#JEN IM SO SORRY I'VE JUST SEEN THIS POST.. THANK YOU

[moneymasnn]

I need you to be okay|mason mount

(Not my gif)

Blurb: where the reader Gets into a car accident and mason feels a wave of emotions about loosing the love of his life.

Notes: this made me sad, ugh, also not proof read so sorry if I accidentally type my name instead of 'y/n' lol, just was so eager to post!

“Mount! You have an emergency phone call” shouts a voice across the pitch.

Masons neck snaps from the middle of the pitch to the left barrier at cobham training ground. ‘Emergency phone call?’ his mind immediately going to you, his fiancé.

Ben runs and stops next to mason “an emergency phone call?” Ben repeats.

Mason immediately passes the football in his hands into bens arms not caring when he misses Ben and it falls on the floor. Sprinting over to Jenny holding a phone.

“What’s gong on? Is y/n alright?”

He shouts as he runs over leaning on the barrier.

“She’s had an accident, she’s on the phone” jen hands mason the phone a simpathetic smile on her face.

“A what?” Still not processing what was going on. As he grabs the phone placing it to his ear”

“Mase?”

“Y/n Jesus what’s up?” he says, happy it was her speaking on the phone.

"Ugh finally, I've been on hold at the reception forever-" she huffs into the phone.

"Y/n" Mason cuts off your rambling.

“Erm, well, I had an accident” you giggle a bit not wanting to worry him.

“What? Why you laughing whats up?”

“Sorry, I shouldn’t be laughing I’m just on a lot of drugs right now”

“What? Y/n what the fuck?” he says in a serious, stern voice,

‘drugs?'

“Sorry, I just, I don’t really know what happened but my car flipped”

“Flipped?”, mason stuttered repeating what the girl had just said.

“Yeh. On the moter way. Well actually it folded on its self too, apparently I’m lucky to be alive, the mechanic people that came to pick up the car were so shocked, you should have seen their faces mase-”

“Fucking hell y/n, are you okay? Where are you? I’m- im on my way.” he's stuttering, breathlessly as he walks around the barrier to get to you as fast a possible.

“No no I’m okay, I have a heavy concussion and something wrong with my arm. The paramedic thinks one of my ribs maybe be broken."

“Oh my god” he stops in his tracks,

“Yeh I think my toes broken too but she won’t check it out, apparently those things heal on there own” you say in a stroppy attitude the morphine the paramedic gave you making you feel giddy.

“Y/n. Where are you?” Mason asks into the phone.

“In the ambulance, on the m25, but there going to drive me to the hospital now” she says.

“Okay I’ll meet you there” he says as he scrambles round to the exit.

“No no I don’t want you to have to leave training”

“Fuck training. Give me 20 mins half an hour tops, okay? Im leaving now” he says into the phone, itching to get to his fiancé.

“Thanks mase” you feel your eyes water up with how much he cares about you, and as much as you didn't want to make him have to leave training you really needed him.

“Alright I love you” he says into the phone before he passes is back to Jenny.

“I Love you too” you sniffle out, not wanting him to hear you cry, failing massively because mason can always tell when your upset.

"tuchel-" mason goes to plead to leave training.

"its fine, go" tuchel send mason a sympathetic smile.

Ben quickly runs after mason “Oi mason what’s up?”

“Y/n got in a car accident, I’ve got to go to the hospital” hurrying out the gate down the path to the changing rooms.

“Keep me updated yeh?”

"yeh mate" he says putting his hand up as he runs to his car.

After arriving at the hospital and pleading with the lady at the desk to hurry up and tell you what room you was in he finds you sat in a room in a hospital bed all on your own, a small patch of blood on your forehead, and your arm in sling.

"oh my god y/n"

You look over as you notice you fiancé's voice, "mase" you Croke out, holding back tears, just happy to see him.

He wraps his arms around you and kissed the top of his head, "are you okay? Does it hurt?"

"Mase im fine, just got to wait for what the doctor says, she should be back in a minuet."

And with that a male doctor walks through the door, "right y/n im back with the results-"

Stopping In his tracks when he sees Mason.

"Arh, this must be theee?-" waiting for you to state what mason was to you.

But In unison y/n says 'boyfriend' and mason says 'fiancé'

He snaps his face to look at you keeping eye contact with you he says to the doctor "im her fiancé"

"yeh, yeh he is sorry, I just forgot then"

"forgot?" Mason asks worried.

"y/n, are you forgetting things?" the doctor asks.

"No, no, of corse not. Im just stressed, sorry" you put your head down feeling slightly embarrassed 'mason and you were engaged, since when?'

"Okay well, you pupils are extremely dilated and sensitive to light so I've set up a scan to check for a brain bleed"

"a brain bleed?" mason repeats.

"Just a precaution, don't worry, but for the moment I just need to make sure you don't fall asleep for 72 hours y/n"

"why?" in unison you and mason say.

"because there is a 99.9% chance you won't wake back up, your extremely concussed so we are going to monitor you very closely, but for the moment I just need you to stay awake , okay?"

"yeh okay" you say.

"yeh I'll watch her" mason says to the doctor.

"okay ill be back in about 40min to collect you for your scan" the doctor says as he walks out the room.

After the doctor leaves mason asks you to scoot up and sits on the bed next to you. Wrapping his arm around you as he kisses your head, not caring about the dry blood in your hair. He was just eager to hold you.

"I though you said it was a female doctor?" Mason asks, stroking her hair.

"did I?" You asks.

Mason dosent reply, not wanting to worry you for forgetting things, or worry himself.

His phone starts ringing in his pocket, y/ns mums Id popping up, "hey, I'm gonna take this outside okay, don't sleep"

"I won't" she giggles, still feeling a little high from the drugs.

Mason steps outside to answer the call, watching you from the small glass window.

"Oh my god mason! Thank god you picked up, is she okay?" y/ns mum practically shouts down the phone.

"Yeh she seems fine, but you should probably get down here." he says, trying not to worry her mum.

"yeh me and her dad are on our way now, be about 45min"

"Yeh she's just a bit forgetful, think she’s stressed, try not to mention it when you get here"

"forgetful?" y/ns mum asks.

"yeh she's really concussed from hitting her head they're testing for a brain bleed though" mason chokes out.

After keeping your mum updated as she and your dad make the drive to you.

Mason steps back in the room getting back on the bed, getting in the same position as before.

"well, at least I can tick 'car accident' of my list of experiences" they both giggle, as mason continues to stoke her hair.

"You scared me you know" mason eyes well up as he thinks about the heavy heart he’s been carrying around since he heard the words ‘emergency phone call’

He dropped a couple years despite his hard try’s to hold them in.

"hey, don't cry, im fine look, im here, you see big smiles." you reflect a toothy grin in masons direction.

“Gonna take more than a bruised head to take me out. Your stick with me for life mount.”

He hugs you closer as he places another kiss to your head, then your temple, chucking at your witty humour.

“I love you y/n. You scared the living shit outta me thought" he says into your hair, even though its crust from dried blood.

"Sorry"

After a while the doctor comes back in with a wheel chair, "You ready y/n?"

"Erm, I think so? Where are we going again?" you ask.

"For the scan" the doctor repeats slowly.

"scan?" you repeat, confused look on your face, mason just stairs at you wide eyed.

"Oh sorry I must have forgotten to mention it, just giving you a quick brain scan. Mandatory check up after a head contusion.” The doctor lies, not wanting to scare you.

You roll your eyes at mason mouthing, 'how did he forget to tell me that?'

Mason freezes.

She’s forgetting stuff?

“Mason you can wait here. Won’t be too long” the doctor gives mason a reassuring smile.

After the scan you was sat back in the room with mason, your mum, dad and sister, mason still sat next to you on the bed again, his arm once again wrapped around your shoulder. More for his own comfort than yours, and he is bitting his nails.

"Your biting your nails Mase" you say to mason.

"Sorry" he replies, pulling his hands from his face.

"Your nervous"

"What? I'm fine." he tries to lie.

"Well that was a big fat lie, you only bite your nails before matches your nervous about loosing, I know you mount" you point a finger in his face.

She was right, mason barley bit his nails, only when he was nervous about huge upcoming matches or when he had his foot injury and was scared it was cost him his career.

"Hey mason, do you want to come with me to get a coffee?" y/ns older sister pipes up,

"Erm yeh sure" he replies, kissing your head again before he gets up.

As they was walking down the hallway in comfortable silence he breaks down.

"Mason you need to hold it together for y/n" mason starts to sob into y/ns sisters shoulder

"She- you know she forgot we were engaged. She tried to play it off like she remembered when I reminded her, but I could tell she didn't."

"Mason" y/ns sister says with an apologetic smile.

“Give her time.”

Mason wipes his puffy eyes and takes a big breath in as his phone rings, it was his mum, he tells y/ns sister he's going to sit outside for some air and answer the phone.

He ends up breaking down again, this time on the phone to his mum "I don't know what to do mum, she doesn't even look like herself." he sobs into the phone.

Debbie then offering to get mason a change of clothes as he was still wearing his training kit and football boots, his studs clicking on the floor.

"thanks mum" he sniffs into the phone.

When Mason walks back into the room he notices the doctor back in there.

"Ah mason, just in time, I was just about to explain what we have going on here"...

Part 2:

[vuelie-frost]

Hey! Those are some really good points, thanks for bringing those up.

Im so sorry that you came back into the fandom only to be disappointed again by the apparent arc of the sequel; I've certainly been in that position with other franchises, and it's not an easy pain. It's almost like grief, but not quite. Like the death of an outcome you hoped for? It's hard to describe.

Anyway, responses to your points:

1) Oh it's a definite possibility to idolize the creators, and I agree they aren't gods above criticism. They made decisions even in the first movie that I personally wasnt quite on board with. I think they'd be the first to tell you that they're imperfect people.

What rubbed me the wrong way about some of the criticisms I've seen is the claim that the sequel is nothing more than a money grab. I'm sure Jen and Chris were under some financial pressure after the success of the first movie, and I don't think it's cheapening their work to say money might have been ONE motivating factor. But to imply they didn't care about the characters, went with a cop-out ending for the sequel, or only had dollar signs in their eyes... I don't think those are accurate statements.

(I'm not saying YOU believe that, of course- but in retrospect I think those were the criticisms I was combating in my original post.)

Also just for good measure- everyone is allowed their opinion. Everyone is free to criticize Disney for their decisions. I think I just feel a moral imperative to defend the franchise I love so much. You definitely don't have to agree with me, and I'm not trying to make you- I only bring all these things up to spin a little perspective on what felt like mass panic LOL. I'm a staunch supporter of healthy coping, which is what I'm trying to nurture.

2) This has more to do with the philosophy of art/authors/meaning, I think, than Frozen in particular. Does the value of a work depend on the creators' intention, or the audience's reaction? Can something have merit but be disliked? Could the audience know the work better than the creator?

To that last one: yes, in theory. I just don't think that's the case here. You might, which is totally fine!

Insomuch as you call an ending bad or good depending on whether you liked it is very very valid, but it is subjective, and subjectivity isn't the only way to evaluate a work.

And it just boils down to taste, I suspect. I'm not a massive Harry Potter fan, but it's obvious the series is a landmark piece of literature. I'm speaking of "good" here as a more objective measure of art, in the sense that it accomplishes what it intended. Harry Potter does that. Its ending is somewhat bittersweet, but that doesn't make it bad.

For Frozen, I think we're facing a bittersweet ending as well. That doesn't mean the plot is poorly executed or unsuccessful. That doesn't mean the characters lose essential parts of themselves. That doesn't mean the creators don't know what they're doing.

Again, you're absolutely welcome to believe the ending to Frozen 2 is just... bad. No one can take your opinion away from you. And that's a very good thing!! The beauty of derivative art means we're free to write fanfic of our own endings, and draw and dream of the sisters together forever in whatever way we please.

I guess I just believe, perhaps paradoxically, that it's possible to not have something go our preferred way, and still be content with it. And that accepting this dynamic is actually pretty peaceful. Not being completely bound to (or emotionally dependent on) our expectations is hard, but ultimately freeing.

I really REALLY hope Elsa doesn't become an immortal goddess of unity. But what if she does? I can't say I'll be overjoyed. I might cry. I'll definitely rant about it on Tumblr. But then I'll accept it, because I love her, and if that's what her story called for, I can learn to make peace with it.

I know it all sounds very romanticized and like I said, it's not easy to navigate all these feelings of grief and confusion, much less consider accepting the finality of Frozen 2 if we disagree with it. And again: you're incredibly free to not accept the movie as canon, or at least the ending, if it causes you devastation. I'm going to try and keep an open mind as the release date draws nearer, and hold off on any final opinions until then (because only then will I know how to cope, ha!)

Frozen 2, the spoiler debacle, and the dehumanization of Elsa

Hello there! Let’s talk. (Warning: this post will contain some of the leaked spoilers. Read at your own risk!) You may notice this is my first and only post on this blog. I started this side-blog just to iterate my opinions on Frozen in an anonymous setting, and my main account isn’t suited for that. As for me, I’m a 26-yo Frozen fan. Elsa is my favorite fictional character of all time; she means a lot to me. By day I work as a graphic designer in the southern US, by night I struggle to sleep. Really exciting life. 

Anyway, because I’m human trash, I read the spoilers. I sought them out. I kind of regret it. Initially I was shocked, hurt, betrayed, and uneasy about the apparent direction this movie is going in. And the more I read about people’s backlash & opinions, the more my understandings were bolstered. People have a lot to say about this. People get very up-in-arms about the direction their fictional characters take. 

Let me start by saying that if you are staunchly opposed to the PERCEIVED ending of the movie, I’m probably not going to change your mind. I’m writing this for those people like me who are just confused, uncertain, worried, and anxious. After all, we have a whole month until this movie is released. Are we going to have to live in this limbo for another month?

After reading a lot of accounts & interpretations of Frozen 2, I want to say: no. 

If the implied ending is in fact how the movie ends- separation of the sisters, Anna as sole monarch, Elsa as the fifth spirit- I’ve made my peace. And you can too (Excuse me while I sound like an infomercial.)

First, let me play devil’s advocate and pull some of the speculation apart from the facts:

- Regarding the pages from the art book, we don’t know if Elsa relinquishes her title to Anna. There’s nothing saying they’re not co-rulers. It notes that Anna inherits the throne from the “queens before her,” including Elsa, but this could be interpreted as “Elsa was queen first,” NOT “Elsa is no longer queen.”

- We don’t know if Elsa becomes a goddess, immortal, or some ethereal being. There is mention of her becoming the fifth element, but this could be a descriptive characteristic, NOT prescriptive (ie, she doesn’t need to “transform” to become it, she is it by simply being herself.) If that even is true. It’s just as likely that the bond of Elsa-Anna is the bridge/fifth element, not Elsa herself. AND if the fifth element is the harmony between humanity & spirit, Elsa can’t become un-human to fulfill that role, or she becomes wholly spirit… which is what Pabbie warned against in “losing herself” to magic. Also note that “transformation” was used to describe Elsa in her Ice Palace in the first movie. It didn’t mean she became inhuman, it meant she became more herself.

- We don’t know the nature of their “separation,” if there even is one (the leaked book pages talk about different roles only, and the Foreword of the art book only alludes to them living different lives.) The picture of Elsa riding away on the Nokk & waving? That doesn’t mean she’s leaving forever. Hell, she could be off to save Olaf from a wolf. 

- We don’t know that there are two separate Epilogues chronicling their separate journeys. The Color Script page has two boxes labeled “Epilogue.” It also has two pages labeled “Dark Sea.” Are those two separate scenes? Or just two color schemes? Given the context of the sheet’s title… I’m going with the latter.

We know very little about the context of the movie to make these judgements anything more than speculations. Take a deep breath. The movie isn’t ruined.

However, if these things turn out to be true, we can still be at peace with the decisions made at Disney Animation by preparing an open mindset. Here’s how I’ve been processing it, and how I’ve come to defend the creative team regardless of their decisions for Elsa & Anna. The Perception of Wrongdoing There are a few specific implications in the spoilers that rubbed me the wrong way. I’d been optimistic for the movie until this morning when I pored over everyone’s interpretations. I don’t like the idea of the girls being separated. I don’t like the idea of Elsa no longer being queen (at least, in royal title via her family line. Snow Queen is a different honor.) I don’t like the idea of Elsa becoming something more than human, a spirit or goddess or force of nature. Elsa is beloved because of her humanity. In fact, I think the first Frozen was beloved because of its humanity. We saw the weaknesses and vulnerabilities of its two heroines and we fell in hard, deep love with the story. We’ve had so many years to marinate on that story over and over again that it’s become cozy and familiar, a hygge of itself. 

And when we’re faced with the prospect that our favorite story’s world is about to be flipped on its axis, we panic because it feels vulnerable. We’ve put so much love and time into this franchise and we feel helpless to watch other people- the people who are, in fact, in charge- make decisions about it. Dehumanization

Because of my love for Elsa, I’ll speak about her as an example, though this applies to any aspect of the story we feel is “wrong” in the sequel.

There are two ways to dehumanize someone. One is to think of them as worthless; the other is to idolize them. 

It’s not a secret that Elsa is one of the most idolized fictional characters of our time. Some of her creators even fell a little bit in love with her, as admitted by Jennifer Lee. She was written as someone who is inherently beautiful, but fragile and unsure of herself. She is kind, gentle, wise, and compassionate. Even her flaws- her penchant for being too reserved, her anxious and worried nature- are romanticized into beauty. Moreover, her flaws as characteristics rather than actions make it difficult for us to perceive her as anything other than our perfect, honorable Snow Queen.

Codependency, by definition, involves the idolatry of another human. Obviously Elsa being fictional doesn’t make her codependent to anyone, as it’s not a mutual relationship. But the idolatry is there. We feel we “need” her to be and act a certain way to fulfill our desires. 

So when we hear word that she’s acting in a way we don’t like? We get scared. Perhaps we didn’t understand her the way we thought we did. Perhaps we’re not as “close” to her as we thought. Perhaps it feels like a betrayal. 

Jennifer Lee & Christopher Buck know Elsa better than we do. We project our own experiences onto the character of Elsa because she’s so unique and still relatable. But her creators are the ones who know her wholly, truly, as she is. Jennifer Lee wrote journals to “listen” to Elsa & Anna, and their respective stories. They employed mental health professionals to analyze the characters and help determine arcs that would make sense. They care a lot about what these sisters do and feel, and no one- not even you or me- is more committed to playing these characters truthfully.  This is something that idolatry blinds us to. The image of Elsa in our heads doesn’t match the expression in the sequel, and we get scared of the cognitive dissonance. Who is Elsa if she’s not the Queen? Who is Anna if she’s not living with her sister? We panic because what we THOUGHT we knew is suddenly revealed to be a lie. We imagined the ending of Frozen 2 to be an idyllic family setting, when in fact it might stretch our definition of “family.”  All that to say: it’s okay to be scared of what this movie might reveal about characters we thought we knew. The familiarity of the first movie is being challenged. But growth can’t happen without some sort of variable change. It’s okay to disagree with how the creators specifically do that, but be aware of why they chose to make those decisions in the first place.  The trailers have been alluding to a separation of some kind, with Elsa’s “What would I do without you?” to Anna’s “you’ll always have me” as foreboding clues to the movie’s interpersonal conflict. For reasons we don’t know, this is the route the creative team has taken. It might feel unfair, but we don’t have the whole story. And whatever that story is…. it will all be okay. Jennifer and Chris will make the right decisions for their characters. The sisters will be happy in the end because this is a Disney movie (do you really think they’d be happy separated against either of their wills?) They’ll be a family regardless of the circumstances. It might not be how you or I would have written it, but that doesn’t make it a bad story nor an invalid one. And we can be content with that for another month. (I have a working hypothesis that we’re all going to be happily surprised by the ending’s larger meaning, once it’s revealed.) Wait, isn’t this just a kid’s movie? Shouldn’t we just suck it up and move on? Elsa may be fictional, but that doesn’t mean she’s not real. She means a lot to a LOT of people because of her very real relationships with herself, her capabilities, her power, and her family. It’s not silly to worry about her arc, nor Frozen 2′s arc as a whole.  Stay Mindful

If you’ve been scouring Tumblr & Instagram all day today in a panic trying to decide how to feel about the Frozen 2 leaks, please get off the echo chamber that is the internet. Eat a chocolate chip cookie, meditate, sit outside with a cup of tea- enter back into the “real world.” It pains me to say this because I’m talking to myself as much as I’m talking to anyone else, but: Frozen is not the determinant of your existence, nor your happiness. It’s one story among SO many, all of which have the potential to form and influence us in various ways.

In closing:

- keep in mind that most of what’s circulating on Tumblr is part of a rumor mill, and not to trust anything that doesn’t come from Disney themselves

- context is key to everything, and until we see the movie, we don’t have the knowledge to make major decisions about how we feel about Frozen 2

- It’s okay to feel worried or scared that the story won’t be what we were expecting- but that doesn’t make it bad, and it doesn’t mean we’re destined to be disappointed

- be mindful of whether you’re putting the characters/movie/franchise on a pedestal of unsustainable adoration. It can be unhealthy and painful to come down from that high.