#I'm going to cry at the end of this I can feel it already

[ssentimentals]

hihi love!! i’m so obsessed w your work 😭😭 you just do such a good job writing ajdhjshdhw 🥺🩷🩷

could i request hurt prompt 35 w woozi pls? a happy ending would be nice but it doesn’t have to be!! tysm love🥹🩷

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hihi babie!! omg this is so nice?? thank you so much for being this kind!! hopefully you will like your request 💜

hurt prompt: 'i'm not sure how many coffees it takes for me to be happy, but so far, it's not twelve.'

'i feel like i should be happy and excited for the festive season but i just can't.' you mutter, adjusting your earphones. 'it's just been so shitty at work lately, you know? i don't have it in me to actually feel anything.'

your best friend lets you let it all out. she lets you go on and on about the work, your rant ending only when you come closer to your house. you also wanted to discuss jihoon with her, but that is going to wait for another time then. hanging you up, you sigh, slowing your stride. everything's been shitty lately not only at work; your relationship with jihoon started to crack as well. it's not very obvious, but the breach was formed and you feel like you both are just drifting further and further apart each day. coming home used to be the best part of your day, but now it's ad dreadful as going to work and it's just- sad. sadder than that is only your complete lack of any desire to do anything about it.

'welcome home,' jihoon greets, when you come in. he notices slight frown at your forehead and cautiously asks: 'is everything okay?'

'mhm.' you try to smile, but it comes off more as a grimace. 'how are you? have you already eaten? if yes i can just-'

'no,' jihoon interrupts. 'i waited for you.'

you blink. that is... new. you both didn't wait for each other last two months. your heart skips a beat at this, small flicker of hope reignites in your chest. this time you smile for real: 'oh, thank you. can you heat it up then? warm food will make me very happy now.'

jihoon smiles. 'i thought coffee makes you happy?'

'not right now. 'i'm not sure how many coffees it takes for me to be happy, but so far, it's not twelve.'

you quickly change and come back to the kitchen right at the time of jihoon setting up the table. you both work in silence; you feel tongue-tied, not knowing what to say and how to ask simple things. when it became so awkward to just be with jihoon? you eat in silence too, or more like you both push your food around the plate, not looking up at each other. it's incredibly tense and you're surprised that jihoon is the one who snaps first with a humourless chuckle: 'this is not working, is it?'

you can argue, of course. you can remind him that it's not working because of him. you can start fighting again. instead, you agree. 'yeah, it's.. not.'

jihoon nods. he's staring at his plate intently like leftover meatballs have answers to his question. when he looks up, his gaze is filled with hesitance and hope: 'do you want it? to work?'. he licks his lips, quickly adding: 'because i do. i just- past few months were hard. i sucked, i know. but like, i- i want this. to work. do you?'

crying with meatballs in your mouth is really not the best thing you can do, but you can't stop tears from falling down. swallowing without chewing and choking on the food, you quickly down your glass of water and let out sincere: 'i do. i'm sorry, i sucked too.'

jihoon nods. he looks like he wants to laugh at your red face from choking, but he wisely holds himself back. 'okay. then,' he takes a deep breath, 'we will finish this now and go to bed and talk about it.'

you nod. 'we can come up for something to get us into holiday mood?' you suggest hesitantly.

jihoon brightens up at this. 'yeah, sounds good.'

you both smile at each other and hope inside your chest flickers stronger than before. jihoon reaches out across the table and takes your hand in his. flicker of hope turns into a burning fire.

a/n: request your own here! <3 - nini

[bidisasterevankinard]

Fuck it friday

tagged by @quintessenceofdust88

slowly but I'm making process in the fic I wish to post on 25th. more baker Buck:

All of it helps a little of course, but he still doesn’t know what to do. Tommy definitely needs space and time. But how much space and time? Buck wasn’t lying to Lucy that he won’t wait forever, but it also feels that for Tommy he can wait really long. 

But would it be enough? Would Buck’s attempt not put Tommy in a hard situation with at least asking about closure enough to save them? Is ‘them’ even still possible to save? 

What if Buck’s wrong about Tommy and the man already buried them under six feet of mud and is moving on step by step, when Buck still tricks himself to believe they are just behind the wall, fighting to stay alive with a ventilator deep down the throat?

With a sigh he turns to another side, closing his eyes and pulling the blanket over the head. It was a bad idea to schedule another appointment so early in the morning. He won’t be able to get up today. Just stay in bed, hating his life, heart and brain.

Maybe he should go and clean his apartment. Or shave. Or take a shower. Last 24 he spent just in bed wallowing not even having powers to try and bake again. He barely did after last week. 

Buck knows he should do something. But all he wants to do is to stop thinking. He wants his heart to stop hurting. He wants his knee to stop aching. He needs the answer to his questions about their future.  

But for it he should go and talk to Tommy. bad idea because he’s sure he will only cry or scream. Or both. Another possible solution it’s to put the end pon them and try to move on, but here’s the trick. What if he’s right and Tommy just needs time to be back in his life? 

He feels the wetness on his cheeks and sobs. He wasn’t crying all those weeks after break up, but right now all of it breaks the dam. He cries and cries, feeling the mess of tears and snots all over his face, but having no strength to clean it.

Np tagging @hippolotamus @mmso-notlikethat @theotherbuckley @typicalopposite @powersuitup @perfectlysunny02 @midsummersmorn @racerchix21 @lavenderleahy @leashybebes @laundryandtaxesworld @loucifersbitch @bewilderedbuckley @bekkachaos @bibibibuckleykinard @bi-buckrights @devirnis @desert--moonchild

[pureshoney]

"and that's totally fine, baby. we'll always have my holes to fill up," and she certainly wasn't complaining. they both knew very well by this point that one of dylan's favorite things was getting stuffed to the brim, even better when they were stimulating more than one hole at once. "i just don't think i believe that. i feel like you have a much bigger attitude. You just don't get it with me because i'm your sweet princess," she purred, batting her mascara-coated lashes with exaggerated innocence, "but i don't believe for a single moment that you don't have a switch in that head of yours." can see the gears turning in his head the longer they discuss adding the new toy to their collection, assumes he's already figured out more than one way to punish her with it. just looks at him through lashes, lower lip jutting out as he pushes her into a corner in their debate. almost pushes her into a corner. "my nasty little pussy also drips when you spank me until i'm crying and can't remember how to count … and that's considered a punishment, right?" she's damn proud of that retaliation, and it's undoubtedly showing on her face when that cheeky grin expands from ear to ear. "yes, i do think you're going to have hip replacements by the time you're in your thirties. i'm going to need to be permanently on top," suggests with a giggle. "you think so? think i looked extra sexy tonight?" she had purposely chosen a red lacy outfit right before he came over, knowing it was his favorite color. had also decided to forego any undergarments, so dylan's sure at some point before he'd given in, her perky nipples had shown through the thin material of her top. "but i will say the idea of starting to call you a good boy is kind of hot …" femme mused, her eyes drifting toward the ceiling pondering the pet name for a few brief seconds. "i'm always pretty, sir," intentionally clenches slick walls around his cock as subtle a reminder. a cry escapes as she feels the end of his cock brushing past that sweet gushy spot deep inside her, keenan's grip on her hips sends a wave of pleasure up her spine. "so fuckin' tight for you," affirms between pants and moans, the sound of their skin slapping each time she comes down reverberating around the room, "just for you. fuckin' made for you, daddy." when digit begins to flicker on nipples it coaxes small moans out of the blonde. "i need your hand," reaches for the one that was still grasping at moving hips, continuing to plunge his throbbing shaft in and out of her. once she has his his pointer and middle finger in her fist, dylan begins moving it toward her cunt, "fuck me with them, stretch out my little pussy. can you do that, daddy? i've been practicing for you. i wanna be stuffed."

even the wording she used had keenan wrinkling his nose like he'd smelled something awful, like the putrid scent was invading his body. "y'know i like to think i'm pretty open minded when it comes to that type of thing but there is just no fuckin' way anything is being put up . . . there." and maybe it was hypocritical considering how he loves nothing more than filling all of his girl's holes up, but there was just something unsettling about doing it to him that he couldn't shake. "my attitude is like . . . it's like a baby attitude and your attitude is the mommy attitude", and he's rather proud of that description actually, "yours completely overshadows mine and you know it. you're the biggest brat i've ever met", homme admits fondly, he'd want nothing less than his girl being mouthy and opinionated. now that they're talking about it keenan thinks that a pocket pussy would be an ideal way to punish dylan without laying a single finger on her beautiful body --- make her kneel and watch as he fucks himself stupid with that fake cunt, spilling himself into it and refusing to give her the tiniest drop. "but it'd get you wet, wouldn't it? having that fat cock shoved down your throat making you cry . . . yeah, that nasty little pussy would be dripping and that definitely is not a punishment." she can try to talk him around but keenan is doing nothing but grinning in amusement at her efforts. dylan loved when he played with her, whether it was using his own body or one of those pretty toys she adored so much. "no fuckin' way, you make it seem like i'm gonna be ancient in ten years and i'm offended at that", disgruntled expression coats his features, "you think i'm gonna have bad knees and hip replacements when i'm in my thirties, princess? that i won't be able to pound you into the mattress or spank your ass raw?" he was in the best shape of his life from fucking dylan so often, there was no chance he was ever going to stop. "hey now, i waited until the food was cooking before i did anything. isn't that self-control? you looked so sexy tonight i was tempted to fuck you in the hallway, so consider me a good boy dyl." it had been torturous to not take her the moment he had laid eyes on her little outfit, needless to say he was rather pleased by how he'd managed to control his urges. spreading his legs on her plush bed keenan groans as her warm hand replaces his own, tipping his head back as she strokes his hardened length. "look at you, so fuckin' pretty when you're on top of me." doesn't manage to close his eyes for long, entranced by the way she straddles him and guides his dick inside her dripping tightness. hands reach out to grasp her hips, fingers pressing against the soft flesh as her velvet walls pulse around him. "that's it baby . . . take all of daddy's cock, so fuckin' tight for me." hues dip to her bouncing tits, a hand moving to cup one, thumb rolling over that pebbled bud. "hm?" god he fucking loves her, there's no denying it now his cock is being swallowed by that delicious cunt and his walls are all but rubble and dust. he can't get enough of her. "yeah, fuck yeah i'm ready for that surprise princess."

[seventh-district]

7am, eating cold leftover teriyaki stir-fry for breakfast and crying over blorbos

[seaofreverie]

First day back at the university and I still suck at this exactly as much as I did 4 years ago

[pulsarsatellite]

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[phantastragoria]

do you have a favourite portrayal of a character in the gotg game!! who is it and why <3

Oh I think they're all great honestly!!! Part of why I love the game so much is that genuinely, the whole team + supporting characters are written with such obvious love of the source material and equal attention between them all. When I see comments of people saying who their favorite character was from the game and the answer always being different from each person I'm like!! That's how it SHOULD be!!! They're the Guardians of the Galaxy (plural) the focus shouldn't all fall on a singular character like most other GotG media usually ends up as 😭

The two (sorry I can't pick just one) whom I think benefit the most from the game though are Drax and Gamora because they're almost always sidelined both in-and-out of universe by most of the various writers (especially as of late) and in turn the viewers/readers. I've been told plenty of times that they're the most boring members of the "main" team, BUT IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE THAT WAY! The amount of love the game versions get (by the few who've played it at least) proves that 🥺

I've never really liked 616 Drax shifting to being a complete clown during the 90s and such (and even less so when the MCU followed along 💀) So I appreciate the game taking a bit of his seriousness from the DnA run and just making him struggle with nuance and context clues in a less exaggerated way (autistic Drax I still believe in u) and I feel the focus put on him and how losing his original family + the aftermath deeply affected him hits pretty hard here because it's treated very seriously and shown in depth, especially with how his family (wife) gets actual focus. I cannot tell you anything about Yvette in comparison to Hovat, who actually seemed to have had a personality lol (AND she was on their village's council like omg imagine having more to you than just being The Housewife) Though I will say I flip and flop on my thoughts about Heather being disconnected from Drax's life in this universe... The TLDR is that I think his arc here specifically works stronger when he has to come to terms with losing his entire family and accepting the life he currently has with the Guardians. BUT!!! I very much appreciate that Heather is still confirmed to exist within this universe, even if that means her dad issues would have to be dealt with in a different context if we ever get to see her.

Also? Shoutout to the writers actually bringing up the intense paranoia that always kneecapped 616 Drax but having that be a turning point in his backstory here, with that conversation he has with Peter where he talks about how he was becoming so paranoid of everyone being a chitauri/Thanos conspirator to the point of literally turning into an obsessed maniac like Thanos, and realizing that he desperately needed to turn his life around, it's so ough.

Out of the already many great conversations throughout the game, I think the ones with him are the most poignant. My favorite scene in the whole game is Drax and Pete's little moment on Knowhere... makes me go wahhh

(l also love that out of everyone on the team, it's his headspace that we quite literally get to go into. You KNOW that if this was any other media it'd be going into Rocket or Groot's head and likely treated as a joke.)

And oh my god, Gamora...

I find it so extremely refreshing that her role in the plot doesn't revolve purely around the men in her life, and instead, it's nearly exclusively her connection with other women. Or in the most direct obstacle she has to deal with, being how she starts projecting to the millionth degree on Nikki's situation for reminding her of what happened to her and Nebula. I find that infinitely more fascinating as a reading of her character rather than just dating drama or her arc getting completely overtaken by a man's instead.

And especially in her friendship with Mantis, who, despite having all these futures she's constantly seeing and having to navigate, still makes time to do her best to help her 🥺 From saving her life and being the one who put her on the path to healing on Lamentis, to getting her to join the Guardians and still checking in on her when she's able 😭 Friendship between women can be so powerful... u love to see it (🏳️‍🌈)

I also find it nice that there's this emphasis on her recovering mentally, and the comparison between Thanos essentially teaching her to just Deal with the shit in her life through very simplistic meditation versus the priests of Pama actually teaching her something to help soothe the mind :^( and that she still has moments of relapsing essentially. I find that to be a realistic take on recovery because that's just part of the journey since healing is not linear... and I think it's very sweet that she finds comfort in collecting something ---girly--- like dolls. Love to see a person reclaim a part of their childhood that they weren't allowed to experience. And how she's allowed to make BAD JOKES?? Imagine a woman being written to have multiple dimensions, crazy and absolutely unthinkable, I know.

There's this extremely specific theme in relation to Gamora across media that's been rattling around in my brain since first playing the game. When near the end during the revisit to Knowhere, she's about to completely lose it when Peter tries talking -for- her on what she's so upset about before immediately shooting him down, and she explains what happened between her and Nebula and she starts crying. It really struck me right then that she's never given a moment to cry elsewhere (or in the 616's case, the quite literal inability to.) aside from her shedding a Single Manly Tear (Original Sin) or a single moment out of legit fear (MCU 💀) because she's a hashtag Strong Independant Woman who can't be vulnerable etc etc. But for her to cry in front of the people she's come to care about, It gives her a moment of true vulnerability that I don't think she's allowed ever in most other media.

That and all of the above hits hard and is what makes me genuinely believe that the writers cared about her in the narrative and tried to do right by her when every other bit of media really hasn't nor cared to the majority of the time since the 90s :'^/ Brings a tear to my eye that she's allowed to just... exist in the narrative on her own merits and not on what she can provide to someone else's story.

[thedreadvampy]

idk I had a very interesting therap today but I just

like it's all very well to recognise that I gotta have a fucking open-ended breakdown and jump face first into the Sadness Bog sometimes instead of sitting on all my feelings

but like

I still have to go to work, you know? it's like. ok yeah have a breakdown which like until you jump into it you don't know if it's going to last an hour or a year. yeah go ahead that's all grand. you do have to get up in the morning and go to work though. you're not allowed to not do that. or to not pay the rent or not shower or not eat.

like all my friends and loved ones are constantly like 'you know you're allowed to be sad right' and it's like. AM I??? because I STILL HAVE TO PAY RENT.

[aberooski]

I'm seriously hanging on by a thread right now I might just go drop dead 😭

[chaotictomtom]

trying to check out to see if i'll ever manage to get top surgery this year and. let's just say i thought the delay would be bigger but. the price is still always such a big ass problem i kinda wanna bash my head against a wall but. anyway

[musical-chick-13]

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[dazais-guardian-angel]

feeling sick to my stomach after that finale, actually, wow

[cactusdodes]

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[grimandghoulish]

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[kittlyns]

My dog has a double ear infection, my dad is in the hospital, my period cycle is so fucked up right now that there might actually be something wrong with me but it's likely gonna be weeks before I get to see anyone abt it, and I just found a goddamn bed bug in my bed.

[inkskinned]

what is with men being mad any time a woman raises her voice where did that even come from. someone posted a video of a small electrical explosion, and the top comment was of course the woman screams. the second comment is women try not to scream challenge, level impossible. i had to go back and watch the video again. there is, somewhat fainty, a little gasp emitted off-camera, more of a yelp than a scream. it is mostly lost in the crack of the explosion. afterwards, you hear her voice, shaken, say, are you okay?

i am helping one of my friends train her voice pitch lower, because she wants to be taken seriously at work. she and i do each other's nails and talk about gender roles; and how - due to our appearance - neither of us have ever been able to be "hysterical" in public. we both appear young and sweet and feminine. she is cisgender, and cannot use her natural voice in her profession because people keep saying she appears to be "vapid". we both try to figure out if our purposeful voice lowering is technically sexist. is it promoting something when you are a victim to it?

a storm almost sends a pole through a car window. in the dashcam, you can hear the woman passenger say her partner's name twice, crying out in alarm. she sounds terrified. in the comments, she is lambasted for her lack of calm. how is that even fucking helping?

in high school, i taught myself to have a lower voice. i had been recorded when i was genuinely (and righteously) upset; and i hated how my voice sounded on the phone speakers when it was played back. i was defending my mom, and my voice cracked with emotion. it meant i was no longer winning the argument: i was just shrieking about it.

girls meet each other after a long summer and let out a little joyful scream. this usually stops around 12-14, because people will not tolerate this display of affection (as it has the effect of being passingly annoying). something about the fact that little girls can't ever even be annoying. we are trained to examine each part of our lives (even joy) for anything that could make us upsetting and disgusting. they act like teenage girls are breaking into houses and shrieking you awake at 3 in the morning. speaking as a public school educator: trust me, it's not that bad, you can just roll your eyes and move on. it does not compare to the ways boys end up being annoying: slurs in graffiti, purposefully mocking your body, following you after you said no. you know, just boy things.

there's another video of a man who is not allowed to yell in the house, so he snaps his fingers when he's excited about soccer. the comments are full of angry men, talking about how their brother is unfairly caged. let him express himself and this is terrible to do to someone. eventually the couple has to address it in a second video: they are married with a newborn baby. he was trying not to wake the infant up. there is no comment on the fact women are not allowed to yell indoors. or the fact that it could have been really alarming or triggering for his wife. sometimes i wonder if straight men even like women, if they even enjoy being in relationships with them.

for the longest time, i hated roller coasters because it always felt inappropriate and uncomfortable for me to scream. one of my friends called me on it, said it was unusual i'm so unwilling. i had to go to my therapist about it. i don't like to scream because i was not raised in a safe situation, and raising my voice would have brought unsafe attention towards me. even when i am supposed to scream, it feels shameful, guilty. i was not treated kindly, so i lack a basic form of self-protection. this is not a natural response. it is not good that in a situation of high adrenaline - i shut up about it.

something very bad is happening, i think. in between all the beauty standards and the stuff i've already discussed - this one feels new and cruel in a way i can't quite express. yes, it's scary and silencing. but there's something about how direct it is - that so many men agree with the sentiment that women should never yell, even in an emergency - it feels different.

is the word shriek gendered automatically? how about shrill or screech? in self defense class, one of the first things they tell you is to yell, as loud and as shrilly as you can. they say it will feel rude. most women will not do this. you need to practice overcoming the social pressure and just scream.

most women do not cry out, even when it's bad. we do not report it. we walk faster. we do not make a scene. what would be the point of doing anything else? no matter what we do, we don't get taken seriously. it is a joke to them. an instagram caption punchline. we have to present ourselves as silent, beautiful, captivating - "valuable."

a woman is outside watching her kids when someone throws a firecracker at them. she screams and runs towards her children. in the comments, grown men flock together in the thousands: god. women are so annoying.