#Idk if i'm gonna cancelled for this or not idk I get very paranoid about that

[spookyspeks]

maybe an entitled hot take but those "I hate british people" jokes really feel more sour and annoying now considering here in britain we're having our basic human rights taken away by the government and most of us want to escape the country

But sure, british people are the worst

[cringesideblog]

here’s my dnf playlist and a complete song by song track-list and why I put them on it.

heatwaves- on here for very obvious reasons. i don’t think I need to explain. but here are some lyrics anyway. “Sometimes all I think about is you, late nights in the middle of June.”

Jenny- again this is kinda obvious. “I wanna ruin our friendship, we should be lovers instead, I don’t know how to say this, cuz you’re really my dearest friend.”

TALK ME DOWN- this one just has the best friends pining for eachother vibe. “I wanna sleep next to you, and that’s all I wanna do right now.”

Dark paradise- kinda has dream smp vibes. but also you could argue heatwaves vibes. “Everytime I close my eyes, it’s like a dark paradise.” “There’s no relief, I see you in my sleep.” “There’s no release, I feel you in my dreams.”

Sweater weather- yeah you know why. you absolutely know why. “All I am is a man, I want the world in my hands. I hate the beach but I stand, in California with my toes in the sand.”

Drop the Guillotine- idk man just vibey. give it a listen you’ll get it. it’ll click. “You sure know how to drop that guillotine on me, though you would never wanna see me bleed.”

Can I call you tonight?- thats on their only for of communication being through the phone huh. (major heatwaves vibe) “powers out and I can’t turn the fan on, so can I call you tonight? trying make up my mind, just how I feel.”-“I hear your voice on the phone, now I’m no longer alone.”

Lemon boy- oh my god this song. geogre do be seeing dream as his lemon boy. “I helped him plant his seeds and we’d mow the lawn in bad weather.”

Yellow- DREAM IS LITERALLY GEORGES YELLOW SHUT UP RIGHT NOW. “Look at the stars, look how they shine for you.” “For you I’d bleed myself dry.”

Like you do- first of all I love this song, second, this has dream being a little too attached vibes. The whole song is just them. “Lost in the blue, they don’t love me like you do, those chills that I knew they were nothing without you, and everyone else they don’t matter now. You’re the one I can’t lose, no one loves me like you do.” “Since I met you, all the gloomy days just seem to shine a little more brightly.”

I saw you in a dream- mega heatwaves vibe. “When I’m awake I can’t switch off,” “I saw you in a dream, you came to me. You were the sweetest apparition, such a pretty vision.”

Maybe you’re the reason- did someone say pining best friend who doesn’t know that they’re in love ? this song. this song right here. “I keep looking for something, even though I know that it’s not there. Maybe you’re the reason. And anytime I try to figure it out, you’re the only thing I can think about.”

The king- DREAM SMP VIBE. “You like me, well obviously, so why you tryna leave when you know that I’m the king?” “Other lovers give you no luck, cuz I’m the only one who’s made you fall in love.” “Playing with your heart cuz you gave me the throne.”

Sweet- an adorable song truly that actually fits them so well. “Watching the, video that you sent me- you know that I’m obsessed with your body, but it’s the way you smile that does it for me.” “It’s so sweet, knowing that you love me.”

Apocalypse- um okay here me out, apocalypse au?? yeah i know it’s cute as shit you’re welcome. “Your lips my lips, apocalypse.” “When you’re all alone, I will reach for you, when you’re feeling low, I will be there too.”

Fear of the Water- don’t come for me this ones kinda sad, beautiful song though. “If this was meant for me why does it hurt so much, and if you’re not made for me why did we fall in love?”

Dreaming of you- two words, heat. waves. but also yeah good song for them in general. “Want you all the time, and now I’m dreaming, dreaming, dreaming, dreaming of you.”

Wires- uhhhhh dream smp vibe, dream villain arc n all . “If he said help me kill the president, id say he needs medicine.” “He said that I should take it in, listen to every word he’s speaking.”

Midnight love- it’s girl in love so, you already know how it issss. “I know I don’t want to, be the one that you run to, when you’ve got nowhere else to go, when you need some love.” “I always give in to give you it all.” “I can’t be your midnight love, when your silver is my gold.”

The beach- SUCH A HEATWAVES SONG JUST LISTEN. “I feel it burning me, I feel it burning you.” “I think I can see the beach, I know what’s underneath. I need you here with me,”

Cherry flavored- the neighborhood just.. they have a dnf vibe. “Cherry flavored conversations with you got me hanging on. Down to earth from all the waiting. Take me somewhere beyond.”

Pretty boy- geogre is a pretty boy. point blank period. “Even if my heart stops beating, you’re the only thing I need with me.” “Pretty boy, you did this with me boy.” “As long as I got you, I’m gonna be alright.”

Bad idea- girl in reddd... but like imagine them casually hooking up and not knowing their in love tho. also I feel like they would definitely think that their relationship is a “bad idea” bc they’re stupid. “It was a bad idea, to think I could stop, was such a bad idea, I can’t get enough.” “Darling your so pretty it hurts.”

Line without a hook- ICONIC!! dream definitely does not think that he deserves george. “You can hold my hand if no ones home.” “All my emotions feel like explosions when you are around” “Oh baby I am a wreck without you.” “She’s a, she’s a lady, and I am just a boy. She’s a, she’s a lady, and I am just a line without a hook.”

Say you hate me- mega dream smp vibes as of recently. with the whole removing geogre as king. “I guess that your friends where right, from the start when they thought that I was a bad guy.” “Can you just say that you hate me? Or that you will never love me?” “Never meant to make you leave, never meant to make you cry.”

Cherry bomb- reminds me of how dream cheated on fundy with geogre. “I’m too close to crushing, and I’m too close for comfort I’m rushing.” “I ask how shes so mellow, she tells me her shades are in yellow.”

This side of paradise- I mean, like, kinda heatwaves vibes, but also just them. “Ask me why my hearts inside my throat. I’ve never been in love I’ve been alone.” “If you’re lonley come be lonley with me.”

Linger- geogre literally has that boy wrapped around his finger and I can’t not see it in this song. But when you look into it HELLA dream smp vibes, lyrics can be switched for either perspective here. “You know I’m such a fool for you, you got me wrapped around your finger.” “I thought the world of you, I thought nothing could go wrong, but I was wrong,”

august- i don’t know what is but this song is for them. it just is. “To live for the hope of it all. Cancel plans just in case you'd call” “So much for summer love, and saying “Us” Cause you weren't mine to lose”

I was an island- i just love the idea of them being hardasses and not thinking they need anyone until the other comes into their life and rocks their world. kinda dream smp vibes “I was a fighter, and I was so brave, but I lowered my sword when you held me and swore you’d stay.” “I was a wolf, dear, apart from the pac But you answered my cries in the dead of the night and told me that you had my back,”

Golden- k this one feeds into the “you’re literally the sun in my sky I’m not worthy” feel “I know you were way too bright for me I'm hopeless, broken” “I know that you're scared Because hearts get broken” “I can feel you take control Of who I am and all I've ever known Loving you's the antidote”

Strong- ummm okay but the “we’re better together” dynamic is them “I’m sorry if I say I need ya, but I don’t care I’m not scared of love.” “when I’m not with you I’m weaker is that so wrong? Is it so wrong, that you make me strong.”

Fly out west- the whole, I need to see you, you’re all I think about, stuff gets me. also heatwaves vibe. “Well tell me do you know? You’re all I dream about. Take it from me I’m too dumb to recognize your doubt.”

Cruel summer- them and summer, you dig? “I don’t wanna keep secrets just to keep you.” “I love you and that the worst thing you ever heard?”

Nothings gonna hurt you baby- I put this one on here because of how protective dream is over geogre “Nothing’s gonna hurt you baby, as long as your with me you’ll be just fine. Nothings gonna hurt you baby, nothings gonna take you from my side.”

Cardigan- young love, the kind of lover that makes you feel like you are the most important thing in the world to them “when you are young they assume you know nothing, but I knew you-“ “and when I felt like I was an old cardigan under someone’s bed, you put me on and said I was your favorite.”

Cry baby- them being in that weird stage where they recognize that it might be more than just senseless flirting and they might have feelings but also being paranoid that they’re the only one with feelings uh- “I can taste it my hearts breaking, please don’t say it. That you know, when you know.” “I know I’ll fall in love with you baby, but that’s not what I wanna do baby.”

Speak now- literally the fundy dream wedding. i rest my case. “I hear the preacher say speak no or forever hold your peace.” “Dont say yes runaway now.”

I love you so- this song is cute on the surface but kinda sad once you look into it. it’s kinda about a codependent love that isn’t going well. “I gotta get away and let you go I gotta get over, but I love you so.” “You were cool and I’m a fool so please let me go.”

In conclusion I’d really appreciate if you could check it out :) <3

[angelichl]

warning signs for abusive relationships in your experience? i've been in a relationship for a few months now and i'm kind of concerned. it's nothing major like it's almost to the point where its just enough to be worried, he'll do things like consistently want to check my phone or know where I'm going and he often becomes frustrated when i deny him of those things. he's never been violent or overly aggressive but its just a bit worrying, i could just being paranoid but idk

i’m gonna start by saying if you’re thinking your relationship might be abusive, there’s a good chance it is. people in healthy relationships tend to not think/worry about these things. if your gut is telling you something is wrong, trust it - or at least ask a friend or family member for a second opinion.

one of the biggest warning signs for me is when my friends/family would be shocked when i told them things my abuser would do - things i thought were typical for relationships. having someone else appraise the situation from an outside perspective can give you some clarity - but be careful bc they might accuse you of overreacting, even if you aren’t.

my advice would be to communicate with him (if you feel safe enough to do that) and tell him you feel like it’s an invasion of privacy for him to check your phone and he should be able to trust you. and if he reacts badly to that, by becoming irrationally angry/upset/etc, and doesn’t listen to, understand, or respect your reasoning, it’s time to decide if this is a relationship you really want to be in.

here are some other things to pay attention to:

the big things: a.) your partner physically harms you or threatens to harm you (or your pets or the people you love, etc) b.) your partner tries to control your behavior c.) you are frightened of your partner / scared of how they may react to certain things

a few resources of warning signs: 1, 2, 3 - if any of these things are typical, reach out for help.

some things about my own experience: my relationship wasn’t violent until the very end where i was really trying to get away from him. i was in denial for so long, and then i was doubting it a lot when i started noticing the signs. it was a mess all over the place but the biggest thing was probably the verbal/emotional abuse. he would put me down every chance he got, insulting me and telling me i was stupid, ugly, incapable, that i was lucky he loved me bc no one else ever would. it was subtle at first but when we would fight, he would say it all clearly. he would embarrass/humiliate me in front of my friends, his friends, and even his parents. he would constantly compare me to this other girl, asking why i didn’t wear tight/revealing clothes like she did when he liked that so much. and when i wasn’t comfortable having sex he would say “but if i was dating her…” (fill in the blank).

the other part was him controlling me. he told me not to hang out with people and i did as he said bc i didn’t want to upset him. eventually i had ruined all my friendships by not responding to messages and etc. he checked my social media and got mad when certain guys would like my photos. he read my messages even when i begged him not to - he said he couldn’t trust me and he had to see for himself if i was being unfaithful to him. he demanded to know where i was at any given time and if i didn’t respond for even 15 minutes he would get so angry and upset and the next time i would talk to him he would be in hysterics, threatening to leave me, threatening to tell everyone “the truth” about me, threatening to harm himself (”i’ll kill myself if i can’t have you”), etc. 

the violence was casual at first- grabbing me too hard, pinching me, scratching me, shoving me, being a little too rough when we were intimate and not trying to change/fix anything even when i told him it hurt. it got a lot worse as time went on and kind of spiraled out of control. my main point about mentioning this is that you should really be wary if your partner ever hurts you intentionally, even if it’s just pinching you or elbowing you. because if you stay long enough, you’ll see it get worse.

lastly was the isolation. i didn’t realize it at first, but he kept me from my friends and family. he would constantly demand my time/attention and guilt me when i didn’t give it to him. i was cancelling plans all the time just to hang out with him, and then after a few months my friends stopped inviting me bc they knew i would say no, and i sort of lost touch with my family bc they didn’t like him and didn’t want me to be with him, and he hated them anyways.

i’m not sure if any of this is helpful, but i hope maybe it’ll help you see warning signs. i know from personal experience an abusive relationship can be a lot more dubious and subtle than the warning signs on a website. but if you’re noticing a few similarities, or even if you just have a bad feeling that something is wrong, listen to those warnings.

be smart about this and be strong. don’t let people push you around. find friends/family / people you can trust, and confide in them. let them help you. reach out to resources, tell authority figures, document any abuse.

sorry this is such a mess. hopefully this was helpful. if you ever want to talk, i’m here. wishing you the best.