#Kylo's anger keeps Joy in his Circle of Joy and he's not allowed out

[ellalba]

Inside out AU. How they first meet, second part for my @kyluxsecretsanta for @arstyrannus. Hope it gives you a laugh!

[stahvie]

Hi! I love you writing and absolutely adore the “I’ll keep you warm” fanfic🧡 As I saw that you’re taking requests I wondered if maybe you would like to do a Kylo x Reader where she’s kidnapped from him (but not by the Resistance) and he just freaks out and tries to find her and hunt the kidnappers? But focusing a lot in his emotions? The final is up to you even though some smut/fluff would be nice! I really understand if you reject this. Anyway, you’re so so great!!❤️☺️✨

Sorry this has gone unanswered for so long. Hopefully you’re still around :)

Warning: Smut … also a little bit of murder

As Kylo descended on the moon well known for it’sdebauchery, his stomach churned at the thought of what might happen to you ifhe failed. Nar Shadaa was the stomping ground for the galaxy’s scum. Bountyhunters, smugglers, slave traders, Kylo knew exactly what would happen to you.He had to get you far away from here and never again let you out of his sightfor another second. He should have been there to stop them.

You had been taken by a small group of bounty hunters, overambitious and looking to make a few credits. Hux had implored him to pay theransom. They could even reverse the transaction once you were safe, but thiswasn’t about that.

Kylo knew Hux had meant well, you were friends with Hux, arelationship that he didn’t particularly approve of but accepted anyway. Youwould be safe but this wasn’t about credits. This was about pride. Revenge.

The fleet waited on the outskirts of Hutt Space as Kylopressed on alone in his Silencer. Although he’d refused to let anyone join himin your rescue, for admittedly selfish reasons, Kylo allowed Hux to help locateyou and identify who the kidnappers were. The First Order had hired them a fewtimes in the past. A mixture of guilt and anger bubbled away inside Kylo’sguts; they’d fatally underestimated him.

It was bad news for anyone that dared to get in his way asKylo stormed through the seedy casino, leaving an obvious path of destructionin his wake. The longer it took to find you, the worse his fury grew. Withoutyou Ren was out of whack, sick with worry it was like the force had abandonedhim. What good were his force abilities if he couldn’t even keep you safe?

Blood boiling, he tore through every room determined to findyou. If you weren’t here, he’d find whoever was responsible for the faultyintel and do to them exactly what he planned for the bounty hunters.

Eventually it appeared as though luck had finally found Kyloas he opened a door to see your face staring back at him in desperation.Something was amiss. There was something about you that was off. It wasn’tanything specific, you just seemed wrong. The face that looked back at himdidn’t have its usual warmth, and the radiating sweetness that made him feelcomplete was missing. Either something horrible had happened to you, or…

Kylo’s saber ignited with a mechanical roar. He held it justshy of your face, hesitating slightly, not wanting to damage the face he was soin love with despite his suspicions.

“Tell me where she is.” Kylo commanded.

Your face was nervous, but your mouth stayed silent, eyesquickly glancing toward the back wall before looking back up at him pleading. Thosestolen eyes repulsed Kylo to his core. He pulled his saber away before plungingit deep into the Clawdite’s stomach. The reptilian woman was unable to keep upthe disguise confirming Kylo’s intuition. She’d been nothing but a poor mirrorof you, your essence wasn’t something that could be faked.

Kylo’s saber withdrew from the Clawdite and he moved withrenewed purpose to the back wall. There had to be some mechanism to open it, hecould sense it wasn’t just a wall and that you were close, but he was seeingred. His mind was too clouded by rage to decipher the door, instead he usedthat rage and tore it away from the wall.

For the second time in just a few minutes Kylo found himselfstaring into your eyes. These eyes weren’t desperate, they were full of relief.You ran to him and threw your arms around his neck seeking comfort in histouch. He released his saber, it switched off as it left his grasp, and he fellto his knees dragging his hands down your sides.

“I’m sorry I failed you.” Kylo muttered, his foreheadpressed to your thigh. The joy he felt in finding you was overwhelmed by theguilt of letting you down in the first place.

A heavy sigh left your lips as you sank down to meet him ateye level. You held his face in your hands, the way your eyes sparkled at himtold him you could never be disappointed in him, but he wanted you to be. He’dnever be able to forgive himself for putting you in danger and he couldn’t understandhow you could be so forgiving. But you were, and it was just another reason whyyou were so perfect to him.

“Kylo, you never could.” You pressed a kiss to his forehead,dotting your way down his eyes and cheeks until your mouths met. “Can we gohome now?”

The last thing he wanted to do was pull away from you nowbut he also desperately wanted to get you somewhere safe. Kylo stood andgathered you up in his arms. Under different circumstances you would haveprotested, you were perfectly capable, but you knew Kylo felt like he needed toprove himself, not just to you, but to himself too.

Kylo refused to let you go until you were safely back inyour quarters. It had made the flight back more complicated than it needed tobe, but he was determined. Even now that the two of you were alone he had ahard time letting you go. You were adamant and after some convincing Kylofinally agreed, but his arms wouldn’t comply so you squirmed your way out ofhis embrace.

“It’s not that I don’t appreciate it, Kylo,” You spokesoftly and kissed him gently. “I just want to put the whole thing behind me. Iwant a shower, I want to put on something clean, and then if you’re stillinterested after that, I promise we can just sit and be together. Nodistractions, just us.”

“How can you be like this?” Kylo asked as he watched yougather together some clean clothes for after your shower as though the wholeincident had been nothing more than an inconvenience. “How are you so strong?”

“Because I have you.” You replied giving him a warm smile.“Because I know that no matter what happens you’ll always be there for me.”

The way you looked at him with complete trust, like he coulddo no wrong, it overwhelmed him. He knew he was being clingy but he also knewif he got on your nerves you’d forgive him, he just needed you near him. Hedidn’t want you out of his sight for a second. Kylo closed the distance you’dput between you, pulling you back into his arms.

You couldn’t have been upset with him if you tried. Youquickly realised this wasn’t about you. While you’d been confident you’d besaved, Kylo had been sick with worry, terrorising himself playing scenarioafter scenario of anything that could have happened to you. You pulled his facedown to yours.

“If you really don’t want me to be alone, you could alwaysjoin me.” You gave him a cheeky smile nodding toward the refresher.

He couldn’t deny it was tempting, but water in your eyes,having to worry about slipping, it would be too much of a distraction and heneeded to give you his full attention. No, he wouldn’t join you in the shower. Theshower had to wait.

His lips crashed against your temple as he removed everypiece of fabric that separated your body from his hands. It became obvious toyou that the two of you weren’t headed for the shower as he guided you backtoward the bed still barraging your face with kisses.

Kylo’s hands were busy taking as much of your body into themas he could, almost afraid that you’d disappear again, but once he realised you’dbegun to undress him, he locked lips with you to secure you to him and helpedto discard his clothes.

Naked and entwined in each other’s embrace, Kylo pulled youup, wrapping your legs around his middle and carefully crawled onto the bedwith you safely beneath him. It was only after he delicately lowered you soyour head met the pillows that he reluctantly pulled away from you.

Your bare body resented the sudden cool air that replacedKylo’s warmth, and even though he’d just wanted to be able to take in the sightof you lying there perfectly, you pulled him back in with a cheeky smile.

Kylo’s hands cupped the sides of your face, a thumb tracedyour lip before he replaced it with his mouth, but it was just a distraction. Withyour mind preoccupied with the softness of his lips, Kylo’s hips shifted so hewas at your entrance and with the slowest thrust he entered you.

It was almost agonisingly slow as he inched his way intoyour warmth until he couldn’t go any further. You could have stayed like thatfor ages just enjoying the closeness and intimacy, and Kylo tried to remainstill but your hushed moan still rang in his ears and your subtle scent wasdoing powerful things to him.

Kylo craved you. His body sank lower pressing himselfagainst you completely as his hands slid beneath you and the side of his facetouched yours. He just needed to hold as much of you as he possibly could whilehis hips rocked back and forth into you.

“I’ll never let anything happen to you again.” Kylo whispered,his voice strained with a cocktail of pleasure and guilt.

“I trust you.” You told him, pulling your face away from hisso you could look him in the eyes. Your hands dug through his hair and youplaced the sweetest kiss against his forehead. “I love you.”

Kylo’s thrusts faltered briefly stunned by your confidence inhim despite what had just occurred. He vowed to never let you down again, notthat you could ever believe he would.

“I love you too, [Y/N].” He groaned. “So much.”

Kylo reluctantly removed a hand from beneath your back andslid it between the two of you to draw circles around your clit. He didn’t wantanything to separate the two of you, even if it was just his own arm, but hewasn’t going to let this end without showing you he appreciated you.

Your nub was sensitive and you couldn’t help the way hisattention made your body wiggle underneath him. He couldn’t control himself,seeing you enjoying the sensations in your body sent fire through his veins. Histhrusts grew quicker, his hand matching the speed of his hips, he needed tosend you over the edge before it was too late.

The pressure that had been building inside you finally eruptedout of you. Your head pushed back into the pillow before coming forward topress against his and kissed him feverishly as he joined you, finding his ownrelease deep inside you.

Kylo wasn’t ready to separate himself from you but you weren’tin a hurry to do so either. You pushed at his chest gently nudging him away. A flashof fear crossed his face before he realised you didn’t want to leave him, youonly wanted to shift into a new position. He cautiously rolled backward unsureof how far you wanted him to go.

Once he’d shifted to lie on his side, you shuffled down thebed until you could nuzzle your face against Kylo’s broad chest and tucked yourarms in between the two of you. Kylo snatched a pillow from the top of the bedand wedged it beneath your head so you’d feel comfortable and pulled your bodyin closer. Eventually he’d have to let you out of his sight, but that wasn’tgoing to happen yet.