#Ofc the suffocating surveillanced stalked paranoia could come back in the future but I'm just

[lovedlovingly]

SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM MMMMMMMM

so I cut all ties w/ my mom 1.5y ago after I moved across the country, blocked her number blocked her on social media etc. She still has my address so she's been sending me packages w/ small gifts now and then 🙄 and one I got for this Easter was her saying kind words and hoped I could forgive her & we could reconnect and I was like aight it's been a year let's see how you've "changed"

And sent her a long message about her having to take responsibility of her abuse etc etc and ended it with "can u truly say you've changed during the last year?" she obviously didn't take it well but never responded to me. After stressing about getting a reply for 4days I blocked her again.

One week later I got a call from dad and standard how I'm doing questions, as we were about to hang up the phone he asked me about mom and that she had CALLED HIM AND BLAMED HIM FOR HER ABUSING ME and he HUNG UP ON HER 😭😭😭 that was the first time he ever took my side in things and even tho it gave me an adrenaline rush I knew it was only because now HE didn't want blame for being the enabler so he jumped ship :) so I'm not forgiving him either blah blah. Still felt great. I got a gift in July for my birthday ever since it's been quiet

Last Friday I got a post office notice that she'd sent me a package again 🙄 I mean w/ me being sick and now I can't walk b/c of my knee that's the last thing on my to do list so like lol if the two weeks pass and I can't get it and they send it back 😂😂😂 it'd be hilarious

ANYHOW I just got an EMAIL from her, I blocked her there too so she made a new one, saying I'm the most precious thing in the world for her and said I was "so small when I came into the world" and sent me a baby picture.... Like... Woman. Take a hint. You have to CHANGE for me to care not keep on doing this shit when we have a fucking joke in the family about me being a big baby even tho I was 7weeks early 😭😭😭😭 abusers love empty words so much it's hilarious - gotta hand it to her tho I was not prepared for that 😂

Silver lining in it all is that her trying, again, to reach out doesn't feel suffocating. It doesn't effect me more than "lol fake" and that's it. I mean yeah shock because wtf 😂 did not think my day would start like this, but eh... I've really been able to work on cutting her control out of my life since moving. Even the invisible strings! (the voices left from abusers making u continue the abuse yourself because they've gotten into your head :-)) and as I've mentioned before I've even started to work on my core beliefs about myself!

Wonder what she'll do next 🤔 was expecting this for like Christmas, not on the first