#I'm really sorry for the.. these whole wads of theories and posts...!

[yuseirra]

If the way I view him is correct,

Kamiki actually wants to exchange his life for Ai and die in her place and have her be reunited with their children. He loves them all.

The reason he's been doing whatever he's been doing is not just for Ai, it's for the twins too. He doesn't really care about his OWN happiness. He just wants Ai to live and live alongside with their children and he'd be okay with him being out of the picture like how it always were, that's what I think.

If you examine the lyrics for Mephisto (which I concluded is written from his point of view) the speaker does not care about their life. They want to bring their lover back, but they don't even dream of being together with them, (giving their life away for someone means THEY'D die instead and that's... really far from staying together or being reunited with said person) and this actually is fitting to the narrative because he believed Ai never loved him back. He just assumed everything would be better if he dies instead of her. He thinks Ai's life holds much more value than his own (and maybe that's why he tries to make his life "bear more weight" because his life cannot compensate for hers just yet.)

Why be so desperate to bring back someone, if they can't enjoy the reunion? Well, 1. he's ridden with guilt and he believes Ai died because of him so he wants to fix that, 2. he also thought she wouldn't want to see him(if you devalue yourself that much, you tend to overlook the obvious-the fact that Ai actually called him to visit her and the kids- and believe they would hate you) 3. She left their babies behind...

If Kamiki has some fatherly feelings as he claims, (I keep saying this but this is true. Ai wanted to raise her kids with him and those visions she had, I feel they would be pretty accurate of how he could have been. He treats his children with tenderness when he comes to meet them and is actually pretty attentive to their wants. The reason he didn't get close to them was probably because he was really unsure of himself/self-hatred/thought Ai wouldn't want him near their kids/He's going to die anyway if he goes through with his plans)He'd want the twins to have their mother back.

So... I doubt that he wants to hurt Ruby or Aqua. It's honestly really far from what Ai would want too, and he WANTS TO DO SOMETHING FOR AI. He can't be that delusional that she'd want to live in exchange for Ruby's life or whatever.

If this line of thought I have about him turns out to be true, He's going to be immensely hurt if his children believes he's capable of using them or killing them for his own good, because they're also people he's willing to give his life for, as well as he'd be for Ai.

This guy has no reason not to love the kids Ai's left behind. In fact, I think he'd be proud of them. I bet they gave him some happiness, as he watched them on TV and made their debut as celebrities. I think he was really proud of Ruby when she's said she's going to surpass Ai, and he sent bouquets to Akane after learning she was Aqua's girlfriend from the TV shoots with the intent of, "take care of my son well"... If you think of it. Kamiki also performed in the Lala Lai theatrical company and met Ai there... He could have felt it as a nice coincidence that Aqua met his girlfriend the same way he did. That's something I'D feel pretty melancholic about, I'm sure he felt that way.

This guy loves his kids. They are what Ai and he have together. He refers to them as "our children", so he associates the twins with Ai AND himself and that cannot be anything negative since he LOVES her from the bottom of his heart. I'm sure must have been caring about them all along from afar.

He's in this to make their little family return to it being "perfect" the way it was (and his view of it DIDN'T include him, being the depressed and miserable state of mind he is, which is WHY he was so surprised when he saw Ai say she WANTED him to be with her as she raised their kids, he HAD NO CLUE SHE WISHED HIM WITH HER.) and he doesn't mind dying in the process. That's how I see him for the time being.

He would have been a good dad. Ai is right. I take Ai's interpretations of him as the most accurate ones when it comes to this character, she's the one who saw through him and claimed "they're the same" and decided to have children with him and said as far as "wanting to live forever" with the man. And as a "father", I feel like he'd be able to sacrifice himself for his children's welfare as well as being able to do the same for Ai. He has many reasons to be desperate about bringing Ai back. He didn't even want to live alongside her!!!! Then what would that mean? He wants to give his children their mother back, the mother that he feels responsible for having taken away from them from the mistakes he's made!!

So, that's my theory for today :)

it's really sad when you think about it?? he's doing a lot for Ai but he never even thinks he deserved to live with her, to have his own happiness. That's why Ai wants to save him. He never values himself too high and is too ready to throw himself away.