#Johnny Come Home (Extended Mix)

[superstarcherrycolagirl]

we’ll be alright

“fine line” by harry styles

benny cross x fem!reader / 1.2k words

idea: you get hurt, but benny is an absolute wreck

tw: assault, fighting, gore, angst, crying, happy ending

notes: ya’ll when i tell you my thumbs, hands, and arms are burning cause i’ve been COOKING!! i was craving some angst (i love to suffer) so way not make this beautiful man suffer!! that final seen on the door steps had me weeping so i needed to write something similar to that SO HERE IT IS :))) (p.s i kinda need some kathy ideas)

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the baby blue ice pack created a weird sensation against your left eye and the side of your face. numb was what it was, but you couldn’t really think straight at that point.

sitting on the edge of the bed with kathy beside you, rubbing her hand up and down your back, it almost lulled you to sleep. but the medicine you took and the exhaustion you felt might have also played a part in your sleepiness.

that fight was never meant to happen. those young kids should’ve never been let into the bar. johnny kicked himself for not literally kicking them out the moment they walked in. the kid with the buzzed head should’ve never gotten so close to benny with you behind him, and benny should’ve known you were behind him and not with your girlfriends before he dodged his swing, so you’d never be served that harsh punch to your sweet face.

in the split moment the whole bar went quiet, your faint slow breaths filled the air. you were in shock, touching your face to see blood on your hand. that kid stacked his punching rings on that night. when you looked up from your hands to the kid in front of you, your eyes watered and threatened to spill, that’s when chaos broke loose. but thank god you can’t remember any of that right now. you cried so hard on kathy’s shoulder the entire ride home, thanks to danny for driving you back in his car, that you think you can’t cry anymore.

you jerked awake due to the loud knocking at your apartment door, kathy settling you down first before standing up “i’m gonna go grab that sweetheart and i’ll be right back. stay right here for me babe” she left your bedroom calmly, hearing her boot cladded footsteps taking a left turn and and marching down the hallway

you heard muffled voices through the walls, then moments later you heard a second pair of footsteps stomping down to your door. or was it 3 pairs?

“got some energy left in you babe? you got some company” you looked up at kathy, but you couldn't see the people with her. so you took the ice pack off your face, a vivid mix of purples, red, and blues plastering the left half of your face, and looked up. benny had finally come home and johnny was stopping by!

“who is it kat- oh my gosh! you guys are alive!” it’s like a flip switched in your brain as you got up from the bed and stumbled a bit to get to them. “lord i can’t imagine what it was like in there! are you guys alri-” that’s when benny grabbed onto you and pulled you into his chest. tight. “hi honey! i’m so happy you’re here! did everything clear up? are you okay?” you asked sweetly. you were quite lethargic in your state, so you couldn’t pick up on how thick the air was due to how worried everyone was about you. not until you listened to benny’s breath stutter and tiny whimpers leaving his mouth.

he’s crying.

you tried to pull away from him to look up at him, but he wouldn’t let you go. he wasn’t gonna let you go, not after tonight’s events. you didn’t know what to do, why was he crying? you could only hold him, rubbing your right hand in circles on his back. sooner or later, your left arm extended and reached out abruptly. kathy was confused at first, but was quickly diminished when realizing that this was your way of saying hello to johnny. johnny softly held your hand, afraid that you were aching all over, as he was caressing your hand with his thumb. “hello to you too sweetheart” he said in his deep voice.

you don’t know what was said as you were squashed into benny’s chest, but kathy and johnny left the room quietly, johnny muttering to benny that they were going for a “chat and smoke” and they’d be outside in the living room.

after the door closed, benny pulled back from you. you could finally see his face, but your heart sank down to your stomach so fast. benny’s face was rosy and puffy, while his eyes and cheeks were wet from crying. you brought your hand up to his right cheek, a small cut touching the bottom of your thumb. “..oh honey” you said sadly. you expected him to say that he was okay, or telling you he was going out with johnny, or god forbid say that he was gonna leave. what you didn’t expect was your words to unleash the floodgates of benny’s emotions.

benny started to cry hard, his breaths becoming frantic as tears continued to fall down his face. his hands were shaking, bruises and cuts all over his body, clothes torn, and blood all over. god you hope it wasn’t his own.

benny moved his hands to hold both sides of your neck, worried he would hurt you even more by touching your face. then he started to speak, but his voice watery and shaky, like a little boy “m’so..so s-orry baby, m’so sorry, m.. so sorry,” his stutters and hiccups were hysterical, you’re worried he’ll pass out from not breathing enough. “m’coward. a fucking coward. i should’ve known you were behind m-me… i failed to keep you sa-afe, you got hurt because of me.. and m’so sorry.. pl-ease don’t leave me.. please don’t-” those were the words that woke you up. you couldn’t believe what you were hearing. leave him? and you refused to hear more of it.

you walked backwards to sit on the bed, benny hands slid to hold your lower back before sliding even lower to hold the thick of your thighs. to ground himself. you held his face to make him look at you. to see you.

“honey.. none of this was your fault” his sniffles and gasps were making it harder for you to speak. “i don’t blame you or anyone else for what happened, but especially not you. i’m alright” your right hand moved up to his frazzled hair, brushing the strands of hair away from his face. you prayed it would help him calm down. “and m’gonna be alright, look,” you grabbed his tattered hands from your hips and placed one on your heart, and the other on your swollen cheek. you can see his shoulders fall slowly as he focuses on your heartbeat. “my heart is still pulsing, my chest is still rising and falling, and my soul is still beaming” you scooched closer to him, your left leg placed on top of his right.

“look at me honey,” your syrupy voice rang in his ears as he looked into your eyes again. his eyelashes were dewy from how much he cried that you almost lost all the words in your mouth, but you told him one more thing. “i will never leave you. no matter how crazy our lives get, or how crazy things change, i will never run. i will never let you go. this isn’t where we end” benny inhales and exhales deeply before responding to your words of reassurance, adam’s apple bobbing in his throat. “i’ll never leave you b-aby..i’m never gonna go, never. i promise baby i-i promise” “c’mere” with that you brought your boy over to you, his head fitting into the crook of your neck.

you let him cry, but also let yourself get teary eyed. “you and me sweet boy. s’gonna be okay” you were stroking the hair on the back of his head as his arms held you closer than ever. you in your pink pajamas and him in his colors. that is what’s meant to be. and always will be.

“we’ll be alright”

[neocitylights]

LOVERS ROCK — a rockstar galaxy short story

“Our story is more complicated than this, I was basically crushing on you before even knowing who you were.” GENRE: Romance, fluff, non-idol au, songwriter!Mark WORD COUNT: 2.5k NOTES: A little follow-up on our favorite neighbors! Can be read as a standalone but it references a few things from the main story. Please let me know what you think, it’s gonna make my day!

Pushing the shop’s door open, you’re immediately greeted by the rich, strong aroma of freshly brewed coffee and the comforting warmth of the cozy place, momentarily shielding you from a chilly late afternoon.

An easy glance at the counter is more than enough for you to quickly spot Mark. Even through his back, the little details are unmistakable—the dark blue cap backwards, his beloved wired earphones around his neck and the out-of-place Sonny Angel keyring you’d put on his bag months ago making him stand out.

Grateful that the faculty meeting had ended earlier than expected, you decided to crash his plans. 

Every other Friday, you and Mark take turns buying dinner for each other, spending most of your nights as neighbors paying a visit next-door. Today, as it was his turn, you’d specifically mentioned craving the peanut butter cup cookies from your favorite coffee shop instead, Mark immediately taking the mission of buying them for you.

After taking a wild guess at his schedule—with a little help from Johnny—you hoped to catch him just in time to accompany him home as he’s done a million times for you.

Holding a giggle at your usual barista’s surprised eyes, you finally approach Mark, furtively slipping your arms around his waist before reaching over to rest your chin on his shoulder. 

As you feel him tense under your touch, visibly startled, the laugh escapes before you can stop it. “Baby, it’s me!”

He immediately whips his head around, the frown on his face melting to a softer expression upon seeing you. “Oh my God,” Mark starts, a groan escaping from his lips as his body immediately relaxes. “You scared the shit out of me just now.”

Still laughing, you squeeze him tighter, pressing a kiss his shoulder. “Are you surprised?”

“Jisung looked so shocked out of a sudden, I thought it was a creep or something,” he says, rolling his eyes in a mix of exasperation and confusion. “Damn, my heart’s beating so fast.”

At his words, you step around to face him and press a hand to Mark’s chest. “I just wanted to surprise you,” you say half-heartedly, amused at his rapid heartbeat. “It’s good to know I still have an effect on you, though.”

“You’ve always had it, baby.” Mark chuckles fondly, finally greeting you with his usual kiss to your cheek. “What’s up? Did you skip your work meeting today?”

“I’m a responsible faculty member now, I would never do that,” you argue, shooting him a playful eye-roll. “It just started a little earlier than usual, that’s all.”

As he pulls you against his side, Mark’s attention turns back to the shop’s menu again. “You’re just in time, I was just about to order,” he explains, scanning the list of drinks. “Jisung says the peanut butter cookies are coming out in a bit.”

No longer sidetracked by your boyfriend’s reaction, you glance over the counter just in time to spot Jisung now approaching with a fresh tray of your cookies, the barista looking nothing but amused at the way your face lights up at it. 

“Jisungie! Sorry for ignoring you!” you apologize, immediately extending a hand for a high-five. “Thank you for being my partner in crime just now, by the way.”

The boy laughs, reciprocating your motion with a satisfied nod. “That was really funny. I’ve never seen someone so scared over a hug before.”

“What about you?” you ask, raising an eyebrow as Jisung frowns in confusion, pointing at himself for a second. “Did you ask that girl out already or what?”

Mark gasps at your side, a smile instantly growing on his face as he looks between you and Jisung. “What the—? Jisung likes someone? How come you’ve never told me? Who is it?”

“A girl from his class,” you explain to Mark, side-eyeing the boy with a giddy chuckle. “She’s really pretty and I’m 100% sure that she likes him back.”

“How do you know?”

“—I don’t think she does.”

As Mark and Jisung speak at the same time, you can’t help a laugh, the pair exchanging shocked glances with each other. 

“He showed me some of her texts,” you clarify, giving the blushing boy a pointed look. “I know the signs of an interested girl because I’ve been one too, you know. She definitely likes him too.”

Your boyfriend frowns, offering you a hesitant look. “I... don’t think I realized you were interested in me through your texts, though.”

“Our story is more complicated than this, I was basically crushing on you before even knowing who you were,” you counter, rolling your eyes at the grin growing on Mark’s face. “Besides, you haven’t seen the way she looks at him, baby.”

Looking nothing but betrayed, Mark feigns a pained look. “ You’ve already met her and I’m only hearing about this now?”

“It was an accident,” Jisung interrupts rushedly, offering an apologetic look at your boyfriend. “It wasn’t really a meeting, she was just around studying for her test—”

“Studying for her test here, instead of the university’s library,” you point out, grinning as the barista groans, having heard your argument a million times by now. “It’s not a coincidence she chose to study here out of all places after you specifically told her you worked here, Ji.”

Mark suddenly whistles after a second, both you and Jisung turning to him. 

As he raises an eyebrow at the boy, your boyfriend nods solemnly, almost as if he’s had a sudden epiphany. “Damn. She likes you, dude.”

The sound of the door interrupts the conversation, startling Jisung into work mode again as a couple of clients enter the shop. 

Watching in amusement as the barista knowingly prepares your favorite cookies to-go before rushing around between the drinks and taking Mark’s card, soon enough you’re bidding him goodbye, under his shy promise of asking his girl out until your next visit.

Outside, Mark immediately holds his hand out as he falls into step beside you. “Hey, I forgot to ask you how’d you know I was here.”

“Johnny,” you answer, chuckling at the look of realization that settles on his face. “I called him earlier, said that I wanted to surprise you but didn’t know the time you’d leave work.”

“So that’s why he was being so weird today,” he says, shaking his head with a chuckle. “He kept asking me when I was leaving, I almost thought he was mad at me or something.”

“Sorry.” You grimace, giving him a half-hearted grin before squeezing his hand. “I’ll ask Hyuck next time, then.”

Mark rolls his eyes, still smiling. “That’s just worse for both of us, you’re better off with Johnny.”

At the mention of his friends, he shares a few tidbits of work while you walk home—the girl Johnny accidentally ended up scooping at a bar is doing wonders as their newest artist, Jaehyun’s concert at a big venue in California sold-out in a few hours, and Haechan’s just... doing Haechan things, apparently having roped his girlfriend into an impromptu trip to Las Vegas.

Everything feels like second nature when you finally step into the building. At the elevator, Mark presses the button for his floor without a second thought, too occupied with the way you’re cozied up against his side. 

Now that you’re more than familiar with his apartment, you feel welcomed almost as if it’s your own.

Sometimes, it’s funny to think that the place was a mystery to you once, holding the very secret that ultimately led Mark into your life. Very few things have changed since then—his vinyls and CDs are still filling every inch of the shelves, instruments propped at every corner, a few figurines here and there. 

A little guilty for leaving your own stuff around too, your boyfriend might now also have piles of books in addition to his albums, too much make-up products in his vanity and a pair or two of heels now forgotten somewhere between his sneakers.

As Mark unlocks the door, holding it open as you step into the hallway, a soft laugh escapes from his lips. “We were matching today.”

Glancing back at him over your shoulder, you pause mid-step inside. “What?”

He gestures down at your feet, toeing his own shoes off with a playful look on his face. “Our shoes were matching today.”

Following Mark’s eyes, your confusion immediately shifts to amusement at the sight of your identical Converses, earning a laugh from you. “Are we becoming one of those couples?”

“I mean, we could,” he teases, settling his shoes neatly at the rack before a grin tugs at his lips. “Are we going full outfits next time?”

You snort playfully, taking his hand for balance while slipping out of your own shoes. ”Please, that would be just you copying me, baby.”

Mark nods, sighing to hold back a smile when you coo at his pouty, sulky expression. “Alright, I see how it is.”

As you pull him into the living room, shoes and jackets properly settled, something else catches your attention before you can tease Mark again—on the coffee table, rests a copy of your latest read, the book’s familiar cover unmistakable to your eyes as you reach for it.

Your eyebrows knit together while you flick through the pages for a moment. “I could’ve sworn this book was at my place?” you say, looking up at your boyfriend in doubt. “Did I leave it here?”

A timid smile pulls at his lips, Mark quickly tossing the keys onto the counter alongside the café’s bag before approaching you. “You didn’t leave it here.”

“I don’t get it.” You frown confusedly, blinking at him. “Are you sure I didn’t leave it here? There’s so many of my books around here now—”

He shakes his head, interrupting gently. “I bought this one, actually.”

“You bought it?” you repeat, a little too dazed at the missing dots. “Why? I could’ve given you mine, if you wanted.”

“We were kinda reading at the same time?” Mark starts, chuckling sheepishly at the way your face changes at his explanation. “You were so excited about it the other day, so I thought I could... you know, read it so I can know what you’re talking about.”

You blink, fingers tightening around the book as warmth spreads through your chest. “Mark...” you mutter, voice softer. “Are you serious?”

Rubbing the back of his neck, he shrugs lightly. “It’s no big deal, I just thought it’d be fun to see what’s got you so hooked.”

Caught in between amusement and endearment at his attentiveness, you give Mark a look before fisting his t-shirt, pulling him closer to press a kiss to his lips. With his arms closed around your waist, you resist pulling away for a moment, a sound of protest escaping from your lips once Mark breaks away for a breath.

As he exhales, a flustered chuckle slips through. “Man, you’re definitely killing me one of these days.”

You burst into laughter at his unexpected reaction, escaping from his hold before heading off to the kitchen with a grin at his direction. “I’m hungry now! What are we choosing for dinner?”

Bending the Friday rules over your sudden request, the scent of take-out soon fills the living-room as Mark sets the bags on the coffee table. With the cookies saved for later, both of you settle on the couch, sharing bites of each other’s choices between bits of conversation.

With both of you sharing an unconscious routine, it doesn’t take long until the TV is playing the latest episode of a show you’re currently watching together, Mark indulging your cookies whenever you feed him one in between sips of your lukewarm coffees after dinner.

In the brief pause between the episodes, you suddenly turn around to look at him, almost pouting when pulling back from his arms holding you close. “Why are you so quiet out of a sudden?” 

Seemingly surprised, Mark’s eyes widen for a second before he chuckles awkwardly. “Am I?”

“You’re not even reacting to my little comments,” you start, voice somewhere between confusion and curiosity. “You haven’t laughed at all during the last episode. What’s wrong, baby?”

As he smiles at the nickname, fingers tenderly brushing your cheek, Mark exhales. “I was just thinking... we could talk for a bit?”

The words are all you need to turn off the TV, focusing on him as you sit up. “I’m all ears, Mark Lee.”

He can’t help laughing at the way you say it, reaching for your hand before pressing a kiss to it. “You’re such a dork, sometimes,” Mark teases, shaking his head. “It’s nothing crazy... I think.”

“Well, now I’m curious,” you answer, frowning despite your amusement. “I hope you’re not breaking up with me right now. Are you?”

Though there’s not a single doubt about Mark’s commitment to your relationship in your mind, the quip is mostly to break your boyfriend out of his own mind. Johnny always says he’s come a long way from being an absolute overthinker, but being the naturally sensible, critical person that he is, Mark still hangs onto his thoughts every now and then. 

His face falls for a second at your words, eyes widening in panic. “Fuck no, baby, no way,” he counters, squeezing your hand harder with a pleading look. “I’m not breaking up with you, sorry if I gave you that impression.”

You smile at his puppy eyes, resisting the urge to kiss him by intertwining your fingers instead. “If you’re not planning to break up with me, then...”

“You move in with me,” Mark says, a hint of concern briefly flashing in his eyes over your expression, a mix of shock and something else he doesn’t seem to catch on. “It’s fine if you don’t want to—”

“Mark, I want to,” you interrupt right away, not resisting pressing a quick kiss to his lips over the endearing relief on his face. “Obviously I want to... but are you sure about it?”

“I’m sure, baby.” He nods firmly, huffing a quiet laugh before taking a look around the living room. “It doesn’t need to be my apartment, though. I can bring my stuff down to yours, if you want.”

“We can decide that with a Halli Galli match,” you joke, laughing at his groan before glancing knowingly at him. “How long have you been thinking about this?”

With a chuckle, Mark runs a hand through his hair,  looking a little taken aback. “A few months, give or take,” he answers, a sigh following. “You’ve been leaving some of your stuff around whenever you sleep over and I... didn’t mind it. It actually felt like I was coming home to you even when you weren’t here, you know?”

There’s nothing that can stop you from jumping on him, your lips kissing every inch of his face as Mark laughs, wrapping his arms around you before falling on his back against the couch. Between a few kisses to his mouth and a few more to his face, you might’ve struggled a little bit to pull back from him.

As both of you sit up again, your arms wrap his shoulders in final a hug. “You belong in a love song, Mark.” 

“That’s a yes, right?” Mark suddenly asks, hands immediately cupping your face as soon you pull away from the embrace, his cheeks still flushed from your words. “Are we really doing this?”

The familiarity isn’t lost on you, a smile growing on your face. With your heart still full and completely assured, there’s no hesitation to your answer.

“We’re doing this.”

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[bohemianblasphemy]

Close to you

Dean Winchester x fem! Reader

Slow dancing in the kitchen with Dean <3

Contains: fluffy with slight suggestion if you squint, but fluffy nonetheless <3

A/n: enjoy my lovely bbys ✨

“Why do birds suddenly appear, Everytime, you are near?”

The softness of your voice along with the melodic sound of the iconic piano piece was heard in the little corner of the kitchen, mixed in with the savoury smells of your stir fry.

“Just like me, they long to be close to you…”

Your head tilted and swayed, immersed in your cooking and Karen Carpenter’s singing that you didn’t sense Deans gaze upon you from the door frame- his eyes soft with affection as he observed you in your element. He loved watching you, all your mannerisms and the way you sang along made his heart melt, the love he had for you overflowing his entire being.

“Why do stars fall down from the sky, every time you walk by?”

Dean pushed off the door frame, slinking his way toward you.

“Just like me, they long to be close to you…”

As he drew near, he could hear you continue to sing along- smiling as he gently wrapped his strong arms around your torso, squeezing you slightly.

You jumped, the unexpected contact snapping you out of your trance - but the familiar outline of his chest pressed up behind you made you relax almost immediately.

“Mmm… hello there stranger.” You hummed, leaning back against him. Dean let out a grunt for his greeting; his face buried into the crook of your neck, feeling him breathe in your scent- the faded smell of your perfume filling his senses.

“Smells so good sweetheart.” He mumbled, his lips grazing along your skin- smirking as he felt the soft shiver go up your spine.

“The food or me?” You joked, the both of you chucking.

“The food smells amazing, you on the other hand…” Dean paused for a moment, taking the interim to press a few soft kisses to your neck; hearing you sigh and melt into his affection. “You smell like home.”

Your heart melted at the sentiment, feeling Dean start to slowly sway behind you, humming along to the tune playing. You could feel his breath dance along your skin, a feeling you had felt many times before but would never tire of.

Your fingers switched off the gas under the pan of your meal, the sizzling sounds of oils and meat slowly dissipated. You turned yourself around, facing him- seeing his soft green eyes and his smile quirked up in one corner of his mouth.

“On the day that you were born the angels got together and decided to create a dream come true.”

Deans hands were on your waist, yours on his shoulder - the both of you sway in time with the music, foreheads pressed against each other.

“So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold and starlight in your eyes of blue…”

The pair of you twirled around the kitchen, giggling and smiling at each other- Dean giving you a cheeky smile before dipping you, his grin extending as he watched you laugh in delight at the silly move he made.

“Just like Baby and Johnny, aren’t we?” He teased, feeling your arms wrap around his neck tighter to hold on.

“Maybe not as graceful as them.” You joked, glancing up at him- admiring his long lashes and pale freckles sprinkled on his face, the chiseled, stubbled jaw that flexed slightly as met your stare once more.

Deans gaze fell to your lips, craning his neck to meet yours in a soft, gentle kiss; in sync with each other in every way possible.

He pulled back and brought you back up right, still swaying along with you- drinking in your features. The soft lines of your face, little freckles and moles- the way your eyes fluttered as you blinked up at him.

“I love you…” he mouthed, bringing one hand up to cup your jaw- his calloused thumb softly stroking your skin.

“I love you too…” you whispered back, leaning into his palm- turning your chin to place a gentle kiss to the inside of his hand.

The loving embrace was interrupted by the sound of deans stomach growling, the both of you laughing at the timing.

“Hungry, my dear?” You poked his chin.

“Mm, hungry for you.” He grinned, pulling you close to him and smooching your forehead. “But… dinner does sound good right about now.”

Tags <3: @bluemerakis @ambiguous-avery

[mydarlingclaudia]

leon ⟢

no shirt, no blouse - you taking care of Leon when he comes home from a mission.

I’m still coming back to you - you and Leon have something special, neither of you would trade it for anything.

and if we had a moment, could you face it? - you finally decide it’s time to take you and Leon’s relationship to bed.

there's always a piece of you - you've been dead for a few months now, Leon still can't get over it.

just you and me, alone on the dark - Leon’s back in town, that couldn’t be too hard on the gigantic crush you have on your best friend, right?

you wanna guess the color of my underwear - Leon just loves eating you out.

fish boy - he saves you from drowning and you come back each year, falling in love was easy.

bunnies love bouncing - you're supposed to make him feel good, why not make him feel even better?

lucky boy - poor boyfriend needs some early morning relief.

I could be mom (unless you want to be dad) - whiny husband.

I will love you ‘til the end of time - he’s been in love with the memory of you for too long, falling back in love with the newer you took a matter of seconds

every word I meant to say - letters that went unsent.

where my whole heart stays - funerals and drunk confessions.

christmas party hop - roommates and mistletoe don’t mix well.

chris ⟢

this is life - like a lover should.

taste like the fourth of july - sugar daddy.

if you want, you can bite me - "in sickness and in health" extends to the undead, too. cannibalism.

blurbs ⤷ Leon taking off your heels <3 Chris period comfort <3 viking Simon <3 cashier with Johnny and Simon <3 butcher Simon <3 Simon and his vampire <3 another butcher Simon <3

[bubblegumflavor]

Fanfiction link list 2024

Am I not promoting my fanfictions enough if not even mutuals know that I write? 🤔 Let me try to fix this!

My name on Ao3:

BoysWhoMaybeWatchedSunsets

My Lawrusso stories so far:

The Ride (CK past s4) (completed)

"Dear Clarence,..." ~a teen idol story (TKK) (completed with the option of the extended end coming) (Set in the 80s. Daniel is a famous actor, Johnny has a secret crush on him.. then their worlds collide!)

Two holiday event themed Lawrusso one shots:

The Game (TKK) (completed)

To someone special (TKK) (completed)

Dancing in the fire (Crossover fanfiction mainly Lawrusso mixed with The Outsiders and Stranger Things ships and characters) (ongoing) (Daniel moves to New York to become a dancer! His new room mate is an underground MMA fighter, the most impossible guy in the world. There's no way he would ever fall for that asshole...he thought.)

My Jally stories so far:

My Bubblegum Heaven (multi chapter - completed) (Dally takes the blame for Johnny's crime. No one dies, just Dally spends 5 years in prison while Johnny does everthing to make the best out of his life and have a home prepared for Dally's return.)

Only You ~A very Jally Christmas (one shot - completed)

...to be continued =)

[cynic-spirit]

Benny finally accepts Michael as his friend

After everything that happened between him and Y/N, Benny realized that he had to let go of his lingering resentment toward Michael. Even though Michael had almost married Y/N, Benny knew that it wasn’t fair to hold a grudge against him, especially since Michael never wanted that marriage either.

One evening at the club, Benny found himself sitting at a table with Kathy and Johnny, as usual. Across the room, Michael was laughing with some of the other members of the Vandals, looking like he finally felt at home with the group. Benny watched him for a moment, his chest tightening with a mix of old jealousy and the realization that maybe it was time to let go.

Kathy noticed Benny’s gaze and nudged him with her elbow. “You know, he’s not a bad guy, Benny. He never wanted to come between you and Y/N.”

Benny sighed, running a hand through his hair. “I know, Kathy. I’ve just been holding onto all that anger because I was scared. Scared that I’d lose her, that someone else would take her from me.”

Kathy nodded, understanding in her eyes. “But you didn’t lose her. She’s with you, and Michael… he’s just trying to find his place, like all of us.”

Benny took a deep breath and stood up from the table. He walked over to where Michael was sitting, the other members quieting down as they noticed his approach. Michael looked up, a bit surprised but not wary. He had sensed Benny’s animosity in the past but never confronted it.

“Hey, Michael,” Benny said, his voice steady. “Can we talk?”

Michael nodded, standing up and following Benny to a quieter corner of the club. Once they were alone, Benny turned to face him, taking another deep breath.

“Look, I’ve been a real asshole to you, and I’m sorry for that. I was jealous and angry, but it wasn’t fair to take that out on you. I know you didn’t want to marry Y/N, and I respect that. She’s with me now, and I shouldn’t have seen you as a threat.”

Michael smiled slightly, relief washing over his features. “Thanks, Benny. I get it. If I were in your shoes, I’d probably feel the same way. But you don’t have to worry about me. I’m just here to be part of the club and figure out my life.”

Benny nodded, feeling a weight lift off his shoulders. “Yeah, I get that now. And… I hope we can put all that stuff behind us. Maybe even be friends?”

Michael’s smile widened, and he extended his hand. “I’d like that.”

Benny shook his hand firmly, a sense of peace settling over him. “Alright, then. Friends.”

As they returned to the group, Benny felt a sense of closure he hadn’t realized he needed. He had Y/N, and now, he had finally let go of the last bit of insecurity that had been holding him back. With Michael as a new friend, Benny felt like he could finally move forward, with no more doubts clouding his heart.

[bymooniemoonsims]

Johnny takes Harper to Dessert Bloom so she can enjoy some playtime at the park.

"Be careful, sweetheart. Remember not to stand up on the slide, okay?"

"Jonathan?"

Having seen Nancy earlier walking around, Johnny isn't surprised when she calls him.

"It's Johnny," he corrects. Nancy's gaze shifts to the little girl by his side, a flicker of curiosity sparking in her eyes.

"Who's that kid?"

"None of your business.”

"Your father passed away, did you know?"

"Not because you bothered to tell me," Johnny retorts bitterly, his resentment palpable.

"I know Malcom informed you. And yet, you didn't come," Nancy accuses.

"I didn't see the point in paying my respects. I'm sure you understand why.”

"He was your father," Nancy reminds him, her words heavy with emotion.

"He ceased to be a father long ago. Just like you, mother," Johnny fires back.

"You made the conscious choice to tarnish the Landgraab name.”

"I chose to prioritize my own happiness. And it's going quite well, thank you for asking.”

As Johnny turns to leave, Nancy's voice follows him, tinged with regret.

"Jonathan. Is that your daughter?"

Johnny pauses, the weight of unresolved emotions heavy on his shoulders, before he responds quietly. "Yes.”

“You have a sister of that age. Did you know that?” Nancy's voice carries a mix of curiosity and reproach, probing Johnny's knowledge of his extended family.

Johnny remains silent, acutely aware of Mal's discretion regarding their clandestine meetings.

“Bring her home one day.”

Johnny's eyebrows knit together in confusion. “Why?”

“You may have chosen to distance yourself from us, and that's your prerogative. But she's my granddaughter, Jonathan. I'm entitled to have a relationship with her.”

“Don't be mistaken, mother. She won't have to have anything to do with you if I don't want her to. And I didn’t choose to distance myself from you. You did, remember?”

[thespamman24]

GODSPEED YOU! BLACK EMPEROR ALBUMS RANKED:

9. Bee’s Burger

Bee’s Burger is a defilement of all that is sacred and holy. Every single member of the band imitates a dolphin for six minutes and then shoots the sound technician with a harpoon. It’s awful.

8. Paper Games And Paper Dames

Paper Games and Paper Dames is the first album by Godspeed You! Black Emperor. It lacks the subtlety and nuance of their later albums. At the end of the album, the band members jump out of the vinyl record and beat you with a baseball bat. I’d give it 3/10 because it hurts.

7. Glug Glug Glug

Glug Glug Glug is the final album by Godspeed You! Black Emperor. It has too much subtlety and nuance. In fact, there’s no music at all. It’s just silence that’s interrupted every seven minutes by the distant sounds of a band member ordering 15 pizzas on the phone. The pizzas never come. They just keep ordering more and more. Why.

6. Death Is The Wuzooooooo, with Andy Serkis

This is Godspeed! You Black Emperor’s only collaboration album. The band member kidnap non-musician Andy Serkis at gun point, tie him to a chair, and then force him to read the communist manifesto backwards. It’s a beautiful statement on how language only works if you read it the right why, but it’s stifled somewhat by Andy Serkis’ occasionally cries for mercy.

5. The Worm Is Coming. The Worm is Coming. The Worm Is C

This album is Godspeed! You Black Emperor’s second album, and it’s a clear improvement from the first thanks to an increased budget. To start off with, the bandmates actually have instruments this time, so we don’t just get them making guitar noises. Even better, the band have enough money to buy baseball bats for every single member, so they don’t have to share just one bat.

4. I Am BIRD

Many Godspeed You! Black Emperor fans dislike this album, the band’s seventh album, as they see it as a “sell out” album. However, this album can be a truly beautiful experience if you appreciate it for what it’s trying to be, instead of judging it based on what you want it to be. So what is this album? It’s 12 of Johnny Cash’s greatest hits reimagined as Kpop tunes by 5 Canadian post rock musicians who don’t speak Korean. I think that’s beautiful.

3. The Raw And Innovative Album

This record is one of Godspeed You Emperor’s most divisive records, as it’s also the band’s most experimental record. This means that, instead of making music, the bandmembers all see what happens when you mix sodium benzoit with liquid copper. The result is nothing, so they all go home. It’a an absolutely mesmerizing experience.

2. AAAAAAAAAAAA

This album sees the band all morphing into one giant creature that screams horrendously for fourty three minutes. 10/10

F#A# ♾️

F#A# ♾️ is one of the most awe inspiring albums of all time. It’s as bleak as the album cover implies, but within its extended crescendos lies a subtle hope. The album’s vivid apocalyptic soundscape is used to explores themes of life under capitalism and how we can find hope when there is no hope left. The monologues heard throughout are some of the most memorable poems I’ve ever heard, and they add a context to the music that transforms in a truly unique way. Not only that, but the album shows a mastery of composing. While it technically only uses the chords F# and A#, it actually builds on those chords with various extensions. This leads to chords that flow into one another, creating an effect of subtle change that leads the album to feel truly limitless. Without a doubt, F#A# ♾️ is a record who’s power and emotional intensity is like nothing else.

0. Toilet Man Steals My Toilet

We are forced to listen as a man named Toilet Man slowly steals a toilet. He monologues to himself in the third person, saying “Toilet Man loves stealing toilets” and “Toilet Man can’t wait to take this toilet home and turn it into an ordinary chair”. The true sadness of this is that the record ends with Toilet Man dying after he accidentally flushes himself in the toilet. Truly heartbreaking.

[moorheadthanyoucanhandle]

GHOSTS AND DEMONS AND EVEN WILDER YET

Opening this weekend:

Ghostbusters: Frozen Empire--This fifth feature in the franchise begins with a nice macabre episode set in 1904, like something from a creepier version of Disney's Haunted Mansion. This is followed by an extended chase through the streets of Manhattan, as the current Ghostbusters pursue, in the "Ectomobile," an eel-like flying dragon spirit up from the sewers.

It's a reasonably diverting start, and the movie goes on to deploy, in addition to Paul Rudd and Carrie Coon and the kids from 2021's Ghostbusters: Afterlife, most of the available stars from the 1984 original. Dan Aykroyd, Ernie Hudson, Annie Potts, Williams Atherton and Bill Murray show up--no Sigourney Weaver or Rick Moranis, alas--and not just in cameos but with fairly substantive screen time. I was disappointed that the all-woman crew from the much-maligned and underrated 2016 version wasn't invited to this party, but apparently fans are still traumatized.

Anyway, the old vets here are good company--Murray with his peerless sardonoic line readings, Akyroyd with his gee-whiz delivery of expository gibberish. A couple of new adds, like Patton Oswalt as an authority on the occult and Kumail Nanjiani as a clod who sells Aykroyd the spherical ancient artifact that serves as the McGuffin, also get into the proper, uhm, spirit of things.

On the whole the movie, directed by Gil Kenan from a script by Kenan and Jason Reitman, is an enjoyable lavish no-brainer. The closest it gets to any emotional weight is an intriguing plot strand in which the teenage heroine (Mckenna Grace) bonds, seemingly romantically, with a teen ghost (Emily Alyn Lind) after she's forbidden to go 'busting until she turns 18; the actors manage a touching rapport even through the special effects prism.

But if Frozen Empire--which concerns a horned demon with freezing superpowers imprisoned inside the McGuffin--doesn't feel like a home run, it may be the result of too much wholesomeness. The teen romance and bickering family dynamic didn't quite feel like Ghostbusters to me, somehow. What made the '84 film seem new was its mix of extravagant, big-budget special effects spectacle with the snarky, irreverent slacker sketch-comedy of Murray and the other stars. Only when Frozen Empire taps into this sensibility does it truly thaw out.

The movie is dedicated to Ivan Reitman, director of the original, and this film, like several of the others, includes a nod to Cannibal Girls, Rietman's 1973 shocker starring the impossibly young and adorable Andrea Martin and Eugene Levy. I hope it makes fans seek out that amusing low-budget creepshow; there's a movie that doesn't suffer from too much wholesomeness.

Late Night With the Devil--Here's another wry paranormal chiller set in New York, although it was conceived by the Australian brothers Cameron Cairnes and Colin Cairnes and filmed in Melbourne. The premise is that we're watching the 1976 Halloween episode of a syndicated talk show, a perennial also-ran in the ratings to Johnny Carson. Desperate for a sweeps win, the recently widowed host (David Dastmalchian) stacks the guest list with a hokey stage psychic (Fayssal Bazzi), an Amazing Randi-type skeptic (Ian Bliss), and a psychiatrist (Laura Gordon) and her patient, an angelically smiling teenage girl (Ingrid Torelli). This girl was rescued from a cult and just might be possessed.

From the set to the music to the "More to Come" break cards, the Cairnes Brothers truly capture the look and feel of anything-goes '70s talk shows to a degree that will be nostalgic to those of us who remember them. The movie also evokes sources of the period from The Exorcist to Network (Michael Ironside provides stentorian narration in the manner of Network's Lee Richardson), and the soundtrack includes the likes of Flo & Eddie's "Keep It Warm."

The "found footage" conceit is quickly strained; the supposed "behind the scenes" sequences are pretty cinematic and helpfully narrative. But after a while you accept it, largely because the acting, especially the haunted yet game showmanship of the excellent Dastmalchian, keeps us involved.

It's a little scary, but mostly Late Night With the Devil is, like Network, a tongue-in-cheek satire of TV business culture, with ripe lines like "Ladies and gentlemen, a live television first, as we attempt to communicate with...the Devil. But not before a word from our sponsors." I also loved the implication that no amount of supernatural power could overtake Carson in the ratings in those days. Apparently even the Devil couldn't do that.

At Harkins Shea...

Remembering Gene Wilder--This documentary, directed by Ron Frank, does indeed fondly remember the late comedy great. Frank makes Wilder himself the narrator, using audiobook excerpts from his noirishly-titled 2005 memoir Kiss Me Like a Stranger.

Born Jerry Silberman in Milwaukee, he grew up trying to make his mother laugh, and later drew inspiration from the mental patients he worked with while serving in the U.S. Army. He wanted, he says, something a bit "wilder" for his stage name when he started acting in New York. Cast in Brecht's Mother Courage and her Children at the Martin Beck Theatre in the early '60s, he met leading lady Anne Bancroft's future husband Mel Brooks, who later cast him in The Producers.

From there, we get a chronicle of some of the highlights of Wilder's movie career--not all of them; Quackser Fortune Has a Cousin in the Bronx and Start the Revolution Without Me, for instance, are passed over. But there's terrific material on Bonnie and Clyde, The Producers, Willy Wonka, Young Frankenstein, his relationship with Richard Pryor, his scenes with the sheep in Woody Allen's Everything You Always Wanted to Know About Sex (he says that Allen told him that he wanted to do a version of Sister Carrie with a sheep instead of Jennifer Jones), and more. My own favorite of Wilder's characters, Jim aka The Waco Kid in Blazing Saddles, is very well represented here.

Talking heads include Brooks, Carol Kane, Mike Medavoy, Alan Alda, Ben Mankiewicz, Rain Pryor, Harry Connick, Jr., Eric McCormack, and Willy Wonka's Charlie Bucket himself, Peter Ostrum, as well as Wilder's widow Karen Wilder, all speaking with unmistakable love. They tell good stories, but the real joy is simply the big dose of Wilder's utterly sui generis blend of innocent sweetness and strangled volatility. If the clips in this movie don't make you smile, you may need to see a doctor.

[democracyunderground]

fine young cannibals - johnny come home (extended mix)

[markvdrheijden]

DJ-set Anne Clark – zondag 27 november, TivoliVredenburg

XTC - Dear God

MGMT - Little Dark Age

The Cure - Fascination Street (extended mix)

Tricky - Black Steel

1000 Ohm - A.G.N.E.S. (12'' Version)

Tricky - Black Steel

Ian Dury - What A Waste

Q Lazzarus - Goodbye Horses

The Human League - Things That Dreams Are Made Of

Was (Not Was) - Tell Me That I'm Dreaming [Souped-Up Version]

----- Anne Clark -----

Heaven 17 - [We Don't Need This] Fascist Groove Thang

Fischerspooner - Emerge (Radio Edit)

The Human League - Sound Of The Crowd

Department S - Is Vic There

DAF - Als wär's das letzte Mal

cumgirl8 - gothgirl1

Telex - Moskow Diskow

Floating Points - Birth4000

Marc Almond - Tears run rings

Fine Young Cannibals - Johnny Come Home

A Flock Of Seagulls - The More You Live, The More You Love

Visage - Fade To Grey

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Luister op Spotify

[chrancecriber]

Antenne Vorarlberg Chillout Lounge (August 21, 2023)

23:55 Christopher Von Deylen - Free 23:51 Mo' Horizons - Dance Naked Under Palmtrees 23:48 Blank & Jones Feat. Mick Roach - Magnolia 23:41 Edx - We Can't Give Up 23:38 Nto (Fr) Feat. Sofiane Pamart - Invisible (Piano Version) 23:35 R3hab X Lukas Graham - Most People 23:31 Blank & Jones - Flowing 23:29 Above & Beyond - Quieter Is Louder (Original Mix) 23:24 Tinlicker Feat. Nathan Nicholson - Always Will 23:20 Fine Young Cannibals - Johnny Come Home (Mousse T. Cocktail Mix) 23:15 Deep Dive Corp. Feat. Dennis Le Gree - Water 23:11 Nora En Pure - Tantrum 23:03 Audiofly Feat. Fiora - 6 Degrees 22:56 Atb - No Fate 22:49 True & Berger - Imprint Of Pleasure 22:45 Blank & Jones With Coralie Clement - Days Go By 22:42 Alok & Timmy Trumpet - Underwater Love (La Vision Remix) 22:39 Felix Jaehn Feat. Jasmine Thompson - Ain't Nobody 22:32 Mashk & Soul Button - Pensées 22:29 Majestic & Boney M. - Rasputin 22:22 Hraach - Delirio 22:18 Sofi Tukker & John Summit - Sun Came Up (Radio) 22:15 Hagen Feetly - Cry 22:10 Van Bellen - Morning Awakening 22:08 Christopher Von Deylen - Arco Iris 22:05 Lost Frequencies, Zonderling & Kelvin Jones - Love To Go 22:02 Robin Schulz Feat. Graham Candy - 4 Life (Original Mix) 21:56 Deep Dive Corp. & Setsuna - Transatlantic 21:53 Lost Frequencies & Elley Duhé - Back To You 21:46 Max Melvin - Earth Inside 21:44 Dj Antoine & Flip Capella Feat. Evelyn - Dark Love 21:39 Sean Hayman - See Of Love (Whisper Mix) 21:34 Klangperlenspiel - Million Words 21:31 Tomas Skyldeberg - Outside The Window 21:28 Norman Feller - Retrospective 21:25 Sanah - Invisible Dress (Maro Music X Skytech Remix) 21:22 Laniia - Fireflies 21:19 Michael Gray & Shelly Poole - Borderline (Lee Muddy Baker Acoustic Mix) 21:16 Italobrothers - Stay 21:13 Alle Farben & Flynn - I Need To Know 21:09 Alphawezen - 4043 21:06 Pretty Pink Feat. Mark V - Don't Dance 21:01 Joachim Pastor Feat. Nathan Nicholson - Saint Louis 20:58 Oovee Feat. Alesha Dixon - Higher Love 20:52 Good Guy Mikesh Feat. Filburt - Place Of Love (Mp Edit) 20:45 Max Melvin - Sometimes 20:42 L'imperatrice - Peur Des Filles (Montmartre Remix) 20:39 Junge, Junge Feat. Jamie Hartma - Wicked Hearts 20:35 Justin Robertson Presents Revtone - Love Movement 20:32 Mike Candys & Jack Holiday - Saltwater (Rework) 20:29 Jelly & Fish - Appreciation 20:24 Redondo, Bolier Feat. She Keeps Bees - Every Single Piece (Original Mix) 20:16 Garlington - Falling To Pieces (Extended Mix) 20:13 Portishead - Revenge Of The Number 20:04 Nor Elle - Silent Storm 20:00 Sofi Tukker X Mahmut Orhan - Forgive Me 19:57 Lucy Neville - Shameless 19:51 Amanaska - Tide 19:49 Srtw & Mave Feat. Sønlille - Last Train Home 19:44 Syntax Error - Träumen Im Gras (Syntax Experience Mix) 19:39 Claptone Feat. Dizzy - Queen Of Ice Queen Of Ice 19:37 Dize Feat. Aurii - Wenn Ich Nicht Mehr Weiss 19:33 Sting - Cool Breeze 19:27 Jens Buchert - Cocoon 19:23 Klangkarussel & Poppy Baskcomb - This Love 19:19 Air - You Make It Easy 19:16 Morgan Page Feat. Lissie - Firewalk 19:12 Dvine - Unknown Reality 19:08 Tontario - Late (Original Mix) 19:04 The Alan Parsons Project - Old And Wise 18:59 Above & Beyond Feat. Zoe Johnston - We're All We Need 18:54 Lux - Northern Lights 18:51 Filatov & Karas - Au Au 18:44 Nora En Pure - Come With Me 18:41 Avaion X Vize X Leony - Pieces 18:38 Tinlicker Feat. Nathan Nicholson - Be Here And Now 18:32 Max Denoise Feat Claire Willis - Bring To Me Life (Original Mix) 18:29 Kygo & Sasha Sloan - I'll Wait 18:23 Tebra - Istok 18:19 Schiller - Sommerregen 18:16 Rosa Linn - Snap 18:14 Le Shuuk Feat. Xilions - Goodbye 18:10 Nicos - Secret Love 18:07 Kygo With Avicii & Sandro Cavazza - Forever Yours (Tribute) 18:02 Atb & Anova - Route 66 17:56 Aisen - Another Day 17:53 Above & Beyond Feat. Zoe Johnston - Treasure 17:48 Lux - Golden 17:45 Sans Souci - Take My Breath Away (Original Mix) 17:41 Ac Venture - Rain In Spain (Roberto Sol Remix) 17:36 Beanfield - Planetary Deadlock 17:30 Lamb - Wonder 17:25 Lstn - Times Of Sorrow 17:23 Crying Robot, Abi F. Jones - Different Sides 17:19 Lstn, Arya Noble - Desert Walk 17:16 Sons Of Maria - Always 17:13 Portugal. The Man - Feel It Still (Ofenbach Remix) 17:05 Jan Blomqvist - Empty Floor 17:03 Luca Schreiner Feat. Johnny Chicago - Its All Gonna Be Good (Junge Junge Edit) 16:59 Sean Bay, Mehdi Mouelhi Feat. Arabella - Maktoub 16:52 Dale Anderson Feat. Anil Chawla - Pimento Grove 16:45 Cosmo Klein Feat. Ynot - When Doves Cry (Original Mix) 16:42 Robin Schulz & Felix Jaehn - One More Time 16:37 Schiller Feat. Jael - Tired (Live) 16:33 Guardner - All Right 16:24 Moby - Too Much Change 16:19 Schiller X Tricia Mcteague - Miracle 16:15 Aural Float - Be As You Are 16:12 Sneaker Pimps - 6 Underground 16:08 Ck West - Aldebaran 2021 16:03 Sine - Smooth Relaxation 16:01 Sons Of Maria - A Kiss Like This 15:58 Sum Wave - Backyard Stories 15:54 Martin Böttcher - Old-shatterhand-melodie (Orbient Mix) 15:50 Above & Beyond - The Inconsistency Principle 15:47 Felix Jaehn Feat. Lost Frequencies & Linying - Eagle Eyes 15:41 Colyn - Unstable Gravity Alert 15:38 Max Johann & Layrz - Tell It To My Heart 15:32 Alle Farben - Sonoro (2018 Rework) 15:29 Pascal Letoublon - Feelings Undercover 15:26 Together Alone - Ain't Nobody 15:22 Set Mo Feat. Deutsch Duke - White Dress (Radio Version) 15:20 Gil Glaze Feat. Dante Thomas - West La 15:16 Nora En Pure & Lika Morgan - In The Air Tonight (Sons Of Maria Remix) 15:13 Tim Plvnk - Just Tonight (Extended Mix) 15:09 Bolier & Leandro Da Silva - Floripa (Extended) 15:06 Mount & Emdey - Venus 14:59 Caf Bar Feat. Sara Allman - Gimme Shelter (Chilled Buddha Session) 14:55 Above & Beyond - Out Of Time (Original Mix) 14:52 Iberis Eguana - Sand Of Time 14:48 Gardenstate & Bien - The Best Part 14:42 Joachim Pastor & Signum - Something You Need (Extended Mix) 14:37 Channel 2 Feat. Tanya - Space Cowboy 14:32 Anrey - Lost Lands (Extended Mix) 14:28 Neptune & Moonnight - I Need A New Love (Original Mix) 14:24 Fritz Kalkbrenner - Void 14:22 Twisted Harmonies Feat. Mougleta - You & Me 14:17 Schiller - Der Goldene Engel 14:14 Starley - Lovers Strangers 14:11 Lizot - Daddy Cool 14:08 Glockenbach - Dirty Dancing 14:05 Lost Frequencies Feat. Sandro Cavazza - Beautiful Life 14:02 Felix Jaehn Feat. Zoe Wees - Do It Better 13:59 Alle Farben - Bad Ideas 13:57 Felix Jaehn, Cheat Codes Feat. Bow Anderson - I Just Wanna 13:50 Nora En Pure - Thermal (Extended Mix) 13:46 Kygo Feat. Maty Noyes - Stay 13:39 Timboletti - Dhunche 13:36 Raffa Fi - Ritmo 13:32 Kygo Feat. Sandro Cavazza - Happy Now 13:29 Armin Van Buuren & Avira - Illusion (Mixed) 13:24 Thomas Lemmer & Andreas Bach - Deep Ocean 13:21 Black Coffee & David Guetta Feat. Delila Montagu - Drive 13:18 Sono - Keep Control (Artbat Remix Edit) 13:14 Sum Wave - Malin's Song 13:09 Placebo - Running Up That Hill 13:05 Loud Luxury - Cold Feet 12:59 Cinemascope - The 7th Dream 12:57 Gibbs & Code X - Close To Your Heart 12:52 Schiller & Tricia Mcteague - Guardian Angel 12:49 Sam Feldt - Be My Lover 12:45 Nora En Pure - World Of Rules 12:42 Robin Schulz Feat. Alida - In Your Eyes 12:38 Motorcycle - As The Rush Comes 12:32 Tebra - Suton 12:28 Blank & Jones - Sunny (Summer Vibe Mix) 12:21 Richard Grey - Need Your Lovin (Murjd Remix) 12:16 Arden - Open 12:05 Cell - Above The Clouds (Live Version) 12:01 Beatkonexion - On Air 11:58 Audax Feat. Ron Caroll - Falling For You 11:53 Schiller & Giorgio Moroder - Lichtjahre 11:49 Avira & Kiko Franco Feat. Nathan Nicholson) - Ocean 11:45 Ambyion - Motion 11:39 Boris Pillmann - Mood Of Moonlight 11:35 Viva La Panda & Finding Molly - Bring It On (La La La) 11:32 Nora En Pure - Dry Sobbing 11:26 Max Melvin - Magnolia 11:22 Backstreet Boys - Chances (Instrumental) 11:19 Sans Souci - Nanda 11:15 Shaun Feat. Conor Maynard - Way Back Home 11:12 Armin Van Buuren Feat. Jake Reese - Need You Now 11:07 Rìfìs Du Sol - Next To Me 11:02 Maestro & Cabal - Rocklands Beach 10:59 Edx - Ecletric (Mixed) 10:55 Blank & Jones - Fallen 10:52 Wave Wave Feat. Lena Sue - Repeating 10:45 Firtz Kalkbrenner - Golden (Fideles Remix) 10:40 Under Pressure - Near The Ocean 10:37 Consoul Trainin Feat. Steven Aderinto & Duoviolins - Obsession 10:34 Sono - Trusting You 10:29 Owen Ear, Stereoteric - Screaming Heart (Original Mix) 10:26 Nora En Pure - Branches 10:23 Dj Antoine Feat. Chanin & Jona Xx - Dancing In Tulum 10:19 Croquet Club - Awake 10:16 Pulsedriver & Tiscore Feat. Anna Grey - We Are 10:12 Robin Schulz - Moonlit Sky (With The Void Pacific Choir) 10:08 Nightmares On Wax - Les Nuits 10:05 Hein Klein & Cheyenne - Every Breath You Take 10:00 Schiller - Der Tag...du Bist Erwacht (Mit Jette Von Roth) 09:57 Blank & Jones - Coastline 09:51 Mr.da-nos - San Francisco 2k20 09:47 Melounge - Too Much Sugar 09:39 Miyagi, Sascha Braemer, Dan Caster, Jan Blomqvist - Woodpeckers Love Affair 09:36 Bolier - Another Blue 09:33 Alan Walker Feat. Gavin James - Tired 09:30 Edx Feat. Jess Ball - Take Me Home 09:27 Kush Kush & Sickmellow Feat. Kazhi - Blacklight 09:19 David Broaders - Curracloe 09:13 Beyhude - Terso 09:10 Tiesto - Lay Low 09:05 Bissen & The Crossover - Quicksand (Chillout Mix) 09:02 Nora En Pure - Fibonacci 08:56 Axwell / Ingrosso - Something 08:53 Sunnery James & Ryan Marciano - Let It Lie 08:49 Tonenation - Hijo De La Luna 08:44 Ganga - The Wind 08:42 Blank & Jones Feat. Coralie Clément - Cest Mieux 08:37 Rìfìs Du Sol - Alive (Anyma Remix) 08:34 Major Lazer Feat. Dj Snake & Mø - Lean On 08:26 Julian Wassermann - People 08:23 Alan Walker Ahrix - End Of Time 08:20 Bebo Best & The Super Lounge Orchestr - Come As You Are 08:15 Ac Venture - Penang Waltz (Roberto Sol Remix) 08:13 Alok Feat. Alida - Love Again 08:08 Rue Du Soleil - Manush 08:04 Gestört Aber Geil & Anna Grey - Thank You 08:00 Los Alamos Country Club - Children (Ambient Remix) 07:58 Mike Candys, Sb Mont & Salvo - Turned To Dust 07:50 Armen Miran Feat. Jivan Gasp - Lost Memories 07:43 Marcel - Departure 07:38 Mike Candys & Jack Holiday - La Serenissima 07:35 Kungs Feat. Jhart - Dopamine 07:30 Mikael Delta - The Last Storm Of Words 07:27 Nora Van Elken - Okinawa 07:24 Klangperlenspiel & Puzzls - Kyoto (Wish You'd Move On) 07:19 Diamans - Perception 07:11 Monolink - Don't Hold Back 07:09 Zaz - Demain C'est Toi 07:01 Desert Dwellers - Union 06:52 Blond:ish Feat. Bahramji - Omnipresent 06:48 Zero 7 - In The Waiting Line 06:44 The Ocean Piano - Piano Mi Camino (Blue Wave Mix) 06:41 Trinix & Ian Urbina - Bad Things 06:35 Nora En Pure - Don't Look Back (Extended Mix) 06:32 Gamper & Dadoni - My Lovin' 06:28 Schiller - Summer In Berlin 06:26 Braaten - Enjoy The Silence 06:23 Shallour & Riah - Lie 06:18 Fous De La Mer - Luces 06:10 Cabeiri - Plants Telling 06:06 Moby - My Only Love 06:03 Fritz Kalkbrenner - Daylight Is Falling 05:58 Blank & Jones - Coming Home (Afterlife Remix) 05:54 Daniel Steidtmann - Pigeon Lake 05:51 Mark Ronson Feat. Miley Cyrus - Nothing Breaks Like A Heart 05:48 Kamrad - Feel Alive 05:44 Hallmann - Always Be 05:41 Mila - Herzlos 05:38 Nora En Pure - Stop Wasting Time 05:33 Lyke - Stay With Me 05:28 Tosca - Natural High 05:24 Sum Wave - Goodbye Earth 05:22 Minelli, Filatov & Karas Remi - Rampampam 05:14 Ost & Kjex - Queen Of Europe Feat. Anne Lise Frokedal (Solomun Remix) 05:07 John Kah - Carina (Enui Remix) 05:04 Edx - Neptune 05:01 Alle Farben - Berlin 04:53 Blank & Jones - California Sunset 04:48 The Alan Parsons Project - Lucifer 04:45 Nora Van Elken - Interstellar 04:41 Lost Frequencies & Mathieu Koss - Don't Leave Me 04:38 Kygo Feat. Ellie Goulding - First Time 04:33 Worakls - Caprice 04:30 Hugel - Can't Love Myself (Feat. Mishaal& Lpw) 04:25 Rodg - Life Is Life (Chill Mix) 04:22 Rita Ora - You Only Love Me 04:19 Above & Beyond Feat. Justine Suissa - Little Something 04:11 Menachem 26 - Hal (Anatolian Sessions Remix) 04:09 Melonia - Sweet Child O' Mine 04:06 Steve Forest, Te Pai - Never Gonna Give You Up 04:03 Ed Sheeran - Photograph (Felix Jaehn Remix) 03:59 Schiller & Peter Heppner - Leben... I Feel You 03:53 Rodg - Jacqueline (Chill Mix) 03:50 Shaun Frank & Takis Feat. Shells - Don't Say I Love You 03:47 The Alan Parsons Project - The Turn Of A Friendly Card 03:42 Blank & Jones - 10.000 Emerald Pools 03:39 Duboss - Losing My Religion 03:34 Faithless Feat. Nathan Ball & Caleb Femi - I Need Someone 03:28 Hotlane - On My Own 03:25 Daniel Portman - Sensual Desires 03:18 Röyksopp & Jamie Irrepressible - The Next Day (Mind Against Remix) 03:16 Dennis Lloyd - Nevermind 03:12 Sum Wave - Beach Memories 03:08 Robin Schulz - Above The Clouds 03:03 Velvet Lounge Project - Dimelo Tu (Mix And Magix Remix) 02:59 Undressd - Forever Young 02:55 Stone Van Brooken, Henri Pfr - Tarida (Original Mix) 02:51 Edx - Vommuli 02:44 Soul Button - Circadian Rhythm (Hraach Remix) 02:41 Sixth Finger - If I Can't Have You 02:38 Vize & Leony - Dolly Song (Devil's Cup) 02:36 Nora Van Elken - Honshu 02:32 Marvin Gaye - I Heard It Through The Grapevine 02:30 Trinix - Soweto 02:27 Thrdl!fe & Sleepwalkrs - Outta My Head 02:24 Xillions - Somebody Like Me 02:20 Kygo & Tina Turner - What's Love Got To Do With It 02:17 Blank & Jones Feat. Kyle Pearce - All Of Me 02:13 Tiesto - Everything (Acoustic Version) 02:09 Sound Nomaden - The Morning After 02:04 Bent - I Love My Man 01:58 Röyksopp Feat. Susanne Sundfør - If You Want Me 01:55 Yves V X Bashkar - Halfway (Feat. Twan Ray) 01:52 Adara, Egzod, Sinego - Free 01:47 Kidsø - Fir 01:44 Chicane - Capricorn (Back Pedal Brakes Remix) 01:40 Consoul Trainin - Take Me To Infinity 01:34 Edx - Conundrum 01:30 Lost Frequencies Feat. Love Harder - Beat Of My Heart 01:28 Trinix - Rodeo 01:24 Swedish House Mafia & The Weeknd - Moth To A Flame 01:21 Alex Zind Feat. Lisa Schwab - Cruel Summer 01:18 Sam Feldt - Post Malone (Feat. Rani) 01:15 Hypnosis - Pulstar 01:11 Rìfìs - Like An Animal 01:09 Mahalo - High Life 01:04 Cosmic Soul & Tom Novy - Like A Dream 01:01 Eelke Kleijn Feat. Ost - Lost Souls (Nora En Pure Remix) 00:57 Robin Schulz & David Guetta - On Repeat 00:54 Basixx - Stay In Your Sunlight 00:50 Lenny Ibizarre - Smooth Temptation 00:47 Loud Luxury And Frank Walker Feat. Stephen Puth - Like Gold 00:43 Passenger 10 - Voices In Her Head 00:38 Perfect Silence - Di (Original Mix) 00:36 Mellowdy - Rise Up 00:32 Jan Blomqvist & Bloom Twins - High On Beat (Sofi Tukker Remix) 00:28 The Weeknd Feat. Daft Punk - Starboy (Kygo Remix) 00:22 Goa Foundation - (I Just) Died In Your Arms Tonight 00:18 Schiller - Liebe 00:12 Anrey - The Forgotten (Extended Mix) 00:08 Pirra Feat. Lindstrøm & Prins Thomas Remix - Limousine Lies 00:06 Robert Manos - With No End 00:03 Nto (Fr) Feat. Sofiane Pamart - Invisible (Piano Version)

[shy-marker-pliers]

baseless mw2 headcanons bc i am a simple man with simple desires (large men capable of incredible violence)

soap is/was a leash kid. momma MacTavish has definitely had to make an announcement over the PA system at a store before bc lil man bolted at the first opportunity. he never grew out of it btw. he’s had his bitch strap yanked during many a mission (if you don’t know what a bitch strap is, it’s a handle on the back of a tactical vest, similar to the strap of a backpack)

the entire 141 has a deep fear of camel spiders /hj. camel spiders are a species of desert arachnid and they seek out shade during the daytime, so they’ve been known to “chase” people’s shadows. and also the fuckers are three inches long and can run up to 10mph over a short distance, so. there’s that. soap has booked it back to base screeching on more than one occasion because he happened to stumble across one.

ghost acts unbothered but bro is VIGILANT if he ever has to go outside in camel spider territory. eyes focused on the ground just waiting for one to show up. he can and will shoot if one happens to sneak up on him.

Gaz started a war crime counter. it’s taped to the fridge and has a tally of all the times the 141 has violated the geneva convention. they don’t take it seriously btw. someone punches price in the arm while he’s in the infirmary? that’s another war crime for the sheet. the geneva convention specifically states that you can’t harm a soldier who’s receiving medical attention

Soap is the biggest bastard when it comes to the WCC (war crimes counter) btw. whenever someone is in the infirmary he’s rushing in to slap them and yelling at Gaz to “add another one to the WCC!!”

this is based on a tiktok posted by Soap’s VA, but johnny has a tiny rubber duckie that he puts on a little shelf in the communal showers. he drew a little beard on it with sharpie and glued a pipecleaner to its head so they have matching mohawks. its name is Duck MacQuackish

price has a little niece who sends him drawings when he’s overseas (if the location isn’t classified ofc). she also sends him his favorite snacks from back home. if he’s in a good mood he MIGHT share with the rest of the 141

if ANY of the soldiers ever have to be in the same room with graves, somebody will find a way to play country girl (shake it for me) simply to make his day a little worse

Ghost and price severely judge vape and e-cig users. especially if they use the flavored ones. “if i’m gonna get lung cancer, it’ll be the old fashioned way.” soap and gaz have seriously considered taking up vaping just to annoy them

KÖNIG HAS A PET SNAKE NAMED KAISER RAHH!!! idk what kind but it’s Königs special little guy and he hires someone to take care of it whenever he’s deployed for an extended period of time

also König can and will go out of his way to feed/pet stray animals. including rats. yes he has had to get extra rabies shots no he will not stop.

price the type of guy to always have a screwdriver, several screws/nuts/bolts and an adjustable wrench on hand in case something ever needs fixin’. his cargo pants are his own personal bag of holding. he’s got trail mix in there somewhere too. the good kind with the m&ms

soap pickpockets the trail mix from price, eats all the m&ms and then puts it back

soap would sing call me maybe or california gurls if the 141 ever did karaoke. but like he makes his accent super thick on purpose for comedy. everyone hates it but him

[bestdadkars]

Wait so if you have requests open can I request a Dom Gyro x shy fem reader who hasn't even had their first kiss sense they aren't all that well liked, maybe Diego or johnny could be over protective brothers or whatever:P

school kicks my ass but i live long enough to type this out

gyro x johnny and diego's sibling

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with johnny

johnny is gonna have the least amount of reservations over the relationship, obviously due to him already knowing gyro pretty well

being a somewhat honorable man, gyro definitely came to johnny before he decided to seriously pursue your affections, kinda asking for his blessings to make sure he doesn’t get pummeled by tusk later on 

despite this he’s very well aware of how flirty and coy gyro is, so he’ll keep reminding you to not look at him through rose-colored glasses and whatnot

i imagine gyro to be the kind who likes to give gifts during a relationship, like jewelry if you wear it or taking you out to eat; johnny might become a little skeptical of it depending on the frequency the gifts come in. as much as he trusts gyro the pessimistic part of him is afraid of you possibly being manipulated or led on, and he’ll talk to you about it if its really on his mind

naturally being your older brother he’s a good mix of overprotective and teasing, and he’ll poke fun at you if you happen to come home trying to hide a hickey or bringing another present to your room

overall he’s happy to see you and gyro together; even johnny’s cynical self would be over the moon to see his two favorite people getting along so well

with diego

ooooooh boy both you have to be ready to fight tooth and nail for diego to even be 1% comfortable with you guys spending time together

between their very obvious and strong rivalry diego’s sense of pride also extends to his attitude towards you, so he’s gonna go on monologues on how you could find someone better, gryo’s [censored] and a [censored] and so much more

there’s two ways this could go: 1. if you’re a bit more on the emotional side, i recommend turning on the waterworks. diego’s an ass but if something is important enough that his younger sibling is crying about it, he’ll be more open and receptive to what you have to say

2. propose the relationship like a ted talk: a lot better than arguing over it, which would solidify his ‘this is never gonna happen’ stance, so it’ll work out in your favor to just voice your feelings in a solid way. diego won’t suddenly be helping to plan you and gyro’s wedding, but at the very least the first date will happen now

remind gyro to be on his very best behavior when diego is around, if he tries to extend your curfew at all, he’s just gonna get rocks shot at him 

it’ll take long enough but eventually he’ll get to the point where you and gyro staying out later won’t instantly send him into a rage or want to strangle your boyfriend any chance he’s exposed, but at the end of the day diego is just very protective and wants to see you happy :)

[variousqueerthings]

Daniel LaRusso: A Queer Feminine Fairytale Analysis Part Three of Three

(another massive, massive thank you to @mimsyaf​ )

part 1

part 2

8. Queerness and femininity and masculinity and the colour red and *record breaks*

If we spin the record aaalll the way back to this paragraph: “…looking at what it is girls and women in fairytales have/don’t have, what they want, and how they’re going to get it. It’s about power (lack of), sexuality (repressed, then liberated), and men.” Reading Daniel as a repressed, bisexual boy in a society that doesn’t accept his desires it’s interesting looking at how he moves through the world of the Miyagi-verse, at how threatened other men are by him, at how obsessed they are with him.

He’s out in the symbolic woods and these large boys and men see him and decide for whatever plot reasons to come for him. And they are large and violent and attractive and apart from Johnny again, they don’t have the nebulous excuse of fighting over a girl and even that excuse dies by around the midpoint when Johnny kisses Ali just to get a rise out of Daniel. He’s not trying to “win her back,” he’s not even really looking at her. He’s just trying to get a reaction. They don’t have any of the fighters in Rocky’s excuse either of Daniel being a macho opponent. 

You can read whatever subtext into TKK1 and TKK2 (which becomes especially tempting once CK confirmed that the guys he fought at seventeen have been thinking about him ever since – for thirty-five years), but TKK3 is where it’s really At in terms of obsession and lust and forbidden desires.

Silver is presented as both a handsome prince who saves Daniel and mentors him (where Miyagi is undoubtedly cast in a fatherhood role) and later on becomes twisted into a dark secret that Daniel has to keep, while he turns that thing that Daniel loves (karate, it’s… it’s karate… it’s also men, but it’s definitely karate, because karate makes him feel… things...) into an abusive, violent version of itself.

A wolf in sheep’s clothing.

But he’s also offering him something liberating. Whatever is going on in that nightclub scene is about something other than breaking Daniel down. Even the bloodied knuckles aren’t just about revenge. It’s about giving him something that he isn’t, in the end, willing to receive, at least not from Silver. In that roundabout, strange way of these feminine fairytales, it’s exploring hidden desires through the metaphor of karate.

Daniel wears red because it’s his colour. In the movies he wears red a lot. Often in scenes with violence in them (the beach/the hilltop in TKK1 and the date/the destruction of the dojo/the final fight in TKK2), but he also has a variety of shirts (and in TKK3 pants) that pop up all the way through the narrative. He wears a red jacket when he accepts Terry’s training, when he punches a guy in the face, and when he tries to get out of the training again (as badly as that goes).

Did anyone consciously think about red’s link to desire, obsession, and violence when they made these? Eh. But is it there symbolically? When he meets Johnny, when he fights Chozen, when he’s in emotionally fraught situations with Terry? Hell yeah.

Probably the most lust-and-violence infused red is that aforementioned punching-board-until-knuckles-bleed bit – not that I thought Terry was going to pull him in for a kiss, because I knew, logically, of course he wouldn’t right? There’s no way… is there? Or later on when Daniel punches that guy and ends up with blood all over his shirt and Terry once more grasps him, euphorically. Blood is violence. Blood is also desire. Red is Daniel’s colour, even though he doesn’t acknowledge it come Cobra Kai. (Maybe he just needs someone else - cough Johnny Lawrence cough - to inspire it in him again).

Daniel LaRusso’s narrative is exploring that most feminine of fairytale tropes: To want and be wanted by monsters and having to hide those desires.

“Maybe this time that strange churning in my stomach that feels like a mix of anticipation and fear will turn out good for me.” - Daniel’s mind.

At the end of the story, Daniel saves himself, with all of the strange mixed narratives around it, and the acknowledgement that the end of The Karate Kid Part Three isn’t satisfying and its aftermath will likely be delved into in the next season of Cobra Kai.

Nevertheless, he saves himself. Not from Silver or Kreese or Barnes, and not entirely, but he makes a decision not to give in to fear (and he continues to try and live by that decision, making it over and over again for the next thirty-five years, even when the return of Cobra Kai makes that difficult for him). 

He doesn’t do it by being the strongest in the land or even through a lucky shot (although that too). He does it by refusing to be like the male antagonists that surround him, by telling them they have no power over him. The narrative isn’t just his getting lost in the forest and all the monsters he finds there, it’s about how he redefines power for himself within that forest. 

He’s a man who isn’t violent, whose victories include helping out a girl whose ex-boyfriend just broke her radio, successfully doing the moves to a cultural dance he’s trying to learn, sitting with his father figure while he cries over the death of his own father, telling a girl that she’s just made her first friend, and breathing a sigh of relief that a tree that got broken has healed. 

Daniel LaRusso is a good boy is the point!

Karate is a metaphor. It can turn into many things: A series of lessons learned about how to be his own man and take care of his own house, a respect for the history of the father teaching him and sharing his home and story with him, fear, desire, masculinity (and the different forms that can take). 

When a tall, handsome stranger offers to teach him karate in the dark, without Daniel’s caretaker knowing how to help him, and twists that karate into something that hurts him - when he reclaims that, over and over, that means something too. 

This man is fine and definitely isn’t carrying the weight of buried karate-based queer trauma - could a traumatised man do this? *stares blankly at a former tormentor as blood runs down his forehead*

9. In Conclusion Daniel Has Kissed Dudes… Symbolically… But We Can HC Literally:

So there’s Daniel and his coded feminine fairytale narrative. It’s all a series of fun coincidences.

1. Ralph Macchio is just Like That

2. Red. All the red. 

3. large portion of his storyline is about lack of power. Yes, he regains that power by the end of the first and second movie through A Fight, but generally he is framed as powerless opposite these almost monstrously physically powerful boys/men. And in the third one it’s barely even about physical prowess (he’d still lose a real fight against Barnes or Silver) and more about regaining lost autonomy off the back of a manipulative, abusive relationship with an older guy.

4. The third movie in particular is narratively a mess, but if reimagined as a fairytale makes a lot of sense (because it’s secretly all about how karate is bisexuality and Daniel gets manipulated through that desire to be better at karate).

5. Queerness and femininity and themes about hidden desires that can only be approached sideways through couching those desires in symbolism: Handshake meme.

6. The fact that the more I think about it, the more feral I am for a Labyrinth AU.

7. To sum up over 5000 words of text: The inherent homoeroticism of wanting to be slammed against a locker by a bully, but extended over three movies and ever-more inventive ways of hurting pretty-boy-Daniel-LaRusso.

Johnny’s not going to be happy when he realises Daniel’s got other ex-rivals buried in his closet...

10. Some Other Stuff Aka The Laziest Referencing I’ll Ever Do

Further reading on trans Matrix

Further reading on masculinity and rape narrative in The Rape Of James Bond

Youtube Video from Pop Culture Detective (Sexual Assault Of Men Played For Laughs)

Some film/TV references in this: Dracula (Coppola), Princess Bride, Buffy The Vampire Slayer, Labyrinth, The Matrix, Rocky, Princess And The Frog, Cinderella, Enchanted, Shape Of Water, Swamp Thing, Phantom of the Opera 

Some fairytale references: Red Riding Hood, Cinderella, The Wolf And The Seven Little Kids, Alice in Wonderland, Wizard of Oz, Sleeping Beauty, Snow White, Beauty and the Beast, Company of Wolves (Angela Carter), Through the Looking Glass, Princess Bride

Also referenced is Alison Bechdel’s graphic novel and the subsequent musical Funhome. Further thoughts on this by @thehours2002​ and @jenpsaki​:

https://thehours2002.tumblr.com/post/650033577171533824/daniel-larusso-and-fun-home-click-to-enlarge

https://jenpsaki.tumblr.com/post/650530225997971456/cobra-kai-fun-home-inspired-by-goldstargirls

My list of Cobra Kai meta posts

I wanted to delve into fairytale movies more, but then I was like “fuck, I have actual work to do,” but I was interested in the ways male and female characters are written in these stories:

The Last Unicorn, The Never-Ending Story, The Dark Crystal, Legend, and Stardust.

The Last Unicorn is an interesting one because she’s not really human, until she is. It’s more like The Little Mermaid (the fairytale, not the Disney film) in tone, and of course there’s a pretty substantiated rumour that Andersen wrote that one as a metaphor for falling in love with another man (who eventually got married). 

Andersen in general is just fun to analyse as someone who popularized so many fairytales and exists as an ambiguously queer historical figure – might’ve been modern-day gay, bi, ace, but we’re just not sure. All your favourite fairytales can be read through the lens of queer loneliness and ostracization. Just like horror.

Anyway I didn’t go into the whole Little-Mermaid-Last-Unicorn transformation bit so much as the Monstrous-Desires bit, but I think there could be something to that too, with monsters representing otherhood and all. Stardust is a kinda-almost-this, except she sticks to her human form and all is okey-dokey by the end, she’s allowed to marry the handsome man and be a star.

The Never-Ending Story has Atreyu and Bastian and because of a lack of female characters, an interesting bond between the two of them, but mainly Atreyu is absolutely a go-gettem Hero Type and it’s just interesting to see how Bastian relates to him as both an audience insert, but also eventually as his own character in that world.

The Dark Crystal contains certain… androgynous elements of feminine and masculine coded characteristics in the main character because of how he’s not human, but also they do have a “female” version of his species that he needs to go save (and bring back to life) by the end, so in a way it’s both more and less heteronormative in its characters.

Legend sees another example of a monster (literally called Darkness and looking like a traditional devil) trying to seduce a princess through promises of power, and she “goes along with it” in order to trick him and succeeds in that trick, but is ultimately saved by the male lead. 

In conclusion: I don’t even have Shrek in this.

[astrognossienne]

tragic beauty: lupe vélez - an analysis

“I had to play with boys, girls found me too rough.” -  Lupe Vélez  

This is an analysis I’ve wanted to cover for a while for quite a few reasons. Primarily because, in a few ways, I see myself in her and, as such, feel the need to defend her and assert her true legacy: as a pioneer. Which brings me to the main reason I wanted to do this: to correct the scurrilous rumours about her premature death cooked up by a hating ass imbecilic Aquarius whose infamous book doesn’t deserve to be named. So if you want to hear the truth about this lady, read on.

Known as the “Mexican Spitfire”, Latin bombshell Lupe Vélez was (an to an extent, still is) a much-maligned and terribly misunderstood woman. A true Cancer, she was a force of nature and unconsciously antagonized others and made them uncomfortable because of her authenticity to herself and her emotional nature. Born during a storm, she had a naturally stormy personality. She could be hilarious and charismatic one moment, and depressive and vicious the next. Instead of anyone trying to understand her, they just stuck her with the “spicy fiery Latina” stereotype, not knowing or caring what was behind it. The harshness of her life before stardom may explain some of her fearsome, yet fun, personality; she grew up with violent trauma – watching her father kill and almost be killed during the Mexican Revolution. She also is believed to have had undiagnosed bipolar disorder, which would explain her extreme moodiness and outbursts.

One of the first Latina actresses to make an impact in Hollywood, she was subjected to the racist, sexist Hollywood tropes that forever typecasted her—she was called “senorita cyclone,” and the “hot tamale”. The Hollywood press willfully misunderstood Vélez’s sex positivity and consistently portrayed her as a woman who took great pleasure in her body, and indeed, the tempestuous Vélez had numerous affairs, including a particularly torrid one with a young Gary Cooper, and a tumultuous marriage to “Tarzan” star Johnny Weissmuller. But in 1944, at age 36, she found herself pregnant with the child of a little known-actor name Harald Ramond, who would not marry her and this reality made her come undone, and like my other baby Carole Landis, she succumbed to an drug overdose. Her promiscuity, right or wrong, became part of the way her stardom was packaged and promoted. Also, the press naturally compared her to (and pitted her against) Hollywood’s only other female Mexican star—the “high-class” and elegant Dolores Del Rio. The press couldn’t even find sympathy for her even in death and a false story was printed that she drowned in the toilet after vomiting up a spicy Mexican dinner. Her death is parodied and mocked to this day. Again, she’s a true Cancer in the sense that the same imperfections that everyone else has, she is seen as less than human for having them. I hope to help right that wrong by honoring Vélez for being the trailblazer that she is. At any rate, Vélez would seem to be a prototype for contemporary female stars, from Madonna to Rihanna, who have proclaimed their pleasure in their body and their sexual liberation — a pro-sex activist before her time, doomed to suffer the rejection of a more puritanical age.

Lupe Vélez, according to astrotheme, was a Cancer sun and Leo moon. She was born María Guadalupe Villalobos Vélez in San Luis Potosí, Mexico, to young upper-middle class parents. Her father, Jacobo Villalobos Reyes, was a colonel in the military, and her mother, Josefina Vélez, was an opera singer. They also had another son, John and daughter, Annette. The Villalobos family were considered prominent in San Luis Potosí and most of the male family members were college educated. The family was also financially comfortable and lived in a large home with servants. As a young girl Lupe showed an interest in performing, but her father was outraged at his daughter’s “low-class” dreams, and forbade his daughter from being in show business. All that changed during the war. Her family was in a state of upheaval—the Mexican Revolution was happening, her father had been presumed dead in the war and all their money was gone. While most of her family members were too proud to get jobs, a teenage Vélez did just that, supporting the family by working as a saleswoman in a department store. She then finagled an audition with a local theater. However, her father was indded alive and well and soon returned home from the war. Because at that time becoming an artist and coming from a well-to-do family was seen as embarrassing, her father refused to let her use his last name in theater, so she used her mother’s surname.

She proceeded to seek out venues where she could dance the then-popular “shimmy.” In 1925 she was cast in the big stage revues Mexican Rataplan and !No lo tapes! and became a big audience favourite. Her name got around to American stage star Richard Bennett (father of American film stars Constance and Joan Bennett), who was looking for a Mexican cantina singer for his new play. Lupe traveled to Hollywood but was rejected for the part for being too young. While in Hollywood, Lupe met film and stage comedienne Fanny Brice, who took a liking to Lupe because of her sparkling personality. She put in a good word for Lupe to impresario Florenz Ziegfeld (creator of the Ziegfeld’s Follies), who could use Lupe in one of his Broadway musicals. However, MGM producer Harry Rapf heard of Lupe as well, and offered her a screen test. When producer Hal Roach saw the test, he immediately signed her to a contract. Vélez soon made her major film debut in Douglas Fairbanks’ action-romance The Gaucho in 1927. The film was a huge hit and Vélez was an overnight sensation.

Along with her professional life gaining steam, so did her love life. Vélez sought out some of Hollywood’s hottest men, which wasn’t hard for a hot and sexy number like Lupe; men flocked to her like bees to honey. She was romantically linked with Gary Cooper, Charlie Chaplin, Clark Gable, cowboy Tom Mix, “Tarzan” actor Johnny Weissmuller, Errol Flynn, John Gilbert, Henry Wilcoxon, singer Russ Columbo, Randolph Scott, author Erich Maria Remarque (who wrote All Quiet On The Western Front and later married Paulette Goddard), Clayton “Lone Ranger” Moore, director Victor Fleming (director of Gone With The Wind), and boxers Jack Johnson and Jack Dempsey.

One of her first conquests was cowboy star Tom Mix. She also had an with newcomer Clark Gable, who cut off their romance because he was afraid Lupe would run all over town discussing their sexual secrets, which she did. Soon she had a torrid affair with comic genius Charlie Chaplin in 1928. Lupe revitalized Chaplin’s libido after he had gone through a torturous divorce from his wife. Whatever time she had for the many men in her life, that same appreciation didn’t extend to other women and she would frequently battle with the other females with whom she had to work with and would often threaten them; when she was starring in director D.W. Griffith’s Lady of the Pavements, she had to co-star with an actress named Jedda Goudall, whom she hated, and the two had a ferocious cat-fight on the set. When she made her final appearance on Broadway in the Cole Porter musical “You Never Know”, Vélez and fellow cast member Libby Holman feuded viciously. The feud came to a head during a performance where Vélez punched Holman in between curtain calls and gave her a black eye, which pretty much ended the run of the show. Vélez was territorial about the men in her life, she was vicious toward any woman who might be competition for her man or an acting role. She mocked Marlene Dietrich, Greta Garbo, Katharine Hepburn and Shirley Temple, and her arch nemesis Dolores Del Dio by doing imitations of them.

When she was cast in the film The Wolf Song in 1929, she met Gary Cooper and immediately started what would be her first widely publicized romance. Theirs was a one-sidedly volatile relationship; he would often appear in public with scratches and bruises. One time, she attacked him with a knife during a fight. He needed stitches. By the end of their time as a couple, Copper had lost 45 pounds and was physically exhausted.  He was ordered by the studio to take a vacation. As he boarded a train, Vélez shot at Cooper but missed. Lupe soon moved on to other men; she had a thing for fighters. In addition to having a brief fling with boxer Jack Dempsey, she conducted a flagrant, but secret, affair with the black boxer Jack Johnson. In those days, blacks and whites almost never conducted sexual affairs out in the open. She met Olympic swimming champion Johnny Weissmuller at the hotel where she was staying that was owned by film star Marion Davies. One problem: Weissmuller was already married. But no matter, he dumped his wife for Lupe and married her October 8, 1933 in Las Vegas. Theirs was not a happy, serene marriage, and they constantly battled, with Lupe filing for divorce several times in 1934 and changing her mind each time. Weissmuller’s patience was so strained he dumped a plate of salad on her head at Ciro’s nightclub. Finally, in 1938 she filed a petition that was finalized in 1939.

After having many hit pictures with MGM, they unceremoniously dropped her. The excuse was that the studios were no longer going to make Spanish versions of their films and there was no longer a need for Latin actresses. Vélez returned to Mexico in 1938 to star in her first Spanish-language film. Arriving in Mexico City, she was greeted by 10,000 fans. The film La Zandunga, was a critical and financial success and Vélez was slated to appear in four more Mexican films, but instead, she returned to Los Angeles. She soon went to RKO Studios and starred in the B-movie The Girl From Mexico. Despite its lowly status, the picture became a tremendous hit with audiences. RKO rushed her into another film, this time called Mexican Spitfire, playing an emotionally volatile singer named Carmelita. The 1940 film became another smash for Lupe. The Spitfire series of eight slapstick comedy films rejuvenated Lupe’s sagging career.  In late 1941, she had an affair with writer Erich Maria Remarque whose wife, actress Luise Rainer later wrote that Remarque told her “with the greatest of glee” that he found Vélez’s volatility hot.

At this same time Lupe took on another lover in the form of a French 27-year-old bit actor named Harald Ramond. He was a strong and controlling man who knew how to tame Lupe. After she discovered that she was three months pregnant, she announced her engagement to Ramond without his knowledge or consent. When he learned of her pregnancy, he refused to marry her. Deeply hurt and stunned, she felt backed into a corner; she knew her career would be ruined in Hollywood if word got out she was pregnant and unmarried. It just wasn’t done in those days. And despite her wildness, Lupe was a devout Catholic, so abortion was out of the question. She could see only one way out: suicide. On December 18, 1944, at the age of 36, Vélez swallowed 70 Seconal pills, she lay down on her pink satin pillow on her over-sized Hollywood bed and arranged herself like a movie star, with her hands folded across her chest and went into an eternal sleep. Dramatic to the end, Lupe went out of this world in glamorous style. She left a suicide note addressed to Harald, which read:

“To Harald, May God forgive you and forgive me too, but I prefer to take my life away and our baby’s before I bring him with shame or killing him. How could you, Harald, fake such a great love for me and our baby when all the time you didn’t want us?  I see no other way out for me so goodbye and good luck to you, Love Lupe.”

THAT is the truth. But the bottom line is: how she lived her life as well as the circumstances around her death are all irrelevant at the end of the day. What matters is the loss of a great multi-talented, pioneering Mexican star and a legacy unrealized and stunted by a world that wasn’t ready for her.

Next, I’ll talk about the most famous of her paramours, the yin to her yang, a perfect example of the special chemistry that Taureans and Cancers share, the strong, silent hero of the silver screen: Taurus Gary Cooper.

Stats

birthdate: July 18, 1908

major planets:

Sun: Cancer

Moon: Leo

Rising: Gemini

Mercury: Cancer

Venus: Leo

Mars: Pisces

Midheaven: Pisces

Jupiter: Virgo

Saturn: Aries

Uranus: Capricorn

Neptune: Cancer

Pluto: Gemini

Overall personality snapshot: She may have seemed at times to be a shy, vulnerable, romantic individual who only wanted to please, but underneath she had a voracious appetite for adoration and respect, and would not stop until she got it. Without a doubt, she had a very warm feeling for others, and domestic security with plenty of happy togetherness is high on her list of priorities. When it came to cooperation with others, however, she had her limits because she was profoundly individualistic and, albeit in a charming manner, she insisted on doing things her way. Ultimately the most important thing for her was believing in herself and being true to her standards and aspirations. Most of all, she needed to fulfill her creative potential, which was like an intimate companion with whom she shared her life. You nurture it, protect it, and then you show it off, and whatever walk of life you are in, you tend to be a fine performer.

This gave her a lot of self-respect and a touch of vanity as well, and her emotional sensitivity combined with her underlying imperiousness tended to impress others and made them take her seriously. She was a devoted member of her flock, and she zealously and jealously protected and promoted whomever she was devoted to. When it came to developing her own talents, however, she seemed to know that she had to pull away in order to grow into her greatest self. Others may have thought she was a bit of a show-off but that was not the case: she simply had a deep sense of the importance of her own creative talents, and she felt only half alive if she did not honour them. Although she was pretty sensitive to criticism or rebuffs, she was just as committed to honesty and personal integrity; and despite her vanity, she eventually learned to laugh at herself.

She had a very good memory and found it easy to learn subjects that interested her. She was very kind and thoughtful towards others. Her imagination was very keen, but if it got carried away, she may have experienced irrational fears. Even though she may have tried to maintain a scientific and objective outlook, her mind was actually dominated by her emotions. When it came to careers, she may have felt initially vague or confused about what she really wanted to do. She was eventually forced to give up her career of choice by events out of her control (as was evidenced by the tides turning from the “Mexican spitfire” female ideal due to the changing of the times). There was probably some element of self-sacrifice involved somewhere in her choice of career (the element of sacrifice being that she had to sacrifice her child, and ultimately her life, in relation to her reputation as an unwed mother as well as her unborn child’s reputation as an illegitimate child). She had good technical and scientific ability due to her, at times almost fanatical, attention to detail. She was also fastidious when it came to matters of health, diet and appearance. She was not afraid of work and was very resourceful and capable. She also worked well in a team. She became very annoyed if somebody else questioned the way that she operated. Her energy levels were somewhat inhibited, her self-confidence reduced, and her ambitions restricted through fear of failure. Times of strength and weakness alternated within her. Even though her decision-making ability could be ineffectual through over-caution, she often seemed to be placed in situations where a quick decision was needed. When she succeeded, it was mainly through her own efforts. She also showed a tendency towards wanting to start at the top, wanting to avoid the hard work that gets you there.

She belonged to a generation with a rational and logical attitude to life. There was a conflict between tradition and convention, and the experimental and unconventional. As an individual, she had to learn to strike a balance between the erratic and the conventional. As a member of this generation, she had the ability to come up with original ideas which could be of practical value. She was part of a very artistically talented and creative generation that wanted to escape from the demands of the world around them into a world of excitement and glamour. She was part of an emotionally sensitive generation that was extremely conscious of the domestic environment and the atmosphere surrounding her home place and home country. In fact, she could be quite nostalgic about her homeland, religion and traditions, often seeing them in a romantic light. She felt a degree of escapism from everyday reality, and was very sensitive to the moods of those around her. Bow embodied all of these Cancer Neptunian ideals. As a Gemini Plutonian, she was mentally restless and willing to examine and change old doctrines, ideas and ways of thinking. As a member of this generation, she showed an enormous amount of mental vitality, originality and perception. Traditional customs and taboos were examined and rejected for newer and more original ways of doing things. As opportunities with education expanded, she questioned more and learned more. As a member of this generation, having more than one occupation at a time would not have been unusual to her.

Love/sex life: It wasn’t easy to be passionate and emotionally explosive and also hold on to her dignity, but this was what she wanted to accomplish. She tried to conceal the pulsating softness of her sexual nature behind a façade of control and bluster. She thought that her display of strength and jolly self-confidence would hide her vulnerability and her susceptibility to virtually any sexual diversion. Of course, no one was really buying this cover up. They saw the luscious edges of her erotic hunger peeking through her disguise. That’s why they were all so anxious to be around her. The biggest problem in her sex life was how to deal with change. She loved it and she hated it. She loved following the lead of her feelings and surrendering herself to the moment. Too much consistency, even loving consistency, was apt to leave her bored and dissatisfied. But she also saw change as a threat to her sense of control and to the emotional security that she valued so highly. Because of this duality in her thinking, her reaction to changes in her sex life was abrupt, contradictory, and (horror of horrors) a little undignified.

minor asteroids and points:

North Node: Gemini

Lilith: Libra

Vertex: Scorpio

Fortune: Gemini

East Point: Gemini

Her North Node in Gemini dictated that she needed to prevent her idealism from influencing her thoughts to such a high degree. She needed to consciously develop a more clear-minded and analytical approach involving her thought processes. Her Lilith in Libra was definitely working overtime here. Relationships somehow caused her to err, and her partner choices caused much suffering.   She expressed herself through others. As a lover, she was aggressive, yet co-dependent. As a mistress, she was not above trying to cause a divorce, which she did with Johnny Weissmuller and she ultimately became fatally despondent when she found herself pregnant with a bit actor's baby. She used her good looks as a weapon to help her get ahead in the movie industry. Also, Lilith in Libra strangely enough, manifested itself as a sort of lighter female Capricorn archetype, and she pulled herself up by the bootstraps in a rather glamorous way, going to work after her father left the family unit. As such, she exhibited graceful gumption right until the very end. Her Vertex in Scorpio, 5th house dictated that she had a desire or continual need for feeling irresistible and irreplaceable on all levels of intimacy, whether spiritual, intellectual, emotional, or physical. From the fires of hell to the heights of heaven, the  further and deeper the range of interaction she could experience with another the more fulfilling. She had a childlike orientation, in all of its manifestations, toward relationships on an internal level. That implicit trust, or perhaps naivete, that was instilled in our  childhood persisted far into maturity. The concomitant explosions and  occasional tantrums when these constructs are violated also accompany  this position. She had a need for fun, creativity, and excitement in a  committed relationship, no matter how many years it has endured. She often had deep fears, typical of children, of abandonment, as well as a need for universal acceptance, no matter how she acted, which she needed her partner to respect and nurture, rather than rebuke, especially in adulthood. Her Part of Fortune in Gemini and Part of Spirit in Sagittarius dictated that her destiny lay in travel, education and communication. She was able to overcome enemies by her words and by her writing. Happiness and fulfillment came from being able to express herself fully. Her soul’s purpose lay in seeking truth, justice and fairness. She felt spiritual connections and saw the spark of the divine when she studied, broadened her mind through new philosophies, or looked for inspiration outside the home. East Point in Gemini dictated that she was often insatiably curious and loved to collect little bits of (what seemed to be useless) information and trivia. Her interests were quite varied, and she may have been somewhat scattered. Sometimes her curiosity could appear cold and callous as her level of objectivity was potentially high. There was usually an openness to learning in any situation.      

elemental dominance:

water

fire

She had high sensitivity and elevation through feelings. Her heart and  her emotions were her driving forces, and she couldn’t do anything on earth if she didn’t feel a strong effective charge. She  needed to love in order to understand, and to feel in order to take action, which caused a certain vulnerability which she should (and often did) fight against. She was dynamic and passionate, with strong leadership ability. She generated enormous warmth and vibrancy. She was exciting to be around, because she was genuinely enthusiastic and usually friendly. However, she could either be harnessed into helpful energy or flame up and cause destruction. Ultimately, she chose the latter. Confident and opinionated, she was fond of declarative statements such as “I will do  this” or “It’s this way.” When out of control—usually because she was  bored, or hadn’t been acknowledged—she was bossy, demanding, and even tyrannical. But at her best, her confidence and vision inspired others  to conquer new territory in the world, in society, and in themselves.    

modality dominance:

mutable

She wasn’t particularly interested in spearheading new ventures or dealing with the day-to-day challenges of organization and management. She excelled at performing tasks and producing outcomes. She was flexible and liked to finish things. Was also likely undependable, lacking in initiative, and disorganized. Had an itchy restlessness and an unwillingness to buckle down to the task at hand. Probably had a chronic inability to commit—to a job, a relationship, or even to a set of values.                    

house dominants:

2nd

3rd

1st

The material side of life  including money and finances, income and expenditure, and worldly goods was emphasized in her life. Also the areas of innate resources, such as her self-worth, feelings and emotions were paramount in her life. What she considered her personal security and what she desired was also paramount. Short journeys, traveling within her own country were themes  throughout her life; her immediate environment, and relationships with her siblings, neighbours and friends were of importance. The way her mental processes operated, as well as the manner and style in which she communicated was emphasized in her life. As such, much was revealed about her schooling and childhood and adolescence. Her personality, disposition and temperament is highlighted in her life. The manner in which she expressed herself and the way she approached other people is also highlighted. The way she approached new situations and circumstances contributed to show how she set about her life’s goals. The general state of her health is also shown, as well as her early childhood experiences defining the rest of her life.  

planet dominants:

Neptune

Mercury

Sun

She was of a contemplative nature, particularly receptive to ambiances, places, and people. She gladly cultivated the art of letting go, and allowed the natural unfolding of events to construct her world. She followed her inspirations, for better or for worse. She was intellectual, mentally quick, and had excellent verbal acuity. She dealt in terms of logic and reasoning. It was likely that she was left-brained. She was restless, craved movement, newness, and the bright hope of undiscovered terrains. She had vitality and creativity, as well as a strong ego and was authoritarian and powerful. She likely had strong leadership qualities, she definitely knew who she was, and she had tremendous will. She met challenges and believed in expanding her life.

sign dominants:

Cancer

Gemini

Leo

At first meeting, she seemed enigmatic, elusive. She needed roots, a place or even a state of mind that she could call  her own. She needed a safe harbor, a refuge in which to retreat for solitude. She was generally gentle and kind, unless she was hurt. Then she could become vindictive and sharp-spoken. She was affectionate, passionate, and even possessive at times. She was intuitive and was  perhaps even psychic. Experience flowed through her emotionally. She was often moody and always changeable; her interests and social circles shifted constantly. She was emotion distilled into its purest form. She ventured out to see what else was there and seized upon new ideas that expanded her community. Her innate curiosity kept her on the move. She used her rational, intellectual mind to explore and understand her personal world. She needed to answer the single burning question in her mind: why? This applied to most facets of her life, from the personal to the impersonal. This need to know sent her off to foreign countries, where her need to explore other cultures and traditions ranked high. She was changeable and often moody. This meant that she was often at odds with herself—the mind demanding one thing, the heart demanding the opposite. To someone else, this internal conflict often manifested as two very different people. She loved being the center of attention and often surrounded herself with admirers. She had an innate dramatic sense, and life was definitely her stage. Her flamboyance and personal magnetism extended to every facet of her life. She wanted to succeed and make an impact in every situation. She was, at her best, optimistic, honorable, loyal, and ambitious.      

Read more about her under the cut.

Lupe Velez was born on July 18, 1908, in San Luis Potosi, Mexico, as Maria Guadalupe Villalobos Velez. She was sent to Texas at the age of 13 to live in a convent. She later admitted that she wasn't much of a student because she was so rambunctious. She had planned to become a champion roller skater, but that would change. Life was hard for her family, and Lupe returned to Mexico to help them out financially. She worked as a salesgirl for a department store for the princely sum of $4 a week. Every week she would turn most of her salary over to her mother, but she kept a little for herself so she could take dancing lessons. With her mature shape and grand personality, she thought she could make a try at show business, which she figured was a lot more glamorous than dancing or working as a salesclerk. In 1924 Lupe started her show business career on the Mexican stage and wowed audiences with her natural beauty and talent. By 1927 she had emigrated to Hollywood, where she was discovered by Hal Roach, who cast her in a comedy with Stan Laurel and Oliver Hardy. Douglas Fairbanks then cast her in his feature film The Gaucho (1927) with himself and wife Mary Pickford. Lupe played dramatic roles for five years before she switched to comedy. In 1933 she played the lead role of Pepper in Hot Pepper (1933). This film showcased her comedic talents and helped her to show the world her vital personality. She was delightful. In 1934 Lupe appeared in three fine comedies: Strictly Dynamite (1934), Palooka (1934) and Laughing Boy (1934). By now her popularity was such that a series of "Mexican Spitfire" films were written around her. She portrayed Carmelita Lindsay in Mexican Spitfire (1940), Mexican Spitfire Out West (1940), The Mexican Spitfire's Baby (1941) and Mexican Spitfire's Blessed Event (1943), among others. Audiences loved her in these madcap adventures, but it seemed at times that she was better known for her stormy love affairs. She married one of her lovers, Johnny Weissmuller, but the marriage only lasted five years and was filled with battles. Lupe certainly did live up to her nickname. She had a failed romance with Gary Cooper, who never wanted to wed her. By 1943 her career was waning. She went to Mexico in the hopes of jump-starting her career. She gained her best reviews yet in the Mexican version of Naná (1944). Bolstered by the success of that movie, Lupe returned to the US, where she starred in her final film as Pepita Zorita, Ladies' Day (1943). There were to be no others. On December 13, 1944, tired of yet another failed romance, with a part-time actor named Harald Maresch, and pregnant with his child, Lupe committed suicide with an overdose of Seconal. She was only 36 years old. (x)