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WHILST PATHS MAY BE DIVERTED OR EVEN EVOLVE INTO NEW ROADS NEVER TRAVERSED, THE ULTIMATE OBJECTIVE, THE END GOAL, REMAINS CONSTANT AND FIXED !!!

(NB. How do you find the path difference? ... The general formula for destructive interference due to a path difference is given by δ = (m + 1/2) λ / n where n is the index of refraction of the medium in which the wave is traveling, λ is the wavelength, δ is the path difference and m = 0, 1, 2, 3 ....)

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synastry chart reading for @nabicat

hello! welcome to your reading. I'm going to give you a quick overview of what I'm going to analyze about your synastry chart: in-depth analysis of house overlays with major aspects, potential of the relationship, soulmates indicators, possible marriage indicators, possible issues and struggles of the relationship, intimacy and physical attraction, what they feel when they see / think about you, in-depth analysis of fate, love and marriage asteroids. of course, if you have any questions, feel free to ask! my dms are always open. now let's get into the reading!

PARTNER A: she/her | pisces sun, leo moon, capricorn rising.

PARTNER B: he/him | pisces sun, leo moon, cancer rising.

PARTNER A

🌞 partner a's pisces sun in his 9th house

this placement indicates that you two may learn a lot from this relationship. you two may come from different cultural backgrounds, or if you don't you still have a fresh vibe to you that brings something new to the other, a fresh perception of things. you may share the same ideas regarding politics, economy, or even about things as simple as music taste or movies. you see eye to eye on almost everything, and if you don't, you're still able to understand the other's view. you two are able to broaden each other's horizons, this relationship could introduce you to a new way of seeing and reacting to things, it's very beneficial as it opens the mind of both of you. this sense of knowledge and constant learning makes both of you achieve more security, and as a result you may feel more confident when you interact and just spend time together in general. you could also travel a lot, or perhaps you may attend the same school. if this relationship lasts, then you'll most likely explore the world together, you're going to be very adventurous, even if you normally don't really step out of your comfort-zone, as your partner gives you strenght and vice versa. this placement alone isn't extremely romantic, but combined with the rest of your synastry it surely is a great addition. in fact, this relationship is very mature, but not the capricorn type of maturity which can be quite boring at times. it's a type of maturity that is born from making experiences together, and hence you'll probably make loads of pleasant memories with this person.

🌙 partner a's leo moon in his 1st house

this is a very cute placement! the ascendant represents the centre, the purpose and basis of one's life. therefore, with your moon falling in your crush's first house, you most likely have an important space in his life. he sees you as someone very caring and nurturing, someone he can trust and that is always there for him for help. you two most likely got each other at first sigh, you instantly got along, and as a result there's a strong emotional bond between you two that makes it totally possible for you two to have a stable and healthy relationship. you feel at home when you're together, you feel comfortable and accepted. even if you're introverts, you probably don't feel tired after spending time with the other or vice versa. this placement also indicates that your feelings may be contagious; that is, if for instance one of you is sad, the other may feel down too as a result. you're both very empathetic when you're in each other's company. last but not least, this overlay also indicates that you see your crush as someone very powerful and assertive, someone ambitious that knows how to live his life. your crush, on the other hand, sees you as a very nurturing and emotional individual. that doesn't mean that he sees you as weak of course, but rather as someone soft, wise and sensitive.

partner a's leo moon conjunct partner b's leo moon: this aspect indicates a mutual understanding that goes beyond standards, it most likely feels like a soulmate connection. both of you are aware of the moods and the emotional changes and needs of the other person, you're very empathetic when it comes to understanding each other. you two feel familiar, you feel as if you've known each other for your whole life. it's almost a magical bond, you don't need words to communicate, it's like you already know everything about each other. you two are extremely similar, you react to situations in the same way and hence it makes it easier for you two to get along, especially in a romantic sense. it's a mostly positive aspect, but like all the aspects, it also has some negative sides to it. in fact, while this relationship may feel extremely chill and relaxing, being too similar isn't the best thing either. during fights, you may both be too proud, especially since your moons are placed in the sign of leo, and hence you could struggle with apologizing and recognizing your mistakes. in the worst case, you two could even get physically violent, but I don't think it's necessarily your case.

partner a's leo moon trine partner b's aries venus: this placement is absolutely lovely! you two are probably very romantic individuals, and if you're not, you're at least able to bring the romance out of each other. you are very affectionate, you may enjoy physical contact and cuddling, you probably express your love for each other through gestures. comfort and ease just flow easily between you two, it's a very powerful aspect that makes you two love each other's company. you could be the type of couple to spoil each other, maybe in gifts, or even in compliments. it's that type of relationship that boosts each other's self-esteem. you could also be the type or couple to call each other sweet names, such as 'baby', 'honey', and so on, this kind of things. this is also another placement that indicates that you two could be quite devoted to each other, you're always there when needed and vice versa.

🗣 partner a's pisces mercury in his 8th house

this one is a very complex aspect. first of all, combined with your positively-aspected moons, you probably feel extremely comfortable and intimate together. because of that, you feel safe sharing your deepest desires and secrets. you can talk freely about anything you have in your head with your crush, and as a result he seems to listen and understand you deeply, making you feel accepted, he doesn't answer your deep questions with superficial sentences. with your partner you feel free to talk about topics that are considered to be taboo like sex, spirituality, etc., you feel strangely comfortable discussing about these things. you could possibly even be into dirty talks. yet, this placement also has some bad sides to it, as the 8th house is a malefic house after all. your crush could feel particularly sensitive when he's with you, he cares a lot about what you think of him, and hence make sure that you're not too blunt when talking to him or you may hurt his feelings deeply. you could find yourself having a very sharp tongue in this relationship, especially while you two are arguing. you may end up saying very unpleasant things that could significantly ruin your connection, and that would obviously be a shame.

partner a's pisces mercury conjunct partner b's pisces sun: sun - mercury aspects generally aren't the most romantic or passionate of placements, and because of that, they're usually underestimated. yet, I honestly consider them extremely significant in a synastry reading, as communication is key for every couple. therefore, thanks to this aspect, communication between you two flows extremely easily. there are hardly embarassing silences between you two, somehow you always manage to find something to talk about, and since this conjunction happens in the 8th house you most likely get immersed in your discussions. you feel as if time stopped when you two talk. you two have similar ideals and beliefs, lots of interests in common... you love sharing your points of view to hear the other's opinion about your thought, but make sure to be diplomatic and open to any sort of disagreement, as it's something that I see happening in this particular relationship. overall, you two make a couple that values communucation seriously, you're probably always texting or chatting together.

❤️ partner a's pisces venus in his 8th house

this is for sure the most intense placement of the chart. after all, the 8th house rules scorpio, the sign of rebirth and transformation. therefore, this relationship may awaken something in you that has always been there, but that you never seemed to notice. you're both going to learn a lot from this connection, growing mature as time goes by. the house person, aka your crush, sees you as a safe place, a security; he sees you as a passionate and loyal lover, someone who would never betray his trust, and hence he feels a deep affection for you. these feelings are mutual, and you may find yourself being completely mesmerized by your partner, maybe even obsessed (in a positive sense, of course). your crush could literally feel like a drug to you, you can't get enough of him, it's a very deep connection that you can't seem able to get rid of even if you wanted to. that's because this is certainly a karmic connection, you have already met each other in a past life. because of that, you didn't fall for this person's looks, personality or charisma, but for this person in general. to make it simple, you don't want someone with the same traits as him, you want only him. you are also a very private couple, you may not like showing your relationship to the world, you prefer keeping it to yourself. this placement also indicates strong sexual compatibility, you two are very considerate of each other's wants and needs.

partner a's pisces venus conjunct partner b's pisces sun: this placement is extremely positive in a synastry chart! in fact you, the venus person, most likely see your partner as a very attractive individual, he fits your ideals of beauty, he's your ideal type. the sun person, your crush, sees that, he can perceive your admiration, and hence he feels very secure when he's around you. he feels your warmth, and this appreciation certainly boosts his self-esteem, he feels handsome thanks to you. combined with your sun conjunct mercury aspect you have together, you two most likely appreciate literally everything about each other, from looks, to personality, intelligence, etc. you see each other as a dream come true, something extremely rare, and hence you're both very careful with your approach to the other. you hate conflicts, and hence you try to avoid them as much as possible. venus also symbolizes money in astrology, and hence I definitely don't see you two struggling with finances in the long-run, and you may actually help each other when it comes to wealth.

☄️ partner a's aries mars in his 10th house

this placement isn’t exactly romantic, I would say it’s more suitable for a working relationship, but there are still some notes that could resonate. in first place, you may inspire your partner to be successful, you may be his strenght to pursue a certain career or even just to lead in general. your support boosts his self-esteem, allowing him to succeed and achieve his goals. in addition, you may actually work in the same field, or perhaps you aspire to follow his steps and work in the same environment as him. you may also literally help each other with your job, for example if he works in an office you may help him getting some documents done, if he’s a teacher you may help him with his students, etc. one thing for sure, you would support him in anything he does, you would become his numer #1 fan. the house person, aka your partner, also sees potential in you, and he may help you being more successful in your finances and career as well. he probably appreciates your skills and talents, as well as your strategies. the problem with this overlay is that, at first, this relationship could be quite boring or even cold at first. there’s a lot of seriousness and respect from both of you, which could make this relationship too heavy, especially for your free-spirited leo energy. this placement could also be interpreted in a more family-related way: you may inspire him to become a father, he may be very present for his children, and he would do anything to provide wealth and security for his family. 

partner a's aries mars conjunct partner b's aries saturn: this placement is probably the worst you two have in this synastry chart, the hardest to deal with. mars is all about passion, energy and sex, while saturn is the planet of limitations and restrictions. put these two together, and you get unpleasant situation in you day-to-day life. this probably won't escalate to aggression or violence of any sort, as the rest of your planets are still positively aspected, but at a certain point there could be a few misunderstandings between the two of you. it could be that your crush may turn out to be a bit too childish and impulsive, not in a likeable way. he could say things that could hurt you deeply without thinking, or maybe he could even lose his temper and be more aggressive when you two are arguing. your crush has a hot temper and you feel like you always need to control him, as if he was a baby who needs a parent to control him. it could even be the opposite. you could also not feel very attracted to him at first, or perhaps this attraction you feel now may fade with time. possibly, you may even start being a bit critical of your partner, you may judge him quite often for his reckless behaviour.

PARTNER B

🌞 partner b's pisces sun in her 3rd house

with his sun in your 3rd house, I can see that your crush most likely fell for the way you think, for your manners, your ideals. you may be someone very smart, witty and / or talkative, maybe even outgoing, and his intelligence makes you feel attracted to him. he most likely feels comfortable talking to you; you may have many things in common like hobbies, dreams, studies, etc., or in general words just flow naturally when you two get to speak. your crush could feel motivated by your presence, you could inspire him to work hard and harder to achieve the best of himself. he feels very stimulated, and he can’t help but feel curious about you, you probably catch his attention, and you will most likely get along and see eye to eye on a bunch of things, there won’t be many disagreements between the two of you. this is generally a good aspect for a friendship, but for a love relationships, a few issues may arise. in fact, the 3rd house is a superficial house; your relationship may be very happy and pleasant to live, with tons of fun and amusement. yet, there could be a certain lack of emotional depth between you two. you may have fun, but you could sometimes struggle to understand each other’s feelings and emotions. I don’t think you will be completely unsensitive with each other, you still share the same moon sign, but still beware of the fact that this relationship may not provide you much emotional growth and possibly comfort.

🌙 partner b's leo moon in her 7th house

with his moon in your seventh house, your crush most likely feels secure and accepted when he's with you. he feels free and comfortable, he doesn't fear being judged because he knows he can trust you, and that you wouldn't hurt him on purpose. yet, even though you two most likely see eye to eye, your crush could find himself being a bit accommodating with you. he may try to avoid conflicts with you at all costs, he could give up on his ideals just to agree with you, and this is obviously an unhealthy habit for him. if you have the occasion, you could try reassuring him a bit. you, on the other hand, you feel extremely comfortable with your partner, you feel as if you've found your other half, someone who loves you for who you are without questioning your choices. he's very supportive of you and of your ideas, he's all about loyalty, romance and commitment, making you feel extra loved. you find him very attractive, not just on a physical level but also in an emotional sense. you like the way he expresses his emotions, he handles and reacts to situations.

partner b's leo moon square partner a's saturn: this placement is often found in synastry charts of married couples, as it is an indicator of a long-lasting relationship in astrology. yet, since in your case it's a square aspect, a few unpleasant challenges may arise. in fact, while on one side there is a strong sense of commitment and loyalty between you two, the relationship could start to feel a bit too heavy. perhaps, your crush may prefer having a more light-hearted connection than you, and hence he could sometimes get overwhelmed. you, on the other hand, you dream of a stable relationship, and because of that your needs and wants clash. aside from this though, I don't think you're going to experience many negative sides of this aspect thanks to your moon conjunct moon aspect. in fact, while this placement can make it hard for the saturn person being warm and expressing their emotions, your moons being both in the same sign, leo, mitigate this.

🗣 partner b's pisces mercury in her 3rd house

with his mercury in your 3rd house, you’re probably a very chatty couple! you find it easy to keep a conversation with this person, or at least you’ll find it easy to find something to talk about once you get to know him, words just flow out naturally. for instance, you’re probably the type of couple that stays up late at night just to talk with your significant other, I see this being that kind of relationship. you could have similiar interests, hobbies, maybe even studies, and you could often end up talking about this type of things. I also find this placement a great match with your moon conjunct moon aspect I’ve mentioned above; in fact, this aspect makes communication so easy between you two that sorting out your issues and misunderstandings is not a big deal at all, or at least it’s not as serious as it usually is. you may argue like any couple of course, but I don’t think these arguments will be too dangerous for the relationship.

❤️ partner b's aries venus in her 3rd house

the influence of venus in the 3rd house makes both of you very considerate with your words. I don’t really see you two screaming during arguments, not at all. you always try to be as calm and caring as possible, you care about your words as you don’t want to hurt the other. I find this placement very beneficial, considering that your venus is in aries; generally, I assume he is quite an impulsive speaker, he says things before thinking, and hence he could often end up in troubles because of his sharp tongue. still, when he's with you, he manages to control himself, and maybe he could learn how to control his impulsiveness thanks to you in this relationship, who knows. on the other hand, you have a soft spot for him, you may avoid sarcasm and stuff like that when you're around him, as you want to express your feelings and love for him through your words. venus is also the planet of art, so I feel like you may have similiar interests; for example, you could listen to the same genre of music, read the same authors, watch the same genre of movies, etc. you see eye to eye on your hobbies, and this obviously makes your life together way easier. in fact, since you two both have strong aries energy in you, you need to find someone that kind of matches your energy, as you both struggle to change for someone else.

☄️ partner b's scorpio mars in her 10th house

I won't be going too deep into this section as it basically confirms what I've said above, the feeling is mutual. that is, you two both drive each other to be successful and resolute, you find each other both motivated to be at your best state whenever you're in each other's company. you care about having a good impression on him and vice versa.

partner b's scorpio mars square partner a's leo moon: this placement may cause some troubles, as you may often be blind to your partner’s attitude. especially since his moon is placed in your 7th house, you may sometimes idealize your partner way too much when he’s not actually who he seems to be. at first you may be okay with his behaviour, after all you have lots of similar signs and positive aspects that make you two get along. yet, as time goes by, you may start feeling constantly contradicted, arguments could be more frequent as you may misunderstand each other. more specifically, you start realizing that your partner’s nature is slightly different from yours, and while there are many other aspects that could mitigate this effect, you may still feel as if it’s impossible for you to have a long-lasting, healthy relationship in these occasions. especially your partner, he may often hurt your feelings with his words. on the other hand, this placement also has a positive side! you are strongly attracted to each other, you both feel attached to the other with glue, and that’s exactly why this relationship could become unhealthy, because you may struggle to let go of the other if necessary. your bond is so strong that you can’t manage to separate, even when there are so many hardships and conflicts. 

partner b's scorpio mars trine partner a's pisces venus: in astrology, this is considered to be the ultimate physical attraction aspect! in fact, you two probably find each other very attractive and magnetic. I don't think this connection started off as a friendship, and if it did then it was probably unbearable, as the attraction and chemistry between you two is just way too much to handle. you two most likely are a very touchy couple, not necessarily in a sexual way but you find it hard not to stare, touch each other; physical contact is key in this connection. this placement makes me think that your crush coule be the dominant figure in your relationship, he could be the one to approach you first for instance. in general, he tends to be the one who takes the initiative in any context. your partner appreciates you, and he may feel romantically attracted to you, you probably fit his ideals when it comes to looks, personality, etc. this placement probably makes this relationship so intense and magnetic that it will be hard to forget, even if you two don't end up together. this is certainly a soulmate / twinflame connection, especially with your neptunian energy. I'm sure you're both going to learn a lot from this connection.

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partner b's leo north node conjunct partner a's leo vertex: again, this is another placement that indicates that there's a soulmate or even twinflame connection going on here. you two were meant to be, your meeting in this lifetime was fated. that doesn't necessarily mean that you're going to end up together, but this relationship surely has loads of potential. even if there wasn't an happy ending, you two would still get out of it with a lot of wisdom and maturity on your back. we're talking about a karmic relationship that will surely prepare both of you to future challenges, events or even a future partner. you could have met each other in an unusual situation for example, you didn't expect to be meeting at first. more specifically, you, the vertex person, perceive your crush as your ideal type, as the perfect match for you. this is also another strong marriage placement as well! I can definitely see this relationship being long-lasting if you two manage to sort out your conflicts I've mentioned above.

and this is it! thank you again for booking a reading, let me know if you have any questions :) - libramc xx

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~~~Sasuke and Sakura are neither

TOXIC nor ABUSIVE~~~

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[... In response to "Sasusaku is toxic

/abusive" trope]

While I do respect every individual's legitimate right and entitlement to freedom of expression - - everyone is free to like or dislike hate or love something - - I feel that there is a popular misconception that's been segregating through the millieu of the critics of the Sasusaku pair which begs to be cleared.

Touting sasusaku as "toxic or abusive" comprises one of the most cliché popular catchphrase to counter argue against this pair and it denotes superficial, unsophisticated and inconsequential understanding of the characters' inner construction and manga symbolism.

Common logic lets us ample room to explore beyond reasonable doubt the repertoire of this absurd stereotype for, in order to be dubbed as "toxic or abusive", this relationship must meet THREE sine qua non criteria:

1. Sasuke and Sakura must BE in a relationship;

2. Sasuke and sakura must have a RELATIONSHIP;

3. Sasuke and Sakura's relationship must be ABUSIVE/TOXIC.

A single aperçu of the three aforementioned criteria that have to be met simultaneously is irrefragible for any argument in favor of "abusive or toxic relationship" for it's crystal clear that the Sasusaku couple dynamics does not validate any of the three.

A Cartesian analysis of the three conditions supported by descriptive manga examples would further emphasize that Sasuke and sakura are a far cry from abusive or toxic.

1 & 2) Common logic postulates that, in order to be ascribed to a certain condition or situation, you overtly must BE in that situation or must take part in that situation or must be an ACTOR of that situation. For instance, in order to take your spouse's surname after marriage you must be married first.

Years prior his long stroll to soul and honor redemption, sasuke and sakura are in NO RELATIONSHIP whatsoever.

Sasuke himself whisks away any wasp of looming confusion in front of the Gates of the Leaf that he does not desire Sakura's companionship because this is "MY journey to redemption and MY sins have nothing to do with YOU", implying that he KNOWS what Sakura desires and expects from him and his current self cannot give her what she wants.

Sasuke's shenanigans won him the title of a disimpassioned untutored novice in the art of intimacy and romance, which isn't the case.

Sasuke is perfectly aware of what romantic love and intimacy entitled and his actions speak for themselves; he bluntly and expressively brushes off any extraneous attempt at luscious and sensuous flirt from women - - which are overflowing in the manga - - and utters words from the same semantics when he refers to Sakura, with such implacable bluntness and confidence that sends shivers rolling along our spines - - he placates Kakashi's desperate words with a forward "play at ROMANCE" and "I don't have a reason to LOVE her and she doesn't have a reason to LOVE me". His words are explicit, uncensored, forward and crystal clear.

Sasuke knows what Sakura desires from him in the cusp of romantic love; she desires his heart as devolution and communion, and she desires his body as intimate caress. He acknowledged and accepts Sakura's romantic feelings, but the he doesn't surrender himself to her as long as he considers himself UNWORTHY and completely unprepared to respond.

Conclusively, Sasuke and Sakura officialize their relationship and ARE in a relationship from the moment when both the leading parties are WORTHY, willing and prepared to give each other the love and respect that they both deserve and seek for.

So, in order to be considered as a leading party of an abusive relationship, one must BE part of that relationship first-hand.

Which means that the first criteria to be met is that Sasuke and Sakura must BE in a relationship.

Now, reviewing Sasuke's sophistic and philosophical construction as the Schopenhauer-ish stylized anti-hero and the paradigm of nihilism/pessimism - - the Yin part of the Manga and its political doctrine - - his sensuous manga dynamics wending through the lights and shadows of fulminant and conflicting psychological and philosophical turmoil and imbroglios makes Sasuke's character difficult to grasp for the large audience.

Because it's difficult to identify with an anti-hero that pulverizes all the hive mentalities and society's stereotypes. Sasuke is complex, is analytical and introspection must be used for revealing the exuberant depths of this complex character.

Sasuke's ambivalent and expressive radical actions can easily be mistake for active and passive aggressiveness but this isn't the case with Sakura.

I dare to venture as far as to contend that Sasuke and Sakura have never been friends. While Sakura's symbolism and character development denotes romantic love and intimacy in her heart-tucking passionate surrender and boundariless affection, Sasuke thinks of his bind with Team seven as the pilifered picturesque portrait of his family, with naruto in the shoes of a brother, Kakashi as the fatherly figure of mentorship and Sakura's ineffable crystal romantic love and devotion as the pillar figure of matriarch/a wife.

Neither Sakura nor Sasuke ever saw each other through the platonic prism of friendship, not even during the forced cohabitation of Team 7.

Sasuke's in instinctive laconic, terse and breviloquent attitude is erroneously mistaken for aggressiveness which only demonstrates improper understanding of his manga symbolism.

Not only Uchiha Sasuke is the paradigm of the Left wing of the manga's two political doctrines and the pioneer of nihilism or pessimism as a philosophical movement, but he also embodies the condition of the GENIUS. The self-reflective philosopher, the thinker, the introspective brilliant mind who's conniption and kinesics are often misread by normal people.

Part 1 Sasuke parts ways with Sakura in a completely idillic picturesque scenery that overflows with pure emotion and intimacy as it suggests that the two lay their farewells as lovers.

During their interactions, Sasuke's kinesics have always been dulcet, more tempered, softer and more suave with Sakura.

She managed to steal from him rare moments of sweetness and affection, culminating with two meaningful words from the elusive and introvert Sasuke which are illustrative for his overt fondness and gratitude for this girl's feelings - - he said "thank you" from the bottom of his heart.

And parted on good terms as Sasuke leaves the village (thus he turns against the current political ninja system) and starts his sojourn through the maze of life's tumult that's sprinkled with cruel and brutal faces of the ugly reality of the world (he steps out of the comfort zone and security of the village and experiences real life).

It also marks the young boy's end of childhoods blissful innocence and the bloom of puberty.

Now, from between these two milestone moments that harmoniously and symmetrically conclude the philosophy of the manga, (Sasuke's departure in Part 1; the Sign of Reconciliation after Sasuke and Naruto's battle of ideologies), Sasuke's soohistic character finds its fulminant paintbrushing with lights and shadows and his symbolic actions crayon the tragic exuberance of his anti-hero dynamics and development.

He and Sakura are absolute STRANGERS while Sasuke's character unfolds in all the splendor of his complex glory. They are in no relationship whatsoever.

The tragi-comedy of this tumultuous pair is that Sasuke HIMSELF makes it perfectly clear what he and Sakura are with illustrative and more than self-sufficient phrases: "I am a FORMER Team 7 member", "I am NOT part of this team anymore" and even going as far as to acknowledge Sai's renewed role as "my REPLACEMENT".

Moreover, after Sasuke's conjecture affiliation with Akatsuki, he and Sakura can be officially considered enemies and both act accordingly. Sasuke becomes an international criminal under the direct order to be annihilated in the spot. Sakura, as a faithful shinobi that's fully committed to the military discipline of her job launches to eliminate Sasuke as per order of her superiors while Sasuke obviously retaliates in self-defense.

Sasuke and Sakura, by the time Sasuke's character unfurles uncensored in all the full splendor of his lights and shadows, DON'T find themselves in a relationship and they share NO RELATIONSHIP whatsoever. NONE!

As a pair, Sasuke and Sakura made amends with their romantic feelings in part 1 before their departure and they KNOW it. Sasuke tries to sever his past bonds and start anew and Sakura tries to do just as so and both FAIL.

Which annuls the seemingly assertion that Sakura herself acts like she's trapped into a twisted variation of the Stockholm syndrome (then victim starts to feel fondly for her captor and even acquiesces to his mentality, as a consequence of the brain's innate copying response calls for the development of a mechanism of defense).

And even if suppressed and denied, feelings churn deep inside their hearts, even if their heated stares and honey-poison infused words barely makes their inner tempest, officially and how they ACT makes it perfectly clear that are NOTHING to each other. To ARE NOT in a relationship and they have NO RELATIONSHIP.

Which automatically invalidates that Sasusaku are overall in a toxic relationship.

3) Let's consider the semantics of Toxic and abusive relationship.

Because both the concepts borderline the crimes and felonies in the Criminal Codes, it's imperative to postulate that the two refer to psychological and physical REPEATED actions that are meant to subdue and quench the victim's freedom and Will (sexual freedom, freedom of speech, of expression, of movement...).

Abuse can be both physical and psychological with actions to sustain and reveal that the victim is subjected to regular abuse (the crime is repetitive and habitual) with the purpose of INFLICTING TERROR, fear and coercition.

The victim of abuse is terrified as she undergoes major psychological trauma, in response to the violent and COERCITIVE actions of the one who abuses her.

Abuse is defined as inflicting pain, teror, fear, to subdue, to surmount and crush the freedom of spirit, to prevent the victim to manifest and take action, to denigrate the spirit and transgress fundamental human rights, which are all grave crimes punishable by the Criminal legislations.

The victim is weakened and terrorized, she fears the one who abuses her and she finds herself in the illusory trap of the Stockholm syndrome in order to develop a copying mechanism to ensure the physical and psychological trauma and survive.

Where exactly does the Manga depict such distraught, coercitive and abusive behavioral traits in regards to Sasuke and Sakura as an official COUPLE?

Nowhere, naturally.

Whenever Sasuke and Sakura physically or psychologically clashed, they were both in their roles of shinobi/enemies. They never violently collided as lovers.

Sasuke and Sakura are both prideful full-fledged shinobi, understanding perfectly well the inner conflict and the displayed course of actions that this dichotomy entitles.

When in the shoes of the shinobi, personal feelings must be set aside. They both know it. Sakura and Sasuke, even if they love ecah other romantically, they must forgo their feelings in lieu of assuming their role as the shinobi.

Plus, Sakura is not depicted as bring feareful of Sasuke, au contraire she lunges onwards and alone with total intent to kill him. That's antithetical to how a victim of abuse acts.

She's confident in her skills, she's calm, analytical, level-headed, lucid, determined, strong, and mentally not feareful of Sasuke. She doesn't fear him even though his reputation strikes terror amidst the general audience.

She doesn't even wavers before him after she learns that he faced 5 Kage and killed the shrawdy enigmatic Shimura Danzo! What makes Sakura falter is the product of genuine love, not abuse or fear.

Sasuke doesn't repeatedly try to strike fear or coerce Sakura, he doesn't corner her, he doesn't try to abuse her mentally or physically, he doesn't enslave her. He only retails accordingly. His words or actions invalidate any form of abuse.

They are both shinobi, they acknowledge each other's skills and act accordingly. Neither abuses the other one in any way.

Now, I can imagine how this wrong assertion could work, namely, if one would claim that their relationship is GROUNDED and constructed on the shaky foundation of a FORMER/PAST of abuse and violence, pain and remorse, guilt and terror,reviwing upon Sasuke's character dynamic and Sakura's unwavering devotion that's indomitable and candid.

Once could quest how could a couple work a peaceful and healthy relationship if they have a tempestous stained HISTORY of abuse?

The philosophy of the Manga makes it work for two valid reasons:

1. Sasuke and Sakura do not have a hystory of abuse and terror because of their dual role as human beings and shinobi and their clashes and virulent encounters are presented in the light of shinobi / warriors just like two soldiers of opposing battle forces;

2. The moral of Naruto manga is centered around redemption and forgiveness; Naruto makes it clear they one cannot erase his past self or cut his own bonds and history no matter how sinfully tragic or stained because history is what gives us identity and shape our character and peace can never be achieved if we don't acknowledge each other's pain (pain that's derived from that very painful history of sin and tumult). Naruto manga suggests that, in order for a bond of peace and tranquil cohabitation to work, it is absolutely imperative to accept someone's past. In this case, a redeemed past.

We have the criminal rehabilitation in the Criminal Code which means that the effects of a conviction and the additional penalties are extincted when certain criteria are met.

And Sasuke already atoned for his crimes, both legally and metaphorically, before becoming Sakura's official lover.

Denying that Sasuke and Sakura now a happy married couple ARE abusive or toxic or they ground their marriage on a toxic HISTORY is invalidated by the fact that Sasuke redeemed himself in the eyes of the law, in the eyes of the audience and Naruto Manga promotes the acceptance of one's past as the sole way to make amends and exist in peaceful cohabitation.

How could one reach to someone's heart if he doesn't understand his soul and the source of his pain? And the kernel of both lies in his past, his history.

I can safely postulate that Sasuke gave himself willingly, happily and serenly to Sakura when he was absolutely sure that he is the best version of himself; the one who could give her what she wants and what she deserves. And surrendered to her endless love and devotion.

He asked for forgiveness for his actions (which implied asking forgiveness for not being able to properly reward her love and immense devotion) and Sakura forgave him, he made amends with his past, he reconcilliated with the shinobi world, he offered his services to the greater good of the community, he legally rehabilitated himself for the crimes, he received legal pardon for his crimes.

In the end, I'd conclude that Sasusaku's sole flaw is the embodiment of the human nature itself, with its qualities and flaws, lights and shadows. This pair is human, is strikingly realistic and not exceedingly romanticized to pander to the general audience.

Sasusaku's realistic aphorism stems from its uncensored life situations and the unveiled manner of transposing real-life situations into the fictional work of Naruto Universe, where idealism wins over realism, nihilism and totalitarianism.

Sasuke and Sakura are illustrative for any real life couple's dynamics. Every couple and marriage no matter how solid has its arguments and no human bond is inheritnetly perfect.

Perfect marriages are an utopia but it's exactly the way the parties chose to overcome their crisis and differences that makes a difference. And Sasusaku is a picture frame perfect of a realistic couple dynamics with its differences and shortcomings.

I'd cite Hegel's famous book and state that SasuSaku is the unconquearable proof that the paradox of every sentient being's actions and ambitions lies in the fact that we are all just "human, all too human".

[babyybitchhh]

Shikamaru or Senku?

Damn, anon. You really just came for my throat like that. I don’t know what I’ve done to hurt you but, from the bottom of my heart, I apologize. I swear it won’t happen again. 🤧

Okay, okay. All jokes aside. This is a real toughie and I’m gonna have to reveal just how much of a dumb bitch I really am to explain my answer. Yes, I fall back on the zodiac to fill in any gaps in characterization and determine just how compatible I actually am with fictional men. Sue me. As per usual, this post got a bit away from me so if you want to skip down to the TL;DR for my final answer, please do. I encourage it, actually. lol 

Ishigami Senkuu

January 4th - Capricorn

Strengths: leadership, responsible, disciplined, self-control, good managers

Weaknesses: lack of compassion, know-it-all, unforgiving, condescending, expecting the worst

“Capricorn is a sign that represents time and responsibility, and its representatives are traditional and often very serious by nature. These individuals possess an inner state of independence that enables significant progress both in their personal and professional lives. They are masters of self control and have the ability to lead the way, make solid and realistic plans, and manage many people who work for them at any time. They will learn from their mistakes and get to the top based solely on their experience or expertise.”

“Known for their rational approach to life and their emotions are often well hidden from plain view. Not only is it imperative for them to stick to the realm of absolute intimacy to open their heart for someone but they are often not fully aware of their feelings before hardships occur. This will put pressure on their love life as they have to make a strict and specific equation out of everything, distancing them from carefree and smiling partners who wish to have fun in a relationship.”

“There is nothing easy in the love life of these individuals but they will not see this as the end of the world. They have enough passion and warmth carried within and if mutual respect is found and strong boundaries respected both ways, they will be prepared to let someone into their world and protect them with their shield.”

“As an earth sign, Capricorn has a powerful and instinctive sensuality which expresses itself in a straightforward and natural way without the need for props, frills or adornment. Is it somewhat bereft of romance? Well maybe, but what Capricorn lacks in the way of sentimentality, it more than makes up for in terms of responsibility and discretion ... once it overcomes its initial reserve and caution, it can usually be relied upon to give full satisfaction, no matter how long it takes. As with most other things in its life, Capricorn prefers to take its time over its lovemaking, and its highly developed self-control gives it the stamina to stay the course.”

Nara Shikamaru

September 22 - Virgo

Strengths: pure emotion, loyal, analytical, kind, hardworking, practical

Weaknesses: sensitive to toxic environments, shyness, worry, overly critical of self and others, all work and no play

“Virgo’s are always paying attention to the smallest details and their deep sense of humanity makes them one of the most careful of the zodiac. Their methodical approach to life ensures that nothing is left to chance and although they are often tender, their heart might be closed for the outer world. This is a sign often misunderstood, not because they lack the ability to express but because they won’t accept their feelings as valid, true or even relevant when opposed to reason.”

“Feelings of love and life may be a bit like ocean waves that move with the current. With so much water flowing through their primal nature, their rational mind will easily fade around those that touch their heart. This makes them vulnerable to all sorts of betrayals and wrong compromises along the way. They need to be stable and firm in understanding and deciphering their own feelings before anyone else’s or they might lower their guard too far down.”

“They need a partner who is as fragile as they are but also someone who is aware of the strength of their emotional world.”

“ Many Virgos aren’t particularly comfortable with demonstrative displays of emotion or dramatic, over-the-top outbursts. Normally quite shy by nature, they prefer to express their affection in tangible, down-to-earth ways: love for them is about actions, not just empty words. Big worriers who don’t find it easy to show their feelings, Virgos are prone to internalizing their anxieties about their physical desirability – frequently making themselves ill in the process – and can often be a bit uptight around sex. To balance this, they need lots of reassurance that they’re actually perfectly okay!”

Now ... y’all can correct me if I’m wrong, but that all sounds pretty spot on to me. Like, it’s accurate. I’ve mentioned this a few times when replying to comments on my Dr Stone fics, but I really enjoy how nuanced Senkuu is because there’s a lot going on under the surface of his cool facade. He’s very task-oriented and objective about what needs to be done, but he’s also extremely sympathetic towards others even if he tries to play it off. It seems hard for him to be honest about his feelings because, frankly, they’re not rational enough for his liking, so he tries to find ways to justify them. On the flip side, Shikamaru is a little similar with his cool, objective-oriented outer shell but he’s conversely quite sensitive. Like, hella sensitive. That boy is not anywhere near as tough or impenetrable as he acts and I do think at least part of that is a defense mechanism of some sort to shield his heart, even before Asuma died but especially afterward. They’re both tough to penetrate emotionally and they guard their true feelings so well that it actually does manage to fool people. I mean both the characters around them and also the fans watching at home. So at this point, there doesn’t seem to be a conclusive winner and it should come down to a simple matter of preference, right?

Well, let’s see what the stars have to say about throwing a Leo into the mix.

Capricorn + Leo

“... have one thing in common and it’s their awareness of self. It will be a rare occasion when Leo is attracted to Capricorn but the other way around seems more probable.”

“Both are extremely devoted, especially to each other. Although they may seem to be an unlikely couple on the surface, their love will grow as they discover similarities.”

“Like Barbie and Ken, you’re a good looking pair ... your shared love of achievement and impressive ambition sends power couple fantasies running through your heads. If you’re out to conquer the same goal, your combined skills make you quite an awesome force to behold.”

“The physical intimacy between a Leo and a Capricorn is where this mismatched couple can come together. Leo is hot, physical, feminine, [and] enjoys giving pleasure. In a day to day life, Capricorn is reserved and proper but when it comes to sex, he wants it wild, woolly, rough and tumble. Lucky for him, Leo has a similar sexual appetite. It’s in bed where Leo has the power to make customarily reserved Capricorn throw caution to the wind and become a bit crazy in love.”

“What you’ve got here is one sign with a forensic eye for detail and another who paints with an incredibly broad brushstroke. The possibility of driving each other crazy is real.”

“Capricorn is more likely to be attracted to Leo than the other way around - they’ll watch the lion prance, preform and captivate with their personality and either instantly dislike or feel uncomfortably drawn to them.”

The good: both seek success, Capricorn teaches Leo patience, Leo teaches Capricorn passion

The bad: Leo thinks Capricorn is a cold fish, Capricorn thinks Leo is a show off, it all gets too hard to compromise

Virgo + Leo

“Their rationality might turn into an intellectual battle for sexual dominance, that is, if they ever reach the point in which they both want to have sex with each other.”

“Leo shows Virgo good times and fun, and introduces the spontaneity that is often missing from Virgo’s life. Virgo teaches Leo patience and focuses their intellectual energy.”

“Leo plays cheerleader to pessimistic Virgo while levelheaded Virgo steps into the therapists role, mirroring Leo’s angst until a breakthrough is reached. This is a safe emotional harbor for both of you.”

“Virgo and Leo see their time together in bed as a celebration of their love and commitment. Both are hopeless romantics so there will be plenty of physical foreplay, including morning kisses, long evening embraces, candles, flowers, and massages. A creative and open minded Leo is always willing to try something new and Virgo, who is no prude either, will be a willing follower. Together these two can reach sexual heights they’ve never experienced before.”

“A comedy of errors ...Leo and Virgo are forever working through misunderstandings and mending communication fences. Often it’s as if they speak different languages.”

“Leo pounces and Virgo, invariably, plays hard to get, rebuffing the lion and appearing completely underwhelmed by their charms. This of course drives Leo into a frenzy of heightened passion - they pull out their A game and deliver super hot maneuvers. The funny thing is that such scenarios are usually Virgo devised and orchestrated. They’ve probably observed the flamboyant lion in action - noted that everyone submits to their charisma and decided to go in the opposite direction. If played correctly Leo becomes a lovesick pussy cat ...”

“Virgo is a bit of a tease - for much of the “falling in Love” phase they love-starve Leo who shamelessly begs for morsels of affection. It actually makes the attraction between them electric.”

The good: Virgo teaches Leo patience, Leo teaches Virgo to have fun, they are fascinated by each other

The bad: messy Leo drives neat freak Virgo crazy, negative Virgo brings Leo down, poor communication abounds

So ... what did we take from all that? Well, first of all, both of them are apparently going to teach me patience which I admit I sorely need. Conversely, I’d bring passion, fun and spontaneity to their lives. On one hand, Senkuu seems like he’d be much more drawn to me than Shikamaru because even though I do stay drinking my dumb bitch juice, we have similar driving forces in our lives and I’m not a complete idiot. I love science, especially when it comes to learning about space and how the world works, just not the mathematical portion. That part can eat my ass tbh. On the other hand though, if Shikamaru and I could sort of find a common ground to stand on it sounds like it would be a very healthy relationship for the both of us which I need so badly it’s kind of not funny. Like, I’m self-aware enough to realize what I need out of a hypothetical relationship and it (unfortunately) is the kind of emotional connection that facilitates healing and growth rather than stagnation. I don’t think either of them would just sit there and watch me flounder in my angst, as one of those quotes put it, but everything is pointing at Shikamaru being much more well equipped to tackle the problem while simultaneously needing the same in return, which I would be more than happy to give him.

TL;DR: I actually cannot pick between them. I just can’t do it. I love them both for strangely similar but also drastically different reasons and, objectively, I can’t say I like one more than the other. Both give me soft, doki doki feelings that I don’t know what to do with and even after thinking on it for about two hours, I’m incapable of saying with definitive certainty that I like one more. So all I can go off of is what the zodiac has to say about our compatibility which is pointing at both potential relationships being rocky with their ups and downs, but Shikamaru being the more sensitive of the two comes out the winner in the end. That’s not to say I wouldn’t work with Senkuu to truly become the power couple we both secretly crave, but I know my emotions can get away from me at times and it seems to me that Shikamaru would be a smidge more understanding in that department. 

I realize this definitely isn’t the answer you were expecting, anon, and I absolutely considered scrapping this whole post more than once. lol But I didn’t want to shrug off the question just because I couldn’t decide which of them I liked more. Anyway, for the sake of posterity, here’s what the zodiac has to say about me for comparison. 

August 7th - Leo

Strengths: Energetic, creative, passionate, generous, warm-hearted, cheerful, humorous

Weaknesses: Hasty, arrogant, stubborn, self-centered, lazy, inflexible

“Love is the focus point of these individuals, and while their intellectual and instinctive sides are the first ones to show, we will see that they seek someone equal, to share their inner states with. They need a lot of support and a calm partner that soothes their Soul, someone quiet enough and intimate enough to feel safe with. Easy to detach from reality and our planet Earth, their relationships either speak of the unseen and the impossible or present a safe haven where their bodies can rest, and their routine can be brought to balance.”

“Open for new things and often ready to openly show their sexuality, they need a fine touch of love they are worthy of in this lifetime. Romance can be obstructed by their need to prove a point or become the image of something they admire, but as they get closer to their inner truth and become aware of their talents and potentials, they invite the right partner to be within a strangely peaceful union. Although they sometimes stand opposed to marriage and structures and forms that put any relationship in a drawer, they will gladly commit to the right person by their side, in all those surprising and unusual ways.”

“This Fire sign is passionate and sincere and its representatives show their feelings with ease and clarity. When in love, they are fun, loyal, respectful and very generous towards their loved one. They will take the role of a leader in any relationship, and strongly rely on their need for independence and initiative. This can be tiring for their partner at times, especially if they start imposing their will and organizing things that aren't theirs to organize in the first place. Each Leo needs a partner who is self-aware, reasonable and on the same intellectual level as them. Their partner also has to feel free to express and fight for themselves, or too much light from their Leo's Sun might burn their own personality down.”

“Sex life of each Leo is an adventure, fun and very energetic. This is someone who has a clear understanding of boundaries between sex and love, but might fail to see how important intimacy and emotional connection is to the quality of their sex life. Every Leo needs a partner to fight through their awareness and reach their sensitive, subconscious core, in order to find true satisfaction in a meaningful relationship.”

(Spoiler alert: this is all true, except the part about taking on the role of leader in relationships. I genuinely love being dominated in bed, but only if I deem my partner worthy or adequate enough to get the job done. Other than that though, I can’t say any part of this is horribly incorrect. Oops. : / )

[baddcop]

@deconstructlife​ asked :  💭 (Prosthetic arm verse) ♥

Legs   wrapped   ‘round   hips   loosely ,   drawing   the   android’s   strong   figure   ever   closer   to   the   detective’s   bare   one   laid   out   before   him   like   such   an   intimate   work   of   art.   A   show   of   trust.   Even   after   fumbling   o’er   the   edge   of   such   carnal   bliss,   he   seems   to   be   wading   in   the   afterglow,   and   o’   how   pale   perfect   form   tangles   and   contrasts   harshly   with   his   scarred   one.   His   body,   a   map   of   all   his   past   mistakes,   wounds   to   date   back   years   of   abuse   and   missteps,   some   that   Cayden   wasn’t   there   to   clean   and   nurse   with   such   careful   contemplation   splayed   across   beautiful   complexion.   To   gift   such   a   work   of   art   the   utter   misfortune   of   loving   something   as   broken   as   Gavin   was   more   like   a   death   sentence   he’d   assume.   And   to   burden   with   such   heavy   emotion,   when   Gavin   knows   how   shattered   he   is,   how   his   edges   and   ridges   needed   to   be   treaded   along   with   caution,   and   yet   still   drew   such   genuine   sorrow.   It   was   surely   cruel   of   him   to   love   him   like   this,   to   give   him   another   fix   when   he   felt   he   had   no   right   to   be   drawn   into   his   arms   like   this   just   soaking   in   the   afterglow   with   him.   Careful   hands   find   their   way   to   his   face,   trailing   o’er   soft   synthetic   skin   while   fingertips   on   the   prosthetic   glowed   the   softened   blue,   a   light   hum   resounding   as   he   gives   his   partner   a   flurry   of   passionate   kisses.   And   there’s   no   hunger   in   his   movements,   urgency   perhaps   to   hold   onto   such   a   tender   moment,   to   try   and   catch   and   keep   such   a   fluttering   feeling   as   it   danced   and   coiled   round   his   heart,   and   show   it   to   Cayden   in   any   way   he   could.   He   wasn’t   still   tangled   up   with   his   body   in   bed   like   this   out   of   some   carnal   desire,   but   instead   out   of   a   distinct   need   to   cherish   him   during   such   an   overwhelming   moment   of   complete   devotion   and   adoration.   His   fingertips   of   the   prosthetic   grace   carefully   along   his   shoulder   and   rest   on   the   android’s   collarbone,   soft   lips   finally   parting   with   his   lover’s   to   quietly   nudge   and   rest   his   forehead   against   Cayden’s   own.   Stormy   eyes,   hints   of   green,   finally   reintroduced   to   the   world   while   lids   carefully   hang   o’er   them.   Then   all   at   once,   his   prosthetic   draws   towards   his   lover’s,   as   if   of   its   own   volition.   Synthetic   skin   peels   back   upon   it   wherever   he   so   much   as   nudges   the   other,   a   light   brush   of   synthetic   skin   against   it   earning   a   ripple   effect   like   a   drop   in   a   pond   as   the   skin   recedes   almost   automatically.   Yet   it   never   did   so   with   anyone   else,   such   intimacy   only   ever   would   be   seen   by   him.   Fingers   interlock   while   his   hand   of   flesh   and   bone   glides   into   dark   chestnut-colored   locks   of   his   lover,   brushing   through   it   softly   and   drawing   him   near   while   he   relaxes   back   against   the   pillow.   Unfurling   completely   he   lets   him   into   his   mind,   a   privilege   not   so   easily   earned   from   the   detective   who’d   rather   push   others   away   than   bear   his   underbelly   to   them.

But   Cayden   was   different.   He   always   was,   he’d   thought.   Not   just   in   his   deviancy,   not   just   in   the   way   he’d   entered   the   detective’s   life   and   not   just   in   his   behaviors.   No,   Gavin   never   could   quite   place   what   it   was   that   was   so   captivating   and   unique   about   him.   He   was   akin   to   some   gem,   some   work   of   art   he   couldn’t   quite   figure   out,   perhaps   he   wasn’t   meant   to   be,   Cayden   was   complex.   He   was   evolving   and   changing   and   shifting   and   infinitely   beautiful   in   a   thousand   ways.   All   of   these   feelings   seep   in   through   their   connection   as   bares   his   soul   to   him   so   willingly   and   raw. Memories   come   pouring   into   him,   like   a   steady   stream,   still   trying   to   hold   back   so   as   not   to   frighten   him   off.   Memories   of   his   past,   good   and   bad,   all   seem   like   a   flurry   of   weighted   mess   strapped   firmly   to   detective’s   consciousness.   Yet   those   that   included   Cayden   seemed   to   lessen   the   weight,   seemed   to   cut   him   loose   of   those   weights   that   he   could,   and   bear   the   load   with   when   it   came   to   others.   Other   people   couldn’t   make   you   better,   couldn’t   fix   you   unless   you   wanted   to   and   never   before   had   someone   made   Gavin   want   to   be   good   like   this.   For   once   in   his   life,   when   he   was   in   his   arms   he   felt   light   and   at   peace.  

You   make   me   want   to   be   better.   You   make   me   excited   to   be   the   person   I   could   be. 

Words   come   like   a   soft   breath   through   their   connection,   gentle   and   tender.   He   pours   his   heart   out   to   him   like   he’s   never   done   to   anyone   before,   a   steady   flowing   river   of   emotions   and   memories   gifted   to   him   to   share   all   he   could   before   the   interface   is   slowly   faded   out   of.   Like   a   blinding   light   in   a   dream   or   the   silence   of   the   stage   after   the   show   is   over,   he   relinquishes   Cayden’s   hand   and   mind   as   skin   pulls   back   over.   There’s   always   more   to   show   him,   but   for   now,   he   just   wanted   to   show   him   how   much   he   meant   to   him   in   the   best   way   he   could.

prompt.    /    accepting.

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The Blovel Season 3: Episode 5

Joan was all the physical wonder God could have created for Buxton. She embodied all of the qualities that would make any man yield to her. Her hips were rounded and her butt was plump. Her breasts weren’t too big nor too small; they were just right! Her smile was immaculate. Her kisses always tasted like honey. On top of her physical wonder, they had a connection that was actually more magnetic than he and Amber’s. Though Buxton never forgot about Amber, Joan made Amber a memory that Buxton wouldn’t have to reflect upon.

They began the way any couple does. They went out often, they held hands, Buxton opened every door and wouldn’t think to ask Joan to pay for anything whenever they were together, and they never seemed to get agitated with one another. They genuinely enjoyed each other’s company and spending time together. They waited a while before they were intimate. Joan was clear about her preference to resist intimacy before they knew each other well. She admitted to Buxton that she made mistakes in her past with men and wanted to avoid making those same mistakes by moving too fast towards a physical relationship before establishing an emotional one. Buxton wasn’t resistant to her wishes. He understood her position clearly and wanted to a positive in Joan’s eyes and not another mistake. Besides the magnificence of her prototype form, Buxton really liked Joan and wanted to know her as well as he could.

They waited nearly five months before they had sex. They kissed often and laid together prior to but didn’t sleep together. Buxton was happy with getting to know Joan first and thought he knew quite a bit about Joan but some things aren’t ever revealed until they are ready to be.

Throughout their relationship Buxton was the consummate giver. He lived for himself but Joan was a very close second though he often put her needs before his own; that was just the kind of person Buxton knew to be. Buxton was raised to be the kind of man that catered to his woman’s wants and desires and wanted nothing more than to quench the thirsts of his Loved one. He gave unto Joan and frequently gave into her. Buxton never wanted Joan to forget just how much he Loved her. He wanted everyday to be a reminder of his devotion; sometimes people don’t see what’s right in front of them.

Over the years that Buxton and Joan dated, Jeremy and a few of Buxton’s other friends would let Buxton know their opinions of Joan. Buxton’s friends are the friends that don’t impose and never interject with their own assessments of other people’s relationships but they kept it straight with Buxton about what they saw between him and Joan. Jeremy said to Buxton candidly on a number of occasions that he believed he was giving a lot of himself to Joan and it didn’t seem as though she was giving nearly as much. From Jeremy’s perspective, he saw his friend giving up his time, money, often sacrificing sleep and even letting go of some of the things that made Buxton who he is. Buxton used to be outgoing and charismatic and jovial but with Joan, Buxton was more reserved, introverted and often made excuses about why he couldn’t do certain things and it was either because he was spending time with Joan or “low on funds” at the time. Jeremy wanted to ensure that his friend wasn’t losing himself in his relationship but it seemed as if Buxton was all but gone in his relationship with Joan.

Joan wasn’t naive. She knew she had Buxton by the short and curlies. It was obvious that Buxton was head over heels for Joan and anyone could see it. Joan had a man willing to do any and everything she asked of him and things she didn’t have to wait to ask for were done. With such an exceptional amount of selflessness at her disposal, one would think that Joan would harness such a powerful aspect of a person and allow them to blossom into something great by helping them to rechannel some of that energy into themselves; that’s not what happened. Joan was selfish. She loved the attention and never saw how much Buxton forgot about himself whether intentionally or unintentionally but it was clear to others that Joan was obsessed with being the center of Buxton’s world.

Jeremy tried to help Buxton see what he was immersed in by gathering their friends and staging an intervention of sorts. Jeremy planned a weekend getaway to a cottage up in the mountains were they and six of their friends went away and just had time with the fellas to reflect and reconnect or at least that’s how it was explained to Buxton. On the first night at the cottage, Jeremy gathered everyone around the fire place and led a discussion about how every man in the circle would commit to being the best man that he could be not only for himself but for the people he loved. Everyone in the circle talked about their relationships, families, children, jobs, passions, community and money. All of these brothers poured out of their souls into the space created. While every man in the circle was able to share no one was above reproach. This was demonstrated most notably when Buxton began sharing about Joan. All of the brothers knew about Buxton and Joan and all of them knew that Buxton was giving a lot more than he was receiving and chose to let him know about it. Buxton wasn’t able to refute their claims because he knew it was true. He revealed to them why he gave so much of himself:

When Buxton was a kid, a young girl walked up to him while he was playing in the sandbox at a playground and told him that he was ugly. It was as if her sole purpose was to diminish any self-esteem Buxton had. The girl came out of nowhere and said only those words plus a phrase he’s never forgotten, “If you ever find a pretty girl you better keep her.” The little girl walked away and he never saw her again but the damage was already done.

Buxton was fixated on the beauty of his counterpart because he isn’t able to see the beauty within himself.