#I've been so tired and overwhelmed lately ... my light's felt a bit dim if I'm being honest--felt hopeless a few times here and there

[throughpatchesofviolet]

I've been hopping around the Project Moon games, today, and somehow every single one of them manages to make me cry.

[owlsbride]

Blinding Lights

Chapter III: The Meeting

Kakashi turned the corner, and there she was, walking Home. Sakura was still in her working clothes, tiredness all over her face. She seemed to be in a hurry. Was she so urge to get home? As soon as they met, face to face, she was in ow when she saw him. Was she afraid?

"Hokage-Sama?" was all Sakura could say before wrinkle her nose, already, inspecting Kakashi's look as in a medical interview. Surely she thought he was injured again, or sick, or drank for the matter.

"Maa, Sa Ku Ra" Always pretending. "Drop the title, please." Lord, he was pleading, and it was definitely much needier than all the other times he had asked the same.

"What are you doing here Sen..." He lifted an eyebrow "Kakashi".

" I've been tryna call." Kakashi stated simply and then closed his mouth. Sakura opened her's as to say something, but nothing seems to come out for a while. "I kind of forgot your phone number" Kakashi added, this was killing him. Sakura bit her lower lip, she wasn't buying it.

"Do you need something, Kakashi?" Sakura finally asked.

"You" Sakura was shocked, fuck, he was ruining this, he felt like an idiot. "I mean, I needed it to talk to you" alright, much better. He had to keep it neutral.

"Oh..." Sakura was still looking at him with concern. She was running a silent exam on him "I see, tell me then Sensei." Again with the title, but this time he let it go.

"Are you in a hurry? Were you going home? I can Wait, maybe tomorrow." he was choking on his own words. He was accelerated, and he felt like a teenager. Sakura laughed.

"Easy Kakashi, I'm not in a hurry; actually, I was looking for you." Was she blushing? He couldn't be sure, the dim light from the streetlamp casted a shadow over them that made the vision quite blurry. How he missed the Sharingan right now. He tensed, and for the first time in the hole day, he stood straight.

"Ah, Sakura Chan, such a coincidence, right?" There, he had to keep it cool. "Tell me, why were you looking for me?" His voice was deep though, deeper than what he would like it. Sakura stiffened, she was kind of nervous, and Sharingan or not, he could sense that he was right: she was a bit blushed, he took his chance and walked a step forward to her.

"I...I" Sakura began nervously. All her resolution from before had run like a rat in a fire. He was overwhelming. She never had thought that one thing was speaking to him in her mind and another totally different face to face. "You first, Hokage Sama..." She suddenly remembered that infatuated with him or not, he was still her superior, the correct thing to do could be to listen first.

"Sa Ku Ra..." He warned. She sighed, this was going to be difficult.

"Alright" she could never win. "Yesterday, after our meeting, I came directly to the hospital, and I've been working since then" Sakura started with a tired tone.

"Wait, are you telling me that you've been in here for almost a whole day?" Kakashi was stunned. She was incredible. He knew that she was a bit of a workaholic, but twenty hours was too much, and there was no chakra that can handle that amount of overwork. "You must be exhausted." He finished in disbelief denying lazily with his head.

"No" Sakura started "Well, yes... But..."

"Sakura, if you need a vacation, you just need to ask." Kakashi interrupted, this was definitely not going as he expected. He had arrived there feeling so miserable about himself, ready to cry his heart out with the girl and now that he was in front of her, he was full of concern only wanting to give her a free time at least at the spring bath where she could relax.

"It's no not that, I..." she tried again.

"Sakura you know I'm the Hokage, you can ask me anything. How many days do you..."

"Hokage Sama, I know who you are" she finally said "I know it too well." Was regret in her voice? He stubbornly closed his mouth this time. He needed to listen. Sakura started again.

"As I was saying, Kakashi, I've been working... a lot. Please wait" Even without seeing his face she knew that he was going to talk again. "And I lost track of time, so I know I was getting late to show you the reports, which I have them here in the satchel. I thought I would catch up with you on your way home so to handle them to you, but you are here, so here they are" Now she was chocking with her words. She released her breath and looking down at the floor, she handed the files to Kakashi. There was silence for a moment until he also extended his arm to take what Sakura offered him.

Their fingers brushed and lingered on the papers together more than necessary, Sakura could feel the electricity the simple touch was providing her, it was like thousands Chidori trying to escape from the hands of his former sensei. Kakashi could feel it too. Such an intense touch, so lightly and innocent, but so tempting and forbidden at the same time. He smirked under the mask, yes, Sakura was all he wanted, but he needed it to break the silence, the touch. Things shouldn't be rough, and he wasn't a hormonal teenager.

"Maaa, Sakura, you didn't need to take such a bother, there is always a tomorrow you know." He was acting all so cool again. A hand full of papers, the other scratching the back of his neck and a close eye smile painted in his face.

"Tomorrow may be late, sensei." Sakura was whispering, he could sense the sadness in her voice "Anyway, you never told me why you were looking for me." She changed her demeanour, changed the subject, and changed her stance. Now she was all professional again and with arms crossed look alike too much like Tsunade to his likeness.

"Ahhh..." He brought his index to his mouth and smiled "I guess I forgot?" Kakashi was dumbfounded. Apparently, the romantic's affairs weren't as easy as shown in Icha Icha. Years and years reading those books and all for nothing.

"Kakashi, are you telling me that you were trying to call me but forgot my number, and come all over here to tell me something, this late, and you just forgot what it was?" Sakura was amazed, surely the Hokage was starting to lose his mind, that tedious, dull job was finally taking its toll. She shrugged and watch him closely. There had to be something wrong with him.

"I'm sure it was not that important, Sakura." Kakashi was lying. It was crucial, his heart was depending on it. He was felling fearless moments ago when the effect of the sake was still playing with his metabolism, but now that it was gone, he couldn't bring himself to tell anything to the girl, no, not the girl, the young woman he had in front of him. He was a fool after all. What had he thought? That Sakura was going to listen to his clumsy love confession as in a love story and jump into his arms, tear apart his mask and ravish his mouth as if there were no tomorrow? The idea was alluring, and he was quickly reacting to the image. He was inner battling with his body, heart and mind, and no one seems to be winning, and Sakura was sensing that something else was happening.

"Kakashi, you look strange, are you sure you are ok?" Sakura asked, concerned, bringing her hand to the forehead of the man in front of her. She needed it to know at least if he actually had a fever. Kakashi snatched her hand midway. It was a rude gesture, but if he let her continue, he feared that containing himself wouldn't be an option any longer, that was not how he had planned any of this. But wich one was the plan again?

Sakura was shocked. If Kakashi didn't even want her to touch his forehead, how would she get closer to him? This was going terrible, she was feeling like a little girl again, like that day with the bells. Useless. The voices in her head were coming again: Ino's words, Sasuke's scorn, her insecurities, everything. She took a deep breath, she had promised herself to be stronger, that she would never be again that weak child, and if Kakashi was what she wanted, then she would go for him and see how far she was able to go for him, for both of them. She took courage and spoke again.

"So, no fever, then Kakashi." She eyed him warily.

"Nah, no fever." He dismissed her. She was starting to walk, she was going away from him. Not this time "Were you going home? Sakura nodded, and he felt relieved. At least Sakura didn't have any plan for the night, that could have made him extremely jealous. "Do you mind if I walk you home, Sa Ku Ra?" Kakashi spoke in his soft, relaxed tone, but for Sakura, it was a terrible invitation, if only he knew what she felt every time he said her name like that. She wasn't that aware before, she was aware now. And she hated it. She would much prefer to keep on living in the oblivion about her feelings for the Hokage. He was so unreachable.

"Hokage Sama, I think you know that I'm pretty capable of walking home alone" she laughed nervously "I've been doing it for the last five years a least."

"I know you are" Kakashi excuse himself "I meant walking with you."

"Are you sure?" Sakura was ecstatic and disoriented at the same time. Hatake Kakashi was offering her to walk home together. Didn't he have better plans than to accompany your former student home?

"Yes, I'm sure, besides I'm also getting old, exercise is good for me" Sakura laughed heartily.

"Kakashi, in all these years I have not seen you grow old a year. You are the same as that day I met you, I bet you are like wine" Fuck, she spoke too fast without thinking, she unconsciously bit her lips and was sure that her face was redder than any cherry.

"Like wine?" Kakashi knew what the girl was referring to, but he needed to hear it from her. Sakura was impulsive, and this almost innocent comment had escaped her mouth, surely without her strict permission.

"You know, a good wine is better with age" Sakura answered almost in a whisper.

"So you mean I'm like a good wine?" Kakashi couldn't believe what he was hearing "It's the best I've been told in a long time."

"Oh came on Sensei, you know what I mean, is a way of saying" she was blushing profusely. He laughed genuinely and ruffled her hair like so many years ago.

"Way to say or not, thank you!"

Kakashi and Sakura walked in silence. It was not an awkward silence. They were two people who had known each other for a lifetime, and despite feeling apart for a long time, they felt comfortable in each other's company. Kakashi walked looking at the stars with his hands in his pockets as always, and just as Sakura had foreseen, the Hokage's white robe hanging loosely from one of his shoulders. She walked beside him, every so often stealing a glance finally at his profile.

The road from Konoha Hospital to the apartment where Sakura lived was not very long. Sakura would have given her life for the road to be longer, but unfortunately, the walk would be short, and in the blink of an eye, they were already at the building's door. Sakura nervously played with her hands, Kakashi stared at the ground.

"Well, Sakura, I think we have arrived."

"Yes, we did" Sakura answered, putting the key in the door to open it.

"Safe and sound ..." Kakashi was fighting with himself again. He wanted to kiss her right there, against that door, no matter what else. He imagined his hands travelling all over the girl's body and even how her skin would feel when touched by his fingers without the gloves. What would the skin on Sakura's neck taste like? Would he still be able to savour there the same fragrance of strawberry candies that he both hated and loved at the same time? No, he had to stop "I think we'll see each other tomorrow, right?" He turned to leave. He was stupid.

"Kakashi ..." Sakura said his name as if it was the first time she had, with her hand resting on his right arm "Would you like to come in for a coffee?"

Notes:

Today is my birthday, so as a gift I wish a lot of likes comments and love. Come on! Don't be shy.

So I'm back, It's a bit shorter than the others, but for them to talk to each other and find out how they fell and see if something happens between these two, I think, that it was better if I split it in two. I don't believe in relationships were in one moment they say hello to each other and in the other they are making out. I donn't know, maybe I'm just getting old.

Hope to read your comments as usual, please, they make me happy and help me to improve.

[nad-zeta]

Hi, hi! I'm not following you for long, but I already love here! ♡ Can I ask a HC? Suddenly, I've been thinking about Yukimura, Ieyasu and Mitsunari, more specifically their lack of experience with women. I believe they've never been with a woman before MC, because of reasons (two tsunderes and too focused on work, respectively). So I'd like to ask for their first time with MC, if that's ok. Maybe forget they did it in their route? Sorry if I wasn't very clear, English is not my native language♡

Hehehe, thank you so much for the request, love! I could feel myself blushing the entire time while writing this lolz. I had to ask my brother what it’s like for a boy’s first time, so yeah, that was a strange conversation. Anyways here you go love, I hope you enjoy it!

It’s noting to NSFW but lolz I don’t know, I guess I would rate this read at own discretion lol PG13 

First Time HC with Yukimura, Mitsunari, Ieyasu 

Yukimura

So its no secret this boy has like 0 woman communication skill, he has basically spent most of his life training and fighting battles

But that all changed when he met you

You were the first woman he has ever been in a relationship with or even loved for that matter

Your relationship with this boy officially started when he kissed you on new years eve while the fireworks were going off

That was the first time he had ever kissed well anyone in his life, and after he thought darn why haven’t I done this before its great.

The two of you were starting to get really serious and you have been dropping hints like mad to take your relationship to the next level.

Yukimura knew you were dropping hints and during you intimate cuddle sessions he would always look for an excuse to delay doing THAT

Lol it was time to get some expert advice

He went to Shingen bright red, and before even opening his mouth, Shingen knew what was up

“So my little boy has finally decided to become a man, I’m so proud” Shingen said as he used his hand towel to dab the fake tears in the corner of his eyes

“I knew this was a bad idea,” before Yuki could leave Shingen grabbed his shoulder and sat him down

By the time Shingen was done with his explanation this poor boy was so red, and he felt like he was going to melt in a puddle of embarrassment

He left Shigens room in a daze, Sasuke saw his friend and instantly knew what had just gone down.

It was now Sasuke’s turn to impart knowledge, halfway through the explanation Kenshin walked into the room. Lol even he had some words of advice for Yuki. “Wait, but I thought you hated women.” To that Kenshin simply rolled his eyes and left giving one last final piece of advice

Today was the day, Yuki was 100% determined

The two of you are laying together in bed as you’ve done a 100 times before

Yukimura is overwhelmed with the overload of the advice and you can definitely tell something is up

You peer into his eyes asking him what is wrong

He covers his face with a pillow muttering into it that it’s his first time and he is a bit nervous

You take the pillow off his face and gaze into his amber eyes reassuring him, you now were also a blushy mess cause it was your first time too

Yuki immediately propped himself up on one arm and looked at you a little shook, “wait, really.” “yeah dummy so let’s figure this out of together okay”

He smiled and nodded

There was a lot of fumbling and awkwardness at first and both of your faces were red AF

In the beginning, there was lots of laughing at how nervous both of you were

Yuki kissed and touched you softly, loving and unhurried.

Each touch was tender and warm

As nervous as the two of you were, you wanted to take your time and make the experience last, taking your time exploring, touching and loving one another

Yukimura moves slow and lovingly, making sure you are comfortable and okay the whole time

His face will be close to you’re the whole time, either resting his forehead on your or kissing you, cause it is his first time he wants to take in your beautiful face and perfect body. 

He honestly can’t help but get lost in your beautiful eyes

This boy worships your body thanx to all daddy Shingen’s advice

Loves your soft moans, it definitely gives him the confidence he needs to keep going

The whole affair is very awkward, loving and gentle

Once he has reached his orgasm, he will keep going until you reach yours, Shingen didn’t raise no selfish boy

When both of you are tired and spent from the hours of lovemaking, he will clean you up and give you some tea or water. Will cuddle and snuggle the shit out of you whispering how much he loves you (Thanks to Kenshin’s softie boy advice). Watches you fall asleep while stroking your hair. Will fall asleep while hugging think about just how much he adores you

Mitsunari

The two of you have been together now for quite some time

Mitsunari has definitely been feeling an unknown feeling lately when the two of you are cuddling together

The poor little angel is so confused about what is going on with his body

Will go talk to Hideyoshi about it, and Hideyoshi will basically give him a crash course about everything he would need to know. 

Mitsunari still feels like there is more to be learned on this subject at hand

And what does Mitsunari do when he knows limited knowledge about a subject, jip research

Basically becomes a sex scholar now, he will learn everything and anything he can, even consulting some of his warlord friends

When the two of you are cuddling while reading together as you’ve done many nights before, he can’t help but start kissing your soft skin

He looks all cool and calm on the outside, but this boy be nervous

You look up into his Amathist eyes and see something you haven’t yet seen, desire.

This ain’t your first rodeo, and you have been waiting for the moment that Mitsunari would want to get a bit more intimate.

Mitsunari confessed to you that it was his first time, you reassure him by telling him, you will teach him everything you know

He starts by running his fingertips along your body, just savoring the the feeling of your soft skin

Mitsunari wants to take his time getting to know your body and finding all those spots that would bring you immense pleasure

He will kiss every inch of your body until his lips feel numb

He wants you to convey just how much he loves you through the gentle touches and kisses

Will spend most of his time pleasuring you, he has discovered that he LOVES eating you out!

Who knew this angel could be so naughty

This boy has discovered the art of teasing, will find each of your sweet spots and exploit them

He wants to feel you shiver beneath him, he loves you so much and wants to know that you want him as much as he wants you

This angel boy will legit give you his most innocent angelic smile while teasing the shit out of you- seems like he consulted with Mitsuhide

His actions are slow, soft, gentle and teasing

He is making love instead of merely just having sex

Will whisper the sweetest things in your ears the whole time

Will give you constant compliments, as well as ask you if you would like him to do anything, he will follow each one of your instructions to a T

Will gently clean you up afterward, he is really attentive and super sweet afterward, He just wants to love and hold you.  Angel boy will be pressing soft kisses into your hair, while spooning you from behind. He might even read you a sweet story to lull you into sweet dreams

Ieyasu

This tsundere boy has never found anyone who could love his fluffy contrary ways, until he met you

Gosh he loves you so so much

One day you went to his palace to visit him, the two of you had been in a relationship for a super long time now.

You guys were just chilling and having tea when all of a sudden it started raining

It was getting pretty late, and as the day progressed it seemed to get colder

Ieyasu went to light the fireplace and sat next to you wrapping a warm blankie around the two of you

Honestly, he has wanted to go down on you and is constantly desiring you, he is just super good at hiding it but now thanks to the rain, the mood and atmosphere was perfect

He doesn’t waste a moment he immediately reaches for you and starts kissing you softly, slowly moving down your neck

He picks you up and gently put you down on his futon, he is looking at you questioningly, you nod and give him the go-ahead.

The rain creates the perfect dim lighting

He hovers over you for a few moments just taking in your pure beauty

He will take his time enjoying the feeling of your soft skin under his calloused palms

Ieyasu is a fast learner even though it is his first time he will gently kiss and touch you all over finding all those little spots that makes you moan and scream out his name.

 After a while, he will know exactly which spot to nibble or touch to make you shudder

This boy loves kisses and will legit kiss every inch of your beautifully soft skin, he might just leave a few love bites in its wake

He will move slow, soft and lovingly, every kiss and touch will be gentle and feather-light  telling you exactly just how much he loves you and how much you mean to him

The boy is very vocal

Every moment is filled with sweet whispers, of him telling you how breathtaking you are, how much he loves you and how perfect you are

Softi boy will make sure both of you are completely satisfied

He loves touching your face and staring into your beautiful eyes

Afterward, he will clean you up and spoon you from behind, while drawing soft circles on your bare skin for hours. You are the only one he will show weakness to. He will whisper to you afterward that you were actually his first, poor boy will be blushing the whole time. Aftercare with Ieyasu will consist of the sweetest softest snuggles, soft words, and sweet endearments

I hope ya enjoyed it, love! ❤❤🔥🥰