#I'm so happy to see so much love for 9 lately bc back when ppl would say to just skip his season and go straight to 10

[reinemichele]

I'm sure other people have done this already but I wanted to make my own

(The photo for "everybody lives" isn't the exact frame it's said, but I couldn't get his grin at that frame to look flattering, so I took 1 from right before he says it)

[janiedean]

1) So, lately I've been seeing all these Takes about how most m/m smut is from the bottom's POV bc most writers are female bottoms and they identify with him (which, okay, guess I'll never be free from THAT oversemplification), how most ppl in fandom just pretend to like femdom bc it's the most "progressive" option, if you ship any m/f you're forced to make it a girlboss/malewife deal to be woke, ppl only "like" pegging as a statement and that's going to make men irl feel pressured to try it...

2) And on the one hand I'm just so... bitter about it. My first experiences with m/f smut were "not explicitly maledom but the guy takes the initiave and the reins and does p much everything and the girl sorts of lies there with a vague sub streak" or actual maledom. And I kept wondering "okay, but can the girl like... do the fun stuff, too? Like pin the guy down and kiss and bite his neck a bit, or play with his nipples, and be kinda the one in charge?" And I was so afraid the answer was no. 3) And that's one of the (many) reasons I read way more m/m than m/f. I wasn't interested in f/f at that point even if I thought that was the only place where women could Do Fun Stuff during sex, and also I wanted my fave guys to have fun stuff done to them (and possibly watch as the fun stuff wrecked them from their own POV, more like an emotional voyeur thing than a "omg they're so lucky I wanna be in their place!" thing) and women weren't allowed to be the ones to do it to, apparently. 4) And know that I'm p sure the actual femdom/woman on top/pegging content in fandom is still the same (tho I get told it's "everywhere" even in ships where it would make more "sense" for the guy to dom/top... then WHY can't I find more of it for my fave fandoms/ships/characters, btw?!) but at least ppl talk and even joke about it like it's normal and even appealing and cool, I get told that ALL of it MUST be performative... and I get to feel like a weird freak outlier all over again. 5) Not just that, but sometimes I get to be told that by ppl who seriously believe the "the only reason to write from a bottom's POV is being a bottom yourself" thing and also in the tangentially related "service tops who get off on giving pleasure are a myth/a fantasy made up by selfish bottoms/unfeminist if they're women" thing. When I like writing from both the top's and the bottom's POV, and I LOVE female service tops and gentle/playful femdom and women topping with only *hints* of femdom... 6) ... and I already had to go through a whole phase when I thought I was the only one interested in writing and reading about all THAT, and that "real" femdom/woman on top stuff had to be about icy goddesses/greedy queens/heavy or not-quite-so-heavy sadism/men caring only about serving women and women not caring about men at all in the past. And that women topping couldn't exist without explicit femdom anyway. So, yeah, double the "what is this, my teenage insecurity all over again?!" effect. 7) ... but on the other hand, all of this is making me think back to how happy I was when I finally found creators, both in fandom and out of it, who wrote and drew femdom and woman on top content that actually fit my specific tastes to a T. How much happier and secure it made me feel, and how it made me understand that I didn't need to write or consume that kind of thing the supposedly "right" way. And that includes YOUR fics, Lavi. Especially the JB ones. Thank you so, so much for those!! 8) I'd tell you off anon bc that's how much it means to me, but... I have a good, solid idea of what I like and how I like it in fiction but as far as rl goes it's all questioning and confusion right now. I haven't even figured if I'm allo or ace tbqh. And I feel this kind of fandom discourse is SO inextricably tied to own's own sexuality and sexual preferences that it feels embarrassing to put my name on a rant like this without even *knowing*, like someone's gonna pop up form nowhere and... 9) ... and be like "well, ofc you don't *get* it and you have all these weird ideas and you don't know how things are SUPPOSED to be like! You're confused on one thing, so you MUST be confused on everything else including your own preferences, too!" And I know that's not going to happen with you, but, y'know. It's not exactly easy. Tbh it's one of the things I hate about tumblr fandom and modern fandom in general. But, huh. Getting back on track: thank you, again. So, so much.

hey anon first of all dw I get why you wouldn't want to say this off anon given the current climate, but other than that and getting into what you're actually saying.. first of all let me tell you the whole 'ah if you write the bottom then you ID with the bottom' thing is top ten of my most dreaded arguments wrt writing fic ever never mind that time I actually discoursed about it with someone who decided that if I could imagine stuff done to me by a guy then WHAT DIFFERENCE IT MADE IF IT WAS A GIRL during the mythical discourse in which half of this hellsite blocked me because I said that straight women would most likely prefer to write/consume porn involving men without it being fetishism because if you're straight you don't care for f/f which apparently made me extremely problematic but *rolls eyes* that's like complete bullshit and I've been sadly laughing about it years later because that's actually way more sexist of them to say bc it implies that women can only want to bottom which is... an... extremely sexist thing to say so *rolls eyes* and honestly I've stayed out of any pegging debate because like I really doubt that it's a thing that translates into rl practice - if a dude irl doesn't want to try pegging he just has to say it and no one forces him to because guess what to have consensual sex both people have to consent, which automatically turns into the usual assuming that a thing that has a traction in fiction/fandom means irl consequences which is completely idiotic either and honestly the fact that people are pearl-clutching over femdom content and deciding it's popular because it's woke just makes me side-eye everything because it's the usual dumb af terfy debate where ppl make sexual preferences political, which... is... stupid af like ppl like what they like in bed, there is no exclusive to roles or positions based on genders, service tops are not a myth and saying that writing X sex is woker or less woke than Y sex is just ridiculous - and someone could be writing a thing they're not into irl just because it fits the character(s) they're writing for that matter (see that time I wrote that damned jon/ygritte mommy kink where it's like so not my thing XDD) - but again... it's again the usual stupid discourse wrt wanting to say what women can find acceptable in bed or not which I would hope we had left behind us with the victorians and it's honestly worrying how many people fall for that dumbass rhetoric just because it sounds vaguely woke? then again fandom is overrun with in disguise terf discourse these days so what can you do except doing your thing, but tldr there's nothing performative in most of that and if some people are into it for that it doesn't mean everyone is? also lmao I mean now there's a fair amount of content also because media became a bit better wrt showing women in charge sexually but like idk how to say it but before what S6-S7 of got and I'm being very generous with the times just if you looked at the jb tag the femdom/pegging content was basically yours truly and four other people and not that much, it exploded later and BELIEVE ME I WAS VERY HAPPY ABOUT IT but ppl saying that it's such a thing everywhere are seeing things because in my experience it's really not (I mean.... guys look at the percentages in r*ylo fandom X°DDD like I don't read fic for that ship because 99% of that is topbensolo which I'm not interested in reading at all so X°DD) X°D also the whole top-bottom debate is idiotic af because personally I just write the sex from whichever pov fits the story better and I can assure that every time I do it from bottom pov that is not the pov I'm relating to most of the time anyway and I'm generally thinking of what the other person's doing anyway (and the one time I had to pull teeth to write m/f porn was where I was doing the bottom female pov X°DDDD like writing the guy would have been way easier but that didn't work for that story and idt that ship has the dynamic where the girl would generally top so X°DDDDD) and like... obv if you're into men in any way and you're

not interested in reading maledom m/f you'd rather read m/m that's not exactly surprising but ofc according to people that's fetishizing and whatnot, and I don't even want to touch the f/f topic because the discourse there is ridiculous and I'm pretty sure people are assholes about what's legit to write in f/f stuff too and I'll be glad to avoid it because I have one f/f sandbox where no one else plays and I'll stick with it, but like the fact that people want to dictate what you can like or not and decide what's a fetish or not is to me absolutely ridiculous *shrug* and on top of that telling ppl 'ah you're confused so ofc you think this' is ridiculous because if you're questioning it's your right to do that and no one is hurrying you to not do it in your own time and while you do you read/consume whatever tf you want? people should find out in their own time and sometimes it takes a lot to get there and new stuff pops out even when you think you have it figured out, and again there's nothing more antifeminist than telling women that they can't like whatever thing in bed whichever it is and I'm wholly not even caring about this discourse because the last thing anyone needs is making sex political and what people like to read or write political but -__-''

anyway you're very welcome and you're too kind T____T much glad if I could provide you content you liked and made you feel better about it but hey as stated all there's nothing bad or un-woke in liking any of that XD <3333

[dolphin-enthusiast]

hello my beloved morgy!! i'm alive and well! 💌💘💞 awaaaaa,, i missed you a lot darling!! even if its only been a few days, life is way more dull when i can't check in with you here :( i hope you've been doing well during that short absence of mine, and if things aren't going so swell, i'm here to hopefully cheer you up dear!! 😊❤ (1/10)

"i am doing much better now and i'm fully recovered, and thank goodness i didn't wind up hospitalized again!!! apparently my narcolepsy fired up crazily when i started to fall ill, and that ended up confining me to my bed, which was absolutely horrible (especially since i couldn't talk to you 😞💕) we still don't know what the illness was, but luckily i fought it off fast thanks to my family and friend's quick thinking!! i'm much happier now that i'm here again with you 💖 (2/10)

and oh gosh, you finished sbr??? ahhh that makes me so happy and so sad at the same time!! it's actually my favorite part along with vento aureo, and don't worry love, i want gyro back too, so you're not alone on that 😖 oh, and all those picrews?? lovely as always!! i love how much creative liberty you all take,, it astounds me!! and it shocks me that you all remember such miniscule details about me,, like the fact that i love the bahamas, ahhhh i'm so flattered by all of it!! (3/10)

i can never choose a favorite creative piece that any of you send in, i just love them all so much!! once again, thank you for all of your hard work and effort, i adore it each and every day 💕💕💕💕 thank you all for your well wishes and love!! my sister told me that apparently you mentioned something about people freaking out over me,, oh my! that surprised me a lot,, so any of those anons who read this, please don't worry about me!! (5?/10)

i assure you i'm okay, i just have a bad immune system and get sick easily, that's all!! but all of your concern means so much to me, thanks a million 💞 before i got sick, some friends came over since they wanted me to teach them how to ballroom dance for some reason,, it was very sudden but i was happy to do so nonetheless! i haven't danced like that in a long while, so it was quite exciting for me,, i am a dancer after all! (6/10)

i taught them how to do a basic waltz and tango,, they seemed to enjoy it a lot!! i suppose i'm a dance teacher now hehe 💞 oh, and last night, a friend slept over and we spent the night watching different televised comedy shows! stand-up has always held such a special place in my heart,, because when i was very small, i wanted to be a famous comedian for a long period of time,, silly isn't it? (7/10)

i would watch all of these different comedians perform and look up to them as inspirations,, i even wrote a few comedy routines to perform in front of my family when i was 4,, i guess i was really into it! now that i'm older, my aspirations have changed, but i still love to occasionally sit in comedy clubs with a glass of whatever i want, ahhh,, it never gets old ✨ (8/10)

ooh, and my mom and i were finally able to catch the escapee bunny from a while ago!! we brought him back to the garden, and he wouldn't stop following me around! i named him toffee, and he kept trying to jump on me for cuddles,, awaaaa it was so cute!! i can't wait to see him again 🌺 (9/10)

ahhh there's still so much i need to talk about, but its getting late here!! so i'll just continue on tomorrow then hm? goodnight amore, sleep well for me!! sweet dreams! 🌹 - love always, your amorous waifu xoxo 💕💖💘💌💋🌹 ps: you know morgy, like that one anon said, you also live in my brain rent free 💗 also, you are way too nice to me for your own good morgy dear, i swear, i can't stop smiling whenever you pull your sweet one-liners <3 (10/10)"

Im very glad to see ur back and fine darling, i acc forgot to answer all the anons but trust me my inbox was literally b o m b a r d e d w ppl sayin they miss u and wishing that u'd get better soon😳😳😳 if anything i'd say the fact that u didnt end up in the hospital again is very lucky and relieving

I myself cant believe i finally finished sbr yesterday and goddamn dat ending was far from pleasant🤡🤡 imma just say shame on araki for killin off all my homies....no more homies all my homies are D E A D (as a matter of fact my fav is p4 but i think u know that already)

And wow u as a comedian? Ngl i did not see it coming but thats oddly cute?? Like just imagining a tiny waifu creating comedy skits and performing them is really amazing for whatever reason jdhshsn i still see u more on the v o g u e side of things doe👁️👁️

Even if u were hella sicc at least u managed to snatch wigs and teach ppl how to dance (cant relate watch me step on everyone's toes within a 10 mile radius, mine included) a n d summoned ur disney princess powers again in order to get that rabbit😩😩😩 i also love pullin one liners bc really ur reactions are g o l d darling and thats just how it is on this bitch of an earth👀👁️👀👁️

[gtsvnbys]

a whole new world

prince!jackson x royal tutor!you

so prince!Jackson

he's the most outgoing, happy, cheerful prince ever to be introduced to the kingdom

the public absolutely adores his positive attitude and caring, considerate manners towards everyone—royal or not

he's always on the move, so he's never in the visiting kingdom for a long time, which makes everyone miss him even moreeee

he lOVES LEARNING NEW THINGS

in every country he visits, he tries to learn the basics of their language

it may be a bit rusty and there's wrong grammar stuff, but he makes the effort and it definitely shows:)

adorably handsome and suave at the same time

he is incredibly humble and and grateful for the working staff and crew after dinners and ball, he tries to help the staff clean up by taking things to the kitchen for them

he also is sure to thank everyone for an amazing night

his role as an ambassador for his kingdom requires him to travel to many countries and know everyone on the royal court

so when he first sees you standing by the entrance when he lands in a new kingdom, he panics

bc he doesn't know your name

he intensely stares at your young face, locking eyes with you for a moment, before he hears someone with a familiar voice next to you

"ah! SOMI!" his attention is diverted towards her as he wraps her up in his arms, lifting her feet off the ground and spinning her around in the air

princess jeon somi is basically his kid sister, the only royal daughter in the royal kingdoms younger than him

and like a sister, she dislikes affection from her older brother

"jaCKSON!" she swats her arms on his back as he gently sets her down on her feet

in addition to you and somi, there's royal assistant jiwoo, who tsks her tongue at jackson

jackson formally bows to all of you, thinking you're another visiting royal, "excuse my behavior, somi, jiwoo. I wasn't aware you were entertaining another royal, excuse my behavior, princess..."

but instead, he sees the hem of your skirt hit the ground, looking up to see you curtsy to him, "I am (y/n), a tutor to the princess"

jackson is taken aback, "a tutor?"

you stand up quickly, your eyebrows knitted together in offense, "I am an educated woman, is something wrong with that?"

"n-no!" jackson immediately backtracks, "I think knowledge i-is beautiful! and everyone should be allowed to learn more about the world and the fact that you are a tutor is amazing! I didn't mean anything negative at all, there should be more people like you, eager to learn and teach, thank you for passing on your wisdom"

"oh," now you're taken aback, "uh thank you" 

he's smiling at you warmly and your cheeks tint themselves a light pink as jiwoo clears her throat, "prince jackson, the other diplomats are meeting in the study right now"

"right! I'll get going! I'll see you both later, somi, (y/n), excuse me" he bows and jiwoo directs him towards the study

you're still frozen when somi glances at you, a smirk on her lips, "(y/n)? you alright?"

"huh? yes!" you beam a smile at her, "let's start our lesson! today is all about economics, the mathematics and logistics behind the production, distribution and consumption of goods and services!"

you couldn't stop smiling to yourself as prince jackson's words echoed in your mind

later that night at dinner, the table is filled with much laughter and smiles thanks to jackson's colorful storytelling about his adventures all around the world

when all the heads of royalty and the visiting diplomats leave the room for bed, you usually stay behind and help clean up with the kitchen staff

and you're surprised to see the visiting prince helping some of the elder ladies, "prince jackson, shouldn't you be off for bed?"

"I will be, after this" jackson carefully stacks the placemats and folds the linens as you set away the candles and the metal trays, "and you don't have to call me 'prince jackson,' just 'jackson' is fine"

you nod, "pri—jackson, do you always do this?"

"this? of course, I don't think doing simple things like cleaning up or housework is 'beneath someone's station,' as others have referred it as. my mother always taught me good manners, I just want to do right by her and myself"

you lead the way into the kitchen, "(y/n), how did you start tutoring somi?"

you launch into the story of being scouted at your university, being the only female tutor well-versed in many of the school's subjects

jackson's in awe of your intelligence and knowledge, so he prods you with more questions about yourself

he ends up walking you to your room, the game of 1 million questions sadly coming to an end as he kisses your hand and bows goodbye to you

your heart has never beat this fast bc of a simple gesture

the next morning you and somi finish a morning lesson, there's jackson outside the door 

he offers to take you both out on an adventure in the somi's kingdom, but bc somi is busy with her other princess duties, it's just you and jackson roaming around

somi's texting you nonstop bc she's bored with everything but she's also keeping an eye on you two bc she has a feeling that someone likes someone and bc she wants to be in the loop

you and jackson dress casually with only jackson's guard watching you from close distance

jackson offers to buy you various foods, but you don't want him to spend money on you

he buys it anyways bc "he wants to eat it" but gives it to you anyways as he runs away from you to prevent you from giving it back to him

he likes walking with you into the open markets and bookstores, following behind you as you wander in and explore things on the shelf

at the end of the day, jackson walks you to your room again and kisses the back of your hand, leaving you grinning madly as you shut the door

somi: so how was your date? [10:23pm] 

you: it wasn't a DATE [10:28pm]

you: but I had a very good time:) [10:28pm]

somi: (Y/N)!! [10:30pm]

somi: how much of a good time, huh?? ;)))) [10:31pm]

you: soMI [10:32pm]

on days when you’re not available or out of town, jackson eagerly awaits your return he spends his time split between conducting diplomatic business, walking around the city square and helping ppl, or sulking talking to somi

somi: (y/n), you should come back tonight [9:12pm]

somi: jackson keeps asking me what time you’re coming back and keeps moping when I say I don’t know [9:13pm]

"sooo somi," jackson's avoiding eye contact with her as he asks her about her plans for the day, which is nothing but lessons with you, "would you, uh, mind if I sat in on your lesson with (y/n) today?"

she crosses her arms with a small smirk, "why? don't you have any meetings or appointments to get to?"

"no, not today, I have nothing planned" 

he secretly cleared his whole schedule

he quickly shakes his head "I just want to… to get to know what normal palace life is like! I want to see what a day in the life of jeon somi is like"

"mhmm sure" 

somi is 110% sure he's only going to lessons bc he wants to spend time with you, but she don't say anything else

you're writing on a chalkboard as they both slip in quietly behind you, "somi! you didn't forget your language book right?" she hums innocently as you turn around and you're caught off-guard, "ah—jackson! w-what are you doing here?" 

you're easily flustered by his appearance in the study room

"I just wanted to sit in on your lesson with somi, if that's alright with you, but I can leave if I'm—"

"n-no no! you're fine, you can stay, just don't distract somi" he nods and takes a looks at somi's book, "or me" you mumble under your breath

somi disguises a "too late" with a cough, having heard your mumble

but you switch into tutor mode and start the first part of your language lessons

jackson is v attentive during your lesson, watching you with intrigue and curiosity and waiting to ask a question or two at the end of your lecture 

when your back is turned and somi is working on a worksheet, jackson helps fill out the answers for her

"don't think I didn't see you helping somi with the answers" you say out loud to him as somi takes a restroom break

"I don't know what you're talking about" jackson's just simply smiling at you whilst sitting on your desk

"I know you can speak multiple languages, but you should let somi learn mandarin on her own"

he starts saying something in mandarin about helping you but then he switches to cantonese

you don’t know much cantonese, only the alphabet and some basic greetings

but you can infer that it’s something about him and you

"huh? what did you say?" you move closer to jackson, but lean back against your chalkboard

jackson's eyes go wide, "you don’t understand?? I thought you knew everything though!!"

honest to god, he does think you know everything, that’s how highly he thinks of you:)

"I don't know everything, but I did know that was cantonese" you remark to him, "what did you say again?"

"oh nothing important,” he says, "maybe I can give you lessons... in cantonese, I mean" he quickly adds

"well, I wouldn't mind that at all" you say, a small smirk on your lips

he tilts his head closer to you, keeping eye contact with you until you notice his eyes dart to your lips

romantic tension is buildingggg!!

jackson's leaning in so close till somi opens the door to the room with a shout, "back! am I interrupting anything?"

jackson retracts away and shakes his head, "no, nothing!" 

you turn around and pretend to wipe something off the board, hiding the small frown on your lips, "let's begin again"

when you let the two royals out of your lesson, somi teases jackson in the hallway, "you like (y/n), admit it!"

"somi, not so loud—"

"I saw that whole exchange between you two before you guys noticed me! you said tried asking her out in cantonese, jackson wang, admit it! you like (y/n)!"

"okay, okay! shhh!" he cups his hand over her mouth until she agrees to keep quiet

somi agrees to keep her mouth shut, but she decides to help play matchmaker with you two

"royal ball?"

"yes, you are invited as a guest under my name to next week's ball" somi states, flipping the pages of the novel

you narrowed your eyes in confusion, "it's for potential suitors to mingle around and ask for a person’s hand in courtship, all eligible bachelors and bachelorettes will be there"

somi agrees to dress you up and everything, more excited for her plan to commence than anything

on the night of the ball, after somi helps you get ready, you spot jackson coming out of your tutoring room, closing the door behind him as he jogs up to you

"wow, (y/n)! you look—" jackson has this look of amazement and delight in his eyes as you twirl around in the spectacular gown, making you forget about asking why he was in your tutoring room

seeing you look so beautiful almost makes him forget that he’s not the one escorting you:’(

the jeons arranged the pairings and they probably set him up with a royal princess

but when the announcer reads off the next pairing to go down the stairs together, "miss (y/n) (l/n) of the jeon family, escorted by prince jackson wang"

somi nudges jackson with a smirk, "you’re welcome" 

you and jackson lock eyes and you both begin to walk towards each other, wide smiles on your faces

he kisses your hand as he bows deeply to you, "ready for tonight, princess?"

you blush at the affectionate title as you curtsey and place your hand in his, "ready, my dear prince"

jackson continues to lead you around the ballroom, your arm threaded thru his and his hand firmly set over yours as he introduces you to everyone there

many of them assume you’re an adopted daughter of the jeons or that you’re jackson’s girlfriend or that you’re a princess from a far off kingdom or that you’re the woman jackson is courting aka jacksON’S GIRLFRIEND

so you give them a pleasant shock when you tell them you’re somi’s tutor, "it’s just... you’re so beautiful, and you’re just a tutor?" they all say backhandedly

you plaster on a fake smile on your lips, "I firmly believe that one’s beauty isn’t found in their appearance, but rather in the knowledge and wisdom they share. being ‘just a tutor’ isn’t a role one should take lightly, as they say ‘knowledge is power’"

jackson loves how composed and poised you are, even when you’re absolutely seething inside

he glares at everyone who doubts whether or not you should even be here at the royal ball

you impress everyone with your elegance and grace and intelligence and fluency in multiple languages

and jackson’s absolutely delighted to have the most amazing woman on his arm

he then introduces you to his groups of friends who happen to also be the other princes from the neighboring kingdoms

princes jaebum and mark keep to themselves and enjoy your company, watching jackson stare at you in amazement as you make conversation with them and him

prince jinyoung adores you, as he finds your intelligence a breath of fresh air when you mention something from the same novel he finished reading

princes bambam and yugyeom each ask you for a dance with them but jackson just pulls you away from them and into another dance with him and only him

jackson doesn’t like sharing you

dancing with him is easy, it feels like second nature being with him

he LOVES being this close to you and being able to wrap his arm around your waist

he spins you around so much that it makes laugh so hard and it leaves you super dizzy, so you gotta lay your head on his shoulder;)

he leaves to get you water when you spot somi talking to her fifth potential suitor across the floor and something clicks in your head, "jackson, why aren’t you talking to any of the other royal women tonight? you’ve spent this whole evening with only me"

"what’s wrong with that?" he shrugs

"but isn’t this night for courtship and marriage proposals?" 

"mhmm" 

you’re still very suspicious, "shouldn’t you be courting someone? or asking for their hand in courtship tonight?"

"I was planning to ask someone special but—" 

"but what...?" you wait for an answer, but jackson bites his lip till his expression changes

"wait! close your eyes" you close your eyes as he begins to pull you along, "wait, actually not yet, follow me first"

jackson leads the way back up the stairs, back to in front of a very familiar room, "and we are outside my tutoring room because...?"

he opens the door and on your board are cantonese characters written on the board with different sized blank lines next to a bubble that says ‘jackson’s cantonese lesson #1’

you look to jackson, "what is this?"

he smirks, "my very first cantonese lesson with you, and for the first exercise, you have to translate this phrase from cantonese" he taps a cantonese dictionary on your desk, "use this and solve the riddle"

"why must I do this?"

"just do it!!" he excitedly nudges you towards the board and you melt at his smile

after a while, you manage to figure out what each character means and build a phrase from it

especially with jackson helping you turn to the right page and everything

"‘could I take/have your a hand in a courtship?’" you stare at it for a minute, repeating it over and over bc something about the phrase seems off??

"oh wait, let me fix it!" jackson adds things to your translation, changing it to read "‘dear (y/n), may have your hand in courtship? -sincerely, jackson’"

"and the answer is..."

you’re too busy wrapping your arms around jackson to answer

xx

[lunebinnie]

(1/11)Oh my gosh yesss I'm glad that you like long messages too because I talk way too much 😂 (And yeah about my friend and just hanging out w/ her more that's exactly what I was thinking 😂) It's actually kind of funny bc just yesterday I was hanging out at her house and her younger brother needed to go to Walmart and I was like 'I've been meaning to go to Walmart, I'll take you' and ofc since I have a bluetooth radio adapter the whole drive I had my Spotify going with some quality k-bops, lol

2)And as we were driving I noticed him kind of jamming and I was like 'Oh my god Mickey do you actually like this???' And he was Like 'yeah, these are some good bops 👍' I was shooketh. I had to go home before I had the chance to show him any music videos but he says he's open to watching some with me next time I see him. One way or another I'm going to turn someone in my social circle into a kpop fan you mark my words ☝ and then maybe we can team up and try to work on his sister some more 😂

3)I only started first getting into kpop last June so I'm still very new, but it's definitely super frustrating how so many ppl act like it's an inherently bad or cringey genre of music just bc it's kpop! The stigma is ridiculous! I also started out with BTS (lol) and since they're pretty popular in the US at least I was able to be like 'See, this isn't just a niche thing, lots of people know abt and like this group' but of course my dad still says 'Just cause it's popular doesn't make it good'

4)And I'm like? You're a band teacher, you of all people should understand that music doesn't have to be in your native language (or even have lyrics) in order for you to enjoy it, but go off I guess... It's the same with one of my college friends. They make fun of me for liking kpop but this is coming from some who still treats March 22nd (the day My Chemical Romance broke up) as a day of mourning. Like, no tea no shade no pink lemonade, MCR was a good band nothing wrong with liking them.

5)But like if you're 22 and you still haven't grown out of your emo phase do you really have room to pick on other people for their music taste?  🤷 Anyway that's the person who follows my main that I didn't want to know I had a kpop sb. I think I made it around July. Tbh it was pretty dead for most of 2018. But like I said I've started using it way more since I recently revealed that it exists, lol. Especially since that good good Astro cb 👏💗😩 But honestly Astro is such a blessing

6)Idk how I lived so long w/o them. When I first got into kpop I was planning on just sticking to BTS since the reaction to me being into kpop was so volatile. I was like 'I'm only into one group, ppl already are negative about me liking kpop so I'm just gonna stick to this and not become a full on multifandom fan' and then in Nov I accidentally let myself fall in love with Monsta X and that plan was foiled. And realizing I wasn't gonna be able to stick to just one anymore opened the floodgates

7)And I was like okay in that case, let's just start getting into *all groups* Lol. My story of getting into Astro was actually bc of my best friend's roommate (can you tell I have like one friend and my whole social circle kinda revolves around her? Lol) so this roommate when she heard me being sad about having no kpop friends was like 'oh hey, I'm kinda into kpop' and it turns out she didn't like very many groups and was one of the ppl who blah blah BTS is overrated, which ya know isn't ideal8)But I was just really desperate to have someone to talk about kpop with. And Astro was her favorite so I was like, okay I'll get into them so that I have something to talk about with her! So I started watching some videos and I fell in love with them pretty much instantly! And I was real excited bc #1 now I can talk about kpop with someone! And #2 this group is actually amazing? Bonus! ... And then they got in a big fight about their living conditions and the roommate ended up moving out RIP

9)So that didn't work out, lol (Your story about finding them during that internship sounds amazing though! Haha) But yeah, so this is my first cb too! And although I love them w/ my whole heart and would have loved to have them in my life even sooner what an amazing cb to be your first! The concept was wonderful, the album was excellent, the visuals were to *die* for. They worked so hard and I'm so proud of them and I'm so happy we got to see their work come to fruition and get them a win 🤧🤧

10)The dance practices though? You're so right omg 💗 Me and my Rocky bias *fully* understand 😂 All of them are such good dancers?? I never fail to be impressed. Of course you know who I always end up watching tho 👀 lol (̶i̶f̶ ̶I̶ ̶w̶a̶s̶ ̶h̶a̶l̶f̶ ̶a̶s̶ ̶p̶r̶e̶t̶t̶y̶ ̶a̶s̶ ̶R̶o̶c̶k̶y̶'̶s̶ ̶f̶o̶o̶t̶w̶o̶r̶k̶ ̶I̶ ̶w̶o̶u̶l̶d̶ ̶b̶e̶ ̶a̶l̶m̶o̶s̶t̶ ̶a̶s̶ ̶p̶r̶e̶t̶t̶y̶ ̶a̶s̶ ̶h̶i̶s̶ ̶e̶y̶e̶s̶.̶.̶.̶)̶ ̶ I also love how at the end they always pause all dramatic for a minute and then start screaming 😂

11)It's like? Amazing talent *and* dorky personalities? What more could you ask for? Lol. In regard to your last question though Unfortunately I also won't be able to see them 😔 I live in the smack middle of the US and since they're only going to coasts all of the venues are way too far away to get to. Esp since it's the school year and I can't skip class to drive cross country for a concert much as I'd like to (Holy lord I talked over twice as much?? Why am I like this?) Talk again soon! -ASA

Okay SO I’m very sorry I haven’t had the time to answer everything until now bc I’ve been busy studying for midterms and also I was a lil trashy today since my uni closed bc of freezing rain so I slept in but I’m glad that FINALLY everything got sent like damn tumblr you really don’t want us making friends huh. 

Yessssss I love the feeling of seeing someone else also get into the same interests! I’ve been pretty lucky in the sense that I grew up around mostly other asian americans, so kpop was never something that was considered super “weird,” like some people were into it and some weren’t but even if you weren’t you still would’ve been familiar with the more popular groups from when you were younger. Even now, I have a bunch of friends also into kpop (one of them is even my roommate) so tbh I was definitely the one in my friend group late to the party aha. Even my university hosts kpop nights at our bar and I’m pretty sure we have a kpop dance team as well? So tbh if I met someone new there’s probably like a 50% chance they’re into kpop or at least listen casually. 

Tbh I used to be a little bit judgy too but moreso because of the obscene amount of money I’ve seen some of my friends spend (no joke one of my friends has spent probably like $500+ on Loona stuff in the past month and a half and another friend bought like 5 copies of the same album for herself like damn idk how do you have that much money).

I also really don’t like it when people bash other people’s music tastes, since I feel like it’s something so personal? Idk but for a long time I used to be really self conscious about sharing my music with other people and even now I feel like that sometimes. For me after getting into BTS I kind of expected to get really into other groups since I was in Korea anyway and I was already listening to a lot of other artists casually. For me it started with NU’EST (fell for them immediately at the same concert that I saw Astro at) and then after was Astro, and then I just started slowly getting into other groups after that (even though I haven’t totally been able to get into Got7′s music they’re SO funny and I just kinda fell for their personalities  you know). 

I honestly think that they did such a wonderful job with this comeback too! I like seeing their concept evolve and mature but they’re not straying too far from their original cute concept so I feel like it’s a nice middle ground that’s very unique to them, you feel? Also I feel like the visuals especially and the execution of the whole plant concept was just done so well?? Even my friend who’s not in kpop was like “k idk who they are but that was the prettiest music video I’ve ever seen”. What are your favourite eras and songs? For me I’d have to say either the Spring Up or Baby era BUT right now my favourite song is probably Again/Should’ve Held On though tbh my mood and my tastes change like every few weeks loool. 

I have no idea why I tend to be most attracted to the dances rather than vocals or rap (maybe has to do with the fact that it’s something I’ve always wished I could do but have always been bad at lmao). But Astro’s stood out to me for the exact same reason! I just thought it was so funny seeing them all break character at the end because you really get to see how hard their choreos are and you get a glimpse of their personalities like damn, how can you not stan these dummies?

That’s really unfortunate that you won’t get to see them either :/ They’re also coming to the closest city to me but it’s on a Tuesday, but I *hypothetically* looked up flight prices and tried to see if I could get away with just missing a day of classes if I flew back in the middle of the night since I have some friends who did the same thing and drove down to Buffalo but I seem to have underestimated the size of New York State LMAO. But apparently my university’s too far from the airport so it’s “not realistic” (and also I’m hella broke from travelling to Taiwan and Japan while I was in Korea but that’s a minor issue ig). I hope we do both get a chance to see them live though! Who knows, after the success of this comeback I’m expecting a lot more cbs and world tours out of them ;)

[celestialallstars]

Episode #9: “Beggars can't be choosers and I'm already on my knees” - Jack

Ok well never mind Drew just got booted which NOBODY TOLD ME ABOUT??? Like if Matt had gone it'd have been one thing because I would've heard at least the name of the person who actually went, people might've been honest for once. But noooooooo let's create this Drew concoction and once again leave Jack out of a vote! I mean, would I have voted Drew out? I don't know, probably not. But still it's the principle. Was I kept safe? Yes, but another ally and former Cyrena left. My numbers keep dwindling and I am scraping the bottom of the barrel here.

So this round I want Mitch gone. I don't trust him too much, as I know he isn't as close to Bryce as I am. Which scares me cause Bryce is my ally right now. I know me and Mitch are in this 8 person alliance, but that shit means NOTHING to me. As I never said i wanted to be in it. So Ya FUCK THAT. Time for me to push mitch this round.

Drew is out but I decided to be honest about it with Michael. Ill talk with Chloe today and try and do some chatting with Jack too but beside that I usve hope for a few tribals wooo! Or maybe its time to die, we'll see ha

I’m already over this game and it’s final fucking 12. I shouldn’t have played I should’ve just hosted this is all my worst orgs on fucking steroids because everyone’s too busy fetishizing this anti-Cyrena agenda. I don’t care if it’s not a thing, there’s no reason to target Matt and I and leave us out of votes when we have 0 agency and are literally 2 votes up for grabs. But nobody gives a flying fuck about logical gameplay and like fine, be a moron, and have fun getting blindsided at 9th when all the easy votes are gone and you were too busy standing around with your dick in your hand to put yourself in a better position. Fuck this season and fuck this cast

Today's to do list:

Call Jared Yell at Jared Tell Jared he's not beating his Wakea placement Hang up Win immunity Cry myself to sleep

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"yikes, you’ve been shot!" is a common theme for me this season

Watching the immunity was pretty telling I'd say, as random as it was. Having it said, it's been down to Loris, Zach, and Bryce for hours now. THE smart thing is to give Bryce immunity and up his threat level, but alas we gotta get a  show out of it lol.

So uh.... forget everything I said about Jared I guess because he wants to work with me? Lmao. Idk man like, can I really trust anyone besides Michael and Matt at this point? Not really, but Jared is the ONLY other person to legitimately give me a lifeline here (I don't count Mitch/Chris or any of the BS Zach/Bryce are giving me) so I have to take it, find some footing, figure out if I can actually get through this early merge here. I'm keeping my head down unlike my past games and I'm letting the game come to me. Beggars can't be choosers and I'm already on my knees

I FOUND AN IDOL!! I cant say I thought this would happen but I am so happy that it did! I just hope I can do right by this immunity idol! I got help out of Stephen so I am just so thankful for that!!

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So I have this feeling things are not going to go the way I wish so. Rhys is gathering troops to get Mitch out and he's already gone to Bryce who told me and Zach, and Jared. How does he have numbers? BECAUSE HE HAS FLIPPED. We might as well should've had Kori in the chats because both have said the same thing as far as contributions go

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Now I am in a pickle, not knowing if Jared/Bryce/Zach all want to flip after they wnet on a call together. Its a little concerning not gonna lie. What makes this worse is that like we are putting ourselves in a position where we HAVE to do play certain way. I dont want to be 6-5 I want to have cushion and Rhys is doing exactly what I figured he would be doing just early. I need to figure out exactly how willing the others are for this before its too late

So last tribal was a little bit of a rough one and the day after wasn’t too great either I just felt drained the entire day but I didn’t sign up for all stars to lose after being blindsided I came to win and I need to do whatever I can to get that fighting spirit back. I’m not out of this yet and hopefully the relationships I’ve built plus the killshot results mean that we can get a nice little blindside going.

What’s the German word for when people ask you if you’ve heard anything about the vote knowing full well you haven’t been privy to any information all merge?

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Bryce telling me Mitch’s name??? 8.5 hours before tribal??? You really do love to see it. Michael told me Jared told him Mitch as well, so I’ll probably hear from Jared soon. This is beautiful stuff I could give less of a fuck about Mitch going. Everything’s coming up Millhouse!

These bitches are conspiring against me.

So, Rhys has been feeling antsy and decided he wants to flip on our 8. Tbh it's probably a smart move for him since he's the least incorporated of the 8 and would likely get 8th if my understanding of the situation is anything to go by. Soooo I can't exactly blame him, but, that's not all.

Bryce is ALSO wanting to flip. It seems so early for a well-connected member of the alliance to want to do something like that, so I imagine it's because he wants to play the middle between this group and the 4 outside of it. Rhys and Bryce may have leaked the alliance already, and, if they did that, then they also probably leaked how everyone was pretending Matt was the target at the last vote.

This group seems to be planning to vote Mitch out tonight, which isssssss bad. Very bad. Especially bad for me since he is one of my closest allies.

Chris found an idol, though, and I'm really hoping we can save it for late-game. There's still a chance this vote can turn around though. That's what I'm hoping for.

IM BEING DUMB IDK WHAT TO DO UGH I WANT MITCH OUT HTIS ISNT SMART THIS ISNT LIKE ITS NOT I KNOW THAT BUT IM DOING IT ANYWAY THIS IS A MISTAKE I KNOW IT IS JFAKDHK BUT IDK HOW TO PLAY THIS GAME BC I THINK PPL SAY IM A THREAT AND I CAN ONLY PLAY UTR SNAKE NOT THIS WHOLE KUMBAYAH THING PPL GOT GOING ON

hi. so . after I almost win immunity after it was given to bryce when hes  already won immunity in another social challenge, now bryce  wants to vote mitch because ‘he Doesn’t like him’. I don’t know who the votes going to be and I rlly like Mitch so like I’m gonna pray and try to make sure it’s not him :( Fuck bryce

Okay... so. This round has been quite a lot, and I am going to try to explain it piece by piece because I have probably played more game in this round than I have the rest of the game combined.

Rhys told me that he wants to flip, and then Bryce told me that Zach also wants to flip (along with himself) against Mitch. I did not want to deal so I went to sleep.

I called Zach the same night and tried to gauge how much trust he has in me by admitting that Rhys wants to flip, and seeing how he would react towards me. He played very coy which is very... Zach.

Bryce told me that he went to Chris about flipping and that Chris shut it down, so I quickly went and leaked to Chris and showed my disinterest in flipping. I made a plan to call Zach and Bryce and try to convince them that this was the wrong move. (Keep in mind this was all the same night, after the immunity results.) I thought I made up some ground and pointed them in the direction of targeting Michael, but I would soon realize that they were just placating me. The call ended with Zach saying that he wanted to get Stephen's thoughts in the morning.

Come the morning, I hatch this crackhead plan to get Mitch the merge idol. According to Stephen from the night before, we were only 11 steps away from the end of the bridge. At 9 AM Bryce quickly searches and says "IT APPEARS WHATEVER WAS ONCE HERE IS GONE AHHH" (I was using my 3 person alliance to get myself or Bryce the idol, not knowing that I would regret doing that.) Being that Bryce said the exact line as if something were missing, I thought there were a couple possible scenarios: 1. He straight up lied. 2. Stephen actually got to the end of the bridge the night before. 3. The night before after everyone had guessed, Bryce took the numbers to a 3rd party (Zach) so they could get the idol.

So that plan was dead. I then considered, "what if I give Mitch my idol?" I quickly realized I would probably regret that in a few rounds.

I spent the rest of today formulating a plan to position myself in everyone's good graces no matter what the outcome of the vote is. I told Rhys I would help him recruit the minority to vote Mitch. I messaged all of them about the vote, and then I came clean with Chloe on call saying that "even though the vote is Mitch, we should be aware that it aligns with Bryce and Zach's agenda and they threw your name." I then communicated to Chris, Loris, and Stephen what Rhys said and my distaste for flipping.

You may wonder where the sudden distrust for Bryce came from. Well, Chris told me that Loris said "Bryce had this planned before immunity (voting for Mitch)." I'm thinking Bryce probably just used me to get to Zach but still wants us to be the F3. My interests don't seem to be aligning with theirs.

With that being said I will likely be voting for Mitch tonight. RIP to the brodie, you deserved better. I will try my best to put off using my challenge advantage and my idol for as long as possible, and I will be trying to play both sides between the Zach/Bryce duo and Chris.

So I’m finally in danger of going (love that). I’m praying someone doesn’t have an idol because I feel like the rehidden one has been found. It’s between me and matt but if I stay which I think is likely, I have to do a better job communicating. I think that’s what got me in this position in the first place. If this is my last confessional I really hope jared Stephen or Chris wins. They are all playing solid games and I will be cheering them on from the sideline

jared thinks hes so funny calling zach but not me like. all i demand from allies is complete loyalty and that they talk to no one else. is that asking too much???

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Mitch is voted out 6-5-1. He becomes the 1st member of our jury!

Watch his exit interview below: