#Opoortunity

[robocops-a-christ-allegory]

Peacemaker being Jaime's mentor is much better for Jaime's character then it being Ted, Booster, Guy, and even Starfire because Peacemaker is like a dark warning of the kind of person Jaime might become if he doesn't escape the destiny everybody thinks hes bound to, something evident for the whole run but spelled out by issue 20 where Peacemaker literally becomes the soldier the reach wants Jaime to be. And nobody even gets it. They hated jesus (me) because he told the truth.

[snazzi-strawberri]

God. I might actually have to make an art acc in Twitter if I really want to reach out and interact to the artists around me. NOBDOY USES TUMBLR AHHUUU

[starculler]

In a stunning turn of events, I soft-started a WordPress blog for my original writing. Sort of a half-portfolio-half-journey-record. It's weird, but also the most professional thing I've made since LinkedIn (which is all but a silent wasteland bcs I don't keep it updated enough)

I say soft-started bcs I accidentally published the site with no content l, so it's up but empty except for a hastily made about page and a first post still in drafts and probs not going up for another few days while i fine tune it lmao

[carogudino-blog]

Hold on! About Alicole, I get you don’t dig it and find it anoying and hypocrite (it is this last) but don’t reduce the complex characters to “Rhaenyra is their world and they are so lost”

1. Alicent was not “mad at Rhaenyra just for banging Criston” she was upset bc she lied to her face about going out and exposing herself, and said she is still a “Lady”. She is angry cause her dad (her only ally in court) was sent away after her request even if the accusation were true (she was INDEED seen out in the Street of Silk w/ Daemon) She was hurt to see her son lose and eye an no one getting a consequense when she did, and her son did. Is not about “oh, you slept with Criston? I hate you”

2. Criston is not with Alicent bc Rhaenyra rejected him. He is with her bc she saved his life, she gave him an opoortunity, he stood ip for him when no one else did. He is truly loyal to her, is her closest person and has basically help her raise her children (Look at the kids interaction with Cole, like is that their dad or what?)

3. Criston doesn’t hate Rhaenyra bc she said no to running away and selling oranges. He is upset bc he realised she had no respect for him. This was breaking him in a million pieces and she was uncapable to see that, or to even try to see it.

Now, you may argue “is the same with alicent, he is now his whore” and sorry but no. Alicent is a widow, she is not cheating on anyone, she is not using him in private and desregarding him in public. Season 1 makes this very clear, he is her confident, he is the person she trusts, she lets her kids be close to him, they see each other at their worse and still stand by each other.

Didn’t u see the Council looks? They are a team. Also Fabien said “his heart is alway to alicent” so I believe their is love, and also Alan Taylor -the director- said this too “There is love from both sides there” Olivia said as well “Rhaenyra is not even s ghost in this relationship” They have moved past that Rhae + Criston, both of them, and are having their own thing. It is hypocrite, yes it is, and they are aware of it

[captainpains]

Forget Me Not (Crosshair x Reader)

I've never written for Crosshair, when I got this square on the @clonexreaderbingo card, it took the opoortunity to try something new. I hope you enjoy ❤️

Prompt: Crosshair

Warnings: gn reader, Medical emergencies, Angst, hurt-comfort (i think), bittersweet ending, bad writting (I can't write sadness).

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It felt like it was yesterday when you met him.

You were working on Kamino, a medical doctor hired to help the incredibly injured.

A tall and sarcastic man with a toothpick hanging from his mouth. He was not happy about being sent to the medbay. He was grumpy. But he had a sort of smirk on his face while you were treating him. You brushed him off; the soldiers tended to flirt a lot.

It was a couple of days later when he showed up again. This time carrying another man of roughly the same size, a gaping wound in the man’s side.

After rushing and helping the injured man, the man with a toothpick introduced himself as Crosshair. 

Since then, whenever his squad was planetside, he would visit you.

The two of you never talked much, but he had a relaxing presence about him. When you did talk, it was about your interests or jobs. You learned about his brothers and his favorite flavor of ration bar. From the outside, it was a strange friendship. But to the two of you, it was precious moments, moments untouched by the chaos of the war.

Neither of you noticed when your meetings became more frequent. When you started to spend your meals together. You would eat in silence. But it was quality time together.

Soon you were cracking jokes and exchanging stories.

It was a progression that no one would have seen coming. The stand offish sniper making friends with a shy medic. 

Who would've guessed. 

You started to feel overly giddy when you saw him. Your chest would flutter when he looked at you, and you felt hot when he would give you one of his smirky smiles. You had feelings for him.

Crosshair started to have feelings for you too. He smiled when you laughed. He got embarrassed when you caught him staring. He got more grumpy when his brother teased him about it, but all was better when he saw you across the dining hall. 

“I brought you something…”

“Really?” You looked up at him shocked. 

Crosshair nodded. You noticed his hands were hidden behind his back. Then he revealed what it was.

A small wood carving. It was cut in the shape of his sniper rifle.

You gasped at the gift. You took it into your hand, holding it as if it was a precious jem. It was so kind of him to make you something.

“To remember me.” He said. You smiled at him.

No one would have expected Crosshair to be so sweet to you either. Holding you like you were the most precious thing. He kissed you so gently. It was just perfect, in its own way.

But, all good things must come to an end.

When the war ended, Crosshair came back to Kamino… different. Not a good difference. 

You were hurt when he acted as if you didn't exist. It was like he wasn't himself. 

It hurt you. For him to cast you aside. It felt like you meant nothing to him. 

“What is wrong?” You asked. “Why are you saying this?”

“You are a distraction. You are hindering my ability to do my duty.” Crosshair firmly replied.

“So was all that nothing to you. Do I mean nothing to you now?”

“Nothing is more important than my duty to the Empire.”

You turned away from him, tears in your eyes and hurt in your heart. It was a harsh way to end things. Fitting for someone heartless, not fitting for your sniper, On the outside he was harsh, isolated from others caused him to lack social graces, but he wasn’t a bad person. He wasn’t the type of person to end things like this.

Shortly after you left Kamino. Heartbroken from Crosshair's words.

It still hurts years later. 

But no matter how bad it hurt, you couldn’t bring yourself to get rid of the carving you gave him. It was too hard. It reminded you of all the good times you had. And it was a reminder of the Crosshair that you loved.

It would be years later when you saw him again.

Crosshair was brought to you by his squad, injured and fading. In his barely conscious state, he saw you and smiled. The same smile you fell in love with years ago.

It was a stressful few days as you fought to keep him stable.

After three stressful days, he was finally getting better. When he awoke, his squad was relieved. Hunter particularly was so happy that his brother’s health was improving. Wrecker almost crushed him in a hug, tears streaming down his face in relief. Tech and Echo showed their love in their own way. And Omega, the news edition to the squad, was overjoyed and hugged her brother. Crosshair tenderly hugged her back.

It was after his siblings left for the night that he finally spoke to you.

“I’m sorry…” He said, voice horse. “I’m sorry for how things ended.”

You looked over at him. He was staring directly at you, guilt overcoming his features. He had hated himself for so long. Once he started to change, he started to regret the words he had said to you. If he could go back, he would’ve said anything else.

“I’m sorry for everything…”

You gave a small sigh. It was nice to hear the apology, even years later. But it could not mend the past. It wouldn’t fix everything. But it gave you hope.

Hope that you could build something new.

You silently moved to stand next to him, taking his hand in yours. You gave a tiny smile. He gave a sad smile back, it wasn’t like the way he used to smile. You gently pressed the wood carving into his hand. He took it then brought it to his other hand, thumb rubbing it carefully.

“I accept your apology.” You replied. “I hope we can start over.”

“I’d like that…”

[ifaeree]

I don't know how to start (and sorry if I have any grammar or spelling mistakes, my english is not the best and I might use google translate to help if necessary). So... I honestly didn't have many expectations on this new game but I was like "let's see and decide" and at first I was really dissapointed because of the prices of the bank outfits and the VIP pass (which I am considering in purchaising only if I really love the outfit). But... I am enjoying the game at this point for these reasons:

1.- Taki

Taki was the reason I decide giving this game a chance because I love Eldarya and I always wanted the chance to dress the companions ( but it's understandable that it isn't possible since there are a lot of them). I know some players don't like Taki, but I really love him/her and I love it's sound and animations.

2. The messages

When I discover that the love interests where going to send messages to us after the episodes if we are up to date with them I was like "weeeeell, I supose I'm not receiving any messages since I am not planing on in-game purchasing so I might not be up to date with the episodes" (I was SO wrong btw).

I really love this because it give me a little of Mystic Messenger vibes, but I hate that there is a timer which ironically also reminds me of MM.

3. The games

- Style contest: I like it because I it as an opoortunity to get hearts, gems and APs -playing AND voting. I LOVE that we can share items to other players and vice versa. The only thing I don't like are the themes (they are the same always) and I am still trying to win "Green with envy" dressing my newcrette as Melody from the original MCL 😭

- The other game whose name I don't remember even in spanish: just to say i don't like that the times to wait are too long and that it makes me remember Eldarya and I am still sad because the game died T-T

4. Jason and Thomas

So... I was really interested in him before the game was released but I was dissapointed with some of his actions in the first four episodes. But I really love the 🌶️ tension in the last episode.

Anyway, I allready fell for Thomas and he is soooooo cute. i can't and will not betray him.

But... I am still interested in see what will happen with the ones who will choose to make a "deal" with Jason. And I really hope it ends in a really really REALLY bad ending. Because I really need that possibily of having a bad ending in the game. It makes the game for interesting (at least for me).

Anyway. That's all (I think). I am not used to use tumblr and I even forgot my password and had to change it.

Thank you so much @tetrakys for the opportunity to get the e-girl code. I think I am still in time...

And if not, I already wrote all this and it's not like I am going to just erase it, specially since I used every last neuron to remember all the english classes I took at school to write this.

Thank you again Tetra

Love you all

Good luck

And good luck everyone.

5. Room customization

Last but not less important (and I just remember xd)

I love that we can custom the room. This wasn't an option in the original MCL and in Eldarya we only have a background already made.

Now that's all.

Whoot whoot!

[totally-sapphic-posts]

Hii Boba Anon here,

We've moved on to texting just about every day? Idk what to really make of it though. We don't talk about our day or anything, its more that one of us will send a meme and then we'll just have a bit going(sometimes this lasts ten minutes, sometimes 2.5 hours...)

I haven't actually seen her in person, though. I'm thinking I should ask her to dinner(but just on campus b/c I have no money and not a ton of time) but if it isn't a friend thing, now isn't a great time because the semester ends in a month and a half so I'm torn.

Hope all is well!

Ooh ok.

How are things going now? I believe it's around summer break time in the northern hemisphere. Do you guys have any opoortunities at the moment to meet up?

[puppy-love-over-cat-personality]

The head's importance

The girl was officially to be wedded to a man with an age gap large enough to be her father, all in that order. In fact, she was to be his second wife if accounts were to be believed. Except she can't protest nor nullify the contract of the marriage if means the endangerment of her family and people through war and imminent death, and they've already have a taste of what it will be to deny said arrangement despite in unfair bidding grounds, such is politics. So she thought.

This was the age of royalty, and she was unlucky enough to be born in the era readily available for limited opoortunities, to her, she was just a step above from the peasants, but having to suffer and endure the longlasting torture of the confiscation in an indetermined period of time of her freedom, if she will get it back that is. She is a woman, hardly any rights but to sit still, look pretty and seal possible transactions in the near future, and she is tasked and assigned for the market of men to pluck from to get a share of her country's coffers. Rather unfortunate to be well bred but then born a woman.

Her name was, ironically, Alexandra. The least of all she's contributing is protection in her rule, instability is what it seems the offer issues, neither allotting her the time to think up of an appropriate response. Although she was blessed by an unknown source to weild the representation of power, to utilize and transform it, to yield results of which can only be dreamed of during difficult and devastating times wherein no such thing could be conceived but through dreams. But she was ready to make those dreams a reality, as she was not willing to back down from assisting and aiding her country's worn economy and pick up the pieces of where her forefathers left off, even if under the control of another country, not everyone can have anything, she internally voices to make herself feel better.

Although she was ready for her organized union, she remembered a long time ago, from where whisper took her to the memories she has yet to recognize, it was early on in her childhood when she was abducted by creatures and when she returned, she was a different person altogether, her personality was that expected from a ruler of a kingdom. Not so much did it teach for her as they have given her birthright of the powers, to what purpose? They never revealed, and prescribed a riddle, though quite unique from all the riddles she had learned from the years she lived.

"Create a worthy symbol for your power, to signify, and then your powers will grant you action." Was all they echoed before they departed, as if they never existed in the first place.

As a logical individual herself, she would have brushed off the advice and be out with it, it's nonsense to spend your time pondering over lines caused by a vivid imagination from a child. But she was not blind to deny either their existence, as time and time again, they've appeared to remind her the limit of their offers, that she had no choice to believe, and it had made her anxious all day.

The choir sang and the wedding bells tolled, the whole nation will be there to witness her transition from bachelorette to a wife. She gazed upon her soon to be husband fiercely as to intimidate him but when her eyes locked on him, her breath was carried away. she could not believe her eyes, such a sight to be greeted by the familiar face of her long lost childhood friend.

The people took notice of her abrupt pause, and she quickly mended as to diminish further suspicion by proceeding to her position in the altar, first, she tried to search for recollection as to why of all things her husband was nearly the same age as her. If she was to remember, he was offered to her by her council as an old man, surely there was a mistake somewhere. A small part of her dearly missed him but now was not the time for theatrics nor emotional outbursts. She needed to know why.

"It's because of the cryptic riddle they sent you. I have the answer to it." he told as if answered every question in her head, but all it did was further confuse her, but she indulged him anyway.

"Alright, what is the answer of the mystery, oh great one?" she snapped sarcastically.

"Do you know what's the most important part of our body that if it gets separated, we would be dead?" he shared as if he stated the obvious.

"The head?" she didn't even need to think it through.

"The voices want you to craft protection for the head. That's what they instructed you." he voiced it out with finality.

She had an idea, and it came from her childhood, what was it? It was tradition for them to create flower crowns, she secretly whispered it as coming from Jesus, the crown on the head. It pays as tribute to him. Why didn't she think of that before?

"What if I created it from gold and silver?" she thought aloud.

"Why those materials exactly?" he asked, curious as to why.

"You never know, someone gets an idea of aiming you on the head, and it might just stop you from your death." she stated as if it was a fact, and he was scared for the first time.

And there, the first headdress for the royals came to be. The crown, everyone thought it was another object separate from headdresses, but it was likely to be believed caused by Alexandra's power that causes their want and greed for it to be wholly unique. When it is truly a headdress.

Alexandra was happy when she first completed it, and wanted her love to try it on, showing it to her husband who accepted the gift, he wore it as he was to be officially announced as the king of his own country. Embedded with jewels, it attracted the scrutiny of the people and unwanted attention included.

As an aniversary gift, he was in a hurry to install a new tradition, for a monarch to wear a crown as a symbol of their legal reign, but he encountered bandits on the way home, who was assigned to assassinate him, but they didn't get too far, when they thought the crown would dent, it didn't leave a scratch, and worse, because of the influence of Alexandra's power, it pushed the bandits and killed them.

Despite being a royal, he was accused of the crime of manslaughter and accounts of assault. Harming the alleged innocents of the country he ruled did not reassure his already unstable position, and they were calling for his head. Other accounts such as forgery, and despite pleads for innocence on the words of his newly wed wife and witnesses as they've seen the entire sequence, they were quickly silenced when provoked and threatened with war. Except Alexandra.

Dearly beloved Alexandra who doesn't back down from a fight, she argued and testified against the court but even she could not convince a lighter sentence when it comes to a honest man like her love. He held her hand, and passed the crown to Alexandra, which she grasped tightly.

"I will not risk my integrity. I deserve the punishment for eliminating one of my people, I will serve whatever punishment you deemed necessary. No parole. " Johannes, her love had spoken, accepting.

One of the council members laughed, and the rest joined with him "Oh you don't need a parole, we'll be seeing you at the execution block."

Johannes eyes gazed on the ground, as if conveying defeat.

"He isn't the king, not yet, I'm sure we can schedule a remarriage with a worthier selection and consort for the kingdom of Alexandra, Borealaistre." suggested an eager council member of the monarchy Austerfedt, her husband's origin. Alexandra felt as if her foundation was lost the moment she stepped out, as she went in as a spitfire, ready to defend against those who conspired against him, but she lost, as if her powers had failed her, she felt cheated on.

The crown, the headdress she created became the cause of all her problems, and after the meeting, in frustration, she flung the headdress out of the tower to never be seen again, carried by the waves if the roaring ocean. Alexandra was crumbling without her husband's comforting gestures, but she can survive, just that it'll be a long road ahead. Alexandra then sat, cried as she caressed her stomach, showing a slight bump.

"I apologize, you will never get to meet your father and I am to blame." she sobbed.

Years passed by, and by the beach, a young girl that exhibited cultivating intellect and revealed short curled blonde hair underneath her hat spotted a shiny trinket, and so she nudged the object using her stick to unearth the dust covered artifact. She then was struck gold, literally.

The young girl hid it from her mom for years, it was time for her wedding. She thought the crown would be fitting to wear on her wedding, and so she did. There she stood like her mother before her, anxious over marrying a stranger for the country. It was always for the country. She was unaware of what purpose it served as, then her mother entered, to see the same crown Aurora's father placed on top of his head for his coronotian. It saved him as much as it killed him. To see it laying on top of her own girl's head did nothing but horrify her, but it was already too late as she walked on the altar.

Sometimes, problems of the past have a way of returning back to you, whether you like it or not.

(This writer wrote this for their coursework assignment, I'll finalize it later.)

[rehancel]

i just finished before sunset and will move on to before midnight tonight but i have so many thoughts some things i liked

the conversation never stops they just keep talking about random things and it just flows as they walk through places. after they walk through these places and have their story there the next morning its just back to normal and in the daylight there is no trace of them at all. been thinking about the whole Life Goes On reality that every time something big happens whether good or bad i am struck by how it does not matter to anyone or anything else you know the universe. does not care and things go on traisn still run people go to school and work strangers yell in the street and it feels like disrespect for the gravity if the event to you but really life goes on and that was so clear in the final scenes of before sunrise

now i did not think i wld like before sunset as much because usually with sequels and trilogies the standard just drops but i somehow like before sunset even more. SPOILER i guess but i really liked the whole thign about how the missed opoortunity. they are older now and you can tell (which is sth so poignant n bittersweet idk) and hes married shes attached etc etc blabla but all the times they were all i wish you were there i wish we cld hv had that the dont tell me u were in new york i was there too but we never saw ewch other and its so bitter n longingn for sth of the past and the feeling of missing out on it is soooo hnghhh to me. the conversation in the car of them losing that romanticism after that night and that dec 16 is also so. aksjjsjw!! akkejefjjejrjiwoeoeoo!!!! when he says then he has these dreams and they are both very emotional (poor driver though listening in to their convo) i just liked it a lott. it ended so oddly thouhh. but the fact that jesse wrote a book abt it n she relived it while reading it idk its so foaming at the mouth vomitting n blood dripping out if my ears etc etc i love ot

they hv so many lines of convo that i rly liked but i cant rmb them now. when they talked about being old and only being what tou are to another person having nothing for yourself vs working for yourself and havinng no one else. when jese talked abt being not enternal that he will disappear and i just like the indifference of the universe thing. i like tha they talked abt losing the innocence and hope as theg are older also

[theoutlierdjournal]

Coaching S2

I wanna share some insight notes after i’ve done coaching with my senior on Rumah Kepemimpinan. Kenapa coaching? Karena saya buruh temen berefleksi, butuh di challenge dengan objektif, apa benar saya butuh s2 atau hanya pengaruh lingkungan karena beberapa teman terdekat saya dan juga suami saya udah s2?

Sebelum coaching, saya udh bikin SWOT mengenai S2. Apa strength, weaknesses, opportunity dan threat-nya dan mana yang lebih dominan? Ternyata even sudah bikin SWOT saya tetap nggak bs memutuskan, makanya ttp butuh coaching.

Coaching selama 1.5 jam. Pertanyaannya cuman 1 : Apa bener saya mau dan butuh S2?

Di awal saya memaparkan swot saya, and you know what? Saya dapet feedback dari coach-nya “dari paparan kamu, saya merasa bahwa S2 kamu lebih banyak krn opportunity-nya, dorongan eksternal-nya seperti Hannah blm sekolah shg lebih fleksibel dan tmpt kerja suami yg juga msh fleksibel. Saya ngerasa strength-nya blm terlalu kuat, tp take the opoortunity juga gak salah kok.”

Gue kaya “wow?? Ternyata itu jawabannya. Dan ternyata gak salah kalau gue take the opportunity walau strength dalam diri gue utk s2 blm kuat. Terus coach-nya menambahkan

“Opportunity itu biasanya jadi alasan kamu untuk memulai. Tapi strength, the why kamu S2 ini akan menjadi penyemangat kamu untuk menyelesaikan S2.”

Gue kaya wow??!!!!! Cool!!! New insight bgt!! Jadi PR gue adalah bener2 nyari strength atau motivasi internal untuk sekolah dan ssgh nya ini akan menjadi bahan coaching selanjutnya.

The second one, gue di”korek” lagi. Kenapa mau S2? Ada 5 point yang ternyata jadi alasan gue

1. Mau berkarya

2. Mau contribute kepada peningkatan kesehatan masyarakat

3. Impacted local (yes lokal aja lah, yg feasible dicapai)

4. Menjadi ibu yang berdaya dan berkarya (agak redundat sama bo.1 yaa)

5. Menjadi inspirasi untuk anak2 untuk sekolah setinggi2nya

Dan gue ditanya, apa harus S2 utk mencapai 5 hal tsb? Dan jawaban gue “NGGAK 😭” wkwkwkw semua bs dicapai dengan keadaan gue yg skrg kan? Wk, kenapa jadi “prasyarat” untuk ina inu? Wkwkwkw, lol.

Jadi sadar kan. Gausah kebanyakan prasyarat idup lo, Na wkwkwk.

Kemudian gue ditanya, dari kelima hal tsb mana hal yang paliiingggg penting menurut lo? Gue jawab poin 1 dan 4.

Kenapa?

Gue bilang bahwa gue mau menjadi “someone” i dont wanna be a mediocre.

Why you don’t wanna be a mediocre?

Well bitter truth is, my number 1 strength is significance. Gue baru ngerasa berharga, berdaya, penuh hatiku kalau aku punya signifikansi thd org lain.

BUT, quote and quote orang significance itu ternyata (baru tau dari talents mapping thanks to mbak @arum) tipikal ya agak narsis. I wanna get spotlight (jujur ya agak malu nih :”) somehow, that spotlight really leads me to a greater good alhamdulillah. Gue bener2 makes something thus i got that spotlight.

Terus si coach bilang “oke spot light is one thing, i still don’t get it, why would you be SOMEONE? Kenapa lo harus berkarya dan menjadi ibu berdaya?”

I am asking myself. Terus tiba2 kaya ada petir nyamber di hati gue, terus gue meneteskan air mata. “The answer is related to my inner child…….”

I am trying to hold my tears but i can’t…. Dengan bercucuran air mata, gue bilang sm coach,

“I wanna be someone because gue mau dihargai. Aku mau jadi perempuan yang dilihat sama orang.”

“Because i used to see my father beat my mom… gue selalu melihat bokap gue merendahkan nyokap gue. I don’t wanna be like that. Gue mau jadi perempuan yg dihargai. Gue mau berkarya buat buktiin kalau gue bisa dan berharga.”

I am still on tears…….

Rasanya plong banget asli pas ngomong kaya gitu….. Bahkan… gue gak bisa jujur sm diri gue sendiri. Gue harus di prompt sama orang dulu baru gue bisa menemukan jawabannya….

Gitu……..

Oke Lanjut, Talking about spotlight ini juga yang “diarahkan” oleh coach. Jangan sampe, lo silau sama spotlight orang lain dan pengen dapat spotlight yang sama. Ainna tetep bisa dapet spotlight untuk diri lo sendiri tanpa harus menjadi seperti orang lain :)

Kenapa hal ini bs keluar dari coach gue? Because i force myself to pursue my degree on Ivy League. Karena alasannya shallow banget “Gue pengen juga membuktikan walau sudah jadi mamah-mamah gue ttp bisa masuk Harvard.” 🥲 hati gue kotor bgt wk. besides, gue juga tau di Harvard jurusan yang gue pengen emang align bgt sm tujuan hidup gue, tapi alasan tadi ituloh yg hmmmmmm…. Yang membuat gue insist utk mengambil Ivy League while i know US not as safety as European country ya kl mau raising kids tapi karena ada alasan “mamah mamah” itu tadi yg bikin gue insist mau masuk harvard.

I still can have my own spotlight wherever i am. Itu yg harus gue sadari…..

Karena sejujur gue kaya bump into NZ gitu tapi my half heart kaya “Hey Harvard ajalah, people will be more looking at you if you are in Harvard.” 🙃👍 how pathetic i am.

Jadi gue kaya skrg lebih lega aja skrg :”) bahwa gue gak HARUS berada di SUATU TEMPAT untuk ORANG MELIHAT GUE.

Huhuhu Allah bener2 nge-guide gue bgt ngerasanya Alhamdulillah 😭

Tapi mengenai tempat kuliah itu, kujuga pernah konfirmasi ke salah satu lulusan Columbia. Kubilang “Salah gak sih Mbak aku milih Ivy League just because IT IS IVY LEAGUE?” Dan kata senior gue ya gapapa, karena emg ada positifnya juga kan sekolah di Ivy League. Dari Alumni Network-nya, dari kurikulum, research, pasti emg ada banyak hal positif di Univ tsb shg mereka bs jadi univ top dunia kan?

Another point!

But somehow, sebagai mamah-mamah yang ingin kuliah lagi, tentu saja bukan sekadar kurikulum dan hal academic yg perlu dipertimbangkan. Tapi juga lingkungan negara tsb, atau bahkan kalau di support grup @labbelajaribu sampe harga day care juga jd pertimbangan seseorang utk kuliah di negara tsb 🥲 wkwkwk.

Dah begitu aja sharing tentang coaching hari ini. I am so blessed mulai paham sm diri sendiri, kapan gue ngerasa butuh mentoring, kapan gue ngerasa butuh coaching, kapan gue ngerasa butuh konseling. Huffttt.. ini privilage bgt krn gue Alhamdulillah punya akses dan terpapar tentang hal2 tsb in early years.

Alhamdulillah tsumma alhamdulillah

[strawberrystreamfields]

Carolina's Journal Log 11:

Our day started early, as it usually does. I took a shower and we both got some breakfast before heading on our way. Herman was out for a walk, so we stopped to talk with him. He reaclimated to Jorvik Stables in record time, and I believe he's planning on once more teaching riding lessons himself. Sounds like things might be going back to some sort of normal.

Finally, we took the sleigh to the Winter Village. Oak seems to be adapting to the cold, so, good for him. Either way, we walked down the ramp instead of taking the massive ice slide down, wanting to take a bit of a slower start to the day's adventures.

Near a small, frozen pond, we encountered one Ranger Todd. He was accompanied by some animals, including a pair of deer, a moose, a grizzly bear, and a massive straw goat. The peace didn't last very long before some of the Caprans seemed to go mad with the cuteness overload of the arctic fox kits. Their solution? Evidently, kidnapping. Kit-napping? We bolted after them, managing to get all 5 arctic fox kits out of the Caprans grasps. I'll admit, they are very cute.

The arctic fox kits were returned to their families, and Rosedawn and I set out on our routine lap around the lake. We took a detour, heading up a small hill where we encountered a trio of Brinicles. Being careful not to startle them, I dismounted and slowly approached. They weren't spooked, thankfully, and allowed me to pet them. I wonder if there's something in the Winter Village like the Pandoric energy that causes some of the "magic horses". Holiday magic? Sounds like a Hallmark movie.

We finished our lap around the lake, and took the opoortunity of proximity to check out the stables. They were mostly empty, save for a couple of various horses. Like everything else, it was decorated with lights, ornaments, and garlands. And, of course, snow. The lights dotted in the stables cast warm golden glows around themselves.

Rosedawn and I headed to the main village, walking around and exploring the more minute details of the village. We stopped for a bit, and got a cup of tea and a croissant for me, and a caramel apple for Rosedawn. The towering tree in the center of the square was lit up like Times Square, the star perched at the top shining brighter than even the borealis unraveling across the sky above.

We'd spent a lot of time here today, and it was definitely around noon. I checked my watch, and that confirmed my suspiciouns. 12:45. We needed to get back before 2. We had some friends to meet in Firgrove. And an outfit to change. We took the large, winding, snowy ramp up to the sleigh. From there, we could see out across the land in all directions, all of it glistening with frost and light.

Ice crystals jutting up into the sky, outdone by the towering, snow-covered evergreen trees, and snow crunching beneath Rosedawn's hooves, we reached the stop. The lights dancing through the sky seemed like they were telling a story. A story of their origin, or a story of the world, who knows?

[swimmingclassicrockpizzawombat]

Now I'm gonna be another few thousand dollars in dept and loose my job thanks to this. Also quite probably loose academic opoortunities such as being kicked out of organizations.

[larayulu]

Not to be a cornball but it is such a blessing to be alive. I love nature so much and i love people and i love art and i love walking and every day i get the opoortunity to enjoy all of these things. I love life everything is so beautiful.

(as seen on tiktok)

[reflectionswithbella]

A HAVEN OF PEACE

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How wonderful it is to be in a new month! Do you have specific desires and expectations for the next 30-plus days? If you do, our hub of imagination called the Mind can help achieve them. I hope this month will be A HAVEN OF PEACE, where the days provide Protection and Tranquility like the strong, thick and reddish-brown walls of the Alhambra fortress in Spain. Furthermore, each hour will…

[totally-sapphic-posts]

Hii I could use some advice I think

I’m realizing more and more that I’m really bad at admitting I need people. It’s weird to me cause I have no issues expressing that I love people and how much they mean to me, but needing them is a different thing. Growing up I’ve always been taught the importance of independence, so that might have something to do with it.

I’m in a longterm relationship (5 years) and still I can’t really tell her when I need her. Being vulnerable and asking for help have always been difficult for me, but I’ve learned to do so more and more with her and I fully trust and feel comfortable with her.

This week I’ve been feeling really down about something but even when I’m by myself and I feel really bad and I know deep down being with her would help I just can’t tell her that or ask her for anything. Especially when she has other plans or things on her mind I just can’t do it. She tells me all the time I can always tell her when something’s up or when I need her help so the space is there. I just don’t know how to take it.

I found this in my drafts, I was in the middle of responding, but needed time to think through my response. Perhaps you could talk to her and figure out an 'alert' kind of action which tells her you need her help and/support. Like if you're holding the yellow pillow, for example, she knows you need her.

I find that using words is a lot harder because you have to use so many words just to tell someone you need them, during which time our minds go a bit haywire with second-guessing and doubts, so perhaps a signal is better.

When you need her, give yourself a three-second limit to 'signal' her that you do. You won't have the opportunity to overthink it.

I'm like you in that I have difficulty in telling anyone (even long-term partners) that something's wrong. For a long while I've had to first tell them on text, saying, 'can we talk' or something along those lines.

The more you actually let them know that something's wrong or your need them, the easier it gets. Not because you've done it a hundred times, but because a hundred times over they had the opoortunity to love and support you and show you that they're there for you.

Of course, life is busy, so they may not be available immediately, but when they love you, they make time and put in the effort to be as supportive as they can as soon as they can make the time.

I'm also like your partner in that, with my partner I want them to let me know when something is wrong, and let me tell you, what you come to us with may be heavy, but knowing you trust us with often makes us feel warm and loved in return. We love being your safe space, and often, many of us would readily skip out on plans to be there for you to support you.

At the end of the day, it also helps to communicate to your partner that you have this difficulty, but you want to get over it. Sometimes they come up with things they can do to help make it easier for you.

Wishing you the best with your partner ❤️

[ambuschool]

Coaching S2

I wanna share some insight notes after i’ve done coaching with my senior on Rumah Kepemimpinan. Kenapa coaching? Karena saya buruh temen berefleksi, butuh di challenge dengan objektif, apa benar saya butuh s2 atau hanya pengaruh lingkungan karena beberapa teman terdekat saya dan juga suami saya udah s2?

Sebelum coaching, saya udh bikin SWOT mengenai S2. Apa strength, weaknesses, opportunity dan threat-nya dan mana yang lebih dominan? Ternyata even sudah bikin SWOT saya tetap nggak bs memutuskan, makanya ttp butuh coaching.

Coaching selama 1.5 jam. Pertanyaannya cuman 1 : Apa bener saya mau dan butuh S2?

Di awal saya memaparkan swot saya, and you know what? Saya dapet feedback dari coach-nya “dari paparan kamu, saya merasa bahwa S2 kamu lebih banyak krn opportunity-nya, dorongan eksternal-nya seperti Hannah blm sekolah shg lebih fleksibel dan tmpt kerja suami yg juga msh fleksibel. Saya ngerasa strength-nya blm terlalu kuat, tp take the opoortunity juga gak salah kok.”

Gue kaya “wow?? Ternyata itu jawabannya. Dan ternyata gak salah kalau gue take the opportunity walau strength dalam diri gue utk s2 blm kuat. Terus coach-nya menambahkan

“Opportunity itu biasanya jadi alasan kamu untuk memulai. Tapi strength, the why kamu S2 ini akan menjadi penyemangat kamu untuk menyelesaikan S2.”

Gue kaya wow??!!!!! Cool!!! New insight bgt!! Jadi PR gue adalah bener2 nyari strength atau motivasi internal untuk sekolah dan ssgh nya ini akan menjadi bahan coaching selanjutnya.

The second one, gue di”korek” lagi. Kenapa mau S2? Ada 5 point yang ternyata jadi alasan gue

1. Mau berkarya

2. Mau contribute kepada peningkatan kesehatan masyarakat

3. Impacted local (yes lokal aja lah, yg feasible dicapai)

4. Menjadi ibu yang berdaya dan berkarya (agak redundat sama bo.1 yaa)

5. Menjadi inspirasi untuk anak2 untuk sekolah setinggi2nya

Dan gue ditanya, apa harus S2 utk mencapai 5 hal tsb? Dan jawaban gue “NGGAK 😭” wkwkwkw semua bs dicapai dengan keadaan gue yg skrg kan? Wk, kenapa jadi “prasyarat” untuk ina inu? Wkwkwkw, lol.

Jadi sadar kan. Gausah kebanyakan prasyarat idup lo, Na wkwkwk.

Kemudian gue ditanya, dari kelima hal tsb mana hal yang paliiingggg penting menurut lo? Gue jawab poin 1 dan 4.

Kenapa?

Gue bilang bahwa gue mau menjadi “someone” i dont wanna be a mediocre.

Why you don’t wanna be a mediocre?

Well bitter truth is, my number 1 strength is significance. Gue baru ngerasa berharga, berdaya, penuh hatiku kalau aku punya signifikansi thd org lain.

BUT, quote and quote orang significance itu ternyata (baru tau dari talents mapping thanks to mbak Arum) tipikal ya agak narsis. I wanna get spotlight (jujur ya agak malu nih :”) somehow, that spotlight really leads me to a greater good alhamdulillah. Gue bener2 makes something thus i got that spotlight.

Terus si coach bilang “oke spot light is one thing, i still don’t get it, why would you be SOMEONE? Kenapa lo harus berkarya dan menjadi ibu berdaya?”

I am asking myself. Terus tiba2 kaya ada petir nyamber di hati gue, terus gue meneteskan air mata. “The answer is related to my inner child…….”

I am trying to hold my tears but i can’t…. Dengan bercucuran air mata, gue bilang sm coach,

“I wanna be someone because gue mau dihargai. Aku mau jadi perempuan yang dilihat sama orang.”

“Because i used to see my father beat my mom… gue selalu melihat bokap gue merendahkan nyokap gue. I don’t wanna be like that. Gue mau jadi perempuan yg dihargai. Gue mau berkarya buat buktiin kalau gue bisa dan berharga.”

I am still on tears…….

Rasanya plong banget asli pas ngomong kaya gitu….. Bahkan… gue gak bisa jujur sm diri gue sendiri. Gue harus di prompt sama orang dulu baru gue bisa menemukan jawabannya….

Gitu……..

Oke Lanjut, Talking about spotlight ini juga yang “diarahkan” oleh coach. Jangan sampe, lo silau sama spotlight orang lain dan pengen dapat spotlight yang sama. Ainna tetep bisa dapet spotlight untuk diri lo sendiri tanpa harus menjadi seperti orang lain :)

Kenapa hal ini bs keluar dari coach gue? Because i force myself to pursue my degree on Ivy League. Karena alasannya shallow banget “Gue pengen juga membuktikan walau sudah jadi mamah-mamah gue ttp bisa masuk Harvard.” 🥲 hati gue kotor bgt wk. besides, gue juga tau di Harvard jurusan yang gue pengen emang align bgt sm tujuan hidup gue, tapi alasan tadi ituloh yg hmmmmmm…. Yang membuat gue insist utk mengambil Ivy League while i know US not as safety as European country ya kl mau raising kids tapi karena ada alasan “mamah mamah” itu tadi yg bikin gue insist mau masuk harvard.

I still can have my own spotlight wherever i am. Itu yg harus gue sadari…..

Karena sejujur gue kaya bump into NZ gitu tapi my half heart kaya “Hey Harvard ajalah, people will be more looking at you if you are in Harvard.” 🙃👍 how pathetic i am.

Jadi gue kaya skrg lebih lega aja skrg :”) bahwa gue gak HARUS berada di SUATU TEMPAT untuk ORANG MELIHAT GUE.

Huhuhu Allah bener2 nge-guide gue bgt ngerasanya Alhamdulillah 😭

Tapi mengenai tempat kuliah itu, kujuga pernah konfirmasi ke salah satu lulusan Columbia. Kubilang “Salah gak sih Mbak aku milih Ivy League just because IT IS IVY LEAGUE?” Dan kata senior gue ya gapapa, karena emg ada positifnya juga kan sekolah di Ivy League. Dari Alumni Network-nya, dari kurikulum, research, pasti emg ada banyak hal positif di Univ tsb shg mereka bs jadi univ top dunia kan?

Another point!

But somehow, sebagai mamah-mamah yang ingin kuliah lagi, tentu saja bukan sekadar kurikulum dan hal academic yg perlu dipertimbangkan. Tapi juga lingkungan negara tsb, atau bahkan kalau di support grup @labbelajaribu sampe harga day care juga jd pertimbangan seseorang utk kuliah di negara tsb 🥲 wkwkwk.

Dah begitu aja sharing tentang coaching hari ini. I am so blessed mulai paham sm diri sendiri, kapan gue ngerasa butuh mentoring, kapan gue ngerasa butuh coaching, kapan gue ngerasa butuh konseling. Huffttt.. ini privilage bgt krn gue Alhamdulillah punya akses dan terpapar tentang hal2 tsb in early years.

Alhamdulillah tsumma alhamdulillah