#I've had to mask to an extreme degree for many years just to seem 'normal' and now that i realize what I've done? it's hard. | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

practicalsolutions · 11 months

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Imagine the horror of having your nervous system so interconnected with a machine that you don't immediately know where you begin and the machine ends? How much of this is you, and how much is just automation? Which parts are the inner guiding voice you've already had? Which are the guidelines imposed upon you? How many levels of identity crisis would you have to pull yourself through before it all made sense again?

#ooc #i don't have to imagine. could be just projecting really hard.#I've had to mask to an extreme degree for many years just to seem 'normal' and now that i realize what I've done? it's hard.#which behavior is natural? which is just automation I've learned and repeated for many many years?#what do I want? is it really what I want? or is it just what i require in order to be left alone? or to fit in?#everyone loves the robot better. nobody wants to see the disgusting mess under the metal.

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