#I've seen you guys complaining about sfs

[simandy]

Guys, if sfs is down, patreon is actually a good alternative. You can just simply make everything free forever, the site isn't the one forcing cc creators to paywall their stuff, they have the choice to make everything free if they want to. Plus, it's a very easy download, just like simfileshare, one click on the cc's name and it's done, because the file is uploaded in there anyway. Don't be scared of it because of paywallers, you can make whatever you want :D

[drdemonprince]

History anon here with appreciation and a couple clarifications:

The worst thing *I* could be was a trans man, not the worst thing *anyone in the world* could be. I realize I didn't write this super clearly, so that's on me, but I was talking about the worst felt sense of identity I specifically could have. Like, being a murderer would be worse, but you don't come to be a murderer by keeping yourself up at night, wondering whether it best describes who you are. I thought I could force myself to hold a different identity, one that wouldn't be betraying the feminist values I was surrounded by and looked up to.

I didn't say anything about how my experience compares to trans women, though for the record, they were also treated terribly in the spaces that hated me, and I also stood up for and worked with them. Most of my academic scholarship has been focused on trans men because that's the area where I'm most passionate and qualified, but that's my personal work right now, not some sideways way of putting others down.

I didn't know you'd been hanging out in trans masc spaces in the early 2000s. High five for guys who survived those days.

I don't use Tumblr, so I don't have an @ to give you. This account I'm posting from? It's technically a work account I set up for a job almost a decade ago that decided it didn't want the page after all, so it's still linked to my email. There's no other way for me to reliably contact you that I know of, but if you think of something, I'm totally open.

Hey there, thanks for the clarifications, and sorry to have mischaracterized what you were aiming to convey in your first message. You have a lot of experiences and knowledge that I'd love to learn from more to the extent you are fine with sharing.

I have a friend who grew up in the SF Bay area in the early 2000s and was a trans guy then, and from them I've gathered little threads here and there regarding how trans men were seen and treated at the time (all the trans guys were expected to be bottoms, not just for the reasons that's such a Thing today, but also because in feminist spaces it was seen as the appropriate position for a trans guy to be relative to a cis woman, within the community hierarchy)... there are certainly big elements of the scene and regional differences that I know next to nothing about, when it comes to trans guys experiences at the time. I think the Midwest queer/feminist scene was probably very different in a lot of ways. It certainly was very sex negative. I'd be curious to hear a lot more about the ambassador program pushing for trans male inclusion at the bathhouses that you mentioned, and more about where you're from in general.

For all that I challenge contemporary complaining about "trans male invisibility," it really is true that gay trans men were completely excluded from the communities I was around back then, and I didn't really feel that we could exist (though I had known some bi trans guys at that time). That certainly kept me from transitioning for far longer than I otherwise would have. And I feel like I have witnessed the canonization of Lou Sullivan happening in real time here on Tumblr... even more recently than much of the advocacy that you shared about. He just was not on my radar or someone that anyone in my circles was talking about until a few years ago. But I guess it's not surprising that radfems who considered gay men to be privileged perverts weren't speaking about him. Man Columbus Ohio sucked dick

I'm not sure how best for us to get in touch, then. My twitter DMs are open too. I keep most of the rest of mine shut for lots of reasons. Funny that your account is a brand account on here...are you the Dennys tumblr account

[underimagines]

Here's one I've been thinking about since Monday. UT UF US and SF skelebros. Their S/O invites them to watch the solar eclipse with them. I imagine they'd probably think its pretty amazing, especially when totality happens. Please and thank you

I hope you don’t mind metaking this one for my first response! Space nerd, coming through! I hope allmy American friends got to enjoy it; I’ve yet to see an eclipse myself! I thinkI’ll only do UT/UF/US Brothers since I’m still not 100% confident withSwapfell, so sorry! :( ~Mod Panda

UT! Sans

He low keys acts cool asyou drag him outside for it, but he’s slightly shaking in excitement. As soonas it starts you can barely get his attention again. Like, at all. But it’s inthe best way; his smile is the biggest it’d been in a long time. He’d read somuch about it while stuck in the Underground, but finally being able to see ithimself…? When totality happens, his eye lights become little stars and he’scompletely silent. He would respond a little before to a few things, now it’sthe quietest you’ve ever seen him. This is a very, very happy skele. When theeclipse is over he’ll pull you into a tight hug with a quiet “Thank you”.

UT! Papyrus

WOWIE, the moon blocks outthe sun?!  Do not worry, Date-Mate, thegreat Papyrus will protect you from the darkness! Once you tell him it’s allnatural and happens occasionally so no protection needed, he’s excited. Youmake sure he’s wearing his glasses despite his protests (“SKELETONS DON’T HAVEEYES”) and it’s begun. He’s cut off mid-sentence while he watches in happiness.You and Sans best be prepared for many, many questions later, but for now,Papyrus is happy watching the event unfold before him while holding your handtightly.

UF!Sans

What the hell are you doing? You’re practically yankin’his arm off, and now you’re shoving these stupid lookin’ glasses on his face?What the fuck is goin- Oh. You had done a pretty good job of keeping him awayfrom any news of the eclipse, and his reaction is so worth it. The sky darkensand at first he’s sweating buckets, thinking something is gonna come dust him,but as soon as he looks up and sees totality happen, he’s awestruck. His wholeposture completely changes and he relaxes a little for once. He’d never seensuch an event before in any reset, and to spend it with you? Wow. Afterwards hegoes back to his usual asshole self, but there’s definitely a smooch for youlater behind closed doors.

UF!Papyrus

He’s not happy at all at being brought outside byyou, and with so much enthusiasm too. He’s clearly too busy to stand outsidewatching something as asinine as this! You have to put your foot down a little– always a risky move – but eventually he relents and stands outside with you,complaining the whole time until it starts. It’s hard to read his face when itstarts, especially because he’s tapping his foot as he’s watching. His frownseems to disappear momentarily when the moon fully eclipses the sun, surprisedat the display. When you’re both alone afterwards he’ll briefly admit that theevent was enjoyable, even exciting- no stop smiling he’s not admitting defeat!

US!Sans

DATE-MATE, WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR, IT’S GOING TO START ANY MINUTE! Thislittle energy-filled bean had been bouncing around non-stop since you asked himif he wanted to watch the eclipse with you, it was like he had drunk coffeeagain (Papyrus said he’d drank some once… Only once.) For such a smallskeleton, he’s strong as he drags you up to the top of the hill you’d agreed onthe day before with such speed you had to pause and catch your breath. Once youwere both ready with your glasses and sat comfortably you both looked up at thesky eagerly. As soon as the moon starts to move in front of the sun, Sans grabsyour arm and his bones rattle. You begin to worry about the excitement possiblymaking him explode. Help him. His jaw drops when the eclipse hits its fullscale and you’re sure you’re going to be shaken to death. Thankfully he tellsyou everything in detail after it finished, since you weren’t really able towatch.

US!Papyrus

He’s more than happy to join you outside when youask him, casually resting his arm around your shoulders as you join the othercrowds waiting for the eclipse to start. He enjoys the quietness that falls asthe first shadows start to cover the sun. It’s like the whole world standsstill it’s so peaceful. He’ll probably make a terrible pun or two, but whentotality happens he just smiles and watches quietly with you. When it’s allfinished, he’ll invite you for a nap with him, talking about the event and howlucky a guy he is to see it with you.