#I'm v sleep deprived n v rambly but I wanted to tell u

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(1) i just read your android chencest fic and i have way to many words. first of all the way chen analyzes what jongdae does it doesn’t like is so !!! (avoiding touching jongdaes neck, etc) like i know he’s a robot and his desires md stuff are artificial but how he still somehow in his own robot way wants to please jongdae?(his dominance transcends species). the dynamics between them too, seeing calculating (evil) jongdae interact with this inhuman thing, and how chen can

(2) actually (to a degree) understand what the fuck jongdae is doing like?????, “unless you don’t want that. You want to make me cry? Bleed and cry all over your cock?’” and this fucking line, let me tell you i think about this line daily.

(3) another line that made me literally combust into fiery flames was “‘Was I work of narcissism, Jongdae?’ With all your flaws, all your pride, all your sadism? ‘Yes,’ says Jongdae, with that cruel, cruel smile. ‘And look how beautiful we are.’” like please i am the biggest fucking narcissist in this fucking world (or second to jongdae i guess) and this literally pushed this fic into the spot of my fav fic in the world, and let’s not forget the bible quote. thank you for writing this, truly.

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THESE ARE SUCH NICE COMPLIMENTS ANON!!!! thank you so so much for enjoying the fic!! it was definitely something super different for me to write and I am so blown away by all the positive feedback that I’m still getting from it even now!! HOPEFULLY I REPLY TO ALL THE THINGS HERE, so

1. YES it was fun writing about an android who has to constantly assess and re-assess human behaviour through an interaction. like obvs we do that subconsciously when we talk to each other, but I wanted to bring those details to the forefront (the effect of touch and blinking rate and choice of diction) because they all are so informative of the type of person. it’s one of the things that’s fun about watching idols: how does their behaviour is informed by hypothetical past experiences and how does that manifest if you imagined them in another situation. SO BASICALLY I got to write a love letter to jongdae’s weird idiosyncrasies through chen and then make fun of him for it :’)

2. THAT’S SUCH A HORRIBLE LINE because it just shows that jongdae is really the worst person. he’s not in it for any sort of pleasure beside base hedonism. it’s always gonna be about having power over something else and how he gets off on that dynamic. AND CHEN OBVS NAILS IT and because he’s an android, he also gets to choose to ignore how that’s literally the worst and no one should go near jongdae if he reveals his entire interest in you is about being a self-centred sadist.

3. BIBLE QUOTE!! BECAUSE JONGDAE IS A GOOD CATHOLIC BOI!! EVEN WHILE BEING TERRIBLE!! and instead of realizing that he’s a flawed being compared to god, he decides nah, I’m gonna play god, and ofc considering chen’s baseline of a personality is this horrendous narcissist, how is he supposed to say no? idk what jongdae is going to do with chen, but man, I hope jongdae knows that it’s gonna backfire on him sooner or later when chen ~learns enough as an android~ to start manipulating jongdae in return.

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oh really?? i think you either give me tall person energy or short person over-compensating for a lack of height with the power of Sarcasm energy /pos

ooh funky !! i mean ours was alright hsdklj. but typing games were a Thing in elementary school it wasn't just my school right ? oh that's such a valid reason to cook! mac and cheese with the bread stuff on the top,, absolutely incredible <3

rIGHT !!!! i want the shirt. so bad i spent like half an hour blind clicking on stuff to see if anything is selling it and eventually i found some very questionable looking website so,,, :/ rip to that i think shdlkfjx

SOCIETY IF WE COULD DRAW !!! the gay creations that could have been born if only society had not deprived us of that :pensive_nonartist:

oh that's fair :( looking back there were a Lot of things that i could have just,, not done?? and it would have helped my sleep habits so much but too late now!! cactus patch sbzdjxknclmgsnjzbhkxgy dUDE <33 but !!!! all of those sound really cool n swag bestie. oooh that's smart, plants are awesome but they do require upkeep and whatnot and i know that i'm Very Forgetful capital v and capital f

WOAH. WOAH. i did not know about that website that's actually SO COOL. FHSKLDJF you're absolutely right about tumblr dot com

oh? i did not know there was a google docs dark mode i'm going to be installing that soon so thank you for that!! i don't have honey or grammarly but yeah i can imagine why they'd be annoying ://

i LOVE that!!! that's a brilliant idea you should start a podcast for that i'd absolutely listen/tune in for that.

if i started a podcast,, hm. maybe it would be something Random and Gay, in which i invite some friends on to talk about their different hyperfixations and let them ramble, and then some episodes i go on a mini rabbit hole of learning something random and then making a fun little presentation or something, idk! i do not listen to audiobooks... i suck at them. i've listened to exactly 10 minutes of sword in the stars, and 7 minutes of radio silence before getting bored/distracted, even on 2x speed when i'm doing other things. they're great if you like em, but just not for me lmao

friends and good vibes and a ton of books and lots and lots of space and windows!! and a yard and a nice lil spot for stargazing/watching the sun rise and set, and lots of fairy lights and candles. and it would have happiness, because in a perfect world i'd live with my friends and close to my family, and they would all be alive and okay and happy. because everyone deserves to be happy and have the things they need. and i mean. not particularly, but i don't mind writing essays if they're for fun rather than school!!

what would your ideal house be like, in a perfect world? do you have a favorite shirt? opinion on live concerts? do you have a song right now, that maybe isn't your favorite favorite, but you really like? - 🌵

hey beloveddd sorry i took forever to answer this <33 forgot to take my meds and got sick lol

okay yeah that second part is me lmao. short person overcompensating yeah. i am a very short but very angry person. it's fine. it's FINE.

typing games were for sure a thing in elementary school!! we did a super boring one and it was BAD

aw thats too bad :( i hope u find a decent website with good shirts ™ so u can be vibey and gender

no LITERALLY. i think i might try to learn. (read: i will tell myself this, not do it, and then be disappointed in myself and feel guilty) :pensive_nonartist: so true tho

no SAME i physically cannot keep plants alive to save my life. or theirs. apparently.

yes yes google docs dark mode is a godsend. yeah they just have a LOT of popups and stuff. bleh

omg that podcast sounds absolutely wonderful please it would be the first and only podcast id ever be interested in. NO HELP. I CANT DO AUDIOBOOKS EITHER. my brain does not like it </3

yes yes yes that sounds absolutely immaculate. best vibes. BEST VIBES. and yeah that makes sense re essays

my ideal house would .uh h . uhh . . it would have lots of comfy floor space with rugs and beanbags and stuffed animals and pillows and stuff. and various types of chairs. and lots of string lights EVERYWHERE. and reading nooks and bookshelves everywhere full to the brim and. and and and. just. lots of comfy vibes like hey come over and u will never want to leave but not in a creepy ur trapped here forever way (unless??)

favorite shirt uhhh. i don't think so ?? i mean. hang on i will check my closet. oh there i am wow look at that. SORRY COULDNT RESIST ANYWAYS. umm theres this white cropped graphic tee that i stole from someone at camp. and i really like it :D

live concerts are cool but i could never . . it is just Too Much. yk ??

ooooh song song song song song. uhh. august is a fever ella jane i am once again losing my SHIT over it. also motion sickness by phoebe bridgers.

what's a song you really like right now? what's your favorite texture? what do you miss the most? what's something super random and mundane that you're scared of? how about something deep?