#I'm gonna be so brave (I have a fear of musicals. I'm so serious it's a real anxiety)

[wolfsplosion]

guys I'm going to be in the same room as Gaten Matarazzo in like two weeks

[mistchievous]

JESS my love, I have run out of things to listen to while making icons so instead I am trying to brave my VERY INTENSE (and very weird and unexplainable and ridiculous - I KNOW 🤣🤣😅) fear of podfics, so tell me, which of your podfics are you most proud of/would you recommend most to be my very first podfic ever? 👀💕💕💕

SARAH, WHAT A QUESTION. ASDFSADFASDFASDFA

DEAR LORD.

UMMMM. FIRST PODFIC EVER?

THE PRESSURE YOU ARE PUTTING ON ME RIGHT NOW.

ASDFSADFSADFSADFA

Okay, okay. It shouldn't be a long one because you're new, but it shouldn't be something super short either because you're working on something. Hmmmm.

I'm gonna give you two options that I think work best, and you should pick whatever you're more in the mood for! They’re both about an hour long. Idk what you’ve read, so I’ll include summaries, and I’m gonna keep it lower rated and smut free. 😂

If you want something kinda lighthearted and different and fun, go for "Love in the Time of TikTok" by @evandiaz. It'll put a smile on your face and also tug at your heartstrings a bit, and it's only 42 minutes long. So, it'll keep you amused and be a really great introduction. It's kinda crack-lite though. But there’s music and effects and guest appearances, and it’s a great podfic to start with.

Summary: “It seems kind of dystopian to let millions of people know he’s in love with his best friend before telling said best friend first, doesn’t it?

Whatever. Fuck it.

It’s not like anyone he knows in real life watches his Tik Toks anyway, so he can be a little freer with the truth even if doesn’t tell his followers everything. He already keeps a tight cinch around his emotions when he’s at work, he can let his guard down a little on here, right?"

Wrong.

If you're interested in something a bit more serious though, try @hattalove's "baby, say you'll always keep me". It’s an hour and four minutes and really fucking easy to get lost in. I’ve listened to it a million times.

Summary: “Yeah,” Eddie says, and the darkness behind his eyelids takes on a white edge. “Be good. Nice to be married,” he yanks on Buck’s t-shirt, “best friend.”

Finally, Buck takes a breath that sounds off somehow, but he laughs too, and that sounds normal, Eddie thinks. A normal laugh.

“Sure, Eds,” he says, and there’s his hand in Eddie’s hair again, a puff of breath on the crown of Eddie’s head like Buck leaned in to press a kiss there and then stopped, but why would he stop—“I’ll marry you if you remind me tomorrow.”

or the one in which joking about being married to your best friend is all fun and games, right up until you realize that you're not laughing.

Ummm... Good luck? 😂💖💖💖

[kaaytea]

Getting rid of bugs for you

⤷Includes: Tsukishima, Iwazumi, Tanaka

Warnings: beetles, moths, spiders, Tsukki is a meanie :(, this is kinda crack hcs

A/n: welcome back to me projecting my worst fears into headcanons :')) part two is here!!

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Tsukishima

He's so mean about it bro

Bugs don't bother him toooo much, he just thinks they're nasty

Always finds a way to tease you about needing him to get rid of bugs for you

Anyways

So you are straight vibin~ in the bathroom getting ready for the day, music blasting when suddenly you see something fluttering about behind you in the mirror

It's a moth a BIG, FUZZY, NASTY ASS MOTH

GETOUTGETOUTGETOUTGETOUTGE-

you sLaM the bathroom door shut and zoOM to find your knight in thick prescription glasses 🥰

He just kinda looks at you as you explain how serious the situation is and how you nEED him to help you

Sighs very dramatically and follows you to the bathroom

He's pure evil good luck soldier 😔

"You're being dramatic there's no moth in here."

"What?! Yes it is, it's totally in there, it's fucking huge you can't miss it."

You go in to point out where it is but this snake has the audacity to slip out the door and LOCK YOU IN THE BATHROOM WITH THE ENEMY!!

"TSUKKI PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR, THIS ISNT FUNNY!"

"Huh? Sorry I can't hear you, you know the walls are thick."

"Please Kei....let me out, I feel like I'm gonna cry and throw up at the same time... please"

Dammit now he feels bad

You just sound so small and terrified :(

Regret and guilt is all he feels

He opens the door and you dart out of there, he takes care of the moth ( you definitely weren't kidding that thing was nasty) and then pulls you into a hug and presses a kiss to your forehead

"I'm sorry...I took it too far."

"It's ok, just never do that again."

Iwazumi

Why does he love bugs so much?

Like genuinely concerned for his health

Bugs don't phase him at all, boys a veteran beetle catcher so he knows what he's doing

never ever kills the bugs, he always safely catches them in a cup and sets them free in the garden

You had the kitchen windows open to let some fresh air in while you made some cookies, you weren't paying attention to your surroundings so you completely missed the, very large, rhino beetle bop his way into your kitchen

You went to grab the rubber spatula on the counter behind you when you finally noticed him chilling on yOuR spatula

SCREAMING, CHAOS, FIRE ALARM, TORNADO SIREN, THOES RED FLASHING LIGHTS ALL GOING OFF AT ONCE IN YOUR BRAIN

It was a stare down, just you and this beetle

Yeah screw this you need to bring in the big guns

"Hajime!! Help! Hurry!"

He rAN into the kitchen bc he thought you hurt yourself

Then he saw you sitting on the island counter cowering in fear pointing at the lil beetle guy

He just :)) you're so cute 💖

He goes over and gently picks the beetle up

"Ew ew! Don't pick it up with your hands!!"

"......how else do you expect me to pick it up?"

"NoT wItH yOur hAnDs?! Kill it, get it out, I don't wanna see it anymore."

"I'm not gonna kill a helpless beetle. They're not that bad babe.....I actually think they're kinda cute."

"I'm disowning you."

Tanaka

He's trying his best babes...he really is

Wants to look really brave in front of you but....

He can't handle bugs well

Saeko is a great sister but there have been a few..uh instances

(Am I implying that she has purposely dropped spiders onto Ryuu as kids? Yes, yes I am)

So here you are, sitting in ya bedroom scrolling through your phone

And guess what decided to visit you

Spider

Big spider

VERY BIG SPIDER

BIG SPIDER THAT IS STRAIGHT SPEED CRAWLING ABOVE YOU ON THE CELLING

yeah no

"RYUU! HOLY JESUS, RYUU GET IN HERE!"

"What's wrong?"

"SPiDEr! SPEED SPIDER! BIG SPEED SPIDER!!"

"........"

"I hate it here."

It's fine, he's fine spiders don't bother him at all... Ha ha

Knees pads: CHECK!

Oven mitts: CHECK!

Fly swatter: CHECK!

Bug spray: CHECK!

Long sleeves, pants, and a beanie: CHECK!

it's go time, he may hate spiders but right now his baby is counting on him and he never lets you down >:)

You hide in the living room while he takes care of the demon

You hear these things in order: a loud thud, vIcioUs spraying, then silence

Huh, you honestly didn't expect him to do it

........

Cue loud, high pitched screech and Tanaka flying out of the bed room slamming the door close

"We have to burn the house down now."

"......I'm calling Saeko to come save us."

[cosmictulips]

Good time, it's very nice to know you exist 🍵🛶🏰🪔🍯🍯🍯 I'm 18, T, libra sun, leo moon, cap ris. if u could help, that'd be a big thank you

recently I've been feeling kinda shut off from any type of spirituality, universe, can't trust my own mind because i don't want to make things up and go with a lie, not imagination play - a terrible lie to oneself. so, i can only trust others. been asking for a clear sign that i wouldn't doubt for as long as i can remember, and nothing... am i tryna knock on the door that wasn't meant for me? then i don't understand anything. i feel left out of my own life. i try pulling out any advice, but then, my intuition may be just wishful thinking. nothing i ever do comes as i intend. I've let go of logic, of expectations, but it feels like a one way communication. can't remember dreams. locked out of everything and losing hope. i don't think it's a wall i made. i don't want to make up a voice in my head, it is my biggest fear, i want to actually hear one.

so, one question - why am i being unanswered?

pun unintended

thank you in advance, you're very kind.

have a wonderful weekend, and every weekend some good news

Hey Friend =) I truly hope other people see this ask too because I think your ask is very important.  so I hope you don’t mind that I kind of get personal with you.  Truth be told,  I’ve been feeling the exact same way recently.  it’s happened when I was first starting out with the Craft -as I like to call it -  and it happens from time to time.  even now.  these past two weeks have been a wreck for me and it really feels like I haven’t been heard by the universe.  No, not heard.  I’ve been heard.  but to me, it feels like I’ve been deemed unworthy.   

And especially with divination,  reading for myself has always been wrong.  which is why I no longer trust reading for myself.  and I don’t particularly trust it when people say they read for themselves. because too me, how do you know you’re not lying to yourself? I always, always tell people to be careful because the universe can and WILL tell you what you want to hear.  it’s hard approaching divination with a very unbiased, neutral head.  and it’s kind of why I’ve fought some people over their readings.  people only ever project to others and to the univeres what they want. so if I or you were to tell them otherwise, it’s wrong. 

So you’re right to take a step back if it doesn’t feel right to you.  and here’s where I’m going to start contradicting myself a little bit here.  You need to start trusting yourself.  fully, undoubtedly and ruthlessly.  trust yourself so much that people almost think you’re full of arrogance.  and that’s the key word, almost. Be open minded enough to new ideas and to change the way you think of things.  but always, always trust yourself to know what is best for you. Only YOU are going to know the best route to take for yourself. 

I started being answered when I started trusting the guidance that was coming in for me.  I started to notice the little signs at first.  Notice any repeating numbers?  colors?  any certain phrases you hear too often? read too often?  is there an animal or group of animals that tend to show up at odd places?  slowly start to take notice of these things.   Also,  truly dig deep into what you believe in.  if you want to get into spirituality,  ask yourself why. what is it that you believe that matches that.   I got into it because I felt so alone in a church and no one was listening.  and for awhile, I was thrown in circles the minute I opened myself up to the universe.  but instead of blocking it out,  I kept pushing.  I kept trying to see the pattern, and I kept trying to change it. 

and that could be what’s happening for you.  I know you said that you think it’s not a wall you built. but darling, it is.   I think it comes from a fear you’re not ready to recognize yet.   it could be the fear of the unknown, it could be a fear of failure,  but you’ve built a wall.  

Spirituality is made for everyone.   It’s okay to have blocks,  to doubt your abilities and be unsure of whether or not the universe actually hears you.  the universe brought you to me.  so obviously it hears you.  =) 

but you cannot hear it and I think that’s what needs to change.  

So let me give you some advice on what I do when I begin to feel these blocks. like I have been recently. 

1. I pray to my gods.  you don’t have to be into worshiping gods.  you can simply pray to the universe like I did and still do from time to time.  You’ll know it’s listening when you feel the warmth of the sun, and the gentle breeze of the wind.  perhaps you’ll see an animal or two ;) my sister is a good example of this, she sees dogs everywhere when she’s looking for a sign from the universe lol.  2. I turn to divination.  My readings for myself may not be true but it’s good practice.  I also turn to other forms to try to grow in those skills as well.  Runes, bindrunes, automatic writing,  etc there’s SO MANY divination techniques.  tarot may not be your thing but scrying might be.  look around and see what fits.

3. I play hertz music.  I find that music really helps me out lol.  hertz is juts frequency waves set to a certain wave length so parts of ... our... ... so like our energy can pick up on it.  there’s a better explanation for it but for me, it really helps lol  4. I keep pushing.  even when it feels like I’m not being answered, and sometimes you won’t be answered. that’s the thing.  the universe wants you to better yourself. and to grow.  and sometimes that means trusting yourself to know where to go because it won’t give you an answer.  be brave, and go forward. 

I’ll go more into what I want you to do, but let me pull out your cards first so you finally have a reading lolol.  

So for you I pulled the Lovers, Strength, The Sun and the Knight of Pentacles. with the Ace of Cups as the overall energy. 

so it’s really what I’ve been saying lol.  The knight of pentacles here is telling me to move slowly.  it’s okay that things don’t make sense to you right off the bat.  Patience is a virtue here.   Going into your craft, your practice,  it’s okay to question things.  spirituality is a lot different than most religions so coming from a different place and settling into a new one can be tough.  it requires a lot of change.  and that tends to scare some people.  Ya know?  we’re all so used to hearing different things -mostly bad-  about sprituality and how it’s all “fake”  but darling,  dipping your toes in and slowly breaking the surface is how everyone starts out.  Once you get comfortable with the idea and with your own intuition the fun will begin. 

Next you have the Lovers, Strength and the Sun.  This is telling me you need to let yourself love.  bring courage and strength into this.  It’s going to take you loving yourself,  being confident in yourself and going forth even if it seems fake.  does that make sense?  You might have a mental illness. I’ve got some strong anxiety that borders on paranoia.   Okay,  but in my heart of hearts I knew this was the call for me because I’ve seen too much shit to not believe spirituality wasn’t my path.  so I forced myself to be more confident in my abilities.  I forced myself to be open to the universe even if it felt like I was talking to a wall.  I forced myself to sit down and learn divination and kept a dream journal even if most nights there was nothing but darkness.

and you need to bring that to yourself.  if you are serious about this,  learn to open yourself to the universe.  In the beginning I had to lie to myself.  it’s just what it is.  but the more I connected to the universe,  and the more I began to trust my intuition,  the more the lying ceased to happen.  because suddenly it was true.  suddenly those signs told me I was on the right path.  and suddenly everything I was studying made sense.  given time it will make sense for you as well. 

People, including me,  are telling you what you already know.  You just don’t trust yourself to hold onto those words.  you don’t trust yourself enough to put that same love into you and out into the universe.  and maybe you’re afraid of getting hurt.  being vulnerable to the universe does mean that sometimes we go through rough patches.  we have to break old cycles for new ones to begin. but much like the Lovers,  once you make that choice to love and be loved,  you will shine. 

The ace of cups tells me there is something new coming for you.  but you have to choose to let it happen okay?  you have to stop thinking you’re not good enough and that you’re not being heard.  because you are... because you’re here talking to me ;)   the universe wouldn’t have sent you to me if that wasn’t the case.  and I think a part of you knows that. 

so here’s what I want you to do.  Take the first steps.  Start keeping a dream journal.  the only way we as humans can recall our dreams is if we’re actively thinking of them when we first wake up.  that means no media ;)  lay there and think about what you dreamed.  Like last night I had a dream I set the house on fire and was crying that I lost a textbook.  idk, it was weird lol.  dreams don’t have to make sense.   write them down.  keep a glass of water by your bed. for some reason it helps. 

If you’re gonna sit there and tell me but you’ve tried everything, try again ;) try it from a new perspective.  instead of going in all “this is going to fail”  think of it as “this has already worked once and I’m doing it again to better myself”  

let your confidence shine.  I had to lie to myself everyday until I finally believed I was a decent human being.  I still struggle with it but damn have I gotten noticed by more people who tell me that I literally shine like the sun.  people notice your changes.  some of us just won’t say it ;) that being said, be prepared to fight for your beliefs. 

Learn what your beliefs are. Learn to defend them.  because the universe does not take this journey lightly.  the minute you start to doubt that you’re ever made for this, is going to be the second it closes on you until you force yourself to try again.  much like how we’re both in this spot now ;) trust and KNOW that the universe wants what is best for you.  

Tap into your higher self and your shadow self.  work on what needs to be healed and what your higher self wants for you to do.  this could literally be anything from getting therapy, to doing art, to listening to music, to talking to people who have hurt you.  like it’s endless but it helps.  

Lastly,  understand that these things take time.  You have some major energy wanting to work with you.  you need to start trusting yourself more, and letting down that wall. you built it, you can destroy it.  

I don’t hear a voice telling me which way to go.  I get feelings.  very strong ones.  that I’ve had to learn are different from my anxiety.  In the beginning that meant I had to pretend to ignore the feeling to see what the reaction would be.  when something happened and I knew it was going to happen,  I knew what I had felt was my intuition. 

Learn to recognize what is your instinct and what is your intuition. my instinct is that my hands get a little shaky and I can’t stop moving around.  my intuition keeps me still.  it’s quick and alert.  for you it could be something different.  you might actually hear a voice.  

I’m willing to work with you if you want me to.  I’ve been in that exact same situation and form time to time I feel the same way.  it’s never about the destination, it’s always the journey.

You’ve got this.  You know you do.  break down the wall,  and come join us ;) I hope this helps sorry for the long.... long post lmao If you ever need anything, please reach out =)