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a-story-teller · 6 days ago

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I was in a major car accident yesterday (got t-boned) and was very luckily a) alone in the car, as the passenger side got walloped and b) not injured. However I took care of everything and then went home and proceeded to sleep for 19 out of the following 24 hours.

#I could feel all my muscles and all of them were in pain. every ounce of my energy was sapped #I needed to eat but the thought of eating made me want to puke #I had to be driven home and I was sat in the front seat like 😵‍💫🫥😱 why aren't you BRAKING you need to BRAKE every two seconds #After my 24 hour reset I am now up to eating a meal. I still hurt but only the top quarter of my body instead of all of it.#I can stand the thought of being driven now but idk how long it'll be before I'm OK with driving again 🙁#I have been thinking about it like. all the time which sucks. Unfortunately my tolerance for processing negative experiences is -1000 #If something bad happens to me I want to just fix the situation and move on from it immediately #and that just doesn't happen in reality. But now I'm stuck sitting with this awful experience for who knows how long :(#I'm lucky our insurance is so good it'll cover everything (but deductible obvs) and I imagine the car is fixable #All in all I'm incredibly lucky and I know that and I'm so grateful to be healthy and home with my husband and cat #But also I've had my license for 8 years and never had an accident. I've been through so much this year. This car is 1.5 months old #It just feels so unnecessary and evil for this to happen now and I feel so guilty that apparently I'm at fault #and caused this huge financial and energetic drain for my lil family when we've already dealt with fuckin everything else the past 6 months #The ''why me why today why when I'm a responsible driver'' is real and my whole shit is rocked. I'm still shaken up #I've had a few times recently where shit felt... unreal? Like I should be able to reload my save because that couldn't have just happened #And this was so vividly that way #I'm strong but like. The Cursed™️ vibe is very present #May have to do a curse break and many protection spells soon #cause this is getting ridiculous #personal

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