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âbaby stop im trying to readâ
âwhat do you mean ma im just getting warmâ
toji was in fact not just getting warm. his big calloused palms were currently underneath your (his) shirt fondling your tits. it wasnât uncommon for toji to have his hands on your breasts as you read before bed. He used them like stress relievers. warm and soft and comforting to the touch. you had your kindle in one hand and the other placed on his head gently rubbing at his scalp as he nosed his way into the crevice of your neck.
âfuck baby you smell so good. you always smell so clean and vanillery.â
that made you smile.
âyeah i know i smell great.â
he laughed at that because yes you did always smell great. god he was so comfortable right now. nothing on the planet could top this for him. with your boobs in his palms toji could overcome anything. his touch became a bit heated and you knew this would soon be escalating. but you werenât going to be the one giving in, if he wanted you he was going to have to ask. carefully his fingers began to pinch at your nipples and he knew he had you right where he wanted you when you began to mewl at his touch.
âwhat are you reading about thatâs got you like this baby? are you cheating on me?â
âhowâs it cheating if iâm reading you buffoon? and you know exactly why.â
he couldnât help but smile at the easy banter that was so common between the two of you.
âwant me to do to you whatever youâre reading about?â
and just as toji began to hike up your shirt with the intention of putting his mouth to work you both heard a slight little patter of feet on the hard wood floor. you couldnât see anything due to the darkness in the room but you were pretty sure someone was here. toji lifted his head up with his hands still holding your chest under your shirt and craned his neck over the edge of the bed when he felt a little finger pat his shoulder.
âdaddy i did sickâ
âoh megs for fucks sake.â
authors note: i didnât expect to receive so much love on this lil drabble! thank you so much lovely people
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jeon jungkook fanfics that deserve to be turned into kdramas and selling books.
(a recommendation you badly need) â.á
Sauvage ౚৠby @tljunglebook
â grumpy x sunshine, cold and detached jungkook (who turns into a whipped puppy later on) work romance, slow burn.
(starting off strong! this bookâs got the most delicious slow burn to ever exist! screaming at how sexy, dirty minded, down bad & protective for oc jungkookâs in this fic ugh the wattpad girlies already know that theyâre my adopted parents)
10 Seconds ᄫᥠby @deepdarkdelights
â yandere jungkook, abduction, stalking, stockholm syndrome.
(this series is my first love, i would do anything to read this for the first time again!)
Penpal đŻđ by @laughing-with-god
â yandere prisoner jungkook, stalking, breaking in.
(gotta contact some directors and producers to turn this into a drama! it would slay so hard with its refreshing plot line! and tbh no words are enough to describe her writing abilities, sheâs a proâš)
RisquĂ© â§Ë° by @mercurygguk
â age gap, forbidden romance, smut, angst.
(the time stamps and drabbles are the essence of this fic, the smut is so well written! ALSO THE SEGSUAL TENSION AND OVERALL YEARNING MAâAM!? can someone already turn this into a mini netflix series please!?)
About Time ÖŽàŁȘđ€ by @yoonia
â time travel au, major angst, second chances, smut, fluff.
(if i had the chance to devour a book, iâd eat this one (obviously) itâs one of the best books of my life, i would die to see a live version of this)
I Want You To Stay ÊÉ âșË by @ahundredtimesover
â ceo jungkook, strangers to lovers, slow burn, angst, smut.
(no slow burn ever slow burned the way this story slow burned! lemme warn yaâll this fic will keep getting better as you read it!)
Bride Of Devil â° đČ àčàŁÂ àŁȘ Ë by @jasminefanfics
â dark romance, gangster au, enemies to lovers, forced proximity, age gap, kinda yandere husband jungkook.
(my youtube fanfic girlies assemble! this is the best mafia jungkook fic i can recommend for yaâll! the bgm is so addictive and perfect)
An Abundance Of Luck And A Sprinkle Of Fate đ by @borathae
â strangers to lovers, romance, found family, smut, angst, healing.
(I remember being unhealthily obsessed with this lord, aaol!kook & oc will forever be my babies TT this book tugs at your heart in a way thatâs inexplainable)
ps â have a good read girlies <3
follow for more.
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PARK JIMIN??? JEON JUNGKOOK???? HELLO?????????
#jimin#jungkook#park jimin#jeon jungkook#bts#btsedit#btsgif#gif#jikook#maknaelinegifs#bangtan*#userkelli#usersky#annietrack#userdimple#raplineuser#rjshope#tuserandi#underbetelgeuse#useremmeline#dailybts#usermaggie#are you sure?!#yeah.#this coloring is weird. i need to sleep now. bye
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meraki | jjk (m)
MERAKI (v., Greek). "to do something with soul, creativity, or love; to put something of yourself in your work." Summary: Jungkook finds you irritating; far too energetic and insistent. But his perception of you changes bit by bit, minute by minute, when he's persuaded into spending an entire night with you at places he doesn't know.
âł pairing: Jungkook x reader âł rating: 18+ âł genre: e2l, grumpy!jk (+ photographer!jk) x sunshine!reader; fluff, smut âł warnings: bickering, bantering, jk is a bit rude at the beginning, flirting, tension, oc is bold and courageous, mention of someone being stoned, mention of insomnia, jk's lip rings <3, heights, not exactly e2l but more like "i find you pretty annoying" to lovers lmao, deep talks and sweet moments, one bed trope, guest appearance, jk takes pictures of pretty things, stars and sky talk <3, explicit sexual content: kissing/making out, implied pain kink? lol, fingering, manhandling, oral (f. & m. receiving), teasing, 69, spitting, one or two spanks, bit of choking, soft and hard sex, unprotected sex (oc has an iud), soft dom!jk but also glimpses of sub!jk, ofc biiiig dick!jk, doggy/riding/missionary, praises, more flirting, jk's godly body, masturbation, cum swallowing (he comes in her mouth); the lovely ending <3 âł word count:Â 26.6k <3 âł a/n: you guys built this fic!! đ„ș hopefully this is what we expected it to be. it's also yet another love letter to one of the gentlest men i know; happy birthday, jeon jungkook, you're the standard and i will never fall out of love with you đ i hope y'all enjoy it!! come and talk to me when you're done mwah <3
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1:04AM, Her
Thereâs a word for how you do what you do.
A term you hold dearly in the crevices of your bright heart. Ever since you first learned its meaning two decades ago, youâve made it your primary goal to breathe through life with it as your philosophy.
Passion, it is. A word certainly common in conversation and daily life â youâre not the only person to live by it. Doesnât mean youâre not allowed to wallow in it.
Because thereâs a fire behind your hard-working chest, lit up, pride residing next to it. Itâs where you feel the most vivid light when you do what you love, blooming and blossoming. There are synonyms of it you know, and each of them are pretty as a growing garden.
You gatekeep them for now; havenât yet found a person to share your knowledge with. Which is okay; in the meantime, youâll keep looking. You do think everybody needs something like this in their lives.
Something that forces your body upright, sprinkling fairy dust and glimmer into your eyes. Something you can resort to in order to escape the trials of life.
For you, as odd it may seem to people, itâs your job.
You usually work late like today, surrounded by sounds and disquiet. But you enjoy it. You like stepping into the night afterwards, and you like the dark blanket above, the starlight sprinkled across the comforting blackness.
And you like it when it drizzles sometimes. The giggles of couples or groups of friends as they wade through the rain. The absolute quiet and relieving serenity.
You live for this. You enjoy people. You enjoy sensing life around you.
Tonight isnât different. Even when you find yourself hastening by the end, wrapping up the event with a dozen chores to tackle; even when the host rushes to you, asking for help. Your shoes click-clack across the floor as you move left and right, up and down.
But by God, you never doubt these daysâ worth.
1:04AM, Him
Sometimes, people donât want to be photographed.
Jungkook learned that early on when he agreed to be a photographer at events. Heâs encouraged and urged to ask people to pose; thatâs his job. Waiting for them to force a smile before they can resume eating, debone their fish or work on their lobsters, beef, veggies.
They long to return to whatever they were doing, or to their conversations, mostly insignificant ones; Jungkook knows because he, involuntarily, hears too many of them.Â
Itâs only when theyâre dancing or drinking that they open up. Thatâs when theyâre okay with listening to him, obedient, almost as if heâs authority, staring into the lens with flushed cheeks and wide grins.
Though itâs irritating when every other person walks up to him afterwards, inquiring when theyâd be receiving the photos, or, even ruder, if at all.
Today, there are a few more comfortable people around. Not as harsh, not as grim as he feels. Youâre here, too, somewhere; of course you are â you got him here in the first place. Somehow, your paths often cross. You were ready for a picture immediately, drawn in by the host, smiling.
He perceived your presence just for a second, though. Doesnât need or want any more than that. Youâre too loud, too energetic anyway; heâs rather among himself, not in any photo, indulging in the job.
He loves clicking through his camera roll; itâs the people that tire him out. Working his way through the pictures he took once home gives him joy, though. Makes his fatigue feel worth it.
But God, youâre not the only one, right? So many people here are the same amount of enthusiastic, party people to the core.Â
Which is why heâs happy when the night finally concludes, and he, far after midnight, stuffs his equipment back into his bag and slips into his at least somewhat chic blazer.
1:12AM, Her
You groan as your hand dives into your bag, fishing out the key that you already removed from your keychain an hour ago. Back when the man facing you approached you; heâs the last face you see when you step out of the somewhat stuffy hall.
Or so you think.
You donât know that the night is far from over when you linger at the entrance, handing him a key that he encloses in his grip with a grateful nod and a goodbye-wave. The final interaction when you excuse yourself, breathing in the night.
Itâs a hunch cooler than when you left home today; yet, the breeze feels pleasant caressing your skin. The end of August is still warm, still fairly far from fall; you regard summer nights as the best part of the season.
Sighing, you come to a halt in the middle of the pavement, studying the alley. You ponder until you remember a bus not too far from here; you need to turn left, right? Should be there. You have never been around here before, so youâre not entirely sure.
But youâll just go with your first instinct for now. Keep walking until you detect any kind of a promising sign. You hold onto your roomy bag as you pass the rare people still around.
Some of them are faces you recognise from the party; some are strangers. One couple you spoke to just earlier even lifts a thumbs up for you, praising you for the exceptional organisation. They make you feel at ease until the road quietens.
And the place stays serene and silent until you hear the clearing of somebodyâs throat. Itâs not near; yet not far. Your eyes scan the area, not for long when they recognise a figure sitting on the opposite side of the narrow street.
Itâs a man, clutching a heavy object with careful hands. A camera, you know it immediately. Heâs hunting through the pictures he took, face slightly lit by the screen. Jutting lower lip, slowly blinking eyes.
Simple attire â dark jeans, a white shirt, and a blazer on top that hides the wide shoulders.
Constantly and undeniably handsome, albeit always grim due to the lack of a smile.
You squint to confirm itâs him youâre seeing; but when he smacks his lips in the dark of the night, nibbling at the shiny lip rings, you know youâre right. This is a habit youâve never seen on anybody this persistently as on Jeon Jungkook.
And the one and only Jeon Jungkook must be feeling your eyes on him, because only a second later, he lifts his gaze. Instinctively, you wave a little, but Jungkook isnât on board with your hospitality. He rolls his eyes; you donât take it to heart, though. Youâre used to this.
As he starts stuffing the camera back into his bag, you waddle over, crossing the street. Upon reaching him, you ask, âGot some good pictures tonight?â
âIâd guess so.â
His voice is as nonchalant as always, his shoulders relaxed, uncaring. To your vampire-novel-reading middle school self, he wouldâve been the coolest and most mysterious riddle, waiting to be cracked. But you know how he feels about you, and that makes the situation just a little less intriguing.
Yet, you never stopped approaching him, because aside from conversations like these, you know heâs just human, too. He smiles at events whenever he gets the chance, content with the moments he captures; he likes what he does.
Photography has always been his thing; or thatâs what you gathered, at least. You see the same sparkle in his eyes that you feel in yours when you work; the same joy when he fumbles with his camera, always checking, presumably changing the settings, testing it out.
You lean in a little, wondering, âCan I see?â
âUhmâŠâ He hesitates, lifting the strap of the camera bag higher up his shoulder. âDo you have to?â
âIf I may. I brought you here, remember?â
Of course. Itâs always you; youâre the one to organise this, and youâve seen his pieces and albums before. He might not hang around you too much, always the first to tell you he has somewhere else to be, but you know heâs good. You trust him in this regard.
âYou say that every time,â he argues, a tattooed hand settling on his bag, clearly reluctant.
So you click your tongue, waving your suggestion off. You try to sound as lively as ever, but your voice is more earnest as you say, âOkay, itâs fine. Donât show me the pictures, but come on. Be a bit nice at least.
âAlright. What else? Do you need something?â
You sigh in defeat. âNo. I was just going home.â
âYou should go home. Itâs pretty late.â
ïżœïżœArenât you going, too?â
âI am,â he responds, his voice going up at the end. âI just wanted a bit of peace before leaving.â
âPeace,â you repeat, as if trying out the word. âYou canât get it at home?â
Jungkook doesnât answer this time. Instead, he only shifts his stare from you to the empty road ahead, exhaling a dramatically long breath before he gets into motion. You immediately react, by his side until he asks, âAre you following me?â
âHuh? Did you forget that I was literally heading this way?â Heâs distracted, looking for the street signs, and you laugh at his own confusion. âDo you even know where youâre going?â
âI guess so.â
Okay, at least heâs honest, not giving himself airs. You want to see what his inner compass suggests, but then somewhat shun the thought of walking further into unknown terrain.
So you question, âYou taking the bus?â
âNope. Subway.â
âAh. That should be this way, then,â you nod towards the direction youâre approaching, âI know the bus is, because thatâs where I need to go.â
ââŠAre you sure?â
âYep.â
Thatâs it. He doesnât respond much; only lets out the millionth sigh, following you with something you might nearly call trust. He doesnât attempt small talk or any other kind of interaction, so you let him sink into his thoughts.
But a beat of silence later, you still ask politely, âHow did you like the party?â
âUhhh, it was okay.â For the first time in minutes, he looks at you. âThe people were weird, donât you think? But I got some good shots in.â
âHmm⊠okay. I didnât notice anything weird about the people.â You shrug your shoulders. âTalking about shots⊠did you drink a little?â
He whines your name as the question is a tale as old as time, complaining, âEvery single time? Why is this so important to youâŠâ He waits, shakes his head. âNo, I didnât. Seems you did, though.â
âA little,â you say, bringing your forefinger and thumb together, indicating a tiny space. âBut Iâm all sober and well.â Another brief pause. âAre you okay, too?â
He licks his lower lip, dimples appearing that donât ever need a smile to emerge. Then, he throws back, âWhy shouldnât I be?â
âDunno. You always look so bored at parties. And you always go home alone.â
You donât know if the following laugh is sarcastic or not, but you soon discover the very answer when he lifts a finger and counts, âFirst off, how would you know?â Another finger added to the mix. âSecondly, Iâm not bored. Iâm just focused. And I donât know anybody there.â
His hand drops again, working on his bagâs strap again. Pushing it over his shoulder. He adds, âItâs a bit different for me than for you because theyâre literally your clients and you know them at least a little.â
âI mean⊠you know me.â
âYeah, but youâreâŠâ He regards you from head to toe, not the softest of expressions, and you pout. You donât ever take him seriously, but he can be hurtful sometimes. âI just donât think weâd be good conversation partners.â
âWeird,â you challenge, âbecause youâre conversing with me right now, no problem. Itâs also not my fault you always argue with me at every event.â
âI donât. You approach me.â
âYou do.â You lean your face closer to his, not making it very far when his palm pushes your cheek, and you, away from him. âUgh. Okay. Seriously, though â why do you always leave alone?â
He exhales in defeat. Seems that Jeon Jungkook is too tired to take your idiocy tonight. You understand, but youâre just trying to figure out how to convince him that youâre normal, too. That he just dislikes you because youâre different from him, and nothing else.
âHeyâŠâ he utters, out of energy.
âI mean it,â you still declare, âthere are so many sweet and nice girls around. They ask about you sometimes, you know? Iâve also met many men on such paââ
âThatâs great,â he interrupts, a palm stopping you from spilling more info, âbut⊠I donât think Iâm interested.â
âOh.â The syllable is short, cut, harmless. That is, until it clicks in your brain, and your eyes widen, lips parting as you turn to him in shock, stating, âOh, wait. Do you⊠play for the other team?â
Jungkook blinks at you. Then lowers his gaze, turning it a couple shades darker, staring at you from under his eyelids. He looks annoyed when he spits, âNo, Iâm not gay. And even if I was, itâd be none of your business.â
Shit.
Okay, you were sure about your assumption, but now that it turned out wrong, this sounds pretty shitty. And annoying. And awkward.
âSorry,â you apologise, and he gives you a taunting head tilt. âOkay⊠different topic then? Tell me, what do you think of this dress?â You lift the hem a little, smiling; you were convinced the moment you first saw it. âDo you think I look pretty today?â
For a second, he joins; his initial gaze is still cynical, but his voice is appealing, a whisper when he leans in and asks, âWhy? Do you want to be the one I go home with?â
Ah⊠why do the words, the way he speaks them, tickle you just right? Youâre flabbergasted, seeing your reaction on the bare skin of your arms, but all he does is back away again and once again, shake his head.
You want to retort something snarky back, but you donât get to it when he inquires a moment later again, âAre you sure weâre going the right way?â
Right⊠you need to go home. You forgot.
âUh⊠yeah.â You look around, finally detecting a sign, picturing a bus and a number. âThereâs the bus, so the subway should beâŠâ You stop; hum; then see two women waiting at the bus stop. âShould we ask someone?â
âSure.â
With a nod, you separate from him, walking towards the bus station bench theyâre sitting on, hands folded, conversing quietly. Theyâre surprised when they see a figure advance, but relax when they catch your smile.
You ask the questions floating in your brain, trying to explain where you live, what you need. They attempt an answer, gesture around, and barely a minute later, youâre thanking them and leaving again.
Jungkook stands there in anticipation, waiting for you to deliver good news â yet confused when you return with slumped shoulders instead of an enthusiastic, âWe were right! Come!â
Okay, there arenât too many reasons for Jungkook to dislike you; you want to say this much. But when you see him understand that this is going nowhere, you do get his frustration.
Especially as you kiss your lips, staring at him like a lost bunny, and explain, âSo⊠the subway isnât here.â Big eyes meet yours. âIâm not sure where it is, and they,â your thumb points to the girls behind you, âcouldnât help because theyâre tourists.â
âAh. Great,â he says, delivering a falsely cheerful smile. Hands thrown into the air. âSo weâre stranded and should definitely not be here. What about the bus? Where does it go?â
âUhmâŠâ You scratch your head. âNot where I need to go. Itâs a different one. But!â Immediately, your voice rises, trying to approach this with hope. Itâs not the end of the world, after all! âDonât worry! Weâll get home either way.â
âJust a lot later than necessary.â
âBut nothingâs lost yet. Donât you trust me?â
And â much as you thought â Jungkook only ogles back in silence, blinking once again before he walks away with a curse on his lips.
1:25AM, Her
You catch up to him fast.
âItâs not that big of a deal, I promise!â you vow, but you reckon it only makes matters worse.
Because he breathes air through his nose, like a bull, arguing, âIâm tired, though. This is wasting so much of my time. You always do.â
You stop in your tracks. He doesnât. You sulk, âThat was mean.â
âAnd youâre idiotic.â
âWell⊠shit.â
This time you tilt your head, grinding your teeth; less out of anger, more out of embarrassment. You donât respond much else, and he doesnât throw another insult. Instead, he opens the bag again with the velcroâs ripping sound, heaving out his SLR.Â
You peek over his shoulder, confused about the timing to indulge in a passion, and ask, âWhat are you doing with that?â
âLooking through them,â he mutters, thumb working on the switching button, âmaybe I took a picture when I came here. A sign where to find the subway.â
His reasoning elicits a sudden laugh out of you, probably unfounded to him, but very amusing to you. He throws a bewildered and somewhat warning look, and you immediately silence; still holding yourself back when he turns away again.
You wait, listen to the quiet of the night. He doesnât seem to find any success, and the more time passes, the funnier you find his mind. Eventually, you step next to him and give up, telling him, âHey.â Don't be so tetchy. I'm not that bad.â
Jungkook side-eyes you, tapping the screen of the heavy Sony A9 Alpha. Inhaling the pleasant late summer air, he defends, âI'm never tetchy! But you got us lost.â
âSo? Youâre being dramatic. There's still Google Maps.â
Thatâs it. This look of his.
Jungkook mustâve gotten stuck in a decade youâve long left, because he stares at you dumbfounded, camera still firmly in his hands. He tongues his cheek, blinks.
And then, you mock, âGuess Iâm not the only idiot here, right?â
His next breath is deep, and he soon averts your eyes again. You dig, âWhat? If anything, then low battery might be your only excuse, you know?â
He doesnât look at you, and you break into a grin again. Shake your head. Then fish out your phone at last, ready to type in the goal, or at least, to search the nearest subway and bus that fit your demands.
Hmmm, okay. If you need to go where you think you need to go, then the subway will really be in immediate distance to the bus. So youâll be heading in the same direction anyway.
You open your mouth to ask for his address, prepared to type it in â but as you look at him again, you detect a deeply focused Jungkook, pursing his lips at his camera and regarding it with glitter in his eyes. You see it even from here, the sparkle.
Maybe heâs waiting for you to deliver a conclusion, because you catch him moving through older pictures in the meantime. From here, you only see glimpses. Of forests and roads, and then of waterfalls. Even some of him and his friends.
He doesnât notice it, but his eyebrows are much more relaxed now, expression not quite as steely anymore; and his lips even twitch for a tiny second, tempted to smile. As if he forgot where heâs currently standing.
You let your arms sink, both hands holding your phone, and just gaze for a while. Then move your eyes to the side. To the sky. Remember places youâve seen and loved in this town. Still hear his harsh tone echoing in your ears.
In hindsight, you really donât think you've ever personally hurt or offended him. He mightâve been annoyed by something else. Perhaps he was dealing with something that he never dared to speak about; or perhaps, his perception of optimism is warped, because he clearly doesnât wade through life with it.
Youâd like to see his real self, though. The real self, because your gut feeling whispers to you that this isnât him. Maybe thereâs a kind and kindred soul hidden somewhere; maybe his smile proves far more intriguing to you than these mysterious moods of his. Once it appears, that is.
ButâŠ
Heâll probably say no. Your idea isnât dumb, youâre certain, but he very likely will not go with it. But you want to try. Want to show him that youâre not as bad, that he can trust you; want to know what burdens him; or why he talks to you like this.
You might be the only one to wish for more time with somebody who wants to avoid you like the plague.
YetâŠ
You donât want this to end just yet.Â
So you drop a suggestion that surprise even youâ
ââŠYou know what? Letâs try something fun tonight.â
âExcuse me?â
He voices it with his attention only half on you, not quite taking you seriously; so you swallow to dampen your throat and speak firmer, suggesting, âYou need to trust me on this, though.â
This time, he does look at you. Works on stuffing his camera back into his bag, opening his mouth to retort something, but you stop him with a shushing finger that he doesnât look too happy about.
âHold on, okay?â you exclaim. âListen. Are you busy tomorrow?â
âUh⊠not until the afternoon.â
âSo you can sleep in.â
âI guess.â
You clap once, loudly and dramatically, watching the man in front of you flinch. You canât say if heâs irritated, shocked or terrified of you. But he looks hilarious like this, blinking, scowling as his fingers clutch his bag tighter.
âWhat is it?â he asks as if youâve lost your mind.
âLook. Letâs not leave yet. Fuck Google Maps,â you suggest, and his eyes grow wider by the second, baffled, as if youâre caging him. âLet me show you pretty places until the sun comes up, and if you still hate me by then, I will never talk to you again. Isnât this tempting?â
In your head, it is. Not for yourself, but for him. In your mind, he thinks of you as a constant nuisance that stands in his way, hopping around like an overhyped puppy.
Or not. Maybe he has a dog at home; maybe he regards you as worse than cute puppies.
Whatever.
You look at him expectantly, like your persisting stare could help him land a decision. Instead, however, he grimaces, his voice higher when he asks, âWhat even are you saââ
No, you wonât give up yet; even if the recurring interruptions make him tear his hair out. You click your tongue and then argue, âCome on! Give it a try.â
Hesitation. Or rather, a question wondering if youâre crazy. Clear rejection. Are you losing?
âWeâd be together, so nothing to fear,â you try further, âand how much time is there till sunrise?â You glance at your watch. âItâs barely half past one. The sun comes up in less than five hours. And like, I know it sounds like a lot, but if you give me some time, Iâll give you reasons to smile.â
He keeps looking at you in this questioning, are-you-fully-mad-manner, but youâre absolutely serious and you need him to know. You bat your eyelashes a little, offering your best laugh, and add, âLike this? If you really want to hate me after that, then okay. If not, then⊠maybe we could go get coffee someday.â
Youâve spoken enough. He raises a hand, quieting you down, and then finally says it.
âYou must be crazy.â
âI am,â you confirm.
âYou think Iâd do this, huh?â
ââŠMaaaybe?â
âNo.â
Jungkookâs answer is stone cold and direct, and it shuts you up with a near-wince. Thereâs a faint line between his thick eyebrows, lips pressed together; he looks dangerous and very, very mean.
So you donât say much for another minute, following when he walks away. You side-eye him, notice him type his destination into his phone. Surrendering, you trudge the path he chooses, soon detecting signs leading to the subway.
He canât say anything to your presence by his side. Even if his answer remains a steadfast, boring no, youâll have to go in this direction anyway.
More than halfway through, you venture into a conversation again, âHave you ever tried anything like this before?â
âWhat? The nonsense you suggested?â he asks, and you nod, catching up with his long legs, slightly slower with your heels. âNo. I donât think I need to.â
âYouâre so⊠donât you ever try anything new?â
âI mean, is this your definition of something new?â He gestures at your surroundings haphazardly. âGoing through town in the middle of the night instead of getting some decent sleep?â
You shrug your shoulders, defending, âItâs not like I do it every day. And nothing one can do every day anyway. That's why I want you to try it.â Your voice is soft, friendly. âBut you donât have to.â
He doesnât answer; only comes to a halt when a bus stop nears, peeking up to the sign with the number before he asks, âThat yours?â You hum in confirmation. âOkay. Will you get home well? Itâs late.â
âYeah, of course,â you pout, kicking off a tiny stone with your shoe, âdone it a few times.â
He stalls. You donât know why, but youâre sure he does. You notice it in his slow movements, the brief pause, the way he looks to the subway he needs to approach and then back to you. You smile when his eyes linger on you for a moment too long, and then he tilts his head, sighs.
âAlright. Then⊠good night.â
And thatâs it.
You tell him to sleep well in return, earning a tiny nod, and then heâs leaving you stranded, walking away. Your eyes stay on him until heâs out of sight, down the escalator to the subway and far, far away from the fun idea you conjured.
You mimic his sigh. Take the two or three steps to the bench under the bus stop; and then you wait.
At this time, public transport operates irregularly, so youâre not surprised when youâre still there minutes later. For a while, you remain alone â that is, until a stranger tumbles to you, swaying before he takes a seat on the other edge of the bench.
You donât look at him; donât want his attention on you. But to your discomfort, he garbles just a second later, âThis the bus toâŠâ
He gets a hiccup, pointing to the bus sign, and then mumbles the name of the station he needs to reach. You donât understand, however, so you prod, âWhat?â
Slower now yet similarly slurred, he repeats his question, but this time, you understand and nod your head yes. He overshares, âItâs just that Iâm drunk, so I need to be sure. Sorry for interrupting.â
Suddenly, you feel kind of sorry for him. Your shoulders relax; you observe him letting his arms dangle between his legs, sniffling, incredibly exhausted, it seems. What did the fella experience tonight?
You respond, âItâs okay. Itâs really late. Get home well.â
âThanks. Youâre very nice.â
The same finger previously signalling to the sign now points at you; but he doesnât touch you. In fact, his digits are still a good distance away, already falling when you feel a hand on your elbow out of the blue; you nearly react on intuition, getting into position to break somebodyâs nose.
But when your eyes meet the other manâs, you recognise him as the same figure standing tall that abandoned you a couple minutes ago. His hand is still grasping the camera bag strap, and he looks calm, confident when he speaksâ
âAll good? Sorry, I left for too long, right? Letâs go.â
Your voice changes, a chuckle hidden in it when you blurt, âWhat?â
âYou wanted to take a walk.â
And just like that, the snicker dies again. Is he being serious? It seems so; itâs the whole package, even. The nod towards an entirely different direction and the sudden fingers around your wrist, pulling you away.
âUhmâŠâ you start, feet moving automatically. You turn to the guy drowning in inebriation, leaving a last, âGood luck!â as you wave, smile. Then, to Jungkook, âI thought you went away. Did you want to do this after all?â
Youâre cocking an eyebrow, but much at the back of Jungkookâs head, so he doesnât see. But it seems he hears the tease in your voice, because half-annoyed, half-argumentative, he explains, âNo. Just wanted to be a gentleman. I was going to leave the moment you got on the bus.â
Ah. So he was waiting, hiding somewhere? But you donât mention it; itâd probably just rile him up more.
Yet, you challenge, âYouâre lying. You were concerned and you thought my idea was fun after all.â
âWhatever you say,â he says, waving the white flag, probably just to shut you up, âdonât know if I can do this until sunrise, but I can walk with you for a bit. Get you closer to home. And I swear!â
Now he turns, shooting a stare at you over his shoulders, lightning bolts in the middle of his pupils, âIf youâre lying and thereâs literally nothing special on our way, Iâm actually never talking to you again.â
Nothing easier than that.
âDeal!â
âCool,â he so nonchalantly remarks, finally letting go of your arm, âwhich way are you heading then?â
âNorth-east.â
âGood. Works for me.â
The sun is nowhere near up yet; of course not. Itâs 1:37AM. Around four and a half hours.
Youâre hopeful. In your head, you imagine an uplifted demeanour in no time; try to guess what his smile might look like. A genuine one. Maybe sweet? Maybe cocky? Youâll find out. You will.
So you straighten your stance, clear your throat, sigh a content breath, and step into the night with the courage the stars lend you.
2:13AM, Her
The first almost forty minutes of your night pass leisurely.
Jungkookâs initial sighs cease soon as you advance into the town, walking down a busy main street. You guess the bustling area, the sounds of the traffic and the lights of the flashing cars relieve him somehow. Give him an excuse to not talk to you.
But as the occupied road ends and you reach and pass a crowded square, youâre back in calm and serene alleys. Some people are still wandering around, passing closed shops, much like you.
You attempt conversation every now and then, and Jungkook, having eventually realised that he needs to cooperate with you â he agreed to your idea after all â isnât as mad anymore.
At some point, he breathes in the late summer breeze, and your head swerves into his direction immediately â maybe the magic of the night has finally reached his core, too. Perhaps heâs appreciating the journey you set out to embark on.
You, for one, cherish the quiet; you know at least this much. The alley must be part of the older corner of the town because the lampposts seem Victorian. Theyâre fancy, bent at the top, the light a comforting golden.
You do admire the beauty in the dead of night, you do â but the weirdly bruising feeling on your skin becomes uncomfortably apparent the more you walk. Your heels and the Achilles tendons ache, the ball of your feet sensitive to each step.
For a while, you hide the stupid pain successfully, not wanting the night to end; and you do love the heels. Feel just the way those old romcomâs protagonists probably felt, strutting through town with a man whose life theyâd change.
But as an involuntary groan slips out of you, Jungkookâs view changes from the old buildings to your struggling self. His eyes settle on your contorted expression before they move further down to your sudden limp.
He asks, âYou good?â
âYeah, yeah! Just been walking for a while, is all.â
âHmm,â he hums, regarding your heels with a suspicious look. âDo they hurt?â
âNah. Iâm used to them.â
ââŠOookay.â
He drags the word, as if in disbelief; and you canât lie your way through the minutes when the ache worsens, the suddenly paved path too much of a chore. You nearly trip when your heel gets caught between the stones.
Jungkook immediately reacts when you hiss; youâre nowhere near actually falling, but his arms still reflexively jolt, the camera bag swaying and hitting your hand when he catches your shoulders.
âOkay, seriously,â he spits, eyes wide, âthatâs enough. You canât walk in these.â
âI can!â
âNot!â He takes a look around, inspecting the place; itâs quiet here, not too many cars driving by at all. So he points to the edge of the pedestrian zone, instructing, âSit down there. Letâs see.â
See what?
You blink, but oblige. His pointing finger is dominant, and his eyes urging; you flatten your dress, taking a seat at the edge. The road isnât high, so itâs a little uncomfortable; but youâre pleasantly surprised when he appears in front of you, crouching.
Very, very baffled when he requests, âCan you take them off?â
âSure,â you say, unbuckling the straps around your ankles before removing the shoes. You sigh; you must admit, it does feel great. âIâm honestly okay, though.â
Jungkook doesnât respond, ignores your statement; instead, asks, âMay I?â
You donât understand what he means until his hands come to a float right over your toes; he wants to check for bruises, doesnât he? You nod curtly; something about this warms your chest. You donât think youâve ever seen this side of him before.
Not that you ever had the chance to.
He doesnât really hate you, does he?
Carefully, his fingers reach for your ankle. The touch is warm and pleasant; doesnât hurt until he moves his thumbs to your heel. Your feet are overworked; you notice. But rather than the annoying pain, you canât help but focus on your view.
The big, round nose, hiding the plump, parted lips. His eyes look hooded from here, strands of his hair covering them. Intrusive thoughts plead for your fingers to card through the dark mane; it looks soft, pretty.
And the gentleness he handles your skin with fills you with fondness; you like being cared for.
Even when he shakes his head; pulling you out of your daydream. You take a breath, and then inquire, âYou donât have a problem with touching feet?â
He shrugs his shoulders. âItâs just feet. Besides,â he stops for a second, detecting something at the back of your foot, shaking his head, âMom used to work as a nurse. Tough job. I massaged hers sometimes.â
Ah⊠a loving son, a family person. You smile.
âAnd I thought you have a foot kink,â you tease.
âShut up.â
âFound anything?â
âYeah actually. Do you know how wounded your skin is here? Were you wearing new shoes?â
You gulp with a thin-lipped smile, wondering if heâll kill you now if you tell him. You look to some random spot on your right before you admit, âYes.â
âGod, youâŠâ He clicks his tongue. Puts your foot on the ground cautiously, reaching for his bag. He rummages through it until he pulls out a bandage, holding it in front of you. âYouâre lucky.â
You chuckle, relieved and flattered. âI guess I am.â
He puffs out a laugh, but stops it right away, calling your name under his breath before he says, âGod, youâre crazy. Be careful. And admit it when youâre hurt. Why didnât you?â
Well⊠you didnât want the night to endâ
âIâŠâ
You hesitate.
He works on your other foot just the same, a tender thumb running over your ankle, probably used to the soothing touch. It distracts you. And when he stops and you donât answer, he puts his arm on his angled leg, staring up at you in anticipation.
âYes?â he prods.
âI didnât say anything because I didnât think youâd care.â Nonchalantly yet pouting, you nibble at your lower lip. âAnd if Iâd told you theyâre hurting, you mightâve suggested ending the night.â
He cocks an eyebrow as if agreeing to the most self-explanatory statement ever, nodding as he confirms, âDamn right I wouldâve. We should end the night right now if you canât walk. Not in these, at least.â
Your chest is hot, your stomach twisting a little. Jungkook really does bother; if not due to a connection he shares with you, then simply because he cares for people. Never, you have never experienced him like this before.
With a tilt of your head and a batting of your eyelashes, you suggest, âAnd if I was barefoot?â
Which he reacts to with a roll of his eyes. âThe night isnât that warm. Donât do this to yourself. The groundâs dirty, too.â
You take a look at the dark grey pavement upon his argument, much as if the night could allow you to detect any of the dirt he speaks of. Once more, you hum, pretending to contemplate what to do; and when you pick up your heels, suggesting to follow your idea either way, the back of his hand gives your knee the lightest of hits.
âWhat are you doing?â he asks.
âWatch.â
He does. Watches you place your spacious, black bag on your lap, opening the zip. Observes as your hand dips in, pulling out one pair of sneakers and replacing them with your treacherous heels. He keeps ogling when you put them on, mouth widening bit by bit.
He doesnât speak until youâre done, socks picked out of the shoes, pulled over your feet, laces tied. You keep smiling, content with the moment, only dropping the grin when you see his puzzled expression.
âWhat?â you question.
âYou had them with you and⊠Why didnât you say so sooner?â
Your answer comes without hesitation; whatever timidity he elicited a moment ago slowly fades again. You clear your throat, back to who you are, and dauntlessly admit, âIt was sweet. How you took care of me, I mean. I didnât think you ever would.â
âBut you couldâve at least worn them sooner and avoided the hurt?!â
âWell, it didnât hurt thenâŠâ
âYouâreâŠâ
Jungkook uprights himself, towering above you. You put a flat palm onto the pavement, wanting to heave yourself up, but soon see a hand in front of your face. Heâs offering it; and youâre quick to take it.
Warm and soft; gentle.
As he pulls you up, you land closer to his body than calculated; his face isnât too far from yours⊠much nearer than it has ever been. He leans back; looks to the side; blinks. Clears his throat. Lets go off your hand way too late.
The breath you held escapes in a sudden blow. You swallow.
And when youâve processed the strange moment, you feel the change in your stance. Youâre standing taller now; your feet feel heavenly in your Nikes. Dusting off the front of your dress and your ass, you wait for him to say something.
But he keeps standing there on the road, in the middle of a parking space, hands on his hips. Heâs judging you; you understand. Your mindset isnât for everybody. You might seem crazy, alright.
Yet, he doesnât scold you again. The up and down of his irked voice doesnât appear this time when he speaks again; instead, his chin nods towards your legs, and he questions, âSo you just carry around shoes with you?â
âI need to,â you say, matter-of-factly, âI canât ride the motorcycle in heels. And!â Jungkookâs mouth opens, but youâre quick to explain. âBefore you ask. No, I didnât hide my bike anywhere. It needs some fixing, so my co-worker took it because he knows someone whoâll do it. And because he owes me a favour.â
âRight⊠how unfortunate.â He pauses; runs his tatted digits through the hair you longed to touch minutes ago. They look so silky, it makes you sick. His eyes settle on you, intrigued before he adds, âSo, you have a bike, huh?â
âYeah⊠why?â
âNo reason. I do, too.â
âMmmh,â you voice, nodding to the road ahead to suggest moving. He follows, trudging next to you again. âYou didnât use it today?â
âNoâŠâ He pats the camera bag. âDidnât want to harm my equipment.â
You hum approvingly, fingers entangling in front of your body. You inch closer to his arm, nudging his shoulder with yours before you flash a sugary smile and say, âThank you. For caring even a little, you know? Even if youâre always like that, itâs nice to see you like this for once.â
âIâm usually like this,â is what he, however, merely answers, accompanied by air quotes.
But you know youâve gotten through to him at least a little. Melted bits of the frozen parts of his heart that feel so vexed by you on other nights. In truth, you think, thereâs nothing but a delicate organ pumping behind his ribcage.
Heâs not a robot; Jeon Jungkook is undeniably humane. If anything, then more than most people you have ever met.
And it shows when he looks away, barely able to hide his smile. You see it even from here â that the gesture does something to his eyes. Nearly squints them shut, makes them smaller, more joyful.
You inhale, proud of yourself. Watch as he toys with his lip rings before he asks eventually, âWhat do you mean owing you a favour, by the way?â
He sounds almost offended. You think heâll ask about that favour, reprimand you for giving away your bike tonight of all nights. Tell you off for dragging him here, doing something big enough to entrust an entire motorcycle to somebody.
But instead, he continues with a question you never foresaw, âAre you in a quarrel with them? Am I not your arch-enemy?â
You burst into laughter immediately, covering your mouth as the other palm touches his arm. Thereâs a bulging bicep under his blazer, but youâll focus on that later.
Right now, youâre fairly occupied by the satisfied eyes; he doesnât really expect an answer. He wanted to make you laugh⊠Why does that set something loose in your brain?
âOh⊠are you jealous? What if I told you itâs somebody else who occupies my mind at night and not you?â you wonder, wiggling your eyebrows.
âDonât do this to me. Iâll find your co-worker and fight them for your enemyship. Word of honour.â
âItâs enmity. And stop flirting with me,â you tell him, moving towards him again, shoulder hitting shoulder. âOr is it something else with arch-enemies?â
This time, he doesnât veil his grin. Itâs bright, pretty, reminiscent of the light shed on you underneath the lampposts. And his pupils; whenever you see them clearly enough, you recognise the sky in them. Borrowed stars inside.
You shake your head a second later, winding down from your fit of laughter, and tell him, âYouâre not my arch-enemy. Arch-enemies donât exist, and you know you arenât one. You justâŠâ You stall, your voice quieter now. âYou just regard me as one.â
He throws you an indecipherable look. Hints of joking, shreds of seriousness, you think. His gaze drifts back to the path again, regarding a passing group of three friends briefly. His hands slide into the pockets of his jacket, and he sniffles once before he uttersâ
âNo, I don't.â
Ah. Ah.
Why do your eyebrows relax the way they do? And your shoulders; already in ease, yet they seem to fall in relief. You peer at him wordlessly; he doesnât demand an answer, fully aware youâre looking at him.
And you donât ask what youâve been to him ever since he saw you at the first party probably a year ago; what irked him, what delighted him. If he thought about you at all.
Instead, you look at the neon words in the next street, asking, âAre you hungry?â
2:19AM, Him
Youâre irritating to the core.
You always have been. But heâd be lying if he didnât admit you amused him a little. No matter how much youâve been wasting his time, you allowed a smile in this ill-lit night. Nobody else at the party did â so in some sense, youâve already won, and somehow, heâs even grateful.
Grateful that youâre optimistic about the world at least. Glad that you suggested fetching food. Endeared by the way you thanked him for his care. Surprised that you ride a motorcycle! Relieved that you have good humour.
Even though his own humour and smile dissipate after you enter one of the few open stores still providing late night snacks. The girl behind the counter looks tired, but straightens a little when the two of you flash a polite smile.
She greets with a sweet, âHi!â but Jungkook sees the lethargy in her drooping eyes immediately. Poor girl.
But youâre as enthusiastic as ever; maybe a little more now, maybe observing the same as him. You put your hands on the counter like a child â the image is somewhat cute. But what comes out of your mouth is not.
âUhm⊠Could I have a portion of cheese tteokbokki, please? And then⊠A half and half corndog for my husband.â
Your⊠what now?
Excuse me?
Jungkook throws an immediate and scorching look your way, utterly surprised. When you meet his eyes, his thick eyebrows are closer than anybodyâs ever seen. He huffs your suggestion away, and then corrects, âIâm not her husband. And Iâll take the chicken wrap.â
You chuckle, leaning into him, shielding your mouth with a hand as you warn, âTheyâre not usually very good at this store. Trust me.â
âI know what Iâm doing.â
Right. He does. After the disaster of finding the damn bus and the deception caused by your shoes, he wonât trust you very easily anymore. His opinion clearly differs from yours, so heâll bank on his gut feeling.
Satisfied when you shrug, as if to indicate, âIf you say so,â he walks over to the window seats with you in tow, looking out to the peaceful streets. Once seated, he turns towards you, peering until you notice and ask far too purely, âWhat?â
âNot even your boyfriend, no⊠Jumped straight to making me your husband, huh?â
The lift of your shoulders brushes his concerns aside; your eyes are incredibly innocent and even somehow playful when you say, âI thought itâd be fun.â
âWas it really?â
âWell, your reaction was funny, at least.â
Jungkook rolls his eyes in disbelief. Youâre courageous, he must admit. Social anxiety must fear you â is that how you live life? Unabashed, spirited, not a sheer care for anything that wonât actually hurt you.
He doesnât know if youâre insane or if heâs jealous.
But he still reiterates, âYouâre crazy. And it was embarrassing.â
âI mean,â you say, moving on your chair, folding your fingers on top of the counter but still looking at him, âit was embarrassing because you made it. Itâs honestly whatever.â You blow a raspberry, and then take a swing again, âWhy is it awkward anyway? Weâll never be here together again.â
He whispers a hushed, âThankfully,â and you tap the counter with a click of your tongue. He gets it; you live differently. Thatâs fine. As long as you donât pull him into your mischief, itâs fine.
Right?
Heâs right, isnât he? He knows that in his personal opinion he is; yet, he canât help but feel that sting, suddenly deeming himself as boring. Youâre never bored, are you?
AnywayâŠ
âEven if you do something like this again,â he tells you, âat least tell me.â
âI mean, that would kinda prevent your genuine reactions from happening, but⊠if it makes you happy.â You grin at him, and he scoffs; wants to say something before the girl calls for you. âFood is ready.â
A couple seconds later, the two of you have settled back into place; at the sight of the snack, Jungkook salivates. He didnât realise how hungry he actually was. The buzz and fuzz of a party makes one forget such an essential thing fast.
Or maybe, he was just immersed in his work.
The chicken smells good, at least. Or are these your tteokbokki? He canât quite discern the scent right now; his mind is fogged by his appetite. Silently, he unwraps his food, swallowing before he digs into the wrap.
So far, so good⊠seems edible. He keeps chewing; swallows some more. But as the taste starts to sink in and he realises the sogginess of the wrap, the lack of proper sauces and the dryness as well as the blandness of the chickenâŠ
He pauses. Where⊠are the flavours?
Slowing down, he glances at his meal. Inspects it as if heâs holding an entirely new recipe in his hands. A look of realisation creeps upon his face, unaware of your gaze, and he soon hears an amused snicker from the side.
You donât say much when your eyes align. Only, âAnd?â
He knows heâs already lost when his expression changes, cringing; when he canât answer right away, only gaping at you in confusion. Still thinking about where this recipe went wrong.
He answers, âItâs fineâŠâ
But you catch his obvious lie; he sees it in the way you smile so devilishly. Cocking an eyebrow, enjoying another bite of your snack without ever averting your eyes. Then, you put the tiny wooden fork back into the dish, propping your cheek on your fist.
You wait; he doesnât know what for. For him to eat again? Maybe; because you soon ask, âDo you want something else?â
âNah.â His answer is instant this time. âI can do this. Iâm an omnivore.â
âAh, yeah. An omnivore friend right here.â You laugh, curious when he takes another bite. And then, âJungkook, itâs okay to admitâŠâ
But he wonât listen. Only makes a disapproving sound, stuffing his mouth with another horrendous bite. Shit; he canât confess that you were right. That you were actually right this time.
Suddenly, heâs craving a cup of ramyeon.
But he should keep eating. Wash it down with his drink, empty the soda. And heâs almost halfway through when he notices a movement from your direction, like youâre playing with your food.
Only, he realises that you are not; rather separating the tteokbokki in two halves before shoving the porcelain dish towards him. He shakes his head, but you persist, âTake it, man.â
It does look goodâŠ
But⊠are you going to use the satisfaction his defeat may give you? Probably. But fuck⊠Fuck it.
Reluctantly, he lets the wrap fall onto the small plate, gulping down the remainder of what he just bit off, and then, accepts your generosity with a nod. And⊠whether itâs because of the disappointment the wrap brought or the late hungerâŠ
Jungkook thinks heâs levitating above clouds, floating towards the sun.
Itâs good. Very damn good.
And when you ask again this time, âShould we get another?â his nod comes promptly, chest risen in satisfaction as he states, âThatâd be great.â
âAlright. Be right back.â
âNah,â he says, lifting an arm as if to protect you. Mid-action, you halt, sliding back up onto your seat. âStay here. Iâll get it⊠All good.â
So he does; enjoys the look of surprise when his other hand even carries dessert, four pieces of matcha mochi ice cream. He says, âThis is for you.â
You gasp. He canât deny that itâs sweet â the elation, the big eyes, the palms coming together in delight. How you look between the food and him, suddenly wiggling your feet.
âYou seem to like it,â he notes, and you nod feverishly, telling him that, âYes! Been craving it since we came in. Thank you!â
âOh. You shouldâve told me earlier! We couldâve gotten it. No worries.â
âItâs okay. I wanted to see if my dessert stomach still allowed anything. Didnât disappoint me today.â
Jungkook gets to his own tteokbokki, halving it in the middle the way you did, pushing it towards you. Itâs weird to think about it like this, but â considering how long the two of you have known each other, you might almost look like⊠friends.
And you donât feel quite like an enemy either. Youâre even⊠kind of nice. Friendly; harmless.
âIâm glad,â Jungkook responds, only looking towards the entrance when another group of three friends, two girls, a guy, enter. Then back to you, âSorry. You were right. This,â he points to the poor, sad wrap, âwas shit.â
âSee? My first instinct almost never lies. And I know this store from other places⊠the wraps are never good.â
âSure, but⊠your first instinct isnât always right, though, is it? You did get us lost, so it was wrong at least once.â
âHm⊠was it, though?â
Jungkook regards you in confusion as you put another piece on your tongue, working on the chewy thing as he asks, âWhat do you mean? We had no clue where we wââ
âYeah, I mean. I agree. But⊠I donât think it was that wrong. Becauseââ
You lick your lips clean off the tteokbokki sauce, smacking them. You look child-like, but pretty when you indulge in your element, uncaring about everything, just living. Maybe itâs not that bad that youâre bold.
And maybe, just maybe, he can power through this night easily after all; especially if you keep saying things that soothe his chest, things likeâ
âBecause my first instinct brought me to you.â
2:49AM, Him
The temperatures are falling as the night proceeds, and the second portion of the mochi ice cream adds to the pleasant chill.
Jungkook wonders how youâre doing; your dress is skimpier than his jeans, and your arms bare. But your stance and your speech are still inconspicuous, skin free of goosebumps, your walk elegant, leisurely.
Judging from your occasional hums and your ceaseless optimism, youâre enjoying this journey. It almost makes him feel bad; guilty about how adamantly he refused all this just an hour ago.
It hasnât been too bad. Sure, youâre bold and intrepid, and yeah, in some ways he is, too â but his courage stems from other motivations. From adrenaline-loaded activities or joyful, temporary pains. Like his tattoos; his motorcycle; the summer he bungee-jumped for the first time.
Youâre a different kind of daring; you challenge your limits in crowds and consider life a respectful joke. You donât ever hurt anyone, he doesnât think â you just go and see how far you can push yourself.
Perhaps in some sense, the two of you complement each other while simultaneously seeming to be cut from the same wood. Perhaps youâre different, but then again, not so much.
Youâre quiet; you werenât until you left the snack bar. As for now, however, you seem distracted, swallowing heaps of your dessert as you scan the surroundings youâve led the two into. Youâre somewhat unfazed by it, yet peering as though youâve been here before.
Which, in retrospect, makes sense. Youâve been wanting to show him places you enjoy after all.
When the silence extends, Jungkook, along with the chirping of the nightlife, breaks it with a, âYou know what?â
Your head swerves to his side, the wooden fork in your mouth. The pure gaze you give him throws him off guard for a moment â itâs somewhat sweet. But as he regains himself, he says, âI didnât think weâd get to a housing scheme here. The main street is super close, but the vibe is so different.â
âI know. Itâs a little scary at night when youâre alone. Gives very Desperate Housewives, doesnât it? Secrets veiled behind shut curtains.â You draw closer, imitating a spooky gesture. âBut I liked coming here when I was younger.â
Bingo. He thought so.
âAh⊠why?â
âMy friend lived here,â you explain with a tilt towards a random direction; he doubts the friend lived in just the house you gestured to, ïżœïżœsheâs long moved out of course, but weâd play on these streets back then. Most of the neighbours knew me, too!â
Jungkook tsks, hauling his own bite out of the cup, and you add, âNo, seriously! We could just knock at anybodyâs door here, and theyâd let me in.â
âNot if they moved out, too. A lot of time has passed.â
You bob your head. âTime has passed indeed. It does so pretty fast.â
âDoesnât it?â
You seem to get into overdrive, gearing up; he didnât think this topic would rev you up like this, but it appears you have a somewhat firm and fond opinion about the passing of time. Jungkook recognises the sentiment before you speak â the light of the lampposts reflects in your eyes like glitter.
Only, he doesnât foresee what you say next, your tone teasing through the joy you displayâ
âYeah! Like. Do you remember when I told you to not get the wrap and you still diââ
âShut up.â
The roll of his eyes isnât anything new; but the faint feeling that accompanies it, something akin to amusement, certainly is.
âOkay, but. Seriously,â you start again, sly smirk falling, voice neutralising the mock, âit felt different here. Because like, you know, where I live, it gets crowded. Iâm not too far from the city centre, so⊠this place always felt really peaceful to me. Jieun and I played together a lot.â
Jungkook frowns.
âJieun?â
âHm? Oh. The friend I spoke about? Sheâs pretty cool.â
âAh⊠Right, right.â
âMhmm,â you hum, the end of your small fork tapping the bottom of the nearly finished cup, âyou know another way to know that time passes really fast?â You pause for effect, then add, âItâs been ages since we saw each other for the first time.â
âRight. At a party, too, right? When was that anyway?â
âHmm⊠Like.â You ponder, blinking, looking up to the sky. âLike two years ago?â
Jungkookâs eyes widen; if youâd asked him, he wouldâve estimated a year tops. If he digs in his memory thoroughly enough, he could probably even remember what you wore that day; what you looked like.
It doesnât feel like two years. Youâre right â time truly does pass like the wind.
âWow,â he exclaims, âitâs been this long since you started pestering me?â
âShut up,â itâs your turn to blurt, your body swaying towards him until you push him to the side of the vacant road. âI didnât even come near you most of the time.â
âI know, I know. You were fun to look at, though. Seemed to enjoy yourself every single time.â
Shit, why did he say that? Shouldnât he hold onto the image he fostered; the one thatâs permanently irked by you, throwing snarky remarks throughout the night?
AndâŠ
Didnât this just break the banter, the frenemyship â frenmity? â the two of you have going on? Was it too nice? Itâll probably surprise you. Then again, is he a damn child? Why would he worry about such things? Question his own kindness?
Why would he hold onto his ego and deny you his humane side when youâve been nothing but lovely to him all night?
The young adult rivalry is over, Jeon Jungkook. Look at her and fucking admit that youâre the arrogant one.
But funnily enough, you donât seem to notice anyway.
âHmmm, I do love my job,â you answer, âI have a lot of fun organising stuff. Doing something good for other people, right? See them enjoy it. I mean, of course there are days when things donât go as planned, but.â
You lift a shoulder, indulging in the final remnants of your chewy mochi and the melted matcha ice cream inside.
âI know. It happens to me, too.â
âReally? How?â
Jungkook waves towards the sky, lists, âHeavy rain, lots of traffic, too spontaneous, issues with the camera⊠etcetera. Anything can happen.â
âYeah â I get it. But yeah, I do love doing this. I meet a lot of nice people, too. And I guess that makes me feel very⊠blessed? It puts things into perspective.â
âHow so?â
âLike, it makes you see that most people arenât bad.â
Huh. Odd. Not that heâd ever deem the entire globe vile, putting a standardised label that he can impossibly prove. But as far as he has seen⊠too many people arenât good either.
âReally?â he asks. âThatâs a lucky thing to experience.â
You look genuinely surprised, turning towards him when you ask, âYou donât?â
âUhm â rarely. I do enjoy photography. Always have.â His mind zooms into a glinting memory from the past, and his shoulders and voice rise when he recalls, âYâknow⊠My dad got me one of those yellow disposable Kodak cameras when I was a kid. I loved it so much.â
You nod; if he didnât know better, heâd almost say you look⊠delighted. Actually interested.
âAnd events and weddings,â he continues, âtheyâre beautiful to capture. Itâs probably the lights and the pretty people. And just⊠the memories?â
This time, he looks away, straight to the road; if he hadnât, heâd know that your gaze is definitely fond now. No doubt about it. You listen in closely.
Itâs the first time heâs talking to you like this, or to anyone â or for this long, for that matter. Most of your conversations were fleeting, fiery, a petulant back and forth that â he now realises â couldâve been something else, something better, too.
âBut then it just sucks when so many of them canât appreciate it properly,â he explains, raising his hands to emphasise, tone galled. âI mean, I look at my camera and I see a tool to create art. Itâs⊠nothing I take for granted. Just think about it.â
The ball of fire in his chest grows; he feels it warm up, gassed-up. âA thing that can hold onto moments in absolute high definition, so that you can still remember them years later? The 18th century couldnât have imagined. They needed to commit everything to memory just like that.â
âWow, Jungkook⊠You really do love this, too.â
His arms fall to the side. He inhales the fresh flurry of air. Rethinks his passion for his job and says, âYeah. Yeah, I guess I do.â
ââŠBut?â
He knows whatâs missing.
âI love the art, but I hate the clients. The event hosts. Not you, but the one even above you.â
Jungkook reckons this was a confession that long sat on his tongue unmentioned. Of course he thought about it; is always reminded when he attends these functions, standing at the back, at the front, left and right, unnoticed and taken for granted.
But now that itâs out and that heâs finally verbalised it to somebody⊠it definitely liberates something in his head.
You see his issue with these gatherings; he knows you do because heâs figured out this much. Youâre filled with enough empathy, sympathy, every grand word ending on the same syllable to acknowledge his disappointment.
But youâre filled with humour and absurdity, too, evident in the answer you provide to diffuse the tension.
âSo, thatâs why youâre always in a foul mood.â
âShuââ
âShut up, yeah, yeah.â You giggle, but then halt for a moment, toying with the rim of your paper cup, âBut you know, I think art is worth something even if just one person appreciates it. If it helps in any way⊠Iâm always impressed. And I always appreciate it when I call you and you come despite finding me so annoying.â
One corner of your lips lifts, the smile humble and light; sends a pang of guilt through him. Have you always been so nice?
âAlso, I do see the pictures almost every single time,â you add, âand youâre so good at this. At the job itself and the editing afterwards. Honestly.âÂ
ââŠYou think?â
Damn.
Jungkook would probably not bask in this hobby, continue his job if he wasnât proficient in what he does. Heâs known about his prowess ever since he was young.
But praises do offer a sense of magical warmth, donât they? He doesnât think any creative mind ever sickens of such unexpected support. And the way you say it⊠makes him want to never lay down his camera.
âOf course, yes,â you confirm, ânot to shoot up your ego, but⊠you once sent a set of pictures where I found one of me. Donât know if you even noticed? I was wearing that lilac dress and curls, I still remember â andââ
Stuck on the mention of your clothing, he immediately attaches a detail to the memory, âSleeveless dress. Long silver earrings, right?â
âOh⊠rightâŠâ
Right.
He wonât mention that he looked at that picture for just a second longer than at the others that night. Noticed for the first time how pretty you were. Not too deep of a thought, a twelve second stare, but⊠you wore this vibrant smile on that picture, and in some way, he did hope youâd see it, too.
It seems you did. He feels satisfied, proud even.
âRight,â you repeat, your defences somehow down, âuhm. I printed the picture. Still have it somewhere.â
Jungkook has already often wondered what people do with the pictures; put them in albums? Frame them and pin them over their couch? Right now, he also wonders â do you look at it a lot?
And this again begs the question â when you do, does your decision to book a vendor like him fill you with pride? Like your choice was right?
âThatâs so nice,â he says.
âAll that to say,â you inhale, âthat I think youâre really fucking skilled.â
Woah. You werenât quite certain if your consolation would bring him any solace, but youâve done far more than that. Youâve shown him that you see what he does â and isnât this what every artist craves? To be seen?
The tension buzzes between him and you like electricity; he doesnât know if itâs just him lighting up or if youâre feeling a kindred link, too. But itâs somewhat intense in this moment of walking under the stars, surrounded by quietude and absolute pose.
So much so that heâs soon submerged by an odd urge to make the intensity wane, âHey, does this feel to you like⊠a clichĂ© chick flick kinda dialogue?â
You knowâŠ
The moment when two find an empty street in the middle of the night, realising that a conversation with each other isnât the end of the world after all?
That type of thing?
But he doesnât say any of it.
âYeah? Maybe. But itâs also true,â you argue, âIâm an honest person and I donât think Iâd say anything I didnât mean.â
âAh, yeah?â Jungkook voices, taking the emptied out ice cream cup and throwing it into the bin on the side of the road, along with his own.
âMhm, one hundred percent,â he hears you say, followed by a light, quiet smacking noise.
He doesnât see what youâre doing until he arrives back where you stand; watches you lick the sticky rest off the pad of your thumb, smiling when you stare up at him again. Itâs a mundane gesture; heâs done it ever since he was a kid.
But somehow, he canât stop looking.
Might be the way your lips curve when you do it, or how your eyes smile when your mouth does. The authenticity you portray is rare; perhaps he just confused it with madness until now.
Seconds pass, and with that, your smile does, too. As it fades and drops, replaced by a curious expression and big eyes, you soon mutter, âWhat?â
Thereâs no response to that, really. He doesnât know either.
He doesnât understand how you turned out to be so right. How itâs such an ultimate truth that a serene night brings out a dreamy alter ego, hitherto undetected. Jungkook has never felt like much of a romantic, but right now, he thinks heâs on a different plane of reality.
This doesnât feel like Earth; and the town doesnât feel like the one he struts through during the day.
So maybe itâs not that wayward or groundless for him to lean in. To bend a bit more. Further and further until you laugh nervously; he knows youâre preparing to crack another joke, but you remain silent as he approaches.
Gauges your reaction. Will you run? You arenât.
Instead, you gulp; let your pupils fall to his piercings, just when his own gaze moves to your lips. His right hand, tattooed, led by its own will, reaches for your cheek until heâs cupping it; and suddenly, his mouth parts â whatâs happening? â and thenâ
And then, a vehicle roars from afar.
Both of you hear the motorcycle before you even see the blinding white light; he grips your arm, probably too harshly, dodging the street with you and jumping onto the pedestrian walk.
One must be crazy to still drive through the city at this hour. Right?
You pant, mixed with insane chuckles of relief, âShit. We almost died.â
âWe didnât,â he refutes, âwe had plenty of time.â
âOh no,â you stretch the last word, eyes squinting. An accusing forefinger points at him before you deduce, âWe almost died because you like me. Of all things!â
âI do not. You just looked kinda cute.â
Jungkook mightâve attempted an indifferent answer, but instead, he steered into an excuse that you do not accept at all. Your smirk is telling and satisfied, and if he wasnât trying to prove a point, your Cheshire Cat grin wouldâve made him laugh, too.
âBut you did almost kiss me,â you persist.
Ugh, youâre bold. Laughing like it means nothing; no embarrassment, no shy restraint in you. Which is probably not too bad; somehow even charming. Explains the rosy dust on his cheeks at least. He feels it in the heat, canât believe he almost kissed you just now.
Why does he feel like a hormonal adolescent? Itâs not like heâs never kissed anybody.
Youâre still enclosed by pure delight, nudging his arm repeatedly, annoyingly. And when he doesnât answer, choosing reticence instead, you nearly shriek, as if he confirmed all you just said.
His instinctive hand slaps up to your mouth, covering it, shushing you. Youâre still smiling, working on removing his palm, but before your nonsense can proceed, a sudden light flickers in the corner of Jungkookâs eye.
Immediately, he seeks out the source, soon finding a room in the house left to him lighting up. You woke somebody, it seems. A silhouette becomes clearer, its edges more refined with every second, and just before the owner of the place can shove the curtains aside, you grip Jungkookâs hand.
Within a moment, he finds himself tugged away by you, running, nearly stumbling over his own feet. You blurt, âBetter get away before they kill us.â
As you leave the tranquil settlement behind, Jungkook still hears a voice from an open window, cursing the younger generation as they do; and then, out of the damn blue, a fucking dog barks.
When you turn over your shoulder, mouth dropping open, Jungkook knows youâre thinking the same as him â this happens outside of cinematic universes, too?
It takes a minute until youâve reached another road again; one of the kind heâs more familiar with. The city type. The two of you come to a halt near some pole, and you let his hand go, leaning against it.
For a moment, you work on catching your breath, Jungkookâs hands settling on his thighs. And then, when your eyes meet, you burst into a fit of laughter, followed by a playful wiggle of his eyebrows to which you respond, âDonât act innocent. This is your fault.â
âWhat? You were lauââ
âBecause of you! Oh, I know you want me so bad.â
Youâre jesting, of course. Swaying your head, poking his chest, a brat straight out of some TV show. But what you can do, heâs been perfecting for years.
So he answers in kind, âAnd if I did?â
Only for you to utter something that not even his brain can compute.
âIf you did? Then⊠I think Iâd let you.â
âAh⊠Yeah? Why?â
âBecauseâ I think youâre just half as bad.â
His snicker is half amused, half flattered. He purses his lips, nodding, and then declares, âYouâre just a quarter as bad. But guess Iâve gotten so tired that Iâve started doing weird shit.â
You click your tongue, puffing out a breath, instantly reacting when he only flicks your chin and then walks away. Your startled expression prevails, a distance between him and you established, but just as he puts his hands in his jeans, he hears you finally follow.
âHey,â you voice from behind, tapping his arm, âare you really tired?â
âI was kidding, but. Honestly? A little.â
ââŠHmm. You know, my friend lives in an apartment nearby. Jieun? Didnât move too far from her old home. We could stop there.â
Jungkookâs left eyebrow leaps up, surprised by the suggestion; the idea doesnât sound too bad. ButâŠ
âWasnât the deal to go around for a whole night, though?â
âOhhh. Are you starting to like it?â
Youâre observant, heâll give you that.
âIâm just saying,â he adds, âand also, would she just let a stranger in?â
âOh, sheâs very civilised and hospitable. She wouldnât mind, and sheâs known me for ages. She trusts me.â Maybe you detect the hesitation in his eyes and the twitch of the corner of his lips, because you immediately carry on, âWe can just stay for an hour and then go.â
âWould she be awake, even?â
âSheâs a night owl. I know that.â
âUhmâŠâÂ
He ponders. In some way, heâs kind of liking the breeze, the quiet side of this town. But⊠would Jieun find that weird? Then again, can he say no? Youâre ogling at him with these hopeful eyes; maybe you need the rest, after all.
âOkay,â he says; he even thinks you jump a bit in joy, nodding.
âOkay! Youâll like her. We can leave with newfound energy afterwards. Okay, cool.â
Thatâs all you need to lead the way. You look around a little, making sure youâre approaching the right direction, and when you find your confidence again, you march ahead.
Your walk is energetic, not too idle anymore, your beam as dashing and fervid as ever. Jungkook knows his way around editing programs; heâs added wings to pictures before or removed unwelcome passersby on an otherwise great photo.
He even understands how to surround a body or silhouette with a glow; but heâs never seen it around an actual person outside of all these graphics editors before.
Your body is so clearly encircled by it.
Bedazzling.
Screw the 18th century. Even in these modern times of advancement, Jungkook doesnât think he needs a camera to commit you to memory.
3:25AM, Her
You avert your eyes from the phone and turn towards Jungkook, reaching him where heâs planted firmly in front of the apartment complex. Heâs been waiting, back settled against the wall, and as you near, his eyebrows rise in question.
Your friend didnât respond until now â but just as you foretold, sheâs still awake at this ungodly hour.
âOkay. Sheâs home, but,â you explain, already ringing the bell to her apartment, âshe said sheâd be leaving soon. Sounds like sheâs in a rush. Typos and all.â
Jungkook waits until the buzzing sound of the opening door ceases and youâve stepped inside, leading him up the stairs, and then wonders again with big eyes, âAnd sheâll just let us stay? Alone at her apartment?â
You wave his concerns off with a handâs gesture, âShe trusts me, dude. Iâve done this a couple times.â
âWhat for?â
Hm⊠you dive back into the old days. Some new, some old. What were they again? Theyâre mostly blurred, but some of them are carved in your core memory.
âOh, justâŠâ you reminisce. âIf I wanted to meet guys and wouldnât want to bring them home back when I was still with my parents? Or when Iâd need a night to sober up. They wouldâve killed me if Iâd come home drunk. And Jieun moved out early.â
âHow old is⊠Jieun anyway?â
Old. Not really, but you like to vex her to the point of a pout. Sheâs patient, but sheâs also an incredibly close friend â you allow yourself to be a brat with her and she allows herself to roll her eyes.
âEarly 90s kid?â you guess. âA little older than us.â
â93, as far as you remember.
âAh. Damn,â he voices; you donât know why.
âOkay.â You climb the last steps to the second floor, halting in front of a white door with a copper number six on top of it. Knock thrice. âHere goes.â
She mightâve been getting ready close to the door, working on her shoes or questing for her keys. Because she opens mere three seconds later, with a radiant smile on her face able to melt hearts, and a comfortable attire thatâs, however, not comfortable enough to wear at home.
A thin sweatshirt and a bun, loose strands framing her pretty face, and shorts that are definitely meant to be worn outside. She wonât be here for long. And youâre focused on this very fact and her hurry so much that you nearly donât register how shy Jungkook gets.
His voice is somewhat smaller than before when he looks at her; your eyes shift to him, and heâs blinking before he finally breaks and mutters, âOh. Hi.â
âHey!â she retorts; she looks so sweet saying it. You understand his perplexity. âDate?â
âNah. Just a friend,â you answer, which, yet again â very confusing â makes him hum in question. If he started regarding himself as your date all of a sudden, you swearâŠ
You smile.
âJust a friend,â you repeat.
âFabulous. So youâre not walking around alone, at least,â Jieun concludes, letting you in. In the living room, a hand on her kitchen island, she points through an open door, âOkay, so, the guest room bed is made. Use blankets on it, if you want to rest.â
Her finger shifts to signal to the entrance you came through, imitates a pulling motion, âDonât worry about locking the door whenever you leave. Also got some leftover food in the fridge, but thereâs also cup ramyeon and some frozen pizza in the freezer. Sorry⊠I need to go shopââ
But you interrupt, shaking your head, âOh, no worries, really. We just ate, so weâll just stay here for a little, work off the food coma and leave. Wonât damage anything.â
âI know you wonât, baby.â
She moves to fetch her purse from the couch, and Jungkook uses the moment to whisper in your ear, âWhere is she going anyway?â
You donât know; you shrug your shoulders, pursing your lower lip, but echo his question a moment later, louder than him, âWhere are you going anyway?â
Previously cramming in her purse, checking it for content, she looks at you again, telling you, âAh⊠Jongsuk is having a bad night and wants me to come over.â Regarding Jungkook, she adds, âMy boyfriend. Heâs an insomniac and got stoned tonight, too, and justââ
Jieun blows a raspberry, raising a hand for a whatever gesture, and Jungkook mumbles, âOof. SoundsâŠâ
âYeah⊠I know. In any case. Make yourself comfortable, okay?â
âYes. Thank you so much.â
âThanks, Jieun,â you repeat.
She nods once more, waving her tiny hand and flashes one last smile before sheâs out the door and has left you in full silence. You shuffle your feet for just a second before you look at him again; he still looks somewhat in a daze.
So you ask, âWhatâs wrong?â
âHm? Nothing.â
Nothing, right⊠thatâs what they all say after seeing Lee Jieun for the first time. You try not to think too hard about the teeny tiny sting in your enormous, delicate heart. Only let him know, âDonât worry too much. What could happen? She does trust me.â
You take a couple steps towards the bedroom she offered you, and you hear him follow. Look at the neatly made bed, a thought occurring; but you donât entertain it yet. Only add, âBesides, she owes me.â
He chuckles. âThatâs how you live your life, huh?â
âItâs alright. Weâll just be here for an hour. Sheâs known me all her life, so nothing to doubt here. And also, think about it,â the tip of your forefinger taps against your temple, âeven if something did happen or went missing, sheâd know where to find me and whom to report.â
He waits, ogles at you. Then presses his lips together, nods as if you made all the sense in the world, and lifts a shoulder â agreeing, âIf you say so. Then uhm â letâs lay down for a bit?â
âSure! Iâll just sleep in her room, so you can have your privacy here.â
âMhm. Okay.â
You stand at the door frame for a moment, feet unmoving.
Heâs already turned away. And you regret not walking away when you watch him unabashedly take off the blazer and provide a glimpse to his snatched waist as inked fingers scratch his back briefly, shirt moving up. But then itâs covering his skin again.
Flawless back; pretty golden. A little further up, and youâre sure you wouldâve seen strong shoulder blades, too. Heâs worn fancy dress shirts at luxurious events before â you know many would kill for his built, because youâve seen his bicep flex before.
You forget where you are for a second, but when he opts to turn, eyes on you for just a heartbeat, you stir. Blurt out an awkward apology, and then leave. Wish him a good night, barely waiting for one back before you close the door.
You laugh quietly at yourself.
Her room is just next door; you already mentally prepare for a nap. Meanwhile, Jungkook plumps onto the bed, groaning when the comfort hits, and works on getting used to the ceiling, if only briskly.
He only notices how much his head is spinning when he closes his eyes, ready to doze off. Should he set an alarm? He doesnât want to still be here by the time Jieun returns. Maybe he should tell you, too.
But his body wonât move.
Yet, in the time heâs failed to make up his mind, he suddenly hears a knock at the door again. Must be you â must be telepathy.
He tells you to enter, and you do with a shy demeanour; only thirty seconds must have passed, right? A minute, tops. He looks at you in wonder, and you explain, âShe uhâ locked her room. No clue where the keys are. Guess thatâs why she specifically pointed out the guest room.â
You nibble your lip, getting no answer back. He looks just as much out of ideas as you, and you still refuse to bring back the thought from before; yet, you ask, âWhat do we do now?â
âWellâŠâ He looks around, though there is not much to take in. âI can sleep on the couch?â
ââŠThe couch is too small.â
âOkay. Then Iâll just sleep on the floor.â Heâs already working on getting up, no hesitation, scratching through his now messy hair, feet moving on the fluffy carpet. âIâll take one of those pillows, though. Carpet should be good enoâ what are you doing?â
Youâve charged towards the bed, climbed past him until youâre sitting behind him, facing his back and his craning neck. You say, âIâm not giving you that pillow.â
âWhy?â
âYou canât sleep on the floor.â
ââŠWhy not?â
You throw an unbelieving look, as if itâs obvious. Your flat hand gestures towards the carpet vaguely, and you argue, âItâs uncomfortable.â
âListen, I should. This or the couch, nothing else left.â Itâs crazy to you how he doesnât even consider the bed instead of giving it up for you. âItâs just an hour. Donât worry about it.â He stretches a hand towards you, curling his fingers in a grabby motion. âCome on. Gimme that.â
Youâre astonished â beyond pleased about the fact that he cares like this. That heâs so⊠mindful and humble. You give up; he wonât falter and you know.
âOkay⊠then take this blanket, too.â
He grabs the second one that Jieun provided, head bowing a little as he says, âThank you.â
The proceeding minutes you spend preparing for bed, slightly discomforted by your dress, pass in half-awkward, half-comfortable silence. He lays down on his unusual spot, and you cuddle into the blanket on your light, soft side.
As the rustling of blankets and sheets subsides, it gives way to the sound of the ticking clock; you focus on it, count the clicks like sheep.
But sleep doesnât quite fall upon you yet, and you guess Jungkook feels similar when he calls your name and asks, âWhat does she owe you?â
Your head moves towards his voice, even though he canât see you. âHuh?â
âJieun. What does she owe you? And your coworker.â
âOh. Uh. Honestly, just kindness.â
You can already see it â doe eyes rolling at another one of your cryptic answers. You know people donât fathom your thoughts very well, and some feel annoyed by your dreamy outlook of the world. You donât mind, but you wonder what heâs thinking.
But all he responds with is, âWhat?â
âWell, just. Theyâve known me for ages. Iâve been there for Jieun for so long, and Jongin has always been so incredibly nice to me. Picked me up when I was dead drunk once and brought me home. Got me medicine and everything. And Iâve lent him some comfort over the years, too.â
It hasnât been too long, so you remember. Youâve been good friends with him ever since you started your job; a steady part of your team. He and you have got each otherâs back.
âThese two are friends,â you say, âand I think kindness is the most we can give our loved ones.â
Jungkook hesitates. Have you bored him to sleep? Or is he pondering your words, thinking of you as weird? Maybe notâ
Because he actually converses, asking, âYou think? Doesnât that mean weâre just kind to them then, so they can be kind to you in return?â
âI mean⊠yes and no. Owing might be the wrong word. Iâm not nice to others to get something back. Iâm like this because I want to be and because the world can be shitty and itâs important to be nice, and in return, I want people to be nice to me, too. Itâs not an eye to eye kind of thing, itâs just about. Spreading affection in relationships. Itâs what theyâre here for.â
ââŠHm. Is this why youâre never rude to me? Even when I deserve it,â he asks, registering a hum. âYou know⊠you think really⊠uniquely.â
This is a nice way to phrase it at least. People like you; youâre good with them. But sometimes, they can be mean, too. Not that you mind. Itâs natural â people occur in all types and shapes.
âBut is it unique, though? Isnât it a given?â you question.
âYeah, probably, I justâ never thought of it this deeply.â
âMmmh. So is me thinking uniquely a compliment? I canât say.âÂ
He laughs, and you join immediately, exclaiming an, âIâm serious!â in the middle of it all. Jungkookâs snicker is authentic, so you enjoy hearing it; but you like his answer even better.
âMaybe. I just⊠I feel like a lot of people try to be different these days. Or play a role to be perceived a certain way? But I think youâre genuine â you actually mean the things you say without any hidden intention to make people forcefully like you, right?â
An intention? Oddly phrased. You think, though⊠that what he said was nice.
Still, you confirm, âI donât try to be anyone for people to like me.â
âI didnât say otherwise! This is actually just what I meant. Besides, people like you anyway because youâre you.â As if heâs reading your mind. âThatâs what I was saying.â
You hum, blinking at the ceiling and the little modern light hanging there, the beam off. The darkness pleasant. You conjure another question and ask, âSo you think me being me is a good thing?â
You always considered it was. You like being you. But Jungkook didnât like whatever makes up your personality â has this changed? Apparently.
âOf course,â he surprisingly answers, âitâs always a good thing. And just because I disagree with some of your characteristics, it doesnât mean everybody will.â Oh. Well. But waitâ âOr maybe, Iâm just a moaner.â
Well.
âThat you are,â you verify.
âDamn.â
âBut, butâ youâre kind, too, you know? Not everyone says the things you just said.â
âMaybe.â
âSoâŠâ you stall, rethinking his prior words. âDo you still disagree with all those characteristics of mine?â
Another joyous sound tumbles out of him, much in the form of a breather than a laugh; hushed, but you still hear it clearly. Perhaps youâre being a little awkward; but in all honesty, you hope heâs just finding it amusing, somewhat cute.
âI mean â youâre too blunt. But brave, like, I could never. The thing you did at the shop? Never. But this isnât bad. And you arenât bad.â
âYeah?â
âYeah.â
His voice is a whisper. Reminds you of a feeling akin to temptation; your mind automatically imagines the susurrating sound near your ear, exhaling the very syllable he just did. Frankly, youâre absolutely tortured by the knowledge of him being this close.
That you could probably touch his face if you rolled over to the edge of the bed, letting your arm dangle, seeking his skin. That heâs in the same room, talking to you this gently, saying things that a girl doesnât hear too often these days anymore.
There it is. The intrusive thought from before⊠prevailing.
And youâre tortured by it. But mostly, by the image of him standing in front of you between the houses just a little time ago, staring at you, pupils flitting back and forth between your eyes and your lips. How he neared you. How he almost kissed you.
You mightâve joked about it then, but deep down, and especially now, youâre intrigued by the idea. Of the fantasy of a what if â what if heâd actually kissed you?
Taking a deep breath, you look to the side, staring at the door and call, âHey, Jungkook.â
âHm?â
âIs it uncomfortable down there?â
âUh⊠a little.â
You shuffle at your spot, turning to the side. âJust thinking. What good does it do if we donât rest well? What are we here for?â
ââŠWhat are you talking about?â
Pause. Quietude. You close your eyes, then open them again.
Youâre never shy; so you donât deem it an advantage for yourself to turn timid now either. You tell him, âCome up. I know you want to. I know I want you to.â
He doesnât say anything; you bite your tongue. Maybe it was a mistake. But then his voice chimes again, wondering, âAre you sure?â
Your answer is immediate.
âOf course. Yes, Iâm sure.â
âOkay⊠okay.â
As he starts to move, you gulp. You make place on the bed, moving to your previous side, pushing the blanket aside in case he wants to slip under it, too. The motions of his silhouette seem uncertain as he makes his way up to you, as if heâs uncomfortable with it.
âI⊠Was I wrongâŠ? Do you not want to?â you make sure.
âWhat?â you hear him say; see his head shake. âAh, thatâs not it. Just want to make sure youâre really okay with it. Iâm not the type of guy toâŠâ
âI know. Itâs fine. I donât think you are.â
âOkay.â The mattress bulges where he lays down before it evens out again. He emits a couple groaning sounds, probably glad to give his back something proper. You turn to him just when he says, âHonestly⊠thatâs a little better, yeah.â
âThought so. Are you tired?â
âDefinitely.â
âBut youâre not sleeping.â
âBecause youâre talking.â
Wrong. There was enough silence for him to nod off before. He was the one who started the conversation at all; you were ready to turn and toss and rest eventually.
When you donât respond, his head turns on his pillow, too; in the darkness that you got used to, you see his eyes twinkle. Both of you know that youâre looking at each other. And heâs kind of close â closer than you thought.Â
And⊠if youâre not wrong, he just inched nearer only a nanomoment ago. He repeats in a whisper, once more accusing, âYouâre talking, thatâs why.â
âThatâs really why, huh?â
âMhm.â
âThe only reason there really is?â
âWhat else could there be?â
You smile, brazen, letting out the courage youâve gathered, âWell, I know what else it is for me.â
âYeah?â
Daring a step further, you graze his shirt featherlightly; you donât know whether he notices. Not until he moves his hand, fingers ghosting near yours.
Waiting until you reveal with sheer, sudden heart palpitations, âI⊠I want you to kiss me. You do, too, donât you?â
He inhales, but doesnât exhale. What does it mean? You donât know.
You donât know what it is until you hear the smile in his words, gentle yet tantalising when he says, ââŠI do.â
âGood. Good. Then kiss me.â
And the rest proceeds without hesitation and without another plea.
His body moves as if on its own accord; he seems possessed, or controlled by a puppeteer. Warm lips lock with yours before you can draw another breath.
They feel soft, full, like tiny pillows, a contrast to the metal of his piercings. And they move gently, so carefully, like heâs still scared of crossing a line despite your permission. But when you lean into him, hoping for more proximity, he blossoms a little. Initiates more.
Oh, he, too, has been waiting for this, hasn't he?
A hand, nearly as warm as his kiss, slithers up to your face, holding you closer to him. The bangs that so often cover his forehead are tickling yours now, his head tilting to give his cute nose more space.
And with that, he deepens the kiss, too. Dares a step further, separating your lips with his, trying things out. He gauges your reaction as the tip of his tongue sneaks its way into the mix, and the moment you do the same, he dives in properly.
Kisses you just a little harder, tasting you, sighing into the movements as if all the weight of the world has dropped off his shoulders. As if heâs relieved, calmed down, resting for the first time tonight.
Yet, at the same time, heâs firing himself up â moving over your body slowly, holding onto your mouth to his best abilities, as if youâd disperse if he let go for too long. As if youâd change your mind.
He cages you in to keep you underneath, not touching your face anymore but shoving his fingers into your already tousled hair. If you were still in your right mind, youâd recognise how insane this situation is. Your younger self wouldâve never predicted such a moment to ever become part of your life.
But it is⊠it is so clearly being played into your hard drive; somehow, you already know itâll remain stuck in your memory: the way heâs kissing you, so thirsty, so insatiable. How heâs sighing, relaxed, yet sporting an audible heartbeat against your chest.
He uses moments of switching sides to breathe but continues right away; the keenness drives you crazy. You touch his shoulders and then wrap your arms around him firmly, making him hasten closer until heâs nearly falling onto you.
What in the heavenly make out sessions is thisâŠ
Itâs nasty, yet sweet. Followed by quick breaths; it takes merely a minute until you feel his lower body grinding into you, his jeans tight around his crotch all of a sudden. And the second you realise heâs hardening beneath them, your body reacts.
Reacts so effectively.
Your lower tummy tickles, dampness pooling below as he pushes into you again, harder this time. You moan, enticed by your goosebumps and the heavy bulge. Solid enough for you to crave him within a momentâs notice.
And it only worsens threefold when he whispers, âFuck⊠Somebody really knows how to kiss, huh?â
âYouâre talking. What was thisââ He so rudely interrupts with another peck, and you laugh into it. âYeah, thisâŠâ
Your last word dissipates like candle smoke; you donât even know why you bother to speak. Your voice is barely perceptible when his teeth remove the short sleeve of your dress, kissing your shoulder and then down to your cleavage.
Itâs easy to remove your dress; itâs light, summer-y â but he doesnât bare you just yet. Plays around at the mounds of your tits until he pushes the neck of the dress down a bit, asking, âMay I take it off?â
Oh, if you could count the times youâve imagined his veiny hands removing this damn dress just in the last fifteen minutesâŠ
âOf course,â you permit, âdo I look like Iâd reject you?â
âMmmh.â The hum is proud, satisfied, vocalised amidst another kiss to your clavicles. âJust making sure.â
Soft, warm hands trail up your leg, leaving a path of another set of goosebumps. You want him to stay right there on your thigh, knead the flesh, press into it, showcase the lust he feels in the beguiling pain.
But instead, he pushes up your dress, fingers ghosting over your ass â and when he doesnât find your panties but only bare skin, he stops kissing you. Looks at you. Makes out the string of your thong a second later â in the dark, you discern the way his lips round in captivation.
Heâs loving this.
He tugs at the string and lets it snap back into place; you gasp even though it doesnât hurt, but it drives you mad when he states, âWow. Very intriguing.â
Leaving it at this for just now, he kisses you again, tongues mingling once more before he releases a sharp, nearly aggressive hiss and mumbles, âHoly fuck. I canât stop.â
âI didnât tell you to stop,â you guarantee.
âGood. Good, good, good.â
The dress surrounds your waist now, stopping below your breasts, and Jungkook journeys down to drag his lips around the spots he hasnât touched yet. As if heâs trying to familiarise himself with all of you, working towards the goal of memorising you entirely.
His teeth scrape at your pelvis just lightly, seemingly contemplating whether he wants to destroy these panties or not â but then decides against it. You wouldnât mind; youâre not showing anybody anything of you tonight but him.
And youâre already such a mess; breathing so irregularly, letting out his name and quiet sighs. He should know he could do basically anything. That youâre ready for him.
But instead, he only curses again, sucking at your skin harshly, nails digging into your hips. And then, from below, you hear him say, âWant you to suck my dick so bad.â He moves up, fingertips on your cheek, rubbing himself against your underwear, and questions, âWill you suck my dick, baby?â
Oh, he didnât justâŠ
Oh, the way the pet name screws with your head is irreversible. You feel sick at the mention, breathing out hard, about to get up at the speed of light to swallow him fully; to the hilt.
But you wonât give him the satisfaction yet; youâve gotten used to the darkness, and seeing the hazy insanity in his eyes spurs you on to play with him a bit more. So you lift your body, giving him hope, but then say, âI have a better idea.â
âAh? Where are you going?â
âWait.â
He quietens. Falls to the side and onto his back as he watches whatever youâre trying to do unfold. You look back at him for just a blink of an eye, but you immediately perceive the hand cupping his clothed dick, moving a bit, up and down.
âOkay. Should work on this first,â you say, straddling him backwards.
You hike up your dress more, baring your back to him, and you instantly hear the breath he releases. Feel the palm touching your spine, grazing it; you imagine huge eyes ogling at you like heâs reached nirvana. You so hope heâs looking at you like this.
âMy GodâŠâ he only mutters, however, proving your point when he opts to get up. But you turn as much as you can, a flat hand pushing him down again, to which he complains, âWhat?â
âI told you to wait, silly. Iâm not going anywhere.â
âYou sure? Youâre being pretty mean right now.â
âIâm not being mean. Youâre just not patient,â you laugh. âGive me a second and Iâll wreck your world, âkay?â
âAh?â
âMhm.â
âThat I wanna seâ oh. Oh.â
Exactly.
Once youâre done pulling off the dress, you shift back, enough for your pussy to align with his gorgeous face. Jungkook instinctively grabs your ass to pull you lower, and you chuckle at the restless gesture.
But you need to focus; and as best and tidily as you can, you unbutton his jeans, zipping them open until you detect his shorts. He raises his hips to help you, and you bite your lower lip, crazed by the sight that awaits you once the jeans are halfway down.
The bulge is big indeed. The imprint is insane; the light from outside allows glimpses, and you salivate, bowing your head to kiss him above his underwear, feeling him stir. And he imitates, blowing against your wetness, his finger â middle one? â curling around the string digging between your ass cheeks.
When he frees your pussy, you feel it. It hits the air in the room coldly, a contrast to his hot breath. A second more and you might drip into his tantalising mouth, just how youâre drooling over the cock you finally set free.
It springs out, veiny under your touch. Hard. Thick and long. Everything good, a fucking ideal package. You scold him, âYouâve been hiding this from me?â
âHuh? I wasnât hiding.â
âNow I realise just how mean you are, man,â you say, shaking your head, spitting onto the slit before wiping it off again with the tip of your tongue. He swears again. âCouldâve had this make me hoarse so long ago.â
âFuck,â he replicates, âstop talking, or Iâll fuck this mouth of yours. You want to be hoarse so bad, then try me.â
âIs this a threat? You really think I wonât let you? Stay right there, littleââ You look again. âBig man. You can do whatever you want, but wait a second, alright?â
âNah. Youâre not the only one teasing. You brat,â Jungkook whispers sharply, delivering a smack to your ass; you gasp. âI justâŠâ
You donât know what he just â you only know that heâs attaching his mouth to your cunt right away, thong pushed aside, diving in with a tongue so eager. You squint your eyes shut, lips parting, calling his name as he holds you there roughly.
He soon wraps his arms around your hips, like a belt, lips intense as he kisses you even wetter. The sounds he eludes are dirty, sinful; and the feeling of his piercings doesnât add to your sanity.Â
You decide to not let this distract you; heâs competitive, you realised, but you are, too. So you lean in, lips wrapping around the tip. Your right hand enfolds his cock, pumping him, tracing every firm vein that protrudes. Heâs so pretty all around.
âShit,â you whisper, hoping he doesnât hear; only continue to work your tongue around the head, setting the nerves alight as heâs doing for you.
You kiss down the shaft, licking and humming to create a sort of vibration. And then, you take him in as much as you can. Despite being large, barely fitting, soon hitting your throat, you try. Hollow your cheeks, bop your head, gifting him your attention.
But itâs hard. So hard becauseâ
God, heâs lapping you up so good.
So hungry. Out to kill you as he releases the prior belt, bringing two fingers to your pussy and thrusting them into you slowly. Mouth and digits; both at once. Thumb against the clenching hole between your ass.
Heâs distracted every now and then, much like you, but he still maintains a steady pace. Cruel⊠so cruel. Those damn fingers propelling into you, harder sometimes before they slow down again. Curling to hit you just right, massaging the rough, walnutty spot.
Oh, Jungkook knows⊠knows exactly what to do.
They donât make men like him anymore.
Your ass clenches when his skills exceed your expectations and he rubs your insides particularly well, mouth just right above your clit as the tongue circles around it. Itâs nearly overwhelming; you could cry with this mouthful of dick impaling your throat.
He feels so good on you. So good in you. You want all of you filled, not just your mouth. So you soon let go with a plop, a string of saliva so lewdly connecting your mouth and his member, and you wipe your mouth.
Tell him, âThis should be enough.â
And he agrees immediately, smacking his lips, as if licking up the remnants of his food, âFuck yes. Enough.â
You want to get into the next position, put in some work, but what you donât expect is that Jungkook is already planning a step ahead. Tapping your ass with his big manly palm, pushing you off of him until youâre crawling on all fours.
Submitted to him. And you donât mind a bit â just for now, just for him, youâll give into this because youâve been craving it. Itâs okay; you vow to yourself that in a while, youâll wreck his shit just as much.
On your elbows and knees, you hear him shifting, the mattress dipping, his knees nearing you and closing your legs in. The palm covering the right side of your ass causes it to jiggle, and when you push your butt towards his pelvis, he praises, âThe way you know what to do without me needing to tell you. How convenient.â
âWell,â you breathe out, âitâs not my first rodeo. But do make it the best⊠okay?â
âNo pressure at all, huh? Iâll try my best.â
You want to react, bring a laugh straight out of your throat, but Jungkook is faster. The reaction comes alright, but not as you wanted it to. But rather in a high-pitched moan, arms quivering when he fists his cock, guiding it to your leaking cunt, and rubs the tip between your pussy folds.
You reckon heâs testing out how eager you already are; you contemplate on telling him. On pleading, on saying something that might drive him to action. You donât mention a single word, though; only let your ass speak once more, steering towards him until he gets the message.
He must have.
Because he clicks his tongue as if to admonish you for your shortage of patience, though only briefly before he surrenders to the itch you cause. Scratching without hesitation now, he finally helps you lose your damn panties and then dips himself into you slowly.
Of course; with a length like his, thereâs no way youâd be able to survive a quick push. Jungkook knows to be cautious, penetrating you sweetly; an oxymoron in a moment like this. Your fingers digging into the sheets reveal as much; thereâs not much going on yet, but youâre already holding onto the soundness of your mind so desperately.
âShit, what the fuck,â you murmur, your turn to let out profanities; youâre sure this isnât your last. âYou scared of something, Jeon? Iâm⊠I have an IUD.â
âScared? No. Youâre not an idiot, right?â he whispers. âYou wouldâve told me if you couldnât do it like this. Much ratherâŠâ He breathes heavily between his words. âIâm taking you in, yâknow? Enjoying â fuck â how wet and warm you are⊠Gonna wreck you raw, though, no p-problem.â
No, your foul words were certainly not the last for tonight; his dick is just halfway through when he stops and another tumbles out of you. He drags the thickness back, then inside again.
Your walls are occupied to their last inch, and you know you could take all of him if you just gave yourself some time â but somehow, his care turns you on even more.
Goddamn, heâs good. All of him â his dick, his voice, his mouth, his touch. Heâs soâ nnghhâŠ
You have never witnessed his fingers do much more than take the pictures you love. Whenever he operates the button with his forefinger, flexing the inked crown above his knuckle, you already know the man has a talent unmatched.
But right now⊠right now you have an entirely different perception of these same digits.
Like, when he leans in a bit, still deep inside you, undoing your bra in a smooth motion. Or when he caresses your back, along your spine, contradicting the touch with a harsher, harder jab now.
And shit, when he pulls your ass cheeks apart, digging in further, fucking through your seeping hole until heâs covered in slick, too. It must look so good to him; incredibly memorable.
Your whimpers are quiet and gentle, matching the way he fucks you, only rising in volume when he decides to push another inch in. You behave; you whine softly; that is until all of a sudden, he pulls back most of his cock and shoots back in, colliding with your ass with a slapping sound.
Yelping, you hold the sheets until your fingers hurt, and he bolts forwards, a hand slamming your mouth shut and muffling your mewls. Way too close to your ear, he says, âSh sh sh⊠my God. Jieun has neighbours, babe â donât spoil her reputation.â
He proceeds to kiss the skin under your ear, taking your arms captive until theyâre pinned to your back. Fingers intertwine messily, holding your limbs in place, and as he frees your mouth again, you laugh â itâs all you can do to not feel too weirded out by the mention of Jieunâs name right now.
You tell him, âUse my panties then.â
âYour panties, huh? Do you want me to?â You nod, but heâs not obliging enough to give into your wishes. Teasing you to no end. âNah. Iâll justâŠâ
Jungkook doesnât finish the sentence; what he does is much more alluring, nearly forcing tears of lust to your waterline. He grabs the back of your neck, urging you to look at him, and just as you register his face close to yours, he kisses you again.
Your body immediately blossoms. You breathe as much as the kiss allows, yielding to his tongue. Let him push you down and into the mattress, imprisoning you under him. And he kisses you⊠kisses you⊠kisses you moreâŠ
Basks in your dimmed moans as he hits from behind again, hard. Sheathes himself inside you thoroughly and with impact; heâs enjoying the fact that you want to yell, but need to restrain yourself at this time of the night.
Because heâs right. You donât want Lee Jieun to earn looks in the morning because of you.
As if provoking you, he blatantly asks, âYou good?â
âYesâ yes!â
âMhmâŠâ
Heâs out of breath; can barely emit another word. But he doesnât waste any moment at all; kisses your neck, bites your earlobe. Pushes his hands under your body to get ahold of your tits. Fucks you into space, lifting one of your hands to your face, entangling his fingers with yours.
You shift up and down the mattress, just a little; the position, with him on you, doesnât allow too many extreme movements, and youâre more than fine with it. Thereâs something about him going unhinged on you like this.
But⊠it does awaken the need to retaliate, too.
So you use the opportunity when he decides to pause, running out of energy, gasping for breath. He leaves you empty and yearning, pulling back and sitting up, and judging from the touch on your tummy, you assume he wants to flip you on your spot.
Instead, however, you turn on your own accord, both palms that he held captive minutes ago shoving at him. He produces a strange sound as he falls backwards, landing on the mattress and onto the pillow with big eyes that almost donât fit his Greek God-esque physique.
Goodness, the damp dark hair. The abs. The pecs. The nipplesâŠ
You might dribble onto his sweaty, shiny skin. And you donât veil your innermost thoughts this time, straddling him as you say, âMy turn. Need to ride you so bad.â
He visibly relaxes; leads his fingers to your hips, thumb drawing patterns on them. His tongue darts out to play with the lip rings, and he eyes you up and down. Heâs taking you in for the first time properly, just as you are him.
Just as your eyes drifted over his muscular body, he now makes stops along the journey â your pussy on the length of his cock. The tits and the perked nipples. The ruined hair, sticking to your collarbones.
You wonder how he likes what he sees.
Probably enough if he can respond with something like, âI wonât stop you.â
Good to know.
So you take a comfortable seat on top of him, still keeping him down, lining up your sex with his. When you welcome him in again this time, you do so fully. No slow torture, no waiting. You claim your throne until your ass hits his hardened balls.
He says, not quite expecting an answer, so you donât give one, âYouâll kill me today, right?â
And then you start. Put in all the effort you can gather. He feels heavenly inside you, the perfectly curved length moving just the way it needs to. His groans and calls of your names sound promising, telling; you suppose youâre doing a good enough job if his eyes roll back like this.
The hands on your hips push into your flesh more, and when you remove one and bring it to your mouth, sucking his forefinger with your eyes set on him, he loses his shit. Starts pumping up from below, meeting your up-and-down ministrations.
âShiâ whatâ do you think,â he attempts, stagnant breathing, âyouâre doingâŠâ
But heâs grunting in ardour, so you donât stop; donât let him take over fully just yet. No â you roll your hips, bend your back, catch a patch of his hair and then angle your body to crash your lips onto his.Â
The kiss weakens his defences. For a moment, you do feel his nails bruising your skin, but another second later, his touch is as soft as a feather. Heâs so ultimately at your mercy that he lets you trace his abs and kiss his pecs.
Lets you get into a crouch, your palms settling below his chest for support. And then⊠then you navigate north and south, repeatedly, fucking him into you with vigour. He throws his head back, but then looks at you again, blinking fast before his eyes squint shut once more.
âThe fuck are youââ he tries, but you start circling his cock again, moving in eight-curves, seeking support in his biceps.
âWhat?â you voice. âNot good?â
âYou fuckingâ kidding me?â His lower lip trembles when he parts his mouth. You see it even with the lights dimmed. âThis is such⊠a good fucking pussy. I was an idiot to push you aside.â
Youâre too dazed to really pout, but you do hear the undertone; ask to clarify, âYouâre just saying that f-for⊠getting my pussy, huh?â
âWhatâ no. Fuck no. Look at me.â His hand reaches out, fingers poking into your cheeks, and he pulls you down to him, makes you meet his eyes. You slow down. âI wouldnât just do this for any pussyâ I⊠not with you. I donât just. I donât just go home with anybody. âKay?â
His words bloom in your chest like a bouquet of flowers. In such a vulgar moment, you shouldnât be feeling like this, but you canât help but acknowledge the warmth spreading throughout your body. Burning up your already aflame muscles.
You want to know more; so you query sneakily, âWhat does this mean?â
âWhat it means?â he echoes, words blurry, as if drunk. âThat youâre beautiful. And⊠honestly, kind of cool. So annoying but so fucking funny andâ hotââ
âI am? Look at this,â you say, still moving but tired; touching his face, his cheeks, his sweet nose, âlook at youâŠâ
âNo.â He grits his teeth. You donât know what comes over him, but heâs inhaling way too deeply, lightly aggressive again as he retorts, âLook at fucking you.â
And with that, he gets what he desired earlier; flips you over, climbing over you. With your shield lowered, you didnât expect this, and now youâre right where you began. And for some reason, the sharp jaw, the furrowed eyebrows, the starved look hits you even harder than before.
The many inches he sports fell out as he took over, but as he plunges into you again with embarrassing ease, something feels different. How he looks at you. How he touches you, pushing your hair back, kissing your lips with such softness.
And how he holds you when you finally see the stars you waited for, his face in your neck, his thumb on your cheek, his palm on your jaw. Kissing your shoulder, delighted as you seek an anchor in his back, tightening around him impossibly as he fucks you through your high and your broken moans.
âJungkookââ you repeat over and over, and in return, he mutters constant, âI know, I know.â
Again and again and again until his sounds become more uncurbed. Only syllables, rumbling, his chest vibrating against yours until he lifts himself up and retracts his cock.
His pupils shake as he jerks himself off, and you know what heâs seeking, quickly getting to your knees, helping out. You replace his hand with yours, sticking out your tongue before you engulf his dick rapidly.
In surprise, he lets out, âOh, fffââ
Shit, how he sounds. And how wicked he feels in your mouth, tasting like you, tasting like him. Wet and slippery, his balls hard when you cup them. And thenâ a mere moment later, heâs shooting ropes of white down your throat.
Youâll never get used to the feeling. You didnât with your exes, didnât with any other guy youâve been with. Itâs sudden, your gag reflex kicking, but you donât want to stop until he has.
Sticky and hot, you let him; look up to him. His jaw glimmers due to the sheen of sweat, and he holds your hand to keep himself upright. Nearly growls when heâs done, and then calms down bit by bit. Pulls out of you. Plumps back onto his ass.
Catches his breath; and once the two of you have relieved your burning lungs, you with your legs under your butt, you look at each other again. A sudden laugh. He lets his head drop onto his shoulder, and then shakes it before getting back on his knees, nearing your joyous form.
The last kiss of the night is endlessly more chaste. No tongue, no making out. Just a couple pecks, a hand around the nape of your neck, noses grazing. Once, twice. And then, heâs smiling again.
You tell him, âCanât believe this actually happened.â
âCrazy⊠right?â
âCrazy, yeah. WeâŠâ You gulp. âWe can leave it right here, though. Guess we were both riled up.â
He nods, humming, looking to the side. âWe could. But we donât have to. It felt too good to forget, you know?â
You gleam and glow; if you could, youâd curl your fingers into fists, screeching like an excited high schooler in her room, acknowledged by a crush. But you only press your lips together, corners twitching up, cheeks hot.
Then, you say, âYou know what⊠I might just agree.â
âGood.â Another one of his stares to the side, through the door of the room. âYou think we should very quickly and very harmlessly use Jieunâs shower? She probably wouldnât mind.â
âI donât think she would. But sheâd certainly know what happened.â
âLeast of our concerns,â he argues, getting up stark naked. He pats your thigh and then tugs at your arm, adding, âWeâll be tidy. And then we can rest a bit and leave. Am too fired up anyway.â
You know things might change again once youâve slipped into your clothes and walked out into the night air. Perhaps the passion was reserved for this very room, actually a result of unbridled lust and tension.
But you think itâs okay. Itâs okay as you giggle in the shower, flirting and bantering.
Because even if you part from Jeon Jungkook and all this as just a saccharine memory, youâre ready to seize just a little more of this stolen moment before reality sets back in.
5:12AM, Him
Whether itâs the numbers glowing on his digital watch or the fact that the two of you didnât rest as much as youâd anticipated after all, he doesnât know.
The residual heat of the past hour has warmed his body and relaxed his muscles; your touches still haunt him, crawling over his skin and sitting on his knees, tempting them to buckle. And your voice, your sounds⊠like a ghost in his mind.
And you urging him to climb the nearby hill with you, surprisingly steep, doesnât help. He doesnât know why youâd choose such a place at such an hour. The occasional forest around you is dark, chirping, and the road is empty.
Perhaps you feel secure in the presence of another; in this sense, itâs even flattering that you trust him this much.
But heâll admit that his still wobbly condition and this stop of the night are slowly bringing him to his limits. The blazer, at least, is already hanging over his arm, giving him more space to breathe.
Youâre piloting the way, careful, navigating with the help of the light beaming from the occasional street lamps. Jungkook sighs in a half-complaint when the road doesnât end, nobody around far and wide.
Youâre similarly out of breath when you turn to look over your shoulder, barely for a moment before you continue to escort him further up. Then, you encourage, âCome on! We just rested. How are you already tired?â
âWoman. Weâve been walking for a pretty long time.â
âUhmmm,â you exclaim, swaying when you pull your hair over your left shoulder, âtell me something. Whatâs your sleep schedule usually like?â
Well, shit.
Jungkook can already tell what youâre referring to, but the counterargument already sits ready in his brain, just in case. Yet, he hesitates. Studies his surroundings to make sure he knows the way back, stalling on purpose, and when you ask, âAnd?â
He answers, âUh. Late. I slept at 7AM just last week.â
âWhat?!â Your voice is high-pitched, in disbelief, and whatever point you wanted to make is stuck in your throat upon the revelation he divulged. âHoly shit, Jungkook.â
âYeah, but like,â he immediately works on justifying, making use of the comeback heâd already thought out, âI donât walk around town, you know? I spend these nights eating or singing orââ
âWoah. You sing?â
âYes, but. I will not sing to you now.â
He catches up with you in one long step, regarding your countenance. Even in the dim light and the pitch dark, he recognises the roll of your eyes, as if to say, âI wasnât even going to ask.â
But instead of vocalising that very overt thought, your answer comes as smoothly as silk, âItâs fine. You sang to me plenty tonight.â
Jungkook nearly chokes on his spit, disguising his surprise as in the hike reasoned exhaustion. His mind needs a moment to fix itself, but when the balance is restored again, he wisecracks, âYouâre one to talk. May I remind you of what you sounded like earlier?â
âYou can. But I do remember myself, thank you.â
Damn it. Youâre a step ahead all the time. He canât even outsmart you the way he wants to.
âWay to diss me. Youâre hardcore,â he complains, âand here I thought you were kind and sweet and all of that.â
Jungkook nearly retracts his statement, because you throw such a perplexed and disbelieving stare back that he shrinks, reprimanded, âCanât I be both? A woman can certainly be both, man.â
âOf course,â he agrees, hands up as if heâs being arrested, âof course. Youâre both, for sure.â
He anticipates more scolding and scowls, but it seems youâre satisfied with the response he gives. You grant him a pleased, lopsided smirk that resembles his own, and then sigh into the night air, long and deep before your breath morphs intoâ
A mixture of a gasp and a shriek.
âWhââ Jungkook blurts, barely registering the movement scurrying from the left side of the forest into the trees right of him. âThe fuck.â
And just as fast as your gasp appeared, it diminishes, too, turning into a throaty laugh. Jungkook listens in to the echo of the rustles, still seeing the bushes move; whether because of the animal that just flit past or the breeze, he canât say.
His eyebrows shoot up when he looks at you, coming down from the quiet chuckle, and he only realises that your elated joy stems from the way heâs standing right now.
He mustâve instinctively dashed forward, an arm in front of your body, shielding it with his. It was just a squirrel, and in all honesty, it is the two of you who are trespassing, disturbing the forest life with your presence at such a time.
Yet, his reaction mustâve been immediate enough to protect you from whatever loomed in the dark, and you seem to like it for some reason. Because as he clears his throat and lets his arm sink, all you comment is a fascinated, content, âWow.â
âUh⊠all good.â
âYes. All good indeed.â
Your voice is tinged with a combination of gratification and tease, as if youâre one utterance away from adding a little, âMy knight in shining armour.â
Instead, you bite your tongue and look around; Jungkook sees what you perceive a mere moment later. The surroundings clear, the forest less dense; on the left side, a vast opening appears, a wide path ending in a⊠cliff?
And behind that, the town.
If there was a soundtrack to his life, heâd probably hear violins playing right now. Reminiscent of the wind, perhaps accompanied by piano keys that sound like the softly glimmering stars above.
The picture is breathtaking. Not that he hasnât been at such a spot before â he grew up in a big, mountainous city.
But since he didnât expect for the hillâs peak to allow such art, heâs a little more overwhelmed than he expected to be.
From behind, he hears you say, âIn any case. Letâs rest here?â
âUh-huh.â
Itâs hard to avert his eyes. All night long, heâs only felt like this once; this marks the second time.
Gratefully, he walks up to where youâre making yourself comfortable, flattening your dress and settling your bag on your lap. You pull a thin, short cardigan out of it, slipping into it. Itâs certainly cooler up here.
And then, you pat the spot next to you, and he lets himself fall with a sigh; itâs been a long night, and despite the restful-not-restful hour you spent at Jieunâs, it feels as though heâs truly easing up just now.
Jungkook puffs out a breath and takes another look. Properly this time, blinking as if this could help his eyes focus better. Gorgeous. He can see the river from here, flowing through the town in curves, like a snake.
He canât see the entire city, but most of it; it goes up and down. Skyscrapers and then cosy houses like the ones before again. Mountains far away and the lights of the amusement park somewhere in the east. Theyâre the brightest of them all.
âWait,â he says; you oblige, waiting, watching as he heaves the camera out of his bag.
He only registers you from his side vision, but he thinks youâre wearing a smile; confirmed when you breathe to speak again, and his eyes drift to you, immediately decoding the pride in your sparkling pupils.
Why do you look proud? Then again, he guesses he would, too, if he showed you something that he loved and you enjoyed it, too.
Thinking about it, he kind of wants to do it someday.
He pulls at his lower lip, releasing it soon, blinking again as if to release the thought. Instead, he listens as you ask, âYouâve never been here before?â
âI donât think so.â
âHidden spot then.â
âItâs beautiful. Look there,â he points to a spot that you carefully follow, even squinting an eye shut; it makes him smile. âThatâs the ferris wheel in the amusement park. Can you see? Wait.â
The camera comes to use when he points the lens at the direction he signalled towards, nimble hands working on zooming in. The picture unfocuses before the lights of the amusement park flicker again.
Itâs late, he thinks; then again, the summer is coming to an end, the last nights used to keep such attractions open late. September will bring forth grey clouds again, leaving behind the prior seasonâs heat. Raining down on him, forcing the leather jacket out of his closet.
He likes it that way.
No offence to the summer whatsoever; but he likes the fresh gust dishevelling his soft hair. Likes it when the rain patters against the window glass so softly. He sleeps better that way, too.
Barely sitting for a moment, Jungkook already gets to his feet, nearing the edge until heâs kneeling on the ground. The distance has only faded by a couple feet, not much of a difference. But the feeling of the city nearing still persists somehow, tickling his mind just right.
He doesnât know how long he squats there against the backdrop of the luminescent sea, but when he comes back to you, youâre still sporting that excited smile, eyebrows high. Your eyes fall to the camera, humming when he says, âLook. There.â
He magnifies the picture, every spot of it good enough to pin against the living room wall. Carefully, he hands you the camera; surprising, because he regards this pricey piece of plastic as sacred. You probably donât know how big of a deal it is that he lets you handle it.
If you did, youâd never let him live it down.
You scoot closer, your temple now nearly touching his. You stare with an interest he hasnât witnessed too often before. People do not care much about pictures of scenery; in the age of media, how could they anyway? When every stock picture is already memorised and used to the point of insignificance?
But you â your mouth parts as you switch around, taking in details.
âGood?â he asks.
âBeautiful,â you sincerely mutter, returning the camera to him. You hold it like a kitten; perhaps you do know what the gesture meant. âThis is exactly why I wanted us to come here.â
The moment is so serene, like balm, and he nods along with your words, calmly conversing. So it takes a heartbeat to truly untangle your words in his mind and tie them with the meaning your intention conveys.
He assumed you were just showing him random spots of the town, to allow him a glimpse into your mind and to crack your true nature. All this time, he thought you wanted to lead him to bright spaces to lighten up his perception of you.
But what youâre doing instead is turn the spotlight towards him and what he loves.
âYou⊠did it for me?â he asks.
You, casually, as if the thoughtful act doesnât flood him with serotonin, reply, âYeah. To capture a couple pretty pictures. You really do love it, so.â
âI do⊠wow, thanks.â He pauses. Looks down to the buttons on his camera, to his hands; then back to you. âYou thought of it all, right? The nice places and the short rest at Jieunâs. Now this.â
âHmm, tried as much as possible so spontaneously.â
âThank you. Really.â
You return his gratitude with a polite nod, leaning away until you touch the backrest of the bench. Jungkook indulges in some more that nature offers, toying with the settings, zooming in just to observe sights from a closer point.
He doesnât notice when you sigh or when you zone off; or when your thoughts shift back to the minutes and hours of the night. He doesnât notice; and in return, you donât know that heâs still thinking about the intention that brought him here; that you were attentive enough to truly show that some people appreciate art.
There arenât only fleeting nights and then forgotten memories. Because this⊠this right here is a core memory.
Because of you.
Are you thinking the same? Are you proud that his enmity has faded, replaced by a tender smile? Satisfied that your efforts were worth it after all â a goal reached that you set for yourself earlier tonight.
Let me show you pretty places until the sun comes up, and if you still hate me by then, I will never talk to you again.
ButâŠ
Heâd love to talk to you again.
However, your mind hasnât quite drifted in this direction; in truth, he honestly canât analyse or interpret you at all, because the question you pose next is far from what heâd been thinking about.
âTalking about pretty⊠uhm. Did you think Jieun was pretty?â
Jungkook blinks. One eyebrow cocks up; the camera drops back onto his lap. He flashes you a squinted look, a confused laugh erupting before he asks back, âWhat?â
âAh, donât lie. Sheâs very pretty.â
âSure? She is.â
Heâs nearly forgotten what she looked like. But beauty is still perceived and remembered â he guesses he found her good-looking.
âAnd sheâs everyoneâs type,â you prod, âwhat do you think, though? If she didnât have a boyfriend, could you imagine liking her?â
Jungkook thinks about it. Not because he wants to, but because you seem to have found an odd interest in whatever attracts him; maybe your questions are leading up to something. So heâll play along.
âHmmâŠÂ Maybe,â he answers.
âSo she is your type.â
Or maybe, youâre trying to get something out of him that you want to hear specifically. You seem so shy about it all of a sudden; not necessarily an adjective heâd assign to you.
And coming from you of all people, he somehow does not find the topic interesting. Itâs weird; he doesnât want to talk about it; he doesnât care about Jieun, either.
So he shrugs his shoulders indifferently, lifting his camera up again. He points it at you, eternalising your surprised expression just when you open your mouth to leave out a shocked, âHey!â
âThatâs what you get for asking such strange stuff.â
âItâs not strange! Iâm just small-talking.â
âYou do not small-talk.â
âIt could be a deeper conversation if you just admitted it.â
He chuckles, turning his body towards you, half his leg on the bench, âAdmit what?â
âThe type thing!â
âSure. I donât just have one type, though, you know?â
The dispute brought your bodies a little closer, your face far enough for him to still identify his surroundings, but near enough for him to see your eyes twinkling. The light is dancing in them. And itâs much easier to focus on it when you silence like this.
Just for a second.
Because you breathe in again ten seconds later, lightly slapping the thigh resting on the bench. The touch is cursory, tiny, nothing to overthink about â but heâd be lying if he said he didnât want it to linger.
In some way, it still does.
You ask, âOkay? What are your types then?â
âDifferent girls.â This time, only one shoulder shoots up. His eyes match his pensive hum. âWhoever suits me. Pretty girls but also nice girls. Especially nice girls.â
âAlright, be honest,â you begin, mimicking his position until your leg lifts onto the bench, knee nearly touching his. Youâre warming up now. Finally spitting the true question soon, âDo you think Iâm pretty?â
Cute.
But heâs not giving in this easily.
He smirks; he feels the dimple on one side of his lopsided smile the moment you look at it. Youâre distracted enough â so he uses the mental absence to attack you with yet another picture.
For a couple blinks, youâre startled â but as he reacts to his own nonsense with a content chortle, proud of his prank, you sigh. His shoulders rise with his sneering joy, head low as he inspects the picture just taken on his camera.
He zooms into your face, mouth open and eyes wide. You do look so pretty, he thinks â better even since you washed most of your make up off. Yet, he canât contain himself when he shows you the screen, telling you, âYou look alright.â
You laugh, rolling your eyes and your gaze to the view; your giggles start quietly, and then mix with his. Beforeâ
They soon become part of a bad harmony as more voices join your very own night. Somebody is nearing. Jungkook hears the laughter already, but the road is curved and dark; so he canât see them yet.
You might not have expected this, because you push closer to Jungkook on reflex; just at the same time as him. He didnât know he had it in him to always stay so alert around you. Ready to throw himself at intruders.
Crazy.
But once the voices grow in volume, the two of you are soon met with a couple walking past. Theyâre in love, because amidst their titter, thereâs another lewd sound. Or maybe, not too bad; playful kisses?
Yes.
The guy â heâs smooching his girlâs cheek, releasing with a, âMwahâ each time. Your initial surprise soon fades and turns into delight; Jungkook sees it in the way your smile returns. And in the furrowed yet amused eyebrowsâŠ
When the couple spots the two of you, they gasp; the girlâs hand immediately bolts to her chest, as if she just encountered a wild boar. But she catches herself soon, apologising, âOh. Sorry. Weâre sorry.â
You respond with an, âItâs okay!â Jungkook shakes his head politely to shrink their worries. Theyâve walked away as soon as they came, but he still hears the womanâs scolding, effect lessened by the still occurring belly laugh, âI told you to calm yourselfââ
As the world quietens again, Jungkook huffs, tilting his head as he deduces, âSo late and yet⊠Not much of a hidden spot after all.â
âIt feels like an ancient hill to me. I donât often meet others here.â You breathe in the wind, then tongue your cheek. âThey probably didnât even notice where they were going. People in love never do.â
âI guess so.â
He guesses so.
Itâs been a while since he fell in love.
Your head bobs once more before you lose yourself in the skyline, sucking in more of the crisp air thatâll grace you in the upcoming months. Fall is upon the town. He inbreathes the peace, too.
His hands operate on their own; one last time, he lifts it towards you, peeks through the lens again, adjusting the focus until the object clicks again. Youâre not looking at him; he caught your side profile, this time not out of mock or tease.
He means it. And you seem to know.
Because when you look at him this time, youâre not mad or irritated.
Only look at him softly, a smile that truly matches the heights you took him on.
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it was always you.
for as long as you remember, youâve always had the fattest crush on your childhood friend, jeon jungkook. it never blossomed into something more though, because thatâs what happens when life naturally takes it courseâyou grow up, you move on, and you pretend that those feelings never existed in order to maintain the good friendship that remained between the two of you over the years.
so when he visits you after work one day, asking you to marry him, you do everything you can to refuse, because the reason heâs asking you isnât due to the fact that he finally realized that he loved you after all this time, but because he thinks heâs doing you a big favor.
or at least, thatâs what you think.
pairing: jungkook x reader
word count: 13.2k
rating: 18+
content: fluff, semi-angst, childhood friends to lovers au, pining au | ft. naval aviator!jungkook + brotherâs best friend!jungkook; professor!reader + editor!reader | inspired by purple hearts
warning/s: swearing, potentially wrong medical & military information (iâm sorry but i tried to do as much research i can đ), mentions of having type 1 diabetes, making out, heavy petting, implied sexual content: oral (f. receiving), fingering, penetrative sex, unprotected sex (this is only fiction!)
MINI PLAYLIST: â« die with a smile â lady gaga, bruno mars â« juno â sabrina carpenter â« selfish â *nsync â« nandito na ako â benj pangilinan, angela ken
opening note. omg this is my first full length fic in two damn years i think??? certainly took a long time before i had the motivation to write again but i hope y'all like this! to my og readers who still keep up with my shenanigans, this one's for you đ„čđ
âAny questions?â
A boy wearing half-rimmed glasses raises his hand and you gesture for him to speak. âCan we get an extension on the Save the Cat project due tomorrow?â
You sigh, just as several of your students begin agreeing with him and muttering reasons of their own why the extension should be approved. Itâs the week before finals, and youâre aware that the class must be packed with assignments and projects for several of their classes because of it, hence the rather last minute request. They look tired and pleading, a complete reflection of how you were when you were the one in their position nearly a decade ago, begging for an extension from a professor who you thought was kind enough to be swayed with the proposition.
You scan the crowd. âHow many of you are at least 70% with it, hm?â
More than half of the class raises their hands.
âOkay, thatâs honestly unexpected,â you say, pleased to know that they arenât slacking on your subject. âDoes Monday sound good? Thatâs three more days, to be fair. I donât want to extend it further because I have to read everyoneâs work and you guys know I donât like rushing it before turning in your final grade.â
A chorus of relief and thanks echoed in the room, all of your students either dramatically sinking in their chair or erupting in an animated conversation with their seatmate or making crying faces to portray how grateful they are.
âThank you so much, Ms. ____!â
âI love you, Ms. ____!â
âMs. ____, I will offer my first child to you,â one theatrically adds and you smile a bit, rolling your eyes at students like this one who is now opting to flatter you way too much for your act of kindness.
âAlright, alright. Just get it done and Iâm expecting quality work, okay? Class dismissed.â
The whole class begins to gather their things at the cue and you donât stay there a minute longer after your announcement, exiting the lecture hall to head to the faculty room where youâre certain half of the teaching staff have gone home already. Itâs already 8:47 p.m., and all you want to do is head home to get the rest you deserve after an eventful day.
There was a time that having a schedule from 6 p.m. to 9 p.m. wasnât the norm for you. You used to value work life balance so muchâit was even a nonnegotiable you used to say in interviews, saying that if you didnât get enough rest within the week, then the job most likely wasnât for you. But things have been very different for the past months; you have definitely grown out of that mindset due to the fact that youâre simply in need of another source of income to pay for your monthly rent, utility bills, and now your medication. Youâre in a stage of your life wherein you consider working part time as a professor was a blessing rather than a big nuisance.
Making a right turn to where the hallway to the faculty room is, youâre too busy rearranging the papers inside the folder youâre holding to notice a man sitting on the bench placed just beside the entrance. He notices you the second you appear in his line of vision though; he straightens his posture and proceeds on standing up immediately upon seeing you closer, calling your name softly when you failed to look at his direction, too preoccupied with the thought of finally coming home that youâre oblivious that the man trying to catch your attention is Jeon Jungkook.
â____,â he calls again and this time you notice him, your eyes widening instantly.
âHoly shiââ You stop yourself from finishing that sentence. âJungkook?â
He grins. âHey, lamb chop.â
âWhat the hell are you doing here?â
âIs that how you greet an old friend?â
âOh, fuck off.â
He laughs, following suit to you whoâs already giggling just by his presence alone, outstretching his arms then. âYou gonna hug me or what?â
You beam and step forward to embrace him. He returns it without hesitation, muscular arms circling around you and squeezing tightly that it lifts you up from the ground for a quick second. The faint smell of fabric conditioner on his clothes enters your nostrils and you feel like a teenager again, warmth rushing to your face while your heart hammers loudly in your chest. Regardless of how old the both of you are, you think your hopeless crush on the guy will forever live on and constantly transform you into a middle school girl whenever opportunities like these to have him near arise. Youâre just happy youâve trained yourself to be better at hiding it now compared to when you were younger.
âArenât you supposed to be in base or wherever it is that youâre designated?â you ask, the first to let go from the hug.
âActually, I returned from deployment three days ago. Iâm on leave for two weeks.â
âWow. Two weeks, huh?â
âYep. Itâs the longest break Iâve gotten in a while.â
âThatâs good. Everybody needs a break from time to time.â
âSays the girl has a day job and a night job.â He points out with a smirk; your heart does a little leap at how handsome he looks doing that. âWhen the hell did you get into teaching, by the way? I never pegged you to be the kind who can tolerate it. You hate kids.â
âYouâll find yourself tolerating lots of things in this economy.â You snort. âAnd my students arenât kids. Theyâre in college.â
âYeah, which you graduated from six years ago. Still technically kids.â
âAre you seriously jabbing at my age when youâre two years older than I am?â
He rolls his eyes at that one, an indication that you won the argument. âAnyway,â he starts again and you grin, âI didnât come here to compare how old we areââ
âYou didnât?â
He sends you a look. Your grin gets even wider.
âIâm here because I was hoping to treat you to dinner.â
âDinner?â you repeat, not masking the surprise from your voice.
Letâs get the facts straight before we proceed to this conversation.
It isnât a lie when you say that you and Jungkook are great friends. You have been since you were 7 and your family just moved into the house next to theirs. He was a natural playmate, a companion when you couldnât tolerate the antics of your older brother, the boy who looked out for you aside from said older brother, and the person youâve shared significant history with throughout your youth that you can never seem to forget nor disregard.
Itâs just that you never deemed that you were great enough friends for him to go out of his way and visit you at your workplace, offering to treat you for dinner. Gestures like that were reserved for your older brother, Seowon, whoâs the same age as he is and who youâre sure is considered as his best friend. Compared to them, yours and Jungkookâs dynamic shifted slightly after graduating from college. What once was a really close friendship turned into a casual one, with mostly just teasing, light talks, and the occasional welfare checks at times you hear certain news from the other thatâs worth speaking directly about.
At the mention of that, realization dawns on you on why he must be here.
âJungkookâŠâ Youâre trying not to sound mad but you canât hide the exasperation from your voice. âThatâs not the real reason youâre here.â
âOf course, it is. Why else would I be here?â
âHe told you, didnât he?â you ask, not willing to drag this out. âYouâre just going to give me another lecture that I definitely donât need.â
Jungkook frowns, like heâs dismayed that you caught on pretty swiftly.
âIâm right, arenât I?â You pressed.
âHe meant well, ____.â
You scowl. To remark that Seowon is unnecessarily nosy and coddling would be an understatement. That man hasnât left you alone the second he was aware of your condition. Usually, whenever he gets into his âbig brother tendenciesâ, his girlfriend Winnie steps in and helps you lay him off your back. However, itâs different this time; no matter how much you reinstill your independence and insist that youâre fine, itâs like youâre talking to a wall.
âWhat exactly did you hear from him?â you query.
He seems hesitant in answering that. âThat you got diagnosed with type 1 diabetes.â
You wince.
âLook,â he steps forward towards you, âI wasnât going to bring it up unless you did, okay? Iâm just here because Iâm genuinely worried about you and I want to know how youâre doing.â
âIâm fine.â You murmur. âYou donât need to worry.â
âWorry doesnât vanish magically just because someone says so.â
âWell, it shouldâbecause Iâm fine.â
âYou sure? I heard that youâre struggling to buy insulin among other things youâre having a hard time paying.â
âFuck. Seowon told you that too? Thatâs private.â
âMy parents know. He just filled me in because he wants you to have as much support as you can get.â
âI donât need that. Iâm an adult. Iâve lived by myself for years. I can fend for myself just fine.â
âIt doesnât look like it from what Iâve been hearing.â
âAll youâre hearing is a warped and exaggerated version of the story told by Seowon who wonât listen to a word I say.â You huff. âIâm fine and Iâve been doing everything I can, alright? Iâm taking care of myself. Iâm going to the doctor whenever I need to. Iâm making ends meet, buying treatment for this goddamn disease and regulating my sugar levels all the fucking time. Why do you think Iâve been working two jobs for the past year? Itâs because Iâm doing everything I can to stay alive.â
Jungkook doesnât reply, he only remains gazing at you.
âIf youâre here to offer me money or whatever because of what he said,â you add, already embarrassed that you canât even look at him anymore, âthen I donât want it.â
âThatâs not what Iâm here for,â he says.
âThen are you really just here to treat me to dinner?â you question sarcastically.
He laughs and you dare return your eyes at him, catching him peering at you with a fond expression. âYes. Itâs my way of doing a welfare check.â
âWelfare check.â You echo with squinted eyes. âWell, in that case, here I amâalive and healthy.â
âI can see that, and Iâm glad.â He smiles. âBut I need more than just seeing you. I need a conversation and an apology.â
âAn apology?â
âFor being the last person to know about your condition.â
âAnd weâre still talking about that apparently.â You mutter under your breath. âSorry. I didnât think that you wanted to know.â
âOf course, I would have wanted to know. Itâs you weâre talking about here.â
Something about how he said you causes your lips to twitch as you fight off a smile. This isnât a good time to dive into your romantic feelings for your childhood crush, but when heâs letting go of lines like that which are sure to have your heart soaring out of your chest, itâs hard to keep on a cool and unfazed facade. You just convince yourself that he sees you as a little sister and thatâs why heâs so worried; you should already be past your âdeluluâ phase at this age to be affected by such statements.
âI didnât want to add to your worries,â you reason. âYou already have your life to think about. Add to the fact that youâre a naval aviatorâso you literally have your own life first to think about.â
âI can make space for you.â
Is he flirting? Is this a normal thing to say between friends?
You blink. âOkay, uh, thatâs⊠thatâs completely up to you, I guess.â
âI just like knowing those things first hand. It makes me worry less.â
âGot it. Next time I learn Iâm dying, Iâll tell you.â
â____,â he says your name in warning, and you know heâs serious.
âSorry.â You heat up. âI couldnât resist.â
âDonât be a pain in the ass.â
âI promise thatâll be the last time I make a dark joke, Lieutenant.â
Jungkookâs nostrils flare. You prevent yourself from grinning like a fool again in success of getting on his nerves.
âAre you done here? Because Iâm hungry and would really like to get going now.â He changes the subject and gestures to the faculty.
âYeah. Iâll just get my things and then I can get out of here.â
âGreat. Youâre letting me take you to dinner, right?âÂ
âDo I have a choice?â
âNo.â
âFine.â You deadpan.
This time, heâs the one whoâs beaming at you. âIâll wait for you here and we can go.â
âOkay.â
****
When Jungkook discovered that you had type 1 diabetes through a phone call with Seowon, he spent the rest of the night staring at the ceiling, ignoring the snores of his squadmates and overthinking whatâs supposed to happen to you now that you had an autoimmune disease which he was told didnât have a cure. He was assured that you were okay despite it, that there was medication to treat it, and that you had access to them and have been very careful with your lifestyle due to the diagnosis ever since.
He still couldnât be put to ease though. As ridiculous as it may sound, he had this overwhelming realization that life truly was short, that you had to make certain decisions all the time because you need to adjust to what the universe is only willing to give you. It was funny coming from a person who risked his life for a living. He thinks that perhaps he never understood the philosophy of the quote âtime is goldâ until he had a loved one on the same trajectory, always one step closer to possible death.
And so that same night, he decided to file a leave for two weeks, effective immediately after his deployment.Â
He wasnât sure what his game plan was exactly in filing that two-week leave. Was he supposed to barge in your life and force you to let him take care of you? Was he supposed to demand why you ended up having diabetes? Was he supposed to act as a big brother like your actual big brother because he was that worried about you? But if Jungkook was going to be truthful, he already had an idea on what he wanted to do in the back of his headâhe just didnât want to execute it because it was absolutely insane.
Until he heard Seowon suggest it himself when they met up at a bar to share a drink together.
âShe would never say yes,â Jungkook said, beyond doubt that you wonât be persuaded that easily with a plan like that.
Seowon made a face. âI know. That girl is so hyper independentâsheâd rather die than accept help.â He scoffed. âShe needs it though. Itâll help with her medication and she wonât have to pay rent for that shit apartment sheâs living in. Plus, she'll actually get the chance to take care of her body if sheâs not juggling two jobs to have sufficient income.â
âYouâre right.â Jungkook shrugged.
âYouâll do it then?â
He took a sip of his beer. âYeah. Iâd do anything for ____, you know that.â
âEven as crazy as marrying her?â
âSure.â
Seowon stared at him, narrowing his eyes and morphing his expression into a teasing one. âAre you sure youâre not just considering this because itâs a perfect excuse to marry my sister? I know you like her.â
âI donât like her.âÂ
âYouâre in love with her.â
âI donâtââ Jungkook began to deny but Seowon was staring him down. âFuck you, man. Donât make me some kind of pervert whoâs trying to lock her into marriage because he likes her. Youâre the one who brought the idea up.â
Seowon laughed out loud. âI know, I just canât believe youâd agree. Itâll benefit ____, thatâs for sureâyou, on the other hand? Itâs career suicide.â
He shrugged. âIâm okay with the thought that sheâll be okay.â
âBecause you love her, man.â Seowon pushed. âWhy on earth would you consider this if you werenât? Itâs a fraudulent marriage. Youâll be thrown in the brig and be dishonorably discharged if you get caught.â
âWe donât even know if sheâll agree to this whole thing. You said it yourself, she would never say yes.â
âYeah, unless maybe youâre the one who tries to persuade her.â
âMe?â
âYes.â
âDo you want me to buy her a ring and kneel down before her or something?â
âThat can work.â
âWhat?â Jungkook laughed.
Seowon raised an eyebrow. âDonât tell me you donât know how sheâs been crushing on you since we were kids.â
He barked out a laugh again. That he knew; it was impossible not to when a lot of friends and cousins kept on teasing you before, especially at instances Jungkook was in the very same vicinity. âWeâre not kids anymore and I barely see her though.â
âStill, it ought to count to something. It raises the chances of her agreeing.â
âYouâre really cool with me marrying your sister, Won?â Jungkook asked.
Seowon placed down the beer bottle heâs consuming on the counter. âYeah. Youâre a good guy. Youâre not perfect, but I know you enough to know that you wonât do anything that will purposely hurt her. Besides, if this sham marriage ends up to be a real relationship and then for some reason, you fuck up and decide to break her heartâIâll easily know what to do, where to find you, and then Iâll do everything I can to fuck you up.â
Jungkook pressed his lips together to stifle a chuckle.
âNoted.â
****
Itâs always been a big wonder to you how no matter how long itâs been since you saw each other, it still feels like no time has passed between you and Jungkook. You think thatâs why you can never get over him; he always had this comforting and familiar aura that you appreciateâsomething that you sought for in every other person that you liked. Maybe it was impractical, maybe it was the reason you can never hold a relationship for more than two years, but unless you gain the courage to confront your feelings and tell Jungkook about it, then you constantly dispel any doubts you might have whether this was good for you or not.
You donât want to lose him. Admitting that you harbored romantic feelings for him would just make it awkward for everyone: your brother, your family, and then his family. You donât think you can ever trade his smile, the sound of his laughter, and all the good things about him for anything in the world.Â
âAre you dating anyone?â he asks.
You choke on your drink, having just poured yourself and Jungkook a glass of water after the server arrived with the pitcher. Youâre in a Japanese restaurant near the university, aware that the cuisine was a favorite for the both of you hence why itâs what you recommended when he asked where you wanted to dine. The place is packed with people from the workforce and students; youâre thankful that you donât see any of your students within the mix.
âWeâre getting straight to it, huh?â you say.
Jungkook smirks. âIâm just making sure Iâm not upsetting a boyfriend by meeting you tonight.â
âDonât worry, youâre not upsetting anyone.â
He nods in understanding. You donât want to add more meaning to his actions for the evening but he seems glad about the information.
âHow about you?â you ask back. âAre you dating anyone?â
The ends of his mouth lift a bit upwards. âNope.â
âWhy? You donât have the time for it?â
âPrecisely.â
âIt must be really hard dating when youâre in the Navy then.â
âKinda. Weâre away a lot and stationed in different places most of the time. It can get really dangerous for us too and people donât like the stress that comes with that.â
 You bob. âDoes it get lonely?â
âSometimes, but when youâre on duty, you donât get to think about those things.â He chuckles. âBesides, I donât know if this sounds fucked up or notâbut it can get exciting. Flying a plane can be fun, you know. Not to mention that it helps when youâre surrounded by good men in your squadron.â
âYouâve always been an adrenaline junkie.â
âAnd youâve always been a scaredy-cat.â
You scoff at the declaration. âNo, Iâm not.â
âRemember when Seowon and I forced you to ride that ship in the amusement park that sways left to right and as it goes on it falls from a higher standpoint?â
âI donât know what youâre talking about.â
But you do, and Jungkook knows you do, itâs evident by how your expression is trying to feign innocence. That memory is your villain origin story; the whole pretext of why you refuse to ever visit the amusement park or ride an exhilarating ride again. Yet you canât help but recall that itâs one of the rare instances wherein you got to hold Jungkookâs hand when you two were younger, as his hand was the one you were clinging for dear life when it happened while the other was too busy slapping Seowon in irritation.
He snickers, appearing like heâs replaying the scene in his head. âWe should do that again with Seowon during my break.â
âHell no.â
âI thought you werenât a scaredy-cat?â He challenges.
âIâm not.â You give him a kittenish glare. âBut I am busy. I have to send the final manuscript of this book Iâm editing to the chief editor next week and itâs about to be finals week for my students as well.â
He fakes a shiver. âI donât know how you can do two jobs like that, ____. Truly.â
âYou work as a naval aviator so Iâd say weâre pretty even.â
The waiter arrives with your orders not long after, and you and Jungkook carry on with your conversation, jumping from topic to topic without difficulty. Youâre not certain when was the last time you saw each other like this to have so much to talk aboutâwas it last Christmas? Or was it more recent or longer than that? Nevertheless, it feels good and you find yourself blushing multiple times throughout the night, whether itâs because of how his words can have two meanings or how his eyes are staring at you so intensely whenever youâre the one whoâs talking.
You like the undivided attention, the back and forth thatâs occurring as you discourse, the subtle touches one of you does when something funny arises, how your knees are touching underneath the table. You wonder whatâs so different with this encounter that the energy feels so bizarre in a good way? As far as youâre concerned, youâre positive that youâre acting like you always have in his presenceâlively, smiley, sarcasticâand aside from the little touches of flirting here and there, Jungkookâs acting like he always has too.
When dinner was done, Jungkook offered to drive you home. You obliged, no longer in the mood to annoy him for you were tired to make the effort. Before stepping outside the restaurant however, you excused yourself to the restroom first, checking your blood sugar with the glucose meter you brought along wherever you went. Itâs a hassle but itâs necessary, largely because youâre still in the middle of saving up for the insulin pump that would help you regulate your sugar levels easier.
After administering yourself with the insulin injection you have, you spend a few more seconds inside the enclosed room. You should be past the point of feeling sorry for yourself, but itâs times like this wherein youâre with a loved one that the dejection hits and you wish that youâre in a better predicament than you are right now. Youâre close to being broke, youâre overworked, youâre somehow fatigued all the fucking timeâthose factors arenât soothing your worries at all. Itâs a miracle how you manage to keep an optimistic mind amidst everything.
âReady to go?â Jungkook smiles at you once youâre back at the table and you nod, clutching your bag tighter against your body and following him to his car.
He drives you to your place, turning the radio on, and letting it play while the both of you sit in silence. Youâre both tired and you almost even sleep during the ride. Itâs only when Jungkook gently shakes you awake that you realize that youâve arrived in front of your apartment building.
âIâll walk you up,â he insists as youâre unbuckling the seatbelt.Â
âThatâs no need, Kook.â
âOf course, it is,â he says. âIâll walk you up. Thatâs nonnegotiable.â
So, you allow him.
It takes five minutes tops to reach the door leading to your apartment. As you rummage through your bag to grab your keys, Jungkook patiently stands there, occasionally glancing around the hallway and even smiling when the old lady that resided in the same floor got out of her room to throw out the trash. He receives a smile in return which you notice and grin fondly at.
âWell, this is me.â You turn to him, done unlocking your door. âIâd invite you inside but you should probably get going. Itâs quite a long drive back home.â
âYeah.â He breathes out a chuckle. âHey, tonight was fun. It made me realize how I missed you.â
Your brain temporarily malfunctions; you force yourself to recover quickly. âMe too. I had fun tonight. Maybe we should do this again whenever youâre on a break.â
âAgreed.â
You flash him a smile. âYou can go now. Goodnight.â
Jungkook nods, however doesnât move a muscle. Heâs looking at you, like really looking at you, his eyes moving from one feature to another, as if heâs memorizing your face or having a hard time arranging the words he wants to say. You guess itâs the latter, familiar with a tongue-tied Jungkook that it takes you a few good seconds before youâre demanding why heâs impersonating a mannequin.
âThereâs something I want to say,â thatâs what he utters and you almost snort due to your assumption being right.
âOkayâŠâ The smile is still on your lips. âWhat is it?â
âPromise me you wonât get mad first.â
âWell, if youâre making me promise that then itâs probably worth being mad about.â
âItâs not as bad as you think.â
âThatâs not convincing at all.â
âItâs justâŠâ He begins and trails, biting his lower lip, âitâs⊠itâs why I went here. Why I went here to see and meet you, I mean.â
You unconsciously recoil at the revelation. Itâs certainly a rookie mistake to believe that there was no ulterior motive in Jungkook meeting you today. You just didnât reckon youâd actually be truly disappointed at thatâat the idea that he just didnât randomly decide to visit and be with you earlier until now.
You draw a long breath. âWell, I knew you werenât just feeling generous and wanted to treat me to dinner out of nowhere.â
Thereâs a pause and then he resumes. âJustâbefore I say it, you have to hear me out, okay? You have to let me explain before you berate me.â
âI canât promise that either.â
âYou have to.â
âWhy do I have to?â
âBecause what Iâm about to say is for your own sake. You know I always have your best interest at heart, donât you?â
You wrinkle your forehead in further confusion. âCan you just get on with it? The vagueness is making me more annoyed.â
âI just donât want you to misunderstand.â
âMisunderstand what?â
âWhat Iâand Seowonâgenuinely think is the best option.â
âOh, and Seowon is in on this too?â You bellow. âHave you and Seowon just been conspiring behind my back the whole time?â
âCalm down.â Jungkook puts his hands on your shoulders, a chuckle inevitably escaping him. âIâm sorry for dragging it out. You should know Iâm high key afraid of you, thatâs why.â
âYou should be.â You grumble.
Another chuckle, but heâs back to appearing anxious. You want to shout that this isnât healthy, that youâre close to giving him a real reason to be afraid of youâyet once he blurts the confession out, youâre speechless, gawking at him and staggering backwards in complete shock. Perhaps you would have bolted as far away from him as possible if not for his solid grasp.
âWhat?â You hiss.
He swallows hard.
âI want you to marry me, ____.â
You donât bolt away running. You shake off his hold on you though, and before he gets another word in, youâre hastily rushing inside your apartment and slamming the door to his face.
****
Jungkook was your first kiss.
It happened in a game of truth and dare. You were at a party of a mutual friend and when the bottle miserably pointed in Jungkookâs direction, the person who was tasked to think of his dare when it was his pick said that he dared him to do 7 minutes in heaven with you.Â
He profusely refused at first, especially since Seowon was in the same party, but everybody began booing and next thing you know, Jungkook was agreeing as long as it was fine with you. When you nodded to make your consent apparent, your friends were quick to shove you both in the closet, some of them pulling Seowon back who was complaining how it wasnât right to bully you into doing 7 minutes in heaven with Jungkook. They calmed him down once they bullied him into agreeing too.
âWe donât have to do anything,â Jungkook told you in the darkness, his breath fawning over your face. âYou donât have to feel pressured. Itâs just a stupid game.â
You blushed.
Secretly, you were hoping that heâd kiss you or touch you. Who didnât want to do anything with their crush at the age of 15? A lot can happen in 7 minutes. You were aware that sometimes people made out, went as far as third base, and although you didnât want to go that far with Jungkook, you wanted something to happen while you were stuck in this small closet with him. There werenât a lot of instances that put both of you in this kind of situation; you wished that you were brave enough to ask him to kiss you or do the first move yourself.
5 minutes in, Jungkook turned towards you.
âIs it true that Taehyung kissed you last week?â
You whipped your head so fast that you might have given yourself whiplash. âThatâsâthatâs not true. Where did you hear that?â
âDuring homeroom. Some girls were talking about it.â
Your cheeks burned. âOh.â
âSo, itâs not true?â
âNo.â You shook your head. âI havenât even had my first kiss yet.â You laughed weakly.
It was his turn to seem stunned. âYou havenât had your first kiss yet?â
You shook your head again, then realized he might not see you doing so. âNot yet.â
âWant me to change that?â he asked, grinning.
He said that with a boyish grin and teasing tone, but you sucked at social cues (plus, you really couldnât see shit that much) that you started nodding.
âOkay,â you told him.
âHuh?â
âYou can kiss me.â
âOh, oh, shitâI didnâtââ He was blabbering, about to take back what he offered. âI mean, I was just joking butââ
You widen your eyes. âYou were? Oh my God, Iâm sorry, I thought you wereââ
âNo, it was my fault. That was a little out of line for me. Iâm sorry.â He was laughing and you felt like burying yourself 6 feet under. âIt was a stupid thing to say. But if you want me to kiss you, itâs cool.â
âIt is?â Hope sparked within you.
âYeah. Itâll just be a peck anyway.â You can tell he was smiling through his voice. âJust donât tell Seowon because he might punch me in the face for kissing his sister.â
You cackled. âDeal.â
56 seconds before the 7 minutes were up, Jungkook leaned down to match your level and placed his lips on yours.Â
****
Youâre seething with rage, the embodiment of Godzilla, channeling the God of War, Ares, in your body; you harshly press Seowonâs number on your phone to call him and he answers after three rings.
âWhatâs up?â
âI will fucking murder you,â you snarl.
A beat. You hear shuffling. Then he answers, âyou already talked with Jungkook?â
The nonchalance and calmness in his voice drives you to be more frustrated than you already are. âYes, I have! What is wrong with you? Why would you plant that idea on his head?â You yell, not caring that your walls are thin and that your voice can probably be heard by the couple that lived next door. Youâre feeling a mixture of anger, embarrassment, and every negative emotion that exists at the moment. Youâre comparable to a bull who just saw the color red.
â____, it wonât be a big deal if you donât make it to be.â
âAre you hearing yourself right now?â
âDid you even let Jungkook explain?â
âI donât need him to spell everything out. I know why heâs asking me to marry him.â
âThen you know too that itâd be good for you.â
âMarrying him wonât be good for me.â
âWhy not?â
âIt just wonât!â
âYouâll get health insurance benefits that you donât get with your current jobs. You can pay less rent once you move in at Jungkookâs placeâthereâs a huge chance he wonât even let you pay him while you stay there too. Heâs away most of the time anyway, so staying there wouldnât be a problem. Plus, you can start studying for a masters degree like youâve always wanted.â
You groan. âNot like this. This is crazy.â
âThe both of you can divorce once youâve saved up a little. It really isnât that complicated.â
âItâs a sham marriage!â
âItâs a sham marriage with Jungkook.â
âThat doesnât make it better.â
âAre you sure? Your grade school diary might disagree.â
âOh my God, thatâs fucking low of you to bring that up. You just gave me another reason to hate you.â You stomp around the living room, acting like a teenager because of your brotherâs behavior. This isnât the first time he revealed that heâs read your diary before; that doesnât mean itâs less infuriating to be reminded that he has. âI swear, you better fucking sleeping with one eye open tonight. Iâm choking you to death.â
Seowon laughs out loud. âJust marry him. Heâs surprisingly amicable with the idea.â
âThatâs because youâre pressuring him! I bet you and Mom devised this entire thing together.â
âMom doesnât know. To be fair, sheâd probably have the same reaction as you. Itâs all me and Jungkook.â
âWow. You have two brains and yet none of you thought this was goddamn stupid?â
âItâs not stupid. Itâs genius if you come to think of it,â he says. âJungkook just wants to help you, dude. He wants to make sure youâll be okay and all that shit. Youâre the reason he filed for a two-week leave, did he tell you?â
Your heart does that jumping thing again. âNo.â
âWell, he did. Heâs on a break for two weeks because he wants to convince you to marry him and actually marry you within that time frame.â
âThis is nuts.â You sigh, finally flopping down the sofa and rubbing your face with your free hand. âThe both of you are nuts. How are you okay with this?â
âItâs Jungkook. I trust him. Donât you?â
âOf course, I do, I justââ you cut yourself off and frown, âI just feel like itâs unfair for him. Iâm marrying him because of military spouse benefits and what does he get?â
Thereâs a long pause, and you almost check your phone to see whether Seowon has already hung up on you or not.
âItâs better that Jungkook answers that question,â he tells you finally.
âWhy? You canât answer it on behalf of him?â
âSomething like that.â You can imagine him shrugging. âAll I know is that heâs genuinely concerned about your health and your financial status right now. So, just think about it, okay?â
âGod, fuck it, fine. Iâll think about it.â You grimace.
You hang up and glance at the door.
You donât think the conversation you just had with Seowon took that much time. The initial rush you had upon having your longtime crush propose to you is wearing off and youâre realizing that it was a dick move to literally slam the door right in Jungkookâs face earlier, leading you to stand up from your seat and look through the peephole to check if heâs still there.
He isnât, which you sigh in relief at.
As you lean against the door and regulate your breathing, you think how funny it is that Seowon is right about one thingâand that was grade school you would have been delighted at the thought of getting married to Jungkook. Heâs your dream guy; your parents loved him, his parents loved you, the both of you got along very well, and his personality and looks are everything that youâre looking for in a partner. It sucks that you live in a world where the only reason he wants to marry you is because heâs afraid youâll die because of self-neglect.Â
Your phone pings and you unlock the screen to look at the message that flashes on it.
Jungkook: hey, seowon just messaged me to say that you two already talked Jungkook: iâm sorry for jumping on you with a topic like that⊠Jungkook: iâm shit at confrontation lol Jungkook: also itâs the first time iâm proposing so give me some slack
You scoff at his audacity to joke about it this soon.
You: itâs okay You: iâm sorry too for what i did You: the answer is no btw
Jungkook: already??? Jungkook: letâs talk about it first
You: no need You: i donât want to marry you
Jungkook: oof thatâs harsh
You: sorry not sorry?
He doesnât respond and you think youâre safe. Maybe Jungkook does take no for an answer and youâre confused because youâre a little disappointed that heâs not falling on his knees, begging you to marry him like what your imagination is supplying you.
However, after you took a shower and went to check your phone again, you see that Jungkook messaged you a few minutes ago in response to your last message.
Jungkook: give me 10 days and iâll change your mind
You have the urge to go take a shower again because of how hot your body is feeling at the statement.
You: hate to break it to you but youâre not matthew mcconaughey
Jungkook: đ€Łđ€Łđ€Ł
****
Itâs not part of Jungkookâs branding to chase a woman. Typically, women chase him; they chase him in every city and country that he gets stationed in, flirting with him and hoping that theyâll get the chance to take him home for the night for a mindblowing one-night stand. They never succeed though, for despite their pretty faces and sultry gestures, Jungkook only smiles and declines every offer, saying that he had a girl waiting back home that he loved very much.
He used to think that he only used that as an excuse because heâs not the type to hook up with every attractive girl he meets. There are times when he succumbs, when he gives into the temptation of a little fun, especially after a life threatening or highly stressful missionâbut most of the time, he thinks he declines and use that pronouncement of his because his mind reverts him to the idea of you, to what would happen if he just gained the balls to ask you out.
Evidently, although asking you out and asking you to marry him are two completely different things, heâs a bit afraid that your answer will always be a hard no. Itâs what youâve been literally spelling out to him since the day he presented the idea, regardless of how heâs trying his best in swooning you or explaining how this is the perfect plan to help you gain an upper hand with your diagnosis.
âIâll file a restraining order against you, Iâm serious,â you say to him when he appears yet again outside the faculty room, waiting for you to gather your things and head home. Youâre wearing a white button up shirt and pinstripe wide leg trousers, an outfit combination that he ogles at before he goes down to business.
âYou wouldnât.â He glares at you. He gestures for you to let him take your backpack, and despite what you said, you let him. âAlso, what the fuck is in this thing? Youâll break your back if you keep using this.â He swings your backpack on one shoulder.
You laugh. âMy laptop, its charger, a couple of notebooks, books, pens, then the outputs of my students.â
âArenât they supposed to submit virtually? What happened to Google Classroom?â
âI still use it, but sometimes I like to have their work printed out so I can write the comments better. How do you know Google Classroom?â
âI have a squadronmate whose kid uses it for class.â
âAh.â You nod in understanding.
You two continue walking forward.
This has been your program for the past few days. Jungkook goes to the university you work at, heâll wait outside, youâll threaten him with something ridiculous, heâll take your bag, heâll offer to take you to dinner, youâll decline, and then heâll drive you home anyways. Before that routine ends, heâll lean on your door frame and give you his best puppy eyes, asking you to marry him for the sake of your welfare, and youâll scowl at him, insisting that you donât need his help to survive.
âDinner?â he asks, right on schedule.
You glance at him. âNo. I want to go home and sleep for 12 hours.â
âBusy day?â
âYep.â
âYou know, if you marry me, you wonât have to work two jobs and overexert yourself.â
He doesnât need to turn to you to know that youâre giving him a dirty look. âI wonât marry you, Jungkook.â
âWhy not?â
âBecause marriage doesnât work that way.â
âIt does. Billionaires do it all the time. The mafia does it too. Itâs always been some kind of transaction.â
âWell, if I marry you, what do you get?â
âThe assurance youâre taken care of.â
âThatâs cheesy.â
You share a laugh and he grins.
âItâs true,â he says. âIâll be fine as long as you are.â
He waits for you to quip back a reply, flickering his eyes to you when it takes longer than usual. Instead of the sneer heâs expecting, you appear to be flustered, an expression that is very recognizable for him whoâs known you since foreverâan expression that makes it too obvious for Jungkook that the crush you had on him that he thought has been long gone was still there. Heâs been seeing it a lot lately, particularly when heâs uttering lines that sound flirtatious on purpose; heâs positive that youâll threaten to kill him when you discover that he basks on the fact that he can still make you all flustered and cute, which encourages him to do and say anything that would elicit a reaction from you. Was it unethical to seduce you into marrying him? He might have to rethink that part too.
Reaching the parking lot, he unlocks the doors to his vehicle and places your bag inside the backseat. He watches you walk around the car, about to go to the passengerâs side, but then you wobble a bit and his attempt to get inside is instantly forgotten.
âHey,â he strides to where you are, gazing at you as you now hold onto the hood, âyou alright?â
You raise your chin up. âKook, can you get my bag?â
Jungkook doesnât need to be told twice. Heâs swinging the door again and getting your bag from the other end of the backseat while you get on the passengerâs seat, keeping the door wide and placing your legs outside, your feet planted on the concrete.
âWhat do you need?â he asks, crouching in front of you and zipping the bag open.
âGlucometer.â
He halts. âWhat does that look like?â
âItâs in the yellow bag. There.â You point at it right when he rummages through a certain part.
He brings it out and you take it from his grasp. Your movements are sluggish but he can discern that youâre doing your best not to be too slow; heâd present to help but he knows that he might prolong what youâre doing due to his cluelessness, so he just observes, noting how youâre pricking your finger with a device and then pressing it lightly to the glucometer which shows that your blood sugar is low.
âApple juice,â you mutter to him and he finds it faster than the last one.
You grab the juice pouch from his grasp, prying the straw attached on the back, pushing its end for it to pop out of its plastic coverâthen your hand shakes, preventing you from continuing and punching in the straw properly.
âLet me do it,â he says.
You donât fight him, you just slump against the seat as Jungkook picks up from where you left, and the moment he does the job and guides the straw to your awaiting lips, a long exhale through your nose escapes you.
âHow are you feeling?â he whispers. He didnât notice that he was holding his breath the entire duration of the scene.
Another sigh. âBetter.â
âDoes this happen a lot?â
You seem to hesitate. âNot a lot. Just when life gets a bit too hectic.â
â____ââ
âJust take me home.â You donât give him the chance to lecture you. âPlease, Jungkook.â
Defeated, he nods. âAlright.â
âThank you.â
He helps you position yourself properly on the passengerâs seat. âBut weâre talking about this at your place.â
Before you can protest, he closes the door.
****
Lee Hyunwoo was the name of the guy that you brought home for Christmas Eve eight years ago. It was the first time that you did, and Jungkook hated how Hyunwoo was considerably handsome, intelligent, and kindâthe exact kind of person he always imagined you deserved.
In the short time Hyunwoo spent with theirs and your family that night, everybody loved him and was already inviting him to the next gathering, all the while Jungkook avoided him at every cost, puzzled by this strong dislike he was feeling for your guest. He was annoyed at the manner in which Hyunwoo had an arm around your waist the entire evening, how you grinned up to him, eyes sparkling and all that shit. Hell, you used to look at him like that.
âHoney, can you get the mango float we have in our freezer?â Jungkook heard your mother tell you, and without thinking, he stood up from his chair and made a beeline to where you were, telling you heâd accompany you to your house.
âThatâs fine,â you told him. âItâs literally next door.â
âYeah, but it might be heavy.â
âItâs not.â
âBetter safe than sorry.â
You rolled your eyes and agreed then, excusing yourself from Hyunwoo who was in an engaged conversation with Seowon. The pair were geeking out because of their mutual love for the MCU and the next film slated to be released the following year.
Upon arriving at your home, you dashed to the kitchen with Jungkook trudging behind you. He wasnât sure what his next course of action should be now; all he wanted was some alone time with you, away from the presence of that college boyfriend of yours, but now that he had that, he couldnât think of anything that he wanted to say or do. He wasnât even sure why he was feeling a bit jealousâwas it because of that saying? Wherein people are bound to want what they canât have? Or was it that you only appreciate what you had when youâve already lost it?
âHow long have you and Hyunwoo been dating?â he asked, leaning against the counter as you pulled your freezer open.
âFour months, I think.â
âFour months? And you already brought him home?â
You snorted at his tone. âHis family is in another country so I thought itâd be nice to invite him.â
âYou must really like him then.â
âYeah, but Iâm not in love with him or anything.â You placed the mango float on the space beside Jungkook on the counter. âHeâs nice, and he likes me too.â
âDoes he treat you well?â
You flashed your eyes at him, amusement dancing in them. âWhatâs with that question?â
âWhatâs with it?â
âNothing, itâs just thatâŠâ you trailed, a smirk etched on your face. âWait a minute, are you⊠you canât possiblyââ Jungkook was widening his eyes, ready to deny your accusation once you questioned whether he was jealous of Hyunwoo or notâ âare you pulling an overprotective brother skit on me, Kook?â
Fuck, thank God, he thought.
âI prefer âoverprotective friend skitâ,â he said.
âThat doesnât have a nice ring to it.â
âBut Iâm not your brother.â
âYou donât have to be, Iâm just saying that you and Seowon have been acting similar since Hyunwoo and I arrived.â
âNonsense. Seowon likes him.â
âOh, so you donât?â
He pressed his lips into a tight line.
âDid you just admit that you donât like Hyunwoo?â you asked, chuckling. He was grateful that you didnât seem to be offended by it.
âI didnât say I didnât like him.â
âInstead you implied it.â
âNo, I didnât.â
âYou kinda did.â
He heard you laugh and he couldnât help but allow himself to laugh as well.
âIâm sorry,â he apologized. âMaybe Iâm just not used to you dating anyone. You are chronically single.â
âCanât say youâre wrong.â You snorted and picked up from the mango float, marching back to his house and gesturing for him to follow you.
He did, no words spoken between the both of you once more. Though when you were entering their place again, with Jungkook holding the door open for you, he mentioned something he never reckoned heâd have the guts to mention out loud.
âWhen you open my gift,â he began, âdonât do it in front of Hyunwoo, okay?â
âWhy not?â You werenât paying attention to where you were going, intrigued by his warning.
âHe might not like it. Youâll see.â
That night, at the comfort of your bedroom, Hyunwoo nowhere near but instead sleeping at the coach downstairs in your living room, you opened Jungkookâs gift and saw that it was a necklace with your birth flower as its pendant.
You smiled, rolling your eyes to yourself, and slept with that giddy look never leaving your face.
****
âNot so fast,â Jungkook grunts.
Did he think that you were going to be less difficult since he was helpful earlier? Yeah, he did. He likes to think that if it wasnât for him, you would have taken longer in feeding yourself with apple juice, so he at least wanted a thank you in the form of your willingness to have an adult conversation with him tonight. However, that clearly isnât the case because when he walked you up to your apartment like he always did, youâre attempting to lock him out, shutting the door as fast as you can once youâre inside, thus trying to prevent him from initiating that talk he wanted the two of you to have.
âSeriously?â He successfully pries the door open and you scowl at him.
âJungkookââ
âNo, you donât get to reason your way out of this. Iâm done hearing you out. Itâs your turn to listen to me.â He steps inside your apartment.
You groan, striding to the sofa and throwing your bag there. âYou canât force me to marry you.â
âIs marrying me so fucking bad that you canât get over it for health insurance benefits that can really help you?â He demands, infuriated.Â
âThatâs not the issue.â
âThen what is?â
âYou can get arrested!â you exclaim. âAnd so can I! Does that not freak you out?â
âWeâll only get arrested if we get caught.â
âIâm not willing to take the risk.â
âIâm not willing to see you die.â
You scoff out a laugh. âWho the fuck said anything about dying? Iâm not dying.â
âYou almost passed out on me. You almostââ
âItâs an error on my part, I admit.â You sigh. âWhen I get busy and preoccupied, sometimes I forget to check my sugar levels regularly throughout the day. Iâm sorry.â
âAnd you expect to be convinced that you have everything handled?â
âGod, Iâm not a child. Stop treating me like I canât do shit for myself.â
âPlease, ___,â he approaches you with the most pleading expression he can muster, and he watches as your hard expression crumbles, âjust accept my help. Itâs really not a big dealâyou wonât even see me often, so keeping up with the whole marriage ploy wouldnât be difficult. Weâll divorce in two years, we can pretend we never got married after that.â
âYou just donât get it, donât you?â
âWhat do I not get? If you think I donât understand something, then explain it to meââ
âI canât marry you,â you say. You do so like itâs final, like thereâs no point in arguing with you because he can never change your stand on this. As heâs pleading with his eyes to urge you to agree, youâre communicating with your eyes in a similar way thatâs wishing he would just drop this. âItâs wrong.â
His eyebrows furrow. âThis isnât the time to go on your high horse and decide whatâs wrong and whatâs not. Itâs a fraudulent marriageâof course, itâll be wrong to some degree.â
âNo, I meanâŠâ You turn away from him, rubbing your face in exhaustion. âItâd be wrong of me to marry you. Iâm taking advantage of you if I do, and I donât like that.â
Jungkook shakes his head, frustration worsening at the childlike excuse. Surely, you werenât that naive, were you? âYouâre not. Iâm not doing this against my own will. Besides, we get extra pay just for being married. If it makes you feel better, I wonât split it with you.â
âThat wonât make me feel better.â
âThen what will?â
You flop down on the coach and lean back, closing your eyes. He knows heâs being a pain in the ass but he canât just stand here and do nothing. He thinks heâs already come too far in convincing you, he isnât going to back out now. Every single day spent together, he can feel you warming up to the idea of marrying him for health insurance. Your connection and entirety of your relationship has been off the charts recently that itâll be harder for him not to be assured that before he leaves for his job, youâll be taken care off.
Jungkook goes to the spot beside you, sitting down. Your knees bump together, he keeps on gazing at you, waiting for you to focus on him; a minute passes and his gaze moves to your hand thatâs laying on the small space between you.
Without overthinking, he stretches out and clasps it, allowing his fingers to play with yours that finally captures your attention. The moment he glances up, he sees that youâre staring at him and he doesnât let go, he even smiles, a quiet promise that heâs always willing to listen to whatever you want to tell him.
You hesitantly smile back. âYou know,â your eyes train back to your intertwined fingers, Jungkook reveling in the warmth of your skin, gaining more confidence in acting out his feelings, âthere was a time wherein I would have said yes immediately if you asked me to marry you.â
He smirks, canât deny how hearing that inflates his ego a bit although this route in the conversation isnât where he expected to go. âWhat changed?â
âFor one, I grew up.â
âOuch.â
You laugh. Then you stay quiet for a while before speaking. âCan I confess something?â
That piques his interest. âAnything.â
âBut you have to promise not to make fun of me.â
âThatâs impossible.â He teases. âWhat is it?â
You stall, readjusting your position so that you can directly face him. Jungkook doesnât let go of your hand, he keeps it in his grasp, his thumb rubbing along the expanse of your knuckles.
âI like you, Jungkook. I really really do,â you finally say and he blinks, startled.
It shouldnât surprise him, considering that itâs been long established that he knew of your crush already, though he doesnât seem to have anticipated for you to boldly admit it when all these years, itâs only been some kind of unspoken understanding that neither of you downright acknowledged.
You continue speaking. âIn fact, I like you so much that maybe it developed into love at some pointâIâm not sure. Iâm at this stage of no longer being afraid of what I feel, I think? Most of the time, I just let it occur like itâs something so natural. Like itâs a feeling that I can never get away from? Like whatever I do, thereâs no way to shake you.â You chuckle half-heartedly. âThough never in a million years would I have thought that Iâd confess all of this. What for anyway? I donât want you to be burdened with what my teenage heart couldnât rub out.â
His mind is racing; hundred thoughts, hundred scenarios, hundred experiences heâs spent with you since the day you met. Jungkook never realized how much he needed you to say that you liked himâthat maybe you even loved himâuntil he heard it from your very mouth that you did, causing every inhibition and doubt he had to vanish. Now, he only wants to engulf you in an embrace and shout Yes, I feel the same way! Sorry for being a fucking corward and not doing this first!
He would have done all of that in a flash if it didnât appear that you still had something to say. Based on your rather constipated posture and the hand heâs holding thatâs becoming clammy, he discerns that youâre just in the first part of what you wanted to admit.
âActually, thatâs also why I canât let myself marry you,â you say. âI know it sounds ridiculous, but I donât know⊠it feels really icky somehow. I feel like Iâm holding you hostage, or that Iâm tricking you because of an ulterior motive, or that Iâm defying the laws of the universe by having the chance to marry you. Iâm not sure. I just know that I donât want to marry you if it means Iâll only get to do so because you think youâre doing me a huge favor. I donât want to be your charity case, KookâI deserve to be more than that, you know? Iâm not traditional or whatever but if itâs not for love, Iâm not keen on getting married.â You abruptly pull away from his clutch, embarrassment washing on your features by what you stated. âPlus, two years might not be that long but what happens when you meet someone and you like her? How can you explain that youâre only married to me because I need it for my medication? Itâll just be unnecessarily messy. I donât want to hold you back from those kinds of things. I donât want to be a hindrance.â
Thatâs his cue. Thatâs when he knows heâs supposed to kiss you and take your breath away, to admit that heâs certain that he has loved you since that one time when he was in the Naval Academy and although the training was hard as fuck, the thought of you gave him strength and he didnât want to see anyone as much as he wanted to see you afterâthat when you and Seowon visited him, that familiar urge to have you alone was all he felt the entire time, solidifying the idea that perhaps he didnât just see you as a friend.
âYouâre unbelievably dense, ___,â he murmurs, smirking at the play of events, and you glance at him, expression showing disbelief that heâs somehow treating this matter lightly.
âWhat?â
âDo you honestly think I go around and offer marriage to every woman out there who can benefit from being a military spouse? Do you think Iâm that generous? Iâm not. I wouldnât ask anyone to marry me for the same reason if they werenât important to meâor if I didnât like them. Iâm not that much of a saint,â he adds. âI mean, Iâm taking a two-week break to convince you to marry me. Iâm spending time with you every single day. Iâm driving for almost an hour and a half, enduring the traffic to get from my apartment to the university you work in to do thatâand you think this is because I want to be charitable?â
Silence. Your forehead wrinkles. He thinks youâre still not getting the point.
âIâm in love with you, ____,â Jungkook says.
Your breath hitches in your throat. Youâre opening your mouth, then closing it, then opening it again, then pressing it into a thin line. He thinks you look cute, being taken aback like this, and heâs wishing that heâs done this sooner so that the last five days of him chasing you around like a lost puppy was spent with talking more about whatâs possibly waiting for yours and his relationship next.
âAre you serious?â you ask after what seems like forever. âOr are you just saying that because youâre that desperate to have me on board with the whole fraudulent marriage thing?â
âGodââ Heâs inching closer to you now, laughing, watching your lips twitch at his reactionâ âIâm convinced that you were born into this earth to drive me fucking crazy.â
And just like that, he no longer restrains himself from kissing you.
It takes you a few good seconds before you will yourself to move. You canât seem to process the reality of Jungkook admitting that he was in love with you and then taking the liberty to plant his lips on yours. Youâre not complaining, of course, but you are a bit overwhelmed that it literally makes you freeze, unaware of what youâre supposed to do now that your fantasies are coming into life.
However, once you feel him angle his head to the side, doing so to deepen the kiss, your reflexes kick in and youâre kissing him back, encircling your arms around his neck and leaning towards him, Jungkook sighing in what appears to be relief. He grips your hips to support you as you try to straddle him, but your movements are so clumsy that you end up sprawling against his chest instead, perched on a leg of his that provides pleasure on the spot you need him the most. He chuckles at your lack of gracefulness, gliding his lips to your cheek and down to your jaw, nipping.
âThis okay?â he whispers with a palm drifting to your bottom.
You nod and Jungkookâs mouth is back on yours in an instant. He squeezes your ass, takes his time in fondling with it, cheekily slapping whenever you get brave yourself and push your tongue past his lips, before he skims his hand lower to your thigh and signals for you to mount him. Upon being properly sat on his lap, you get an immediate feel of his hard length through his jeans, prompting your imagination to run wild and induce the filthiest things he can do to you if neither of you stops.
âHoly shit,â he curses, your kisses roaming to the base of his throat where you lap and suck.
It becomes a dirty pattern for a while. The both of you will take a brief pause from making out to remove a piece of clothing or kiss every other exposed skin there is: the cheek, the jaw, the neck, the collarbones, the shoulders. Then one of you hauls the other back for another passionate kiss, hands skating everywhere on your bodies, sounds of arousal echoing inside the room; youâre starting to get lightheaded but youâre positive itâs not because of your sugar levels running low.
âI hate that it took us so long to get to this point,â he mutters.
You grin. âIâm sorry.â
âDonât apologize. Iâm the manâI should have confessed long ago.â
âWhy didnât you?â
âI donât know. âWas afraid to lose you, I guess.â He draws his head back and admires your blissed out expression. âBut then when Seowon told me you had diabetes, I panicked and thought that I might lose you either way.â
You go back to making out, Jungkook guiding your hips in grinding on his clothed length. Itâs addictiveâthe intimate feel of him, how heâs not shy in making sure you know how much heâs craving to be as close to you as you are to him. You think you can spend the whole night just doing this and be okay with it.
âFuck, Kook,â you groan against his mouth, a hand descending to his stomach and to his manhood, âyouâre so⊠so fuckinâ hard.â
Youâre palming him now, tracing the erection evident under his boxers.
He lets out a grunt. âYeah, baby, I know.â
âDo you⊠do you want meââ Youâre breathless, not able to continue whatever it is that you want to say.
He understands you just fine though. âNo.â He shakes his head. âDonât do anything.â
Youâre not sure what Jungkook means by that. How are you supposed to do nothing when you want to do everything to him? You soon comprehend what he means when he guides you to lay down on the sofa, when his lips skim lower and lower, passing your breasts, giving them the attention they deserve, until he goes lower than that and discards your underwear, kissing you in between your legs.
Itâs like heâs releasing all the pent up emotions heâs been keeping all these years. His tongue and fingers are relentless, his voice is telling you that heâs eager to coax an orgasm out of you, and as he lifts himself up to return to his previous position, face hovering yours, youâre positive that heâll get everything he wants because without a doubt youâll give him everything he wants from you too. Hell, if he uses this opportunity to ask you to marry him again, you might answer yes straight away, no longer bearing in mind the worries you expressed to him earlier.
Although did that even matter anymore? Jungkook said he loved you. He said you drove him crazy. You never thought youâd come to see the day heâd utter those words but here you are. The man of your dreams is kissing you, pleasing you, and looking damn enthusiastic as he does all of that.
âLast chance to stop me,â Jungkook teases. His eyes are glassy and you can feel his cock nudging on your thigh.
You giggle, bringing his head closer to press another long kiss on those pink and plump lips of his. âPlease never stop.â
âNever?â
âNever.â
âIâm going to take you up on that.â
âPlease do.â
After this night, youâre certain that youâll never allow yourself to be with another man aside from Jungkook. At the back of your head, you always thought that you were his, regardless if that wasnât true or that there was no real relationship to prove thatâhowever, at this moment, as he thrusts in and out languidly, you unquestionably know that you are. You belong to him now and he belongs to you; he lets you know through his love-filled gaze, his passionate kisses, and the manner wherein he moans your name.
âI love you,â he says, like heâs still in deep longing for your touch and affection.
You hum, tangling your fingers through the strands of his hair. âI love you, Kook.â You stare at his eyes. âI canât remember a time I didnât.â
A boyish grin erupts on his features.
Time passes by quickly. In a few more of his kisses, of the intoxicating slam of his hips, of his seductive whimpers, youâre coming beneath him, Jungkook pulling out and jerking his length until he too comes, his seed landing on the base of your tummy. You have the nerve to giggle at that, grinning at him with low-lidded eyes, and Jungkook hastily wipes his cum off your skin, attacking you with another passionate kiss that leaves you breathless.
âThereâs no way youâre not marrying me after this,â he murmurs.
You teasingly graze your teeth on his bottom lip. âIâll think about it.â
He groans. âDonât think about it. Just say yes.â
âAt least let me sleep on it, Kook.â
âFuckâfine.â He grabs your sides and pulls you flush against his body. âGuess Iâll have to keep on convincing you until you agree.â
****
âGod, why is this so difficult?â Jungkook whines, keeping you in his embrace, head tucked between your cheek and shoulder.
The air is very humid and Jungkookâs in his naval aviator uniform, which doesnât look cool in a sense that air is properly flowing through the material. He doesnât care though, doesnât care that itâs sticking to his skin as he refuses to let you go, not even when you complain playfully.
âKook, Iâm fucking sweaty.â
âI donât care.â
You laugh.Â
Heâs leaving to return to his duty and youâre here with him outside the base before he enters, being with him until the last possible minute because thatâs how much of a good wife you are.
Yes, you and Jungkook did get married. Three days ago in fact, at the city hallâs courtroom. Neither of you invited your parents; they didnât know about the occasion and you refused to tell them, afraid that they may be critical about yours and his choices when they discover the true reason why youâre rushing to be wed. The only people that remained to be aware of it was Seowon and his girlfriend, Winnie, who served as the witnesses, which was fine by you. In your understanding, this was just for the papers and your health, and not the real deal yet to be celebrated lavishly.
âIâll propose to you again after a couple of years,â Jungkook promised after the ceremony. âLetâs renew our vows and Iâll give you an amazing wedding.â
You would have told him that there was no need, but who were you kidding? You did want a proper wedding with Jungkook. The previous week didnât even feel like you were newlyweds. Yes, the both of you compacted all of the dates you could have if one of you werenât such a chicken in five days, and yes, though the honeymoon stage was experienced and practicedâit was only because you were a new couple who after years of hiding their feelings for one another, was now finally free to express it as much as they desired.
âCall me everyday?â you ask when he finally pulls back, Jungkook pecking your lips one more time.
âDefinitely.â He smiles. âVisit me whenever possible?â
âOf course.â You kiss him too.
His smile transforms into a grin. âTake care of yourself, alright? Keep me updated all the time. No sugarcoating allowed.â
âYes, Lieutenant.â
Rolling his eyes, he gives you another kiss and engulfs you in a tight hug, lifting you off the ground that causes you to giggle.
âOkay, pack it up, love birds!â Seowon shouts.
The two of you turn to your brother whoâs leaning on his car, the vehicle that was used to transport the three of you today. Youâre still in the middle of moving your belongings at Jungkookâs place and Seowon was kind enough to volunteer helping, always dubious that you could do stuff on your own. Despite your reluctance, you let him assist you, mostly because youâre trying to make a conscious effort in not upsetting him again.
Letâs just say that when the judge hailed you husband and wife at the civil wedding, Seowon wasnât thrilled to see that the kiss shared between you and Jungkook wasnât as fake as the supposed sham marriage, leading him to the conclusion that in the middle of Jungkookâs ruse of convincing you to be his wife, something must have happened that led to your approval and that rather 18+ rated kiss. Mostly though, heâs just offended that neither of you thought of telling him that you were an official couple before the wedding.
Jungkook unwillingly places you down.
âI think I need to go,â you say.
He nods with a sigh. âIâll miss you.â
âIâll miss you too.â
âCall you tomorrow?â
âYes.â You affectionately caress his cheek, bringing his face down for the very very very last kiss.Â
He leans into it. âFuck, I donât want to leave.â
âSeriouslyâhurry up!â Seowon shouts and you pull back.
âI will kill him,â you tell Jungkook.
âHeâs your brother,â he says. âAnd now, my brother-in-law, so I canât let you do that.â
âThat might be your very first red flag, Jungkook, insinuating that youâre choosing my brother over me.â You cross your arms. âTell me, if the both of us were drowning, would you save me or Seowon?â
âYou,â he answers without missing a beat.
You narrow your eyes. âIs that the truth?â
âOf course. Seowon would probably undrown himself anyway and youâre shit at swimming. Itâs an easy choice.â
You punch him hard on the shoulder and he feigns hurt, snickering. âFor the record, I donât think anyone can âundrownâ themselvesâbut fine, you pass the test.â
Jungkook faces Seowonâs direction and does a final salute, your brother returning it swiftly, and just like that, you and him share your last farewells. You watch as he goes through the entrance of the base and sends you a wave of goodbye; you weakly copy the gesture and stand there for a few seconds, just watching him fade from your view the further he trudges inside. You donât think saying goodbye to him ever felt this heavy, and you blame it on the fact that after all this is the first time youâre saying goodbye to him with the assurance that he loves you tooâand that alone weighs millions.
You spin on your heel and go to Seowon whoâs already in the driverâs seat. As soon as you get in and wear your seat belt, heâs giving you a dirty look.
âWhat?â you ask.
âPlease never do that in front of me again.â
His statement makes you smirk. âWhy? Didnât you want this?â
âWant what?â
âMe and Jungkook to be together.â
âWhen on earth did I say that?â
âYou previously admitted that you were lowkey playing cupid by suggesting that Jungkook marry me for health insurance.â
A short pause. âYeah, but that doesnât mean I have to watch you two reenact a porno every fucking time.â
âWeâre notââ
âYou are. Donât deny it.â He grumbles. âGod, every time I see you two, itâs like Iâm Ross from that one Friends episode where he accidentally sees Monica and Chandler doing it from the window of his apartment.â
âYeah, I remember that.â You laugh. âIn my defense, you havenât seen me and Jungkook actually do the deed soââ
âWait, so the two of you have?â
Your expression drops. His tone is approaching older brother protectiveness territory and youâre quick to attempt diffusing the situation. âI will not dive into that. All Iâm going to say is that Iâm a grown adult and so is Jungkook.â
He grimaces before starting the engine. âYeah, never dive into that. I donât need to hear the details.â
You share a laugh and then silence fills the car.
You press your lips together, looking at him while he backs out from the parking spot. âHey, thanks, by the way. For driving today, and for offering to help me later, and maybe for also never minding your own business.â
You recall how Seowon was the one who couldnât stop worrying about you and finding a solution when you told your family that you had type 1 diabetes. Your parents were concerned, they pestered you for months to force you to accept financial assistance from them, but they gave up soon after. Seowon though? He never did. He persisted through every outburst you had; he tolerated your bitchiness and your dirty looks all the time. Out of everyone in your life, you always felt like regardless of how stubborn and prideful you could be, Seowon was worseâin the best way possible.
A crooked smile illuminates his face. âYouâre my kid sister. Itâs my job to never let you experience peace in your whole life.â
You scoff. âWell, youâre damn great at what you do.â
When you reach Jungkookâs apartment, unloading the boxes and arranging your stuff to its designated places, your heart swells in happiness as the reality sinks in that your life is heading in the right direction after months of feeling hopeless. It drives you to be more thankful to the little things, to the people who were always by your side, to your previous circumstance that although wasnât ideal was still manageable. A lot donât get to have that kind of privilege and you promise yourself that youâll make an effort to find more things to be grateful about from this day forward.
âOh, I forgot to mention,â Seowon approaches in the middle of you arranging your books on Jungkookâs near to empty shelf, âWinnie wanted to give you this. She would have handed it over herself but sheâs going to be busy for the next few days.â
You take the frame from his hand and see that itâs the picture Winnie took of you and Jungkook after the ceremony. Itâs in the restaurant that you ate at to celebrate the civil wedding. Jungkook was grinning at you with an arm around on the backrest of your chair, you were leaning towards him, smiling at the cameraâand the absolute selling point of why this was the best picture ever taken was because of how cake icing was scattered on your faces, places on spots in an artistic manner like it was planted there on purpose for the picture and not because the both of you were being silly that instance.
You think it showcases your relationship with Jungkook marvelously. Itâs playful, itâs sweet, and most of all, it demonstrates how you two are clearly great friends.
âThis is so beautiful, Seowon,â you say.
You immediately send Winnie a heartfelt thank you message for the gift and continue to take a photo of the frame, sending it to Jungkook as well.
Once you hit send, you type out a message to accompany it.
You: look how cute we look đ„č
Youâre certain itâll take hours before he replies so you keep your phone again, going back to staring at the picture which is now placed on one of the shelves. Itâs the sole picture frame you have with Jungkook. In fact, itâs the only picture that Jungkook has in his apartment, and you like to think that this might be the mark of the new beginning youâll have with him. Even though your relationship wouldnât be traditionally explored given his occupation and how heâs most likely going to be away a lot, you donât mind.
If thereâs one thing you really believe in, itâs that waiting for Jungkookâwhether consciously or unconsciouslyâalways brings out the best outcomes.
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đ baby, could i be more obvious?
you lose your virginity to jeongguk, the only boy youâd ever trust with such weight. and what you both feel for each other couldnât be more obvious.
based on this ask
from the grande series àšà§
pairings: bookstore employee!jk x virgin!fem reader
genre: smut, strangers to friends to lovers
ratings: +18 / mdi
warnings: lower case intended, porn with some plot, mutual pining, age gap (21 n 25), first time, dry humping, tit play (small boobs lover jk!!!), oral (f receiving), fingering, hand job, size kink, protected sex, missionary, cowgirl, multiple orgasms, dirty talk, sooo much praise, and pet names, jeongguk is so so loving and caring, sm fluff hehe, bit of angst maybe? but lovey dovey confession <33
word count: 12.9k
a/n: aaaa this is so silly and rushed but theyre so cute and i had to do something about it. ps: this is my first time writing smut, hope itâs not embarassing Help ..any feedback is appreciated đ©đ»âđ»
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you met jeon jeongguk at your favorite bookstore. the one tucked away in the quieter part of town, hidden in the shadow, squeezed between a small cafĂ© and a vintage shop with an unassuming facade. itâs not the kind of place that draws crowds, most people passed it without a second glance, without paying it the attention it deserved.
but you always did, too attentive for your own liking, too curious for your own sake. you had always been the type to notice the quiet places where stories seem to breathe.
there was nothing not to love about the store. it felt like a refuge in tones of deep brown wood and soft amber light. it wasnât flashy, but thatâs why you loved it. stepping inside always brought a sense of calm, brought you closer to feel the whisper of worn leather bindings, the smell of old pages. it was being understood, accepted, seen.
meeting jeongguk wasnât fate. it wasnât some serendipitous moment ripped from a movie script. you didnât bump into him while too immersed in your favorite novel. you didnât reach simultaneously for the same book and argued over it, only to end up in the cafĂ© next door.
jeon jeongguk was simply working there. he was an employee at the bookshop, stocking shelves, checking inventory. he just so happened to be charming, and the only one who came up to you after youâd been standing in front of a high shelf for what felt like an eternity.
âlooking for anything in particular?â
when you turned to follow the source of the honey voice, not too low but still smooth, you had to fight hard to keep the gasp that was threatening to escape locked in your throat. he was tall. way taller than you. his dark hair fell in soft curls, brushing the nape of his neck, framing his face with carefully crafted, but effortlessly beautiful curtains. and when you managed to escape his wide eyes, seemingly storing all the warmth the shop could offer, you found it even harder to contain the surprise as you spotted a trail of intricate ink designs starting from his hand and running up his muscled arm, only to disappear beneath the short sleeve of his black polo.
he was still staring, expectantly. and you just kept standing there, mute. observing like a maniac. you stumbled over your words, trying to steady your voice, ïżœïżœohâ um. i was looking for the japanese author, kawamura?â
the way his eyes lit up at your request was unmistakable. and after that, the same spark would flicker in his gaze every time you stepped foot in the shop.
you later found out that he was new, which explained why you hadnât noticed him before, all the times youâd gone and searched for books. which werenât a lot, but enough for the other staff to know your face through the years. and now, certainly enough for jeongguk to become acquainted with your presence.
you started finding excuses to go more often, week after week, convincing yourself that you needed new books to accompany your tea as the colder months approached. truth be told, it wasnât just the books pulling you in. your friends kept teasing you about the real reason why youâd always hurry there after your lectures ended, and deep down you knew you just had to accept it. you were developing a silly, little crush.
jeongguk didnât seem to mind the growing frequency of your visits. if you had to guess, youâd say he was just as eager to see you. or maybe he was just exceptionally good at his job. if that were the case, you hoped he was crowned employee of the month every single time.
there was always a line he never crossed. his professionalism remained intact. he greeted you like any other customer, offering his help when you needed it. and you always seemed to need it, didnât you? yet, there was something in the way his eyes crinkled at the corners when you smiled, the way his lips curved in that subtle, almost hidden way when you left with a new book in hand. youâd walk out of the store, clutching your latest literary find, grinning like a fool, and jeongguk would watch, his own smile lingering long after you were gone.
deep down, you knew this couldnât last forever. you were just a student, miserably scraping by in the tiniest flat imaginable, your waitressing part-time job barely paying enough to make it through the month. but youâd feel bad, wasting hours of jeonggukâs shift, monopolizing his time with your indecision over paperbacks, keeping him off his tasks, just for it to be a waste. you needed to show him your gratitude, in a way. contribute to the income of the bookshop. so, you kept buying books. you werenât sure you even had more space to fit them in your own shelf.
yet no matter how much you tried to convince yourself to stay away, you couldnât help it. books were your escape, your joy, and the fact that they were sold to you by jeongguk was just an added bonus. the problem wasnât himâ it was your wallet. your poor, overworked wallet that kept reminding you of the price of each novel and how your little crush was becoming financially unsustainable.
it was one of those afternoons after your morning lectures, where the crisp autumn air made you even more eager to slip into the bookstore, feeling that familiar rush of warmth as jeongguk greeted you with his usual smile. this time, he surprised you with a book he had found just for you, claiming âyouâd enjoy it. feels light and genuine, just like you.â
when it came time to pay, cheeks still flushed after the sickly, sweet grin he flashed your way, you sighed as you rummaged through your bag for your card.
he scanned it, only to glance up at you with a hesitant expression, âhuh⊠it declined.â
âwhat?â you laughed, though it was shaky, disbelief lacing your words, âno, that canât be right. try again.â
he did, but the outcome remained unchanged. he met your eyes with a worried frown, and you felt your face flame in embarrassment, not the one that made your insides swarm with butterflies minutes before this.
you groaned, pressing your palm to your forehead in mortification, âfuck, this is so humiliating.â
jeongguk chuckled softly, his voice soothing, âhey, itâs really not. itâs okay. iâll pay for it.â
your jaw dropped, and you looked at him like he had lost his mind, âno, what? are you crazy? donâtâ donât do that. you donât need to. iâll just come back another day.â
what followed was a ridiculous, playful back-and-forth. you refused, he insisted, and soon enough, the two of you were locked in a silly tug-of-war over the book itself, laughing despite the situation. he finally threw his hands up in surrender, his smile impossibly wide, the kind of grin that made your heart skip a beat.
âalright, alright,â he relented, shaking his head, âbut iâm still not happy about this. if i canât pay for your book, at least let me buy you a coffee. iâm clocking off in 15. will you wait for me?â
you couldnât contain your eyes from widening, your smile to dumbly paint your features as you eagerly nodded. you didnât trust yourself to speak, afraid that if you did, some ridiculous teenage squeal would escape. he was grinning just as hard, though.
and so, you began seeing jeongguk outside the confined space of the bookstore, in a world beyond the shelves and spines of novels. his attire was always simple, dark tones that exuded comfort and warmth. his sweaters seemed soft enough to curl into, and his presence felt just as inviting.
but you pushed those thoughts away, trying to remind yourself that he was becoming a friend. one of your closest, even. you tried. you did! but you just couldnât help the way your mind wandered, imagining what it would be like to lean just a little closer, to feel the warmth of his embrace. god, get a grip.
still, it was impossible to ignore the flutter in your chest each time his eyes lingered a little longer than necessary. outside the bookstore, jeongguk was different. not in a bad way. he was just more relaxed, more himself. his touch came naturally, a hand at the small of your back guiding you through a crowded street, his arm slung casually over your shoulders like it belonged there. he was playful in a way that hinted at something deeper, his jokes sometimes drifting into uncharted territory, leaving your stomach in knots, your thoughts spiraling down paths you hadnât dared explore.
and then there was the way he looked after you. he was older, just by a few years, 25 to your 21, but it felt like a gulf of experience separated the two of you. heâd seen more, lived more. experienced more. knew more. about all that stuff youâd been scared to explore, the stuff that happened in the intimacy of oneâs bedroom. you knew he had his fair share of girlfriends, he told you about it. just how youâd told him you never got close to a relationship. you just flirted around with a boy in high school, messily making out in the corners where no one could see you. but it never went over that.
jeonggukâs protectiveness over you came naturally. you didnât mind. it was reassuring, the way his hand tightened around your wrist in a crowded space or how his gaze followed you across a room, always making sure you were safe.
you found yourself spending more and more time together. walking through the city, staying up late at cafés, or just wandering aimlessly in his car, talking about everything. you told him about your classes, the stress of exams, your dreams of becoming a teacher, and the uncertainties that weighed you down. he listened, really listened, in a way that made you feel seen, like every word you said mattered.
jeongguk shared his own story too. heâd dropped out of college a year ago, deciding that the path everyone else had planned for him wasnât for him at all. now, he was drifting, trying to figure out where he belonged. he took inspiration in the way your eyes sparkled at the prospect of your future. little did he know, your eyes just reflected the galaxies in his that you loved getting lost into.
it terrified you. because with each passing day, your feelings for him grew stronger, more undeniable. it wasnât just a crush anymore. it was something that had its own weight, pulling you closer to him. the lines were blurring, but you let them.
one night, after a long week of classes and stress, you went out with a few friends. jeongguk hadnât been able to join, caught up with work, but when your tipsy self had dialed his number later that night, he picked up right away. your voice was soft, your words slurred. they echoed through the barâs bathroom, followed by your uncontainable giggles as jeongguk playfully scolded you on the other line. the same softness was painting his face, and he only hung up when he started his car, showing up within minutes.
by the time he arrived, you were well past tipsy and leaning dangerously toward drunk. you didnât notice him sheepishly greeting your group of friends, their eyes lighting up with interest at the image of the renowned jeon jeongguk, until his low voice called your name, slipping his arm around your waist and helping you up from the bar stool, âcome on, letâs get you home. say bye-bye.â
you glared at him, face slightly reddening at his tease. he just loved treating you like a little kid. loved poking fun at you. still, you leaned into him, the scent of his body wash wrapping around you like a comforting blanket, banter ready on your tongue, âiâm fine, grandpa,â you slurred amusedly, but your legs wobbled as you tried to walk.
he chuckled under his breath, guiding you out of the bar, âyeah, sure you are. youâre barely standing.â
the night air was cold against your skin, but jeongguk was warm, his body solid and steady as you clung to him.
you didnât mean to say it, didnât mean to let the words slip, but in your hazy, alcohol-fueled state, you genuinely wondered, âwhy are you so good to me?â
he paused for a moment, glancing down at you with a small smile, âbecause you deserve it.â
the car ride was silent, in a comfortable way. you got lost in the way the city flashed past you, and jeongguk stole sneaky glances at you from the corner of his eye, his hand gripping the steering wheel a little tighter each time he let his eyes linger.
when he reached your place, he helped you inside, gently guiding you to the couch. you were too dazed to fight him when he insisted on getting you some water and a blanket. he moved around your cramped flat with ease, having memorized where every single thing belonged after his countless stays at your place, watching movie after movie or simply keeping you company while you revised.
he sat beside you for a while as you rambled on about your night, how the music was slightly disappointing even with the drinks being overpriced.
jeongguk listened attentively, even with your words stumbling out in messy fragments, jumping from one topic to another. his eyes traced the way your hands moved in wild gestures, the way your lips fumbled for the right words, the glaze in your eyes reflecting the soft glow of the room. he didnât realize it at first, but his body instinctively followed your movements, leaning closer with every excited wave of your arms, his knees brushing against yours, his head nodding in time with your words.
only when you stopped talking, turning to face him and catching his gaze in the dim light, he was made aware of the little distance between you. it wasnât unusual for the two of you to be this close. always sneakily seeking for one another in booth seats of the pubs youâd visit every so often, his hand lingering on your knee for longer than needed when calling for your attention, your arms locking together when walking through the city.
but this moment was different. it was heavy with something unspoken. and so tender, fragile.
your cheek rested on the back of the couch, your body slouched, your eyes half-lidded. he sat straight, his torso turned towards you, his head bending down to study your face better.
you didnât think when you blurted his name out, your gaze falling on his lips, âjeongguk.â
he hummed softly.
âi want you to kiss me.â
the words tumbled out before you could stop them, but you didnât take them back. you couldnât.
jeongguk didnât seem startled by your unfiltered words. he didnât flinch, didnât pull back. he only tilted his head slightly, the corner of his lip inching up sweetly, âyou want me to kiss you?â
you hummed, with the same softness, only tinted with uncertainty. fear of rejection. you were suddenly aware of what you asked him now that he repeated it back to you. and you realized how much you meant it, just now.
but his tone wasnât condemning. it was seeking for confirmation that he heard right, that it wasnât just your drunk thoughts talking. still, he didnât lean closer, nor let his eyes fall to the lower part of your face.
he spoke, his voice barely above a whisper, âiâll kiss you. just not now.â
âwhat? why not?â
your eyebrows were cutely furrowed, the blush the alcohol painted you with only making the pout on your lips even more irresistible.
jeongguk hissed amusedly, âbecause youâre drunk. and when iâll kiss you, i want you to be sure about it. want you to remember it.â
âbut i am sure about it. i want you.â
once again, your blunt confession didnât seem to faze him. he smiled, kept his tone low, âi know. i want you too.â
your breath hitched at the unexpected sincerity of his words, your eyes roaming all over his face. you subtly shifted closer, your lips parted slightly with desire. the flame that lit up your body burned all the alcohol from your system, and suddenly you were more awake than ever. you were alert. your heart pounding, your core pulsing. he looked so inviting, so pretty in that light.
he wet his lips, darting his tongue out to play with his piercing. you could feel your head spin. you didnât just want him. you needed him. and it wasnât the alcohol. you were sure of it.
you could only dumbly lean closer and hope for the best, but he chuckled softly, his large hand framing the side of your face and forcing you to stop your path towards him, look at him, swim in the intensity of his gaze.
his tone was gentle, delicate, understanding, âif you donât change your mind, weâll talk about this tomorrow, okay? when youâre sober. hm?â
his eyes searched yours, waiting patiently for your response. you only managed a small nod, your eyes glossy with frustration and a bit of shame. you bit your lip, muttering a small okay and letting him fix your hair with the fondest look in his orbs.
he left your flat only after tucking you in your bed, because you begged him to, and after much more pleading, you even convinced him to stay beside you until you fell asleep. you didnât feel him slip out of your hold on his hand, the weight of his body leaving your bed, and with it, the warmth of his presence going as well.
but the following day, after downing the glass of water you assumed he left by your nightstand, you bore through your headache and searched for his contact in your phone first thing as you woke up. you were instantly hit with flashes of the night before, and you remembered exactly what you told him, what he promised. that if you still wanted it, you would talk about it. and you just needed to hear his voice, as soon as possible.
youâre not sure what there was to talk about. you asked him for a kiss. his lips on yours. itâs not like there would be much space for talking.
with your phone to your ear, the ringback tone was the only sound filling the space between your thoughts. you felt a twinge of anxiety in your stomach. you should have probably called later, let yourself adjust to consciousness. maybe rationalize yesterdayâs events and find a better way to move around them. give yourself more time to think it over. the wait stretched on, and it only gave your doubts more space to spiral, turn into little monsters whispering evil things in your ear.
he probably wanted to talk to you about it because he thought it was a stupid idea. he didnât really want it, was just lying to get you to shut up. he thought you were foolish, childish, not his type at all. or maybe, he was seeing someone and didnât know how to tell you. wow, that would be humbling. you wanted him so bad and he was justâ
âhello?â
his voice sounded muffled through the line. you clumsily adjusted your device to your ear, sitting up, still in your bed, last nightâs makeup smudged under your eyes, âjeongguk?â
âthat would be me, maâam.â
âhi,â your voice was low, thick with sleep and the remnants of your hangover, and it sounded weaker than youâd intended to reveal.
âhey. feeling better, miss?â
his playful tone was laced with affection, and it instantly put a smile on your face. you didnât realize it, but your mind was clearing, your body unconsciously easing back into the covers, âi am.â
jeongguk hummed, and you heard the faint sound of movement on his end. he was probably getting ready for the bookstore, but still found time to pick up your call. it made you alert, awkwardly aware of what both of you were probably expecting out of this conversation.
you cleared your throat, smoothing some of the morning grogginess and sounding lighter, softer, âcome over after your shift? i miss the office. and your ramyeon.â
when he chuckled in your ear and teased you for that one time you said his cooking was average, you felt your shoulders relax. even more when he agreed and shot you a quick see you later, followed by the exaggerated sound of smacking lips.
it was his signature goodbye, always ending your calls with that. it would usually make you roll your eyes, a grin tugging at your lips. but this time, it made you blush like a pubescent teenager. get. a. grip.
jeongguk noticed the slight shift in your demeanor right away. he could taste the tension, smell it in the air, feel it in the way youâd become stiff, even when his fingers barely grazed your skin. it was a stark contrast to how things had been between you two.
you still moaned around the first bite of his ramyeon, still giggled with your mouth full as he mockingly mimicked your voice, playfully downgrading his cooking skills from months ago. but you blushed a little harder at the smirk that followed his usual tease. subtly ran away from his hand seeking your contact.
with time, both of you had grown comfortable with the casual touches, playful proximityâ tickling at each otherâs sides, poking jokingly, or simply brushing hands when no one was looking. it had become a natural part of your dynamic.
but after your earlier slurred confessions, he could tell that it was affecting you more deeply now, your body reacting differently to his touch. the way you startled at his closeness, the small breath catching in your throat. it all made his head spin, his fist tighten in restraint. you werenât the only one affected.
on your couch, you found it hard to relax in his familiar embrace, an arm around your shoulders, your head resting on his chest. the steady rhythm of his breathing usually soothed you, but tonight, your heart was fighting its way up, dangerously close to spilling all over his neat clothes. you exhaled shakily, the office playing quietly on the tv doing a weak job at distracting you.
and jeongguk couldnât take it anymore. lust wasnât the only feeling simmering under the surface. he was scared. that he may have read it all wrong, that you only blurted it out because you were drunk and not in control of your thoughts. he was terrified of stepping the wrong way, doing something that would determinately scare you away, end whatever you two had for good. and he didnât want to lose you. wanted to keep you. and that went over the need to taste your lips.
through the corner of your eye, you could feel him stare down at you intently. his other hand reached to move your hair out of the way, and you let him. you turned to meet his gaze, and relaxed slightly at the fond look on his features.
âwhatâs going on in that pretty, little head of yours? will you tell me?â
you blinked. gulped down loudly. the reassuring smile on his face grew bigger. you shifted slightly in his hold, moving your body to face him, and the arm that was around you naturally fell down your waist.
you tried to word it differently, tried to suppress it just a bit longer, find another way around it, but his blown out pupils lowered all your inhibitions, âdo youâ do you still want to kiss me?â
âi do. very badly.â
his response was immediate, and it came through a whisper. it caressed your face sweetly, and it made you aware of the natural gravity that pulled you even closer, to the point of your noses almost touching.
you were unable to move, to initiate anything, to be truthful to your desires. your orbs jumped on every corner of his face, widening. he let his palm close around your hip, then he spoke low, âwill you let me do that?â
jeon jeongguk kissed you slowly. his lips lingered on yours, tasting, moving with intent. his hands framed your face, traveling down your neck and holding you gently by the nape.
it was sweet, and delicate. he took his time becoming acquainted with your pace, letting you control the movement of his doings. when he darted his tongue out to trace your lower lip, you granted him permission to explore the insides of your mouth.
with tongues intertwined, the kiss gradually became sloppier, more desperate. your fingers found home in his long curls, tugging at the base of it, and supporting yourself while arching your body into his, pressing yourself against his chest, seeking for confirmation that he wanted this just as badly as you did.
he welcomed your proximity by letting his palms fall to your waist, keeping you close, and tracing his touch dangerously close to the curve of your ass.
you whined lowly, but the sounds became ingloriously louder the more he pressed your body against his hard one, his touch wandering, squeezing, feeling.
you messily straddled his lap and sat with your knees on both sides of him, your desire deepening with your kiss, devouring his lips harder, twisting his hair in a confused tangle the more you got lost in them.
his hands went to hold your hips, and you soon felt a stronger weight on them, gently pulling you away and giving you a minute to catch your breath. though it was taken out of you the moment you took in the man in front of you, his lips swollen, his eyes half-lidded, his curls all over the place.
he let out an amused chuckle, combing through your own mess on your head, âhey, pretty. itâs okay. thereâs no rush. we can take it slow, hm?â
in that small moment, you were made aware of your own eagerness slipping out of your control and rushing your actions, insatiable with wanting more, but not even being sure if jeongguk wanted that more just as much.
instead, you were sure your whole face was a crimson shade with the way the boy under you fondly grinned, his hand guiding you by the nape and letting your lips meet again in a small peck, before he focused on your face again.
jeongguk never left your eyes, and you were too hypnotized to even think of looking elsewhere. his gaze was steady, magnetic, thirsty to drink in your reaction as he guided your hips against him, letting them drag over his clothed bulge. you moaned, unshameful, your eyes rolling back.
âyeah? you like that?â
you could only nod dumbly, repeatedly, using your hands on his shoulders as support while you kept grinding on him. slowly at first, just how he had suggested. but the stimulation was too good, your clit deliciously meeting his hardness, spreading the embarrassing amount of wetness you had already collected all over your panties. you tentatively picked up your pace, his hands immediately stopping you.
âyou need to be patient, doll.â his scold was only playful, the smirk spreading on his features letting you know he enjoyed the effect he had on you, the way he bit his lip communicating he was just as affected. but you liked the feeling of him guiding you through this.
you didnât know what to do, werenât sure how to please him, too shy under his adoring look. you sheepishly smiled, falling onto him and hiding yourself in the crook of his neck.
he laughed, his chest moving with it, and you could feel his heart pumping, his warmth meeting the side of your face. he took the hand on your waist and dragged it up your back, soothingly, âyouâre doing so good, baby. okay?â
it was sweet, and the praise made you pulse around nothing. you nodded, your nose brushing against his neck as you timidly let your lips leave a trace of wet kisses along his adamâs apple, going up his jaw. he hummed, the sound reverberating in his throat and against your mouth.
you left small pecks on his cheek, to his nose, retreating after laying a quiet one on his mouth. you looked back at him, jumping between his eyes, confession tumbling out your tongue, âsorry. i just want you so bad.â
he chuckled, moving your bangs out of your face, âi want you just as much. but i donât want this moment to be fast. want to make it special for you.â
his whispered words tugged at the strings of your poor heart. you felt it begging to be ripped out of your chest, banging on your rib cage, maybe trying to find another way up your throat. but its repeated, quick pumping also matched the need pooling down your lower belly, staining your panties.
you nodded, finding his lips again and deepening the kiss, adapting to a slower rhythm as your tongues fervently explored each other. he grabbed your sides and grinded you closer to him, moaning in your mouth as you matched his gentle guiding, meeting the involuntary buck of his hips.
the almost too tender drag of your clothed pussy against his clothed, hard cock soon became torturous for the both of you, reduced to panting, eager messes. you felt unashamedly close just from the repeated action, and if he hadnât decided to lay you on your back just then, you were sure you would have cummed already.
he was gentle as he positioned you on the couch, your body sprawled while he was mindful not to put too much of his weight on you. when he left your lips, you instinctively whined. your head subtly lifted off the sofa to try and follow his mouth, bring it back on yours, but he only smirked and darted his tongue out to lick off your taste.
he didnât give you time to protest, to miss his touch, to be left unattended. because he quickly moved to work on your neck, his tattooed hand tentatively seeking its way under your t-shirt.
you let him wander. let him leave wet traces from your jaw down your collarbones while his fingers left goosebumps along their path, and rose up to your chest. he hummed at the feeling of your bare breasts, smirking at the absence of a bra.
he felt the skin under it, only for his palm to cup your boob and knead at it. it was a perfect fit in his large hand, his thumb teasingly slicing over your nipple and making you mewl, arching your back and pushing your front into him.
he moved himself from your neck and hesitantly lifted up your shirt, searching your eyes for permission. you put your hands on his and led them to take it off you, discarding it on the ground.
he sat back on his heels, admiring your figure laying between his legs. in his eyes, you found something you were never met with until that moment.
he looked starved, his pupils blown and following every curve of your body, his hands hovering only to end up caressing your sides delicately.
you blushed, hard, using your hand to cover your face and throwing an arm over your chest. his palms squeezed your hips twice, his thumbs stroking the skin under your ribs, âdonât hide from me, pretty. let me see you.â
you shook your head stubbornly, a small whine escaping your throat. but he could tell you werenât starting any fight, he could make out your smile, barely concealed under your fingers.
jeongguk moved your wrists and laid them on top of your head, his face nearing again to leave an adoring kiss on your lips. when he found your eyes again, the fondest smile was painting his features, âyouâre beautiful.â
âmy boobs are small,â your voice was muffled, shy, hidden behind your childish pout.
âi fucking love them,â with one hand still keeping your wrists together, he used the other one to play with your breasts once more, his gaze hypnotized by the way he could make them fit in his large palm, squeezing them together and kneading at the softness.
you moaned, loud and unashamed, when he guided his smooth lips to your nipple, his gaze never leaving yours while he attempted small, kitten licks at it.
when he saw how your eyes lustfully rolled back as his fingers went to play with your other boob, rolling it and letting his thumb slide over the sensitive center, he took it as his go-ahead to wholly engulf your wet nipple in his mouth and suck on it, lick around it, kiss it.
jeongguk was hastily making out with your tits, giving both of them the attention they needed, reducing your nipples to soaked, hard messes.
you felt your soul ascend high and leave your body when, as you unconsciously thrusted your hips up in desperate need of friction, you found that in his knee, the one that was positioned between your legs, the one you now grinded into with no control over your pace, bringing yourself closer to the edge.
âfuck, jeongguk,â you didnât have time to feel ashamed over how delirious you sounded, or looked, the lewd noises of his sucking taking you even higher, his hands massaging your boobs with intent.
you only got louder the more you let your cunt rub against his leg, a motion you were unable to slow down, too eager to get to the finish line. and this time, jeongguk let you, even spurring you on, âlet go, angel. cum on my thigh.â
it was all the encouragement you needed to fully loosen, his own whines resounding against your chest and blending with your high-pitched moans, eyes rolled back, head thrown to the side, fingers clutching around jeonggukâs locks and guiding him further into you as you lost control on his thigh, âgonna cum!â
your orgasm took over your whole body, shaking with overwhelment at the stimulation. all the sensations you were feeling were new to you, but nonetheless welcomed in the way your eyelids drooped with relaxed pleasure and you worked to catch your breath, your muscles untightening, your arms falling by your sides.
jeongguk left one last kiss around your nipple before lifting himself up to admire your fucked out state, your cheeks flushed and sweat adorning you with an angel-like glow, the lazy smile on your face as you stared at him making his heart skip a few beats.
he let his eyes wander, his own expression incredulous at what had just happened, âthat was so fucking sexy, baby.â
the way you sheepishly chuckled was contagious, his giggles filling your ears as he lifted you up and pulled you against his chest, your still weak body falling onto him with ease. he smiled fondly, looking down at your face, âif you want to stop here, itâs totally okay. i wonâtââ
âno!â your energy came back to you as quickly as it left your body minutes before, sitting up straight in his embrace with your eyes wide and worried. you fumbled with your words, ânoâ no. i want to keep going. please.â
the grin that took over his features adorably caused his nose to scrunch, and he had to put his lips on yours and let them blend together in a sickly sweet kiss to keep himself from saying the words that were so dangerously close from spilling, on the tip of his tongue. he hoped, as he slid it against yours, that you could still feel them, and accept them.
he retreated to cup your cheek in his palm, your eyebrows still unconsciously drawn up in agitation, but easing as he reassured you, âyou donât have to beg, angel. iâll give you anything you ask for.â
âokay. couch is uncomfortable. take me to the bedroom,â your arms stretched out, teasingly expecting him to pick you up.
you squealed when he did, taking your legs, wrapping them around his tiny waist and getting up the sofa, leading both of you to your room. he didnât have to watch where he was going, his feet automatically guiding him, having adjusted to your flat long ago. but even if that werenât the case, he would still not look, too caught up in your glossy orbs.
he pinched your sides before laying you on the soft surface of your bed, legs still tight around him, âbossy much, hm?â
you shrugged, a naughty grin accompanying the playful glint in your eyes, âyouâre following my orders flawlessly.â
he scoffed amusedly, kissing his teeth, âah, is that right?â
you hummed, eager with taking the back and forth further, see where it takes you, âsuch a good boy.â
the giggle that tumbled out of you as he narrowed his eyes betrayed you, breaking into a full fit of laughter as he tickled your sides, your legs leaving his waist. he tauntingly bit your neck, not enough to hurt you, grinning mischievously, âiâm letting you get away with too much. need to teach you a lesson.â
the laugh died in your throat the second he lifted his shirt up, showing his body to you for the first time. michelangelo would have loved to sculpt him, thatâs the first thought your slowed down brain could come up with as you let your eyes wander all over his upper body.
he was toned, his eight pack abs glowing effortlessly for your mouth to water, his nipples a brownish color and so inviting, making you lean on your forearms for a better view.
the arm that wrapped around one of your legs and pushed it on the side was the one inked with those intricate designs you spent boring, lazy afternoons analyzing, and now they were the reason why you could feel a familiar buzz down your core again, coating your panties with even more of your sticky juice.
âcat got your tongue?â there was no way you could even think of a witty come-back with the way he lowered his pretty face between your thighs, his cocky smirk never leaving his expression as his eyes fixated on your own, challenging you.
but you were long gone, willing to let him do whatever he wanted to your body. you stared intently as his fingers hooked under the hem of your shorts, pulling them down in a sensual motion, until they fell on the floor.
your head fell backwards as he let his nose trace your soaked slit, still hidden underneath the layer of cotton panties, âis this okay?â
he only needed your eager nod to leave a subtle kiss on your clit, then lap at your slick through the thin material, âtaste so good, doll.â
jeongguk repeated the motion, licking at you through your undies and letting his big nose brush against your clit torturously, his saliva and your wetness causing the fabric to dig between your lips uncomfortably, showing yourself to him.
you unconsciously bucked your hips up, eagerly demanding to set you free, but he held you down by your waist, âpatience, baby.â
you whined loudly, and you couldnât believe how delirious you sounded already, only moments after your earlier climax. he seemed to enjoy your reactions, the tip of his tongue teasing your entrance and ripping a desperate moan out of you, trying to push yourself into him further but being held down by his strong palms.
you fell on your back, your hair sprawled over your pillows, suddenly too weak to fight against him. he chuckled darkly, speaking against your core, âyouâre so cute. so eager for me, angel.â
when he lifted himself up, his mouth glistened with your juice, and you couldnât help but blush at the image. you were so wet, the liquid stained him even through the layer of clothing still keeping you from fully feeling him.
the silent plead in your eyes was listened to. jeongguk slid off your panties in one swift motion, his eyes hungry at the sight revealed to him, âfuck. so perfect. the prettiest.â
he didnât show mercy at your weakened state, returning his starved mouth on your cunt, slurping at your lips and sucking on your clit, the stimulation making you see stars under your eyelids.
your eyes snapped open the moment you felt something tentatively poking at your entrance, and as you lowered your head you saw his finger playing with your virgin hole, going up to collect your slick from your slit, then returning on where you were starting to need him.
but you were anxious. he immediately saw it in the way you got up on your forearms again, instinctively closing your legs around his hand. his eyes found yours, reassuringly, âbaby. you alright?â
you nodded sheepishly, âyeah. iâm justâ scared. donât want it to hurt.â
the hand that was playing with you now laid on your lower stomach, rubbing it in a sweet manner while he sought for your mouth with his, leaving a honeyed peck on it, âit will hurt a bit, pretty. but iâll try and make it feel good, hm? if youâre not sure, we can always stop.â
you could only bite your lip as the both of you searched for security in each otherâs eyes. he tilted his head, waiting for your approval, the grin spreading and making his long dimples visible infectious, and you stumbled on your words, âcan youâ kiss me while you do it?â
he hummed fondly, his lips immediately finding yours as he positioned himself between your legs, spreading again and granting him access to the spot you were anxiously eager to feel him.
his tongue slowly moved with yours and lightly lulled your racing heartbeat, instilling some needed tranquility in your system as you felt him close to your core again. his middle finger repeated a circular motion around it, spreading your stickiness, only to bring it on your hole before delicately pushing his digit inside.
a choked out moan escaped you, captured promptly by his lips, keeping you somewhat distracted from the slight burn you felt. it grew the more he slipped himself inside you, and you bit his lip to conceal the pain.
he growled at the action, retreating his finger only to push it in again, this time tentatively deeper. he went over the movement a few times, enough to get you adjusted to the foreign presence, and the more he did it, the more the sharpness turned into pleasure.
âfeel good, princess?â the pet name was whispered against your swollen lips, and you kept your eyes closed as you nodded, basking in the newly welcomed feeling.
when he started curling the finger inside you, you involuntarily bucked yourself up against him, your body spasming with your hole and he groaned at the feeling of your tightness, unconsciously grinding on the sheets.
he couldnât help himself from breaking your kiss to look down, getting lost in the way his digit got sucked inside you, only to come out soaked in your juice. without warning, he slowly added another finger, and you arched your back, searching for support in his shoulder.
jeonggukâs eyes kept jumping between your wet cunt, where his fingers worked in and out, and your pleasure-contorted expression, your mouth agape and unleashing your every moan as your eyes squeezed shut.
he felt deliriously close only from the image, his hard dick desperate for friction and insatiable with the way he was still constricted in his jeans. but this moment was about you and you only. once he felt the way you gripped his shoulder tighter at one particular curl of his digits, he kept hitting that spot repeatedly, faster.
you didnât notice his face retreating at first, too lost in the bliss of his purposed touch, but you gasped harshly, your eyes tearing open the moment you felt his lips enveloping your clit again and sucking at it, lapping all around it, tasting it as if it was his first meal after ages.
when you looked down, you found him already staring at you through half-lidded eyes. you wailed, feverish, âoh, shit. gguk, donâtâ donât do that.â
he hummed questioningly, and the sound reverberated against your sensitive nub.
you rolled your eyes back, âgonna cum again if youâ fuck.â
âcum around my fingers, baby. cum on my tongue,â the words came out slurred, his mouth full of you, the drenched sounds of your pussy making his encouragement even more erotic as he added a third finger.
his digits kept digging relentlessly inside you, that spot that made your legs weakly squish jeongguk between them being hit repeatedly and bringing you close to your second climax.
what completely undid you were his eager cries against your cunt, and when you managed to lift your head to look down at the boy working so desperately to make you cum on his lips, you saw his hips rutting frantically against your sheets.
you didnât even have time to announce it, the way your hole spasmed around his fingers and your high-pitched moans doing it for you as you fully let go for the second time because of jeongguk. it was more intense, your body moving with it and unconsciously running away from the touch once it became too intense.
jeongguk cleaned you as best as he could, slurping your juices and licking you off his fingers, climbing up to find your lips and share your own taste with you, his chin coated with your slick.
your pleasured sounds mixed together, the both of you panting and soon laying in silence, one beside the other, staring at the ceiling. you laughed breathlessly, âfuck, gguk. i almost died.â
he only chuckled along with you, the sound strained and dying soon in his throat. with your heartbeat and your breathing settling down, you turned to the side to find jeongguk with his eyes squeezed shut and his jaw clenching. his fists were clutching the fabric beside him, and his knuckles were white from the effort.
it wasnât complicated to understand why, the next thing you spotted being the hard outline of his cock looking completely suffocated by his pants. you gulped, âgguk. you seem hard.â
he let out a delirious scoff, his eyes finding yours with an intensity you were only then noticing, âi am hard, baby. so hard for you.â
you tentatively guided your hand to the button of his jeans, undoing it along with the zip. your words were hesitant, but so sincere, âlet me touch you. wanna make you feel good, too.â
jeongguk watched with his mouth agape as you straddled his lap, sitting on his legs only after sliding his pants down to his ankles. you looked so innocent, timidly playing with the hem of his boxers, and he tried to be patient, but he couldnât.
he groaned, his head thrown back. â___. please, do something.â
his eyes were glossy with frustration, and you had to fight the urge to kiss him stupid, focusing on the task ahead. a big one, indeed. you werenât going to lie, you were already intimidated by the outline of it.
now that your naked body sat on top of him, being faced with his almost totally bare skin, you realized how much bigger he was compared to you. of course, he was taller, always towering over you, teasing you for your height and pretending he didnât see you, bumping into you purposefully or asking howâs the weather down there?
but with his large palm resting at your side and almost covering your entire tummy, you realized the implications of such difference. he could totally wreck you, if he wanted to.
ogling at his dick didnât make it better. it looked huge. a wet patch stained his underwear near the tip, and you salivated at the sight of it.
you tentatively let your finger run along the covered length, and he hissed, slightly thrusting his hips, making you slide closer, âbaby. donât tease.â
the apology was ready and fast on your lips, genuine concern written in your eyes. you didnât want to keep his suffering going, but you were also hesitant with how exactly you were going to please him. youâve never seen a real-life dick, and youâve certainly never touched one.
it was like jeongguk could read your every thought, your wide orbs like an open book to him, reassurance slipping out of him naturally, âdoll. you see this?â he took your wrists and laid your hand on his hardness, gulping at the contact, âyou feel this? this is what you did to me. thereâs no reason why you should doubt yourself, okay?â
you nodded, still unsure, but surely smiling at his sweet tone. he grinned himself, âyouâre so hot, and i literally almost came just by looking at you.â
the giggle that escaped you was lively and it eased your nerves with the way it mirrored in his eyes, fondly jumping all over your face. you bit your lip as you escaped his attentive gaze, finally freeing his cock from his confines and making him release a shaky sigh.
it was perfect. pretty. it touched just under his belly button, the tip angry and wet with precum, the pulsing veins running along its length making it throb.
you took it in your hand delicately, jeongguk hissing, and you gasped under your breath. it felt thick in your hold, your fist barely closing around it.
you werenât sure what to do. your only examples were pornos, and you knew not to fully trust them. but as you started letting your wrist tentatively flick up and down, slowly, you eagerly drank in his reaction.
jeongguk moaned lowly, his eyelids fluttering shut, focusing on the feeling of your smooth hands taking care of his boner. he got louder when you unexpectedly played with his tip, your thumb swirling around it and spreading his wetness down.
your movements were messy, stutteringly uncoordinated, but the concentrated look in your eyes as you stared at his member intently made his head spin, wishing he could fill your slightly agape, watering mouth with it.
in your own mind, you wished his length could be stuffing up your cunt, instead. you slowed down your doings, ending up haltering them as he found your face again, a protesting whine ready to escape him, but you were quicker to surprise him, your voice shy, âwanna feel you inside me.â
jeongguk groaned deliriously, eyes rolling back at the simple request, âfuck. you sure?â
you whispered, âplease.â
âof course, angel. been waiting for so long.â
your mouths found each other quickly, starving, both your heartbeats picking up at the prospect of what was going to happen. he combed through your hair to move them behind your ears, rolling the two of you and making you the one laying under his weight.
in between kisses, you asked, impatient, âdo you have a condom?â
âyeah, got one in my wallet,â he was panting with effort just as you were, moving from you only to fully free himself from his clothes and then search in his jeans pockets.
as he took the condom out, ripping it open, he stumbled on his words, suddenly awkwardly self-conscious, âitâs not like i have it because i wasâ expecting us to, huhââ
âjeongguk. itâs okay,â your sweet voice interrupted his overthinking, pulling him to be on top of you again by his arm, âiâm glad you have it, âcause i need to feel you. right now.â
he didnât need to be told twice. you watched, eyes glossy with want, need, as he rolled the condom along his length, huffing out at the sensitivity.
jeongguk brought you closer to him by your thighs, wrapping them around him. he lowered himself on his forearms, his forehead touching yours, eyes swimming together, the proximity making the both of you smile sheepishly.
he exhaled, âare you still sure about this, doll?â
you nodded, the subtle but growing anxiety making your words get stuck in your throat. jeongguk was gentle, patient, his large palm cupping your cheek, âneed to hear you say it.â
âyes. iâm sure. want you so bad,â the confession was slurred, shy under his adoring gaze. he kissed along your jaw, slow, intentional.
âokay. just know we can stop whenever you want. let me know if it hurts. i wanna hear you, hm?â his eyes searched yours, frantically, making sure you were good.
as you nodded again, he grasped your hand to hold it, letting your fingers intertwine and lay by your head. with the other hand, he took his length and positioned it where you needed him the most.
jeongguk made it all feel so intimate, special, and safe, that you sensed your eyes water with a feeling stronger than the words you could allow yourself to say. you felt eternally grateful to him for turning a moment you used to dread into something so delicate and precious.
you felt adored. you felt seen, and heard. you felt protected, understood. you saw your reflection in his eyes, in a way that made you want to hide in there forever, maybe travel a bit further down and find home in his heart.
as he started easing himself inside you, both of you gasping at the feeling, his hand gripping yours harder, a tear ran down your cheek. it was a mixture of emotions, sensations. the fullness of his cock entering you, the burn that came with it, his eyes widening alarmingly as he noticed the tears welling along your bottom lashes.
he stilled inside you, his tip now nuzzled in your warmth, his breath hitching, âdoes it hurt? baby, whatâs wrong?â
âno, itâs justââ it was on the tip of your tongue, but you couldnât say it. not now. maybe never? you swallowed it down your throat, âit hurts a bit but it feels so good, gguk.â
âyeah? fuck. youâre so tight, princess. taking me in so good,â his praises replaced the hurt, both emotional and physical, with a familiar fuzzy pleasure, pooling in your lower stomach and releasing more of your wetness on his dick, making it easier for him to slip inside you.
he groaned as he bottomed out, your moan higher than intended. you felt him throb inside you, just how he could feel you pulse around him. a string of curses followed as he repeated the slow action, pulling back to his tip only to push back in, making sure you grew accustomed to the feeling.
âgguk. i feel so full,â you cried, wrapping your legs tighter around his waist, forcing him to stay still inside you. he growled, kissing along your neck and leaving small bites to contain himself from snapping his hips against you.
it was complicated, with the sounds escaping your lips resounding sweetly in his ears and your hole tightening around him in a torturous manner making him release precum inside the condom.
âbaby, can i please move? iâm gonna go crazy,â his voice was strained, whiny, muffled in the crook of your neck as your fingers combed through his hair, unconsciously searching for comfort.
your granting hum was more of a high-pitched whine, but he took it positively as he attempted one first thrust inside you, followed shortly by another. your moans got stuck, the air cut from your throat the more he picked up his pace, lifting his face from your neck and straightening up to admire the scene.
it was better than anything heâd ever witnessed, his thickness stuffed in your tight, virgin hole and taking him in so perfectly. he took his free hand to hold you still by your hip as he pushed himself deeper.
you were a mess underneath him. legs squeezing around him, you barely gave jeongguk space to move. you wailed, his name tumbling out your tongue repeatedly as he fucked into you faster. heâd been so gentle with you until that moment, but now his roughness made you impossibly wetter.
when you let your eyes flutter open, you could feel yourself spasm around him at the sight in front of you. his abs contracted with the effort of his pushes, his cock slammed into you relentlessly, his nipples hardened and called for your touch.
you threw one hand to his pec and felt his firmness under you, gripping it for support as he pounded you with intent, your nails scratching his skin, the sounds of your bodies slapping together overtaking your pleasured moans.
he panted, rambling, âfuck, love this pussy. love fucking this pussy. wanna fuck it forever.â
âmade just for me. such a perfect fit.â
âthatâs how youâve been waiting to be fucked, huh? nice and deep, you fucking love that.â
his praises and dirty comments made your head spin, your eyes rolling to the back of your head, letting your mouth hang open and release your cries into the stuffy room.
the sight of your fucked out state underneath his control was going to torture him for the following weeks, he was sure of that. heâd see you, sprawled out on your bed for him, your tits moving up and down with each thrust, your pleasured tears staining your face as his name left your pillowy lips like a mantra, every time heâd close his eyelids.
he had to physically hold himself back from releasing already, his length too sensitive and eager, but he wanted to make this moment last for as long as he could possibly handle. he closed his eyes, but he couldnât escape you. you were loud, and the hottest thing heâs ever heard.
and then, the challenge became harder when you stuttered, unexpectedly, âwanna ride you.â
he threw his head back, a feverish groan rising up his throat, âfuck. you do, pretty?â
you hummed, just as unhinged, your legs untightening around him and weakly pulling at his arm to try and bring him to lay on the bed. he pulled himself out of you slowly, making you cringe at the emptiness, and as he let his back fall on the soft surface, he lifted your figure effortlessly and led you to straddle him.
now on top of him, you werenât so confident with your earlier claim anymore. underneath you, jeongguk was panting, his pupils blown out, lips agape, cock laying unattended on his stomach. he stroked your sides comfortingly, subtly pulling you closer, and the action caused your slicked pussy to grind against his balls.
the two of you moaned at the contact, and he immediately took his length to pump it a couple of times, gently tapping it against your tummy. you lifted your hips up, positioning yourself on his tip, looking down at jeongguk for support.
the lazy smile you were met with made your heart stutter in your chest, and you put your hand on top of his, still tightly gripping your hip, as you sank down his dick.
your head was thrown back in pleasure, your back arching into him, and jeongguk had to fight with himself to keep his eyes from fluttering shut, wanting to bask in the image of you.
as you fully took him in, you leaned your weight on the palm that fell on his chest, his hands steadying you promptly by your waist, praise ready on his tongue, âdoing so amazing, princess. making me feel so good.â
you attempted moving subtly, trying to adjust to the more intense stretch, and the hand that was still holding his led it to cup your boob, instructing him to knead at it.
he moaned shakily, playing with your tit while you lifted your hips only to sink them down again, tentatively repeating the action and gaining confidence the more his whines got louder.
soon, you lost control. the way your clit would brush against his skin every time you bounced down made you pulse relentlessly around him, grinding into the sensation and rotating your hips on him with intent.
you tried to prevent it, to hold yourself back, but all your resolution dissolved in a second the moment you felt jeonggukâs thumb teasing your nub. you jolted forward, still balancing yourself on his chest, his hand on your breast working to keep you straight.
âgguk, i thinkâ i think iâm close again,â you admitted ashamedly, your cheeks flushing but your desire unable to make you stop rutting your hips against his touch, his cock throbbing around your walls.
âyeah? then cum around it, make me feel it,â his low voice spurred you on, the thumb that was teasing you now slicing on your nipple, spreading your slick on your boob.
and that made you let go, for a third time, convulsing on top of him, your cries louder as you spasmed around his thick length, your cunt hugging him impossibly tighter, and for a moment you genuinely feared heâd get stuck.
the strength taken out of you was enough to make you fall onto him, your face in his neck as you panted frantically, his heartbeat matching the speed of yours under your palm laying on his chest.
jeonggukâs voice was weak as he spoke in your ear, his fingers stroking your back comfortingly, âthat was amazing, baby. so good.â
you appreciated his constant praises, a lazy grin spreading on your lips, but you couldn't ignore the way he kept thudding inside you, quiet whines stuck in his throat as he tried to conceal them by clutching your sides tighter, stilling himself.
jeongguk wailed feverishly when you lifted yourself up again, resuming your earlier actions, the ones that were bringing him to the point he badly wanted to reach. he was breathless as he took in the determined glint in your eyes, âfuâ fuck. doll, what are youââ
âwanna make you cum, gguk.â
he physically couldnât hold himself from rolling his eyes far deep, bucking up to meet your hips, and the force of his thrusts threw your weak body back on him again, your hard nipples brushing against his equally stiff ones.
âiâll fuck you, baby, hm? you already did so good for me,â his words were hushed, whispered, delirious, the sound of them overtaken by the sharp pounding.
but he made sure you could feel every syllable, his lips close to your lobe as you held yourself tightly on his shoulders, âso perfect. letting me fuck you good and deep. gonna make me cum so hard, doll.â
your brain couldnât process any other kind of response other than loud cries, your cunt being relentlessly abused. the waves of your last orgasm still flowed inside you, the buzz coming back to life as the new position gave him perfect access to your sweet, needy spot, hitting it at an inhumane force.
his effort was translated into deep, raspy growls only pushing you closer to the edge, and you swore you could pass out from the overstimulation. but you basked in it, the tears in your eyes blurring your vision.
âyou wanna cum again? i know you can, câmon. i know you got it in you, pretty. just another one. cum with me.â
his pleading, delirious tone undid you. the way you both released with harsh moans was perfectly synced, his hips jolting you forward as you chased your high against his lower stomach. with a few more pushes, he let go fully inside the condom, all the energy being ripped from him at that moment, his hands freeing your waist from the sharp grip while his head fell weakly on the side.
the two of you were almost wheezing, your exhales shaking in your panting chests as you lifelessly rested on him, slowly being lulled by his breathing.
you didnât even notice yourself slipping so easily into slumber, and if it werenât for his delicate touch tracing your closed eyelids and moving your hair behind your ear, his sweet voice preventing you from fully falling unconscious, you would have enjoyed just staying in that position forever.
âsweetheart. you sleepy?â
you only hummed, the sound rough and thick.
he removed himself from you slowly, both of you still gasping at the overstimulation, and he gently laid you on your back before tying the condom and throwing it in the bin next to your nightstand.
as soon as your head hit the pillow, your eyes fluttered shut again. the room spun faintly, and your body, exhausted, ignored every request your mind was screaming at you. you were cold, goosebumps rising on your naked skin; your thighs still trembled, a mess of wetness and slick. but you were too tired to move. you could only lay there, sprawled on the sheets.
luckily, jeongguk thought of everything. his mind was full of you, his only thought being taking care of your figure and making sure you were safe, comforted.
he had taken your virginity. it wasnât just a physical actâ it was a gift you had entrusted him with, something you had kept close to your heart, even through all the fears and anxieties youâd shared with him. you had always been afraid to let go, to give such an intimate part of yourself to someone.
but you trusted him, fully and deeply, in a way that you hadnât trusted anyone before. that knowledge bloomed in his chest like warmth spreading to every corner of his body. he felt a deep sense of responsibility and gratitude. he wanted to honor that trust.
with care, jeongguk slipped away from your side to retrieve a warm, damp towel. the cool air hit your skin as he left, and you stirred slightly, though not fully awake. when he returned and began gently wiping you down, you startled at the sensation, your eyes slowly fluttering open. you were met with his grinning face, his eyes crinkling at the sides, that same boyish smile that always made your heart skip a beat.
âwe should clean up, baby,â he said soft, his voice warm and coaxing as he continued to gently clean the slickness between your legs.
âtired,â you murmured in response, your voice thick with exhaustion. âtomorrow.â the word came out as more of a sigh than anything else. you stretched your arms out toward him, your lips forming a small pout. âcuddle. now.â
jeongguk laughed fondly at your sleepy demands, shaking his head as he tossed the towel to the floor. without a second thought, he slid back into bed beside you, pulling the covers over your naked bodies. the warmth of the blanket and the weight of him beside you immediately soothed the lingering shivers in your body, and you sighed in relief.
instinctively, you reached for him, your leg curling around his, your hands seeking the familiar comfort of his waist. your head rested on his chest, where you could feel the steady thump of his heart beneath your cheek. his arm wrapped around you naturally, his fingers tracing gentle circles along your spine.
it wasnât unusual for you to cuddle, especially during movie nights, or simply when the other needed comfort.
but this was different. there was a new weight to the way your bodies pressed together, your brain grasping around the reality of what had just happened.
your first instinct faced with that thought was to chuckle lightly, your sleepy brain struggling to come up with any more reasonable reaction. when he hummed and moved to look down at your face, you hid yourself further in his chest, your voice muffled, âi canât believe you fucked me.â
he sounded tauntingly cocky as he moved your hair from your forehead, ânow that you put it like that, well, i did.â
your drowsy state lowered all your inhibitions, your eyes fluttering close as you spilled your honesty, âiâve been fantasizing about this moment for so long.â
âyeah? what a naughty girl,â his playful tone made you blush, the low voice and the hand grazing at the small of your back making you clench around nothing, still sensitive.
you lightly pushed at his chest with a weak smile, âyou literally said you were waiting for it to happen, too.â
jeonggukâs eyes gleamed with amusement, his tone dripping in mock shame, âdid i, pretty? did i do that? oh god, how indecent of me.â
the taunting banter went on for a while, your fond grins almost breaking your faces in two halves as you started a quick tickle war. it was almost surreal how easily the two of you slipped back into the habituality of your dynamic, as if nothing had changed at all. and in a way, nothing had. you were still you, and he was still jeonggukâ the boy who teased you relentlessly and made you laugh until your stomach hurt.
as the laughter faded, your body began to relax completely, your muscles loosening as you sank further into his embrace. your head rested against his toned pecs, and you could feel the steady rise and fall of his breathing beneath your cheek. his fingers continued their gentle caresses along your back, and for the first time in a long while, you felt completely at peace.
but jeongguk, even in the quiet comfort of the moment, couldnât let it end just yet. his mind was still racing, still full of thoughts of you.
he wanted to hear your voice. wanted to be soothed by its melody. he spoke quietly, almost hesitant, his breath warm against your hair, âdonât fall asleep so soon. iâll miss you.â
your voice was rough with weariness, but you were quick with your answer, âiâm literally lying on top of you.â
âi know,â he whispered, his thumb brushing softly against your waist. âbut i wanna talk to you.â
with great effort, you blinked your eyes open, lifting your head just enough to look at him through half-lidded eyes, âitâs your fault if i canât talk right now.â
âdamn, i got a magic stick,â his voice sounded oddly proud of it and you groaned, hitting him weakly on his stomach and causing him to giggle.
âyouâre so gross.â
âyou hurt me!â he whined dramatically and it made you roll your eyes amusedly.
chuckling softly, you took his face in your hands and pressed your fingers gently against his lips, âshut up.â your voice was playfully fond as you nestled back against him, your eyelids growing heavier by the second, dozing off again.
at least trying to, because only a minute later his soft voice resounded again.
it was barely audible in the stillness, â___.â
âhmm?â
âiâm so happy.â
his whispered voice tickled your ear and you giggled, brushing it on your shoulder with a sheepish grin on your lips.
you looked up at him through droopy eyelids, both your orbs swimming in a deep feeling you couldnât name, âi am too. i donât think i can feel my pussy anymore, but iâm very happy nonetheless.â
your wittiness even after being completely drained of all your energy surprised him, the laugh escaping him moving in his chest and reflecting in your own fond smile.
he left a peck on your forehead, bringing you to lay down on him again, âyouâre so silly. i love you.â
the words left his lips so naturally, as if he had always known them to be true, and they sounded so right that it took both of you another moment to realize their implications.
your heart stopped, and both of you froze. your breath hitched and your eyes widened, but you stayed still, too startled to look up at him.
you felt his heart beat impossibly faster in your ear, and you perfectly pictured the shock that was painting his expression right now.
his hands clutched your sides tighter, trying to find a way to keep his running mind from spiraling, your silence not helping whatsoever. he stuttered, âiâ i mean. iâ oh god, iâm so sorry.â
the hurt in his tone immediately made your chest clench, panic flushing in your veins. you met his eyes alarmedly, jumping between them, âjeongguk. donât be sorry. you love me?â
he wasnât sure what to do, couldnât figure out if the feeling was mirrored as intensely in you as it was in him. it had been building inside him for weeks, lingering beneath the surface, making his heart race and his thoughts blur every time you were near.
the realization hadnât come to him in a grand, sweeping moment but in the quiet of the bookstore one random afternoon. he had been stacking shelves, mindlessly organizing the rows of novels, when he caught sight of you. you were tucked into a corner, absorbed in a murakami novel, your fingers brushing the edges of the pages with care.
he hadnât expected you to show up that day. he was sure youâd mentioned having lectures and that you couldnât meet up with him, so seeing you there, completely unannounced, had startled him.
he remembered standing there for a moment, frozen in place, just staring at you walk through the door. and then you had lifted your head, and your eyes met his across the quiet, sunlit room.
the smile you gave him was sheepish as you tucked a strand of hair behind your ear, your confession tumbling out softly, âi skipped my classes. i wanted to be here. needed to see you.â
it was shy, and said with a feeling in your gaze that he was scared to decipher.
but he couldnât help the way it settled in his heart. stubborn, unmoving. the truth was clearly in front of him, and it took the semblance of your face.
you were the truth. he was in love.
so, he could only be truthful to you, âiâ yes. i love you.â
the words sank into your skin, filling you with warmth and a sense of completeness that made your chest swell. you exhaled deeply through your nose, trying to steady the burst of emotion building inside you, but your eyes softened, and a tear slipped down your cheek as you smiled, wide and genuine.
âi love you too, gguk.â
it was a simple reply, but the weight behind it carried everything. you didnât need to say anything more. you couldnât even if you wanted to, your lips immediately eating at each other, gulping down your furious flow of thoughts and accepting. hearing. feeling. seeing.
all the times you forced to keep shut and convince yourself that what you saw in him and all his care towards you was just coming from a place that would forever see you two as friends. all the secret touches, the shared meals, the warm nights on your couch. all the books you read for him, all the lines he highlighted for you.
it was love. all along. and you felt its power against him, your heartbeats syncing.
when you finally pulled away, you rested your forehead against his, both of you breathing softly in the quiet aftermath of the confession. jeonggukâs arms tightened around you, pulling you even closer as if he couldnât bear to let go.
the silence that followed wasnât awkward or uncertain. it was peaceful. comfortable.
and lulled by the quiet, jeongguk ended up being the first to fall asleep, his nervous energy fading away, replaced by a deep sense of contentment. his breathing became slow and steady, his face nuzzled into the crook of your neck, his muscles relaxing.
despite your earlier exhaustion, you were too wired to sleep. you were still flowing with excitement. the nightâs events hit you with great force, and kept you wide awake.
quietly, you reached for your phone on the nightstand, careful not to disturb jeongguk. the screen lit up, showing the time. 3:47 am.
even though it was late, you couldnât resist. you pulled up jiminâs contact and pressed the call button. waiting. he was always awake at this hour.
jimin had been your best friend for years. your loyal confidant, the one you could splutter all your feelings to and never be judged. he had been by your side all along this particular ride, going from a silly, little crush to feeling raging love for the boy in your arms.
you smiled wide at the prospect of jiminâs reaction at the news you were about to share with him. he was the first person you wanted to inform, he deserved to know.
âbitch, donât tell me youâre crying over jeongguk, âcauseââ
those are the first words that came through the line, and they made you silently chuckle at the irony, immediately engaging in his banter, âwell, sorta kinda. he said he loves me.â
there was a beat of silence on the other end, followed by jiminâs amused scoff, âwow. crazy news. would have never guessed.â
you were stunned, to say the least. your mouth hung open as you whisper-yelled, âbitch! is this seriously all you have to say?â
you were mindful not to wake jeongguk with your conversation, looking down at him with care. his cheek was squished on your small breast, his mouth pouting and releasing heavy puffs. one of his hands rested protectively over your side, and his thumb brushed your under boob.
he was cozily nestled between your legs, his wavy hair brushing your chin, and he looked so peaceful it was like he was made to be held by you.
you couldnât help the tears from welling in your eyes as jiminâs next words accompanied the view of the boy you loved, now finally yours.
âbabe, câmon, it was obvious.â
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Before you | jjk
‷ part of the dads universe
†pairing: tattoo artist!jungkook x female readerÂ
†genre: friends to lovers, angst, fluff, and smutÂ
†rating: 18+
†warnings: dom!jungkook, big cock!jungkook, long-haired!jungkook, pregnancy, mention of abortion, sexual tension, alcohol consumption, a lot of making out, finger sucking, thigh riding, masturbation, aftercare, mention of oral sex, swearing, some teasing, pet names, pregnancy kink, praising, a bit of jealousy, hickeys, handjob, semi-public sex, penetrative sex, protected sex, rough sex, creampie, overstimulation, and multiple orgasmsÂ
†words: 16,354
†summary: jungkook has taken a huge place in your life after he tattooed you, and you canât even picture how life was before him. he has always been there for you since day one. but how will things change after you find out youâre pregnant?  Â
†authorâs note: so guys, yesterday i tried to post this but it was a complete mess đ« hopefully today it works without any issues! in any case, iâm happy to post this fic once more, especially since a lot of you asked for it đ it was a bit odd to read something i wrote years ago but it was at the same time intriguing because iâve changed since i wrote it. hope youâll like it đ
MASTERLIST
OCTOBER 5, 2018
In a few minutes, Jungkook is coming.
Youâre in your bathroom with a pregnancy test in your hands. Yong-ji, your best friend has convinced you in some way to do it, she thinks that you donât have the flu. For the past week, you have had all the symptoms of the flu and you stayed home to rest a bit. But she doesnât think thatâs what you have.Â
Before you can even see the result, thereâs a knock on your door. Jungkook.Â
He has no idea that youâre taking that pregnancy test, Yong-ji herself is not even aware. After she insisted several times, you told her that you wouldnât do it. Unlike her, youâre convinced that youâre not pregnant.Â
You leave the bathroom, put the test in the corner of the sink, and run to the door to open it for your friend. Jungkook has been around for a bit more than a year, and he has been one of your closest friends lately. Always there when you need him the most. And youâre just grateful to have met him.Â
âYou look so pale,â he comments when he sees you.Â
âHello to you too, JK,â you say, smiling back at him. âCome on in.âÂ
His eyes look at you with concern before entering your small apartment. Itâs not huge, unfortunately, youâre not rich yet but itâs so comfy. You liked this apartment the second you first saw it because it was what you needed.Â
âI brought some things to eat,â he says while walking to the kitchen with a little bag in his hands. âI guess you didnât eat anything today.âÂ
That man understands you as nobody does. Although your friendship is very recent, he probably knows you better than Yong-ji who has been your friend for six years. You wonder how that's even possible.Â
Youâre just behind him, following him into the kitchen, and he puts his handbag on the small table. Today, Jungkook is wearing a sweater with black skinny jeans, and you know for sure that under his sweater, heâs wearing an oversized t-shirt that he wore all day at work.  Â
âHow was your day?â you ask, trying to change the topic of your conversation.Â
Your friend turns back to catch a glance at you before he raises an eyebrow. Heâs perfectly aware that you didnât eat anything during the day and that youâre changing the topic of conversation because you donât want him to get worrier. Since youâre sick, heâs not going to say anything. Â
âThe same as always,â he says while rolling his eyes. âClients came, I made a bunch of tattoos and I barely had the time to work on some projects.â
This last year, he has gained tons of new clients and heâs busy tattooing them most of the day. Before, he used to find some time to work on projects, but now, he doesnât have that time.Â
âYou should find a partner to help you out with the clients,â you propose.Â
Jungkook has already considered it but he doesnât want to hire someone just to have more free time. He wants someone that can truly help him with the shop and the rest, and heâs convinced that itâs not going to be easy.Â
âIâm too picky and you know it,â he grabs a fry from the bag and eats it.Â
âThen, donât be,â you answer, crossing your arms over your chest.Â
He rolls his eyes as he takes off the food from the bag and places it on your table. âI donât want some shitty person to tattoo my clients. So, I'm going to be picky and you're going to support me.âÂ
You open a drawer, taking two sets of chopsticks with two spoons before putting them on the table. You both sit in front of the other.Â
Your eyes get lost in his for a split minute. At first, he might seem the cold type of person. His body is covered with tattoos, his hair is pushed into a man-bun, his fingers are covered with rings and he has some earrings. But itâs just appearances. This man is the sweetest and most caring person youâve ever met.
A lot of your friends asked you if something is going on between you and Jungkook but you have never seen the man in front of you as more than a friend. Even the thought of it never crossed your mind.  Â
âBut it was a good day,â he says, looking down at his food before he eats some rice. âAll the clients were super nice and there was even a cute girl.âÂ
You raise an eyebrow, intrigued by the cute girl he met today. Jungkook's love life is quite calm. He's not the type to fuck every girl he sees, he prefers to date, fall in love, and take the time to love. He's just the romantic type of guy.Â
âDon't look at me like that, yn,â he says, pointing a chopstick at you. âYouâre too curious.âÂ
He sighs in defeat knowing that no matter what heâs going to tell you everything, and thatâs what he likes about your friendship. You understand and know each other so well even though youâve been friends for only a year, but it feels like youâve known the other for like an eternity.   Â
âI just want to know what happened,â you say with a big smile on your face.
âWe just talked and she asked me to call her one day,â he notices that you havenât touched your food yet. âYou should eat.âÂ
You take a bit of rice and eat it. Lately, itâs the only thing that youâve been able to eat without throwing up.Â
âAnd?â you ask, raising an eyebrow. âAre you going to call her?âÂ
Jungkook is hesitating. Yes, sheâs cute and physically, sheâs his type. But not too long ago, he was seeing a girl that just left him suddenly because she got back with her ex. He liked her quite a lot and he doesnât feel ready to go back through all the date nights and the flirting things.Â
âDonât know yet,â he says nonchalantly.Â
âYou should call her, Kookie. You need to see somebody else other than me,â you tell him.Â
âThatâs not true, I see Namjoon and Yoongi,â you roll your eyes as he mentions his roommates.Â
But Jungkook doesnât spend too much time at his place with his roommates, heâs mostly with you because he loves to be around you, he loves how you make him feel. Oddly, you make him feel at home. He has never felt that with anybody else and he cherishes your friendship so much.Â
His eyes linger on your left arm, smiling as he sees the reason that brought you two together.Â
More than a year ago, you decided to get a tattoo and a friend advised you to go to Jungkook. You did some research about him and his work, reading a lot of opinions about him. After a while, you decided that he was the one, he was going to be the one who would do your first tattoo.
For Jungkook, you were just another client, nothing more. But you were kind of scared and nervous, and during the whole time, he was comforting you. It was the first time he was doing it. Usually, his clients hide their fears and put a brave smile on their faces.Â
When you saw the lion on your arm, you were so proud and so thankful that he did it. It was just perfect, even better than you had pictured it.Â
As he was doing it, he asked you why you chose to tattoo a lion. âThe lion is known to be the strongest animal, and to me, this tattoo will represent my strength. It will remind me that no matter what life throws at me, I have to be strong.âÂ
And he liked it. He liked how youâd look beyond the piece of art on your arm. He liked how he was not just tattooing a simple lion on an arm, he was tattooing your strength. After that, you naturally stayed in touch and youâre just happy to have met him.  Â
âAnd did you get any news from Minho?âÂ
Minho is a guy that you met some weeks ago and with whom you had a lot of fun. It was ephemeral but you had the time of your life with him. You donât regret anything, youâre just sad that now, itâs over.Â
You knew it was never going to last because you are both from two completely different worlds. Youâre just a simple girl that barely manages to have some money at the end of the month while heâs one of the wealthiest men in the country.Â
He's Park Minho, the son of the one and only Park Joonki. He has tons of holdings around the world and he controls basically everything in Korea. Heâs truly very powerful, and the chances that youâd stay in a serious relationship with Minho were very low.Â
âNope, and I donât think Iâll ever hear from him again.âÂ
âI thought he liked you a lot,â he says while eating.Â
You furrow your eyebrows, not understanding. Jungkook was the first one to say to be careful with this kind of guy, and now, heâs kind of being nice to him.Â
âHe looked at you affectionately, but I just wanted you to be careful.âÂ
âIn the end, we all knew this was just us having fun and nothing more,â you say.Â
Even if youâre sad that it ended, youâre kind of grateful that it ended now. Otherwise, you know you would have started hoping for things, and the end of whatever you had with Minho would have been harder for you.Â
âYou truly deserve someone who loves you like all stars and the moon love nights.âÂ
A big and bright smile appears on your pale face, and Jungkook swears he has never seen anything prettier. Sometimes, he realizes that he looks at you like a man completely in love. Those moments are not very frequent but when they happen, they hit him hard and itâs very intense.Â
You wonder if he knows the way his words make your heart stutter in your chest. But then you start to wonder why youâre even feeling such things for him, Jungkook is just your closest friend. But it's the first time that something touches you that much, not even your exes managed to make you feel that way.Â
âThanks, Kook,â you say, âand you deserve someone that loves you like Juliet loves Romeo.âÂ
Juliet and Romeo have a tragic love story, but they deeply loved each other. To you, Jungkook deserves to be loved with the same intensity. He deserves someone that would give his heart and soul to him because heâs the best human youâve ever met.Â
âThatâs tragic,â he replies.Â
You feel the urge to stand up and sit on his lap to caress his dark hair, but it would feel weird since heâs just your best friend.Â
âYes, but she truly and deeply loved him. Thatâs the love that you deserve.âÂ
His heart squeezes, and he looks away, feeling uncomfortable to glance straight into your eyes. He never thought that youâll reply to his comment but heâs just happy you did.  Â
âJust reach out to that girl, okay?âÂ
Maybe sheâs the one, maybe sheâs the girl that Jungkook is meant to be with but heâll never know it if he doesnât call her. He raises his head up before nodding.Â
âNow, eat. Youâre scaring me with that pale face.âÂ
As he mentions your pale face, you remember the damn pregnancy test. But now isnât probably the best moment to go and check out the result. You donât want to worry Jungkook for silly things right now because youâre still convinced that youâre not pregnant.Â
âI just have to go to the bathroom,â you say as you stand up and walk in the direction of the bathroom.Â
As you enter the small room, you close the door behind you. Your heart is beating hard and fast. Although you think youâre not pregnant, you donât know how youâll react if itâs positive.Â
You close your eyes and grab the test, your hands are shaking with nervousness. Even if you think that the result will be negative, the thought that it can be positive scares you, and thatâs why you close your eyes. The truth is that you donât even know if you want to open your eyes.Â
What would happen if it is positive? What would you become if youâre indeed pregnant? Your life would completely change and youâre just not ready for that kind of change. Two years ago, you left your parentsâ house because you wanted to pursue your dream of becoming a lawyer. Your career is on the rise, and a baby would completely ruin it.Â
You most probably would have to come back to your parentsâ house, and youâre not even sure if they will accept to help you. Having a baby out of a marriage and with someone that youâre not even dating would be seen as a shame for your family.     Â
Your heart is pounding more and more, it almost feels like itâs about to leave your chest. This simple test can completely change your life.Â
âYou need to see it, yn,â you whisper to yourself. Â
You gather all the strength you have, wanting to know if your life will in fact change forever or if itâll stay the same. Slowly, you open your eyes. The first thing you see is the reflection of your face in the mirror in front of you. What instantly catches your attention is how sick you look, no wonder that Jungkook seems worried.Â
Your eyes gaze down at your fragile and shaking hands that are holding the pregnancy test. A loud cry leaves your mouth and tears roll down your face when you see the result. Â
Jungkook runs to the bathroom as he hears you but you have completely locked yourself inside and he canât open the door. Heâs trying to get in because he needs to see you and understand what is going on. Â
âYn,â he says as heâs trying to open the door. âWhat happened?âÂ
Your hands let go of the test, making it fall on the ground, and your legs start shaking, barely being able to hold your body. The tears run faster down your face.Â
The test is positive. Yongji was right, a human being is indeed growing inside of you.Â
It feels like your entire world just collapsed under your feet and nothing could ever fix it. A baby is growing inside you, a human life has been created and that life will forever change your life. Youâll have to carry them for nine months and then, take care of them forever because they will depend entirely on you.Â
The fact that youâre pregnant is more than a shock for you. You always took all the precautions for something like that to not happen. All the times you had sex with Minho, he was wearing a condom. You always made sure of it, at least, that's what you thought until today.Â
Now, as your world is entirely falling apart, you remember one special night, a night that you had forgotten. Minho came to your apartment after a huge argument with his parents, he was really mad and you both drank a lot of wine.Â
His parents wanted him to get back with Yeri and to marry her as soon as possible. Yeri, his ex, is the daughter of another powerful man in Korea. The union of both families will be the best thing.Â
But Minho didn't want to be a puppet in his father's hands, he wanted to do things his own way. He wanted to marry the woman that he loves, it was not in his plans to marry just someone because his father craves more power.Â
You drank for sure a lot that night and had sex on the couch. You were both so needy of each other, and you canât remember if you used protection. However, it seems like it wasnât the case.Â
âYn,â Jungkook calls you again, âopen the door, please.â Hearing the concern in his voice breaks your heart. âPlease, yn,â he begs, âIâm worried.âÂ
Jungkook rests his forehead against the door and he finally hears you sobbing and crying. It instantly shatters his heart. He wants to break the door to hold you tight in his arms.Â
âMy life is over,â you mumble as you cry. âCompletely over.âÂ
He sits on the floor, his back against the door and he closes his eyes. He doesnât understand what happened and why you suddenly say that.
âWhat happened?â he dares to ask.Â
Your eyes now rest on the door before you sit on the floor and take a deep breath. To say that your life is completely over is an understatement for you. Your parents wonât ever accept you if you have a child without even being married, youâll be the ugly duckling of the family. Theyâll for sure reject you.Â
How are you going to tell them that? You never introduced them to a single boy and now, you have to tell them that youâre pregnant with the wealthiest man in the country. Â
âI am pregnant.âÂ
Jungkook is surprised. He knows how careful you are because your career has always been your priority, and having a baby right now was not on your plans. Plus, he knows how important it was for you to get married before having kids.Â
âMinho?â he asks just to be sure.Â
âYes.âÂ
Your confirmation breaks his heart once again. Your friend knows that thereâs no hope that Minho would help you with this.Â
âEverything is over for me, Kook,â you cry even more now. âMy parents will disgrace me, and Minho will never recognize this child as his because of his family.â       Â
The reality is hard to admit and it will be so hard to face this situation all by yourself. Youâll be completely alone in this and your baby will never know their families, theyâll just know you.
âIâll be alone in this,â you add.Â
Youâre convinced your family will let you down because youâll have a baby out of marriage.Â
âNo,â he replies straight away. âIâll be by your side and Iâll never leave you.â
Even if youâre grateful for his presence, he canât change the fact that itâs not going to be an easy thing. Â
âItâs not the same, Kook,â you reply.Â
Your friend is perfectly aware that he canât ever replace the fact that Minho will never be present or that your family will most probably leave you.Â
âLet me in, yn.âÂ
Right now, you just want to be alone in this bathroom for the rest of your life.Â
âI want to hug you and comfort you.âÂ
After some seconds of hesitation, you finally open the door to fall in his arms. Nothing can comfort you at this moment, not even his strong arms holding you tight and pressing you against his body. Nothing.Â
OCTOBER 6, 2018Â
Yesterday, Jungkook stayed with you until you fell asleep in his arms. He didnât want to leave you in this state, you were a mess and as your friend, he felt like it was his duty to be by your side.Â
Jungkook didnât sleep much during the night, thinking too much about your situation. He wants to help you as much as he can but he feels like there is nothing that he can do. He feels like the only thing he can do is to powerlessly watch your life fall completely apart. But thatâs something he canât accept. Â
Someone knocks at your door, and without much willingness, you open it. To your surprise, it is Jungkook. You thought that he was going to leave you alone for a little while, giving you the time to adjust to your new reality.Â
âHi,â he says while entering your apartment. âI havenât slept much and drank too much coffee before coming.âÂ
That explains why he looks tired and why his eyes are red.Â
âArenât you supposed to be at work?â you frown while you close the door.Â
Jungkook finally turns and looks at you. You seem even worse than yesterday, which is totally understandable.
âI canceled all my appointments for the morning,â he replies and you look at him with worry.Â
Why did he do that? He hates to do it. Even when heâs sick, he works because he hates to disappoint his clients. âThere must be something really important that he needs to do,â you thought.
You come closer to him, crossing your arms over your chest. His heart is pounding fast and now, heâs wondering if what he has in mind is actually a good idea. Â
âIâll be the father,â he quickly says, causing you to raise an eyebrow, not sure you understood what he just said.Â
âWhat?âÂ
He takes a step in your direction, closing the space between the two of you. âMinho will never recognize your baby. His father will never let him do that, or heâll make sure to make you disappear just to hide the mistake of his perfect son.âÂ
For that, you totally agree with him. Park Joonki will do everything in his power to hide you and your baby, and power is something that he has in abundance.Â
âYour baby will grow up without a father figure, and Iâll be by your side as long as we live. I am your closest male friend and most probably, your baby will end up seeing me as their father.âÂ
For Jungkook, the chances that your baby ends up calling him âdadâ are very high.Â
âNobody needs to know that Minho is the biological father,â he says as he takes one of your hands in his. âAnd I think for your safety, itâs better if nobody knows.âÂ
You just canât believe that heâs ready to do this for you. What kind of friend is he? A superhero? You donât clearly know yet, but the simple fact that he wants to help and protect you just proves that heâs the best person youâve ever met.Â
âYou know, I was actually thinking of hiding it from Minho and his super-powerful family,â you mention while caressing his hand. âItâll be easier for everyone.âÂ
âNo, yn, itâs not going to be easy for you,â he replies. âAnd for the baby.âÂ
You still canât believe that inside of you a human being is growing and that one day, youâll birth them. That same person will be a part of you and theyâll only exist thanks to you. Itâs just incredible but it feels like it is just too much for you at the moment.Â
âI canât just let you take a role that is not yours,â you say to him. âI canât let you be the father of a child that is not even biologically yours, and I wonât let you sacrifice your life because I was careless.âÂ
You just canât accept this. Jungkook will have to put on hold his romantic life because heâll be too busy to be the father of someone elseâs baby.Â
âIâm not sacrificing my life, yn,â he shakes his head. âI just canât sit and watch your life fall apart. Minho will probably never accept to be the father of your baby, and we donât know yet how your family will react. But I know one thing, no matter what, this situation will destroy you.âÂ
You close your eyes, trying to hold back some tears. This is already destroying you. Youâre going to be a mother, a moment that is supposed to be the happiest one of your life, and yet, youâre losing everything because of it.Â
âMy love life is dead, and sometimes, I even wonder if girls look beyond my body. They just want to have sex with me because I look like a bad boy when itâs not what I am looking for in life,â he explains. âSo, Iâll be the father of your baby for you.âÂ
âNo, Jungkook,â you shake your head and turn your back to him. âI wonât let you sacrifice everything.âÂ
You feel his body pressed against yours, his head resting on your shoulder and his arms enveloping your body in his strong arms.Â
âI am proposing this to you, I thought about it a lot and I am just ready to do it,â he murmurs in your ear. âIâll do anything for you, yn.âÂ
Those last words send shivers down your spine.Â
âBut Iâll give you some time to think about it, and when youâll feel ready, youâll just give me an answer,â he whispers and you nod.Â
You stay in each other's arms for a while, enjoying the presence of the other.Â
If you accept his proposition, you know that Jungkook will be an excellent father. Heâs just so carrying and loving, and having him as their father will for sure be a good thing. But there is no need to recognize them as his child. No matter what you decide, heâll be the father figure of your baby.Â
OCTOBER 13, 2018
A week passed since Jungkook proposed to you that weird idea.Â
Youâve come back to work, trying to keep your mind busy and to not think only about your pregnancy. At the moment, nobody knows that youâre pregnant. You just donât know what to do, youâre just too lost. You decided that until you havenât decided yet what to do with Jungkookâs proposition, you wonât tell anything to anyone.Â
Not even Yongji is aware of the fact that she was right all along.Â
When you enter the restaurant, you see your friend sitting at a table alone, and you join him. A bright smile stretches across his lips as he sees you coming. For the first time in a week, youâre smiling. A smile that only Jungkook can bring out.Â
You havenât seen him in a week because you didnât want his presence to influence your decision. You knew that his big doe eyes would influence you or even his presence. With him, you always feel safe and happy. Heâd make you say âyesâ in a heartbeat. Â
But it feels good to see him after all this time. Life felt empty without him by your side and time seemed to move slowly. You missed him, more than a lot.  Â
He quickly stands up and he pushes back the chair in front of him so that you can take a seat. âHi, yn!â Â
As your eyes linger on him, you notice how his dark long hair is partially pushed back, revealing his undercut, and heâs wearing a white cotton shirt instead of his usual sweaters. Itâs a slightly see-through shirt as some of his tattoos can be seen, and you canât help but wonder if heâs wearing it on purpose. Is he teasing you?Â
You swipe that thought away, youâre convinced that Jungkook only loves you like a friend and that he wouldnât do such a thing.  Â
âHello, Kook.âÂ
Being now in front of him, you can smell his strong perfume. Y Eau de Parfum from Yves Saint-Laurent. You offered him that perfume some time ago, and since then, he has been putting it but only on special events.Â
Knowing it makes you feel special. So special.Â
You take a seat, your smile never fading away. The knuckles of his fingers brush against your back, giving you goosebumps. This is for sure new for you, never have you felt that with Jungkook.Â
Quickly, he walks to his chair and sits in front of you. Although your bodies are still a bit far from the other, his knees skim yours, giving you more goosebumps.    Â
âWow, you look all good!â you say with a bright smile on your face.Â
âYou look even better,â he licks his lips as his eyes look down on you.Â
From the moment you entered that restaurant, Jungkook couldnât keep his eyes off you. Â
Since you were going out with your best friend, you decided to put on a beige dress with long sleeves. Itâs a beautiful dress that you use quite often when you go out and you know Jungkook likes it. Thatâs actually the reason youâre wearing it. Itâs cold outside, at this time of the year, itâs always too cold, and so, youâre also wearing long boots.Â
From the outside, it really looks like youâre both on a date while youâre just going to decide about the future of your baby. Â
âWhy a restaurant?â he asks, cocking an eyebrow.Â
Yesterday, you asked him if itâd be possible to meet tonight at a restaurant. Usually, you both donât go out alone, there is also someone else but you simply want to get out of your apartment for just a moment.Â
âJust wanted to be out of my apartment.âÂ
His eyes are filled with a lot of brightness, itâs like they are sparkling, and you feel something inside you that you canât quite explain. Itâs like it is the first time that youâre seeing your friend, and this feeling inside you is something you have never felt around him.  Â
Actually, you felt it with Minho but this is stronger. So much stronger.Â
Jungkook canât help but find you super attractive, and to him, youâre glowing like never before. Heâs wondering if itâs related to your pregnancy or if youâve always been shining but he never noticed it.Â
âLetâs take a look at the menu,â you suggest, trying to look away from him, and he nods. His eyes on you are making you uncomfortable and it makes you wonder what you need to do. You take the menu and read what this restaurant has to offer.Â
After your proposal to go out, Jungkook offered to come here, one of his favorite places. This is the first time youâre coming to this restaurant.    Â
A couple of minutes later, a waiter arrives at your table and asks what youâre going to take. Itâs an Italian restaurant and a lasagna is the meal that you choose, you havenât eaten one in ages.Â
When the waiter leaves, you focus again on your friend. âIâve been thinking a lot about your proposition, and Iâve made up my mind.âÂ
He just nods, encouraging you to keep talking. He doesnât want to interrupt you, scared that youâll change your mind in the middle.Â
âI think youâre right,â you bite the inside of your cheek, youâre a bit nervous. âNo matter what, youâll be around and for sure, youâll be the father figure of the baby. For sure, Minho will never be around, his family will never let him recognize a child he had with some random girl.âÂ
There is no need to be a genius to know that. However, Jungkook was the first one to understand that.Â
âHaving you as their legal father will be helpful for everything.â Â
The man in front of you listens carefully but a feeling of happiness grows inside him. In some way, he kind of expected that youâd accept his proposition but he was skeptical.Â
âBut in the future, I donât want to hide it to our child.âÂ
This last week, you realize that itâs better if your baby is in fact recognize as Jungkookâs child. Not only would they grow up with a father but if something happens, heâll be able to make decisions without you being there. You donât even doubt that heâd take the right decisions, no matter what.Â
But if your baby grows up thinking that Jungkook is their biological father, it would eventually end up bad. They need to know that they have a biological father that is not the same as their actual father.Â
âI donât want secrets between the three of us.âÂ
For Jungkook, itâs totally understandable. He can imagine the shock someone can feel when they found out years later that the man that raised them is not their biological father. Telling the truth as soon as possible is for sure the best decision.Â
However, heâs delighted that you accepted his proposition, and heâs more than happy to become a father. All he wants to do right now is jump off happiness and scream to the world that heâll become a father.Â
Itâs something he has desired his entire life. Since a very young age, he dreamed of having two kids, a boy, and a girl but he always thought that heâd found the love of his life before. He never imagined that his love life would become a disaster as it is right now. The lack of luck on that field made him give up on his dream.Â
Now, youâre changing everything. Â
âI will of course say to everyone that youâre the father, I wonât ever mention Minho to anyone.âÂ
If you hide Minho from everyone, theyâll never know that heâs the biological father of the child youâre carrying. Nobody will raise questions and itâs a lot better like that.Â
âI donât know what the future holds but Iâll forever be thankful that youâll take on the role of Minho.âÂ
During this past week, you tried to contact Minho a couple of times but you never heard anything from him. His family is most probably managing to convince him to do whatever they want or he just simply doesnât want to speak with you anymore.Â
And it just breaks your heart because you wanted to tell him that youâre pregnant with his child. You wanted to tell him that heâs going to be a father. But you know that most probably heâll never find out about your babyâs existence.Â
âAs I told you, Iâll do anything for you, yn,â he replies with a small grin. âAnd now, that includes the small human growing in your womb.âÂ
You reach for his hand and hold it tight, the warmth of his hand on yours is pleasurable. You feel the urge to caress the top of his hand with his thumb. Your eyes get lost in his gaze, and never before have you felt this good.
You owe everything to the man in front of you. Without any doubt, you know that life will be much easier with him by your side. You wonât be scared of the future because heâll help you deal with whatever may happen to your baby. A baby that is now his.Â
âOur baby,â you mumble.Â
Hearing you say that makes it feel real. Jungkook realizes that heâs really going to be a father. You will forever be linked to your closest friend. It doesnât scare you at all because you know that heâll be the best father for your baby, even better than Minho.Â
âOur baby,â he repeats with a big and bright smile on his face.Â
The fact that youâre pregnant is something that still feels unreal. You guess that youâll only realize it when your baby bump will start growing or maybe when youâll see your baby for the first time on an ultrasound.Â
The dinner went well and youâre both super happy, looking forward to seeing what the future holds for both of you.Â
You just left the restaurant, walking now to your apartment that isnât really far but Jungkook wants to be sure that you safely arrive at your place. Now, he has to take care of you and your baby. Things have changed and he doesn't want something bad to happen to you. Â
As you're walking, your bodies are very close, his hand brushing against yours, and youâre just dying to hold it and intertwine your fingers with his. During the entire dinner, you were just craving his touch, wanting his warmth to embrace your body, and never before it has happened.Â
âYou really don't have to take me home.âÂ
Jungkook stops, looking at you. âI want to be sure nothing happens to you on your way home.âÂ
You can't help but smile at his words. Tonight, the simple fact that he takes you home warms your heart although youâre perfectly aware that he would have done it any other day or with anybody. Jungkook has always been such a gentleman.Â
âI donât want anything to happen to you or the baby,â his dark eyes glare down on your body, halting at your stomach, and his right-hand grabs your left one, stroking your hand with his thumb.Â
âFor sure, nothing will happen to me or our baby with you.âÂ
You lean closer and press a soft kiss on his cheek. Both of you feel butterflies down your stomach as your lips touch his skin, and even when your lips leave the skin of his cheek, he still senses them. His dark orbs are totally hypnotized by your sweet face.Â
In the dark of the night, your face sparkles, and the smile that starts to appear lights your face even more. Jungkook wants to take a picture of your face right now and spend the rest of his life looking at it, remembering just how twinkling you are right now.  Â
You take the opportunity that his hand is holding yours to intertwine your fingers before you start walking again, still with a bright smile on your face.Â
Since you found out that you were pregnant, itâs actually the first time that youâre happy about it, and itâs all thanks to Jungkook. Seeing you this happy delights him. He just can't wait to see your womb swell but he's even more impatient to meet the baby.Â
You quickly arrive home. Once in front of the building, you stop but still keep your fingers entwined. You look at each other and you feel like you're sixteen again. It's like you're with your crush for the first time although Jungkook is just your close friend. However, now the father of your child.
âI just donât know what to say to you,â you sincerely say to him. âYou are the father of my baby just because you don't want my life to fall apart and I don't think somebody else will ever do that to me.âÂ
You perfectly know that nobody else would have proposed to be the father of your baby just to protect you from the biological fatherâs family. Somebody else would have maybe never thought about it.Â
Jungkook's eyes look down at you and his free hand caresses your cheek.Â
âAs Iâve been saying, Iâll do anything for you without any hesitation.âÂ
As you look up at him, youâre aware that you are both looking at the other differently, making you wonder if you always have felt something more than just friendship for him but never noticed it. Â
Your hand leaves his and holds his waist tight as you crash your body against his, your head falling against his chest. The silence of the night is quickly replaced by the sound of his heartbeat pounding fast under his broad chest.
To say that you're thankful is an understatement. You don't know what could have happened if he had never suggested being the father. Most probably your family would have been ashamed of you, Minho's father would have given you money to abort or would have done everything to hide you, and youâd be alone, crying for being stupid enough to get yourself knocked up.Â
âI am so thankful to have met you,â he whispers in your ear. âMy life was so bland before you.âÂ
Your arms tighten even more around his waist, loving every word he said. Jungkook smiles, thinking that he must look like a total idiot right now.Â
âLetâs get inside,â you say to him, âitâs too cold.âÂ
He nods before you both head to the building. You take the stairs as you live on the first floor, it's faster than using the elevator. You open the door and let Jungkook enter.Â
âDo you want to drink something?â you ask him as you take your coat off. Â
Jungkook stays at your apartmentâs entrance, not moving at all. His eyes are on you as you turn the lights on and ask him if he wants to drink.
Youâre beautiful in every way to him. The dress youâre wearing embraces your body perfectly, letting him see how imperfectly perfect your body is. Itâs not the first time that heâs checking you out but this time, itâs different. Youâre not just his friend anymore. Youâre the mother of his unborn child.Â
Jungkook realizes that heâs looking at you like heâs in love with you. Heâs even wondering if the small glass of wine that he drank at the restaurant is causing this all. Without the wine would he be looking at you like that?Â
âNo, thanks,â he answers, shaking his head. âI think I drank too much already.âÂ
A small chuckle leaves your throat, thinking about the only glass of wine he took. Jungkook usually drinks way more than just a glass, you have already got drunk together after a miserable day. You can tell that heâs totally sober right now.Â
âWhat makes you giggle?â he cocks a brow.Â
âIt was just a glass,â you answer with a smile on your face. âThat was literally nothing for you.âÂ
He rolls his eyes, a smile appearing on his face.Â
âYou donât even know if I drank something before seeing you.âÂ
You cross your arms over your chest, raising an eyebrow. Youâre not convinced at all by his little lie.Â
âIâve already seen you completely drunk, Kook,â you say. âI know what you look like when you drink too much.âÂ
âYouâre annoying, yn.â Â
âBut you love me,â youâre still smiling at him before hugging him again. It feels good to be in his strong arms, more than good actually.Â
Jungkook is also liking it a lot but before things get out of control, he just takes a step back. Heâs scared to do or say something that heâll regret. Right now, happiness is taking control of his body but he has to be careful. This feeling is maybe just temporary.  Â
âMaybe, I should get going,â he says.Â
âNo, donât go,â you pout.Â
You donât want him to go. You want him to stay and hold you in his strong arms, feeling his warm body against yours. You have never craved so much his touch as you do right now, and it scares you a lot.Â
This is new to you, wondering if it is real. Youâre pregnant, your hormones are most probably all over the place and the man in front of you is going to be the father of your child. All those elements can cloud your judgment at the moment. Â
âStay just a little bit more,â you add.Â
Jungkook crosses his arms over his chest before your little hands rest on his forearms. Your big eyes canât stop looking into his, waiting for an answer. To him, itâs like youâre a small kid begging their parents to let them do whatever they want. But youâre just extremely adorable.Â
âStop looking at me like that.âÂ
He hates the power you have over him, you donât have to do much to have him wrapped around your finger. He wonât say ânoâ to anything youâll ask. Â
âYou know Iâll give you what you want.âÂ
A smile appears on your face.Â
âCan we watch a movie?âÂ
He nods before taking his jacket off and putting it on the coat hanger. You grab his hand, guiding him through your small apartment to get to the living room. Â
âIâll let you choose the movie while Iâll get us some snacks and drinks.âÂ
You disappear into your kitchen while Jungkook sits on your couch to choose the movie. Youâve already seen so many movies together that it feels like you have already seen all of them.Â
Quickly you come back with some biscuits and drinks. He notices that you didnât bring him any beer or alcohol which he's thankful for. Heâs way too scared of what he could do with alcohol. You put everything on the coffee table, Jungkookâs eyes watching every one of your moves. You take a seat next to him, getting comfortable by his side.
âI choose some random shit that we havenât seen yet,â he informs you.Â
The movie that he chose isnât important to you, all you care about is to spend more time with your baby daddy. This attraction youâre feeling for your friend is getting to be more obvious to you. You crave more, and you simply canât deny it. Â
Jungkook slowly comprehends that right now heâs loving you way more than a friend. The entire night, he was having doubts about it but feeling you sitting next to him gives him the time to realize things.Â
The way heâs dressed is all for you and to get your attention. He never wore a see-through shirt because he knew that his dates would start flirting too much just to get laid, which was something he didnât want. But wearing it tonight was like a sign from his subconscious, telling him that he didnât actually mind getting laid.Â
Nonetheless, youâre also wearing his favorite dress. A clear sign that he didnât miss. He canât help but think that you know what you were going to do to him. Jungkook isnât wrong at all. At any other moment, you wouldnât have put that dress on. Deep down, all you were hoping was to ruin the friendship. Â
Youâre sitting close to him, your leg pressed against his, and both of you try as hard as possible to focus on the movie. But neither of you canât stop glancing at the other.Â
Nevertheless, it seems that fate desires to bring you together, and the two characters of the movie start to make out heavily. Jungkook's face instantly heats up, completely embarrassed while your body completely freezes. That was for sure something unexpected, especially when youâre realising that youâre probably having a massive crush on the man sitting next to you.Â
A piece of slow and romantic music plays in the background of the kissing scene. This only puts you both into the mood of the scene. The tension between you and Jungkook is heavily growing.Â
The two of you ignore what to do as youâre both embarrassed by the way your bodies are reacting to a simple kissing scene. Youâre just thankful that itâs not a sex scene otherwise youâd be hiding under the couch, ashamed to be completely turned on.Â
This is becoming harder to handle as it becomes obvious that this scene is turning you on. You rub your thighs together, craving his touch more and more. Slowly, you turn your head towards him. Jungkookâs body is as tense as yours, you perfectly understand that heâs in the same state as you.Â
âKook,â your voice is barely audible but he hears you and finally looks at you. The first thing he sees is how desperate you are for him.Â
âYn,â he whispers as he closes his eyes for a few seconds. âDonât look at me like that.âÂ
The movie is completely forgotten. There are just the two of you and nothing else. The tension between you two is at its highest and whatâs going to follow next will only depend on the two of you. Are you going to give in or not? Are you going to ruin your friendship?Â
âI canât, JK.âÂ
Your heart is pounding hard, ready to burst at any minute. Jungkookâs eyes go from your eyes down to your lips, resting a little too much on them. Heâs wondering what they feel like and the more he thinks about it, the more he wants to taste them. Â
To you, it is more than evident that he wants to kiss you. So, you decide to be the boldest one, leaning closer to him, and he knows whatâs coming, swallowing hard and biting his lower lip. He desperately wants it so he doesnât move at all as you lean closer.Â
However, for Jungkook, youâre moving too slow and he decides to close the gap for you, his lips finally meeting yours for a fervent kiss. His hand finds its way to the back of your neck, holding you while he kisses you like a desperate man. It simply feels like youâve never kissed somebody before.  Â
The kiss is so passionate and deep. Jungkook's lips are soft against yours like he is scared to break you as he kisses you. But they feel good on yours, itâs as if they were meant to kiss you.Â
As youâre kissing him with love and passion, you realize that since day one Jungkook was more than just a friend. There has always been a connection so strong between you that definitely was more than friendship but you always ignored it. The spark between you was slowly growing stronger and stronger until the moment it would inevitably blow up. That moment is happening right now. It just completely exploded unexpectedly, and god, itâs just so pleasurable.  Â
Jungkook pulls you onto his lap as he craves to feel more friction. That action lifts your dress up, revealing the skin of your legs. Heâs craving to feel you in every possible way and bringing your body this close is completely driving him crazy. Both of you are panting hard but it clearly doesnât matter.Â
You keep wanting more and more.
As you break the kiss, you quickly unbutton his shirt, to reveal his bare skin to your eyes. You enjoy the view, his tattoos in the full display just for you. Itâs not the first time youâre seeing his chest and tattoos, but itâs the first time that youâre looking at his body with lust.Â
You instantly touch his covered tattooed skin. He has quite a lot of tattoos but there are still some uncovered parts. The ink on his body adds a lot of sensuality to him, and now, it becomes quite clear why all those girls are always so needy around him. He looks like a bad boy, but itâs one with the biggest heart youâve ever met.Â
Jungkook shivers from the feeling of your fingertips brushing against his skin. You press your lips against his, needing to be completely intoxicated by him. He licks your bottom lip before he grips it with his teeth, making you moan. As he hears your sweet moan, his dick twitches inside his pants and heâs growing harder underneath you.Â
You open your mouth, Jungkook seizes the opportunity to slip his tongue inside your mouth, finally meeting yours. You moan at the feeling, and unintentionally, he flexes his toned thigh. You feel it in all the right places, making your pussy clench around nothing and it makes you moan again.Â
This unintentional action ends up being a good thing and he canât help but smirk. His hands go down on your exposed thighs to caress them. Your skin is soft under his palms and his hands feel huge on your body. Â
Before doing anything else, he pulls one of his legs out from under you in order for you to adjust yourself on his thigh. Your dress is pushed even higher, Jungkook has now a proper view of your black panties, and your clothed pussy is brushing now against his dark pants.Â
Both of you know where this is going but none of you wants to stop it. Youâre getting addicted to the other more and more and the thought of stopping doesnât even cross your mind.Â
âFuck, yn,â hegroans when you start moving your hips against his thigh. Â
He presses his lips on yours for a filthy kiss, his tongue passing past your lips and licking against your own. This feels more than good, everything about you is addictive, and Jungkook wants to have sex with you.Â
This is totally unusual for him but all this situation is different. Youâre not just a flirt that he met some days or weeks ago, youâve been his closest friend for more than a year. He doesnât doubt that beyond the physical attraction you love him for who he is.Â
As his tongue plays with yours on your mouth, his hands find their way to your waist and guide your hips as youâre straddling his thigh. A small moan leaves your lips but the man in front of you swallows it directly. He pushes his thigh firmly against your clothed pussy and flexes the muscle once more.Â
âI like how youâre riding my thigh, butterfly,â he whispers against your lips. âBut I want to feel you properly.â Â
One of his hands slides down on your body and tugs aside the fabric of your panties until your clit is directly pressed against his thigh. A breath falls from your lips as you drag your pussy against his thigh. Â
Jungkook pulls you firmly against his flexed muscle, and once his hands are back on your waist, he quickens the pace of your hips. A trail of moans leaves your mouth, loving the friction of his pants against your pussy.Â
âI love to hear you moan, butterfly,â he whispers in your ear, sending shivers down your spine.Â
He just knows what to say and when to do it. He loves to be in charge, thatâs obvious and that is a surprising thing for you. You never thought Jungkook would be this type of man. He looks so gentle and adorable all the time that you thought that heâd be the sub type.Â
His length is getting harder and tighter on his pants, he needs to do something about it otherwise heâll explode completely.Â
âI will touch myself as you keep riding my thigh,â Jungkook says with evident desperation in his voice.Â
Before you can even process what he said, he inserts two fingers in your mouth, and with his other hand, he lowers his underwear, allowing his cock to slap against his lower stomach. His cock takes your breath away, standing proud in between your bodies. Heâs a bit thick, but not too much though, and as well long but again not too long. Itâs clearly not how you pictured the crotch of your friend. This sight alone gets you wetter.   Â
You suck on his finger, coating them with your saliva, and that alone snatches a groan out of his pretty swollen lips. A proud smile appears on your face. When he feels that they are soaked enough, he pulls them from your mouth. His fingers hold his cock, covering it with your saliva as they go up and down the length.Â
âDamn,â he mumbles, his head slowly going back at the feeling of his fingers on his length and your clit rubbing against him. âYouâre doing this so well, butterfly,â he comments.Â
The little butterfly nickname brings actual butterflies in your lower stomach. Itâs such an adorable nickname even though itâs said in the middle of a naughty time.Â
You bite your bottom lip as you stare deep into his eyes. The intimacy of the eye contact with the friction against your clit makes the wave of pleasure grow intensely inside you, and for sure, you wonât last long before that wave hits you hard. Â
âPleasuring yourself on my thigh while I touch myself,â he growls as his hand keeps pumping his cock. âItâs too hot, butterfly.â Â
Jungkook runs his thumb over the tip of his cock and grips his bottom lip between his teeth. He strokes his cock at the same pace at which your hips are working on his thigh, and he also feels like heâs about to cum on his hand.Â
âFuck, butterfly,â he growls as he looks down to watch your throbbing pussy rubbing against his thigh, âyouâre doing this perfectly.âÂ
You put your hand on his shoulder and circle your pussy faster against his thigh. Youâre so close.Â
âKook,â you say and his gaze meets yours once again, âIâm so close!âÂ
The hand resting on your waist goes down and his thumb circles on your clit. It sends you over the edge, the wave of pleasure hitting you violently and you feel your orgasm in every part of your body. A guttural moan leaves your mouth and you close your eyes to enjoy the feeling. Â
The sight of you coming undone makes him come, a deep groan coming from his throat as cum flows on his hand.Â
You hide your face on the crook of his neck, completely surprised that you gave in to temptation. Nobody says anything, youâre just both trying to catch your breath and you close your eyes.Â
Slowly, you fall asleep in his arms, exhausted from what happened. Jungkook senses it but doesnât say anything as he enjoys having you in his arms.Â
As youâre falling deeper, he moves a bit and you groan a bit. âIâm just putting back my pants, butterfly,â he whispers in your ear. Â
He does it quickly to not disturb you more. âIâll put you in your bed, youâll be better.âÂ
âNo,â you mumble half-awake, âI want to stay in your arms.âÂ
He stands up, holding you tight in his arms. You mumble some words that he doesnât understand, making him chuckle. Once in your bedroom, he carefully places you in your bed before laying next to you. He crawls to you, holding you again in his arms.   Â
OCTOBER 15, 2018
For the past two days, Jungkook has been living in your place, only leaving you to go to work. Having him around you all the time has been helping you to embrace and accept this pregnancy even more. Â
The first appointment with the obstetrician has already been taken and youâre super excited to discover your baby. But most importantly, you want to know if nothing is wrong with them, their health is what worries you the most.Â
You donât know exactly how far youâre on this pregnancy, and in the past weeks, there has been some alcohol consumption. That is leaving you wondering if it affected their growth and you just want to be sure that the baby is in fact good health.    Â
Although everything seems to be fine, you and Jungkook havenât spoken about what happened two days ago. Indeed, just the thought of what happened makes you a bit uncomfortable. But you need to speak about it, youâre going to be parents and you canât just ignore the feelings you have.Â
âKook?â you say as you sit in front of him at the wooden table of the kitchen.Â
As usual, heâs wearing a large shirt with some training pants but his hair isnât pushed into a man-bun as he has been doing it quite a lot lately. This simple outfit gives him some sexiness, and you know that in a long term, you wonât be able to resist his natural charm. Â
âMmm,â he says looking at you.Â
âCan we speak about what happened two days ago?âÂ
Youâre scared that if you donât bring the conversation up, he would never do it. When it comes to feelings, Jungkook is always the first one to hide which means that you have to be the bravest one.Â
The man in front of you swallows hard when he hears your question. Of course, he prefers to avoid the subject since heâs a bit ashamed of what happened. But he knows how important it is to communicate.   Â
âWe really need to, JK,â you can see in his eyes that heâs not comfortable. âWe are going to have a baby, and being scared of speaking about certain topics is clearly not the best thing to do.â
âI know, yn,â he answers. âIâm just ashamed of how needy I was for you.âÂ
You decide to stand up, walking to him, and sitting in his lap. Your fingers brush his long hair, that part of him is one of your weaknesses. You never thought youâd be into long-haired men but here you are, loving Jungkookâs long hair.Â
As you sit on his lap, he remembers how well you made him feel when you were riding his thigh.  Â
âDonât be ashamed,â your eyes look into his dark orbs. âWe both wanted it.âÂ
One of your hands goes down on his face to caress his soft skin.Â
âI never expected to feel more than friendship for you, JK. Never,â his eyes never leave yours, scared that if he closes his eyes, youâll disappear. âBut I liked everything I felt that day and how you made me feel.âÂ
His heart is slowly starting to pound fast. Â
âNobody made me feel the way you did, and I was only riding your thigh.âÂ
You donât even want to imagine how he could make you feel with his cock buried deep inside you.Â
âI want to feel that every day, Jungkook.âÂ
Youâre not ashamed to tell him that you desire more. More of his lips on you, more of his hands on your body, more of his touch. More of him. You want to get addicted again and again until all your mind can think of is him. Â
âYou know that if we do that again, we canât be just friends anymore.âÂ
That limit seems to have already been exceeded. It happened the moment you found out you were pregnant and he proposed to be the father. That gesture proved that heâd go beyond everything to protect you.Â
âWe already ruin our friendship,â you slightly push some of his hair back. âWe stopped being friends the moment we decided to kiss each other.âÂ
His eyes go down to your lips, remembering the way they were kissing him two nights ago. It felt like entering heaven. Since that night, he canât stop thinking of your lips on his.Â
âBe my boyfriend, Jungkook,â you tell him. âDonât be just my babyâs daddy.â   Â
Itâs the first time a girl asks him to date her, but the boldness of your suggestion doesnât even surprise him. Between the two of you, youâve always been the boldest, and he has always liked it. Â
He wants to be more than just your friend and experienced love with you. God, there are so many things that have crossed his mind after that night and in all of them, you were his girlfriend. Â
âYou know you already have me wrapped around your finger,â his hands slide down to your waist, bringing you closer to him and holding you firmly against his hips. You can feel his bulge just under your core, and heâs not even hard.  Â
Jungkook hates when heâs not in control, but with you, most of the time, youâre the one in charge. Heâll do whatever you want him to do.Â
âIâll be whatever you want me to be,â he adds. âIf you want me to be your sex friend, Iâll be it and if you want more, Iâll give you more.âÂ
Without any second thoughts, you kiss him with passion. You want him to be more than just a partner with whom you have fun. The love you both feel for each other is just too strong.Â
âI want to be your girlfriend, Jungkook,â you whisper on his lips. âI want to give you all the love you deserve.â Your thumb caresses his cheek. âYou deserve the love of Juliet.âÂ
A smile spreads across his face, remembering the time you told him that he deserves to be loved like Juliet loved Romeo. Although it was a tragic love story, he wants to know a love as strong as that one.  Â
âAnd you deserve the love of all the stars and the moon.âÂ
Jungkook kisses you once again. This is something he never expected, to start dating you the moment he becomes a father.Â
JANUARY 17, 2019
For the past three months, a lot has changed.Â
Jungkook has moved on to your place because everything will be easier if you live in the same apartment. Since he was sharing his with Namjoon and Yoongi, it was evident that you were not going to live with him and his roommates.Â
Your relationship is slowly getting stronger as days pass. Not much has changed. You spend more time together now and kiss a lot. Thereâs a lot of oral sex but no penetrative sex yet. There isnât any real reason behind it, youâre just comfortable with the oral sex at the moment and you know that there will be more when youâll feel ready.Â
To everyone, you have both announced that you were going to have a baby together. The reactions were overall positives. Both of your parents were more than happy and excited to become grandparents. Your parents were a bit tougher because youâre not married, but they still accept it since youâre together. But your mother, as well as his, started to cry as they realized that their babies were going to have a baby. Â
Your siblings were just thrilled to have a niece or nephew tin the way. The feeling was shared by your friends, some were just surprised that you were having a kid when you used to describe each other as just friends.Â
Yongji was the one that was a bit more skeptical at first, not truly believing it but you managed to convince her. This little secret, you just want to keep it between the two of you for the moment. You have to admit that you were scared of her reaction. What would she say? Would she still support you if she knows? And as selfish as it sounds, you want to have your best friend by your side during all your pregnancy.    Â
Nobody knows or even suspects that Minho is the biological father of the baby youâre carrying. And itâs better like that, especially since the Park family announced publicly that Minho is going to marry Yeri in July.Â
You still keep trying to contact him but less than at the beginning. Itâs clear now that heâs never going to reach out for you, heâs back with Yeri and he will start a family with her. Youâre convinced that this was all meant to be. Minho will never know that he got you pregnant and that he created a human being with you.Â
âCan I help you?â Â
You finished work a bit earlier today, there wasnât much work to do today and you decided that itâd be the perfect occasion to visit Jungkookâs store.Â
The man in front of you asking if he can help you must be the new partner of your boyfriend. Â
Last month, he decided to listen to you and found a partner to help him out. Of course, he was picky, and it took him a little while to find the perfect partner. Ironically, his partner is named Park Jimin.Â
Jungkook has been praising him a lot, and youâre more than happy to see that this partnership is working perfectly. There are even more clients now but your boyfriend finds more time to work on his personal projects.Â
âI am here for Jungkook,â you say with a smile on your face.Â
âDo you have any appointment?â he asks politely.Â
âNo, I am his girlfriend.âÂ
âOh, sorry,â Jimin says before bowing to you. âI didnât know.âÂ
âDonât worr,â you still smile at him.
âHeâs still working but he should be almost over.âÂ
You nod before thanking him for the information. He proposes to you something to drink or to eat but you politely decline. Youâve already eaten a lot today, this crazy baby has been giving you the wildest cravings and you know that if you start eating now, you wonât be able to stop.Â
Your stomach is slightly swollen but with all the layers of clothes youâre wearing, itâs not even noticeable. Your baby has been growing a lot lately which leads to your stomach swelling a lot too. Youâre certain that in some days, even with all the clothes you put to protect yourself from the cold weather, you won't be able to hide your baby bump anymore.Â
You were about to take a seat in one of the chairs in the entrance when a man comes from behind with Jungkook following him. The man checks you out quickly but your boyfriend notices it and by the way his jaw clenches, you bet that he doesnât like it.Â
Another young lady enters, and Jimin takes care of her while the man pays for what Jungkook did on his body before leaving the store. Jimin disappears behind with the girl, leaving you alone with your boyfriend.Â
His hair is pushed back into a man-bun, a large grey shirt covering his toned torso while ripped blue skinny jeans cover his long legs. This view is more than mouthwatering. This hot man standing in front of you is all yours.Â
âHi, butterfly,â he finally breaks the silence between the two of you.Â
âHi,â you smile at him. Watching him like that, all you want to do is make love with him until you forget your own name.Â
Jungkook walks closer to you, offering you a soft smile. âI was not expecting you,â his thumb finds its way to your cheek, caressing it like youâre made of glass.Â
âI wanted to surprise you.â   Â
Jungkook leans his face closer to yours, his breath brushing your skin. âItâs definitely a good surprise, butterfly,â he whispers in your ear, sending shivers down your spine.Â
Your boyfriend is a master in teasing and turning you on with a few words. He can literally say âcarâ and itâll turn you on. You donât know how he does it but whatâs sure is that heâs a master in making you weak.Â
Pulling back a little, he stares into your eyes before pressing his lips against yours. The kiss is filled with heat and passion and you already know where this is going. The only problem is that youâre in his store and all the passers-by can see the two of you.Â
âI have twenty minutes before my next client,â he says on your lips. âWe could make good use of those twenty minutes,â he suggests before taking your hand and guiding you to the back of his shop.Â
You enter his private room, the one where he works on his personal projects and where he eats during his small breaks. There is a couch on the left corner, a small table with two chairs, and a fridge on the right corner. Itâs a small room but he doesnât need much more.Â
Jungkook closes the door so nobody can come in and disturb you for the next few minutes. Thereâs music playing in the room. Often from The Weeknd. The song sets the mood clearly. Â
Your lips meet once again for a languid kiss. You want him so much, and you desire so much more than just his tongue and fingers.  Â
You want him to insert himself inside you.Â
âI want you, Kook,â you whisper in between kisses.Â
He breaks the kiss before looking at you. âTake your jacket and pants off.âÂ
You donât have much time to have sex, and itâs better if you start undressing. So, Jungkook takes his clothes off quickly while you undress too. You struggle a bit more since youâre carrying a little human inside your body.Â
He opens one drawer from the little furniture next to the couch, taking a condom from it. The sight of the condom surprised you. Â
âWhy do you have a condom here?â you ask while frowning. Youâre half-naked and crossing your arms over your chest.Â
âI kind of hoped that one day youâd come and weâd get laid here.âÂ
This little confession from your boyfriend is surprising. So, all this time he was dreaming of having sex with you on that couch and never said anything to you.Â
âYouâre very surprising when it comes to sex,â you admit.Â
âEverybody has their own little fantasies,â he replies back.Â
âBut why are you even taking a condom?â you ask him, a bit confused.Â
Youâre pregnant, and the condom is completely useless. You are both healthy, nothing can happen if he penetrates you.Â
âWe donât want you to get pregnant while pregnant,â he answers.Â
His answer makes you giggle, and he arches a brow while tilting his head as he does not understand what is making you giggle.Â
âI canât get pregnant while being pregnant, babe,â you tell him.Â
âI read some articles that it can happen.âÂ
Jungkook has been deeply involved in this pregnancy. He clearly doesnât want to just give his name to your baby to protect you, he wants to be the best partner for you and father for the baby. He has been reading a lot of pregnancy books, and he even chats with some other dads on blogs.Â
When you found out that some weeks ago, you felt lucky. Lucky to share this with him and to have him by your side. You know heâll never let you down, and even if the worst happened, heâd give his best to be the father your child deserves.Â
âThe chances are very low, babe.âÂ
This is for sure a question youâll ask your obstetrician on your next appointment. However, you strongly believe that it would never happen.Â
âBut thereâs a risk and I donât want to take it.âÂ
Heâll gladly make love to you without a condom but he knows how hard it will be for you if you get pregnant while being pregnant. He sees how sometimes it is hard for you with just one baby, and if he could, heâd be the one carrying the baby.Â
But the reality is different, and your body is the one bearing his child. So, heâll do anything and everything to make your life easier. And wearing a condom will for sure make it easier.   Â
âNow, take your shirt off, I want to see your swollen stomach.âÂ
Since your stomach started to show, Jungkook adores to see it. Not only does he speak with the baby but he also caresses it. He wants to connect with his child before they arrive. He wants them to recognize him. For him, itâs the way to get really involved. However, he has also developed some sort of weird kink. He also likes to see your belly when you have sexual interactions.Â
You do as he says, revealing your upper body to him. Your boyfriend stares at your body, the prettiest one he has ever seen. The fact that youâre bearing his baby makes you even more marvelous to him.     Â
âYouâre so wonderful, butterfly.â Â
Your boyfriend guides both your bodies to the couch, sitting on the couch while you sit astride him, your ass pressed against his length and letting your legs rest on either side of his body. Your stomach is pressed against his, and he loves the feeling.Â
His lips find yours for another passionate kiss, your hands cupping his adorable cheeks while his hands go down on your body, caressing every inch of you.Â
His lips break the kiss. âI didnât like the way the client checked you out.âÂ
His little jealousy is something that you find very cute because itâs little. Sometimes, he just says some things like that and you canât help but find it adorable.Â
âI could say the same about all the girls that check you out when you walk in the streets.âÂ
Jungkook is terribly handsome, youâre very aware of it. You canât go for a walk with your boyfriend without having all the girls checking him out. Jealousy is something you constantly feel but you trust him. You know he loves you and he would never do something to break your trust.    Â
You kiss him again fervently, wanting to taste his lips over and over again. Slowly your lips go down to his neck and you decide to mark him as yours. You softly suck his skin and to your surprise he let you do it. He knows that you just want to let all the girls know that heâs already taken. Â
You feel the rumble of his chest as he starts to groan, and you feel his hands lay on your waist. Accidentally, your ass grinds against his length, and a groan leaves his lips.
âFuck, butterfly.âÂ
Once youâre done with the little hickey, you lick the sensitive spot and smirk, happy with what you just did.Â
His fingers find their way underneath your chin and lift it up. He wants his face to be the only thing you look at right now. His eyes are sparkling a lot and you know that you could forever get lost in his eyes.Â
His lips find yours for yet another kiss and you could kiss him forever without getting sick of it. His tongue licks your lips, inviting you to open up your mouth for him. His tongue explores the insides of your mouth, making you moan into his mouth.Â
âI need you, Kook,â you gasp as you feel yourself getting wetter. âI really need you, now.â Â
Right now, all you want is to feel him inside you. You donât want him to lick or finger you until youâre coming hard as well as you donât want to feel his cock buried in your mouth until you swallow all his cum.Â
âLooks like my little butterfly is very needy,â he says smirking against your lips. âBut sheâs lucky that all I want right now is to feel her tight walls around my hard length.â Â
You both start removing the last piece of clothing that you were wearing, which are just your underwears. Jungkook finally sets âkookie juniorâ free, thatâs how youâve been calling his cock lately. He doesnât like it much but teasing him is one of your passions, so you decided that from now on youâll call his length âkookie juniorâ.  Â
Your hand starts pumping his length, resulting in Jungkook rolling his head back and letting out a moan. Seeing and feeling his long and thick cock just makes you want to feel him inside you even more.Â
You move your hand up and down his length at a slow pace at first before quickening. He is getting harder, panting out curses of how good it feels to finally have your hand around him again. Precum is leaking and you use it as lube to allow your hand to easily move along his dick. Â
âFuck, yn,â he curses as he looks at your hand working on his cock. But as he looks down, the first thing he sees is your baby bump and that sight can make him come undone in a heartbeat. Â
You feel his cock twitch beneath your fingers, and you decide to stop this torture. You know that heâll come right now and you still need to ride him before that happens. A desperate groan leaves his lips.Â
âWe donât have the time for it, Kook.âÂ
You grip the condom he took seconds before and rip off the packing with your teeth. Then, you put the condom on his hard length while his hand slips to your wet core and he curses when he feels how wet you are.Â
âFuck, butterfly,â his cold fingers brushing against your core makes you moan. âYouâre so wet,â he smirks and gathers your wetness in his fingers before bringing them to his mouth and sucking them. Your eyes are glued to what heâs doing, and you admire the way your wetness mixes with his saliva in his mouth. This is so fucking hot.Â
Once he finishes sucking his fingers and the condom is put on his cock, his gaze meets yours and his hands fall to your hips, guiding your body up and then back down as you slowly sink onto his cock.Â
You moan as he stretches you out, your nails sinking on his shoulder as you feel a mix of pleasure and pain. Â
âFuck!â you whimper as he groans, more than happy to be inside of your heat. Youâre sure that Jimin and the girl heâs tattooing heard his loud groan, but you simply donât care. All you care about is to be fucked by this man.Â
âYouâre so fucking big,â you say.Â
Both of you stay still once his cock is fully inside you. You press your forehead against his, giving time to your body to adapt to his huge cock. You look into each other's eyes and he offers you a big smile.Â
âIt just feels like you were made just for me,â he says, and you smile back at him.Â
âMaybe we are meant to be together,â you give him a quick kiss.Â
âI am starting to think that we are,â he whispers.Â
Jungkook is convinced that when you entered this shop almost two years ago, you were meant to be his soulmate. He never believed in that shit before you, but now that heâs with you, it all makes sense to him. Â
âI could stay like this forever,â you say before giving him another kiss.   Â
âMe too, butterfly.âÂ
It feels like heaven, even though it hurts a little bit to have him fully inside of you.Â
âCan I move or do we wait a bit more ?â he asks with concern.Â
Instead of answering, you grind your hips to let him know that youâre ready to feel him move. Your prominent stomach brushes against his abs and a groan leaves his mouth. Â
Your forehead leaves his, and you sit up before he starts to thrust into you without any hesitation. His strong hands go down on your hips, holding you in place as his hips begin to thrust you at a slow pace. With every thrust he gives you; you feel your stomach get tighter.Â
There arenât words to describe how good it feels to share this moment with him. Everything is perfect with him, and finally having more than just oral sex with him feels like you got a ticket to heaven. You look at him, hot as hell, and that sight makes you moan.Â
Knowing how Jungkook loves to handle everything when it comes to sex, you know that all you have to do is to sit on his cock and let him do all the magic, enjoying every single second of this moment. He is strong enough to hold your body up as he fucks into your cunt from below. His thrusts become fast as he starts to set a pace you are both comfortable with.Â
âFeels good, butterfly?â he questions.Â
You give him a simple nod, not able to make a proper sentence because youâre completely lost in your own state of bliss. Jungkook loves seeing you like this, completely fucked up.Â
His hands caress your stomach, and in the middle of this debauchery, you canât help but find this moment adorable. You know heâs doing it to reassure your baby, he confessed to you once when he did it while he was fingering you. And you have to admit that you like the feeling of his hands rubbing your skin.Â
Your walls pulse around his length, squeezing him and it results in his thrusts becoming more brutal. He is deep inside of you, and you are loving it. Tears start to roll down your cheeks because of the way heâs pounding inside of you. Heâs stretching your insides so much with his rough thrust and it makes your whole body tremble.Â
If he keeps pounding you like that, youâre sure that youâll give birth right now. Â
âGonna cum, Kook,â you whisper to be the most discreet, although youâre sure that Jimin has already understood that youâre both having sex.
Your nails sink into his shoulder, and he groans at the pain and pleasure it gives him. He grips your hips harder as he continues to roughly thrust inside you, and you are sure that youâll have bruises.
âGo ahead, butterfly, make a mess for me,â he groans as he keeps thrusting hard.Â
Those dirty words are all you need to let your orgasm go. You are coming, biting your lower lip to muffle your moans. Your thighs are shaking but he keeps thrusting into you while youâre completely high from your orgasm.Â
Jungkook is completely loving the way youâre creaming his dick and just this sight could make him cum but he is determined to at least make you come one more time before he would come.
Right now, his priority is you and he just doesnât give two fucks to the client heâs supposed to tattoo in some minutes.Â
He quickly changes positions, flipping your bodies so that now he is on top of you and you are lying on the couch. Your legs wrap around his waist as he keeps thrusting into you. Heâs although very careful with your stomach because he doesnât want to hurt you or the baby. This is too much for your body and quickly, tears start falling from your eyes, again.
âKook,â youâre trying to speak but your mind canât think straight from all this overstimulation, âtoo m-much,â even though it feels like itâs too much, your body is secretly loving.Â
âI know you can take it, butterfly. Be a good girl for me, okay?â he whispers in your ear before he licks the spot right under your ear, sending shivers down your spine. You nod and you feel his tongue going down from your ear to your neck.Â
Jungkook sucks and bites the skin of your neck, leaving a bruise.Â
âI want everyone to know that Iâm the only one who can touch you, butterfly,â his thrusts are still brutal, and you donât know if your body can handle all of this any longer. Â
âFuck, Kook!â you say as your eyes roll back into the back of your head and he chuckles lowly into your ear.Â
Due to his brutal thrust, the couch is creaking, and your breasts are bouncing like crazy. They also have swollen a lot since the beginning of the pregnancy, and they are becoming heavier as time passes. Â
His thumb makes contact with your clit and starts rubbing it. All of this feels so bad and so good at the same time, but you never want him to stop. Youâre doing everything you can to not moan but Jungkook is clearly pushing you to do it. Heâs driving you completely crazy.Â
The tip of his cock hits that sweet spot and you come all over him again. Your pussy clench around him as a loud moan escapes your lips, and the juices of your release are leaking out everywhere.Â
He keeps fucking you through your high as he chases his own release. Your walls keep clenching around him and that is all he needs to come. He closes his eyes, enjoying this moment of release and you are sure heâd never look so sexy. Â
Jungkook collapses over you as he decides to leave your pussy some needy rest. You both try to catch your breath for a little while, and you leave a lot of kisses on his sweet face. Heâs loving it and he could stay like this forever but he has one final client before you can both go home.Â
âIâll tattoo the client, and you stay here until I come back, okay?â he lifts his head up to look at you.Â
âOkay, Kookie.âÂ
He pulls his kookie junior out of you before taking the condom filled with his cum and throwing it in the trash. He puts his clothes back on while you do the same but at a slower rate. Before leaving the room, he kisses you.Â
âCanât wait to do this again tonight, butterfly.â   Â
FEBRUARY 20, 2019
Minho never expected to see you again, especially not in a supermarket. More than five months have passed since he last saw you.Â
He's perfectly aware that heâs the one that completely put an end to whatever you two were having. He adored you a lot and under other circumstances, he's convinced that things between you would have worked. But Yeri, his ex whom he dated for years, came back to him, and things changed. He knew that if he chose you over her, his family would always reject you even if youâd get married.Â
But he chose the easiest way for everyone, avoiding causing a lot of suffering. Things would have never been easy. He knows that he will never love Yeri as he used to but they share a long love story and she is what his family wants.  Â
As youâre looking at the fruits youâre going to buy, your swollen womb catches his attention, making his body freeze completely. Your right-hand strokes gently your obvious baby bump.Â
His heart squeezes at the sight, thinking that there are chances that heâs the father. He closes his eyes for a few seconds. For the past months, youâve been texting him frequently, trying to contact him but he refuses to reply because he knows that heâd fall into your arms in a heartbeat. This is beyond hard for him. Of course, he desires only to reply to your calls and texts but things are better like this. Â
Now, it all makes sense. Youâve been texting him because you want to tell him that youâre pregnant. If he would have answered you, he knows that things would have been completely different. Most probably, heâd be right next to you in this supermarket and heâd be doing some jokes about your bump. Most probably, heâd be preparing his babyâs room instead of planning his wedding.Â
âShit,â he mumbles to himself.Â
As he was about to walk in your direction, he notices Jungkook placing himself next to you. Heâs smiling at you while his hand finds its way to your back. If he didnât know that heâs your best friend, heâd think that youâre together.Â
You look up at Jungkook before he leans closer to you and presses a kiss on your lips. Minhoâs heart squeezes even more. You replaced him like he thought you would but you deserve it. Â
After kissing Jungkook, you turn around and see Minho from afar. Heâs barely recognizable with his hat and sunglasses but you notice him straight away. Heâs still the biological father of your child, youâd recognize him under dozens of layers of clothing.Â
âIâm coming back,â you say to your boyfriend before walking in Minhoâs direction.Â
Jungkook doesnât even have the time to say or understand what you said before you leave him alone in front of the fruits. Minho sees you coming but he doesnât move. His eyes are only focused on your stomach. Itâs still small but itâs obvious that youâre carrying a human.Â
âWhat are you doing here?âÂ
Youâre more than surprised to see him here. Itâs a public space, anyone could see him and itâs for sure the last place on earth where you thought youâd see him.Â
âJust needed to buy something.âÂ
A bit far from him, you see his bodyguards. That was the thing you hated the most about him, his bodyguards. They were always around him, never leaving the two of you in peace. Â
His eyes barely look at your face, and you know this is your only chance to tell him everything. Youâve been trying for months without success.Â
âWe really need to talk.âÂ
This is probably not the best place to have a serious conversation but you don't want to let the chance to speak with him slip away from you.Â
Minho nods and you take a look behind you, staring at Jungkook. His jaw is clenched, showing you that he's not very happy to see you with Minho but you offer him a small grin, trying to reassure him. The last thing you want is your boyfriend to get worried.
You both start walking in the supermarket as you explain everything to him. From the way you found out about your pregnancy to the decision you took to recognize Jungkook as the father.Â
Minhoâs heart squeezes as he hears how you felt alone the moment you found out, but heâs grateful that Jungkook was there, holding you in such a difficult time. You needed someone at that time, and he just feels sorry that he wasnât there.  Â
But he can only agree with the decision you took. Although he would have loved to be a father and be there every step of the way, he knows his father. He would have first tried to make you abort. Then, if it didnât work, he would have simply made you disappear. He would have given you a lot of money to buy your silence and make you leave the country. Â
âJungkook will be their father but if you want to see them, I wonât ever stop you.âÂ
âI wonât ever do that,â he replies. His words make your heart clutch, thinking about the fact that he doesnât want to meet his child.Â
âWhy?â you ask, raising an eyebrow.Â
âAll I want for that baby is to have the best life possible. Having two fathers wonât make things easier.âÂ
âWe donât have to necessarily tell them straight away that youâre their father.âÂ
For sure, until theyâre three or four years old, you wonât say anything because theyâll be too young to understand and youâre scared that it would not provide them a stable life.Â
âWe could wait for a while and introduce you as a family friend until theyâre old enough to understand.âÂ
He doesnât say anything, just walking and looking in front of him. Being a father is something he has always dreamed of but his family always made things too hard. He ended up not wanting kids, too scared to become like his father. He never wants his children to hate him.Â
âI want that baby to be protected from my family, yn,â he finally confesses before halting and looking at you. âI don't want them to know the pressure of being part of the powerful Park family.âÂ
You take his hand and squeeze it.Â
âI prefer it if they never know that I am their birth father. Theyâll be safer with you and Jungkook.âÂ
âBut you can still be a part of their life. You can still love them and watch them grow. Thatâs your right, Minho,â you stroke your thumb on his hand. âThis baby will forever have your blood in their veins and nobody can change that. They exist thanks to you and you have all the rights in the world to love them and to be loved by them. Maybe it will never be like you picture it but it will still be love.âÂ
A small tear runs down his face, and you wipe the tear away.Â
âJungkook and I would never hide to them that he is not their biological father but theyâll only know that youâre the father if you want it.âÂ
âI never deserved to have you in my life, yn,â he answers. âYouâre just too nice.âÂ
âYou deserve everything, Minho. Youâre a good person, you were just unlucky to be born as the Park heir. I know youâll always take decisions based on your familyâs approval but nobody has to know about this baby,â you put his hand on your stomach. âJust you, Jungkook and I.âÂ
He nods before hugging you. This is something he can do. He can be around, see his child grow, and love them but nothing will ever be said to anybody, not even his fiancĂ©. This will be his secret.Â
âYouâll be a great mother and I am sure Jungkook will be the best father this baby will ever have.âÂ
Youâre convinced of the same. Jungkook will for sure be the greatest, loving and protecting father ever.Â
MAY 28, 2019
Jeon Hyejun.Â
Youâre looking at your baby boy that is peacefully sleeping in your arms. After nine long months of waiting, heâs finally here, and youâre on your own paradise with Jungkook.Â
Hyejun is perfect, prettier than you ever imagined him. He looks a lot like you but he definitely inherited some traits from Minho, you canât hide it. Jungkook is sitting next to you in the hospital bed, looking at you and his son.Â
Nothing prepared him for this very moment. Nothing. He doesnât even know how to describe what heâs feeling at the moment. All he knows is that heâs finally a father. The father of your son.Â
When he saw you in his store, scared to do your first tattoo, he never thought that heâll start a family with you and that heâll love you more than life itself. But thatâs the magic of fate. You donât know who you might meet tomorrow. Anybody can drastically change your life.Â
âHeâs so beautiful,â you mumble as you pass one finger on your sonâs face.Â
âAnd so tiny,â Jungkook comments.Â
Minho was contacted when you birthed Hyejun. He was the one requesting it because he wants to see him straight after he was born. Hyejun might never know that Minho is his biological father but heâll have him in his life.Â
He has already opened a bank account for him, and heâll put some money until heâs old enough to be the holder of the bank account. He will never be his father but he still wants to provide him the best future he can have. Money is something he has in a huge quantity and itâs the least he can do.Â
âWeâre finally parents,â Jungkook adds.Â
âItâs the beginning of a new adventure for us,â you look up at your boyfriend with a bright smile.Â
Youâre more than exhausted but you wanted to put your son to sleep before you sleep too. You wanted to be the first person to do it.Â
âAnd I know itâll be the best adventure of our lives, butterfly.â As he says your nickname, your eyes instantly look down at his arm where a little butterfly has recently been tattooed. A butterfly made for you. A butterfly that represents his immense love for you. A strong love that he has never experienced before you.
#bts#bts imagine#bts imagines#jeon jungkook#jungkook#jungkook imagine#bts fluff#jungkook fluff#bts angst#jungkook angst#bts smut#jungkook smut#bts x reader#jungkook x reader#before you#spideyjimin
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jungkook fics i can read all night all day seven days a week.
(a recommendation you didnât know you needed) ââč àčàŁ ââ
Vows Of Betrayal ౚৠby @tljunglebook
â contract marriage au, enemies to lovers, romance, smut, angst.
(I will never not scream about this! this is my current favourite read! the enemies to lovers really hits in this one! AND THE SMUT SCENES ARE SO GOOD THEY MADE ME PREGNANT SO I RECOMMEND!) đ©đł
Inevitable ౚৠby @ahundredtimesover
â exes to lovers, second chance, parents au, angst.
(this happens to be the cutest story Iâve ever read, the longing and angst is so good!) đ„șđ«¶đŒ
Dextrocardia ౚৠby @jeonstudios
â enemies to lovers, fake marriage, cop au, angst.
(this story should be arrested for being so damn good! i love how intense the enemies phase is before they start softening towards each other, the way the author managed to portray the patriarchal issues through this story is incredible, i never thought iâd say this but im an anti of jungkook in this story đ€đĄ he better apologise with crocodile tears otherwise he can say goodbye to y/n.
Youâre Still Mine ౚৠby @wattpadauthour
â workaholic husband jungkook, marriage in trouble trope, second chance.
(THIS STORY IS GONNA BE MY FOREVER FAVOURITE FOR A LONG LONG TIME! NO MATTER HOW MANY STORIES I READ I WILL ALWAYS GO BACK TO RE-READ! LIKE READ IT RIGHTAWAY IF YOU HAVENT! đ€)
Four-Seven-Eight ౚৠby @jiminrings
â marriage in crisis, angst, more angst, fluff.
(the heartache youâre gonna feel while reading this is no joke, i really felt sad for the y/n here (and cried a river) AND I LOVE IT WHEN BOOKS MAKE ME CRY LIKE THE WORLD IS ENDING TOMMOROW đ»đ you know its gonna be worth it)
Time After Time ౚৠby @hiseyestell
â doctor au, she fell first but he fell harder (but much later), fluff.
(by far the most realistic fanfic Iâve read, jungkook is so cold that you wanna smack him in his stupid head, the female oc is so smitten with him its adorable but sad at the same time) âčïž
His Clumsy Secretary ౚৠby @hwangguemfictions
â grumpy x sunshine, he fell first and harder, office romance, major angst.
(this fanfic is criminally good! especially the bgm, the dialogues, the way heâs just so endeared with her, this is a big smash!) đ€°đ»đ«Š
The Deepest Marks Of Essence ౚৠby @lleldey
â tribe leader jungkook, yandere au, smut, angst.
(my favourite writer for a reason! đ«ŽđŒ i can never stop obsessing over yer unique storylines and writing, sheâs my new favourite tbh and this story will convince you as well) đ€đ
Marrying The Vicount ౚৠby @taevjim
â rich man x poor girl, regency era au, smut, filthy fluff.
(my two worlds colliding fr! this author wrote it so beautifully đđ€đ» jungkook as a vicount tho (im already crying between my legs) this is like a fever dream come true, this is so effing good that i think no words are fair enough, maybe you should take a look yourself! (i swear this is worth the read!!!!)
#bangtan#bts jungkook#jeon jungkook#jungkook x reader#jungkook#bts army#bts fic#bts#jeon jungkook smut#jungkook fluff#jungkook scenarios#jungkook x oc#jungkook angst#jungkook smut#jungkook x you#yandere jungkook#jungkook fanfic#jeon jungkook x reader#jungkook recent#jeongguk#jungkook jeon#bts scenarios#bts angst#bts fluff
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one time for the present, two time for the past âȘ
JIMIN, TAEHYUNG & JUNGKOOK
#i'm FINE#jungkook#jimin#taehyung#are you sure?!#vminkook#maknae line#maknaelinegifs#bts#btsedit#btsgif#gif#userkelli#usersky#annietrack#userdimple#raplineuser#rjshope#tuserandi#useremmeline#underbetelgeuse#usermaggie#dailybts#THEY ARE MY EVERYTHING#in case it wasn't clear
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summary: in which for you, jungkook would commit crimes and his mother would peel oranges.
idol!jk x reader | fluff, angst | word count: 9.5k
warnings/content: oc passes out in the shower / jk does something crazy iâm literally insane about this / baby bam cameo đ„ș / stitches >:( / blood draw / mention of speeding / jealous not but rlly jealous oc is pissed owfffff at the nurse who has a crush on jk lmao / jk and his mom loves them to death tho so obv who wins / love is beautiful letâs all cry <3
> in which masterlist!
note: *sitcom sound effect of crowd cheering* IâM BACK đ„° hope u enjoy the product of my madness during finals season hehehe. and special thanks to my cutieful proofreader rio!! youâre one of my most favorite people iâve ever met đ„șđ + my beloveds who came to the rescue when i had medical questions !! i didnât expect to receive help from soooo many and iâm so freaking grateful i could cri :")
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âi ordered it the other day. how did it arrive so early?â
jungkook walks back inside the apartment, arms occupied by a stack of boxes that arrived in the mail yesterday.
he arrives at the living room, head tilting to the side in confusion when he realizes that the netflix show he was watching on the television is no longer playing. instead, there is the news channel.
he gasps.
âbaby, youâre alive!â
your swollen eyes flicker up to him.
youâre lying on the sofa with your legs lazily dangling on the edge. thereâs a toothbrush in your mouth, foam of bubbles between your lips, but your arm barely exerts the energy to make it do its job.
âyou were asleep from afternoon to morning. do you know that? youâve never done that before!â he exclaims, carelessly tossing the boxes on the floor. âi was getting scared!â
you only hum to acknowledge his existence, pushing yourself up from the sofa and unknowingly dodging the hug your boyfriend wanted to greet you with.
he ends up collapsing face first on the empty space you left, hurt and offended.
the bathroom door opens and closes.
he flips over, whining. âyah, we didnât see each other for a day. didnât you miss me?!â
still not a single word from you. sleeping that long must not have cured your exhaustion, jungkook surmises. you tend to be glum and cranky when youâre feeling unwell, as is usually the case when you wake up as unrested as before.
he doesnât always know how to make you feel better, but he always tries anyway.
âour new bedsheets arrived!â he announces from the other side of the bathroom door, making himself loud so that you can hear him despite the shower running. âdo you want to unbox them with me?!â
he allows the seconds to pass, but with his hands on his hips, he eventually begins to tap his foot on the floor.
âbaby? may i go in?â
he turns the knob, just to be prepared incase the answer is a yes, but it doesnât turn. a sad pout forms on his face.
huh? why is it locked?
you must genuinely donât want to be bothered today.
âguess thatâs a no.â he mutters to himself before calling out to you. âokay, iâll wait for you!â
with a crestfallen sigh, he begins to walk back to the living room.
he doesnât go far, however.
only several steps later, a series of loud crashes is heard from the bathroom and his heart thunders in his chest with a combination of numbing shock and fear.
â____, what was that?! did you fall?!â
he aggressively pounds at the door, extremely desperate this time around. he has no plans on leaving until he knows that youâre safe and sound.
âbaby! open this! are you alrightâŠ? are you hurt? youâre scaring me. please, answer!â
he pauses, catching his breath as his mind runs a thousand miles per hour.
â____!â
he strikes the door with an open palm one more time, more so to express his frustration that is only growing worse with every tick of the clock. he only ends up hurting himself in the process.
âthatâs it! iâm opening the door!â
he frantically whips his head around, racking his brain for the location of the key. there are two copies of it somewhere in the apartment, but in his panicked state, he is unable to pinpoint either of their specific spots. and he canât fucking afford to waste any more time.
âah, fuck!â he curses, left with no other choice but to give in to the instinct of breaking down the door with the strength and durability of his body alone.
he would most definitely break his shoulder first before the door.
only after the first try, that much is clear.
and so, with madness inconsiderate of his agony, he resorts to kicking it over and over again.
the repeated loud collisions rattles poor bam from his slumber. not long after, the dogâs barking creates a booming dissonance with his grunts and kicks at the door.
when it finally swings open, the force of his own body sends him stumbling on the bathroom floor, but he doesnât waste time in bouncing back to his feet.
the twisting of his stomach is instantaneous.
there lies your naked, unconscious figure behind the glassâ surrounded by bottles of hair and body products that must have fallen when your hands were searching for something to hold on to.
his voice cracks, breathless.
âbaby, no⊠no, no, no.â
he kneels on the floor, and despite the strong urge to carry you out of there, he tries to calm down. itâs the first rule in every emergency case; professionals reiterate in seminars and news channel segments.
keep calm. keep calm. keep calm.
he wonât be able to forgive himself if he ends up causing more harm than good.
â____, can you hear me?!â
his instinct tells him to inspect every inch of you for any sign of injury, but then his vision becomes too blurry. he curses at the hindrance and forces himself to turn off the showerhead that was left running.
he harshly wipes his face, rushing back to you.
âplease, please, please. wake up.â he begs.
he has a feeling that itâs futile. you canât hear him and heâs wasting his breath. the thing is he doesnât know what else to do.
âbabyâŠâ
he carefully turns your head over, almost relieved because he hasnât seen blood so far.
almost.
at last, he gets a full view of your face, and he finds blood dripping. this has always been one of his most paralyzing fearsâ seeing you get hurt. now that itâs become a reality, thereâs a part of him that wants to believe this is some kind of twisted dream.
âhow- how did this even happenâŠ?â he cries out, his own blood running cold.
for everything that happens after, his body acts on its own. bam is a constant presence in his peripheral, but he is barely in his right mind to acknowledge the presence aside from, âbam, move. daddy might step on you.â
he carries you out of the bathroom, kicking aside the beaten up door. he has made up his mind about bringing you to the hospital, but he canât bring you like⊠this.
he lays you down on the bed, all that gentleness switched off in a split second so he can sprint to the walk-in closet. he hastily grabs whatever is on top of your neatly folded stacks of shirts and pants; and then a fresh towel on the way out. the gentleness returns as he pats your face dry, the pure white stained with dark red. he flips the towel and uses the other side to wipe the rest of your body, in a race against time but mindful of treating you like fragile glass.
once that is over, he dresses you in a pair of gray sweatpants, and with some difficulty, an orange t-shirt.
any person with functioning eyes will be able to tell that the shades donât go together.
if you were conscious, youâd definitely berate him for making you wear this outfit.
but youâre not.
jungkook effortlessly swoops you in his armsâ dripping wet hair, his and yours, leaving behind a trail of raindrops from your apartment floor to the cemented parking lot.
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your body feels like itâs floating.
are you dreaming�
you must be dreaming.
you hear an uncoordinated symphony of voices, but you canât comprehend a word. in pursuit of clarity, you force yourself to open your eyes.
the voices grow a little louder. faceless figures hover you; a bright light shines over your face.
your senses must be playing cruel tricks. now it feels like youâre drowning, sinking into the unknown, and your body has succumbed into numbing defeat.
you want to sleep a little more.
you must truly be exhausted. itâs okay.
youâve fought hard until now. youâve done enough⊠has anyone tried in life as much as you did?
just as your eyes flutter shut, you regain sensation of your hand; a soft squeeze and a call of your name.
â
jungkook gently strokes your hair, sighing for the nth time since you got transferred to a private room. heâs relieved that all the scans came back clean so serious head and brain injuries have been ruled out. the doctor also asked him questions and ran some other tests before concluding that electrolyte imbalance caused you to pass out; the culmination of stress and fatigue from work, as well as your strong period, most likely being the main reasons. he didnât even know about the latter until you stained the white sheets with blood.
it was fucking frightening being in the sidelines as they rushed to check on your vitals and to administer oxygen. even now, itâs unbearable to see you with a needle in your hand and a few stitches above your eyebrow. he already anticipated you not being pleased with having to get stitches specifically either; gasping and sitting up as soon as you heard the word come from his lips post-consciousness. consequently, the dizziness hits you. the doctor wasnât happy about that.
âthis is so annoying. i donât want a scar.â you whine as you study your face on the camera of jungkookâs phone. âdid i have to fall on my prettier side?â
âwhat are you saying? youâre pretty from any angle.â he interjects. âbe careful. the wound might open up.â
you jut out your bottom lip, looking up at him with glassy eyes. the sight instantly tugs at his heartstrings, and he pulls you in for a hug. maybe heâs a little sad that you donât appear concerned about the fact that you passed out, but god is he relieved to finally hear your voice again.
âah, i should call the doctor.â
but his face remains buried in your hair.
âthey told me to do so.â
âyou should-â
âwhy?!â he abruptly reacts, drawing back. âdoes anything hurt?â
âchill. you said that they told you to.â
âoh, thatâs right.â he sheepishly smiles. he canât help but to overreact; he hasnât turned off the alarms in his head. âiâll go tell the nurse to get her.â
he starts to walk towards the door, but a tug at his shirt holds him back.
you shyly look at him with a scrunch of your nose. âiâm nervous. hug me for five more seconds.â
fuck, he would move heaven and earth to protect you from everything that can cause you harm.
âwhy would you be nervous? iâm right here.â he scolds you lightheartedly, not hesitating to seize the chance to hug you again. âi love you.â
âi love you more.â
you pull away after five seconds, and heâd be disappointed about you being too true to your words if you didnât kiss him on the cheek so ardently.
his heart almost jumps out of his chest when you gasp out of nowhere as if you just realized that you left the gas tank open at home. your eyes nearly pop out of their sockets.
âbam!â
oh, right. your child.
âmy brotherâs house!â he eases your mind.
you breathe out in relief, the heel of your palm pressing against the left side of your chest where your heart lives. âgood⊠i was worried. he was probably more scared because he didnât understand what was going on. i feel bad.â
you love bam so much; it makes him so happy. youâre so concerned about him even when youâre the one on the hospital bed. you make pretty good parents, huh?
âthatâs right. he was worried about you, too. thatâs why you need to recover quickly so he wonât be sad!â
â
the doctor kindly asked jungkook to give the two of you some time alone, so heâs been idly sitting at the lobby after buying a bottle of water. heâs pretty much used to visiting the hospital for routine checkups considering the nature of his job, but it always feels strange to be here for the other different purposes of the place.
is there any other building sadder than this?
if you heard him utter this question, he could easily predict what youâd say: but is there any other building with more love?
if he tries hard enough, he could listen to your voice and paint you in his mind.
you see love in every place that you step foot into.
his curious eyes continue to wander around. he spots people carrying flowers, baskets, and containers of food. thereâs also a teenage boy in his high school uniform, carrying a teddy bear larger than him.
not that he wants you to stay longer, but if you have to, he writes down a mental note to bring one of your favorite plushies.
he eventually gets tired; considers scrolling on his phone again, but he decides against it when his gaze lands on a little boy sleeping soundly on his motherâs lap. suddenly, he is reminded of his childhood before he moved to seoul.
how simple life can be when youâre innocently sleeping on your motherâs lap, trusting that everything will be alright.
âah, i miss my momâŠâ he utters absentmindedly. âi miss my mom so much. i should call her.â
his reminiscing is interrupted when a wheelchair rolls by infront of him. it is leisurely being pushed by an old man who wants to bring his wife outside for some fresh air.
in a parallel universe somewhere, jungkook can imagine them as you and him.
he sits up straight, looking back at the clock on the wall.
how long has it been? he wants to be by your side again.
â
âjungkook!â your face lights up as soon as your boyfriend steps into the room. âwhat took you so long?â
âi know. sorry, baby. i got a little distracted outside.â
âiâve been waiting.â you pout. âwhy? were people bothering you?â
ânot at all. donât worry.â
you pat the empty space beside you. âhere.â
âi think the bed is meant for only one person- damn, okay, okay-â
he swiftly gives in upon seeing the hurt on your face, occupying the space you reserved for him. âi love you. donât be sad.â
youâre aching too much to wait for him to get settled. you wrap your arms around his waist like youâre a magnet attracted to steel, clinging to him for comfort.
if youâre being honest, you donât know how you feel about being in this situation. overwhelmed? maybe a tiny bit relieved. in the past, it didnât matter whether you were sick or not. you needed to work or else it was guaranteed that you wouldnât survive. life is easier now. you have the luxury to use this as a reason to take a break. you have someone who takes care of you as naturally as he breathes.
âhow was the doctor?â
âsheâs nice⊠she just asked me about the things i remember before i passed out. then about my work, diet, sleeping schedule⊠stuff like that.â
you pull away a little, just enough so you can see each otherâs face. you squint at him suspiciously. âdid you have to get an expensive room?â
he chuckles. âhow did you know? they didnât tell you that, did they?â
âi literally have the perfect view of the fountain from here!â you point at the large window behind you. âi just passed out. i wouldâve been fine downstairs.â
âdonât say it like that. it couldâve been so much worse.â he says with knitted eyebrows, palm cupping the back of your head and caressing softly.
he heaves a sigh.
âi was so scared that you injured your head. seriously, i thought iâd go insane if i lost you! i went past the speed limit driving you here!â
the distress he was under is apparent. you canât help but to be racked with the guilt. you always do this, making him worry himself to death. you donât usually do it purpose, and that only makes you feel shittier.
âyouâre right. iâm sorry.â
âwell, iâŠâ he sighs. âitâs okay. i know you didnât want this either. itâs not your fault.â
you press your lips into a thin line. âit kind of is.â
your lost eyes meet, and a connection is established like itâs a constellation sending a secret message. your heart flutters when he giggles, dimples and starry eyes and crinkled corners.
âstop it. itâs impossible to scold you when youâre so cute and self-aware.â
âthen donât scold me.â you sniffle sadly to kindle pity in him. âiâve had enough of it from the doctor.â
your brain still works well enough to help you escape from trouble. thatâs a good sign, right?
âmy poor baby.â he coos, cradling your cheeks.
his hands are warm. you put yours over them; a wordless signal telling him you donât want him to go away.
âletâs not get hurt again, please. we need to stay healthy and take good care of ourselves so this wonât happen again, alright?â
you nod in obedience. your eyes are fixed on him but youâre not certain if youâre registering what heâs telling you in your pitiful, shaken brain.
âthe hospital already did me many favors. if we go back, i might have to build them another fountain as a gift.â
and knowing jungkook, with his golden heart and his black card, jokes become half-meant.
âwhat do they need that for?!â
he bursts out laughing, yet again, after you chide at him for his ridiculous and unnecessary expenses.
ânothing, iâm just grateful! i was really so scared but iâm relieved now thanks to them. i canât remember the last time i felt that way.â
âyouâre not scared of a lot of things.â you point out.
âthatâs right.â he agrees. âonly you scare me these days.â
you grimace. âam i scary?â
âyou are, sometimes.â he laughs, squishing your cheeks together. âbut i mean the things that could hurt you.â
as if on cue, your stomach grumbles and bellows like a monster stuck in an empty cave. your eyes grow twice its size in bewilderment, which then morphs into embarrassment.
âmy stomach hurts.â you say quietly.
your nostrils flare as jungkook miserably fails to hold back his laughter. one of his hands leave your face, rubbing your tummy over the thin hospital gown.
âoh no, what are we going to do? where does it hurt? here?â he pouts. âshould we go feed you now to make it go away?â
âwhat is wrong with you?â you slap his shoulder in annoyance. âiâm not a baby!â
âyah, be careful!â he yells, wincing as if he is the one in pain. âbe gentle with the one with the iv!â
â
âyou know one good thing that came out of this?â you gush out of nowhere.
youâre mixing up the ingredients of your bibimbap bowl with a spoon and a pair of chopsticks.
jungkook noisily drinks the final sips of his banana milk. afterwards, he makes a game out of shooting the box in the trash bin.
âwhat could that be?â he asks, doubtful.
he sits on the chair beside your bed. you greet him with a delighted grin, licking your thumb stained with gochujang.
âyou proved your love. you committed a crime for me.â
he gasps to humor you, body freezing as if heâs currently processing the newly-learned information in his brain.
âoh? youâre right- i did! and you know what? iâd do it again!â
with a mouthful of rice, you shake your head in disagreement furiously. âyouâre cute. but thatâs the first and last.â
âbut how are you sure that itâs the first?â he raises an eyebrow quizically.
silly enough, you envy him for being able to do so.
you hum in thought. âi guess youâve stolen a few things for me, too.â
âfew? you mean a loooot?â
âyouâre the one who brings home food and random things.â you roll your eyes. âi never ask you to.â
âyou told me you wanted the service bell!â
you feel yourself become flushed with sheepishness. heâs not lying. youâve always found the object fascinating as a child, so you couldnât help but to tell him to sneakily take one home after filming a competitive run bts episode.
did you have a silly phase where you and jungkook used it to summon each other just to laugh together about it?
perhaps.
âwell, youâre rich. you couldâve bought me one instead.â
âbut it was already there.â he reasons with a wide grin, gesturing infront of him. âi wanted to give it to my lover right away.â
his lover?
jungkook has successfully replaced your frown with an enamored smile.
âi made your heart flutter just now, didnât i?â
a hospital stay has never felt this comfortableâ not terrifying. you have stitches on your face and to add to that, this hospital gown feels super unflattering. somehow, your boyfriendâs loving gaze remains steady and you are melting.
âshut up,â you mutter, flustered, handing him the pair of chopsticks. âplease eat with me. i canât finish this on my own.â
â
âwhy would you let them put the needle in my dominant hand?â
you stomp your feet on the ground as jungkook squeezes some toothpaste onto a newly-bought toothbrush.
âiâm sorry! i was too stressed out so i just pointed! i think i got confused with- with left and right.â
you didnât realize this while you were eating; that you were unconsciously holding the spoon with your non-dominant hand because the other felt uncomfortable. maybe because it was a simple task, scooping food and bringing it to your mouth. brushing your teeth, on the other hand⊠can be quite an arm workout.
âeeeee!â
he shows his complete set of teeth, urging you to do the same. you stare at him blankly.
âeeeee!â he repeats with heightened enthusiasm.
left with no other choiceâ you copy his awkward smile.
âthere we go!â he praises you with an over-enthusiastic beam.
he carries on to brush your teeth, gingerly holding your chin to keep you steady as he does his job.
this is the first time jungkook is doing this for you. today is definitely not one of your finest moments. it feels a bit silly to be in this situation, and you feel bad for putting your boyfriend in this position in the first place. you can see that heâs trying his bestâunnecessarily focusedâand that he loves you, but you just hate giving him a hard time.
with a soft smile, he wipes the bubbles that overflowed past your lips.
âokay, spit.â
you spit out more of the bubbles on the sink. you assume that heâs finished, except heâs making another vowel sound for you to mimic the mouth shape of.
âahhhh-â
âthis is embarrassing!â
âbaby, really? this is where you draw the line?â he playfully squeezes your cheeks together. âitâs almost over! ahhhh!â
and you let him do this thing, but not without a glare that is masking the embarrassing truth: you might be enjoying this more than you care to admit.
âsee? was that so bad?â
as he tenderly pats your face dry in the aftermath, he says: âiâm sorry. bear with it a little more. let me take care of you so youâll be healthy again.â and you feel every ounce of his sincerity pierce through the barriers surrounding your soul.
âstop itâŠâ your voice suddenly comes out broken.
you want to put all the blame on your period for the tears that are now brimming your eyes, but jungkook is your biggest weakness of all and that is an explanation enough.
âwhy are you crying?â he panics. âwhat did i say?â
âitâs your fault.â
you break down into loud sobs, incapable of even keeping your eyes open. you never understood why we close our eyes when we cry, but right now, you know that you canât bear to witness his reaction.
âyouâre so sweet.â
the towel that was wiping the water from your mouth is now drying the tears from your stained cheeks.
âam i making you sad?â
you furiously shake your head. how could he say such a thing? he is the greatest joy of your life.
âno?â
âno!â
âokay, come here then.â
he wraps his arms around your trembling figure, caging you in the solace of his entire existence. a sense of calmness washes over your system, especially as he runs his hand across your back in gentle strokes. this isnât his goal though, it seems. you hear none of his quiet shushes beseeching you to stop breaking his heart. he hopes you let go of everything that has been weighing on you, but he has already eased all your pains by loving you.
âugh, i probably look horrible right now.â you force a chuckle to lighten up the mood, wiping your face with the back of your free hand. âi feel gross.â
âthatâs not true.â he gazes at you fondly, brushing your hair with his fingers. âitâs actually infuriating how you look so beautiful still.â
âi know. iâm nice to look at; thatâs why you tolerate my attitude.â you conclude in jest.
âyeah, sometimes.â he rides on the joke.
âwhatâŠ?â
âiâm joking!â he rushes to take it back with a laugh. âof course iâm joking!â
you pout. âare you really?â
âoh, come onnnn.â
he coaxes you with a kiss on the lipsâ a good morning kiss long overdue. youâve been spoiled rotten with affection; he knows you need more than one. he interrupts himself several times to kiss you.
âyou know iâll love you until our hair turns white and our skin all wrinkly.â
to be brutally honest, youâre not fond of imagining that far ahead. itâs daunting. you doubt your capability to age with grace. youâre horrified by the thought of having the majority of your life behind you. nostalgia has always been more bitter than sweet. but maybe this memory could be the sweetest of all, if jungkook truly stays by your side until then. in a cottage at the countryside like he said once, or a cabin by the ocean.
youâre both so young; so arrogant when it comes to making promises that are a shot in the dark. so fucking in love.
âme too.â you half-smile, scrunching your noseâ a telltale sign of your joy. ânow, get out. i really need to pee.â
his face becomes drained of blood. âbut youâre st-â
âi wonât lock the door this time.â you cup his cheek, looking at his eyes reassuringly. âwe donât need property damage added to the bill.â
â
âdid you not hurt yourself?â
âme?â
âyou broke down the door. thatâs not easy to do.â
you and jungkook make the best out of a bad deal. youâre squeezed together on the bed, browsing through television channels that seem to never end.
âit was easy because you were on the other side of it.â
that is what he claims confidently, but you are not fully convinced.
âwow, why do they have more channels than we do at home?â
âyou didnât answer my question.â you pout. âdid you hurt yourself?â
âi didnât hurt myself. iâm totally okay. i promise.â
he maintains eye-contact as he speaks. given the assurance, your tight chest unrestricts. jungkook is not a good liar. itâs a trait that causes him inconvenience every now and then, but it helps you to sleep soundly at night.
âshould we just watch funny animal videos on youtube?â
âi guess thatâs fine.â
it doesnât show but you feel excitement run in your veins aside from the iv fluids that feel peculiarly cold.
from under your cheek, his chest vibrates with a giggle. âokay, hold on.â
as he pulls up the application, you tangle your legs together beneath the thin blanket. you hear the rapid tap tap tap of the remote control navigating the keypad while he types on the search bar, but your attention is someplace else. youâve found the crook of his neck to sneak into, lazily kissing every inch of his exposed skin. your lips eventually trail up to his jaw. he smells so nice. youâre addicted.
âbaby, someone can enter any minute.â
âiâm not doing anything.â you mumble.
you smile against his lips when he gives you a kiss as sweet as honey anyway.
âiâm curious about another thing.â
âwhatâs that?â
âdid you cry?â
he comes to a still. the answer to that question requires a little time and thought.
âalmostâŠâ
âwhy almost?â
âno time. i had to bring you here, of course.â he replies.
you huff a laugh, exhaling a twinge of melancholia. âdonât cry.â
âi wonât. iâm happy now because youâre awake and fighting with me.â
âow-â
your cry of pain is silenced when he squeezes you in an embrace that makes it nearly impossible to breathe.
âred panda!â
a squeal assaults both of your hearing as soon as your eyes land on the wide screen infront of the bed.
âi want one so fucking bad.â
the enunciated curse makes your boyfriend crack up in amusement. âthat much?!â
â
jungkook opens his eyes to a nurse lightly nudging him awake.
âiâm sorry, i had to wake you up. i need to check vitals and draw blood.â
âshit, iâm sorry.â he panics.
his brain is foggy from the nap, but he still carefully sits up on the bed, wary of the iv line connected to your hand.
âi⊠was tired and i fell asleep.â
âitâs no problem; donât worry.â
she smiles at him, but he doesnât see it.
âyou look adorable sleeping.â
âah, really?â he awkwardly responds, absentminded. âitâs embarrassing.â
he stands on your side, about to disturb your peaceful rest much as it makes his heart ache with guilt, but youâre already stirring due to the absence of his warmth.
your heavy eyelids blink at the nurse in curiosity. âoh⊠do you need my blood?â
âyes, but iâll take your blood pressure and temperature first.â
âokay,â you mumble, offering your arm. âit might be higher now because iâm scared.â
she chuckles at your joke. jungkook tries to share an endeared look with her and non-verbally communicate adorable, right?
âi promise iâll be quick. although we definitely want it to be higher than earlierâs.â
you wince as the cuff around your upper arm goes as tight as it could, and you sigh at the same time that it begins to deflate.
âgood, good, good,â she chants with a mumble. âitâs back in the normal range againâŠâ
she brings out a digital thermometer from her pocket.
âyou know where this goes.â
she hands it over to you, and you awkwardly place it in your armpit, holding it in place. itâs quiet as you wait for the device to make the beeping sound, except for her pen creating friction with your chart as she takes down notes.
âhowâs your stitches? do you feel any discomfort?â
âitâs fine. thank you.â
not long after, you hear the beep. you return the thermometer to her, but not before taking a peak at the numbers displayed on the tiny screen. 36.8°C. you think youâll live.
âiâll draw your blood now.â
the nurseâs voice is sweet and reassuring, but it doesnât quite ease the nervousness evident on your expression. your pupils shake as you watch her disinfect the area, and then comes out the long needle.
another one, jungkook laments inside.
â____, iâm right here.â
you crane your head, whimpering out his name. âjungkook,â
âit will be just a pinch. iâm inserting the needle now, alright?â
you take a sharp inhale.
if only he could switch positions with you, he would do it in a heartbeat. unfortunately, all he can do is caress your hair and whisper that it will be over soon.
âit hurts.â your damp eyelashes flutter, face twisting in discomfort. âi donât like it.â
really, just a pinch? obviously a lie.
âhey, baby. look at the tv.â
the autoplay was left turned on after you fell asleep together. inside the screen is a puppy rolling around a snow-covered lawn. the wagging of its tail, the wide smile, and the pupils as big as boba balls: they all scream the happiness of an innocent.
âitâs so cute⊠i miss bam already. can we go to a dog park again?â
âof course!â
that promise sparks your smile. you turn to your side, and jungkook also catches a glimpse of the cotton taped to where you were poked.
âall done. you can go back to resting.â
âthank you. will you need to take blood again?â you inquire at the nurse.
âhm, probably. it depends on the doctor based on the results we get from this one.â
âcanât you just do it while iâm asleep? or is that not allowed?â
âbabyâŠâ jungkook snorts, hiding his face behind the palm of his hands.
the nurse laughs at your desperate suggestion. âthat is honestly not a rare request, but the thing is⊠you might wake up in the middle of it and injure yourself. we canât do that.â
âthat wonât be a problem!â you passionately argue your case. âiâm a deep sleeper. seriously!â
âah, thank you so much for your hard work!âjungkook intervenes, bowing to the nurse out of respect and gratitude. âiâm sure youâre busy. i will handle this!â
âoh yes, yes- thank you. please donât forget the medicine for after dinner.â
âi wonât!â
âif you need anything, you know where to find me again.â
âyes,â he nods, chuckling. âthank you.â
âthen i should leaveâŠ? but youâll see me again later! bye!â
the door shuts, and his attention lands on your unimpressed form: a blank stare and arms folded infront of your chest.
uh-oh.
âdid she seriously wink while saying that?â
âwhat?â he freezes, genuinely clueless. âi donât know. i didnât see anything. i was looking at you.â
âiâm right here- iâm the patient. why would you need anything from her? huh? why is she so excited to see you again?â you ramble angrily.
âright?!â
he climbs on the bed, reclaiming his spot next to you.
âthat was weird.â
âwhat if she made it hurt on purpose? thatâŠâ you frown, glancing at your arm. âthat didnât really feel like a pinch to me.â
âey, calm down. she wouldnât.â he makes a doubtful face, laughing off the accusation. ââŠi donât think so?â
you blink, exhaling in disbelief. âare you taking her side now?â
âof course not! baby, iâm just saying⊠a professional wonât do that.â
âwhy not? sheâs still human. humans do stupid things when they like someone. she obviously likes you.â
âand so what?â
he grins with a spark of mischief, leaving an inch of a distance between your lips.
âiâm obviously yours.â
but you turn your cheek and your eyes fall on your lap, a pout highlighting your downcast mood.
âitâs so annoying.â
the regret sinks in after. he shouldâve stuck to the golden rule: agree with everything that you say. thereâs no point in having an argument no one will win. does it matter whoâs right and wrong if each otherâs sadness is contagious in addition to their own? your gut has almost always been right, and heâs old enough to be conscious of not allowing a stranger to put a dent on your relationship.
âare you serious? are you uncomfortable?â he tilts his head to try and get a better look at your face. âshould i request for a different nurse?â
itâs quiet for a beat and he feels inclined to fill the silence with whatever enters his mind.
âi love you.â
almost immediately, your features soften and he knows your heart is also melting. the two of you bite the inside of your cheeks to hide a smile.
âno, thereâs no need for that.â
but he still canât help but to be worried. your peace of mind is his top priority. he doesnât want you to be more stressed out, especially by things that he has the power to solve.
âare you sure?â
âshe pissed me off. i need to piss her off too.â
of course, his ever stubborn and competitive lover. he sits up properly, amused and curious.
âand how will you do that?â
âi donât know,â you nonchalantly shrug. âiâll come up with something.â
â
âcome up with what?â
to your surprise, a voice you havenât heard in weeks echoes from the door.
âmomâŠ?â
youâre stunned after only hearing yourself react to jungkookâs motherâs unexpected entrance. your head whips to his direction; your eyes wordlessly interrogating him.
âi need to go to work so i called her to watch over you.â he explains.
âwhy would you do that?â you argue with him as quietly as possible, lips barely moving as you try to hide your face from your mother-in-law. again, not one of your finest moments. âyou didnât have to. i can take care of myself.â
âbut you donât have to because you have us.â
jungkook marks the conversation finished with a kiss pressed to your temple, leaving you dumbfounded. he jumps off the bed and for a split second, you make eye-contact with his mother before he towered over her for a quick hug.
her kind smile is embroidered in your memory; a memory that wraps your heart in a type of warmth only a mother can provide.
âmom! iâm sorry. i really, really, really need to leave now. but! iâll try to come back early so you can go home early too.â
âaigoo, stop stressing yourself out.â
jungkook receives a slap on the back, somehow more loving can scolding.
âi can stay the night so do what you need to do. you donât have to worry.â
âitâs not only because iâm worried!â
she sassily puts a hand over her waist. it takes everything in you not to laugh out loud.
âthen what else?â
âmom! what else?â he cheekily smiles. âof course iâll miss ____ too much.â
did your boyfriend just� to his mother? your jaw becomes slack from the shame.
âi missed ____ too!â she contests. âgo to work and give us our alone time.â
you shyly smile when she transfers her attention from her son to you.
âhello, my baby. are you hungry?â
â
âdoes my son feed you well?â
âhe does! but itâs funny- other mothers ask the opposite. are you feeding my son well? do you make sure heâs comfortable?â
you think out loud, transfixed on how she peels oranges with ease. your hands would always be stained by the juices, (and eyes red and teary from accidental splashes) (itâs too embarrassing to even think about) but hers are still magically clean.
âis that so?â
you graciously accept the slice she feeds you. she laughs when your face lights up like a christmas tree one more time. itâs way sweeter than you anticipated. you canât get over how delicious it is.
âmhmm!â
perhaps you relied too much on dramas when it came to your expectations of what a relationship with your in-laws would look like. you imagined yourself running around like a dog trying to prove yourself worthy of their son, yet for some reason, it looks like they adore you for simply existing. it makes you feel extremely grateful, but you donât understand.
âmom, i have a question⊠i know itâs probably too late to ask this now, butâŠâ
âwhat could that be?â
âare you really not against me and jungkook living together?â you swallow your fear of the possibility of an unpleasant truth. âare you not⊠worried⊠that iâm receiving too much from him?â
because you would understand the apprehension. as a parent, oneâs main concern would be their child. to outside eyes, itâs easy to come to the conclusion that jungkook is being taken advantage of and heâd be better off dating someone with the same status. sometimes you wish you were that someone too.
she utters your name sadly.
âhe receives happiness and love from you. those are the most valuable things you could give to a person.â
she caresses your hair like she wants to erase the anxiety poisoning your mind.
âmy dear, how come youâre worried about that until now? havenât we told you? youâre part of the family. forget about my sister! i donât welcome her negativity in our house!â
âliving together is different. itâs a big deal. it normally happens in a relationship afterâŠâ the following words feel foreign in your mouth; they come out quieter than the rest of your sentence. âgetting married.â
âthen tell me. why did you agree to live with him?â
because youâre selfish. because you want more time that you can have him all to yourself. because you want to be accessibleâ the first person he runs to when heâs seeking comfort and stability. because you want goodnight and good morning kisses. because you were afraid of the risks but youâve grown addicted to the thrill of love.
âhe said⊠no matter how hard i push him away, he will stay within my reach.â
you hear your own shaky breathing. that momentâ itâs still burned into your memory. youâre still holding on to it. itâs a promise he is yet to break and you pray that he never, ever does.
âi donât want to push him away. i want to be within his reach too.â
youâre two people loving each other with everything within your means. after the endless pains and the deafening noise, you like to think thatâs what makes this relationship worth fighting for.
âdoes my opinion still matter knowing that? will you let me stop you?â
âno, i wonât. iâd make you change your mind.â
if you had a machine connected to you, she would see how your heart rate has gone off the charts. but youâre known to say whateverâs on your mind and that, much to your dismay, isnât switched off despite sitting infront of the woman who birthed and raised the love of your life.
you sniffle, pursing your lips nervously. âbut i feel like there might be a right answer to that one.â
what you didnât expect was her to laugh until her belly hurts; placing a hand over her mouth in an effort to calm herself down and keep grace.
âmom! stop, iâm so embarrassed!â
âno, ____, donât get me wrong!â
she is teary-eyed as she gathers herself together.
âthe more time i spend with you, the more i realize why jungkook loves you so much. iâve seen him show incredible commitment twice. do you know that? first, when he went to seoul to become a singer. second, when he told us he got an apartment because he wants to be with you⊠of course, as his mother, iâll admit that heâs young when he made those decisions, but he always proves to me that heâs smart and responsible.â
the urge to cry returns and strengthens as she speaks. you feel your eyelashes become damp with unshed tears. you donât know how to act. you fiddle with your fingers. you stare at the strings and peels of the oranges you can still taste.
âi believe we both know jungkookâs personality well. he wouldnât have let me stop him either. iâm happy to know that youâll fight for him too.â
âthank youâŠâ
âtsk, tsk, tsk- what is there to cry about? jungkook will get angry at me if he discovers that i made you cry.â
she wipes away your tears; however, the unmistakable scent of oranges that has clung to her hands and the affection in her tone bring forth a waterfall.
âseeing this makes me sadder.â she laments, referring to the stitches on your face.
âme too,â you babble in the midst of quiet sobs. âit makes me sad. itâs so ugly.â
â
you canât remember the last time you felt this alone. perhaps itâs the effect of staying in an unfamiliar building of complete strangers. without your mobile phone, may you add. you managed to persuade jungkookâs mother to leave an hour ago because you didnât want her to sleep on the uncomfortable couch.
the lights are turned off except for the lamp beside your bed, and with the television muted, you could hear a hairpin drop.
youâre alone and you can do whatever you want.
you dragged the visitorâs chair infront of the window to admire the garden like itâs a painting in motion. you watched people converse, stroll, and drink coffee. you watched them run for shelter when the clouds became too heavy and the sky began to fall. oh, so thatâs why you couldnât see the stars.
at this moment, thereâs nothing left to amuse yourself with but the trembling of the leaves and the raindrops forming temporary rings when they fall in the water fountain.
your senses crave for more. you reach over and crack open the window, just enough to allow the sound of the rain and the scent of it permeating the earth to enter your room.
âthis is kind of peaceful.â you whisper, amazed by the new lightness carried by your heart.
you close your eyes and you breathe in the petrichor deeply. you want nature in your lungs as a reminder that youâre alive. you welcome the cold wind kissing your face. you can feel your hair touching your neck. you always do, but for once, youâre choosing to acknowledge it. your thumb slowly brushes across the palm of your hand, perceiving the texture of your skin, the softness, and the lines. and your feet, theyâre in the clouds, the fluffy slippers jungkookâs mother bought outside because she knows theyâre your favorite to wear.
youâve loved and despised this body for a million different reasons. your mind and heart have accepted defeat countless times, but your body wakes up to every brand new day without fail. your body implores you to live. did it finally give up on you today?
âbaby!â
you look behind to search for the source of the sound.
you get your answer from the kiss planted on your lips.
you only saw his face for a split second, but even if you had your eyes closed, youâd know it has to be jungkook kissing you.
you can smell him. youâve memorized the way the shape of his lips fits with yours.
oh, the sounds of his kisses too. you like to call them the butterfly call because they make butterflies appear in your stomach.
you could trace the scar on his cheek with your finger if you want to.
god, what a privilege it is to experience life in this vessel.
a knock on the door forces you to part too early. the same nurse from earlier enters and you internally scream all the curse words in your dictionary. jungkook acknowledges her with a bow and a quick âhelloâ before squatting down infront of you.
âi committed another crime for you today.â
âhuh?â
your wide, confused eyes take a glimpse at the nurse who is doing something with the controls of your iv line.
hahaha⊠she knows heâs not serious, right?
âwhat did you do?â
his smile is so big that his eyes have turned into little crescent moons. youâd make a guess but there is an infinite amount of things jungkook could possibly be this excited about.
âŠapparently, one of them would be strawberry cake.
you gape at the transparent box he was hiding behind his back all along.
âdid you steal somebodyâs birthday cake?!â
âitâs a producerâs birthday and he received lots of cakes, so he told me i can take one home.â
âhow is it stealing if he allowed you to take it?â
he tosses his backpack on the couch as he sets down the box on the table. he rummages through the bag his mother left behind, successfully bringing out a spoon. meanwhile, you get your blood pressure taken again.
as he opens the box, he sends a smirk your way.
âno. i hid the strawberry cake because thereâs so many who wanted to eat it.â
âare you crazy?!â
the nurse clicks her tongue. âdonât talk and stay still, please.â
âoh,â your hand flies to your mouth on instinct. âiâm sorry.â
âiâm sorry.â jungkook also apologizes.
you and your boyfriend secretly share a look, exchanging a smile that is stifled laughter inside. your lips remain zipped as the nurse restarts the process of taking your blood pressure. on the other hand, jungkook eats a spoonful of cake, teasingly wiggling his eyebrows at you. you roll your eyes and he tries harder to laugh without a sound.
seconds later, he grumbles about the room being too warm. he wipes the beads of sweat on his forehead using the back of his hand, and he does the worst thing he could possibly do at this moment. he reaches for his back, pulling his sweater over his head. naturally, his inner shirt rides up and allows wandering eyes a peak at his glorious toned abdomen.
passed out in the shower. busted your eyebrow open. front-row seat for a woman flirting and ogling at your boyfriend.
how fucking great.
âhello? i think itâs done.â you snap.
âa-ah, yes.â
you hear her swallow as she removes the cuff from your arm. she may be wearing a mask but sheâs hot and red all the way to her ears. youâve only read about it in books. you didnât even believe this could happen in real life until now.
âi will check your temperature too.â
âgo on.â
you repeat the same process from hours earlier, drumming your fingers on your thigh as you wait for the beep.
âyah, why is the window open? youâll catch a cold.â
jungkook, yet again, steals the attention of every person in the room when he rises to his feet. his shadow casts over you as he closes the window.
âi wanted to smell the rain.â
âis the room getting too stuffy for you?â
you shrug. âi just wanted to smell the rain.â
you feel the nurseâs stare. you offer her a smile and her nameplate briefly gets caught by your vision. kang ji-woo.
âji-woo; thatâs a pretty name.â you pay her a sincere compliment. âitâs healing, donât you think?â
âyes? uh-uhm, y-yesâŠâ she replies, unsure and confused by the sudden small talk. âactually, itâs been linked to a reduction in stress and anxiety levels.â
âthank you! babe, did you hear that?â
âuhuh, think about my stress and anxiety levels.â he leans against the window with his arms crossed, raising an eyebrow at you.
so now heâs flexing his arm muscles. cool, cool, cool. you know heâs not doing it on purpose and his entire existence is just naturally hot and itâs infuriating.
âiâve been worried sick about you all day.â
his statement makes you frown for a new reason. at the same moment, the thermometer beeps.
âcould you please tell him that iâm fine?â
â37.3, uhhh- thatâs slightly above normal. how do you feel? does your head hurt? are you cold?â
âi feel fine though?â
âokay. please take a lot of rest and stay warmâŠâ her gaze lingers at jungkook who is blocking the window. âkeep the window closed. hopefully it wonât be higher when i check again later.â
seriously?! you could cry. you want to go home where itâs comfortable. where itâs only you and jungkook and bam.
but you bet somebody would be happy if you had to stay longer.
âiâll look after ____.â your boyfriend sighs, pulling out a jacket from his backpack.
âyou shouldnât have kissed me. what if you get sick?â
your blatantness causes the nurse to pause in updating your chart. she awkwardly clears her throat. âyeah⊠that⊠that isnât currently advisable.â
âiâm sorry. iâll control myself.â
you earn a glare from jungkook, then he fakes a smile which you gladly return.
âbefore you go, may i request for a new blanket? sorry, i spilled something earlier.â
âsure thing! iâll come back with that right away.â
â
âshe seemed happy to leave.â jungkook remarks. âi canât tell if you were actually being nice or being passive aggressive.â
you smile innocently, taking a bite off the strawberry you stole from the top of the cake. âiâm a fucking angel.â
damn it, why is he suddenly turned on?
were you serious about the no kiss rule?
âwould you rather i be the type to pull their hair?â
he shakes his head with a laugh. âbut you did slap someone once.â
âyou want to see me that furious again?â
ânever in my wildest dreams.â
he kisses the top of your head, producing an exaggerated âmmmwah!â sound that makes you giggle happily.
âhere, have some more cake.â
he offers you a spoonful of cake.
no, itâs bigger.
as a matter of fact, the piece could probably pass off as a cupcake.
you gawk at it as if youâre figuring out the logistics of putting it in your mouth. his heart does a flip when you tilt your head and do your best to take in the whole thing. however, in the middle of it, you decide that you canât, and you end up biting it off a little more than halfway.
oh my god, he loves you. he loves you. youâre so fucking cute.
your cheeks are full as you struggle to chew. you cover your mouth with your hand but they donât touch. youâre so elegant in your ways and sometimes he wonders how youâre still attracted to him after he acts stupid.
also, plain white nails? thatâs new. you always want colors.
âyour nails look pretty.â
he is so focused on you that he fails to take notice of another presence occupying the room.
âyour mom did them for me.â
âi figured. she wants to do mother-daughter things with you.â
the short break of silence speaks volumes. you look at him, blinking with eyes hinting at a type of joy youâre lost on how to express.
âdid you choose white?â
âno. we were watching a drama and it was the coupleâs wedding.â
oh, that makes total sense.
âlet me guess,â he trails off with a half-embarrassed, half-entertained smile. âshe asked when we will get married?â
âwhy would she ask me that? how would i know?â you scoff.
his heart starts at a thousand miles per hour. fuck, are you hinting at him? are you messing with his feelings again? with you, he always needs to remind himself to be rational.
âi need more time to prove to you that iâm husband material.â
âwhat? stop it. i donât care. i donât need a ring.â
your unpredictableness pushes him to the edge of his seat.
âdonât pressure yourself. you already treat me way better than most husbands do their wives.â
the pride painted on your face is unmistakable. he feels his heart swelling in his chest. has he been doing a better job than he originally thought? after what happened today, he was terrified that he hasnât been paying enough attention to you.
âiâm so happy with what we have.â
you offer him a delicate smile before eating the rest of the cake that was left on the spoon. he swears thereâs a glowing halo above your head.
could your temperature have magically dropped in the past five minutes? would you kill him if he kissed you right now?
âis there anything else i could assist you with?â
and then he is rudely snapped out of his hopeless adoration and daydreaming.
âthatâs all! thank you for your hard work!â you chirp.
he turns to the nurse with a lovesick grin.
âplease come to our wedding.â
the unforeseen wedding invitation earns him a slap on the chest. he clutches the affected area, wincing in pain.
he hears you mutter. âdonât invite strangers to our wedding.â
the irritated glare he predicted to face isnât there. rather, youâre wearing the flustered smile he only sees when he knows that he did something to make you fall for him all over again.
before ji-woo left, she tried to subtly reject the invitation by jokingly saying that sheâd die to go, but most probably, sheâd have to work that day. you know⊠being an overworked hospital employee and all. you caught her glancing at you with bitterness failed to be guised as indifference. you get it. youâd hate it if another person was in your place. frankly speaking, you could be miles pettier.
your boyfriend wipes the corner of your lips, thoughtless as he licks off the cake frosting from his thumb.
damn it, you wish she was also here for that.
âyou havenât stopped smiling.â
âyou love me and you never let me forget that.â
you give an answer despite the lack of a question mark.
you just made his world stop spinning on its axis and youâre not even aware.
jungkook knows the heavenly feeling of knowing that he is loved, but he has never deeply considered the joy and relief when the person he loves believes that he loves them.
âiâm so lucky. i love you.â
you push yourself up to plant a kiss on his forehead. itâs a rarity he treasures and keeps.
âi love you too.â
he cries infront of you.
almost.
he excuses himself to the bathroom and cries in there a little.
youâre so easy to loveâ thatâs why it makes him want to do difficult things for you. like commit more crimes?
#jungkook#jungkook fluff#jungkook angst#jungkook drabble#jungkook scenario#jungkook imagine#jungkook one shot#jungkook x you#jungkook x reader#jungkook au#jungkook fic#jungkook fanfic#bts fluff#bts reaction#jungkook smut
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(be BTS' leader, they said...) it's gonna be great, they said.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the most beloved leader, KIM NAMJOON ⥠cr. jung-koook, 0613data
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when you and your bestie share the same brain cell | for @jiniekook
{ays cr. ouranxingg (moreloveforhobi)}
#bts#btsgif#dailybts#btsedit#seokjin#jungkook#kim seokjin#jeon jungkook#jinkook#bts seokjin#bts jungkook#san WHO ELSE would i make this for if not you#i wasnt sure if someone already made this or not but i had to regardless#they are the world#rékagif
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ââđ romance novel - biker!rich!JK x bookworm!reader request
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content: esth. relationship, book shopping date, fluff, bike rides with Jk, smut freaky ngl (she reads a smut scene, he recreates it for her meanwhile), fingering, tits play, clit play, kinda cum play, slight begging, praise
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"Ooh look at this one bunny!"
jungkook giggles, patting your flowy hair onces again, his arm moves to wrap around your shoulders
He had heard this sentence about a thousand times now, never getting tired of it
"Hmm.. interesting"
How could he? Seeing your eyes glimmer and light up upon viewing the pretty covers, the little hums and gasps you let out, flipping the book around to read the synopsis
"I think this is the last one" your fingers tap the cover, putting it inside the full basket your boyfriend is carrying with his other arm
He smiles, rubbing your cheek with his thumb, "sure? We have time sweetheart, take it" nodding his chin up to gesture to the fantasy asile,
For the past two weeks, all he's seen you read is fantasy
Wheather it be acotar or the cruel prince series, the countless stories of fae, dragons and heir's float around on the pages, register in your brain and flow out as retelings for Jungkook to listen to
He'd be listening to twenty minute voice messages of your charged rambles, finding it absolutely adorable how worked up you get over fictional storylines
Ever since passing your bar exam, he had promised to take you book shopping, promised to buy you whatever books you wanted
"But- there's already so much in here, its so expensive kook" you pout, squeezing his arm while roaming over the fantasy section with your eyes,
"I can pay for it baby. You know money is the least of my worry, come on, i want to treat my smart girl" his sweet but stern tone of voice is enough to make you fold, kissing his cheek and happily walking towards the huge shelves,
"Cute" he mutters under his breath, following closely behind you
A few special editions of pre owened books and a whole new series in addition later, the total came out to what would be a month's rent for you, and a little nick for your boyfriends bank account
"Give me that sweetheart, I'll store it" his gloved hands wrap around the heavy, large totebags, two of them filled to the brink
Knowing that was gonna be the outcome, his attached storage comparted was handy, presecured on the black harley davidson.
"All done" he says, locking it after managing to stuff the bags inside
You give him a thumbs up, already having pulled your pink- hello kitty themed helmet over your head, comically contrasting the rest of your outfit
He had gotten you that helmet as well, back when he first acquired his license and could start taking you with him on his rides
"My place?" his head turns a bit over his shoulder, revving the engine
You nod, arms sneaking around his firm torso and locking your hands tightly
He takes off, driving the way back to his nice suburban apartment, the wind speeding with your sides, blowing a refreshing breeze
"Whatcha reading honeybun?" After watching you read the past 45 minutes, your boyfriend spent his gaming and making popcon, peacefully watching you doze off into a world he wasn't a part of
he can't take it anymore, the smell of your sweet floral scent clouding his room, the little groans you let out will flipping through the pages, it's too much to soley bear witness to
So he teases you, nudging your side with his elbow
You giggle in return, squeezing his round cheeks while he keeps munching on the snack set on the bedside table
"Fantasy, bunny. Just about some fae wars again" you reply in a low hum, scanning over the words on the paper
With a dramatic sigh, his head rests on your lap to catch your attention, his pretty, dark brown locks falling over to the side, framing the sharp contures of his jaw beautifully
You take a second to stroke his face, appreciating the eyebrow piercing he had gotten recently, as well as the small metal ring on his bottom lip. Your favorite feature, his brown doe eyes, contently shutting
His sweet bunny smile slowly spreads on the honey toned face of his,
"Attention please, i need your attention baby" he says, turning his head sideways to kiss the inside of your hand
"Hmm.. but it's so interesting right now kook. Five minutes okay?" the butterflies in your stomach roar at his actions, however, the intense rivalry in the book is enough to keep your eyes locked back on the words
Suddendly, a tatted hand rips away the book, written ink disappearing from your eyesight and into your boyfriends golden hands
"more interesting than me huh? Let's see what my little princess reads about"
he's sat upright now, scanning over the page you last left off, nodding, seemingly satisfied before flipping through the pages
Your eyes widen at that, well aware of the dirty secret this innocent fantasy book witholds,
Explicit scenes are thickly spread between the plot of what looks to be a regular story
Panicking, you climb into his lap, reaching to take the book off him when you notice his smirk softly spreading, clearly having stumbled on something he shouldn't have seen
His arm extends upward, making sure you won't be able to get the book off of him,
With a almost predatory gaze, his cocky smile also looks down to you, licking over the corner of his lip, grazing the small metal decoration
"That's what's keeping my girl from spending time with me hm?"
he chuckles lowly, stroking over your thighs with his free hand
"Kook stoppp!" you whine, still propped up on your knees and on his lap, both arms up and fumbling to get the book back down,
Your cheeks have been covered in a pink hue and with the way your chest bounces at your desperate attempts, jungkook simply can't help it
He pushes you down on his bed, taking your wrists with one of his hands and pinning them together above your head
The atmosphere shifts, clearly asserting the dominance to him as he hovers over you like you're his prey, completely helpless at his mercy
You let out a soft moan when his eyes find your again,
"Listen to me sweetheart. We're gonna spend some time together now. Since you so badly wanna read, read it out for me. Tell me what you dream 'bout yea?"
Your eyes widen and for a split second, he sees the look on your face turn from excitment to worry,
Immediately he lets go of your wrists, wrapping both his arms around your figure, his lips ghosting over the skin of your neck
" m'sorry baby, I didn't sound so nice there did i? You can always say no. I'm not judging you sweetheart, i promise" sweetly, the air shifts again into something more comfortable, soft pads of your fingers colliding with the strands of his hair,
"Thank you kook.. i think it would be fun.." you admit, the need in your voice becoming almost too much to withstand, he lets you know how much he wants you by sucking on the skin of your neck, kissing his way back up to your jaw
Once satisfied, he reaches for the almost abandoned book, handing it to you with a kiss to your forhead
"Go on sweetheart"
You swallow, quietly reading the first lines aloud to him,
"he pushes the thin fabric of her flimsy top upwards to reveal her swollen chest, caged in his favorite colored bra. Mercilessly, they get groped at by his eager hands, hungry for a taste of her skin on his"
Jungkook's hands move exactly like you had told him to, pushing your comfortable sweater upwards and groping the soft swell of your breast in his large plams, groaning softly when he brushes over your nipples,
Relishing the touch of your skin, he can't help but nudge the bra down a bit, getting a better feel of you
He loves watching your face twist slightly in pleasure, he loves hearing your breathy little whimpers
"keep going baby, you feel so good" he encourages, drawing meaningless patterns on your stomach and it sends waves of pleasure straight to your core
You take a small breath, trying your best to focus on the instructions in front of you
"..without waiting another second, his hands tug down her bottoms, leaving her in just her panties. Effortlessly, he brushes against her clit, rubbing the fabric to it before pulling the thong to the side to admire the wetness he created"
your moans increasingly become louder, feeling the pad of his thumb press small cricles into your covered clit before pushing to fingers under the string, letting the cold air hit your pussy
Jungkook takes a second to lick his lips and sigh, enamored with the sight of your glistening cunt, the bulge in his pants is starting to strain painfully
"He keeps his eyes on hers, monotering the way they roll back when he slides two digits into her hole, twisting them so his thumb still presses into the needy bud, begging for stimulation"
That's it, that's what makes you shudder, letting the book fall off to the side, your knees buckling and hands gripping at Jungkook's firm shoulders
He smiles, brushing his lips over yours,
His long digits feel so good inside you, he doesn't move them yet, only moving his thumb softly, rubbing it up and down on your clit,
"That good?" he asks, licking over your bottom lip slowly
A whine of approval leaves your lips as you crash them on his, engulfing him in a deep, passionate kiss that makes him moan into it
The attempt at making him start pleasuring you doesn't work, still only letting them sit inside your warmth,
"You know what i want sweetheart" he mutters, slolwy sliding his tongue inside your mouth before withdrawing, met with your little whimpers once more
"come on, be a good girl, beg for me baby"
"Please kook" you whine, one hand now sliding down from his shoulder to his thigh, turning your fingers inward on the muscle,
He hums, directing his kisses back to your neck, licking over the skin delicately
"You can do better pretty, i know you can"
Another frustrated whine leaves your lips,
"Please kook, please fuck me with your fingers, please bunny make me cream on them. Please, i need it"
"Good girl, so good for me" he praises, giving you no room to breath or build up- almost brutally fast in the way he fucks his fingers into you, sucking on the softness of your neck
His thumb hits your clit with every push, harder, faster, each time
You're whimpering, moaning messily and trying to hold on to every little thing you can grasp with sweaty, trembling hands
He meets your moans, groaning, finding your lips and kissing you with such need and intensity, you want him, want him even while having him
"kook gonna cum" you whimper into his mouth, clenching around the slender fingers that create quelching noises when fucking into your cunt, the friction of his thumb making it impossible to hold on any longer
"That's so good baby, my sweet girl, come for me" his kisses focus on the side of your jaw, tongue darting out while slowing down the pace, he had felt you shake and release on him, that deep moan you let out being enough to know you came undone
You're panting, weakly laying slumped forward against him. Ecstacy rushing rough your body, his fingers still burried deep, while his other hand accompanies the sweet kisses on your head, threaded through your silky strands
"Awh... so cute, look at that" the sound of his deep and affectionate words catch you off guard, looking down to where his eyes are focused on
He draws his fingers out, taking a string of your arousal with him before directing them back to your sensitivity
Your grip on his tightens once more , whining out the sound of his name
"Mhh.. i know, i know sweetheart" he coos, his fingers working to spread your cum all over your folds and rubbing it into your clit,
With a quick kiss to your lips, he tells you to open
"Here.. good girl" he mumbles, watching your eyes fall and your lips wrap around his fingers, pushed into the warmth of your mouth
You moan when tasting your own arousal on him, tongue twirling between his fingers to lapp up every drop
He takes them out when he's satisfied, tangling his hands into your hair
"Wanna take a bath pretty?" you nod, giggling when he starts placing little kisses all over your face, wrapping his arms around you as he hoists you up, getting ready to run you a well deserved bath
"Thank you kook" you tell him, cupping his face into your hands, he squeezes the flesh of your bare ass in return, kissing the tip of your nose with a small laugh
"I promised to make your dreams come true. Unfortunately i don't have a Dragon. Not yet at least, if you wanna fuck one, you know where to look for something in that size"
You kick his butt with your heel, rolling your eyes at his middle school joke,
"You're ridiculous", he sets you down on the bathroom counter, running the water and filling it with bubble solution,
"You love me" he says, taking his shirt off,
Biting your lip softly, you reach for his defined figure,
"I do. I love you"
his hands with your waist under the sweater, pulling you closer into him,
"I love you too sweetheart"
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jungkook getting on jimin's last nerve đ€Źđ
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