#ITS ALMOST 4AM I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS FOR THIS SERIES THAT I CANT ARTICULATE ;__;

[gryphsdeadbones]

Did you prefer Half Life 1 or 2? I got into a debate about it with my sister the other day, I'm curious what you think. (also I love your art so much)

WAHHH THANK YOU ;;;;;;

oh man i can never decide- even tho they’re the same series they give off vastly different vibes-

i really like the retro feel of half life 1 games, being released in ‘98 and all- theres also like potential for some of the protags (namely gina and colette god DAMN im salty its not for pc or included in the steam bundle)

they got potential to maybe...make a return somewhere if/when they wrap up half life for good (adrian pls come home). like y’know tying some lose ends than just one-off if that makes sense? if not thats okay too, theres always fanon

despite the rescas happening in hl1 theres still like? a sense of normalcy and stability somewhere. civilization still exists. you get to see gordons dorm room in hl decay. you get to see some of the security guards kinda chill in blue shift and even help you out in opposing force. you can do dumb shit like explode the microwave casserole

also the cafeteria is fuckin hilarious to me like

BIG TONY’S PIZZA!!!

even though the levels are designed kinda funky its like- you can kinda like??? picture life pre-rescas. gordon, gina and colette were all doing their scientist things. barneys just around making the best of his situation after 2 years in college (mood)

maybe its like the nostalgia factor. but its nice! even if black mesa is very fucked up and has a lot of osha violations stacked up

despite the background stuff in hl1 its also...very very lonely. the npcs dont follow far enough for you to save them and xen feels like a fever paranoia dream with all the dead hev scientists strewn everywhere

gameplay-wise its also nice to freely move around in cutscenes. adhd mood of moving around while scientist npcs are talking

i found half life 1 games surprisingly hard?? the use key is also kinda broken for me and oh my god i struggled a lot with the maps and fights ksjfnsdkfj

half life 2 on the other hand...holy FUCK the graphics are obviously better etc. etc. etc.

heres a random screenshot i took while in the metal coffin cuz why not

also this Death Orb of Oh Fuck

the use key is very fun too i hit many enemies with items and grav gun

gameplay-wise half life 2 is a lot more intuitive ?? and overall just better designed

theres of course an entire post about the characters- the cast is super super good 

and if i had to nitpick something, i dislike the fact that alyx and judith kinda conflict with each other for whatever petty reason (idk like those old ? ? cartoons or shows where the female charas hate each other for no reason?? judith could be like a cool aunt to alyx ok) idk maybe thats just me. anyway i love them and want them to be happy

eli and isaac ;__; i also care them... eli’s been through so goddamn much, lost so much in black mesa... please give him a nice vacation ok!! i also want to know more about azian vance... isaac kleiner is a very kind and sweet man and im always sad when magnusson yells at him :(

barney is there i guess. ok but hes good too even if he yells at me about those stupid grenades and snipers. give him a god damn hug bro its been 20 years

anyway MEGA upgrade of the cast from hl1 theyre no longer static, one-off characters (the core cast at least. i get so fuckin sad when the resistance members dont survive the fights T_T)

makes me a little sad theres no longer that old sense of stability in that world, everything’s fallen apart and gone and you always have to keep moving or die. as in like- there really is no telling what’s going to happen next since it feels all gloom and doom- animals being extinct, combine around the corner, old homes gone and dusted... pretty fucked up. your standard kind of apocalypse written in 2000s and what not

but there is still hope with the resistance. theyre your family and home now and its better than being alone

kind of inverse with half life 1 where like. yeah you’ve defeated the big bad nihilanth and survived the rescas but also gman stuffed you in the fridge while the seven hour war happens some time after

...uh holy shit this got long- MANY THOUGHTS....HEAD FULL....

TLDR THEYRE BOTH REALLY GOOD...half life 1 might seem like shit but it should also be appreciated more!! (Read: gina and colette half life decay pls and thank)

i wanna play all of hl1 AND hl2 again now thank u anon

[violetsoju]

i took an online introductory mandarin course during the lockdown and it took me almost half a day to get through two 10-minute videos about basic vocab and grammar because i could only pay attention for three minutes before i opened another tab for tumblr or youtube LOL T-T my brain would not be able to handle school anymore

i had never had shaking hands or heart palpitations from caffeine before!! usually i just get a headache. but i was working that day so i had to try very hard to appear like i wasn't suffering HAHA despite this i still like boba, but i can't have it at night anymore (one time i stayed awake until 4am, it was absolutely dreadful) ಥ_ಥ

i feel bad when i find my books all covered in dust from sitting around untouched for years, but it's always a nice reminder of the worlds i was temporarily transported to when i read them (◡‿◡)

also LIN!! did you do synchro swimming!?? cuz that IS SO INTENSE WOWZA i used to take swimming lessons and the chlorine was the worst part! always had to have goggles so idk how on earth the synchro swimmers do it, i would just be crying underwater

yvonne yvonne im putting this under the cut bc i got excited and got carried away hahahaha 👉👈

omg half a day for two 10-minute videos i have never felt this so much T_T hopefully the course was helpful tho!! and yeah even when i drag myself to the library to get work done, i cant focus without closing the tumblr and youtube tabs :'))) im guilty of scrolling tumblr and discord while lectures or tutorials are on-going too at times LOL

aaah thats good thats good T_T i think heart palpitations and head pounding are the max for me to suffer from alr, def would not want to venture into shaking hands ;_; omg bc same!! i couldnt resist having milk tea during a christmas dinner party once (it was so so good tho T_T) and oh my god i was staring at the celling wide awake until 4/5am too :')) but surprisningly viet coffee is alright for me, i wonder why hmmm

hey at least your books are covered w dust in all its glory while some of mine are still wrapped cosily in plastic after years........ 💀 but when you randomly pick them up when feeling nostalgic and flip the pages that have turned yellow, those feels are really :'))) i springclean my room once a year (bc cny and thats the time where asian moms go all frenzy w springcleaning hhh) but theres a certain selection of books that still make the cut till today ♡ and ngl the amount of series that i bought on impulse bc of fomo and bc they were the thing back then that i have donated away are.... coughs coughs any hot takes on which series they were hhhh

hahahaha i did!! back when i was younger heheh for fun tho!! ntg serious mainly bc i was just there for fun and i wasnt flexible enough LOL (my coach used to ask my mom what milk formula she fed me bc my bones were hard as hell hhhh) plus i cant for my life open my eyes underwater so i never did group routines -> never making it to the next level hhh. i used to be that kid who just wanted to try anything and everything so synchro swimming made it to the list too 😂 looking back it is quite intense i would say, lots of physical and mental strength needed. physical bc you need good stamina and muscle strength to flop in and out the water like a fish w grace w limited air supply, mentally bc the pools we trained in were diving pools so they were real deep, real real deep. i forgot exactly how deep it was but in a section of the pool there was an inverted pyramid at the base. our training was at night so imagine a dimly lit swimming arena, swimming w the dim lights flickering the water and having your feet real far away from the ground, it was honestly quite a challenge at first haha (i was made to do swimming drills in the swimming lanes w no lights at all both above and underwater bc i wasnt part of upcoming comps and oh my god i would never be able to do it again if asked to now) but once you get used to it its alright! kids being kids we even competed w each other to see who could reach the deepest end of the pool sometimes hhh. i did it for 3-4 years i think, didnt met the nicest ppl there but met some ppl w hearts of gold there too ♡ a fun and valuable memory and experience nevertheless!

[alicedoessurveys]

VERY long survey

Where have you lived throughout your life? 

Birmingham UK

Do you find your job rewarding? 

N/A

What kind of cake did you have for your last birthday? 

chocolate

To you, which is better: English muffins or bagels? 

I enjoy both, but bagels.

Do you paint your nails? 

yes. although they're not painted at the moment because ive been cleaning the house so much the past couple days and its stripped my varnish off

What’s the last website you signed up for? 

a dating thing

Do you check your email everyday? 

yes, I cant stand having the little red number above the mail app 

Have you created any pages on Facebook?

yes but I dont have them anymore

Is there a subject that you absolutely suck at? 

every subject, but especially maths and science 

What’s your favourite song by Dave Matthews Band? 

I dont know any 

Are there people you have absolutely nothing in common with, but still enjoy talking to? 

I dot particularly enjoy talking to anyone :’)

Have you ever wandered around drunk with your friend? 

yes, we wondered around through the middle of Birmingham at 4am 

Are you good at holding back your laughter if needed? 

haha nope

Have you ever been so unfortunate to suffer from a hangover?

yes

Have you ever had a panic attack? 

many, I had to drop out of college because of them 

Are you deathly allergic to anything? 

nope

Have you ever had a mouse in your house? 

nope

Do you know anyone who DOESN’T have an ex? 

myself 

Is anyone you know really religious? 

my family

Are your eyebrows naturally thick? 

yes

Has speaking in front of people ever made you sick? 

not physically sick, but definitely felt it. the worst experience Ive had with speaking was in college when I had to give a speech then teach a 10 minute class. my throat totally dried up and I literally couldnt speak. everyone just stared at me and I was trying so hard not to cry. longest 10 minutes of my life and as soon as it finished I legged it out the room and burst into tears. 

What was the last movie that made you teary-eyed? 

Mary Poppins Returns almost got me but the last film to actually make me cry was Coco. That shit had me SOBBING!

Have you had two friends that absolutely hated each other? 

yes 

Has a laptop ever burned your legs? 

not really, I put a cushion on my lap normally

Do you know anyone who has a scar through their eyebrow?

no

Who was the last person to flip you off? 

probably rhys, as a joke

Anyone’s birthday coming up soon? 

my dad turns 50 next week

Would you ever wear fake eyelashes? 

I have done a few times but they annoy me

Are you good at following directions? 

no no no I get confused very easily

Do you have someone that you can just act a fool with and not care? 

yes rhys 

From where you’re sitting, can you touch a wall? 

if I reach behind me 

When at a restaurant, do you put your napkin on your lap? 

occasionally, it depends where I am and what im eating 

Do you prefer electric or manual pencil sharpeners? 

manual 

Are your biceps at all noticeable? 

they used to be before they went into hiding under a layer of fat 

Have you ever seen a walrus? 

nope

When it comes to dropping food, do you believe in the 10 second rule? 

no, I believe in the ‘what food is it’ and ‘how dirty is the floor’ rules

If given the opportunity, would you ride on a camel? 

yes. I was supposed to have gone on a camel ride in Tunisia ages ago but I was ill so we didn't get to go 

Do you believe that cellphones actually do cause cancer?

they could be. the number of people getting cancer has gone up a lot since everyone has mobile phones 

When people you know cry, does it make you feel like crying too? 

depends who it is 

Do you tend to jump to conclusions? 

yes. Im an anxious person so im constantly overthinking and I also find people really hard to read and can get

Are you good at remembering your friends’ birthdays? 

yes my brain cant remember important things but when it comes to dates its like a sponge 

Is there something you need to do, that you’re trying to avoid doing? 

getting a job

Ever pop someone else’s pimple? 

ew no

How long does it take you to fall asleep? 

about 15 minutes depending on how tired I am 

Do you crack your neck often?

no that freaks me out 

Did you have a weird dream last night? 

not that I can remember, I have been having a lot of weird dreams this week because im ill

Who do you sometimes compare yourself to? 

everyone. especially when im at the theatre, im constantly watching other people and wishing I could act like they can or look like them or have their style 

Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things? 

both

In what way are you your own worst enemy? 

every way, I dont look after myself at all 

What activities make you lose track of time? 

sims

When you help someone do you ever think, “What’s in it for me?” 

not really 

Who do you tell your secrets to? 

these surveys 

Who do you live with? 

my parents and our foster kids 

When did/will you graduate? 

I didn't 

When are you moving next? 

I have no idea. probably never 

When is the last time you took a vitamin? 

this morning, im fighting a cold 

Why are you stressed? 

im not too bad right now tbh

Do you need to return anyone’s phone call? 

nope

Where do you keep your birth certificate? 

no clue, my mom has it somewhere 

How many books are in your room?

a lot. I have quite a few on display and a whole bunch hidden away in my closet because theres no space for them anywhere else. I'll include some photos of the books in my room;

(the book on my bedside table in the second picture is actually a lamp that lights up when you open it)

Have you ever been IN a wedding? 

nope

What was the last thing you laughed out loud at?

probably my mom 

Do you have a nickname? Why? 

my family call my bongy or Ali bong, I dont know why.. (my name is Alice)

Have you ever had a bad concert experience? 

nope

When was the last time someone told you that you were beautiful/good-looking? Do people often tell you this? 

my mom tells me almost every day but Im like youre my mom of course you would say that 

Are you missing someone of the opposite sex atm? 

no

Want someone back in your life? 

meh

Are you currently sad about anything? 

actually nope

Are you wearing anything shiny? 

my pj top has glittery silver letters on

How important is a sense of humor in a significant other? 

very, I fall very easily for people who make me laugh

How many followers do you have on Twitter? 

198 (@alicethenerd if ya wanna follow 😉)

Do you sleep with the door open or closed? 

closed. I aint about letting those murderers and monsters just waltz straight in easy peasy 

Have you ever been to the beach? 

yes every summer since I was a kid 

Can you handle blood? 

nope

Do you pay your bills or do your parents?

I pay my own bills. no way my dad would be up for paying my bills, he already digs at me constantly about the fact that I live rent free even though I look after the foster kids and tidy the house more than he does

What’s your best friend’s middle name? 

Connor

Has any place hired you underage for a job? 

not officially

Have you ever barely passed a grade/year in school? 

yes

Have you ever carried a concealed weapon? 

no

Have you ever tried to sell something overpriced to someone? 

no

Do you plan to become very wealthy some day? 

I hope to become wealthy enough to not worry about having enough money to put fuel in my car anymore and to be able to pay back my parents and grandad for everything they've done for me 

Do you remember your first time going to the movies? 

no, but my earliest cinema memory was going to watch Monsters Inc with my dad when it was first released 

Does eating breakfast make you sick? 

if I try to eat before a certain time yes

Are you dying to say something to someone right this minute?

not dying to nope

Book series you enjoyed reading recently? 

im reading eve of man atm which apparently is going to be a series

Do you enjoy lying in the grass during the summer, and just existing? 

I prefer lying on a blanket, I dont like the feel of grass and I dont like the bugs crawling around 

Do you have a passport? If so, how many stamps do you have in it? 

yes, it doesn't have many stamps in because I lost the one that did have lots in and I havent been away much since getting the new one 

Are there any keys on your keyboard that have letters fading away? 

nope

Do any of your close friends have children? 

no

What do you plan on having for dinner?

we already had dinner, we had chippy

Do you like Chinese food, or do you find it disgusting? 

I only really like one meal 

Have the police ever come knocking on your door looking for someone? 

actually yes, literally a few weeks ago

Know anybody who works in a tattoo parlor? 

yes, my second cousin 

Have you ever played flashlight tag?

ive never heard of it

Could you call yourself a movie buff?

not really, im a huge movie fan but theres still a lot I need to see 

Have you ever had a piercing get infected?

never had a piercing 

Do you check your fire alarms when you’re supposed to? 

dad does it

Are you a shorts wearing kind of person? 

nope nope nope, my legs are not suitable for public viewing :’)

Is your grandparents’ house obsessively tidy?

not really no. my nan and grandpa’s house is always neat but not obsessively neat. my grandads house is full of clutter because my nan was a hoarder 

About how much can you bench press? 

I dont know, I havent lifted in years 

Have you ever had your phone die on you in the middle of a conversation? 

yes

Is anybody in your family a carpenter? 

no

Are you avoiding someone? 

yes

Do you call your boyfriend “Monkey”? 

I dont have a boyfriend but if I did I doubt id call him monkey

What’s your favorite primary color? 

yellow #hufflepuffpride

What were you for Halloween? 

nothing, I didn't dress up 

Do you have any clothes from Walmart? 

nope, we dont have Walmart here

When did you get a Facebook? 

about 10 years ago 

What color are your eyes? 

green/hazel

What motivates you? 

happiness

Can you walk in heels? 

nope

When was the last time someone asked you your age? 

the other day, my own mother forgot how old I was

Do you keep a journal? 

not really

Have you ever tried a weird flavor of vodka? 

never had vodka

Do you wear a ring on your finger? 

occasionally

What are you doing? 

watching ‘the greatest dancer’ and wondering if this survey is ever going to end 

What’s the last kind of soup you ate?

tomato 

Do you currently have a sunburn?

no. its winter

Who did you last text? 

my sister

Who’d you last call? About what? 

my mom, to ask her to come downstairs and let the dogs out because the baby was asleep on me and there was no way I was going to risk waking her up

Are you currently frustrated with someone? 

yes

Do you drink water or soda more often? 

water

Do you straighten your hair?

yes

When did you last talk to your brother or sister? 

today

What is your least favorite vegetable? 

all of them

Outside of family, name 3 people that make you smile/laugh often. 

Rhys, Addison, Jacob

In school, what subjects did you achieve your highest grades in? 

IT

Was there a subject that you enjoyed, but weren’t too good at? 

I didn't really enjoy any subjects at school

When was the last time something didn’t go to plan? What happened? 

today. I had planned to deep clean the bathroom but I went super dizzy and had to give up half way through cleaning 

Do you have any children? If not, at what age do you think you’ll feel ready to be a parent? 

I dont but I am seriously considering adopting one of our foster babies atm. I want to adopt anyway, theres no way I could be pregnant 

When was the last time you bought a new item of clothing?Describe it. 

I honestly cant remember, im due a shopping trip

Was your last Facebook friend request from a male or female?

female

Do you have an item of clothing that makes you feel especially beautiful? Describe it. 

not really no

Think of the last person that betrayed you. If they said they were sorry, would you forgive them? 

I would cautiously forgive him but I would also make sure he knew that how he treated me was not okay and that he really upset me and this would be his last chance. but tbh I think hes done with me so 🤷🏻‍♀️

Nastiest thing you’ve ever done? 

I dont know, I dont like being nasty

Have you ever been in a lighthouse? 

nope

What colour is your shower? 

I think its silver, ive ever actually noticed

Where do you order your pizza from?

dominos

When is the last time you had a serious talk with someone?

few days ago 

Do you find that you have a certain meal you eat every time you go to certain restaurants? 

yes, im a creature of habit

What colour is your bike?

silver & purple

What word can you not stand to hear people say? 

the c word, I cant even type it

What room of your house are you in? 

living room 

What is the temperature in your city right now? 

9°c

When did you last use a post-it-note?

last week in the script for the show im currently working on 

Would you ever want to own your own restaurant? 

yes

Do you have a fan in your bedroom? 

no I dont like them, they make too much noise 

Who is the last person that you took a picture with? 

one of our foster kids 

When is the last time you were stuck in a fairly long traffic jam?

the weekend before christmas 

Do you have certain friends that you hug every time you see them? 

not many

When was your most recent trip to an aquarium? 

almost two years ago 

What do you like in your salads and what dressing do you prefer? 

I dont like salads

If it has one, do you ever use the notepad function in your phone? 

all the time, Im constantly writing lists or reminders to myself 

How good would you say your memory is?

long term good, short term bad

About how many times during the night do you wake up from your sleep? 

a few times

Are there any air fresheners in your house? What kinds? 

multiple, we have plugs in and sprays and those automatic ones that go off every 15 minutes 

What’s one thing you’re glad you’ve done recently?

done my laundry :’) im on my last pair of pants!

Have you ever done something sexual that you regret? 

no

Do you like to sit in the sun and tan when it’s hot out? 

not really, I dont like being too hot

Ever had a person who was obsessed with you so much that it scared you? 

no

Can you drive, and if you can, do you like it? 

yes, I love driving most of the time 

Have you ever said anything to the last person you kissed that you regret? 

no

Do you like french fries?

yes

Have you ever eaten so much you puked?

not since I was a kid 

Do you care about what others think of your physical appearance? 

annoyingly yes

Would you rather go to Greece or France?

greece

[red-dyed-sarumane]

I ALMOST MISSED THAT ASK THING hhdjjsjfkf i can't just pick a few u should do all the even numbers (or as many as u can)

2. what would you name your future kids?

my what now

4. what are you looking forward to?

honestly mafu’s solo album 

6. is it hard for you to get over someone?

depends. but i guess usually yeah

8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?

many m,any mnay many times

10. are you good at hiding your feelings?

APPARENTLY everyone says i look mad a lot when really im thinking of something dumb & really i only talk about things i see as positive if i talk

12. what is something you want right now?

if it can be something to do then i hella wanna go to the mono palette live later but if u mean like something physical then idk im indecisive 

14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?

prob on the 6th when my grandfather went back to his place

16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?

buddy thats the title of my autobiography

18. do you miss how things were a year ago?

to an extent. sketch was still active & i still had freetime & open weekends

22. description of crush.

relatively calm quiet person usually but they get super excited about their interests!!! tbh i really like it when they have something they want to yell about for hours that kind of excitement is refreshing and they always try their best they’re always careful with their words and try to say things fitting to the situation & are great with support. they’re a big meme and come up with great jokes and quotes i have a bunch of screenshots of conversations. will call me mr krabs when i type me instead of my & its super funny. loves dogs i wish i could take them to pet all the dogs in the world. overall a genuinely good person & a few words from them is all it takes to completely change my mood for the better lmao. they’re amazing

24. height

5′4″? 5′5″?

26. idol(s)

(im sorry) Mafumafu, Sou, Yukimi, Isubokuro, Silvana, Risru, Soraru are my mains

28. i’ll love you if….

u leave excited or kind tags on my stuff (rlly just,, dont make fun of me to be mean,,, if its a joke that fine)

30. favorite tv show(s)

??? i watch tv like once a year so im just gonna say like Friends or something to put something here

32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?

mainly girls

34. most embarrassing moment

okay so i rarely get embarrassed anymore since i just make fun of myself but in first grade i thought this logan kid was cool and this britney kid was a bitch so i wrote Logan rules and Britney Sucks on a paper and they found it and so did the teacher and the teacher made me apologize (britney is still a bitch btw she came in to order ice cream the other day & didnt recognize me thank fuck)

36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?

1. meeting sketch would be great also other internet friends2. i wanna get to be fucking fluent in japanese its been almost 7 years gdi im try in g3. I WANNA GIT GUD AT ART PLS

38. favorite comedians

John Mulaney.

40. favorite memory

THE PIGEON STORY PROBABLY BUT IVE TOLD THAT ALREADY SO last week. this one coworker likes to say things like “way to be” and “you got this” to people so when he was making a peanut butter shake & i didnt have anything to do i said “do your best i believe in you” and he said “thats,, thats really  too patronizing. if  you said them seperately it would be fine but when you say them together like that you sound like some soccer mom taking your wimpy little 5 year old to play football or something with the 9 years olds and you say ‘you got this sweetie i believe in you do your best!!’ and he gets fucking plowed over by the bigger kids” honestly that was the best thing that night its like an inside joke at the dairy bar now

42. favorite books

i like!!! the legend trilogy!!! Miss Peregrine’s home for peculiar children series!!!! i liked All Our Yesterdays when i read it too a few years ago AND OF COURSE the shuuen novels cant forget our dead kids

44. age you get mistaken for

15/16

46. what my last text message says

“i wanna go up to my 14 year old self and say ‘just so you know. in about 3 years ur gonna think a chair, a very specific chair, is attractive’ and just watch her be like ‘what the FUCK i would NEVER be attracted to a chair!!! what the FUCK is wrong with you!?!”

48. turn offs

yeah

50. favorite picture of your idol

i hate reposting but i dont feel like finding the link & i was gonna say the one with cat whiskers from after his solo lives but its definitely this one which is SoraMafuUraSaka if i remember right

52, something im talented at

staying quiet, losing things ( i once lost an entire huge ass oops eraser like those for Big Mistakes but it was green and said oops and i lost it in school how do u lose a f uc ki–)

54. something thats worrying me at the moment

f u t u r e

56. favorite food(s)

i dont really like food tbh but raspberries are up there

58. description of my best friend

sometimes loud and easily emotional but overall fun to hang out with and come up with some great jokes some great ones being the solo yolo rap and “they just keep sagging!!!!”. go along with it when its 4am and im yelling like “MONO PALETTE JUST TRIED SECRET ANSWER EVERYINE IS SCREAMINF AND AGAIN IS TRYING TO RAP” & they’re like DAMN I WISH I COULDA HEARD at 3 pm (there are 2)

60. Adri U Shit U Said Even Numbers & Didnt Give Me Anything For 60