#IMMEDIATELY!! HE'S SAVING EVERYONE'S LIVES RN!!! ALONE AND IN SUCH DESPAIR AND AT THE COST OF LOSING THE PERSON HE LOVES MOST!!

[llondonfog]

already told this to my friend but i was listening to non-breath oblige and immediately thought of book 7 silver, especially these verses:

“I want to live but I'm told to die, I want to die but I'm told to live

I want to live but I'm told to die, I want to die but I'm told to live”

“One, two

“There are many people in this world who don't even know love”

One, two

“There are many people in this world who don't even know love”

Sympathy, envy, jealousy, resentment, black tears falling down

My ugly emotions burst out and become a snow-white bird”

SORRY IF THE FORMATTING IS WEIRD i’m on mobile + i would go into deeper detail but my break is almost over so i have to back to work soon :(

ohhhh anon i've not heard of this song before and i have to say, the visuals for the official video were so beautiful and heart-wrenching!!

as far as the lyrics are concerned.....oof. the song is bursting with ch7 silver energy when it comes to his agony of realizing his true heritage, and it tears at my heart to listen along and think of it as such.

i also picked up on the lyrics "is it wrong to boast of my happiness? is it wrong to grieve over my unhappiness?" as ringing so painfully true for silver in ch7, especially in the moments where we now know he was suppressing his misery over lilia's abrupt departure and disclosure of his imminent death. it's really interesting to see the memories of silver as a child more open and expressive of his emotions, freely laughing and smiling with lilia, in comparison to the silver who we know today— a solemn and stoic young man who rarely changes expression, a fact that is a point of mockery among his classmates.

what happened to drive such a change in his behavior? is it simply a direct result of him becoming more aware of the seriousness his role and duties as malleus' guard begets, and wishing to emulate the dignity of a soldier? is it a result of his exhaustion that has seemingly escalated over the years, a constant pull on his energy that leaves him with sparing reserves? it also made me think of how he lashed out at his baby self, so in despair at the thought of how he could cry when his very existence was a curse, a blight upon malleus and lilia's honor. there's so much painful evidence of silver neglecting his own emotions when it comes to putting lilia first, and i really feel like it's going to come to a head here inevitably before ch7 is over.