#PLEASE DON’T REBLOG

[edenfenixblogs]

Blog Housekeeping:

Gonna take the rest of the week off from high-effort posting and analysis. Just to recharge.

This is a marathon, not a sprint. And I need to take my own advice so I can finish this instead of burning out.

A lot of things have been upsetting to me this past week. A lot of hypocrisy from so-called activists. A lot of Jewish spaces being so flooded with antisemitism that I can’t even find Jews in them. I just need a rest.

I looked up “olive tree” on this site just for reference pix of so I could draw an olive tree. And instead I was flooded with propaganda about how Jews can’t be indigenous to Israel because of we cared so much about our land we wouldn’t destroy so many olive trees. And how important olive trees are to Palestinians. And yes. I absolutely 100% believe that Palestinians value olive trees. I believe Palestinians when they say that they value all the things they say they value.

What upsets me is that I can’t even search a symbol that is also very connected to Judaism and peace and my indigeneity without my culture being vilified and my indigeneity denied and encountering a disrespectful level of ignorance about the core values of Judaism.

Like… imagine telling JEWS we are evil for not caring enough about trees. 33% of our religion is about trees!!!!! Specific trees too! Including olive trees! I deserve to look up pictures of olive trees and be able to find a nice picture of an olive tree.

I’m not saying that nobody should post about the destruction of olive trees in Palestine. But why can’t I find any posts with olive trees that are just about the trees? Why is this symbol of peace across multiple religions and cultures being used AGAINST Jews worldwide just because of the actions of a country halfway around the world? And why do I feel like saying the truth that “Jews love trees, but not more than human life” will be a stance that gets me called evil and accused of devaluing Palestinian life. I don’t. And never have. But my goodness. I just wanted to look at a tree. Idk. It just made me sad. It was just the latest instance of a long line of stuff that has made me weary lately. Fandoms, nature pictures, everything I enjoy is just soaked in politicization rn and there is no escape. And I just…it’s overwhelming. I’ll be back and I’ll be analytical and kind and the same as I’ve always been. But I need a week to recharge myself.

[paperstorm]

Furious anon I am not trying to invite OG haters into my inbox before 8am on a Tuesday haha so I will keep your ask just for me but I agree so hard. It's such a good show, it has such beautiful representation with Tarlos and other characters as well, and it's not that nobody cares. Thousands of people care. It's that this is late stage capitalism and in the immortal words of Wu-Tang Clan, cash rules everything. I'm furious too, especially after rewatching 4x18 last night. It's such a special show. Corporate greed is ruining art every single day.

[sillylandmagic]

Content Warning? Mention of continence issues

Trying visual cards for toileting, since it’s an ADL I require support for to functionally complete it, but do not get support. Hoping that visuals for each step will help lessen frequent(minor) accidents and leakage.

[sistaofpeace1]

So…rant below. Skip if you want.

Let me first preface this by saying that I absolutely don’t mind at all that people have their own preferred ships when it comes to Tales fandom, or just any fandom in general. It’s great! And people absolutely should have the right to celebrate their favorites as they please.

Having said that…I’d be lying if I didn’t say that I sometimes feel a little lonely. I feel like I’m the only one shouting from the rooftops that Luke/Tear is so amazing and the way they were developed in Abyss was just brilliant and I would love to share that love with others.

And I try to do that. But sometimes…it just feels like I’m talking to a brick wall.

Other than the few people who still care to some extent…there are less and less people who will even bat an eyelash.

And like, I get it…Abyss is a dated fandom and its last release was on the 3DS in like 2012. And of course, so many other games and fandoms have come around since then.

At the same time…I see how people react to other Abyss ships…and I see how they react to Luke/Tear. I can tell you that it’s definitely NOT the same.

I know I’m not the best writer. Far from it. But seeing my stories also get less and less traction (despite putting as much if not more effort) is getting disappointing. So I know it’s not just a “me” issue but mainly the general audience who are not interested in the subject matter.

Maybe it’s just the syndrome and curse of being a “canon” ship. Some people will automatically gravitate away from anything that’s “written” to already happen. And that makes me sad. I wish people could just see everything regardless of whether they’re deemed canon or not, because I feel like people are passing over a beautiful ship for really no good reason.

There’s also people who…let’s say take Luke’s age at literal face value and won’t even consider him with anyone lmao they’re kind of a lost cause to begin with so I don’t even bother

Anyway. I don’t want to be discouraging. Tl;dr I just wish I had more people I could fangirl Luke/Tear with

[lizspearmint21]

I turned a year older last week. Last year of my 20’s (😬).

[angelmichelangelo]

the b-team apartment is in motion ‼️

[thief-and-dragonfly]

Happy Halloween

[alexisworld6]

It’s officially Halloween 🎃 🐈‍⬛

[bradleybeachbabe]

i can proudly say that i saw my favorite band (deftones) in concert last night!!🫶🏻

video and pictures under the cut!

please ignore my singing if you can hear me😅

warnings: flash/flashing lights and loud music

[suzie-guru]

I wish there was an actual support group for BDD near me, there’s some alone resources but I don’t have the spoons for that now. I know going to therapy consistently would also help but God, I just want to be with people who understand.

[asphy7]

I know I only just updated my commission sheet and I haven’t really been pushing it, but would it be weird or annoying if I did so one more time?

I just got my quotes for top surgery and it’s quite a lot more than we were expecting. 18k Aussie, 15k if I can drop 30kg in the next five months.

I am also working on expanding my social media because I can’t just hide out in the corner of the room that is tumblr.

But it’s always been so exhausting to me learning so many different things.

I am also looking into commission sites like artistree and fiver but it’s overwhelming and will take me a bit.

Also maybe start streaming art soon but I need to get reacquainted with my pc and the programs there first.

I dunno, it’s just scary and it’s a lot but I don’t have many ways of making money… :,D

I’d also pay someone to help me manage it all and help me push my stuff out better but especially before I’m earning money that’s too much out of pocket.

I’m just ranting so I’ll probably delete later but in the meantime if anyone has opinions or advice I’d greatly appreciate it.

[lizspearmint21]

[stretchedoutonthegrass]

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Having a weird week and it’s catching up with me today: yesterday would have been my dad’s birthday, today marks 12 years since I attempted, and tomorrow I turn 31.

Just in a weird headspace rn I guess.

[thescrolls-haveforetold]

She’s watching me play as Val

[that-dumpster-angel-from-space]

A Eulogy for my Beloved Pet:

(Tw: Animal Death, Grief)

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Yesterday, my family and I had to make the devastating decision to put our 15-year old dog– Lizzie– down. She was having seizures for months, lost vision in both of her eyes, and lost balance in her legs. The past two days, she’d been doing nothing but sleeping, and didn’t react to food or going outside like she used to.

Lizzie was my first pet, and we had her since I was 8 years old. I still remember the day we adopted her: We were coming back from church, but my parents secretly took us to the adoption shelter instead. The next day, I remember running into class and telling my teacher how excited I was that we adopted a puppy. A brand new puppy. Our puppy.

She used to run so quickly in the backyard that none of us could catch her. She used to love waking me up in the morning for school… by jumping on my head. Lizzie was loved by all of us, but my Mom was her human. She loved my mom so much that she got jealous whenever Mom would hug someone else. (There’s a reason the shelter originally named her “Princess.”) But Lizzie was still a sweetheart who loved her toys, going on vacations with us, and loved getting belly-rubs.

Lizzie was my special girl; I’m going to miss her with all my heart. It hasn’t even been 48 hours yet, and our house feels so much emptier. Even now, I still think I’m going to see her trotting around a corner, or hear her collar jingling as she goes around the house. I feel like a piece of my heart is gone. I hope that she’s somewhere where she can get all the belly-rubs and snacks that she wants, and remembers how much we love her.

I want to remember this day, and have it immortalized just like Lizzie. Because she’ll always live on in our hearts: Our puppy. Our first dog. Our princess. Our Lizzie.

Humans don’t deserve dogs, but we’re so lucky to have them. We certainly didn’t deserve Lizzie, but she was the best dog we could’ve ever asked for. I’m honored that she chose us to spend her 15 happy years with.

-Angel

[alexisworld6]