that kid"

"Why didn't you just tell me?"

"I don't know, I just felt weird after seeing you again after a long time" Liam said lamely.

"Well. it's good now. And I'm really glad to see-" Danika froze, there was a terrible itch at the back of her neck. The heiress sat back, scratching the spot furiously.

Krysa turned her to Danika to ask her if she was alright when a deer jumped on the road.

"Deer!"

Krysa and Danika turned their attention to the road and the world slowed. Krysanthe turned the wheel, the car swerved then everything went black.

Taglist: @mel-writes-with-her-dragons @woodhousejay @dustylovelyrun

[ilyuobts]

I'm With You

concept: short story

genre: fluff / slight angst

characters: jeon jungkook & original character (fem)

words: 1.5k

synopsis: a struggling 4th-year college girl that majors in interior designing breaks down in the middle of park at night. it happens so often that the boy can't help but /finally/ take a step into a life-changing moment.

a/n: im over here acting like i'll post this on tumblr but no not really, lol. okay nevermind i'm gonna post it :)

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I'm standing on a bridge

Waiting in the dark,

I thought that you'll be here by now.

You looked up at the dark hue of the sky, with sparkling gems. It was everywhere. wherever you look there's always a star – You're referring to those who expect a lot from you. They aren't many, but the fact that they expect and demand such things from you chains your wrists and ankles onto them. You felt different.

People appreciate stars like they were rainbows and butterflies, but you think of its tears. Crystal tears. It wasn't raining, but you were used to keeping your tears up to your waterline. It hurts not to let it out, but it will just show how /totally/ weak you are in the midst of your semester. It was perhaps, hopeless.

There's nothing but the rain.

No footsteps on the ground.

I'm listening but there's no sound.

The air was cooling. It was chilly and it's in a good chilly. It was frightening. You inhale the pressure and self-problems that you are currently facing and try to exhale it. But every time you do, it doesn't work because it feels like you're inhaling it again as the struggles float in that cool air.

Your hands curled up in fists, your shoulders stiff and your breath rigged. You blinked your eyes too many times that the tears gave up holding on. You whimpered softly - your voice releasing. And slowly, those whimpers multiplied. The tears morphed into waterfalls. Your body slowly letting go. But you resisted it. You didn't want to feel even more weak, even while crying softly.

Isn't anyone trying to find me?

Won't somebody come take me home?

It's a damn cold night.

Trying to figure out this life.

The only thing that your tattered soul is holding onto is you. You depended on yourself. You thought you'd make it through storms like this, alone. You thought it was the epitome of maturity - that if you didn't need any help and that you felt secure of yourself you wouldn't be having second thoughts of finding someone. But maybe this time you were going to be corrected.

Maybe this time you'll be fully guided. Maybe, this time you'll be helped. It was so obvious to you that you're on the peak of stopping life. To loathe in the thoughts of... Those stars. It was hard - wanting to take a break to recover. But in exchange, they'll be expecting more of you. And you thought about it. You have to hold on, even on the most fragile branch.

Won't you take me by the hand,

Take me somewhere new?

I don't know who you are,

But I'm with you.

"Y/N?" A soft voice slowly spoke to you. It was behind you as if he knew you needed someone to hold your back. To push you forward. You knew it was a guy, but little did you that he will be the one you'd be able to depend on, and not on yourself anymore. Your mind was brought back to reality after your name rolled off his tongue. You wiped your tears with the arm of your hoodie and tried to balance your breathing.

You fixed your sling bag with your school supplies and slowly turned around to the person that has seen your vulnerability. "Oh, Jungkook." You responded quietly. Out of all of your colleagues, it was Jungkook. The two of you weren't really close. But for some reason, you felt something when you see him. A connection? Hope? Whatever it is, you felt good when you're with him.

I'm looking for a place,

I'm searching for a face,

Is anybody here I know?

"What's wrong?" The typical question, of course. Even if you knew that a person will ask that, nobody really has the balls to ask you. So it didn't really matter if they ask the obvious, you're just thankful somebody cared. "I'm... At the lowest point of my life right now." You answered softly as you looked down on the pavement. The atmosphere awkward was to you, but it soon changed when Jungkook asked again. "Wanna take a break? Come here, take a sit with me."

Jungkook said holding your wrist - which gave butterflies to you. You wondered, when did your heart skip a beat? You can't remember. You might've never even experienced it. Maybe now. He pulled you along with him to a bench near a light post. You sighed. You're hoping that you'll be able to take a break. You're holding on that little hope that Jungkook will be the one to hold you close. Even just for a while, even just for tonight. Just once.

'Cause nothing's going right,

And everything's a mess,

And no one likes to be alone.

"It's okay if you can't say it now. Maybe later, but don't hide it forever. Not until it becomes worse." Jungkook softly said as he caresses your hand. It was a small affection, but it had an impact on you. And you didn't know why. "I have not enough budget to pay for my rent. Yes, I haven't found a house to live on my own. A house of my own. And this semester isn't really going well for me."

You carefully said as your breath becomes rigged again, but you knew to let it out was healthier - because Jungkook was here. "My peers and my family expects a lot from me. You know, a tradition." You continued. He wraps an arm around you and rubs your back in circles, comforting you to the best that he can. He listened without words, and you highly appreciated that for what you need is someone to listen. And not to demand.

Why is everything so confusing?

Maybe I'm just out of my mind?

Moments after letting out fragments of what disturbs you, you felt better, to say the least. It wasn't euphoric, but it did felt better for you to be able to share what's bothering you. Yes, it's a little odd to share it with the person you don't hang out with - you didn't really hang out with anyone. But then again, it felt as if Jungkook was your soulmate. You never know. You calmed down, your whimpers quieted and your breathing became normal.

"Look, there are days in which we all feel like this. We feel terrified, we feel sad, we feel hopeless, whatever despair that we feel. It's in us." Jungkook carefully said, being cautious with his words. "It'll always happen. But you have to know that it won't last long if you find help. You can't build a house in a day, you also need someone. Don't let your pride take over you. If you think you can't do it, let it go. Cry it out not because you are weak, but because you have been strong for too long, Y/N."

It's a damn cold night.

Tryna' figure out this life.

His words were like the calming breeze over summer air. His gaze is the star that you've been looking for. His warmth is the fire that you've been needing. From the bottom of your heart, you knew it was him. You smiled softly. "Thank you." You were searching for someone to shed some light above you. Someone to get you through every night. A person who could be your inspiration. It was Jungkook. You never met often, but those little run-into-you-conversations was worth it.

Even though every talk gave little information about each other, you knew it was enough. "Because you knew how I feel. I couldn't thank you more." You continued, tears filling up your waterline again. And this time, your tears finally found a new purpose. A purpose of hope and joy. He smiled back and hugged you, ignoring the fact that both of you weren't really close to each other. All he knew is that you needed a hug, and you needed it right now.

Take me by the hand,

Take me somewhere new.

I don't know who you are,

Releasing from the hug, both of you smiled. You kissed his cheek. Saying that you're great was an understatement. You are euphoric. Both of you ate at a restaurant after your graduation. You're officially a licensed interior designer and Jungkook, - a licensed photographer. Both of you pretty much overcome the struggles of finishing college. With all these expectations and demands, you two overcame them and resolved problems that come in between the two of you. You were a lot more thankful than what you said a few months ago when you first officially met him at the park.

The conversation from before sparked both of you and you were more than happy to be in love with Jungkook. "If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't think I'll be able to get this career." You said. "Our jobs need the inspiration to be able to make our own. It just so happen that both of us became our own inspiration." Jungkook said slyly as you playfully punched his shoulder. "Thank you, Kook." Forever you'll be to him. "Always, Y/N. I'm with you."

[weedle-testaburger]

Lol I'm flattered that you think I'm tumblr famous 🤣 since you kinda tagged me ig I'll do it myself!

1. How did you choose your url? I wanted one referencing my two main fandoms at the time I picked it (Pokemon and South Park) and my original idea, stan-marshtomp, was taken, so I figured I'd combine Wendy's name with a Pokemon and it just kinda stuck lol

2. Any side blogs? Nope, I used to have an nsfw one back when tumblr let you have nsfw blogs but it's gone now

3. How long have you been on tumblr? Since August 2013, almost 8 years. God I feel old remembering that

4. Do I have a queue tag? No queueing, we stick posts in drafts or like them and then go find them later like men :p

5. Why did you start your blog? I had a few friends from school who used it and heard people on here liked talking about stuff like Pokemon and Doctor Who and wanted to try it for myself

6. Why did you choose your pfp? Stevonnie is still my favourite character in anything and until another enby character comes around I love as much as them I'm keeping them as my icon lol

7. Why did you choose your header? It's a shitpost I made and I still find my own stupid joke funny :p

8. What's your post with the most notes? This one, which I actually kinda hate cause every now and then someone will come on it going 'umm you know the roaring twenties were really bad actually (:', so for all intents and purposes my real post with the most notes is the 'you guys are just mean' meme criticising aphobia.

9. How many mutuals do you have? Idk how you count this but I'd guess about 90% of the blogs I'm following are mutuals

10. How many followers do you have? 3,133 atm apparently!

11. How many people do you follow? 2,848 atm.

12. Have you ever made a shitpost? I make shitposts constantly lmao

13. How often do you use tumblr every day? In terms of checking my phone, every few hours or so.

14. Did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog? I've been on here almost 8 years, too many times to count! I don't like doing it but if you're gonna insult me for liking what I like or supporting people you think aren't valid, go fuck yourself is all I can say to that.

15. How do you feel about 'you need to reblog this' posts? I reblog them more often than not but just because I do doesn't mean other people who follow me have to! It's just a way for me to kinda ease my conscience about that stuff really.

16. Do you like tag games? I love em! It always makes me smile to think that people on here think of me enough to tag me in them, and I find them pretty fun to answer.

17. Do you like ask games? Ditto, it's fun seeing what people think of me or want to hear my opinions on, or tell them what i think of them or want to hear their opinions on.

18. Which of your mutuals do you think are tumblr famous? Well I feel a bit embarrassed to tag them in case it's annoying! But tbh @goopy-amethyst @mcnuggyy @cheylouwho and @bi-lars seem that way to me (in a good way ofc!)

It's late af here so I won't bother tagging anyone, if you wanna do this go for it!

Thanks for the tag Lovelies! @tapejob @sophie83540 (also I am in no way shape or form Tumblr famous! Love you all tho 😘😘)

1. Why did you choose your url?:

Hi, Im Reaven and my blog Edges on the Lies of fandoms! Its a play on me edging on the cliff that is the lie of fandoms being non-toxic and trying not to fall in

2. Any side blogs?:

Technically, yes I have two(2) @reavenedges-lies-ficdump and @kanarenee-on-ps4 but, @ren-is-being-silenced Is a Main blog that is my backup account for posting hockey videos when i go over the 5min limit

3. How long have you been on tumblr?:

I joined 06/20/2013 so Too Long Me Thinks lol

4. Do you have a queue tag?:

Should I? Yes. Do I? No, I dont eve Queue anything so I dont have one

5. Why did you start your blog?:

I don't actually remember but i was in highschool so probably because some of my friends were on here!

6. Why did you choose your pfp?:

Because Its Pride Month and Zach Aston-Reese is my Fave FuckBoi on the Penguins

7. Why did you choose your header?:

I've fallen in love with Jared McCann and like He did a Barrel Roll! And also that is my GIF!

8. What’s your post with the most notes?:

I use this site to check but it is apparently this post with 409 notes!

9. How many mutuals do you have?:

I counted to 120 before [Tumblr] broke and wouldnt let me see anymore! Also side blogs can't follow people so who actually knows!

10. How many followers do you have?:

Currently? Im fluctuating around 600 but im at this moment at 603!

11. How many people do you follow?:

1377 and counting!

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?:

Have you seen my content? It ranges from good takes to shitpost and you never know whats gonna happen next!

13. How often do you use tumblr each day?:

Yes, Its not great... But its on my phone so yes!

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?:

No? Maybe? I try not to argue on this site, it doesnt help anyone and its a waste of everyone's time!

15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?:

Hard pass on those 19/20 times!

16. Do you like tag games?:

Yes!!! Tag games are fun!! It's a good way to get to know your mutuals better and a lovely way for you to introduce yourself to your followers!

17. Do you like ask games?:

I adore ask games! And I will absolutely go out of my way to answer all my asks to the fullest! (I see you person who asked me to do the Shots to make-out with NHLers prompt for the "Arizona Coyotes")

18. Which of your mutuals do you think are tumblr famous?:

@miamitu , @weedle-testaburger , and @hedgehogofspades

i think all count but also definitely @jakeguentzels

And now for the Tags:Anyone and Everyone who wants too!