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samderella · 2 months ago

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Living with my in-laws after evacuating from a hurricane be like

I appreciate you love and want to spend time with me, but if you don't let me hide in the guest bedroom and write nonsense for five uninterrupted hours, I will scream

#water is out at my place for at least a month minimum #out-laws happily invited us to live with them and they're like oh yay Sam is here #and I'm like if I was home and dealt with this much social time in a row I would turn my phone off and not talk to anyone for three weeks #but no you expect me to hang out with you for at least a couple hours every night #and are concerned if you haven't seen me yet in a day #every time I overhear them ask my partner if I'm okay when I'm just trying to recharge my social battery it goes back down #the autistic energy drain of being perceived #now that I'm living with people other than my partner again every action I do at home has to go through a filter #is this inconsiderate? too noisy? will get in the way? am I being rude by not interacting with my hosts to the degree they desire?#am I fully clothed when I go get a snack or get high???#I've lived by myself since late 2016 and moved in with my partner in 2018 #for a reason! it takes so much mental energy to be considerate to the degree I wish to be ahhhhh #anyway I'm 11000 words into the flower shop au and 5000 into chp. 5 of APNJ #post date entirely unknown as I am an introvert living with lonely extroverted parents who miss their family constantly and love me #I could go stay with mine but that would be even worse soooooo #my hurricane experience could be 1000% worse so it feels wrong to complain too much #but unfortunately I may still be driven mad if I live here for over a month #vowed never to live in this state again RIP #using this tumblr to vent because again don't feel like I can complain too much #was extremely lucky on so many accounts #but I would really like to go write smut without being concerned I'll be summoned for game night or whatever #as an extreme oversimplification and dramatized example #I miss home :(#we officially got power back today but city sent out another alert saying still no water for no idea how long #wooooo #shoutout to anyone who bothered to read this I'm using the vent as a way to amp myself to get back to writing #I've had a very emotionally complicated week and a half and even when I do get time to write I don't do it because not in right mindset #I miss May when I cackled to myself while writing terrible smut #my stuff #vent

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