#Jensen's fully committed lol

[reallyunluckyrunaway]

It finally happened!

[newmovieeveryweek]

week fifty-two (29/12/22)

New Year’s Eve

6/10

i’ve never seen new york in such actual detail. he only has 25 grand of student loan debt? every time i go to type something the scene changes and i forget what i was gonna say. jensen is so ugly and the disney knees 💀 girl eating chocolate = unhappy girl. it’s been a full year since they’ve seen each other and he’s saying that he’s fully committing to her? for sure. i hate when people sing slightly off time. ew those fishnets. found out from the credits that i just called bon jovi ugly lol. 

[justjensenanddean]

Jensen Ackles | Orlando Convention 2022 (June 26, 2022)

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Jensen keeps getting asked about what superpower he would want for The Boys press. Everything comes with something bad (like seeing the future). “Flying. It’s pure, just let me soar like a bird.” #spnorl  (x)

Jensen: Phil directed Solid Gold. Is Robert Mitchum (sp?) out yet? No? Hold onto your shorts! There’s a whole other one coming down the pipe. I’ll leave it at that. #spnorl (x)

Fan: I found out I was pregnant during a commercial break. I didn’t get pregnant during a commercial break Jensen: how do you know you didn’t do that too lol #spnorl  (x)

Jensen imitates needing to stop the show and run and find a pregnancy test lol #spnorl  (x)

Fan: do you ever get taken out of context and not like it Jensen: yeah that happens quite a bit (x)  Jensen: we get asked questions about ourselves and work more than most. Our answers have evolved and we have grown. Given what we know now and have matured and acquired knowledge over the past two decades, I would give different answers than I would then. (x)  Jensen: it’s the idea that I wouldn’t change the past because it got me to be here today. I wouldn’t be where I am today and it’s looking pretty good for me. (Grateful to be here now) (x)  Jensen: I know I didn’t answer all those questions right. #spnorl (x)

While filming, Kim Manners set up an extra shot (make up redo and everything) to prank J&J. They climbed down a wall and got doused in 15 gallons of water. (x)  They chased him around and he wasn’t a big guy. Jensen: we basically picked him up and put him into the water (x)  They committed so hard to it they actually had an appointment for Jared to get his cast replaced the next day. They planned him a late call and everything and Jared didn’t know why. (x)  A line producer casually asked about Jensen’s new iPhone as a ploy to get it out of his pocket. An AD immediately swooped in and got him on set in such a way he couldn’t immediately get it back. “They worked it concert.” (x)

Jensen would like Tom Hardy to play him in a British Supernatural adaptation (x)

Jensen says representation with the character of Carlos was important from the start and he’s impressed with the actor. #spnorl  (x)  Jensen: (for the show) I’m most excited to see what you guys think of the twists (x)  Jensen: we are not throwing away 15 years of established canon. #spnorl #thewinchesters (x)  Jensen: (someone mentioned) that John didn’t know about hunting until after Mary died. My answer was “oh I am fully aware” #spnorl (x)

.@JensenAckles : I'm well aware John didn't know about hunting. We're not throwing away 15 years of canon.  (x)

Fan: what do you love most about your kids Jensen: unprovoked I love yous… arrow cupped my face and said ‘I love you’ and immediately wanted to be put down. She wanted nothing but to purely tell me she loved me. Zeppelin & JJ do it too. #spnorl  (x)

Jensen only has one pet: “A 16 year old part blind mostly deaf 20 pound mitt. Watching him now is equally sad and entertaining. He runs into walls. Not full force just a thunk. What do you do? He’s just running around running into shit. I’m like ‘aw your dogs broken’” #spnorl  (x)  Jensen: he will stare at his bowls and walk away and I’m like, idk if he knew what he was doing just now. Like he’s full blown dementia. It’s sad but as soon as I pick him up he’s right into my neck. He knows it’s his dad. #spnorl (x)

Jensen says that Anthony Starr told him he was prepared not to like him but in the end Anthony said he really fucking likes him  #SPNORL #Spnorlando  (x)

Jensen tried hard not to drop the ball and especially not to do anything that can be misconstrued as ego or drama to The Boys. #spnorl (x)  Anthony said he was prepared not to like Jensen (a year after the fact). Jensen asked how he did. It made him happy when Anthony said “I really fucking like you man”. #spnorl (x) Jensen loved the set and crew. They’re good people and Kripke laid the groundwork to help them know not to worry. (x)

Jensen: The Boys is Kripke Unleashed. We always knew his mind was like that and now you do too lol #spnorl  (x)

Jensen finished shooting a new Batman voicing two weeks ago #spnorl (x)

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[hologramcowboy]

I know Jensen is your guy, but in SPN, Jared pulled off way hotter sex scenes. Dean may have gotten more action in the show, but Gen is the true winner of it all.

Both are incredibly sexy but I'm not even going to argue with you because Jared's scenes are way more passionate than Jensen's who rarely fully commits to that type of scene. (Yes, I know, I'm going to get people complaining like 3 year olds in my inbox, people who have zero acting knowledge lol) But as a Jensen girl, I also have to say I adore his scenes, because there's always this note of innocence and dedicated love that shines through and that to me is wildly sexy and his back is like a fairy-tale.

They each have a different approach to this type of scene, in Jensen's case it's very clear he feels massive discomfort when acting in that type of context so I get his need to dial everything down. One is more fiery and the other conveys layers of emotion that tend towards the pure, both are very beautiful. ❤️❤️❤️

EDIT: Love your Gen line because it's so true. That woman is blessed.

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

👑 CROWN - what does your oc want to be remembered as? why?

For Jensen! I need to find more to ask lol

ah ty! (im me so this is going to be way longer and more analytical than it needs to)

genuinely jensen just wants to be remembered for doing something bigger than himself. for a very long time, especially growing up, he instilled this kind of mindset that he was never going to do anything more with himself. he was content to be nothing for a long time until he realized he could be something. he was never passionate about school or sports or even a hobby, just numbly going through the motions and waiting for something to happen

after he went to his foster home and got into therapy, they worked on finding something for him to do that wasn't causing problems. he tried sports, and stuck with it for a year or two, but he didn't Like it. everything felt like an obligation until he started hanging out with his soon-to-be bandmates. it was around that same time that he took a psychology class and got really interested in that, too. he finally enjoyed something he was doing, and was motivated to do better than average. he had always been capable, but there was never a reason for him to do a good job. he pretty much threw himself into writing/playing music and fixing his grades

after that, once he got into college, he was committed to making some sort of impact. a lot of the songs he worked on with the rest of his band were about bigger issues and he finally felt like he was doing something important. once he wasn't able to do that anymore (explained here), he knew he still needed to do something that mattered. so, fully committing to becoming a doctor was his obvious next choice

(honestly there was a good chance he wouldn't have become a doctor. he could've picked just about anything else and would've done just as well)

[americachavez]

Kiran I want to know what you think is going to happen at the end of the show

Like are they committed to unrequited gay tragedy? Do you think there’s a chance they’re gonna reverse course and go full on w it?

I can’t stop thinking about this lol

kaya I genuinely had to set my phone down and walk away for a good 2 hours because I do not know how to answer this in a way that does not make me look entirely insane BUT if you are all forcing me to be sincere about the CW’s supernatural (2005-2020) then I will say. up until thursday I was convinced cas was gonna die and it would remain subtext forever but after experiencing some kind of psychic transcendence over the last 4 days actually I think they’ll bring back cas in the last ep AND YES I think they’ll make it fully canon because

1. this is actually only the third to last episode which everyone seems to have forgotten

2. misha collins did a panel this weekend where he said the word “homosexual” like a baby boomer and the universe owes me some kind of compensation for experiencing that??????

3. it would be the funniest possible way to end 2020

4. they literally have nothing to lose at this point why the fuck not

could jensen ackles have been replaced with a cardboard cutout in that scene and it would have had the exact same level of emoting? yes. do I think it will actually be WATCHABLE? no. will it be the most excruciating 40 minutes of television I’ve experienced in my life? yes. am I going to be completely unhinged about this for the end of time? unclear

[dimples-of-discontent]

My Cockles Crack Masterpost:

Hello, yes, did any of you need a little pick-me-up? I know I do. So I’ve collected for you all most of the Cockles crack that I’ve written. I left off collaborative pieces of crack and ones attached to long gifsets. But all the text posts (especially “Jensen vs. Jensen’s brain”) are all there. I’ll drop a cut somewhere since this baby is long but I hope you all enjoy. 

LONG LIVE TEAM DUMPSTER MANSION!!! 

Dabb: So, let’s have AU Cas.

SPN writers: Cool. Why don’t we ask Misha to do one of his accents?

Jensen: *flings door open* *pants* AM I TOO LATE?! DID I MISS IT?!

BONUS alternative by @postmodernmulticoloredcloak​:

Dabb: So, let’s have AU Cas.

Everyone: …

Jensen: *starts vibrating at a very high frequency*

Misha: …okay I’ll do an accent

Isn’t it so weird that none of Jensen’s kids look like Misha?

Jensen is CONSTANTLY hosting his own episodes of Queer Eye and every one is about Misha.

[Below the cut]

Jensen: *looks up suddenly and stares into the middle distance* *vibrates at a high frequency*

Danneel: What is it, babe?

Jensen: Somewhere…Misha is doing an accent. Badly. He’s doing it badly, but he’s still doing it.

Danneel: You’ve gotta go!

Jensen: You’re right, I’ve gotta go!

Somewhere in Austin a high-pitched whistle blows.

Jensen, holding his ears and running into the kitchen: Alright, alright! What?!

Danneel, points wordlessly at laptop screen where this is displayed.

Jensen: Oh no.

Danneel, accusatory: I thought you HID those!

Jensen: I did! *pause* Why would he look in my dirty laundry anyway?

*Danneel stares*

Jensen: Oh right. I guess he needed something to wear.

Danneel: Pretty dumb, babe.

Jensen: Hmmm…yeah. *pause, then, hopeful* I guess we couldn’t fly to Hawaii to get them, right? *pause* No, no of course not. *mumbles* Damn shorts.

Text convo, probably:

Jensen: mish miss you. send me a pic.

Misha: *photo of something random like an interesting leaf*

Jensen: no, i mean like i MISS you miss you. send a pic of you.

Misha: *photo of his foot*

Jensen: oh for fuck’s sake! *posts flex meme and tags misha in it*

Jensen: there now it’s public you have to do it. and you can fuck off.

Misha: *sends dick pic*

Me: god Misha has the perfect jawline. Not that it matters.

Lizard brain: lick it

Me: yes, yes if I actually had a real relationship with him that would be well and good but…

Lizard brain: LICKIT

Me: yes, yes I heard you but what’s crucial is that Misha is one of the very best humans out there not that he has the stubbled and chiseled jawline of a Greek god so I really think we should focus on…

Jensen (in the distance): oh my God! it doesn’t have to be a choice, dummy!! L I CK IT!!

Jensen’s brain: It’s Misha’s birthday. We love Misha. Say it.

Jensen: No. We are in public. I am just going to call him “the man” and post a cute pic of us in matching outfits.

Jensen’s brain: NOOOOOO…SAYITSAYITSAYITWELOVEHIMSAYIT

Jensen: God fine ok…but I’m using an emoji not words.

Jensen’s brain: Acceptable.

Jensen: And also I’m going to add “bro”.

Jensen’s brain: …. 😒

Jensen: So now no one will ever know.

Jensen’s brain: 🙄

(About this mess right here)

Jensen’s brain: hold his hand

Jensen: NO it will look gay!

Jensen’s brain: but…you are gay for each other? so who cares?

Jensen: Yes, but we can’t LOOK gay ok? So just shake hands.

Jensen’s brain: fine 🙄

**Jensen does whatever this subby, hand-groping bullshit is**

Jensen’s brain: is that…. is that how humans shake hands? in a non-gay way?

Jensen: Shut up.

Jensen’s brain: i’m just trying to understand

Jensen: Shut up, asshole

Jensen’s brain: 😏

Look, I know it’s not going to happen, but all I want in life is for Jensen to respond to Misha’s shirtless video by saying “Hey Mish, if you need a shirt I have a few old ones for you.”

New theory: Jensen gives Misha so many shirts because otherwise his natural inclination is to run around bare-chested and Jensen’s poor, queer heart cannot handle it. (Photo version.)

Cockles trash cat meme origin

So you know how you sometimes go out with you friends and one of them gets way too drunk and ends up getting confessional with someone they don’t know that well? And you kind of want to stop them but, y’know, it’s their life and their choices so you have nothing to do but sit back and watch and be equal parts mildly horrified that they are spilling secrets to a relative stranger and incredibly amused at how they will feel about it later?

THAT is how I feel watching Misha tell the same story, over and over, about wearing Jensen’s hand-me-down shirts.

Misha, you’re currently my intensely emotional drunk friend and you need to stop before you reach the point of crying in the club. Neither of us can handle that. Thanks in advance.

Misha on social media: hahaha…Jensen is my cabin boy…that means he’s a sub who likes BDSM…hahaha…gonna make a comment about a giant space tongue rimming Jensen b/c why not lolz…gonna post a pic of myself covered in white goo and imply that it’s come from the conclusion of a threesome with Jensen and Jared…haha I’m such a scamp…I’m just incorrigible…teehee…

Misha when a fan mentions clothing: WHAT’S A JENSEN??? I’ve never heard of one and even if I had I definitely wouldn’t have had any non-heterosexual thoughts or feelings about him…and we’re absolutely not so close that we share in casual intimacy without a second thought…what could possibly make you think that?? I DON’T EVEN LIKE JENSEN OK!!!

Stages of Cockles in Gifs.

I feel like Jensen is one con away from straight-up answering an only tangentially-related question with, “…and that’s why I love Misha. You do know I love Misha, right? Like, love love him, like the way we love our wives. I feel like you guys get it so let’s just move on. Next question!”

At the next con, Jensen and Misha will be projecting the words “JUST SO YOU KNOW, I LOVE THIS MAN” on the side of the building across from the hotel in case you somehow miss that message in their panels.

At the next con, Jensen and Misha will be screening a 12-minute video that is just them giggling while one of them films the other; there will be no lines and nothing else will happen. Fandom will deem it a masterpiece.

At the next con, instead of his usual classic rock covers, Jensen will be performing a spoken word piece about how great Misha is, accompanied by Jared on bongos and Richard Speight on the kazoo.

In the final episode we are brought to the realization that the show DOES exist in our universe and on our timeline and that this entire time J2M have ACTUALLY BEEN TFW and kept this cover story about being actors on a TV show to keep us from knowing what they are really up to. Most of the show is just footage of their lives, though some of the things on the show were just absurd and to keep us off track.

Misha Collins is an actual angel. Jensen Ackles is a grumpy-faced softie with the biggest nerd streak. Jared Padalecki is a fiercely loyal and intelligent guy who has fought off more than his share of darkness. Gen and Danneel are actually supernatural creatures though neither will fully commit to being an angel or demon. Vicki is too powerful to be captured on film. And of course Jensen and Misha have been husbands for years. It was hard to hide that one on the show.

Jensen: *does interview quote game on his own* Great! Now, I’m gonna go get Misha. He’s gonna be so terrible at this game lol…He has the worst memory and never watches the show…hahaha isn’t that so cute?

Interviewer: oh actually we weren’t quite done interviewing you…

Jensen: yeah but Mish is gonna be so bad at this and I can’t afford to miss that! Imma go find him right now!

Interviewer: you really don’t have to…we’re actually talking to you all individually.

Jensen: ….

Interviewer: y’know, so we can cut the clips together?

Jensen: ….

Interviewer: And because you probably have a lot of other interviews at this huge press event for your 300th episode?

Jensen: ….. Yeah, no, I’m getting him right now. Hey, Mish! Get in here!

Filming with JenMish (aka “why’s Dean wearing a seatbelt?”)

**Jensen makes a dirty joke and Misha cracks up** **Misha and Jensen playfully push each other around the front seat of the car** **Misha says one thing that is mildly amusing and Jensen falls over laughing**

Sanchez, conferring with Bob Singer: What do you do to stop this?

Singer: strap one of them down

Sanchez: You mean, like, tell them to get it together or else?

Singer: No, no. I mean LITERALLY strap one of them down.

Sanchez: ….

Singer: Why do you think they get tied to so many chairs? **sighs** These two have cost us so much in duct tape.

photographer: alright, everyone, fight each other for pie! jensen: mish, you should pull my hair. misha: why? it’s not like that would stop you moving your arm. jensen: …. jensen: misha. you. should. PULL. MY. HAIR. misha: ooohhhhhh! jared: I don’t want to be here for this.

Cockles is the gay booze cruise of ships.

a text exchange that probably happened: jensen: I can’t believe ur still going running on vacation jensen: nerd misha: hello to you too. … misha: awww, babe, you must really miss me! that comment is so sappy! jensen: shut up misha: you “dig” the “WHOLE THING” huh? jensen: fuck off misha: don’t I know it!! jensen: fuck OFF misha: now I have to go like it. … misha: ok done. you huge softie. jensen: not always misha: oh really? misha: how about now? jensen: not now jensen: call me misha; as you wish…

Jensen’s brain (Jensain): holy shit!! look at our hot husband!! mmm…we like the grey and the sweat and the beard and, hey, did we give him that shirt? Jensen: yep. Jensen’s brain: and he sounds all smart and sincere, which turns us on….WOW we’ve been apart for too long! Jensen: tell me about it. Jensen’s brain: Say something about how good he looks. Jensen: I can’t. It’s public. Jensen’s brain: You gotta. Jensen: I. CAN’T. Jensen’s brain: But how these bitches gonna know he’s yours!? Do you know how many people are looking at this video RIGHT NOW?! Jensen: OMG Jensen’s brain: OMG Jensen: they gotta know… Jensen’s brain: YESSSSS!! DO IT!! Tell everyone the sexy, scruffy, deep-voiced, poetry-reciting motherfucker standing in the sunlight belongs to you! Jensen: I can’t say that. I’m just..gonna…tease him? about something? Jensen’s brain: u serious? 😒 Jensen: Well…no… Jensen’s brain: tell him you like the whole package! Jensen: I cannot use the word “package” about Misha in public. Jensen’s brain: 😏 Jensen’s brain: Fine! Can you at least mention how strong he is? Jensen: … I guess that’s less…gay… Jensen’s brain: uh-huh, sure. way less gay. 🙄 Jensen: ok, I did it. now leave me alone. I have to post a picture of my family so that no one suspects I only logged in because I have alerts set for Misha. Jensen’s brain: … Jensen’s brain: hey, you know who looks sexy in flannel PJs?? Jensen: ALRIGHT THAT’S IT

me: *wakes up in a cold sweat and sits upright in bed*

But how much of the mockumentary did Jensen shoot??!?

Misha is busting out of his shirt and jacket in those EW pics again, which makes me think something like this exchange must have taken place:

EW stylists: So, what size is Misha? SPN costumers: Eh, he’s the small one. EW stylists: But…he doesn’t…look small? SPN costumers: Nah, trust us, he’s the small one. EW stylists: Uh, looks more like he’s a 6’ wall of muscle but ok Misha: What’s a clothes? I will wear it. *Jensen sobbing in the background*

”I’m Full Frontal in Here Dude: Guest Starring Misha Collins” title of Jensen’s sex tape.

Jensen’s brain: you should give Misha that valentine.

Jensen: Yeah, good. It will work for the video. Like, as a joke.

Jensen’s brain: no. not joke. he’s your valentine.

Jensen: No he’s…

Jensen’s brain: you can’t lie to me. I’m you.

Jensen: shit. that’s true.

…

Jensen’s brain: Sooooo…valentine?

Jensen: Fine, but I’m gonna call him “buddy” when I give it to him.

Jensen’s brain: 😐

Jensen: People can’t KNOW!!

Jensen’s brain: You literally just called him your valentine on camera on a livestream but OK WHATEVER make sure you say “buddy.”

Jensen: I did WHAT??!

Jensen’s brain: Why do I bother? 🙄

Destiel AU where Cas is a poet who writes secret poems for Dean and posts them anonymously to an Instagram account that he gets Dean to follow and Dean falls in love with the mystery man he feels is speaking to him…and then realizes it was the guy he already crushed on from afar.

aka AU where Destiel is Cockles (with some tiny changes)

[dotthings]

Well this wasn’t nearly as finely emotionally wrought as 14.18 but still there’s a lot to talk about for 14.19, including Team Free Will grieving, Jack as a Godstiel parallel, Cas’s big love for both Dean and Jack, Dean and Cas doing being done with each other wrong, and the box continues to be a really bad plan.

So some AU hunters survived, and Team Free Will, with Dean as the voice, serve as leaders for Mary’s wake. Dean’s speech about Mary as the whole person, her strengths and flaws, as more than their mom, was a good note to follow up last week’s on. And Cas’s face is so so sad. He’s lost someone who was a friend and he doesn’t have many friends. With last week’s ep I talked about how important it was to show Cas grieving, he was present at the funeral pyre, he’s present at the wake. 

Dean and Cas drama doesn’t seem to be the end of Dean and Cas. Wot??? I am shocked! Oh wait no I’m not. They aren’t in a wonderful place right now but they aren’t done with each other. There’s quite a lot of Sam, Dean, and Cas in this ep.

“You need anything?” Cas asks, and Dean says, not angry, almost kind of wryly, he could use a drink. Boys, you’re doing breaking up wrong.

This scene where Bobby talks about why Jack has to be put down and Cas’s reaction is a full flip on the scene where Jack tells Cas Dean might have to be taken out to stop Michael. In that scene and here, Cas reacts with horror at the idea, and rejects it. Bobby keeps pressing the point, as Jack pressed his, about the cost. Cas continues to be horrified and against the idea. So, y’know, anybody who thought Dean doesn’t care about Cas and only cares about Jack, and his silence at the end of the Cas and Jack scene earlier this season meant he totally agreed with Jack about Dean, I’ve been saying this all season, but no. Cas isn’t agreeing with Bobby here either. And if all Cas cares about Jack, allegedly, according to some parties, and is against killing Jack, and he reacts the same way in a similar scene about Dean, let’s add 1+1 and get 2 and I have been saying all long, Cas wasn’t okay with the idea of Dean of expendable, with the suggestion of killing Dean to stop Michael, and he’s not okay with this option for Jack either. Cas’s silence at the end of both these scenes doesn’t mean tacit agreement. I wish people would let Cas be Cas instead of deciding he doesn’t care because of the way he doesn’t express as openly as Sam and Dean. The silence is just silence, because the other person’s vehemence isn’t something he knows how to argue with. Not because he agrees.

Jack’s subconscious manifestation (or is it? It is Lucifer? I don’t know what’s happening) continues to be an asshole, playing on his attachment for Team Free Will and fears that they’re done with him which right now, aren’t that unfounded, sort of. Not completely. But, the asshole subconscious isn’t exactly wrong either is it. Jack has gone too far over the edge, crossed a line he can’t cross back from.

Dean crying alone in the rain the woods. :(((((((((((((((((((( Well, Dean’s putting up walls with everyone, not just Cas, but with Sam, with anyone who wants to talk about Mary, and not even in a brittle angry way, he really doesn’t want to have to dwell on it because it hurts. But he’ll go the woods alone to cry. 

At least he’s letting himself grieve fully. We don’t see him hitting the alcohol hard to numb the pain, although yes he is doing some drinking, he’s not lashing out, after that breakdown in 14.18. He’s quietly hurting and he needs to be alone to cry it out. He also does grieve with others--he does the speech for the wake, he takes in the AU hunter’s affection for Mary, mourns with them although he’s not close to them. He hides from Sam and from Cas and he cries alone in the woods. It’s not necessarily bad to do some grieving alone. Sometimes people need to do that. I’m actually taking this as a healthy sign. Heartwrenching, but processing his grief in a more functional way than we’ve seen on this show.

“So he lost his capacity for goodness through an act of goodness.” Thanks, Dumah, for stating the extremely obvious irony here in such an obvious way. I totally would have missed that otherwise! LOL. 

Sam and Dean seem to be going for some kind of acceptance in this scene. They know Heaven is real and that Mary’s soul is at peace, and that some people never get to know that for sure. But they do, because their lives are so extremely weird, they know Heaven and angels are real, they know exactly where their mom’s soul is. And, Dean adds “there wasn’t even enough left of her to bring her back.”

So Dean letting himself all out cry, even if alone, not raging, not desperate, just giving himself the time to do that, and Sam and Dean finding some semblance of acceptance with Mary’s death. Whereas TFW had a hard time accepting Jack’s death earlier this season, and Sam initiated the idea of finding a loophole to bring him back. I don’t think it’s that they love some more than others, some of this is circumstantial, whether the situation seems like there’s any way to fix it or not. They don’t have her real body. There’s nothing they could do. And back to S13, Dean’s utter, abject despair at Cas’s death, and even then Dean still tried. He prayed to God to bring Cas back. It didn’t work. While Dean knelt by Cas’s side all night he probably ran through some options of what to try and maybe dismissed them because it seemed like it wouldn’t work. That grief wasn’t acceptance, it was despair.

This doesn’t seem despairing. They are, however, still hurting and Dean especially is angry at Jack.

“You have a glorious destiny” is so similar to what Kelly told Cas about Jack. Which worried me then, because great destinies isn’t really where it’s at on this show. You roll up your sleeves and do the job, you try to do the right thing, and you do the best you can. Chosen Ones and Righteous Men...that can be an interesting story but it isn’t where these characters live. Jack and a glorious destiny is a really bad combination. Oh look, he turned someone into salt and attack someone else with worms. Yeah this glorious destiny is going so well so far!

I was glad Cas briefed Sam and Dean right away on what was going on with Heaven. (Cas isn’t the one who’s going to be cutting part of his family out of the loop in this ep...although he still hasn’t told anyone about his deal. Tick. Tick. Tick). Huh, Dean and Cas are standing unnecessarily close together for a moment there, that’s a big room. Okay. You guys really suck at actually being done with each other.

Human souls can be turned into angels? Is this another piece of new mythology ala Bucklemming? Okay fine *waves hand*

Jack positioned to take over as the new leader of Heaven and being a God substitute is shades of Godstiel. Jack, who has been the Team Free Will mirror all season, is going through some late S6/early S7 Cas echoes here.

Sam and Dean deciding between the two of them what they’re going to do about Jack without looping in Cas. Well, well, who’s going off with their plans not communicating and keeping someone out of the loop now. Is it worse if Cas does it or worse when Sam and Dean does it? It’s bad when any of them do it. I think I’ll pass it off as Bucklemmingitis that neither of them even said “we should talk to Cas” and the other one saying “no he’ll never agree” -- I think that’s why they don’t go to Cas with it. They know how attached Cas is to Jack and we just had an ep that was heavily about how much Cas believed in Jack and they all believed in Jack. So I get why. But I’m not for them not looping Cas in. Oh and Dean wants to trick Jack. This plan of Sam and Dean’s is pretty cold but honestly, I don’t know what else they could do at this point. Jack is dangerous. Even if it’s not him being himself, and I think Sam and Dean know that, but they want to contain him before things get worse. They have no plan to save him and they’re going to just shut him in the box. Which, actually, Sam would have agreed to do with Dean if Michael was on the loose and possessing Dean again. Sam was the one who initiated finding a way to bring Jack back when he died earlier in the season. Here I think they have both kind of run out of hope on what to do about Jack. They don’t know how to fix this (not yet). And Jack is incredibly dangerous.

Sam using the “we’re family” line on Jack to trick him into the box hurts. It’s because they take that seriously, and Sam felt it would work on Jack, and them using this now to trick someone who they once considered family--he wields that line because he knows how powerful it is. It’s also paralleling Sam reaching out to Cas in 7.01, with some differences. Sam’s goal wasn’t to trick and trap Cas, he wanted to get through to the Cas he believed was still in there. But here I think Sam feels, as Dean does, that the Jack they know is fully gone, at least for the moment. It’s also true that with Godstiel, Cas was still himself buried in there somewhere, amongst all the monster souls. Cas wasn’t gone, he was possessed by a million monster souls, and therefore, more reachable. A lot of Jack’s soul is burned away (presumably). Jack really just isn’t Jack, Jack’s not in there, buried and confused. He’s just...not himself any longer. Remember how hard and cold Dean went about Godstiel? He thought his friend was completely gone, just as Dean thinks Jack can’t be saved now. Although I’m noticing Sam and Dean don’t really plot too hard about how to kill Jack. Maybe they think they can’t kill him, but they focus on containment not killing and that’s interesting.

Dumah threatening “Ma and Pa Winchester” that is it for Cas he has had it and that’s the end of Dumah and her manipulations. Cas really has committed to the entire Winchester family and by now feels very protective of Mary.

Dean is so angry at Jack. Oh my heart. It’s the kind of anger that’s just so very extra done because it hurts. Jensen played that beautifully. No matter who killed Mary, Dean would be angry, but that it was someone he cared about adds layers and layers. He even says to Sam, after what Jack did to Mary, Dean would lose it. None of this is about how little Dean cares for Jack. It’s very much about Dean’s heart being ripped out by someone he cares for harming someone he cares for and we have been there before, only this is so much worse. 

This box is such a bad idea. I thought it was a bad idea for Dean and wouldn’t be able to contain Michael if he got loose anyway, and I think it’s a bad idea for Jack and it’s not going to work.

Dean and Cas are still not acting particularly done with each other although they’re arguing because Sam and Dean stuck Jack in the box and Cas is not happy but at least they’re talking and arguing not stomping off done with each other forever. Is anyone surprised Cas isn’t okay with this plan? And does anyone really think Jack is all Cas cares about? Cas reacted even more badly to the concept of Dean going into the box. It just won’t do. For any of them. Sam and Mary are really important to Cas too, but Cas is closest to Dean, and Cas also strongly takes being Jack’s father seriously and it’s so incredibly interesting that this ep is mirroring Dean and Jack for Cas. Kill Dean to stop Michael, Cas resists. Kill Jack to stop Jack, Cas resists. Put Dean in the the box oh hell no. Put Jack in the box oh hell no. It’s not the canon saying the relationships are identical, that isn’t how paralleling works. It is underlining how important these two relationships both are to Cas. 

“We knew from the beginning it was a long shot with him.” “Long shots are kind of my thing.”

That sound was the sound of my heart cracking for Sam.

Oh look I was right. Such surprise lol nope that box isn’t going to hold Jack.

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Whiskey, Sweetheart: Part 5

Pairing: Norman Reedus x OFC, Past JDM x OFC Warnings: RPF, Smut, Language, Breif Violence, Jealousy, Angst, Older man/Younger Woman.

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Summary: After Jeffrey’s neglect pushed her away and into the arms of his best friend, Norman and Ky have to figure out if their new relationship can withstand not only the aftermath of the unspeakable crime they commited to keep her safe, but the backlash that comes from being co-workers with a very betrayed Jeffrey Dean Morgan.

A/n: This is the Sequel to Anytime, Sweetheart and The Conquests of Norman Reedus. You’ll probably be a bit confused if you haven’t read Conquests yet, though, or at least the Finale, but you could probably figure it out on your own if you don’t want to. But I don’t see why you wouldn’t want to, lol.

This chapter was like pulling teeth, and took almost a month to write. Hopefully from here on out it’s smooth sailing.

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The Christmas celebration at Norman’s house was sweet, low key, and simple. It was just me and Mingus visiting him so in true Norman style, we did nothing except lay around in our pajamas all day and eat pizza. 

“I got you something,” Norman rasped while chewing on a slice of cheesy heaven before taking a sip of his wine to wash it down, “S’nothing amazing or anything, but...”

He stood up from his place on the couch and dug around the tree that had been erected until he found what he was looking for. He pulled out a small wrapped box and tossed it at me unceremoniously before returning to the sofa.

“You really shouldn’t have...” I stuttered as I fingered the pretty bow attached to the wrapping paper. 

His smile widened and I could see his ears getting red from where they poked out his shaggy hair, “Just open it.” 

I tore the paper loose to reveal a pretty, dark wooded box with what appeared to be Celtic carvings on the side. I glanced up at Norman and he tipped his nose in encouragement before I lifted the lid, earning him a gasp from me when I saw what was inside. On the velvet ring holder was a heavy silver ring in the shape of a skull, the black stones in the eyes twinkling up at me as I gaped. With shaky fingers I extracted the ring from it’s container, taking in Celtic knot work welded into the side of the band. 

“This is so bad ass, babe, thank you!” I squealed as I slipped it on my middle finger, holding my hand out to admire it more. 

“That’s bad ass.” Mingus repeated as he came back into the living room, sitting on the floor across from his dad, fully loaded bong (his birthday present from his father, of course) in hand. 

“I’m glad you like it, a friend of mine makes them.” He replied, throwing an arm around me and reeling me into his side. “I seen it and instantly thought of you.” 

“You’re amazing, hun.” I beamed happily, leaning into him while still extending my hand out, heart-eyes still peering at the thing adoringly. Norman chuckled and bent in to kiss my cheek with a loud smack before flopping us back onto the couch. Mingus placed the bong on the coffee table after taking a deep toke from it and motioned for me to take it, earning him another squeal for me as I sat up out of Norman’s arms to take my hit. 

The thick cloud of smoke bellowed out of my chest as Norman hit the play button on the Playstation, starting Nightmare Before Christmas as Mingus had insisted. I past it to Norman and sunk back into my cozy spot, enjoying the feeling of being content. 

Norman tugged the blanket from behind the couch, covering us as Mingus laid back on the giant pillows in front of the coffee table. I squeezed my self against his side, nuzzling my nose into his collar as he snaked his hands and arms through my thighs that spiraled around them. He nudged his nose into my hair and breathed deeply, his exhaling breath raising goosebumps across my neck and arms. 

He chuckled at the reaction, his hands squeezing my thigh playfully as the rough pad of his thumb rubbed my skin back and forth. I side-eyed him suspiciously, and he simply smirked at me in reply and moved his fingers to the edge of the shorts I was wearing. He was about to push his fingertips past the seam when I smacked my hand down on top of his under the blanket, successfully startling him into a yelp and ceasing his ministrations. 

“Dad, stop being gross,” Mingus chastised without turning around, but we could definitely hear the roll of his eyes as the back of his head shook in our direction. 

“Meany.” Norman mumbled, puckering out his bottom lip in a pout, earning him a snort from me.

“Perv,” I grinned back, snuggling in closer to finish the rest of the movie.

The rest of the week ended quickly, and I was whisked away to meet the boys in Seattle for the New Years Supernatural Convention before I knew it. I’d be returning to New York to meet Norman for his birthday, but being apart from him still made my chest ache longingly. To add to that, Jeffrey was appearing all weekend and had a panel with Jensen, which was sure to go over fabulous. I’d just hunkered down in the greenroom with my laptop, working on more stuff for the winner’s trip for Gishwhes when the door burst open with the arrival of my three best friends.

“Biiiiiitch let’s go! Up! up! Nowwwww.” Gen urged, rushing ovre to me and grabbing my hand. I barely had time to push the laptop away from me before she was pulling me up to my feet.

“What are you-”

“We gotta get ready for karaoke!!” Danni bubbled, hoping from one foot to another giddily. I rolled my eyes at her as I wrapped her in my arms, her squeezing me as tight as she could.

“You’d think she’d never been to a convention or something,” Vicky replied from behind her as she adjusted her glasses on her nose, “Been squawking like a damn goose since we boarded the plane.”

“Fuck you, Vee, we haven’t seen everyone in forever, and it’s New Years Weekend!” Danni quirked back, annoyance in her tone as she and Genevieve dragged me out of the green room, Vicky following close behind.

We had rounded the first corner of the hallway towards the costume rooms when we smacked face first into someone with a very hard chest. An ‘oompf’ was heard as the breath escaped their lungs and I immediately cringed at the sound of their laugh.

“Woah, there, baby girl, where’s the fire?” Jeffrey grinned, pretty teeth sparkling down at me.

“Errr, sorry, Jeff, we were headed to get ready for tonight.” Danneel apologized, her own face contorting in embarrassment as she jerked me to the side behind her, out of Jeff’s way.

“Well ya’ll have fun now, girls.” Jeffrey chuckled, smile shining as his eyes never left my face, I looked away from him to turn to Gen as she laced her fingers through mine before Danneel apologized again and began to lead us again. I felt Jeffrey’s eyes still on the back of me until we rounded another corner. 

“Perfect timing for us to arrive, it appears,” Vicky hummed as we crowded into the elevator, and I rolled my eyes at her.

“This is gonna be a long weekend.”

"Stop making your fuckin’ eye twitch, bitch, I’m getting this shit all over you!” I griped, wiping Vicki’s eye off for the hundreth time. All I was trying to do was put Eyeliner on the poor woman. 

“Stop poking me!” could be heard from Kim Rhodes somewhere behind us as she was zipped into her costume. We were all stuffed into one hotel room trying to get ready. My jester outfit was laid out beside Ruth on the bed, where she was braiding Gen’s hair as Dani helped Kim. It was literally a disaster with all of us together.

“Ky! I think your phone is ringing.” Brianna shouted from her place in the bathroom, walking out with my bag that was chirping loudly in her hand. I pulled the squawking device out to see Norman's picture flashing across the screen, and of course everyone had to “awhhhh” behind me for good measure. 

“I hate ya’ll,” I blushed, rolling my eyes before bring the phone to my ear and greeted Norman.

“You havin’ a slumber party over there or sometrhing?” He rasped with a chuckle through the line, deepening my blush as I swatted Vicki who was licking between the two fingers she was holding up in my direction,

“You’d fuckin’ think so,” I replied back with a snort, flipping Vicki off as she took over the rest of her makeup. 

“Miss you,” He said lowly, as if he were trying to keep someone from hearing him. Probably Andy.

“Miss you too,” I answered back, earning us another set of goo-goo noises from the room full of girls.

“You guys getting ready for Karaoke?” 

“Trying to, it’s almost impossible with these bozos.” I replied back, dodging the hair brush thrown by Kim in the process. 

“You haven’t ran into Jeff, have you?”

“Ha! Funny you say that,”

“What?” 

“I literally ran into him. I rounded a corner in the hotel and boom! There he was.”

“What’d he say?”

“Nothing, really.”

“Let me know if he tries to start any shit, alright?”

“You’ll be the first to know, babe.” I promised, smiling at his defensive tone and protectiveness.

“I wish I could spend this weekend with you. I’m gonna be bored as shit ‘till I see you again.” He complained, whiny tone to his voice that made me smile.

“You’re gonna get sick of me soon, don’t worry.” I giggled.

“Pffft. Yeah, right.”

There was a knock at the door followed by the sound of Rich’s voice echoing down the hall, him and Rob there to escort us down tot he event. I got off the phone with Norman, promising him not to get too wasted and to call him before I went to bed. 

The actual event went fairly smooth, as it was easy for me to just not pay any attention to Jeffrey since he made it a point to stand on the complete opposite of the stage. The girls and I all stayed near each other, singing at the top of our lungs to a Journey song Jensen had picked for Danneel. The fans were super cool, and it was actually really fun, but I still had the gut feeling some crazy shit was going to go down. 

“Helloooooo there,” Norman sang, obviously drunk, as he answered the phone.

I scoffed at him sarcastically, feigning annoyance, “And you told me not to get wasted.”

“You did though, didn’ you?” He chuckled back.

“Of course I did.” I laughed, drunk giggles taking over as I sprawled across the sheets of the hotel bed. 

“So we’re even. What’re you doing?”

“Laying in bed.”

“Alone?”

“Yes.”

“Mmmm, oh yeah?” He rasped, dropping his voice an octave to the gritty rasp I loved. 

“Mhmm,” I hummed, my eyes closing as I dipped under the covers, “What are you doing?”

“Thinking about you,” 

“What about me?” I asked, my breath hitching as my thighs clenched together at the gritty tone.

“Everything, I miss everything about you.”

“You’re sweet.” I smiled, sighing gently at the feeling of missing him too. 

“You taste sweet, Whiskey,” He graveled out, a soft but unmistakable moan sneaking through his end of the line, bringing a smirk to my face and more wetness between my legs. 

“What’re you doing?” I repeated coyly, already knowing the answer.

“Like I said, thinking about you,” He replied, letting another soft noise escape him as he stroked himself. 

My hand drifted between my legs, my fingertips circling in the fluids above my hood and my own sound of pleasure made it’s way to his ear. 

“Hmmm, you thinking of me, baby?” He inquired, his breathing labored.

“Yeah,” I whimpered, pushing my fingers against my swelling clit harder and tightening the circles. 

“God damn, I miss you. Miss the feeling of you around me.” He panted, and I could hear the rustling of sheets and clothing from around him as he got more .

“Yeah, baby.” I breathed back as I slipped a finger into me. 

“You miss my dick?” He asked, another noise leaving him as his continued his ministrations.

“Mhm, I want you inside me.” 

“Fuck, you’re so tight baby. You got your fingers in you?”

“Yeah, but I wish it was you.” I whined, pumping harder.

“I wish it was me too, sweetheart. Fuck, I wanna taste you.”

A purely wanton groan left my mouth as I envisioned the feeling of his tongue dancing over my flesh, the sight of my hands gripping his thick hair as he dived into me already making the muscles of my walls clench against my finger.

“God damn, Ky, shit,” He grunted, his own fantasies taking over his ability to speak as he worked himself over, “Wanna nut all over those pretty tits, girl.”

“Fuck yeah,” I keened, the drawl in his voice sending me over quickly as my body tensed as pleasure flooded through me. I saw white flashes behind my eyelids and could faintly hear the continued sounds flooding through the phone line over my own panting as my shaking subsided. Norman let out a long groan of satisfaction as he found his own completion, my name leaving his lips as he came. 

We both took a second to regain cognizant thoughts from our respective orgasms, a sigh and a hum coming from Norman as he adjusted himself in his bed and slurred lazily, “I’m gonna fuck the shit outta you when you get home.” 

“I hope so,” I giggled in response, a sharp exhale escaping me as I settled in to my pillows as well. 

“You’re so amazing,” he cooed drunkenly, his adorable smile flashing before my eyes and bringing a grin of my own to my face.

“You’re amazing, Normie,” 

“Mmmm, not as amazing as you,” He mumbled, sleep obviously taking over him in his drunken sated state. 

“Let’s sleep, babe. Call me in the morning?” 

“Mmmmhmmm. Hey, Ky?”

“Yes, babe?”

“You know I love you, right?”

“You’re drunk, Norm.”

“No, ugh,” He grunted, clearing his throat a little, “That’s not how I meant it. I love you, Ky, I’m so happy to have you. Even if we weren’t this. I love you.”

I smiled cheesily, a blush creeping over my entire body as I responded, “I love you too, Normie.” 

“Night, Sweetheart, 

“Night, babe.”

I was woken up the next morning by a loud, authoritative knocking on my hotel room door. I crawled out of bed groggily, rubbing my eyes as I drug myself and the comforter to the door. I peeped out the hole to see two men in suits waiting outside, looking just as stern as their knock had been. My brow furrowed as I unlocked the dead bolt and cracked the door. 

“Miss Ackles?” The man on the left asked.

“Yeah,” I mumbled, my voice still raspy from singing and sleep and the hangover that was brewing, “Can I help you?”

“This is Detective Barker, and I’m Detective Stuart, we’re from the Federal Beauro of Investigation.” The man on the left replied, his hand moving inside his grey suit jacket to pull out and flash his badge, “Do you have a moment?”

“Uh, sure...” I answered, stepping out of the way as I opened the door more to let the two men into the room. The entered swiftly and I gestured for the couch against the wall, where they sat themselves down as I perched on the edge of the bed. 

“So, what’s this about?” I asked, nerves flooding me as I was already pretty sure I knew what it was about.

“You were previously engaged to Anthony Marcelli, correct, Miss Ackles?” Det. Stuart asked, his hands clasping in front of him as he rested his forearms on his thighs. His counterpart opened a notebook and scribbled something down before reverting his eyes to me. 

“Uh, yeah, we broke up a year and a half ago, though.” I answered. 

“Have you spoken to him recently?” Det. Barker asked.

“No. I blocked his number shortly after I left him.”

“And did you two part on good terms?”

“Not really, no.” I chuckled, my head tilting as I accessed the men, “He beat the shit out of me the last time I saw him.” 

“And that was in October?” Det. Stuart inquired as Barker made another note.

“What? I haven’t seen him in over a year,” I lied, applying a confused expression to my face with precision, “His mom called me recently, told me he was missing....Is that what this is about?”

“Yes, ‘mam. The last time anyone ever heard from him was when Mrs. Marcelli spoke to him before getting on a plane to Las Vegas, where he was going to be working on a music video that you were involved in.”

“The Slipknot one? I didn’t see him, but there was a lot of production people there.” I stood from my spot on the bed to step beside the dresser where the coffee pot was and start some, my descending headache making it hard to concentrate, “Ya’ll think I have something to do with it or something?”

“Honestly, Miss, we’re just checking every source we have. People just don’t dissapear with out a trace.” Barker responded, taking the small hotel cup of coffee I extended to him. 

‘They do if you know the right people,’ I thought to myself as I refilled the mini brewer.

“Anthony has a lot of enemies, he’s an asshole. He messed around with the wrong people a couple times.” 

“What kind of people?” Stuart asked as he accepted his cup from me. 

I sat back down on my bed and looked to my own coffee in my hands for a second before gazing back up to them, “The kind of people that make people go missing.”

The two detectives looked at each other and knowingly nodded their heads in silent agreement on something. They both stood up in unison and made their ways to the door, “That’s all we need for now, Miss Ackles, but we may be in touch, okay?”

“Call me whenever,” I replied with a nod of my own as they exited the room. I instantly collapsed against the door with my hand on my chest, trying to talk myself out of a panic attack. Shit was about to get messier than I’d planned.

“What are your New Years Resolutions, and how do you plan on making the New Year better than the last?” The fan asked nervously, almost melting at the smile she earned from Jeff and Jensen.  

Jeff snorted and doubled over as he clasped a hand onto Jensen’s shoulder, the younger man chuckling himself as he raised the mic to his lips, “That’s a great question.”

“It really is,” Jeff laughed, swiping his mouth with his fingertips, “Well, mine, if I may go first,” he looked to Jensen who nodded, “Is to stay out of jail.”

The crowd and Jensen all let out barking laughs at him making fun of our little stint in Dallas County Jail. 

“Prolly a good idea,” My brother chuckled, shaking his head, “I might not be there next time to bail you out.”

The fans all burst out with questions and asking them to tell the story, Jeffrey shaking his head and Jensen rolling his eyes and continuing to shake his head back and forth.

“‘Nother story for another time, that one.” Jensen rasped as he looked towards Jeff who nodded his head as he raised the mic again, “Yeah, we’ll let Norman tell that tale.”

“Right, Um, my new years resolution is to lose ten pounds,” Jensen shrugged, earning him a giggle from the fans as he pointed to the next person to ask a question. I pretty much zoned out the rest of the time with work until I heard Jeffrey’s voice giggle up an octave.

“Well congratulations! Happy Anniversary. Funny thing, it woulda been mine and Ky’s anniversary on Monday, too.” 

My eyes instantly darted to the stage, the amber filled glass in both their hands that I hadn’t noticed before being the source of his need to verify to everyone that our relationship was indeed kaput. 

Jensen, never missing a beat, quickly laughed and replied, “I’m glad it’s not.”

The crowd let out a series of nervous “ooooh’s” and I took it as my cue to leave. I snuck backstage to where the girls were and they all gave me the same sympathetic look. I exhaled with enough force to flap my lips as I made my way to the greenroom. 

I plopped down on one of the couches and extracted my phone from my purse, instantly pulling up Norman’s number and waiting for him to answer.

It took him three rings before a raspy, “Hello,” was heard from his end.

“It’s noon, dude. You’re still asleep?”

“I think you underestimate how much I drank last night, sweetheart,” He groaned, “How’re you even alive?”

“I had a rather scary wake up call this morning,” I answered, propping my feet up on the couch and making myself comfortable.

“What happened?”

“FBI came to ask about Anthony?”

“What?!”

“I’m not really concerned, it was just nerve-wracking.” I griped, pinching the bridge of my nose before I continued, “Then Jeff said some shit during him and Jay’s panel.”

“Dear God.” Norman groaned, the rustling fromt eh sheets from him rolling over could be heard in the background, “What’d he say?”

“Mentioned the whole jail thing plus our anniversary, he was drunk.”

“Joyyy.” Norman mused.

“I walked out, and here I am.” I chuckled , gesturing to myself to nobody.

“4 more days and I can see you.” He said, a grin easy to be heard through

“It can’t come soon enough,” I whined with a grunt, flapping my lips again to blow a piece of hair that had fallen in my face, “At least I’ll have a break before having to do all this other shit.”

“Yeah, you’ll actually have some time for me,” He teased.

“Fuck you,”

“Oh I will, babydoll, don’ worry,”He drawled lazily, throwing in the thick Georgian accent for dramatic affect.

“Can’t stand your ass.”

“I love yours.” He replied cheesily.

I rolled my eyes at his jokes for a few minutes more before hanging up with him when I heard the sound of Rob’s voice closing down the panel. I exited the room to go find Misha before I had the unfortuneate chance of running into Jeff again. 

“That seemed to go over well today,” Misha deadpanned, taking a bite of the banana he’d stolen from the hotel’s continental breakfast that morning. We were sitting in his hotel room after dinner, both of us too exhausted to want to partake in the concert. 

“It’s ridiculous, dude. Like, why does he have to be a dick in public?”

“Because he’s pissed, obviously.” He stated, stuffing the rest of the fruit in his mouth.

“Obviously,” I sighed in frustration, shaking my head in annoyance. Jeffrey had acted an ass per usual at dinner, as well. Showed up only after he had heard that Misha and I were going after all and didn’t shy away from the annoying comments, that drunken smug smirk on his face the entire time. 

“How’re things with you and Reedus, anyways?” Misha inquired, leaning back to stuff his head in my lap as he flicked on the TV.

 I ran my fingertips through his hair and sighed, shrugging one shoulder, “They’re fine...perfect even. IT’s just Jeff that’s driving me up the wall. I have a feeling its just going to get worse and worse.”

“He’s trying to get to you both, see which one breaks first.”

“I’m not goign to let anything get to me, It’s norman I’m worried about.”

MIsha turned his head away from the TV to look up at me, a saddened look in his eye that let me know he understood, “That’s just a conversation that you’re gonna have to have with him, babe.”

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Brendan Taylor talks 'Supernatural' Breakdown and Briana Buckmaster Pt 2

Here is Part 2 of Brendan Taylor's interview with Lynn about returning to Supernatural as Officer Doug Stover (he also appeared on the show in 2015 in the Plush episode) and working with Briana Buckmaster, Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki. Part 1 of the interview is here. L: I’ve often said that I should bring the casting agency a fruit basket, because they only cast the best most committed people. Jared and Jensen said occasionally they get someone who doesn’t fit, but they don’t last long. B: Yeah, no. I think with the amount of actors they go through; it’s kind of a rite of passage to be on Supernatural. They did say there was this one person who was just like doing his own thing, doing weird awkward loud warm-ups and they just kinda pulled him aside and were like, you can’t do that on this show (laughing) L: (laughing) That’s not this show. B: I don’t think they’ve had to do that a lot, but I think you have to listen – when everything else is going so well without that behavior, why would you think that you could get away with that? L: You must not be very observant not to pick up on that. But I’m always in awe of guest actors, constantly having to go to a new setting with new people and having to be that observant, so you can pick up on the norms right away and fit yourself in. That’s intimidating! B: Yeah, and you know, my first episode, to be honest, I felt that in a way. Briana was back for her third time in Plush, and I was brand new, so they had a rapport and I really kinda didn’t and you just -- all you can do is just what you’re paid to do, and that’s what I did. Obviously, it was rewarded with getting to come back on the show, probably a multitude of factors decided that. And this time I got the opportunity because they split up a lot in the episode, Briana goes with Jared, and I go with Jensen, so we spent a good bit of time together, shooting the shit and chatting. We’re actually around the same age, which is funny. L: I saw that you tweeted ‘Jensen and I got along like a house on fire.’ B: Yeah, we were just kinda joking about the same things, we have a similar sense of humor, like a dry sense of humor, I guess? L: That sounds about right. B: We were just like sharing a lot of internet memes, showing them back and forth between takes. L: (cracks up) B: Like dad jokes.  I was showing him some memes he hadn’t seen. It was pretty fun and we just kinda clicked in that way. L: Oh, Jensen and memes, that’s awesome. Okay, I’m moving to the comedy portion of the chat now – what were the worst times when you kept cracking up and couldn’t hold it together? You and Briana tweeted something about ‘the butterfly’ scene and Jared and Jensen kept making you laugh. B: (laughing) I actually watched and was like, where’s that scene? Oh, they cut it entirely. Which actually makes sense because the way it was written, it made Donna come across as maybe not so bright. They had the FBI guy talking about the patterns of this abductor, and he’s saying oh their migration patterns move up north in the winter and in summer down south, and then pause…beat… and Briana says (in a dramatic whisper) ‘Like a butterfly.’ L: (cracks up) B: And the line just made Sheriff Donna sound clueless, and we all look at her like, duh. But trying to keep a straight face through that line, oh man, it was hard. We kept doing it over and over and especially when… [At this point Brendan is laughing so hard he can’t go on, and I’m laughing so hard just picturing it…] B: Sorry, it’s bringing me right back…. And Jensen would look over almost anticipating and she’d go (dramatic whisper again) ‘like a butterfly’ and he’d just go ‘shit!’ L: (still cracking up) B: And the FBI guy, he was a nice guy, but there’s a time when he’s on camera and we’re off camera and we’re just being unprofessional… L: The poor guy B: So Briana’s tactic was just to look straight ahead and not react to them (J2) reacting, but in the meantime, it was a funny image. Jared is kinda my height and the camera is kinda over our shoulders behind looking back at the FBI guy, and Jared is on the left side of camera facing out and then it’s Briana and then it’s me. But she says the ‘like a butterfly’ and Jared just kinda slowly turns his head and I just see his eyes over top and I just couldn’t handle it… L: I don’t blame you! B: They know their power and yeah, their mastery of screwing around. L: Oh yes they are very good at it B: Jensen is also really funny, they’re both just really funny. Briana’s tweet about this scene: FUN FACT: we couldn't stop laughing at a line they inevitably CUT OUT of this scene. "Like a butterfly" i would say. And Jared and Jensen would pretend to look at me like "duh Donna". Eventually I had to just not look at them to not laugh. "Nice tactic" Jensen said. L: They are really funny. I thought you did a good job with the lines you had that were supposed to be funny too. You deadpanned it a little with a lot of them and that made them even funnier. B: Yeah I do a lot of commercials – I don’t know if you watch tv a lot and catch them – but one thing they allow me to do is work on the comedy. Just having an understanding, there’s a moment in that intro scene when we’re looking at the car and Dean says about Donna, oh yeah she’s family. And I just kinda am smiling along and then drop like what?? Like this whole time? And we had this moment at the end of that scene where he’s big time bullshitting. I like that scene because it is so obvious, like no one would really believe that, but at the same time we kinda love that Doug just wants to believe. L: Exactly, he’s a little naïve and sweet… B: Yeah, but I added that moment when Dean turns and walks away, I have a little like (laughing) ‘Huh. All right..’ L: Oh yeah, that was good, that’s what I mean, your funny lines came out very funny because of the way they were delivered and all the little nonverbals too. B:  I could have easily just kinda stayed there smiling like a goofball, and then we get from that oh Doug is just like totally clueless, but I think it’s important to understand the arc of the episode to see that he’s starting to gain a suspicion. L: Yes, I liked those hints. And I love that you were thinking about that throughout too. B: Another funny part that was all me (cracking up) was the head slap [when Marlon asks ‘what’s the matter, you vegan?’ and Doug slaps him upside the head]. I thought it was important for Doug to have that scene to show that he’s not a pushover, he does something a bit out of character that’s putting someone in line because he does care. It’s not just everyone else doing everything; he’s active in it. I mean, it could have easily been Sam or Dean who does that, but I think it’s especially funny that Doug got to do it. L: Yes, and him having taken that in, like yeah, that’s how they do it in the FBI. B: Yeah, kinda looking up to them, like I wanna be like him. Practicing the head slap, Steven (Yaffee, who plays Marlon) was fine with me just kinda knicking his hair, but it would kinda be different every time, he would look at the screen and look back, and I didn’t want to – I mean, the stunt guy is always there, even for something as simple as that – you don’t wanna hit someone in the temple or the ear. L: Ouch B: (cracking up again) And I kept – I was worried about hitting him too hard, and we had a few takes, there was one where I just like, I completely missed his head! L: lol B: And then they didn’t cut, so I just kept trying to do it again, and the guys were like, what are you doing? And everyone just couldn’t hold it after that; it was just funny that I kept trying to do an impulsive slap like twice in a row. L: I hope some of this will make the gag reel. B: I hope so, it was like partially me, Brendan, just trying to get this thing right, and it was partially just it’s funny to kinda see something comedic for no real reason. L:  I wouldn’t be surprised. I wasn’t surprised when they brought you back either. Every now and then you get a guest character that resonates with the viewers. There was a bit of a gender role flip with him telling Donna she’s treating him like crap and I think we were rooting for him. B: Yeah definitely, and in the end of that first episode it was open-ended so I kinda hoped they’d have some kind of closure to that, but I’m fully aware that me and Doug are part of Donna’s story line. And it should be her going forward, and I think it was important to show that she doesn’t need a man to keep her going, and I think that was showing that. But it is nice to have someone who’s supportive and caring. L: Well, if Wayward Sisters goes… B: That would be… obviously, I would love that.  I understand the hesitation, you could never see me again, and Donna will go on and kill monsters. I think it’s important that she takes her own path but of course, I would love to be back. Even in this episode and consistently multiple times in each episode, someone is in danger, and someone is about to die -- even in this one, the FBI guy is about to shoot Sam in the head and it pans over to the camera and then blam! OMG and you look over, and of course, someone is bleeding and then he falls over, and there’s Dean with the smoking gun! L: That was such an awesome moment. B: That happens like all the time on Supernatural in one form or another, and I think it would be cool if that same kind of thing happened and Doug is standing there with a gun. I think he just needs some time to process. I do say I love you Donna but I can’t do this, but I did also say – within the episode – I’ll always be there for you. Dean says, you’ll always be there for her, right? And I say you betcha. L: That’s right. He wasn’t rejecting her, just saying that he can’t do it. That’s why it’s so tragic. B: So yeah, obviously relationships are complicated, but also holding myself (Doug) accountable for what I said about being there for her. I think that’s something to think about – obviously, to come back in a way that doesn’t outshine the girls though, that somehow highlights the force against evil I guess, as a member of the team L: Yeah, that’s what Dean was saying, we could use another hand on this side from someone who knows. I felt like they deliberately left that door open, so… B: I sure hope so. I was texting Briana last night – and all the cast was messaging her saying how great they thought the episode was. L: She kicked ass. B: I think – I’m not up to speed this season, but this was one of the best ones I’ve seen recently. And she’s a big part of that obviously. L: I have a good feeling about it all. It was so nice to get to chat with you. Anything I didn’t ask you about? B: It was great chatting with you too! Oh, I posted a lot of photos from on set and I appreciate that the fans appreciate those behind the scenes things. L: Oh yes, I’ve got a lot of them, they were great – you did nearly kill the entire fandom by posting that picture of Jensen on set wearing glasses though. B: (laughing)  I can’t even understand that, I didn’t know that I wielded such power with that! It was just a picture of them screwing around, it didn’t even come close to occurring to me that would be the response to that photo L: Oh yes, I could have predicted it. B: And then people were like, you broke the internet! I’ll post a few more too tonight that are pretty fun. L: Fans really appreciate the behind the scenes because most of us will never get to be there. B: I sort of gathered that and essentially nowadays you have the ability to do that with social media, and true fans like to know every single bit. L: Absolutely we do. B: Oh and I was gonna mention that I did set dec for 15 years and I worked on the episode LARP and the Real Girl, helping build that big set out in the field. I did that job for many years, day calling around so I didn’t have a permanent place on Supernatural but I did span a few weeks at a time there working on sets. That’s why I posted a picture of George Neuman [the set decorator on Supernatural since Season 1], who was so happy to see me back there. And I was on the show in Season 8 too. L: You were? B: They cut my scene. L: Oops. B: I did post a photo a while back, I’m trying to remember the episode number. I was so excited that I got on Supernatural. It was a scene with Alaina Huffman. It was me and my friend Adam Pateman, and we were sorta business guys chatting about how unfair the world is blah blah blah and we go down these stairs from a law office kinda thing and we look over and Alaina is standing there with her demon eyes and you look back at us and we both have demon eyes, and she’s recruiting her army. L: Oh cool – but gotta say, this role is a million times better! B: Oh totally, that was just a one time thing. It was cool, but I do remember gathering my family to watch, like ‘yeah I’m on Supernatural!’ and then… L: No I’m not… B: It happened a few months prior on another show where I got a part in the finale, and they cut that scene as well. It was starting to look like I was making everything up! L: Yeah sure you’re on these shows… B: My family was like we watched the episode two times… L: Like, where were you? That sucks. So do you like acting more or set dec? B: I haven’t done set dec, knock on wood, in almost three years. For me, acting is a goal. It’s actually very hard to make it as you probably know. It’s always been a passion of mine, and I couldn’t really handle it anymore being on set literally a few feet away watching people do what I wanted to be doing L: Oh god yes, that would be so painful. B: Yeah and I was taking classes on weekends, it was something I pursued in high school and then in university it was sorta on the back burner, but then I found my way back to it. And as I gained more experience with set dec and knew more people, I was able to go to more auditions and slowly they started paying off more. It was a very gradual thing, not an overnight success thing, which is a very rare thing. It does happen; it happened to my buddy Jordan who’s on Riverdale overnight. Anything on that show is huge, so it can be an overnight thing, but it’s not the norm at all. So slowly I’ve started to work and checks would show up and I also did a lot of theater and all of a sudden it started to go in the other direction. Now it feels like I can kick back a little. I think even in Jensen and Jared’s position, who are like the only actors in the industry [in Canada] who have a full time job (laughing), I think they, yes they have that, but you still have to put in work, to keep it consistent and help it grow. It’s ironic that I have way more time now as a full time actor, but you sometimes make plans and – while we were talking I saw that I got something from my agent for an audition on Monday so I won’t be taking my car in to get fixed on Monday, I guess I can’t do that now! L: Fingers crossed for you for Monday! B: My character is back on the The Magicians too in March and I’m also on The Arrangement up here. I got all three emails for those within a week of each other, so those are the kind of lucky breaks you hope you get, but you have to work for it. And fingers crossed for Wayward Sisters, this has been an awesome thing to be part of! Hopefully, Brendan will have more chances to be a part of Supernatural – and Wayward Sisters – in the future. Until then, check him out on The Magicians and The Arrangement!

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I’ll delve a bit deeper into my comments I shared earlier just for clarification.

I’m going to fully disclose that I am a WB kid a heart. I grew up on Dawson’s Creek, Felicity, Buffy The Vampire Slayer, and Roswell. My coming of age maps pretty closely to the 1997-2003 period of The WB. I was completely sad when The WB retired, and the song “Crawl”, by Thisway, was used as a promo for the final television series in 2005-2006, before the CW was created. That’s how old I am. Lol.

I share that information just to put some context in that I’ve known Jensen and his fans (The Ackles Army) somewhat tangentially throughout his entire career. I remember how his fans acted on Days, Dark Angel, Dawson’s Creek, Smallville, Supernatural, and how they act now. My grandmother and mother were huge soap fans, and I caught Jensen right before he transitioned from Days Of Our Lives, to Dark Angel. Jensen is actually a male model turned soap actor turned television actor.

Jensen’s roots and the core of his fanbase at least initially came from soaps, where a lot of male stars are defined by their looks. There is a saying in the soap community that male actors are hired for their bodies and looks, and the female soap stars are expected to not only look good, but actually act, and it’s also their jobs to teach their male co-stars how to act alongside and teach them. This is well known on all soap sets from CBS, ABC, and NBC. That may not be right or fair to diminish Jensen or objectify him this way, but his fans have been doing that since 1997 anyway. It’s a common practice in soaps to be honest.

Jensen’s fans are interesting, because I often get the sense that they don’t really like him, in terms of his personality or who he is as a person, they like the being they construct in their heads. But they don’t seems to really value his opinions on things. I remember when Jensen first started doing conventions, earlier on in Supernatural back in S2 and S3, and a lot of fans were surprised and disappointed that Jensen wasn’t Dean. Then overtime Jensen began bringing in his “Dean performance”, over to cons, and he got a lot of mileage out of that, and he hasn’t looked back since.

I personally like Jensen. I think he’s an interesting person, who has thoughtful perspectives on things, and seems to take his work and commitment very seriously. I see a lot of alignment in myself with Jensen’s attitude. Which makes sense, I tend to see more alignment to Sam than Dean, and i think I tend to like Jensen in cons a bit more than Jared. I think Jared is entertaining and fun, I just value Jensen’s cerebral nature. All this is just to say, it’s just interesting that his fans don’t seem to value the same things he values. A lot of fans like Jensen because of his looks, because they like Dean, and because they can ship him with people that fulfill a narrative that’s more about them than about him. We see this with the Destiel fans who turned on Jensen and called him homophobic, when Jensen told them Destiel didn’t exist.

Jensen’s fans (along with Misha’s) seem to skew quite young, as such they project onto him more than any other cast on Supernatural. They are very quick to erase any part of Jensen’s narrative that doesn’t fit with what they want him to be. That makes him an easy target or cipher to live out other people’s dreams or wants. There’s a reason why Dean is so often seen as the fandom bicycle.

I feel like Jensen has the rawest deal out of all the Supernatural actors because I feel that his fans don’t really like him - just for being him, but what he does for them. He has a rabid fan base, that will fight for him, but also turn on him just as quickly if he doesn’t “behave”. They are just honestly quite fickle.

This is portrayed quite well with the controversy around this photo and his appearance. I personally don’t think Jensen looks bad, or looks unattractive, but the look doesn’t fit the Ackles Army, Destiel, or Extreme Dean Girls brand, of being a Disney prince with fan fiction green eyes, or the rugged handsome hero in their minds, and that’s why there’s been such an uproar about this picture the last few days. It shouldn’t be such a big event (it really is a non-event), but his fans are fickle. His beauty is one of the reason they stan him so much. They don’t realize that this man is in his early 40’s and will be maturing. Jensen isn’t the same 25 year old he was in the pilot of SPN back in 2005.

I agree with you that Jensen is better off without those fans. But he’s had these fans (or their equivalents) for over two decades now. It’s more or less his base.

But he's so fluffy 🔥 How come people don't like him?! I'm genuinely surprised. The picture quality isn't perfect, but still, he's awesome. And he's at home with his family; he's everyday look is absolutely natural and adorable. 💖 I love Jensen's wild hair, not really a fan of the beard, but I don't think he's any less sexy than when he's on the red carpet with a suit. I can't wait to see him in the Boys; he will be so different from Dean. It's scary, but also is exciting. And as for his looks: Jensen is natural, unpretentious and not vain; this is why he is always hot. 😎

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How Dead Hannah Baker keeps the Manic Pixie Dream Girl Trope Alive

*pictured above: Hannah Baker (Katherine Langford) from 13 Reasons Why

***SPOILERS AHEAD FOR 13 REASONS WHY, PAPER TOWNS, 500 DAYS OF SUMMER. AND ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF THE SPOTLESS MIND!***

I know that some of you may be wondering what exactly is a Manic Pixie Dream Girl. Well there’s no text book definition but here’s one I found online from urbandictionary.com:

“A Manic Pixie Dream Girl or MPDG, is a term coined by film critic Nathan Rabin after seeing Elizabethtown. It refers to "that bubbly, shallow cinematic creature that exists solely in the fevered imaginations of sensitive writer-directors to teach broodingly soulful young men to embrace life and its infinite mysteries and adventures." A pretty, outgoing, whacky female romantic lead whose sole purpose is to help broody male characters lighten up and enjoy their lives.”

Now that you have an idea of what this is I’ll start by giving you examples. Usually the Manic Pixie Dream Girl, MPDG for short, is only there so the nerdy usually white male that is obsessed with them can grow from the experience with them. Now I know you’re thinking “how exactly do I spot one of these creatures?” Well guys it’s very easy and I’ll give you some tips. Most MPDG’s are white, have a wild outlook on the world, and are deemed gorgeous by the general public. 

*pictured above: Clementine Kruczynski (Kate Winslet) and Joel Barish (Jim Carrey) in the film Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

The first MPDG I can think of is Clementine from Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless mind. She is a wild says whatever is on her mind kind of girl and meets poor Joel on the train. This film happens through flashbacks and dreams showing how happy she made him. The relationship went sour which it usually does with a MPDG and they both have each other erased from their memories. Dramatic, I know, but losing her and getting her back helps Joel in some crazy way. It’s like without her he can’t fully live his life and that’s just sad.

*pictured above: Tom (Joseph Gordon Levitt) and Summer (Zooey Deschanel) in 500 Days of Summer

People love this movie and don’t even realize that Summer is problematic as fuck. Summer is this cool girl who doesn’t believe in love and basically drags poor Tom around for you fucking guessed it, 500 days. Tom thinks that Summer is the one for him and tries to date her and show her love exists. Even though they do end up dating things fall apart because cool, secure, witty as all hell Summer is still scared of love. I mean I thought that was a LA thing. It doesn’t take Tom to realize how pathetic he is until he sees Summer at a park AND REALIZES SHE FUCKING GOT MARRIED. Summer’s excuse is that she wasn’t sure about Tom but she was sure about her husband now.... LOL need I say more? 

*pictured above: Margo (Cara Delevigne) and Quentin (Nat Wolff) in Paper Towns.

Last example is John Green’s book turned film Paper Towns. Quentin has been in love with the popular girl next door Margo. One random night Margo climbs into Quentin’s window and asks him to get revenge on her now ex boyfriend. They spend the whole night at the store getting supplies, ruining the boy’s car, and looking over the city they live in. Margo feels stuck where she is and unlike feels different tan her friends. Spoiler alert: she’s not. At the end of the night they both go home and of course nerdy Quentin is blissed the fuck out. Before I go in on this, we have to acknowledge that all of John Green‘s main characters are MPDG’s. It’s basically his forte. But I digress. Quentin wakes up and, surprise, Margo has gone missing. Quentin is determined to find her and believes that she left clues for him. Quentin his two friends and Margo’s bestie go on a roadtrip from florida to upstate New York and find themselves while trying to find Margo. His friends eventually leave him because no way in teen rom com hell are they going to miss the prom. Quentin stays and eventually finds the girl of his dreams. Turns out Margo didn’t want to be found at all and just like Tom in 500 days of Summer Quentin looks like a fucking dumb ass. Quentin makes it home in time for prom and enjoys it with his friends cause in the end that’s all he really needed... but it took a cross country road trip trying to find a selfish teen girl who doesn’t care about you to figure that out. Nice!

*pictured above: Clay Jensen (Dylan Minnette) and Hannah Baker (Katherine Langford) in 13 Reasons Why

As we all know Jay Asher’s book 13 Reasons why has been turned into a tv show on Netflix. The premise is that high schooler Hannah Baker has killed herself and left 13 tapes for certain people to listen to. If you’re on this tape, you’re one of the reasons why she’s gone. Creepy right? Well in the book, which is only 288 pages, Hannah is a sweet girl who seemed to have the worst time of her damn life. The book is short so it seems like every event that happened to Hannah happens like one day after the other. Clay listens to his friend’s tapes in one night and it really hits you in the gut. Personally I like the book better but I am here to address the show. If you want to read my full opinion on the entire show you can do so by clicking here. 

The problem with the Tv series is that by stretching the fuck out of this book they have to add on to the characters. Unfortunately Hannah is made into a MPDG from beyond the grave. In the show Hannah is deemed pretty by everyone around her. If the high school jocks think you’re hot, you’re golden am I right? What makes Hannah a MPDG is the way she treats poor Clay Jensen. Clay is the main character in the show and you find out what happens to Hannah by watching him listen to the tapes. SInce it takes Clay fucking weeks to listen to 13 DAMN TAPES only through flashbacks do you get to see what Hannah is truly like. Hannah on the show confused me after I watched it. I was like “Why don’t I like her?” Don’t get me wrong I felt for the girl and everything that happened was horrible but something was just off. She talked to Clay all the time in witty banter and even gave him a nickname. There were so many chances where she could have just kissed him or got alone time but she didn’t. The other problem with Hannah Is that she was so confident and cool, and filled with teen angst, it didn’t make sense for her to care about what people thought. It’s like she had two personalities. When we see her with Clay she’s this smart funny girl who seemed unattainable but when we see her with virtually anyone else she’s insecure and dying for attention from any popular boy in school. Hannah makes it seem as if Clay isn’t good enough for her when in reality he’s the only person she has. In the 12th episode while Hannah is taking a walk she ends up at a house party where all the popular kids are. Even though she thinks Clay hates her at this point she could’ve tried to talk things out with him. It just frustrates me that she would go to a rapist’s house cause she’s that desperate for attention. Why fight for these douche bags that have done nothing but hurt you instead of fighting for Clay? 

Clay shows character progression only when he’s listening to the tapes. Hearing his dream girl tell the stories before her untimely death makes Clay a better person to people around him. I mean that is the point of all this but at the same time, it shouldn’t take tapes from a girl who has committed suicide to realize that hey, high school is hard don’t be a fucking asshole to people. Clay also grows some balls while listening to the tapes. He basically yells in the middle of the school hall and even lowkey bullies this kid Tyler. I mean Tyler was a creep but bullying someone would be the last thing on my agenda while listening to a dead girl’s tapes. I wrote this for me to get my thoughts out cause everyone keeps asking me about this show. Every conversation I have I always say that I didn’t really like Hannah so if you think Hannah kind of sucks I’m here with you. Hannah is the most twisted MPDG ever and yes it’s because she’s dead. Clay only grows while listening to these tapes which is kind of in a way fucked up. Even though Clay, unlike the book, gets justice for two sexually assaulted girls and Hannah’s life it shouldn’t take Hannah’s 13 tapes to grow. Hannah killing herself should’ve made everyone change and grow on their own.

I know at this point you’re probably saying “ I read this long ass article what is the point?!” The point is that women are not objects. Being a woman is hard and having to grow up is truly a journey. You have media constantly showing you how the perfect woman acts or talks or dresses. Going through high school you have to deal with the pressure of society and unfortunately care about what your peers think. I grew up from my own damn experiences. I didn’t just find myself cause I left a boyfriend or cause I cut my hair I learned that I am what I am and I can’t change that and I’m very happy with who I turned out to be. This is especially hard to do when you’re a black girl like me raised in an all white community. Why must men in these movies need a girl for them to realize who they are? I’m not saying it’s easy to be a boy but come on dude the girl of your dreams isn’t gonna finally give you this sense of Omg I know what my purpose in life is. Your dream girl is not your mom teaching you about life. You know what’s right and what’s wrong without a girl whispering you to the right direction in your ear. You can only figure out who you are by being you and it is completely possible for films and TV shows to show this without a MPDG. I know the show 13 Reasons Why is supposed to show how small things matter and can snowball into this big thing. I get it I really do. The problem is that they could’ve shown that making Hannah solely the victim and not a jaded Manic Pixie Dream Girl. 

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Speaking of Gen’s livestream, I love how Jared was supportive of it and reposted about it yesterday but he also tuned in to it today. I was watching it live, when he commented on it and I had to do a double take because I thought it was a fan account lol. Anyway, I really did like the livestream and how both Charlie and Gen gave Leila her time and how people were actually interested in the conversation. I was pleasantly surprised to find that no one asked where Jared was or anything like that; there were people genuinely interested. I also highly recommend watching the livestream, and reading up about the topic.

Yes, unlike Danneel's performative, self-centered lives, Gen appears to be fully committed, humble and focused on service. The quality of people she attracts is much different from the ones going after Danneel and spamming her lives with "Where's Jensen" and trashy comments. It's like a whole different Universe and I deeply admire Gen for her dedication, like the previous anon wrote, it is refreshing.

I know Danneel tried to throw shade on Gen in the past and all I have to say is wow, what an abysmal difference in quality between the two.