#Keeping their kids safe from online harm is mommy and daddy's problem.

[diabolocracy]

Anything new about Bill S 210?

From what the Parliament site says, it hasn't been touched since June. But between now and sometime next year there's probably going to be an election so that can change at any time, especially if they begin to rush things.

[leilareport]

@gallaghertasks​ // task 006: therapy.

‘ in the movies, these sessions usually start with “ well when i was a child .. “ and quickly devolve into a whole spiel of how their messed up childhood built their messed up life. but not me. not today. ‘

‘ did  you  know  either  of  the  victims  :   amelia  taylor  or  cassie  snyder  ?  if  yes  ,   how  well  did  you  know  them ?  ‘

it was a simple enough question and pretty standard, too. “i didn’t really know cassie, sorry. um .. amelia ..“ she wasn’t exactly sure why she paused. maybe because saying it out loud meant that it was real. “i knew amelia. we were friends. “ there. short and sweet. a quick sad smile to boot. that’s what they want, right?

‘ how  have  your  sleeping  and  eating  patterns  been  ?  ‘ 

she shrugged. “it’s been the same, in that i don’t really have the healthiest of either.” she felt her eyes narrow. the questions felt as standard as they did when her father sent her to therapy years ago after she had taken her middle school’s principal out for a joyride. her arms still crossed, she kept her neutral facial expression.

‘ do  you  find  yourself  thinking  about  the  event  even  when  you  don’t  want  to  ?  if  yes  ,   what  are  the  most  frequent  images ?  ‘

elisa shook her head, albeit a bit too fast for her own liking. "no, i do not. i wasn’t even aware it happened until the assembly, so .. “ it wasn’t like the information given was comprehensive. more of an order than anything that could say they could help. so she felt that was a bit unfair; a lot of things were. still are.

‘ do  you  avoid  thinking  or  talking  about  the  event ? ‘

she scoffed and found herself leaning forward with her arms still crossed, “well, it’s not something that should be talked about. people died.” catching herself, she cleared her throat and leaned back against the chair. “life goes on. it’s not like they would cancel classes more than they already do, so there’s that.”

it was at this point that elisa was being reminded of her previous therapy sessions. ‘do you avoid talking about your mother?’ was a popular question back then.

‘ do  you  avoid  going  places  or  being  in  situations  that  remind  you  of  the  event ?  if  yes  ,   what  are  these  places  ?   ‘

elisa shook her head once more. “no.” it was a lie, but she kept her gaze at the floor, not wanting the therapist to even note that about her. she had been avoiding the garages, it reminding her of amelia and their conversations together while fixing stuff up. but she told herself she’ll go there once more after this. and she really would.

‘ do  you  have  nightmares  about   the  event  ?   if  yes  ,   please  describe  these  nightmares  to  the  best  of  your  ability  .  ‘

“no, i do not. i don’t have nightmares, period.” not about amelia, at least. but when her mother left years ago, it was the source of great anxiety.

sometimes she thinks about that day. 

‘mommy’s first day back at work?’ she remembered asking lisanna as the other clutched their slim briefcase. she remembered thinking that it might be a simple office job, like her father. her mother nodded at her and gave a long kiss on the top of her head. ‘be good for daddy, okay? you’d do that right, my little lisa?’ if she thought about it hard enough, maybe she’d know how her mother’s voice was a bit more softer than it probably should be. the difference between a goodbye and a see you tonight. lisanna said neither, and just left to go to work. 

she hasn’t been back since. 

elisa looked elsewhere as the therapist went on to the next question.

‘ do  you  feel  easily  startled  or  anxious  ?  give  examples  .  ‘

“no, i don’t. a big part of my field is to not have be easily startled or anxious. it’s what i’m here for.”

training for the big leagues or what - not. there was a time she dreamed of going to quantico after graduating. following his father’s footsteps instead of her mother’s. her father’s family was more present anyway. birthday cards from the caspar’s were more frequent and more heartfelt. 

she never bothered to learn about the harlins. they never claimed her, so what gives?

they never called, never visited. at some point ellison just said that they were the type of people to never leave their house - a comment that earned him a snort from lisanna.

‘ do  you  worry  about  being  harmed  or  feel  “on guard” ?  give  examples  .  ‘

“i’m sure it’s apparent on your file that i’m both a driver’s ed and a threat elimination student. that said, i can keep myself safe, thank you.”

‘ do  you  feel  detached  or  “numb”  ?  how  so  ?  ‘

at the question, elisa felt herself go silent. 

she knows how detached she could be at times, but she would never talk about it or think about it. after a minute, she shook her head softly. “no, i do not.”

besides, admitting that you feel numb .. wouldn’t that be a great leeway into questions about involvement in the murders? isn’t that something that one should say ‘ i plead the fifth ‘ for? 

‘ do  you  feel  shame  or  guilt  about  the  event  or  about  problems  related  to  the  event ?  what  do  you  think  is  causing  this  same  or  guilt ?  ‘

“it’s not me. i think the school should.” she muttered, more to herself than a cry for protest. it was an opinion she knew was shared by a lot of other students. ‘ safest school in the country ‘ and this had happened. 

but systems fail. she knows that by now. sometimes things just go haywire and it’s very human thing. but a crowd can be loud and they would often want answers as much as anyone could want anything.

elisa remembers when an fbi mission resulted in quite a few deaths.. ella’s mom included. it was one of those moments in her life where she knew her mother could do any kind of wrong, having left years ago. but her father? who she knew just wanted her to get back into the right life path? who had to deal with countless phone calls from her teachers and angry parents of kids she’d messed with? 

what happens when the world wanted a man like that to pay for something he shouldn’t be responsible for?

she blinked, brushing away all the hate - fueled comments against him online and the first time she saw ella after all that and how, even though she herself knew ella was hurting, defended her father against the other. and now they don’t talk. she doesn’t have to wonder why.

‘ do  you  find  that  you  act  irritable  or  angry  ?  in  what  ways  ?  ‘

she shrugged, “not really. like i said, i can’t be easily agitated anywhere. it keeps me from doing my work as i should.”

‘ do  you  act  oppositional  ,  act  out  sexually  ,  or  abuse  alcohol  or  drugs ? ‘

elisa rolled her eyes, “no, i don’t.” now this was a ‘ i plead the fifth ‘ type of question. “i don’t think anyone would ever answer that honestly. virginia has very strict drug laws already.” 

‘ thank you, miss caspar. we’ll be in touch '

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elisa caspar scored a 16 on the ptsd quiz -- ptsd may be likely. elisa caspar scored a 46 on the grief quiz -- complicated grief may be likely.