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iamthepulta · 9 months ago

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Sometimes I really want to think about religious trauma, but that's the theme of New Braemar and we've only played one session so there's nothing to think about. And I didn't include religious themes in Ellenville because it's not important to me/I don't know what I don't know.

Despite that I still have a lingering 'I know this really fucked me up and I should unpack it' feeling combined with a 'I've mostly healed from it, but by actively erasing everything that hurts from my mind'.

#At least i know what im walking into with aisla and im excited to get fucked up. Westlie was a genuine accident.#People have asked me about my sect at uni because I clearly divorced myself from it. And I can't...#like it literally dont know what to say. and they ask questions about what we believe and i can barely answer #I dont know if i really forgot or the words dont come out because my mouth is just useless like that.#But i want to say- I've read the whole old testament through. i used to have ephesians memorized.#I cried once when i talked to our pastor. i used to believe in YEC.#My mother whooped us with irrigation lines. To this day i remember Galatians 2:20-22 because she said it so often #I did activities that made me describe how the Fear of God was s good thing. Anthropology was evil.#and.... it just lingers. sometimes.#about me #The other reason i know is my brother brings up things during my teenage years that i just /Do Not Remember/. Which startles me bc i didnt #want to forget.

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