#LORD i missed responding to your asks like this suzu bubs it's so good to be here again and chat with you im gonna sob ( happily )

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UGH YOUR LATEST REBLOG HAS ME <333 it’s so funny to think about, because Kuni finally has a way to control you when you’re all whiny and pouty without his attention. just dishes out this new paper and all of a sudden you’ve dove into a new topic you may not have heard about but is now fascinated with (yes he has to listen to your quiet mumbles about it and look at your very focused face but it’s cute <3)

AND THE SECOND SCENARIO ANGST?? I WAS NOT EXPECTING THAT YAME. it makes me think a lot because in the official art, Wanderer expression is always so “😒” when he has to attend the Akademiya… but deep down he still tries pretty hard, even if he doesn’t show it 😭 And you just want to give your lover a hug for everything and tell him that you see how hard he’s trying, and that it’s okay for him to take a break.

Nahida probably has to pull out a book on how students should take care of themselves 😔

I imagine that when he’s writing his essays, there’s been times when his mind floats to you and he wonders what you’re doing. And when he looks down at what he’s written, he sees that he accidentally wrote your name on the paper right next to all this academic stuff. He erases it so quickly and is so glad you’re not here to see his blush.

(also eating up your various kuni interpretations… HE’S STILL KABU DEEP DOWN DON’T HURT ME LIKE THIS 💔) (but real) 

*sends you all my love* ❤️ 

PLEASE THAT'S SO HIM BEHAVIOR YK ?? it never ceases to amaze him just how easily you flow with what he gives you to quill your boredom, even if there's a high possibility it may not be quilled — a wanderer can hope, no? but much to his dismay; your boredom isn't one so easily quilled. not when his best bet is to just throw another essay some other scholar wrote and he gives you that look that especially says: here, read.

but despite how annoyed he may appear with your constant whining and pouting; he deep down loves how you, too, seek his affection. he perceives this whole ordeal as a good thing though, you've always been patient and rarely does he ever see you as the opposite so... maybe all he needs to do to test said patience is simply excuse himself by saying he has an essay to write which is a fucking lie 💀 but he likes to see you being a little annoyed. it's endearing to see many sides of you from his perspective.

more under the cut !!

as for the second scenario angst .. huhu 🤭 but in all seriousness it just lines up with how much of a perfectionist he tends to be whether he admits to it or not. it's obvious he's working hard, incredibly so, and that desire to perfect and fulfill doesn't stem from a “oh it's something i have to do” but more or so “i want to prove everyone wrong.” and that mindset tends to unfortunately eat at him to a point such a notion becomes intertwined with his previous beliefs — i will never be good enough. he'd think and manage to convince himself a little too easily. back then, whenever nahida would spot him in that state, she wouldn't even utter a word to reassure him because he knows what she'll say, and it's during those times he doesn't want to hear those words. it used to be incredibly difficult for nahida to get him off his chair and assure him that he's done enough, but in his eyes what he managed to finish was nowhere near enough.

and you're so right about nahida having to get a book on how students should take care of themselves ;; convincing to take a break takes both your and nahida's efforts combined. it's during such times nahida is reminded of how grateful she is for your presence because if there's another person wanderer is willing to listen to that isn't her; it's you.

i could go on and on about it but i think you already guessed this is already saved in my drafts and um, i am cooking both the fluff and angst in that one 🤭 but let's get into the fluff territory for a good minute — YES. ABSOLUTELY YES. darling already has two emotes both of which are named and i quote “zoned out.” it's practically second nature to him to just ( ಠ⁠_⁠ಠ ) ...

i like to imagine that it isn't limited to when he's writing, but that habit also seeps into the times he'd draw something in the midst of taking a break. at first, it starts with him doodling a random object, then something he's craving, and the moment he zones out while doodling to his heart's content... next thing he sees is that he drew something you like, something you usually tell him you crave, or even just draw you on autopilot. but in comparison to how he'd write your name on a research paper and immediately erase it; this empty page now filled with little things connected to you is one he keeps but never, ever let you know about.

and regarding my kuni interpretations — that's 3 am ayame for you lmao bestie wrote that in a daze 😭 and i may or may have not hyper analyzed that silly little thing i wrote back then lolol

*sends you all my love in return* (⁠/⁠^⁠-⁠^⁠(⁠^⁠ ⁠^⁠*⁠)⁠/🤍🤍