#I'm thinking of taking acid & shrooms later today

[thevividgreenmoss]

Outside on my balcony in the cold by Dallas standards breeze rustling through the trees carrying the smoke from the first full cigarette smoked in ages by this point buying a pack every 4-6 months and then once every month or so I smoke half of one and get nauseous beyond my baseline to continue but at least today a combination of empty enough stomach and half an ambien which generally kicks in only 1/8 times but this one did. Anyways how fun the smoke looked hanging thick and silver white in the air being buffeted by these very erratic fall winds. A Shiner (the one good texas beer) One cigarette then a stove-lit joint. Anna Meredith's Savages and Nicolas Jaar's Sirens on repeat the first few hours of this last November Sunday. Two iconic albums to me In 2016 like truly virtuosic raging mourning living songwriting / performances imho...Emily and Charlotte are out here with me adventurousness and kittingcatness undeterred by cold or wet or wind. Emily got halfway down the stairs which she doesn't usually do my little explorer she came back when I called her though she and Charlie are back inside by now guess it's cozy time. I really hope I can keep this apartment and keep the cats. My car's already totaled. time's running out ina million ways on a million things but that's most everyone's story. Hopefully figure something out. I fucked my back up again but now that i can walk without active pain I need to figure out where movement/action is for Palestine around here. It's looking to be a hard winter, it always is but it doesn't have to be I guess. At least not every time.