#Look I gotta unlearn the revolution thinking too

[nach0]

So my fic title list got to over 150 titles without me realising

in honour of that.. have all of them

Fic titles

A scar upon their perfect skin (perfect to only them)

Close your frightened eyes (hide behind my love for you)

How dare you love me like you’ve never known fear

Remember the pact of our youth

There may not be meaning (so find one and seize it)

The dark doesn't frighten me (I chose to close my eyes)

But no one gave up a rib for me and mine

My spine may be bent (my binding may be spent)

Stretching the truth out of shape

So much that I want to say (before the moment slips away)

Can you hear the drumming? (There’s a revolution coming)

Promises to keep (miles to go before I sleep)

Everyone’s got a line to walk (we gotta keep from looking down)

Hollow from the inside out

And all the kids cried out (please stop you’re scaring me)

These secrets inside me (my mind’s like a deadly disease)

Colder than this home

Meaner than my demons

Couldn’t stand the person inside me (turned all the mirrors around)

I've grown familiar with villains that live in my head

The devil will want you back

Shut your eyes (so you'll see I'm there)

You don’t make me a good person

Felt real to me (until the morning)

Hide all the chains (so you aren’t afraid)

Kick me out I’m not phased (I’m on another plane)

Can never find a refuge (always had a sweet tooth)

Disturb the comfortable and comfort the disturbed

The devil that you forgot

When you think of love do you think of pain

Trapped inside a moving coffin

Pay the devil twice as much to keep your soul

Back when you least expect it (hell’s coming with me)

The ghosts that inhabit this place are more alive than you’ll ever be

The secrets we’re hiding (the violence we’re stifling)

Raise your shield and cry for help (but no one is coming)

Walk through fire (straight into hell)

Betrayal breeds revenge

Do you want to be a hero? (Die like one)

Crimson fate

Leaving home (love was never good to me)

The only storm I’ve ever known

Keeps me silent when I try to speak

Blood cold as ice

Heading straight for the castle (they want to make me their queen)

The enemy has made it’s claim (but darkness cannot take my name)

Views of death and bitter cold

You can take all you want (but not who I am)

Left me vacant (and all alone)

What the hell are morals?

Like second nature

Making amends

Karma’s gonna come collect her debt

Count my blessings (look to the rising sun)

I knew you once

Dig your grave and enjoy the view from the bottom

Would anyone listen to this (the ramblings of a lunatic)

Stop me diving deeply into my internal being

Emotional suppression (my coping mechanism)

All my friends are dying (some faster than the others)

Does it suck that I’m not so predictable?

Bury me six feet in snow

Wasting our chances for the last time

Always clearing my throat (like I ever have something to say)

Can’t break the cycle

Falling down like dominos

Don’t you find it strange (only thing we share is one last name)

Coal to diamonds (sold to fools)

Is it my fault we stay divided? (I got too much pride)

Buried with our past

Don’t listen to a word I say (the screams all sound the same)

Familiar as you shook my hand (what was it you meant to do)

I am all the things they might have said to you

Never had the chance to lose you

Let’s take a vote

Do I annoy the worst of you

You never were a friend to lose

Defended you until the curtains fell down

It’s all about fun and games (until I hurt somebody)

Nothing to lose (except your voice)

These monsters I hold (I’m bringing them home)

You’ve seen my demons (but you weren’t really supposed to)

You set yourself on fire just to light up the room

The sky might fall (You might lose it all)

More than kin and less than kind

i hate you for what you did (and i miss you like a little kid)

he’s got my past frozen behind glass

what died didn’t stay dead (you’re alive in my head)

does she know how proud i am she was created? (with the courage to unlearn all of their hatred)

Just let me go (we’ll meet again soon)

I’ll see you when I fall asleep

I think I’m dying (hold up I’m invincible)

See how bright the fire inside of us burns

All good devils masquerade in the light

Nothing feels like home

Comparing our suffering only compounds it

The story in every star

Cannot be undone

A tune never resolved into a melody

Forgetting which side you’re on

Give myself away (Only to get it given back)

Abandon your pride (‘cause you’ve dug your own grave)

Call for my demise

It was always too late

Revenge only delays

Karma’s what you make

Seeing me the way I couldn’t see myself

Pay the price and some more

Think of what you still have left

Death doesn’t discriminate

The future’s blurry (but the past is a trap)

Nothing Beside Remains

Run wild, run free (the sky beneath our feet)

Together we sang (I’m ready now)

Ticks and tocks from broken clocks can’t hurt me anymore

It’ll break your heart (how very much alike we are)

Every witch was someone’s princess (in some other once upon a time)

This road was made for two

There’s blood on your lies

You might be lord of half the world (you’ll not own me as well)

Life’s for the living so live it (or you’re better off dead)

Look out at the morning sun (no escape from the things I’ve done)

I will choose what I believe

Life is a risk (but I will take it)

You may be the bigger person (but I’m louder)

At the mercy of the singing crows

Can’t love something you own

A glimmer of betrayal changes my mind

The smile no one ever saw

mind on the brink of going supernova

The hands around my throat don’t want me to be honest

Won’t admit that I’m hurting (push it on you till you’re burning)

Can’t process my feelings (made them circle the drain)

Forget the cage (we know how to make the key)

These hands could hold the world (but it’ll never be enough)

The sharpest words wanna cut me down (send a flood to drown them out)

You don’t need everyone to love you (just a few good people)

Let this promise in me start

An anthem in my heart

More bitter than sweet

Looking at the world through crimson sunglasses

I name you my enemy

Sharing nothing but stolen genes

Believe me darling (the stars were made for falling)

It feels like flying (but maybe we’re dying)

A line in any final song

Only those that really care will ever really worry

Falling’s half the fun

Do not forget what we cannot forgive

Don’t need anything (apart from distance)

A ticking time bomb (in need of assistance)

Used to being alone (so I guess this is goodbye)

Make your mark (concur what you fear)

We’re not flawless (we’re a work in progress)

You can’t have a nightmare if you never dream

Don’t know if you love me (or want me dead)

Feel free to use any of these for whatever you want

mostly song lyrics but a few good quotes and random stuff in there too

[hercreativeprocess]

Her Creative Process: Kristina Bartosova

Kristina Bartosova is a Slovakian graphic designer and art director based in Graz, Austria. Coming from a background of classic graphic design, her work spans from branding and editorial design to art direction and styling. Through taking the inherent personality and condition of a project into consideration, she creates powerful aesthetics that form a world of their own.

How did you end up in your chosen career?

Coming from a very artistic family, I have always drawn and painted a lot. I grew up during the aftermath of socialism in a ghetto-like part of the city, a time with no brands whatsoever. Only when someone had family in Western Germany or so, they would have fancy stuff, but otherwise, everything else was very standardized and basic. Think lots of dark blue and brown corduroy - if something was pink, it was usually not from here.

So I was always drawn to brands because it was out of reach. Coming across an actual brand that was known in the rest of the world was super-rare. This whole other world we weren’t supposed to see. It was like collector’s items. After the Velvet Revolution it slowly began that you could buy more Western things and I collected them. I kept everything  – wrappers from the classic blue and white Milky Way bars, labels from the transparent pink Reach Junior mouthwash or L’Oreal crèmes - you name it, I had it.

I started illustrating on a computer really early, when I was 9 or so. My parents wouldn’t let me have any computer games and so I spent a lot of time playing the Lion King on Nintendo at my friend’s house, trying to memorize all the frames I liked. At home I would open Paintbrush and recreate what I saw pixel by pixel 'till it looked like the real deal. I was really good at it because the Lion King was important of course.

Later, when I started skateboarding and snowboarding I would work on my own designs for the boards. I had to be prepared in case I ever became a pro hahaha. I had this huge notebook where I would draw alternative logos with colored pencil and ruler. I had no idea that there were more fonts than those that came pre-installed on my parents’ Windows 95 computer, so I came up with my own and some of the designs were actually pretty good!

From that point it wasn’t a long way 'till I figured that I could turn it into a profession. I went to study at the Academy of Fine Arts in Bratislava, which shaped me a lot, as they put a lot of emphasis on conceptual strength and I learned a lot about graphic design in the context of visual arts.

When do you feel most creative? Be it a time of day, particular season, or after a really great taco.

There’s a lot of individual situations, thankfully. Usually the ideas come when I’m laying on the couch or shortly before falling asleep. It’s that feeling of not needing to think about anything that opens up my brain to possibility and then I gotta get up and write it all down.

Where is your favorite place to create, and why?

As normal as it may sound: my office or my apartment. I have everything I need there – all the books, magazines, pens, markers and paper. Which one it ends up being depends on the thing I’m doing. If it’s something analog or if I’m just starting to work on a branding, I prefer to stay at home alone because I can move around and do what I feel like without distracting anyone. In that phase I might turn the apartment into a mess of thousands of papers and the inside of a toolbox.

Anything apart from the initial stages of design work, there’s no place like my office desk. I don’t put on a suit and tie or punch a timecard (but I do have power shoes!) but it really helps to have a place where you’re there to handle the business.

Typically, what does your creative process look like?

Like going with my gut as much as possible. As I said earlier, the beginning of a project is often messy. I almost never make ‘just the logo’ so when doing a branding I like to plan as much as possible beforehand.  That means I always think about how it works in different applications, how it feels, what the photography could look like, what kind of interior would best represent the brand, etc. To get to all this, moodboarding is a major key.

Then I always sketch, at least a little. If I just jump right into Illustrator, nothing good comes out and the result will be far too stiff. That’s why I like to figure out a direction early on and then experiment and build a design. To bring it all together, I move to my computer and either scan the sketches or start looking for a typeface that fits the image in my head. Once a logo or the core element is finished, the process is much easier to control and straight-forward by just realizing the vision I created on the various applications. It just has to fit with the idea the client and I have set for the brand.

Who and what are you inspired by?

So, so many things! I am very easily amused and have pretty low standards for ‘fun’ and ‘exciting’ so it’s sometimes the most random things that inspire me. It’s not like I never get bored, I probably do, but it’s not so easy haha. I can listen to the same album a hundred times and still enjoy it. Travelling in general and talking to other people and just listening to how they talk about different subjects passionately is always great for a change of perspective.

I also love to go back to Bratislava, my hometown to see all the small changes in time. Regarding design itself, I consciously try not to look at design blogs very often, (of course I check them from time to time) but I love Pinterest and go through other fields like art, interior, fashion, books, design or photography and look for connections. Nothing exists in a bubble and it’s fun to observe how trends that start in fashion influence graphic or industrial design and vice versa. I love to watch how different artists work with new tendencies and what references they use.

Right now, I am crazy about Amelie Pichard, a French fashion designer who makes these fun, almost trashy shoes and bags. I love the references she incorporates and everything about the concept and styling of her campaigns. You have to check her out!

How do you get past creative block?

I have no magical recipe for this, as someone who reads this might hope. I just get through it. I sit down, put in the hours until it’s there. Otherwise I’d have a block in every project, it’s just about sitting down and getting to it. To me the mythical creative block is just that, a myth. Of course I also get stuck initially but when I try and play around, it comes to the point eventually where it is fun, and then I continue from there.

How do you deal with perfectionism, self-doubt, and comparison?

This is not a humblebrag: I am a perfectionist, through and through. It is a double-edge sword and a trait that often gets in the way when you actually want to get shit done. I deal with that on an everyday basis. On one hand it’s good because you can rely on yourself with obsessing over smallest details, and that type of attention will positively show in the end product. On the other hand if things don’t go as I imagine, I get furious. That’s often the case with print production or set design.

Sometimes things turn out a bit differently, even when you’re as hands-on as possible. There is no way one can control EVERY aspect. If the time or resources are limited, you just have to roll with it and accept things the way they are. Then I try to focus on the fact that the work is finished, instead of on the flaws – that helps. You can always learn something for the next time and it is good to move forward.

I used to struggle a lot with comparison and self-doubt before, because I was brought up in a very competitive environment. But I made peace with that because that’s what shaped me into who I am today. I still try to be the best, I don’t think you can really unlearn it if it’s rooted that deeply, but now I get equally as happy from the success of other people who I like and whose work I admire.

Do you have any tips for someone who wants to do what you do (and be really good at it)?

If it’s what your gut tells you to do, go for it! It is a lot of work and the results will not show overnight but if it’s fun to you, it’ll work for others as well. The same is true for every other profession actually. It took me years to get to this point and it’s still not like I sit with my legs on the table and eat cake like ‘Congration, you done it’. I still think I have long way to go but I love what I do and that’s crucial.

What are you working on now, and what’s coming up next?

I’m working on several projects with my boyfriend right now, Thomas Pokorn, who takes care of the concept and copywriting part when we develop a brand identity. We art directed and designed two lookbooks for their upcoming two collections of a fashion brand, alongside their branding. Being on the set was a lot of fun, especially with Lipp Zahnschirm, with whom I also photographed my portfolio. We are currently working together for a local bakery too, and next month I am beginning work on a book about industrial architecture and a second edition of a museum magazine.

Thank you for having me!

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