#I'm rambling again my bad oabsowbeos

[the--firevenus]

Yo what if Merlin not remembering their own childhood is why Satrana can’t see Merlin’s past…

YEAH EXACTLY YESS!!!!!!!

It's like looking at a blank canvas

Like, if merlin is (or was) a human, their childhood was so long ago that it's just become either, too irrelevant to be remember or too far gone to even begin remembered

If merlin was NOT a human, then their existence was born out nothing and will never have it, they don't have a beginning just like how they don't have an end. (yes this seem a bit far more of a reach but hey a food of thought)

But if they were a human, that means with each amnesiac episode merlin not only lost memory, but also sense of identity, every. single. time.

And that somehow even more tragic to think about,,, no wonder Satrana can't see anything, what there to see if you can't even pin point where your life start? When you live as countless of different person? What there to see really if you're made of a myth?

Those thoughts kinds eating my brain rn,,, each cycle or each amnesiac episodes it's like merlin born anew , and that's very fucked up cuz he could forgot himself and everyone again the next day...