#Im so embarrassed because I appreciate you sending me asks so much but if I don't post them you will never know how much they mean

[plulp]

yknow kylar isnt my favorite character but the owl plushie really raised the bar by like maybe 30%

[shawtythatluvsurgut]

hey guys. i got back from seeing my dad (i was gone all of september doing that) and realized that im $150 short on rent for this month. i lost around 50 subs from that one month i took away and i totally understand and am not mad at anyone for unsubbing, but it’s put me in a pickle for paying my rent in november. by a pickle, i mean that im $150 short. it’s embarrassing to admit this, but i miscalculated when i bought my tickets to stay longer and thought id have enough for my upcoming rent. technically i should have had enough, but losing that many subs really put a dent in my finances. i’m kinda stressing right now so if anyone can send anything id appreciate the help so so much. i will also send personalized content as a thank you. you can also help by subscribing to my OF (im back to posting somewhat regularly) so that we both benefit.

i’m sorry that the disneyland plan didn’t work out. i was looking forward to eating good, way too expensive food, but my dad’s health took a turn. that’s why i made the last minute decision to cancel disney and extend my trip in north cal. i couldn’t get a refund because disney is full of cash cows, so im kinda screwed right now. i’m glad i recalculated before the first of november hit because i can at least try to see if anyone can help.

also, i have video ideas coming to my OF. right now i want to keep my weight somewhat consistent or maybe gain slowly because i, too, have been having some minor health issues (not due to gaining, but gaining isn’t helping right now). I AM NOT LOSING WEIGHT OR PLANNING TO. I am just going to go easy on how fast i gain. i have a stuffing video planned for this month, along with my usual pictures semi-daily.

i just needed to be upfront and let everyone know what is going on with me. my dad is dying, i’m in school and i hate it, school has been taking up a LOT of my free time, i didn’t calculate my money correctly, and i got my meds switched. i feel like a zombie lately. and i may have lost a friendship/relationship that was very dear to my heart in the midst of this stress.

if i had other options, i would choose those first. but, unfortunately, i don’t. i don’t mean to sound like a bum asking y’all to help me financially or sub to my OF or whatever, but im kinda freaking out a little. so if anyone can help, even just an OF subscription, i would GREATLY appreciate it. even if it’s just for this month.

i feel so pathetic right now begging for help online, but hopefully my upfront honesty will relate to someone. sometimes saving is hard and i’m a blonde so ya know i can’t do math and idk im embarrassed. if anyone wants to buy a custom please message me on here or on OF if you’re subscribed. i’ll be putting in the work to try to bring y’all back and keep y’all satisfied. that’s a big priority for me and im sorry again to anyone who subbed to watch me eat at disneyland. i didn’t want to cancel that, but my dad was officially diagnosed with congestive heart failure on the day before i was supposed to fly down to LA and i couldn’t leave him. he’s put in the work to earn his spot back in my life and i couldn’t leave him the day he got that news. i love him and my mom despite any hardships and the last thing i could do was ditch him. i hope me being real helps you guys understand why i didn’t deliver on the disneyland content.

i understand if you are upset and you have every right to be! but i figured maybe being honest about what im going through could maybe help some of y’all build back trust with me. i feel very awkward and uncomfortable sharing such intimate information, but i think it’s what’s fair to all of you. thank you to all who have stuck around <3 and thank you to any/all who subscribe and/or send me money to help me out.

sending so much love to you all, as this has been a hard year for more people than just myself. the world needs a bit of honesty and transparency, and you all deserve that, so that’s what i’m going to give. <3

- Nico

[asteroidzzzn]

stargirl | part 4

pairing: leadsinger!ellie x bassist!reader

warnings: cursing, smoking, drinking, eventual sexual themes, ellies still closed off, reader is ridiculously delulu for a while, kinda angst im so sorry

songs in this chapter: do i wanna know - arctic monkeys

word count: 2.1k

a/n: i put my whole asterussy into this. also changed the pairing thing bc reader made a bit of a career change

summary: now that you're officially a the fireflies bassist, you're going on tour, where trouble will be looking for you.

it all arrived sooner than you thought it would. sooner than you were prepared for. you were told you were given twenty five to thirty minutes to get up on stage, sing some songs, and leave. you had good songs prepared, and you would practice all night in the hotel room before you performed.

seemed simple enough, right?

it was only a stadium nearly sold out by ten thousand people, maybe even more. and worst of all, you would have to sing. you had wished there was a contract you signed after joining the band, saying there was no way in hell you would sing in front of an audience, let alone a song you wrote.

but your mouth failed you when ellie asked you to be the one to sing the duet with her. yes was the only answer you could manage. for some reason, you felt a bit more at ease when you noticed the flash of a smile on her face your words caused.

you were getting used to ellie. you knew nothing about her past, but to be fair, she knew nothing about yours. it was surface level for the most part, except for...

you couldn't stop thinking about the journal. her songs. the trust she must have had in you. the lyrics. it made your head spin when you lingered on the memory. her masked grins, the blush hidden under her freckled cheeks, the way she sounded when she laughed gently, and how you had thought about bottling it up and selfishly keeping it just to yourself.

the way you had learned so much in that one night, yet so little. there were embarrassing instances where you would upset ellie by doing something so ordinary, such as complimenting her tattoo, and asking who did it. dina would pull you aside, muttering that "it's not about you, she's just having a bad day."

she never brought up the night when you shared your songs with each other. by the next morning, it was back to the tolerating sort of distance that was safe enough and never changing.

she treated you like a coworker.

༊*·˚

you were in the car, headphones in your ears playing a calming melody while you were half asleep. jesse rested with one hand on the wheel as dina curled up in the passenger seat, trying to get some sleep as well. ellie tapped a rhythm on her thighs and whistled a soft tune.

you yawned quietly and shifted around, pulling your blanket higher up to your neck. you made sure to keep distance between you and ellie. back in june, you found out the hard way that ellie didn't quite appreciate physical touch as much as the average person.

she mumbled something you didn't understand with your headphones in. apparently, the blanket had shifted off her lap when you tugged it towards yourself on the other side of the car.

her hand ghosted over your neck, leading up to your ear, sending harsh chills down your spine. your gaze shot to hers when she pulled one of the buds out of your year, and leaned closer to your face to whisper.

"don't steal the blanket, it's freezing."

you scoffed and paused your music. "is that really what you woke me up to say?"

"well, yeah. do you want me to die of hypothermia?"

"you'll live. and i'm not stealing it, because it's mine," you said, turning your head away to face the car door.

"oh, that's my bad. i thought it was your little sisters or something. cause, y'know," she said under her breath, but you caught it.

"i'll have you know, people of any age can own a disney blanket."

"whatever you say, princess."

your eyes widened against the blanket. you attempted to level your voice.

"saying shit like that will have you dying of hypothermia," you teased back over your shoulder.

"wait, no, actually. i'm really cold," she huffed out air in amusement, and promptly shivered.

you let out a heavy sigh. "okay, fine," you adjusted to sit in the middle seat, avoiding looking at her entirely as your thighs pressed together, but she didn't seem phased.

your head fell back against the headrest. you watched the stars fly by through the sunroof until sleep found you once more.

about an hour later, the car hit a bump. immediately after, jesse hissed, throwing a hushed, "sorry, guys!" towards the backseat.

your heads flew forward. you winced at the harsh awakening and glanced to your right. ellie had twisted to have her torso leaning on yours, as her head rested on your shoulder.

your breath hitched. she woke up quickly and pressed her hands on the seat to sit up, distancing herself from you.

you opened your mouth. an apology, maybe? your mouth closed. your gaze remained on ellie's. her expression was unreadable, but you could tell she was exhausted.

her voice was smaller than you had ever heard it when she finally spoke up.

"...just...for..."

you barely registered her breaths as words. her touch was light. she settled back into the position with her head on your shoulder.

you didn't dare say a word.

༊*·˚

you checked into the hotel at four in the morning, the next day. you were barely conscious of what you were doing, where you were going. dina handled the logistics, as she was the only one who had gotten enough sleep to be functioning at the early hour.

you trudged into the room. it was beautiful and spacious. two large beds were lined up on the left wall, a sliding glass door that led to a balcony with chairs and plants, a coffee table, a television, two closets, and a bathroom, with a shower and a bathtub.

while hauling your belongings onto the first bed you saw, dina explained that she and jesse would leave the door between the neighboring rooms unlocked in case you or ellie needed anything.

if it weren't four in the morning, you would have come up with a quick excuse to switch rooms. to not be stuck with ellie for a week straight, sleeping just a few feet apart.

unfortunatly for you, you nodded and let her slip away. the door clicked shut.

sheets rustling behind you and crickets chirping were the only two noises to be heard. you saw ellie had slung her suitcase on the bed and begun unpacking her clothing to fold them into her bedside drawer.

if it weren't four in the morning, you would have made a quip at her, something along the lines of, "you don't look like someone that folds their clothes so neatly."

there were a lot of things you would have done differently if it weren't four in the morning.

you stole a glance at her, that lasted a moment too long. she caught your eyes, and stared back. you said nothing. a silent agreement, that the events of this night, as well, would be left to be forgotten. never mentioned again. a secret. your secret.

it was a sudden, uncharacteristically timid habit you and ellie found yourselves doing.

glimpses hidden. the pointless acts of kindness, because one of you happened to remember a small detail. just by chance. nervous hands stilled by another pair. and there was nothing more. it meant nothing, you would tell yourself. there were just two hands searching for warmth, finding each other under tables, out of view.

there weren't jokes between the two of you. teases that could be interpreted in a way that meant things were real.

maybe this was just an act of convenience. maybe she did this with anderson, too. maybe you weren't all that special, or all that different.

but you couldn't deny the way she made you feel. so special, and so noticed.

on friday night, the four of you were huddled on the floor.

"you good, man?" jesse nudged you with his bottle, and took a swig. he passed it back to you.

you nodded with your eyes screwed shut due to the taste of the alcohol. you swallowed.

"i'm nervous. i haven't sung in so long, and i've never been in front of an audience this big. i'm terrified, actually," you said, your head beginning to buzz. your hand raised for you to take a large sip, but ellie caught your arm.

"hey, easy up on that. can't be hungover on stage."

"don't act like you care that much," you said, a pent-up hint of rage in your voice. you were angry at her. you were angry at her for being able to be so kind sometimes, yet so distant and strange, and everything else without a single explanation. but you needed to stop. before the alcohol urged you to say things that were meant to be unsaid. ellie's tongue poked her cheek as her eyebrows furrowed.

she ignored your comment. "we should practice the bridge of do i wanna know."

"i just need to get some sleep," you mumbled, pushing against the floor to stand up, but she dragged you right back down by your shirt. her tone became stern.

"we're practising. i won't let you get up there and embarrass me tomorrow. you said you were ready for this, so act like it," she emphasized her words with points directly at your chest.

"fine," you spat, digging into the pile of sheets scattered around for the song. ellie plugged in her guitar, and flipped a few switches.

"what are you doing?"

"i said we're practicing, so i'm making sure the guitar actually makes noise. for the song. songs kind of need music, if you didn't know. fuck else would i be doing, smartass? you always this insufferable when you're drunk?"

"i'm not drunk." you had to bite back a meaner response. in your peripheral, dina and jesse shared confused looks.

dina patted jesse's leg. "hey, we're pretty tired, and i think we've done enough preparing for tonight. see you guys in the morning," she gestured for jesse to stand up as well, who said a quick goodbye.

and shut the door.

"ready?" ellie glanced at you through her eyebrows.

you nodded, and she tapped her guitar, muttering five, six, seven, eight.

she was nearly whispering the lyrics. you inaudibly cleared your throat, and began to sing. you echoed along in a breathy, light tone when the song called for it, although most of the song flowed as a conversation between you and ellie.

it ended as quickly as it started, with one final strum, followed by silence. ellie set the guitar on the floor, and set her hands in the now empty space in her lap. her mouth opened hesitantly.

"that wasn't bad—"

"i'm heading to bed—"

the two of you spoke simultaneously. you stood up in a rush. you stared at her for a moment, then turned into the bathroom. you cleaned up and changed into your pyjamas.

you stared at the ceiling. your eyes found ellie, who was settling into bed herself. her body was turned away from you.

"...i'm sorry," you whispered.

ellie's head turned over her shoulder.

"why?"

"for being a bitch."

she snickered at that, and shifted so you both lay on your sides, facing each other from opposite sides of the room. she remained quiet, which urged you to go on.

"i'm terrified, ellie. i shouldn't have taken my fear out on you. you're right. i did say i was ready for this. but it's still...difficult. i don't want to disappoint you guys," you whispered as low as possible, with a sliver of a tremble in your voice.

her gaze softened. a minute passed. your ears rang from the silence. since you didn't have anything more to tell her, and she seemed to have no response, you flipped to face the dark wall, and shut your eyes. a tear slipped through your eyelashes. you made no attempt to rub it from your cheek. or the rest of the tears that began dropping, for that matter.

"goodnight," you said.

the opposite bed creaked. the wood under your own creaked. you felt her body beside you. she wouldn't touch you, she only laid there. maybe she waited for you to say it was okay. you moved to rest on your back, with your face near hers.

your eyes fell on each feature on her face. studying her. searching for something.

"goodnight," she whispered, inching dangerously closer to you.

you held your breath. you felt her own on your nose.

"tell me to leave, and i will."

"no," you shook your head weakly.

you grabbed her hand and flipped to face away from her. you placed her arm around your waist, and settled into her hold. her face nestled into your neck.

you took a deep breath, and fell asleep.

in the morning, you woke up not beside ellie, but an imprint on the mattress.

a/n: bleeeeh :p xD ☆*: .｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆ i promise this does have a happy ending it will get there eventually i just needed some angst 🙏

taglist: @ximtiredx @gold-dustwomxn @elliesinterlude

also ill just tag some people that have commented on any of the earlier parts, so comment if u guys wanna be on the permanent taglist! :3

tags: @cassharass @lunarpretty @emluvselandabs @inf3ct3dd

[dano-or-not]

you said you were running out of things to say about mob psycho, so i wanted to ask your opinion on the parallels between toichiro and mob (but not the ones everyone talks about, like how mob could've turn like toichiro if his life was different and stuff like that), specifically the parallel of how their two battles ended.

in s2, their battle ended with mob saying that leaving toichiro to suffer alone would be too sad, not matter how much he dislikes him, so he decided he is going to help him. and he does that by absorbing a lot of toichiros energy before it explodes, which ultimately saves his life.

now, in s3, ???% was about to deal a final blow to shou and toichiro, only to stop because of how hard mob was trying to contain himself, so toichiro announces he is going to stop ???% by absorbing his energy, the exactly same thing he did for him, the only thing only the two of them could do. shou objects, and before toichiro could go through, he realizes that in the end, what he's doing now is no different from what he always did, run away from his family, so he ultimately decides to run away with shou, leaving mob there desperately trying to stop himself.

i barely see anyone talking about those two scenes, but they've been on my mind forever for so many reasons.

how both of them made their decisions and they aren't right or wrong, they're choices, choices made by them because they are the ones in charge of their own lifes, it was mob's choice to stay there and help him, just like toichiro deciding to run away was his

there's also the fact toichiro says to mob that he's not as strong as him before leaving, which on a surface level seems to be about his strength, but i see that dialogue as him saying hes not strong enough to be willing to sacrifice himself despite all that he might lose, and that makes me crazy!

there's a lot more, like how desperate mob must have felt, we see in s2 mob in his room pondering if someone would stop him if he went out of control. and at that moment, with toichiro walking away, it must have felt like it was over, he had already told teru before to hit him with all he had, to stop mob, but he couldnt, and with suzuki leaving, i imagine how he felt

im soso sorry for the long ask, i don't even know if anything i said made any sense, i have a lot of difficulty putting my thoughts into words, and that gets 10 times worse because of my terrible english lol, i just saw your post about not having any new ideas and it gave me courage to try and send something, im usually very embarrassed bc i always feel like im saying sum wrong LOL, but your blog is my favourite on tumblr and your works are absolutely amazing so im glad to be sending you something, much love

Hello fifth anon!!

And thank you for helping me with post ideas, it's nice and appreciated!

You're so right about the mix of similarities between Toichiro and Mob's face offs in season 2 and season 3! I totally agree; neither of the decisions they made were perfect. Was it good that Mob was going to sacrifice himself? No. Was it good that Toichiro ran away from Mob at ???%? No. But was it good that Mob refused to abandon his morals and continued to show unyielding compassion? Yes. Was it good that Toichiro finally made a choice for his family rather than himself? Yes. Just like you said, their choices were just choices, and luckily happened to be ones that worked out.

As for Mob's point of view in season 3, yeah that must have been rough. At that point Toichiro seemed to be the only person who could stop Mob, and he walked away (for good reason). Even though Mob wanted him to run, it still had to have felt like defeat.

Toichiro did the exact opposite of what Mob did in season 2 when placed in an identical situation, and I think that did an excellent job of wrapping up Toichiro's character arc. He's finally taking care of what's most important to him and acknowledging that he isn't the best by saying how Mob is stronger in terms of both power, empathy, and preparedness to self-sacrifice for others.

There were two choices for Toichiro to make and they were equally bad. As the viewer of course we want Mob to be saved as fast as possible, but can you really blame Toichiro? Sometimes you help people who won't be able to repay you, but that doesn't mean they didn't deserve it.

But Mob Psycho 100 is also a story meant to convey a message, so certain things have to happen in a certain way. In season 2 Toichiro had to learn the importance of being there for people no matter what, and in season 3 Mob had to learn to be there for himself. They taught each other those lessons.

So all in all, I agree with your points and think you were really spot on! I'm glad you had the courage, the longer the ask the more interesting things I get to delve into! And don't worry about ever being wrong, I don't think you can ever really be wrong about story interpretation; if an idea resonates with you then it's right, that's all there is to it :)

And your favorite blog!? That's so cool, thank you so much!!!! :) I definitely had a mini-freak out of joy hearing that lol. I'm glad you enjoy my posts and fics! I'm very honored.

[loyal2tray]

Bllk Boys Hc's!!

warnings: none

part 1/?

includes - Itoshi Rin, Itoshi Sae, Yoichi Isagi

reader is implied to be afab



Itoshi Rin

-since he drools a lot, dont be surprised when you wake up next to his drool drenched pillow. its a little gross but hey he cant control it

-watches football like its the news (which it is)

-if you dont wanna watch football, you better find a different tv because hes not changing the channel

-active light snorer

-he tears up when he yawns

-most definitely will put his sleeve on his tear ducts so that the tears don't come down (forgive me if thats not scientifically correct im like half asleep rught now)

-he does like to immediately be cuddled and loved and appreciated his alone time after a stressful game, but won't mind tHAT much if you cuddle him

-will drool on you and deny it if you ask him.

-if u ask him to get you feminine stuff from the store, please send him pics of what it looks like because u could ask him to get pads and homeboy would be in the facial care section

-he is the type of man to have the mindset of, "an eye for an eye" so expect your dumb actions to be reciprocated

-i feel like he would plug his nose when he sneezes so that his ears pop and he doesn't have to spit anywhere on accident

-cried during Underdogs

Sae Itoshi

-loves you more than soccer (or futbol/football depending on who you ask)

-forehead kisses with this man are a must

-no matter if its you kissing him on the forehead or him, its a 100% need

-handholding like as if you're glued to each other

-wear his jersey at all and he's like your own personal paparazzi.

-will flaunt your relationship and treat it like a trophy

-literally does not give a flip flappity fuck if anyone sees him being affectionate to you. it js assures him that everyone knows you're his

-will kiss you just in time for the paparazzi to take a picture

-cuddles

-very protective, especially in very public places

-active hummer

-melts when you wear his stuff

Isagi Yoichi

-hypes you up for events or anything you're excited about

-#1 supporter

-will happily help you learn how to play soccer (futbol/football) or practice with you

-hand holder

-public PDA and hand kisses

-stares at you and then either looks embarrassed or tells you you're beautiful or both

-active feminist

-sleep talks and denies it when you ask him about it

-loves you, loves you, loves you, and loves you. oh and did i say he loves you?

-wouldn't ever dream of hurting you or making you cry, but if he does just be sure he will be trying to get you back immediately.

-cried during the lorax (same)

-this boy is so kind when it comes to you having cramps or anything, he is so clueless about some things but he's also offering to get you whatever you want while you're in pain so how can you blame him?

[osarina]

Hey hey hello!!

I know you are feeling down the past days but I hope it turns all better for you <3 especially with that upcoming trip :)

I don't know if you saw my previous ask or not but I forgot to mention how the song I recommend earlier [ilomilo-billie eilish] fitted much better after the reader in badlands died rather than before...my stupid mind remembered this info after I hit ask and I couldn't stop worrying about it 😅

I also had a little idea of uu!dazai sharing hos own memories of the reader and their death before his own to badlands!dazai before he jumped :'( and badlands dazai freaking out before calming down vowing in his heart to protect the reader just to fail and then get dejavu (*evil laugh*) don't know if this bit is useful to you in that promised last fic of badlands or not but just wanted to share this :D

It could be annoying but I really feel like you should have more appreciation of your way of writing. Not just the characters, but how you write thoughts, feelings, dialogue and even the background scenes are fantastic. I also really like fics that match the vibe of the character it's written about. This is subtley shown in your writing especially with dazai. Even in the happiest fluffy fics, I feel like it always has this light melancholy feel which I hate and love at the same time. I hope you achieve whatever you want to!

Omg This is so long💀 I am so sorry if it was annoyingly long cause I was nervous abt sending you an ask and if I ever do it, then all of those repressed asks come tumbling down and God I am getting embarrassed so byee fyo :>

TUMBLR USER SNOWSILVER2000 AGAIN, im sorry im so slow at answering asks LOLLL i fear that i am the worst forgive me. im sending u all of the love my sweet lil lovebug

OMG I HAVEN'T GOTTEN THE CHANCE TO LISTEN YET SO NOW ILL BE SURE TO KEEP THAT IN MIND WHEN LISTENING <33 see its a good thing sometimes that im abysmally slow at answering asks.

OH MY GODDDDDDD UU DAZAI SOMEHOW BEING ABLE TO WARN BADLANDS DAZAI OF EVERYTHING AND BADLANDS DAZAI STILLLL NOT BEING ABLE TO STOP IT ?? THAT'S SO TRAGIC ILL WEEP, no because i imagine badlands dazai would also be soo overwhelmed by all of the memories too, like idk if you mean uu!dazai shares ALL of his memories with badlands!dazai or only about badlands!reader and what he knows of her ... but could u imagine he shares all of his memories and now badlands dazai has to cope with the fact that he gets reader killed in every universe .. maybe distances himself from her ... and then it all turns out that way anyway ... UGHHHHH waterloo is sooooo tragic. i love tragic romance.

tumblr user silversnow2000 you are so sweet i'll actually cry. that's actually something i try to keep in mind, especially while writing for dazai, because i feel like even in his happiest moments, he'll always be a bit withdrawn and solemn. imo dazai will never rid himself of that air of melancholy that follows him and it genuinely makes me so happy to hear that it translates into my fics. but truly tumblr user silversnow2000 you are so kind to me this was the sweetest compliment anyone has ever given to me, im straight up about to print this and like hang it on my wall for real.

DON'T EVER APOLOGIZE AND DON'T EVER HESITATE TO COME INTO MY ASKBOX, i might take forever to answer them, but they always make me so happy and warm. you're always sooooo happily welcomed here trust <3

[kangshxrtie]

ch. 8 ⤍ valorant

"hiii chat today i'm gonna be playing valorant with kazuha" you greeted your stream once you started.

"we're dating now by the way" you added.

user1 cap

"i'm telling y'all the truth. she's my girlfriend"

user2 you have one of those?

"i get enough of this shit from my friends. i can pull and i'll show y'all today" you told your chat.

user3 sounds delulu

"i will put this shit in emote only" you gave out false threats.

user4 you won't

"okay i take it back, i'm sorry" you apologized.

user5 you better

"y'all bully me too much"

user6 it's our love language

"i think we all as a community should be a little bit nicer. i like to be appreciated"

user7 nahh we good

"i swear my chat shits on me more than the people that hate me do" you chuckled.

user8 FK THEM! only we can do that

"i do love y'all though so please sub to my channel because i've ordered food every day this week. i'm about to be broke"

naoi.rei sounds personal

"rei? how are you chatting right now, i haven't unbanned you yet?" you asked confused.

naoi.rei i unbanned myself

"sounds illegal, i'm reporting you for hacking" you joked.

you talked with your chat for a couple more minutes while waiting for kazuha to message you that she was ready. while you were reading comments one particular comment stood out.

user9 LOOK AT KAZUHA'S TITLE RN

"why? is it embarrassing?" you asked going to look at kazuha's stream.

duo's with bae @gameryn

"see! chat i told you we were dating! don't call me delusional anymore" you exclaimed after seeing the title.

"i should change mine then, it's only fair…" you said out loud going to change yours.

duo's with my gf @k_a_z_u_h_a__

"can you send me your name so i can add you?" you had just gotten into a call with kazuha on discord and were ready to play.

k_a_z_u_h_a__ Today at 7:48 PM bbyongbong #2252

"what is your name?" you asked while laughing.

"it's blackpinks lightstick" she answered making you nod your head in understandment. you typed it in and added her.

while waiting in queue for a match you talked about ranks and the game.

"you know how long it took me to get out of gold! i was there for almost a year!" you complained to the japanese girl.

"if we lose all our games and derank, please do not be mad at me" kazuha said to you.

"kazuha i swear if you throw and i go back back to gold i will actually never talk to you again" you told her.

"i will not purposely throw" she replied.

"i don't trust that but i'll believe you for now" after that conversation the game found a match and you picked your characters.

once the game started you stood in front of her character in game, "you wanna trade skins? my gun sings"

"yess give me" you dropped the skin and grabbed hers.

since the round hadn't started yet you went to go type in kazuha's chat.

gameryn im in y'all gameryn spectrum classic > any other classic

next round you bought a vandal dropping it on her body before she could tell you to sell it.

"dropping a vandal on round two is crazy! how can you afford this?" kazuha asked.

"i trust you'll use it well" you told her with a smile on your face.

"this is why you were stuck in gold"

"now that's just rude" you shook your head at her words, "it might be true though"

since you didn't have anything but a class you died fast and started spectating kazuha.

"you have such a great flank" you told her after she killed the second person. she turned the corner to kill the third person.

"yes, they don't know you're there" you said as she killed the fourth one.

"last one is boat" one of your teammates who just died commed.

she went forward and once she saw him she immediately head shotted the last person.

"holy shit that 4K, you're so hot for that" you hyped kazuha up.

"see! i knew you would do the vandal justice" you said as the next round started.

"it was still a crazy purchase"

during the next round, the enemy phoenix popped and kazuha killed him immediately. she got out of the corner she was hiding in and killed the sage. she held that same corner waiting for another enemy to pop out and they do, killing that one as well.

"hold on i'll bait for you" you told her running up and dying immediately letting kazuha know exactly where they were.

the saw the last one but they both missed their shots so chamber teleported behind making kazuha turn around. since she was hidden behind a wall she planted the spike.

the enemy chamber peeked the corner and kazuha killed him, winning the round and getting an ace.

"that's my duo!" you cheered.

"can you coach me please! i wanna play like you"

"yes! this is my moment" kazuha sat up to become even more focused.

after the round ended you asked kazuha what could have been done better to not die.

"uhm… next time try killing them… i don't know"

"kazuha you literally died first"

"i actually didn't die first; i died second"

"okay… i guess that is a little bit better than first"

"blue dude is windowwwww" you yelled out before dying.

kazuha jumped over a wall before killing the second to last person. she pulled out her knife to get the enemy's gun and died to the last standing person on the enemy team.

"why were you hopping around like that, were you trying to throw?" you asked genuinely.

"you said she was window!" kazuha retorted.

"i said blue dude! viper was unknown"

"okay then that was my fault" kazuha admitted.

"that was really concerning and if you keep playing like that i will leave this lobby" you told kazuha.

"i didn't say anything when you bought me a vandal on ROUND TWO but this is the kind of treatment i get" the japanese girl sighed.

"i believed in you" you simply replied. while you were waiting on the next round to start you took the chance to type in kazuha's chat.

gameryn kazuha is a pro thrower

"this is slander. suing you for defamation" kazuha said after reading your chat.

"why is everyone dead?" you asked once you realized you were alone, "kazuha help me!"

"sova is probably watching the flank" you peeked the corner to see the sova watching a different angle so you swung and headshot him, "yes now the other one has an op, but don't worry you're better. you have a double satchel so use that to swing quickly"

you swung the sage missing every shot, and needing to switch guns before finally head shotting her with a pistol.

"i only saw the last shot. that was so clean" kazuha told you.

gameryn get you a coach that lies to you 😍😍

"maybe you are a good coach" you said afterward.

"see! tell somebody to sign me" she exclaimed.

"you are signed"

"oh shit i am. don't tell my team i said that"

when the next round started you quickly pushed out and killed the first person before quickly moving to cover. you pulled out your ult, unfortunately missing it all. you slowly peeked out from the corner and killed the second one before moving some more and killing the third one from a distance.

you went around hoping to get the fourth one from behind which you luckily did.

"my ace!" you called out just as kazuha killed the last person.

"you have to earn it"

"i actually felt like i deserved that one" you said sadly.

"if only you would have killed them faster than me"

you playfully rolled your eyes before going to kazuha's chat to quickly type something before the next round started.

gameryn L coach

"maybe you would've gotten that ace if you would stay out of my chat and focused on the game" kazuha said.

"kazuha is the worst coach" you told your chat but didn't mute.

"you're unmuted" she told you.

"i know it was on purpose" you replied.

you two won that game and while you were waiting on the next game to start, you started talking about random stuff.

"we should have couple names and become edaters" you suggested to kazuha.

"immediately no" kazuha said.

"but it would be cute"

"i'll pass"

"yeah… that probably is for the best"

the game started and y'all were on the character picking so you asked kazuha, "coach who should i play on this map"

kazuha thought about it for a second, looking at everybody that already picked, "smokes, but of course whoever you're comfortable with"

"so omen" you locked it in.

it was the fourth round when you shot at a wall randomly hoping to at least get one, "that was all me, i got so much info"

"you spent the whole round shooting at a wall"

"yeah and we found out they weren't there"

a couple of rounds later as the spike was about to go off you saw the phoenix ult so you stood behind waiting for his ult to end.

"knife him" kazuha told you and you pulled out your knife successfully knifing him once the body returned.

"two more, there's no way we lose here" kazuha said while waiting for the next game to start. the game was currently 11-3.

"we're definitely losing after that" and you were right.

which led to this moment where you were the last two standing. the score was 11-7.

"i have blind" you told kazuha.

"do it" she told you and threw your blind, then went back to hold the cross with kazuha. you got the kill from the back.

kazuha threw one of her abilities down and you shot the last one threw the wall.

"niceee" kazuha said.

"we've done it. best duo out there. nobody can top us" you said.

it was 12-7 and one of your teammates stuck the bomb before dying and you killed one of the three people left. you teleported away from the bomb watching it from a further angle.

the enemy omen set down a smoke and your teammates pinged the spike for you which you sprayed at, successfully killing the person on spike.

you pushed into the smoke immediately seeing the enemy omen and killed him, winning the game.

"so i think my coaching was successful" kazuha gloated, "i helped you win us that game"

"you were a terrible coach. one star, but only because you're pretty"

"i'll take it" she smiled.

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[eddywoww]

hi i don’t wanna overstep, and if i am pls just ignore ! but if there’s anything we can do please let us know. we all care about you beyond the user and fandom content and want the best for you and your family’s wellbeing. i know they’re probably vent posts, and i 100% respect the hell out of that, but i just wanted to let you know that i hear and see you and if there’s anything that we can do for you, please don’t hesitate to let us know <3

you’re one of my coolest mutuals and i’m always absolutely blown away by your writing and appreciate how much you do for the fandom, and i know other people do, as well. you’re loved and appreciated and yeah - sending you only the Best <3

If it comes down to it, I’ll start a gofundme. It’s the last thing I want to do but things have been so fucking hard these last few months and my entire families life is precarious rn. We have no real way out currently but we’re trying to figure anything out. I can only afford so much and I would like to get into a house for me, my partner, and my mom (this is a whole other thing for my mom but that’s beside the point) but I have to try and figure things out. If I end up needing help, I’ll probably succumb to that even if I feel fucking awful doing so. I’m so ashamed and embarrassed about this entire thing and I wish I could just show everyone what exactly is happening and why it’s so legally hard to do anything.

I feel like I’ll just overstep by complaining and I’ll start annoying everyone on here by not doing what they want me to do. I’m really really trying. I feel that I am mostly safe. Things had been going better and now they’re very bad again, so. Im worried. I’ll keep everyone updated on what happens and what I’m doing about it (mostly, I don’t want to overstep or overshare)

Thank you for being kind and talking to me about it. I feel so fucking out of it and distressed lately, like a cat clawing my way out of water. I just wish the world would stop for one day or I could like, wish things into being better. I’d never ask for anything else because this is so painful, I feel like I’m losing it

[natsukishinomiyaswife]

Hello!!!! I think Cathie is really cute, first off!!! I want to know how the confession went, and any domestic tidbits because im a sucker for those. 💕🕊

Hello skriblee-ksk! ☆

Thank you so much for your ask, and for responding to the OC x Canon ask game I reblogged!

I'm so glad you like Cathie, it makes me so happy that you think they're cute!! The cuties ♡

💕: Who confessed first and how? Did it go as planned or did shenanigans ensue?

So, I actually wrote a fic about this on my old side blog! I'm going to edit and rewrite some of it before I post it again, but here's a summary of what happened, and how it went! (It's pretty much the whole fic lol) So Cater was the one to confess, since Ruthie was oblivious to her feelings for him. His confession takes place months after they first meet, with them talking and getting to know each other throughout this time. She's stop by Night Raven one day, going to Heartslabyul to see Cater. They're in the middle of getting ready for an Unbirthday party, painting the roses and such. Cater stops what he's doing as soon as he sees her, making some clones to continue his work as he heads over to talk with her. They talk for a bit, Cater showing her some videos he was going to send that he knew she would like. A thought occurs to her, and she suddenly asks Cater what his type is. (This is because during the event and throughout all this time, she never learns what his type is, Cater skillfully dodging answering her since she is his type.) Though he doesn't want to ruin what they have, he figures this is the perfect opportunity to finally confess, having to think quickly since he was put on the spot. Due to how oblivious she is, he figures it would be better for him to show her rather than tell her, tapping on his phone for a moment before handing it to her. He has the camera app on his phone selected, with the front facing camera on so that as soon as she looks at the screen, all she sees reflected back is herself. At first she was confused, staring at the screen for a moment before she realized it was her, she was Cater's type. Her heart started pounding, growing flustered as she wondered why she felt this way. Then the realization of, Oh, I have feelings for Cater, suddenly hits her, causing her to become embarrassed and even more flustered at how oblivious she was. After struggling with this sudden realization and rush of feelings for a moment, she responds back to Cater, telling him that he's her type too. And that's how Cathie started dating! ♡

🕊️: Give just a general domestic tidbit for em (things they like about each other, routines, habits, and just overall sweet stuff)

Cater always texts Ruthie good morning and goodnight. It's the first thing he does as soon as he wakes up, and the last thing he does before going to bed. If his phone is broken or taken away, he will ask to use someone else's phone to send it to her. Or he'll get on the computer and send it to her through one of his socials. He NEVER forgets to send her one, and NEVER misses a day. Whenever Ruthie is making sweets, she always makes a savory option for Cater, so that he doesn't feel left out.

Thank you so much for your ask! I really appreciate it! ♡

If anyone else would like to ask about Cathie, either with the questions from the OC x Canon ask game or just in general, please feel free to do so!

I would absolutely love it if you did! ♡♡♡

Thank you! ♡

[akaakeis]

pre relationship 1 2 3 then

What is their height difference? Age difference? Do either matter to them?

Who felt romantic feelings first?

What are some songs that apply to their relationship, in-universe or otherwise?

Who gets jealous easier?

What are their primary love languages?

:3

lina!! thank u for sending in questions ashsjskffk <3 im so new to this i think i fumbled while i was sending someone ask numbers bc i forgot to specify what column i was referring to erm. (EMBARRASSING ASF FOR ME)

pre relationship 1, 2 + 3

we first met when i went to his school to play against the girls' volleyball team!! he was playing first while my team warmed up for our game, and he really caught my eye because he was so good defensively!! at first it was more just me being jealous but then OH MY after the game i went up to him and just bluntly told him i thought it was cool how good he was at defending and we really hit it off <3

oh oops i kinda answered some of this in the last question BUT at first i just thought he was really cool and i admired how good he was with passing and serve receive!! from the very beginning he found me cute for just going up to him to tell him i thought he was cool LMAO and he was interested in me (not necessarily romantically at first, just in general)!!

honestly it was probably him. the more we talked the more he thought that i was cute 😭 at first, he didnt realize that he was feeling that romantically so he didn't act on it. i ended up being the one confessing because he was in denial about having romantic feelings for me!!

What is their height difference? Age difference? Do either matter to them?

we are neaaaaaarly the same height but hes like... an inch taller 😞 we are about 5 months apart!! neither matter much to us though he does get pissed off (not actually but like u get it) if i jokingly say ive grown and "i think i'm taller than you now!!" he's just a liiiiittle insecure about it, but i ofc know that! i just tease him w it LMAOAOA but he knows im joking <3

Who felt romantic feelings first?

i think that was pre relationship question 3, so just look back to that!! i dont wanna be redundant w all my answers 😭

What are some songs that apply to their relationship, in-universe or otherwise?

ooh i haven't really thought about this one before to be honest!! umm i would say the songs yam yam by no vacation , love and doubt by dacelynn , stargazing by the neighbourhood , and are you bored yet? by wallows feat clairo (dont diss on my music taste i was scrolling through my main playlist looking for songs for this and i was STRUGGLING)

Who gets jealous easier?

i honestly think he would!! because i personally have lots of male friends, and i'm close with some of them so... yeah. i feel like i don't get jealous much but when i do i feel so grossed out with myself simply for feeling jealous? idk its a whole cycle

What are their primary love languages?

i truly think that his primary love languages are acts of service and quality time!! hes super appreciative whenever i grab something for him without him asking or when i help him with a chore (or the other way around) <3 and he will take time out of his everyday just so that he will have time to bedrot and watch movies with me at the end of the day!! definitely tries to make it clear that he loves me through actions.

[thisismysecondrodeo]

Hello [im sorry my English is not the best I hope this message is understandable] I just read about Ted and the reader in your nightmares story. I have been having bad nightmares lately so it was very nice to find. I was wanting to know if you would want to write more where Ted Is present when one is happening waking her up or finding her awake already I thank you for your writing and writing this if you do too

AN: Your English is perfect, and I so appreciate the request!! I decided to make this one a continuation of the Henry Bad Dreams fic, but with just Ted there for comfort. 

Rating: General

Tags: Henry Lasso, Established Relationship, Stepmom!Reader, SoloDad!Ted, Domestic Fluff, Emotional Hurt/Comfort

Part 1 | Fic masterlist

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Despite the sweet scene Ted had come home to, and the fact that Henry had comforted you out of your nightmare, Ted wasn’t going to let you off the hook that easily. After the 3 of you woke up and eased into the day, Ted got a call from Roy asking if Henry and Phoebe could have a playdate because he was tired from the game and she was, in his words, “driving me fucking mental.” 

Ted came back from dropping Henry off at Roy’s and you were excited to have him to yourself, but after a few sweet kisses on the couch, Ted pulled back. 

“I don’t want to embarrass you, sweetie, but can we talk about the nightmares?”

You pursed your lips and ducked your head, trying to figure out the best way to approach the topic. “It’s nothing, really. I’m just sorry I woke Henry. Next time, I’ll go downstairs or—”

“Woah, Woah,” Ted shifted on the couch so he could pull your hand into his lap, intertwining his fingers with yours. “I’m real proud of Henry for lookin’ out for you while I wasn’t there. Makes me feel like I’m raisin’ him right, ya know? And to see my two best people all cozy,” Ted released a low whistle, “well that just warms my heart somethin’ fierce. But how long have these nightmares been buggin’ you?”

“To be honest with you, love, it only really happens when you’re not here. It, well, makes me feel a little silly that one night apart has me all,” you flapped your hand in the air, “out of sorts. So I haven’t mentioned it and I get around it. It’s not like you’re gone all that often or for all that long,” you shrugged as you finished. You really didn’t want to make it a big deal, but you did want to be honest. After all, this was what Henry recommended.

Ted released your hand and lifted an arm, tucking you neatly into his side before kissing your forehead. “Well, I’m sorry that it affects you so much when I’m gone. I certainly know a thing or two about anxiety and sleepless nights. And I can’t change the schedule, but maybe we can think of some ways to help.” You tilted your head up to kiss him, already pleased that he was looking for solutions and not just babying you. 

The two of you figured out what worked and settled on an away game system: a FaceTime with Ted before bed, a t-shirt of his to wear to sleep and a spritz of his cologne on the pillow, a voice memo Ted recorded where he talked for 45 minutes straight, and when push came to shove, Henry tucking himself in next to you. 

And it all worked splendidly—you hadn’t thought about a nightmare in months, hadn’t seen 3 am in just as long. But then came Henry’s trip to Kansas. 

You knew you were anxious about spending a month without Henry. You loved your stepson and you loved having him with you, but you also knew he was missing his mom and she deserved time with him. You chalked the nervousness up to sending him by himself overseas, but as he reminded you while you helped him fold up enough jumpers and trousers, he “wasn’t a baby anymore.” 

“I know, but I’m allowed to worry about you,” you chuckled, ruffling his shaggy blond hair. 

“I know,” he groaned, but the smile on his face told you he didn’t mind. “I’m gonna miss you too.” 

You and Ted walked him all the way to the gate, waved as he screamed, “I LOVE YOU,” as he walked through the tunnel, and then had dinner and turned in early, sharing in the sad mood that your son was gone. 

A few hours later you could feel yourself thrashing slightly, the sheets tangling around your waist, but you couldn’t quite reach consciousness. You felt stuck in your nightmare, half-asleep and half-awake, but finally, you could surface enough to hear Ted calling your name. When you opened your eyes and sat up your sleep top was damp and clinging to you and your heart was racing. Ted had gotten out of bed and already gotten you a glass of water from the bathroom sink, which he pressed gently into your hands as you tried to even out your breathing. 

“Deep breaths sweetheart. Here, follow me,” Ted took the hand not holding the water, and held it to his bare chest so you could feel his lungs expand and release. When you had caught your breath enough, you gulped some water and set the glass on your nightstand. You looked at Ted and saw the concern in his eyes before hiding your face in your hands. 

“Sorry, I didn’t mean to wake you,” you mumbled and Ted stood from the bed so he could climb behind you, one leg on either side of yours so he could pull you back into his chest and rock you gently. 

“You don’t have to apologize, sweetheart,” Ted said softly, and it did something to you to both hear those words and feel the vibration of his chest against your back. He dropped a kiss against your temple. “I’m not going to say you didn’t scare me, but I’m glad I was here. Is that what it’s always like?” 

“Pretty much you,” you sighed, stroking your hand along Ted’s forearms where he held you tightly. “Reminds me a little of your panic attacks.” 

“Me too,” Ted agreed. “I thought it only happened when I wasn’t here?” 

“I thought so too.” 

Ted kissed your temple again. “Any idea what brought it on tonight?” 

“Honestly,” you twisted around to look at Ted. He was scruffy and sleepy, but his eyes were engaged. “I think it’s because Henry’s gone.” 

Ted’s eyebrows raised and he couldn’t help but grin at you. “I don’t mean to make light of it because that nightmare sure seemed scary…but welcome to parenthood, darlin’. I love how much you love our boy, even if it means gettin’ anxious when he’s gone.” 

You hummed, thinking it over as tears came to your eyes, “maybe what it really means is that I’m not cut out for it.” 

“No, no, no,” Ted shushed you gently, “I would say worryin’ about us the way you do proves just the opposite. You just have to have faith that you’re doin’ all you can to keep the people you love safe.” He used a thumb to wick away the tears from your eyes, before tilting his chin up to kiss you. 

“Now, we’ve got about…,” Ted leaned over to check the time on his nightstand clock, “one hour until Henry’s flight lands and we can call him. What do you say we put on a rom-com and relax until then, and then we can get some real shut-eye?”

“Oh you don’t have to stay up for me, Ted, I’ll just—” 

Ted lovingly ignored you and reached for the remote for the little-used TV in the corner of the room, flipping around until he found something familiar and fluffy. He didn’t release you from his grasp, so you just cuddled down into him, pressing your cheek to his shoulder and kissing his jaw. Both of you managed to stay awake until it was a reasonable enough time to call Henry, and he picked up from the backseat of his mom’s car. 

He looked tired but he was beaming into the camera and told you about the flight and the crying babies on it, the movies he watched, and the dinner and snacks he had. Seeing him made something inside you click into place and when Michelle announced that they were home you felt like you could easily go back to sleep knowing your boy was safe.

“Goodnight,” Henry exclaimed and Ted grinned at his son. 

“Goodnight Henry,” the two of you said in unison and Henry giggled. 

Just as Ted was about to hang up the call, you heard Henry say, “Love you, Dad! Love you, Mum!” 

Mum. Your eyes widened and you looked at Ted and he looked just as surprised as you. Neither of you had time to respond before Henry had already disappeared. 

“Did you—” You started to ask Ted if he knew Henry called you that, but before you finished the question he was shaking his head, a small smile on his face. 

“No, I had no idea. But I can’t say I’m not pleased that my boy has a mom and a mum. How are you feelin’? Think you can sleep?” 

Ted wiggled around you so he was on his side of the bed again, and both of you relaxed back into the sheets grinning at each other on your respective pillows. 

“Now that our boy is safe, yeah I think so,” you leaned over and gave Ted one more kiss, overwhelmed not only by the love and care he showed you but this new life that brought you so much joy. 

“Goodnight, Mum.”

“Goodnight, Dad.” 

<- Part 1

[prettyboykatsuki]

Hey Fang I just wanna say. I admire you so much. I know you’re just some guy, but I feel that. We are both just some guys. Some fellas. Maybe this is parasocial or weird idk I hope it’s not too weird ;; But I just want to tell you. I’m too shy to send this through dms so i’m sending it through inbox on anon. I know we’ve interacted a few times but I still get so shy because I think you’re cool. I know you don’t think you’re all that but i think its amazing how easily you seem to articulate your thoughts and how well you write. The words you choose to describe things, the saccharine ways you describe eroticism and love, the stories you come up with in your head. I think it’s so cool. I love your explanations and writings about feelings. Maybe its parasocial or something (can you tell im scared of being too weird about this) but I relate to a lot of things you talk about too. It feels nice, and it makes me feel seen knowing i’m not the only one thats gone through certain things or thats thought of certain things. So I guess part of what I’m also trying to say is that I really appreciate you and your whole account. I appreciate you a whole lot <3

this is so nice ;;;; i dont know what to say to it ;;

i really dont think of myself in any sort of way like im fr fr some guy but it makes me?? happy that you see this in me or find this to be true of me in anyway. im really flattered by that and i hope u know it would never be weird to me at all. and this isn't parasocial to me either!!! its just very kind and im so embarrassed... the way u describe my work in particular rlly moves me i feel very emotional seeing it...

im glad that i make u feel safe!! and comfortable enough to send me this ask!!! i hope that we can continue existing in this space together for a long time!!

[tonydaddingham]

the reading comprehension on this godforsaken website is genuinely insane. it's such shit ppl went after you for responding. fwiw you singlehandedly restored my faith in the GO fandom a little while back, some of the only well thought-out takes for miles (til i started clicking on the reblogs n found more). there was nothing wrong with defending yourself from people who didn't even read the meta. for something you put this much effort into, it'd be weirder not to be defensive

ive sat on the whole thing over the last dozen or so hours now, with a good mixture of upset, anger, some kind of numbness, and incredible amounts of anxiety. i posted that response out of the second; i was really angry, and i flew off the handle. whilst i don't appreciate being told by the other anon that i shouldn't be so attached/shouldn't have been so upset, they have a point, and were right to highlight (intentionally or not) at the very least that that is the root of the problem. i likened the fiasco to some secondary school bullshit, but i didn't realise - or want to acknowledge - that that applied to me too. the whole thing has reawakened ancient history that i thought i had gotten over years ago - more than a decade ago, even - and it very much turns out that that isn't the case, and was simply buried. the uncomfortable thing i also ran into is that the incident has made me re-examine myself with a little more, and definitely overdue, scrutiny - the post attacked at what i now think was my ego, and my over-confidence, and sense of entitlement. that's so uncomfortable to admit, but here we are.

i don't mind people disagreeing with me, but i still stand firm that i don't think sending an ask ridiculing someone, or adding tags that equally can be interpreted as being plain unkind, is a nice thing to do. it's shit - i felt humiliated, and self-conscious in a fandom that until this point, for all my controversial takes 😂 - had made me feel that i had a space to share them, and whilst may not be agreed with, would still be valued by nature of them belonging to a person. i have no doubt that everything on that post wasn't at all personal, but it still felt that what i had spent a lot of time, excitement, and joy writing was worthy of being laughed at, as if i were stupid for writing it (let me be clear - idc if people think the original post and the take within it is wrong, that's absolutely fair enough). it then called into question - what else have people been nice to me about, politely interacting with me about, and yet elsewhere those same people are being horrible about it?

that line of overthinking is entirely my issue, that's noone else's fault, but i do think that had these people just simply kept their opinion to a DM, or somewhere else where the original poster is unlikely/not going to see it, it might have all been avoided. people are entitled to share their opinion, i have no issues with that fact, but it can have consequences... just like the consequences of me rb'ing it once the anger had set in, and i ceased to think rationally. i am sorry that i reacted out of anger, without much - if any - rational thought; that it was bitchy as fuck, and - without the maelstrom of emotion attached to it, as it was from my perspective - it was objectively uncalled for. im embarrassed i reacted like that, and im aware that its only served to make me come across as even more ridiculous than the original post ever could 😂 but i want to settle in with what this has brought up, especially the shitty stuff that i thought i had long gotten over, and look at why i reacted the way i did - i think i was right to defend myself, but perhaps not in the way that i did.

as a separate note, and just really as a PSA to anyone waiting on me in my ask box or has sent me messages - im going to halt on posting any original posts/asks for a while (knowing me, because i can't help myself, a 'while' will probably be like a day). that's in part because im shitting bricks about posting anything in general (this ask response included), but also because - like i said before - i don't want to continue posting stuff when im now wondering how much is coming from a less-than-humble place - im worried that it's a lot more than i ever thought, which is vulnerable, but that's how it goes.

[trobeds]

alright last thing for tonight:

scenarios for raeda!! tell me as many as you want i’d love to hear them all

HAVIIIII ILY THANK YOU FOR SENDING ME RAEDA !! needed to talk about my Vision because im insane about it so this is much appreciated

ok so during the hiatus i got incredibly fucked up over the idea of raine being possessed/under mind control and eda like. pleading with them to listen and like grabbing their face and calling them rainestorm and saying sorry for pushing them away and trying to talk to them because she doesnt want to hurt them!! she just wants them back :( and now that raine is actually confirmed possessed by belos i have remembered and now i cannot stop thinking about the final battle n shes just trying to bring them back and they keep trying to fight her but shell let herself get hurt. she just cant hurt them. and eventually when they wont listen she loses her fucking mind like she blows shit up and her owl beast is coming out n shes so full of rage that people keep taking raine away from her and shes crying. there are tears 100% her vision is blurry shes so angry and so so so :( btw i KNOW im cringe but if eda had a whole ass monologue where she apologized and tried to tell raine how much they meant to her between trying to defend herself from belos-raines attacks and like raine started trying to fight the mind control. i would not be opposed. i would not be opposed at all. would also not be opposed to eda kissing raine to try and get them to stop being possessed. also its gorgeous the colors n lighting are stunning. i have a vision in my mind and it is So Pretty also very dramatic. gay ppl are known for having dramatic gay fights

ALSO ANOTHER SCENARIO

eda leaving her room to visit puppet raine is CANON i am winning life being the raeda stan i am but like . she comes to them every time she needs comfort n misses luz or wishes things could go back to normal and she will hold raines hand and call them rainestorm in this voice i can picture so clearly in my head. i am like soinsane somebody help she sits with them in silence when she misses the feeling of home. kill me.

also a few happier hcs:

luz educates eda on milfs and eda is like. that is ME so she buys raine an 'i love milfs' shirt that they r so embarrassed to wear but they secretly love it

raine loses their fucking mind when they see edas new look. they are going to make the same eyes they made at harpy eda and i know because i know raine better than all of you actually

they are gonna be soo insufferable when they get together like they will 100% be THAT couple. theyve been separated long enough that they r gonna be attached at the hip and really annoying about it once theyre back together

eda the owl beast n raine curled up together in edas nest :( somebody sedate me

they have conversations through glances and they perfected that art way back in hexside. would just look at each other whenever they got caught pulling pranks to try n plan their next move while principal faust would yell at them, and now theyre just incredibly good at reading each other. married behavior honestly

sometimes raine will be sitting n doing nothing and eda will rest her chin on the top of their head and bother them just because she can <3

they are just so beloved to me i might sob actually. sorry this was so long aha but thank u for the ask !!

[osarina]

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYY 😊

Tuck in cos this is going to be a long one carina!

I wasn't able to send this to you on ur bday since I was unexpectedly very busy the last couple days

I just wanted to express how good of a writer you are. Your works are the highlight of the day or week. When I discovered your work, I really just felt like I found a once in a lifetime best friend rather then just words. Whenever I am feeling lost, sad or just not in the headspace I read one of your works. You write so subtly expressing everything without overwhelming the readers and leave then to find out details and cherish them. You are one the very very few people who deeply understands complex characters like dazai and project them perfectly. Your works are the ones that make me fall in love more and more with dazai. Heck in fact I didn't even like dazai that much until you trapped me in this beautiful illusions of character of dazai. If there was a museum for literature, then yours would deffo be there. Your works just have that comforting embrace and a soft vibe that I adore. I am thankful I joined the bsd Fandom just because I found your works. You are my inspiration whenever I write something, I want to bend the words and play them out like you do. I fell down the rabbit hole of fanfics from covid time and till now I am a great enjoyed of them, and till now only a few to be exact 4 people from different fandoms have amazed me through writing and one of them is deffo you. One of my goals in life is to write like you do. I think at this point it's safe to say that I am deeply obsessed by your works 😅. I also appreciate your humbleness and kindness to those who interact with you while setting firm boundaries. Your works just itch that spot in my brain that I wasn't able to reach. So thank you for presenting us your masterpieces since I can probably imagine how much confidence and courage it may take! If I met you irl, then I would deffo want you as my bestie since I think you are really pleasant. I don't wanna trauma dump but i found your blog when someone close to me died and I felt really alone and that's when I found your masterpieces. So again I thank you from the deepest parts of my heart. Whenever I remember bsd, you will also be in my mind. For ur works belong in the top shelves of libraries.

P.s pls know that it's not my intention to weird you out or something. I was planning this when I asked your b day. If you felt uncomfortable or embarrassed pls forgive me as that was not my intention. I just thought you needed some much deserved appreciation. Think of this as my b day gift :>. I know that no words can express your works' beauty but I tried. Don't forget to take care of yourself and I am looking forward to civzai this week! 😊 wishing you a prosperous and a happy year!!!!

AHHHHHH TUMBLR USER SILVERSNOW2000 ILY SOOOOO MUCH IM SORRY IT TOOK ME LITERALLY ALMOST A WEEK TO ANSWER BUT I'VE BEEN SO BUSY WITH GETTING MYSELF AND MY SISTER READY FOR MOVING </33333

no because truly you have me tearing up right now, i don't even have words to explain how warm my heart feels right now. i almost didn't want to answer your ask because i wanted to hoard it for as long as i could. truly this is something i'm going to come back and reread hundreds of times over whenever i'm feeling down thank you so much im genuinely so teary eyed right now reading this. i'm so sorry to hear that someone close to you died, im sending you my deepest condolences, i'm glad that my fics could help you even just the tiny bit. i've always wanted my blog to be a safe space for people to come to whenever they need something to help them escape from the real world and all of the shittier parts of life so genuinely im so glad my blog could be that space for you during such a hard time.

i'm sending you all of the love, hugs and forehead kisses right now my sweet tumblr user silversnow2000, thank you for this precious ask, i'll treasure it for so long

[mechformers]

Not a ask(kinda):

Hiii, love the story “ma miles” and I love the way u write the relationship between spider and his mother it’s so cute😚 anyways I was wondering how would Quaritch react to the learning that the reader was taking care of him while he was unconscious❓

Anyways love the way u write have a lovely evening

(Ps. Im high rn so if it doesn’t make sense that’s why lmao😭)

Thank you so much for your kind words! I just felt that Spider deserved better than what we got. Jake, specifically, disappointed me and the way they did Neytiri with her hatred... That's my girl, alright. I was so conflicted about her and the way she acted toward Spider throughout the entire movie 😔💔 Because let's be honest, it's all because of who his father is. There's been humans around her since she was a kid, she's even mated to one and have children with him. Her hatred stems solely from the fact that Quaritch is Spider's father and nothing else 😤 He's an innocent child who has no part in what has happened before... Ugh, sorry - I rambled away there 🙈🤭😂

Anyway, as for your question! We're actually going to see how that goes down in chapter 17! And let me just clue you in that our beloved little disgruntled angry kitty, is not a happy trooper (read: embarrassed as heck lol) It'll also be revealed what Neytiri did and let me just tell you again how that does not go down well for anyone involved 😇🙏 The next chapter will be from Quaritch's point of view too, so we'll get an extra little look into what's going on inside his head 😁👏

I'm a day "late" for my usual approximate posting schedule and still writing writing away on the chapter, but hopefully, I'll be able to post it some time tonight - at the latest, tomorrow.

I must admit, the 2160p web release has sidetracked my attention, demanding that I watch through atwow in 0.02x speed 😂👌🙈 And oh gosh, let me tell you, there's so much we've missed 👀👀

Again, thank you so much for reading the story and for your kind words! I really appreciate you taking the time to do so, and then to send me an ask as well, SO MUCH!😭🙏❤️❤️