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— ☆ contents: dealing with dragon!form zhongli who possesses cat-like behaviours. human reader. dragon husband. sfw. fluff. established relationship. might be a little ooc. this is very unserious. 0.6k. | masterlist (i’m a dark content blog so mdni).
Dragon!Zhongli who acts much like an affectionate housecat despite his towering size and the magnitude of his status.
He, who is so comfortable around his human partner that he isn't afraid to bear his dragon form day-to-day, lest his cat-like behaviours (endearing as they are) go unnoticed.
Every time you run your fingers through the silk of his dark locks or scratch at the base of his horns, that's when it starts. A deep, soothing vibration beneath his scaled chest. The low rumble is almost hypnotic as his amber eyes drift closed, lulling him (and yourself) into a state of ease. If you remain watchful, you'll catch the corners of his lips curl ever-so-slightly upwards.
You can’t help but giggle because you know it’s not quite purring, but it might as well be.
Dragon!Zhongli whose tail is as much part of his personality as his deep voice and eloquent spiels. First and foremost, that thing is unapologetically heavy. When he’s in a good mood, it swishes around lazily, thumping against the furniture or brushing against your legs as he walks by.
Once it knocked over an entire stack of books and while you were busy laughing, he just sighed and said, “An unfortunate accident.” But if he’s feeling especially affectionate? Even worse. That's when you really have to watch out. It possessively curls around you and suddenly you’re dealing with the weight of a solid tail pulling you closer to him. You’ve almost toppled over a few times because of it.
“Careful, Zhongli,” you’ll tell him. “You might end up sweeping me off my feet.” Then he chuckles at you, tail tightening around your waist just a smidge.
That’s the idea, of course.
Dragon!Zhongli who feigns annoyance every time you act on your favourite habit: lifting his lips to inspect his fangs.
They’re a far cry from the tiny, delicate teeth of a cat, which is the only other creature you’ve subjected to this odd little inspection but that makes them even more fascinating.
"Must you do this every time?" he asks, lips pulling back just enough for you to admire them. They were sharp, pristine, and unsettlingly perfect. Enough to crack a bone with a single snap of his jaw but it was the same mouth he kissed you with. You never got used it.
"I'm lucky you’ve never nicked me with these," you’ll tease, brushing your finger along the largest fang.
Zhongli's responses are always the same: a long exhale as if you've just asked him to recite every contract he's ever known (which he could btw), followed by, “You’re enamoured with the oddest things.” But he lets you do it anyway. His words begin lose a bit of their weight when his tail slowly starts swaying behind him, exposing that he’s enjoying it more than he lets on.
And no one will ever believe you when you tell them how he is when he's feeling playful. It's a rarity but he'll nudge you gently with his horns as a display of affection and if you don't respond right away, he'll flick his tail at you. Not hard but enough for you to look his way.
Pay attention to me, it seems to say.
It’s mischievous, even if for a moment. Then you’ll catch a glint in his eye while he pretends to be all composed, but truly, he finds it amusing how he easily this form could be used as a weapon against you when he warrants his own needs.
The mighty dragon, who can command the earth itself, is stripped of his grandeur when you're around, replaced by a creature who wants nothing more than to be with you in the simplest way. And if you mention it, he’ll give you that look of half exasperation and half fondness before pulling you closer and acting like it’s purely your fault he’s such a softie with you.
a/n: if it wasn’t obvious already, i am a cat person (๑ᵔ⤙ᵔ๑)
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Dom lando convincing Oscar to try different types of sex toys and lando loving it as much as Oscar and maybe I could see Oscar being a size queen just loving being filled either by lando or dildos like big bigggg ones
The first time Lando suggested it, he'd been joking.
But the look on Oscar's face, and the fact that he came prematurely as soon as the words were out of Lando's mouth, told Lando everything he needed to know about what Oscar thought of the idea.
Warnings: smut, fingering, fisting, using big-ass dildos, blowjob, crying, Lando being a bit mean
Lando was big.
Not in like, a ‘I have a big dick and an ego to match’ way, but he was fucking big.
And he was actually quite shy about it, because sometimes it could make sex quite difficult if his partners weren't prepped thoroughly.
Sometimes he bottomed just to avoid the conversation and hassle. Which he did enjoy, but he preferred to be the top.
And a rather dominant top at that.
So when Oscar mentioned to him offhandedly that he could take anything, he had to see for himself.
They ended up in bed together several times before the afore mentioned incident.
Oscar was a noisy bottom, and Lando had been getting a bit too into the prepping part and had decided to go up to four fingers and make Oscar come like that.
And he jokingly said something along the lines of “What if I put all my fingers in? I bet I could get my whole fist inside you.”
And, well. Oscar came without uttering a single word about it. But he didn't need to.
Lando got his dick in him as soon as he could and that was the end of the conversation.
Until the next day when he brought it up again, in the conference room of all places.
Oscar choked on his coffee and stared daggers at Lando. Thank god they were the only ones in there.
Long story short, that very night was the first time Lando got a whole fist in Oscar, and they both came completely untouched.
But Lando was nothing if not greedy. He wanted more.
He wanted to see how much Oscar could really take.
And Oscar was insatiable in nature so he readily agreed to Lando's antics.
Every few weeks he would come home and find Lando sitting there with an unopened amazon box.
He never opened them on his own. He would always wait for Oscar to come home and open it, because he wanted to see the hungry look in his eyes when he saw each toy for the first time.
Dildo number four made his eyes widen and his mouth water.
It was a good 3 inches wide, and made Lando's cock look like a tooth pick, no offense.
That night they did their usual ritual.
Oscar had been wearing a big plug for a few hours to help with the prep.
Lando grabbed a bottle of lube (they had about 30 bottles, because they were on sale and they used a lot of lube, sue them) and squirted a generous amount on one of the previously bought dildos.
Oscar sank down on it like a pro, whining at the stretch as Lando held his hips steady so he wouldn't topple over.
He didn't take long to start riding it, sweat already dampening his hairline as his toned thighs bounced his weight up and down.
Lando was in awe, as usual.
He watched as Oscar took it further and further down, moaning like a slut the whole time. It made his dick throb.
Pretty soon it wasn't enough, and Oscar sank all the way down to the base and huffed.
“Okay, I'm ready.” He panted.
Lando nodded, helping him off and putting him on his hands and knees.
“Spread your legs as far as you can” he muttered excitedly, using as much lube as he could.
He needed Oscarwet.
He took a second to admire Oscar, bent over and back arched, hole already gaping slightly.
“Are you gonna put it in or do I have to do it myself?”
Lando chuckled, placing the tip against Oscar’s rim.
“As usual, tell me if anything feels wrong or painful”
Oscar sighed. “Yes Lando, now put it in me”
“What's the magic word?”
“I will fucking leave”
“Okay, okay”
He put a bit of pressure on the dildo, making Oscar's rim stretch around it.
When the head finally popped in, Oscar whimpered pathetically into the sheets.
“Oh fuck, more”
Lando laughed, grabbing the lube to squirt some more on the dildo before pushing it in a bit more.
The man under him let out a bone rattling groan and that encouraged him to push another couple of inches in.
He pumped it in and out shallowly for a minute, then added a couple more inches.
Oscar was drooling onto the sheets as he felt the fullness inside him.
“Lando” he panted. “Lando, please. More”
Lando obliged, and before long, he had almost pushed the whole thing in. Given the size of the damn thing, there was no way his prostate wasn't being constantly stimulated.
“Oscar… fuck. You're doing so good for me, just a little more...”
He pumped it in and out some more, making Oscar keen and writhe beneath him.
“Lando! Lando fuck- I'm gonna come!” he whined.
Lando grinned, he thrusted it faster and harder.
“Go on then baby, come for me”
Oscar's body jolted, shockwaves traveling up his spine as he shot ropes of cum across the sheets under him.
Lando slowly stilled his movements, letting Oscar ride out his intense orgasm.
Now, up until this point, you could think that Lando wasn't particularly dominant. Just sort of, there, guiding Oscar more than anything.
You would be wrong.
The next step was what Lando was truly looking forward to.
He put the already dirty sheet on the floor, next to the bed.
“Osc?”
Oscar gave him an exhausted thumbs up from where he was laying on the bed, the dildo still half way inside him.
“You're not done yet, baby, come over here”
He gently pulled the dildo out of his lover, and placed it upright on the floor.
“You think you can ride it for me?”
Oscar nodded, crawling over to him on the bed, giving him a quick kiss before standing up and crouching over it. He put his hands on Lando's thighs to stabilise himself.
He sank down on it slowly, head thrown back and his long nails digging into Lando's flesh painfully.
But Lando didn't care, he was entranced by the way Oscar was stretched around something bigger than his fucking arm.
He managed to sink down about three quarters of the way before he gasped.
“Jesus, the feeling is much different with this angle”
One of Lando’s hands went to cup Oscar's jaw, pressing into his cheeks harshly.
“I want to see you take it. All of it” he snapped.
Oscar whimpered when Lando pushed his thumb into his mouth to press on his tongue.
Oscar obeyed, sinking further down, inch by inch until his ass met his heels.
“Good boy”
A bead of precum leaked from Oscar's tip at the praise, and he lifted his hips slightly only to drop them back down, moaning around Lando's thumb as he did so.
It wasn't long before he got into a rhythm with his hips, and Lando grabbed him by the hair to bring him closer to his own leaking cock.
“Give it a kiss” he said, and Oscar looked up at him with wide eyes.
“Go on, you haven't touched it all night. Least you can do is kiss it”
There it was. Lando's slightly sadistic side.
Oscar knew better than to argue.
He kissed the tip, then made his way to the base, placing soft kisses along the skin.
Lando sighed at finally being touched. “Good, now open your mouth for me”
Oscar stuck his tongue out for good measure, and wasn't surprised in the least when Lando tapped his cock on it a few times before sinking into the wet heat of his mouth.
Because Oscar was a size queen, and it didn't just apply to his ass.
His gag reflex was non-existent, and he adored the feeling of his mouth being stretched around Lando's thick girth.
“You look so fucking good Osc. You were made to be fucking filled up, weren't you? Stuffed full of cock all day…”
Being filled from both ends is what really did it for Oscar, so that plus Lando's filthy commentary drove him wild, and it didn't take long before he was whining around it as he came all over himself, eyes rolling into the back of his skull.
Lando had been on edge for the better part of an hour, so the sight of that alone was enough to send him over himself, rocking his cock in and out of Oscar's mouth as the absolute whore swallowed it all.
Lando pulled out and let go of his tight hold on Oscar's hair.
“Now, you're going to do one last thing for me Osc. You're gonna come again...”
The younger man looked up at him with wide eyes, incredulous at the order.
"I don't know that I can come again Lando. That took everything out of me“
“You can, and you will…”
He sat back on the bed, leaning on his arm as he took in the sight of his teammate.
Flushed from his chest up to his cheeks, cock soft where it was hanging between his thighs.
“I want you to bounce on that dildo, and get yourself off while I watch”
Lando had a goal in mind. He wanted to see Oscar come dry.
He'd only done so once before, and it was a beautiful sight.
Oscar cried, tears streaming down his face while he could do nothing but ride the waves of his orgasm in pure bliss.
He wanted to see that again.
And the sheet below Oscar was absolutely soaked, so he had a feeling it would only take one more.
Oscar looked at him defiantly and raised his hips.
When he dropped back down, he couldn't help but let out a low moan, and his cock twitched.
Lando motioned towards it.
“Go on, give it a tug. You’re gonna have to do better than that if you want to get off”
Oscar wrapped a hand around himself, letting out a breath at the contact.
He hadn't been touched either tonight and he found himself quickly hardening again at the new stimulation.
His thighs burned as he bounced, hand almost a blur where he was desperately fisting his cock.
He had tears in his eyes and was moaning freely while looking at Lando with the most torn expression on his face.
It felt good, too good. He was so overstimulated it bordered on pain, but he kept going.
“Lando” he whined “help me, please. Talk to me”
Lando groaned at the almost broken sounds coming out of the younger man.
“You want me to talk to you, baby? Want me to tell you what a good boy you're being?”
Oscar nodded desperately.
“Well, too bad. It's been what, five minutes? And you still haven't come yet. You're such a whore you can't even get yourself off on your own anymore. Fucking pathetic. Worthless sluts like you don’t deserve to be touched, do they? No, so be a good boy for once and fucking. Come.”
Oscar screeched as he felt his entire body burn with pleasure. His hips stuttered and his hand pumped his cock a couple more times.
“Fuck, fuck, fuck-”
His poor cock throbbed, but only a drop or two of cum dribbled out, dripping down his angry red tip as he cried out.
Lando got what he wanted. Oscar had tears staining his cheeks as he whimpered pathetically, slumping forwards and panting against the side of the bed.
Lando helped him off the dildo, laying him down on his back, on the bed with his legs spread.
Lando looked at where Oscar’s twitching hole was gaping, trying to clench around nothing.
He was hard again, so he took himself in hand, and with a sight like that in front of him, it didn’t take long for him to come all over Oscar's spread thighs.
When he looked up he saw that Oscar had his arms crossed behind his head and was grinning at him.
“Did you enjoy that, Lando?”
Lando nodded, breathing heavily after his orgasm.
“Yeah, was mint”
Oscar scoffed and rolled over to get off the bed and make his way to the bathroom.
“Mint” he ranted “If that's what you want to call it, then sure, it was mint”
Lando blushed, following him into the shower.
“you know what I meant” he wrapped his arms around Oscar. “I loved it. Thank you”
He pressed a kiss to Oscar's nose and the taller man rolled his eyes.
“Sometimes I don't know why I indulge your fantasies”
Lando smirked, pressing himself closer to Oscar's body.
“Because you love me, Osc”
Oscar looked down at him with pursed lips.
“Hmm. We'll see…”
#my thots#lando thots#oscar thots#lando norris#lando norris smut#lando norris x oscar piastri#oscar piastri smut#oscar piastri#f1#formula 1#request#landoscar
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hamzahthefantastic x reader (fic)
day 5/7
summary: part 5 of the naive series baby!! you and mandy get some one on one time bc she’s going thru it until she sends you and hamzah off on an adventure of ur own ;)
contains: SFW and NSFW content… it’s going down.
w/c: 3.4k-ish
a/n: ik yall hate me atp but listen. listen. uhhh.. yk what just read it!
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Hotel breakfast is really good. It's even better when you can be an annoying vacationer and sit in the dining hall to eat while wearing your pajamas. The dirty looks from the well-dressed staff does nothing to deter you from going to town on a plate of scrambled eggs and toast with assorted spreads. The one thing that is ruining your appetite, however, is your gloomy friend prodding her food with her fork.
"Are you sure you're okay?" you ask for what feels like the hundredth time that morning.
"Mhm."
Mandy continues moving her eggs around her plate and never taking a bite. She's been in a near catatonic state since last night. By the time you'd taken a shower and gotten unready, she'd already passed out in your bed without so much as an explanation as to what happened. You exhale loudly and she looks up.
"You know you can talk to me about anything, right?"
She drops her fork. "I think Martin is hiding something from me."
"Oh!" Your eyes widen and you try to look confused. "What makes you think that?"
"He's been acting so weird," she says, resting her elbows on the table and holding her head in her hands. "Even before we came on this trip... I don't know. Something's off."
"What d'you mean?"
"He's being so secretive," she says. "I don't have proof of anything, but he's, like, really bad at acting innocent."
"Is that why you guys have been fighting?"
"Well, I don't exactly want to fight with him!" She tosses her hands in the air. "I wish he'd come out and say whatever it is. It drives me crazy that he acts like nothing is going on."
In that moment, you consider blurting out the truth. Talking about Martin's proposal idea would be so much easier than sitting back and watching the couple get into trivial arguments from Mandy's growing paranoia. But alas, you've sworn to secrecy and you really don't think it would be your place to ruin the surprise, even at a time like this.
"Have you asked him about it?"
"Yeah. He just deflects. I thought I could get him to talk last night, but I ended up crying because I got so frustrated with his cryptic bullshit."
You're stuck on what to say. It breaks your heart to see Mandy like this, but there's not much you can do without giving away her soon-to-be fiancé's plan. It's not exactly a conversation you thought you'd be having to mediate.
"If it makes you feel any better, I don't think Martin is doing all of this to deliberately hurt you," you say, reaching across the table to hold her arm. "He loves you. A lot. He's just an idiot sometimes."
Mandy smiles, but it doesn't reach her eyes. "Thank you."
"I mean it, Mandy. What you guys have is really good. Don't let a bump in the road ruin the rest of the journey."
"When did you become such a beacon of wisdom?" she asks sarcastically, looking down at the table.
"I'm trying my best here. Be grateful." You begin to laugh and she joins in.
You bring your plate back in front of you and gesture for her to do the same. The two of you chow down and talk between bites, discussing what other places you could visit before your inevitable departure from Curaçao. Despite the challenges, it's been an experience for the books and you take a moment to reflect on the joy that it's brought you.
As you take a sip of your tea, your phone buzzes in your pocket. When you unlock it, you open up the message notification and bite your lip to hide your smile.
i see u
"Is that Hamzah?"
You look up at Mandy and your face flushes. "Huh?"
"You remind me of when I first started talking to Martin." Mandy points at you with her knife.
"Shut up," you groan. "Is it really that obvious?"
"Yeah." Mandy nods. "Plus I saw his name on your screen."
You glare at her and she giggles at your expense. Over her shoulder, you spot him. He's in the buffet line, also in his pajamas, and you stare for a little too long at his grey sweatpants. When he turns his head in your direction, you duck behind Mandy's figure.
"He's coming." You use your phone camera to quickly assess your face. "I look rough. Fuck."
"Girl, you look fine," Mandy says, rolling her eyes, "and you've literally slept next to each other. It's nothing he hasn't seen before."
"Wow, uplifting. Thanks."
When you dare to raise your head again, he's making his final few strides towards your table. You smile and wave, and he attempts to do the same. He shakes his hand that's holding a cup of coffee and it sloshes around, nearly spilling all over him. Mandy gives you a funny look before greeting him.
"Good morning," Hamzah says cheerily.
He places his plate and cup next to yours. You scoot over so he can sit down, but he moves to sit so close to you that the sides of your thighs are pressed up against each other.
"Good morning," you reply, slightly taken aback by his chipper mood. "Sleep well?"
"I slept great," he says. He takes a bite of his eggs with bacon and looks between you and Mandy. "So... was it a breakup?"
You slap him on the arm and scoff. "Come on."
"'M just asking!" he all but shouts, earning the three of you a couple more dirty looks. "Last night looked serious."
"No, we didn't break up," Mandy mutters. "But I'm considering it if it means not having to deal with you anymore."
"That's mean," Hamzah says, taking another bite of his food. "I'd stay friends with you if I broke up with Martin."
"Don't talk while you're chewing," Mandy warns.
"Thorry." He swallows his mouthful. "So what are we supposed to do if you guys are still fighting?"
"I don't know, Hamzah." Mandy sighs. Then she looks at you. "I don't really feel like going out today. Maybe you two could do something."
Your eyes narrow and she shrugs innocently. "Where would we go?"
"Google some nice places. Walk around the city. It can't be that hard."
"I'm down," Hamzah says. "I'm in charge of directions, though."
He smiles mischievously and you mock him, making him laugh. You turn to Mandy, noting the way she's picking at her food again.
"Will you be okay? You can stay in my room, but I don't know what time we'll be back."
"There's free WiFi and room service. I'll be fine. Go have fun."
Mandy was right. Finding something to do in such a tourism-centered area isn't hard. The difficult part is spending time with Hamzah with no social buffer to avert the tension between the two of you. You hope it's not too apparent that you're staring at him every chance you get, but you can't find it in you to care about getting caught anymore.
"Now we go left," he mumbles, placing his hand on your shoulder to direct you to the crosswalk.
You know he tends to be touchy with his friends, but with how awkward he usually is about it, this feels different. Even when you hung out as a group back in Toronto, you could always sense that Hamzah was a little more hesitant around you. You chocked it up to not knowing him that well, despite having mutuals. Being close with each others' friends did provide an entry point for your friendship to blossom, but this trip has done more for your connection than all the time you've known him previously. Maybe it's because you're in such constant, close proximity now that your initial attraction to him has finally taken shape, unavoidably so.
"Alright, it's down from here," Hamzah says, gesturing at the beach you're nearing.
"I didn't bring a swimsuit," you say, furrowing your brows.
"We're not swimming." He shakes his head. "Over there."
You look to where he's pointing and take notice of the mountainous landscape surrounding the beach. Their overarching coves reach the edges of the shore where the waves splash against the rocks.
"I'm not cliff diving. No way."
You stop in place and cross your arms. He turns and walks a few steps back to you.
"We're not doing that either, my gosh," he grumbles playfully and takes hold of your hand, "follow me."
Hamzah leads you through the sand to the bottom of the ridges. This beach isn't nearly as busy as the one near your hotel, so the silent walk with your palm in his feels all the more intimate. The sun is less harsh under the arch, but the sand is still warm beneath your feet. The soft earth easily gives way as you take a seat in the deeper parts of the rocky expanse.
"How'd you know this was here?" you wonder.
"I found it before the trip," he says, stretching his legs out in front of him until the waves are barely licking at his skin. "I didn't think I'd get the chance to visit, though."
"Guess it's a good thing for the fight then," you joke. Hamzah looks at you with his face scrunched up and you share a laugh. "Sorry. Too soon."
You stare out at the horizon, absentmindedly cupping the sand and letting it pour down between your fingers. The waves are crashing, but there's a quiet serenity inside of the cove that makes you feel at peace.
"Nah, I just think we talk about them enough, right?" He leans back to rest his weight on his palms and your eyes flicker to the sight of his shirt stretching across his pecs. "Wanna talk about us."
"Right," you agree. "I never really expected this."
"What?" he asks. You become aware of how close his body is to yours.
"'Us.'" You make quotes in the air with your fingers. "I didn't even think you saw me that way."
"Really?" he questions, tilting his head. "I thought the same thing."
"Hm. Funny."
You move to lay on your back. You'd decided against changing out of your pajamas—the two of you look infinitely more out of place in such beautiful scenery—but it makes for great cushioning against the ground. Hamzah stays unmoving, looking straight ahead.
"Do you see us being the same way? When we go back home?" He speaks outwardly, eyes on the view.
"I don't know. Do you?"
"You answer first," he says, smiling at you from over his shoulder.
You roll your eyes and try to push yourself further into the sand, as if it'll provide a protective barrier between him and the words you're going to say next.
"I hope so," you answer honestly. "I don't see why it’d change."
"What if it doesn't feel the same?" he asks like he's talking to the sky. "What if it's just because we're here, y'know? Isn't it usually a 'what happens in Vegas' thing?"
"Oh, so you've done this before?"
Hamzah groans and you snicker, flicking sand into his pocket. He doesn't notice so you continue until it's full, giggling to yourself.
"Of course not," he says, shaking his head. Some of the sand trickles out. "I guess what I'm saying is...I hope you don't feel that way."
You take a deep breath to calm the butterflies that erupt in your belly and sit up. You look at the impression your body has left in the sand before turning to completely face him, criss-crossing your legs.
"I won't," you promise. "I couldn't."
"Good." Hamzah's eyes finally meet yours. "I don't think I'd be able to handle it."
You grin and let your fingers trail up the side of his neck, not wanting to hold your affection back any longer. He closes his eyes as you trace his cheek, the charming acne scars and slight stubble on his jaw acting as a roadmap for your fingertips. Then, you cup his chin and lean in. His lips move softly against yours. He places his hands on your thighs and runs his fingers across your bare skin where your shorts have ridden up. It's almost like the whole world goes on mute, and all you can possibly focus on is the way his touch awakens every cell in your body.
Without breaking the kiss, Hamzah pushes you down into the indented sand until he can comfortably slot himself in the middle of your legs. He holds himself up with a hand by your head, the other resting on your waist. The gentle caresses turn heated, and pretty soon the two of you are full-on making out, pulling each other closer and closer until his body fully surrounds yours. You love how he hums when you wrap your arms tighter around his neck and run your nails across his shoulders.
You can't get enough of him, holding his hips in place with your knees as your tongues entwine. When his hand strays below your hoodie, you pull away momentarily to slip it over your head. He helps tug it off you when it gets stuck, the two of you giggling quietly before tossing it away and locking lips again. His fingers trace a path up your torso, clad in nothing but a thin tank top. His palms slowly find their way higher up, and you moan when he gives your chest a testing squeeze. Upon hearing this, he squeezes again before running his thumb across your nipple, making you shiver.
His hoodie comes off soon thereafter, except he's completely bare underneath. You run your hands down his chest and his stomach clenches under the ghost of your touch. When you reach the edge of his boxers, he breaks apart to leave kisses from your cheek down to your neck.
"I-I didn't really prepare for this," Hamzah whispers against you.
"You didn't shave?"
"No, idiot," he scoffs, making both of you giggle giddily. "I, um, didn't bring condoms..."
You breathe out as he continues kissing your skin. "That's fine. We don't have to do anything."
Your fingers are tucked in his waistband against his happy trail, but you make no effort to move them. If it wasn't evident already, his erection presses against you painfully, a reminder of how close yet so far you are from what you're craving. Still, he seems determined to make the most of the moment. He sucks on the spot below your ear, making your mouth drop open in a breathy moan.
In a hasty decision, you take your tank top off and lay back down. Hamzah's eyes follow along your newly exposed skin and he leans down to kiss a trail from your collarbone to the valley between your breasts. His hands leave a wake of heat everywhere he touches you, yet goosebumps rise on your arms when his lips reach your lower stomach.
"Can I?"
He looks up at you, his eyes half-lidded and his hands on your shorts. You nod and raise your hips so he can pull them off. When he sees your underwear, he raises an eyebrow.
"You wear boxers, too?" Hamzah jokes, tugging on your waistband and letting it snap against your skin. You flinch and he laughs.
"They're comfy!" you defend, blushing. "I wasn't exactly planning for this, either."
"I'm kidding. Why would I care?" He leans up on his forearms to peck your lips. "They're coming off, anyway."
He reaches under your final layer of clothing and you gasp when he touches you where you need him most. His lips part as he dips into your wetness, bringing it up to circle your clit deliciously. You grasp his bicep and your other hand holds the back of his head as he continues his delightful assault on your throat.
When you feel his fingers inch into you, your hips jut forward. He whispers praises in your ear as he fucks his fingers into you, first slowly then relentlessly. You can't contain your moans. Your fingers tug at his curls lightly when you feel the knot in your stomach forming. All too suddenly, he pulls his hand out of your underwear and you whine.
"As much as I like 'em, they gotta go," Hamzah says, leaving one final kiss on your jaw before dragging your boxers down your hips.
He flings them aside and you breathe heavily as he descends to your lower body, situating his head between your legs. He plants kisses on the inside of your thigh teasingly, dipping his head down only to start back at the top with the other thigh until he has you squirming under his grip. Just when you think you've reached your limit, he bites at the swell of your thigh and connects his mouth to your core. Your lungs spasm as you feel his tongue flick your clit, struggling to catch your breath at the surreal sensation.
He sucks on your bud and has you a complete mess of moans under him. Loosening his grip from your thigh, he makes eye contact with you as he brings his hand back to your center and his fingers penetrate you steadily. Your back arches and he groans when you clutch at his hair. He suctions his lips, watching every reaction and noise you emit without once coming up for air. It's a dizzying sight, and your head lolls to the side as your moans get louder. He works harder, curling his fingers, toying with you in all the right ways to make you fall apart.
"Just like that," you cry out, "Hamzah, please."
You're panting at this point, yearning for a release that's sure to send you reeling.
"C'mon, baby," he murmurs. "Cum for me."
The quickening of his pace has you clenching around his fingers, and as soon as he speaks those words, you screw your eyes shut and let your climax overtake you. Your jaw slackens and you throw your head back. Your legs shake uncontrollably as you call his name out in broken gasps while you ride out your high. The scent of saltwater and moss fills your nostrils, and all at once your vision clears when he lightly kisses your sensitivity. You sharply inhale and white-knuckle the sand below you. Your other hand wraps around the side of his neck to hoist him back up so you can be face-to-face.
Hamzah's arms cage you in and you pull him down to lock lips. He tastes sweet. Then, he rolls the two of you over so you're sitting in his lap while he lays flat.
"All good?" he asks, holding your cheek.
"Perfect."
You lean in to kiss him again, propping your hands on his chest. Teasingly, you grind your hips against his and he groans.
"Stop," Hamzah grunts. "I don't wanna cum in my pants."
The friction makes you shudder, but feeling how hard he is makes you not want to stop. You laugh and do it again, making him squeeze your hips. He halts your movements and grins, his chest rising and falling rapidly.
"That's it."
Without warning, he sits up and you wrap your legs around him, latching onto him like a koala as he stands straight. The swift switch in positions makes you squeal. His palms cup your ass as he walks out from underneath the cove.
"What're you doing?!" you screech, clutching him as tight as you can.
"I asked nicely and you didn't listen!"
He cackles maniacally as he wades deeper into the water. When you're up to your hips in the waves, he turns backwards and sends the both of you plunging into the ocean. In an instant, you're soaked to your bones and springing up to the surface.
"You bitch!" you nearly scream as he re-emerges beside you. "I'm butt-ass naked!"
"No one's here, don't worry," he says, wrapping his arms around you from behind. "Look. Just us."
Hamzah lifts you in the water and swings you around to show you the entirety of the vacant beach. He's laughing above you while you smack his arms to let you go.
"Okay, I get it! Put me down."
You plummet into the depths once more.
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a/n: sorry to disappoint w the lateness again this would’ve been updated sooner if california didn’t literally go up in flames around me and half my roof tiles got ripped off my house from the crazy ass wind (another one flew off as i typed this). also my dumbass friend deleted tiktok off his phone and we lost our 231 day streak bc he can’t get it back no matter what we tried. also elon did the hitler salute?????? what is going on. anyways lmk if u enjoyed or want me to rot for eternity <3 love yall sm
#hamzahthefantastic#slushy noobz#hamzah fic#hamzah x reader#slushy virus#hamzahsmut#hamzah fluff#hamzah imagines#hamzah x y/n#martin and hamzah#slushynoobs#hamzahthefanatasticxreader
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Enhypen hyung line- Hard doms
*toxic enhypen coming very soon!
warnings- mostly written in dot points, includes smut, dom enhypen, hard dom, sub reader, mean enhypen, teasing enhypen, cumming inside (DONTT), punishing reader
Heeseung
He doesn't have time for you antics.
He could come across cold but he just wants you to shut up.
He'll make you use a safe word, just so he knows your annoying whines or punches to let him go, are you actually enjoying yourself.
Heeseung can switch though.
He wont change from being nice but his mean attitude will change.
Instead of insulting you or getting tired of your squirming he can be a mean tease.
Going extra slow
Mocking you
Only caring about his own pleasure....
"Fuck stop squirming" Heeseung huffs, gripping your hips, pushing them deeper into the mattress. You mewl at being manhandled.
"You like that huh? you dirty slut" He laughs, pulling his hips back to brutally thrust back into you. You cry out at the insult, but even yourself couldn't stop clenching around his cock. He emits another laugh, as his sends a hard thrust back into you.
"My fucking slut, that's what you are" He loosens his grip on your hips as he finishes inside you.
Jay
He's not too different from Heeseung
Except the fact, he more scolds you then teases you
He's annoyed, lets just say
Whether you had been teasing him all day
Giving him some attitude or going behind his back to hang out somewhere he doesn't like or talk to someone he doesn't like...
All these will end up with you on the bed, head down ass up
You don't complain though
It hurts yeah but maybe, this is what you wanted from the start of the day
And Jay isn't dumb
Thats why he scolds you and sometimes insults
Cos why did you have to be a brat?
He would have given you something, but now your getting this
"Little brat is what you are" Jay growles behind you, gripping your ass tightly and spreading your cheeks open. His cock was already deep up against your plush walls, but he knew he could go deeper. Your whimper is drowned out into the blankets.
"You don't want this anymore? This is all you fucking beg for" He pushes his cock roughly into you. You can feel his balls tickle your cunt.
"Take it all baby" Jay groans, pulling back before thrusting into you again, soon he'd have you on your back, and start all over again.
Jake
A little less brutal then the others but he does affect you with his words
Making you feel smaller then him
Making you feel worthless
Making you submit to him because how dare you be a brat and give him attitude
Of course this is all your fault, he's just fucking some sense into you
'your to rough' that's how he needs to be with you he thinks t himself, and he believes himself.
"You won't do it again right? I know you won't you whore" You whimper at the insult, mouth stuffed off his cocked, you couldn't bite back a response.
"You look better like this anyway, beneath me" Jake laughs to himself, leaning back on his elbows, enjoying you struggle to take all of him. Even with the tears pricking your eyes and the gags that bring you close to throwing up, he won't let you take a break, otherwise how else will you learn.
Sitting up straight, he roughly holds your head, pushing you till your nose was touching his pubic hairs. Feeling a wave of nausea as you feel his cock slide down your throat, you suppress it. This was where you were meant to be.
Sunghoon
Sunghoon enjoys when you make a fool of yourself
Making you beg
Making you cry
Making you gag over his cock
Even making you cum early and apologise
He loves it all
Even if you have done nothing wrong, that's just how he is in bed.
Because if you did do something wrong, why would he fuck you? It brings you pleasure
He'd rather jerk off in front of you
Or make you deep throat him
Anything that gives him pleasure and avoids you of any
"Please.....I'm sorry....Sorry for being a brat" You sob in front off him. After giving him a head, not only did you have his cum on his lips, but his cock was still hard.
"You think this is what I want to hear from your right now?' Sunghoon snaps at you, holding you hair tightly and pushing your head towards his cock again.
"Fucking suck" You take a breath before taking him into his mouth. Maybe just maybe later tonight h'' wake you and let you cum...maybe just maybe.
#enhypen scenarios#enhypen smut#enhypen hard thoughts#enhypen hard hours#enhypen headcanons#enhypen hard thoughs#enhypen hard dom#enhypen dom#sub reader#enhypen x reader
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DIVA!READER AND RAFE'S FIRST TIME TOGETHER
a/n: trying out something with the pictures and I'm not sure how I feel about it so forgive me!! and btw I was rushed cause this was written at my boyfriend's hockey practice so apologies if this has some errors 😭
cw: contains smut, 18+ ! (overstim, dirty talk, light praise, bit of edging, use of the word 'whore' once, unprotected p in v, creampie, small breeding kink if you squint, soft rafe towards the end)
“ah r-rafe...s'too much” you whine, digging your nails into his biceps as he slowly slid his cock into your dripping cunt, his eyes fluttering from the feeling of you wrapped around him for the first time. “nah baby, think you can take it f'me. you've been practically begging me to fuck you for the past month; don't pussy out now.” rafe breathed out, biting his lip to stifle any overly loud sounds from escaping, not wanting to wake sarah up who is sleeping two doors down.
rafe's statement wasn't exactly wrong; you had been following him around like a lost puppy for almost an entire month now, doing everything to capture his attention from wearing skirts that gradually got shorter with each passing week, sparking up random flirty conversation, or purposely brushing past his crotch when you passed. in truth, rafe had been holding back this whole month too; not wanting to get involved with the girl every guy on the island seemed to want. but he snapped the moment he saw grinding against a random guy in the club—a pouge at that. and he'd be damned if he let some loser get you before he did.
“shit, you're s'fuckin tight” rafe murmured, finally allowing a few moans to slip past his lips once he bottomed out. “you must be getting fucked by amateurs, huh? that's why you stare at me like a piece of candy? this pussy just needed to be taken care of, yeah?” he hums, taking his bottom lip in between his teeth as he pulls his hips back almost completely before roughly snapping back into you, pounding his cock in and out of you, his tip kissing your cervix repeatedly.
“mmhm” you moan in agreement, a soft cry leaving your lips that were slightly bruised from chewing at them since you'd started this encounter. “ahhh— f-fuck, rafe~!” and your fingernails began to dig into his arm and shoulder. “there you go...yeah? this is what you wanted, isn't it? needed someone who knows what to do.” he hums, bringing his hand up to his mouth to give his thumb a quick lick before it finds your swollen clit, rubbing tight circles on the sensitive bud. he was right; the other boys you've been with haven't had a clue what they were doing. they were good for the foreplay, the makeout sessions, but never this. you'd never felt filled up like this and definitely never been touched like this, either. you were basically on the brink of crying from the overstimulation, but you weren't about to stop him.
“see? just gotta stop messing around with all those other pogue boys. i think you're my type” rafe murmured in between breathy moans. “think 'm gonna keep ya, huh? keep you all to myself, make sure no one else ever gets to touch this perfect little body of yours, got it?” it was clear he wasn't asking a question; he was telling you what was gonna happen. “mmh I—fuck—don't belong to anyone” you weakly protest, your painted toes curling once he picks up his already paid pace. “no? that's cute. don't belong to anyone...yet here you are moaning like a whore for my dick, huh?” he hums, lips curling into a smirk when he feels the way your pussy tightened around him at his words, his thumb on your clit moving up to your mouth, pushing it past your glossed lips and into your mouth.
“ah don't worry...don't care how much you deny it, this pussy's sayin otherwise.” he murmured, watching his thumb press down on your tongue, not missing the way your eyes rolled back slightly at the feeling, the tip of his thumb just barely touching the back of your tongue. “f-fuck…” you whine pathetically, taking his thumb further into your mouth and swirling your tongue around it, looking at him with hooded eyes through your thick wispy lashes, giving into his words like he knew you would. “mmh, good girl...god, yeah, just keep doing that, beautiful. goddamn, you're s'pretty.” rafe breaths out, leaning down to attach his lips to your nipple, swirling his tongue around the hardened bud.
“i-rafe-fuck, 'm gonna cum.” you gasp out, your voice muffled from his thumb sliding in and out of your mouth; eyes squeezing shut as you feel the coil in your stomach about to snap—until everything stopped. his thrusts completely stilled, along with his thumb inside your mouth. your eyes fly open, looking down and seeing him smirk up at you, removing his lips from your nipple. “tsk tsk, you said you're not my girl...can't let ya cum then.” he hums, removing his thumb from your mouth, a thick thread of saliva following as he runs the digit over your bottom lip. “w-wait no rafe 'm sorry, i'll be your girl, I promise...just don't stop please, 'm s'sorry.” you whine desperately, bucking your hips into his, hoping he'll give in and continue.
rafe let out a rough chuckle, running a hand down your body “that's my girl...you just needed some persuading, huh? 's not so hard to give in 'n admit you belong to me. i won't let you down don't worry. i'll make sure this pretty pussy is filled up whenever you need it, yeah?” rafe murmured, leaning back up to kiss down your throat, the both of you moaning as he began thrusting again, the pace even more brutal than before.
you could only nod back with your eyes closed, your head falling back onto the pillow as the familiar knot in your stomach began to form again. your nails were digging into the skin on his back, adding to the faint scars left behind. “f-fuck, 'm almost there,” you whimper, your hands moving from his back to his hair, gripping onto the strands “yeah i know beautiful, i can feel it.” rafe murmured, bringing his thumb back down to your throbbing clit, rubbing circles in matching pace of his thrusts.
“please…rafe, I’m—” your words got cut off by a loud moan when your orgasm hit you, your back arching off the bed and eyes rolling back; toes curling again. rafe felt your pussy fluttering around him, the wetness around him getting even more slippery. “mmh yeah…that’s it, good girl.” your eyes closed tightly and your head fell back against the pillow “ahh~ wait..” you moan out as he continues to thrust into you, the overstimulation starting to get to you. “don’t tell me you’re tapping out now, thought you wanted this, hm?” he moans into your ear, sitting up on his knees to get a better angle. you feel tears begin to form behind your squeezed shut eyes, the pleasure getting so intense that it was slowly turning into pain. your fingers dig into rafe's shoulders in an attempt to ground yourself, the moans that had filled the room being replaced with whimpers of “no 'm not... 'm not tapping out...jus need a second rafe” you're practically sobbing, your makeup running down your face.
“c'mon baby...jus a little longer. a little longer and then i'll fill this pussy up, yeah?” rafe murmured, looking down at you and raising his hands to wipe the tears falling down your cheeks. your eyes flutter open as you nod. “okay…okay.” you whimper out, voice cracking weakly. once he sees you nod, his thrusts pick up again, slightly sloppier and more erratic than before. “shit, 'm bout to cum baby.” rafe groans out, feeling his cock starting to twitch inside of you. “want me to fill this pussy? get you pregnant so everyone knows what's mine?” commonly, you'd tell any other guy to pull out, thinking they were insane if they even thought you'd allow any man to have you like that. but you were being fucked by rafe cameron; of course you're not going to decline.
“yes, rafe please!” you cry out, feeling your second orgasm approaching already, bucking your hips into has to match his thrusts. rafe's eyes squeezed shut, a long string of curses falling from his lips as he went over the edge, his hips stuttering as he came deep inside of you. the feeling of him filling had you shuttering, reaching another leg shaking orgasm.
you felt yourself falling limp and collapsing once again onto the pillow, the sobs that escaped your lips being a mixture of pain, pleasure, and satisfaction. rafe collapsed on top of you, his head resting against the crook of your neck, groaning as he pulled out. “shh i know.” he murmured, starting to place kisses down your body, murmuring a “my girl” in between each kiss.
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Clear Skies
The FINAL CHAPTER of Days of Laughs and Nights of Screams is now up to read on AO3!
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#orbits of fancy (reblog)#gif#live reacting in the tags because i feel like it and i love this fic so much#please don't look if you haven't read#I'M CONFLICTED. I'M SO EXCITED TO SEE THE FINALE BUT NOT READY FOR IT TO EEEEND#I'm going to cry at the end of this I can feel it already#ooh new assistant! and I'm glad to see Dave's still keeping his role too#i'm laying face down in my floor over Moon having a gifted journal for him to write all his stories and poems in#EMILY BEING BROUGHT BACK TOO AAAAA-#hehehe Moon can't resist a good mischief of playing when others are sleeping. at least a LITTLE good mischief#the purring makes another appearance and I can't help but think of him as a big dad cat curling around tiredly rambunctious cubs#“”“secretly”“” “”“”“”A LITTLE“”“”“ HAPPY THAT CRAZY WOMAN CAN'T PICK UP/BE AROUND EMILY MY ASS. EVERYONE IS ECSTATIC OVER THAT#MASON AS PB AND BUNNY'S HANDLER IS SO GOOD#I'm kicking my feet at the nickname 'Peebs' it's so damn cute#just imagine a really long string of 'EEEEEE' cause that's all that's happening here. Just over everything happening.#oh no. y'all gonna be there forever listening to the LORE#THE FRAMED PHOTO. Honestly yea that tracks. That WOULD be our favorite picture we love our animatronic family members so damn much#one last 'CARLOS MY BELOATHED' I'm sure your crazy ass can't be kept in prison but here's to hoping#Still going through the healing process all of us it seems. doing much much much better now though even after a little bit of time <3#Exactly! It takes time! Time we can -afford- now that there's probably nothing lurking under the surface of the park#I hear the Jaws theme. And kisses are the chum in the water. DUN DUN#Aw but the corrupt justice system bit is so good. But You have me very intrigued with this mermaids and pirates suggestion#DAMSEL IN ''DISTRESS'' SUNNY GOT ME CACKLING#Moonie hopping in place being one of his tells that he's excited to be a little trickster devil is everything#'one race won't hurt' MOON THE ANKLE#AAAAWWWWW THAT WAS SWEET. You're still a devil tho Moonman.#DUCK I'M DYING HOW DARE YOU EXPLOIT MY WEAKNESS FOR CLOSING SENTENCES BEING THE TITLES OF STORIES#I'm throwing a bunch of hearts at you i'm care you and love your creations I'll say it a million more times#THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU FOR CREATING THIS WONDERFUL ADVENTURE I'M GO CRY NOW
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7am, eating cold leftover teriyaki stir-fry for breakfast and crying over blorbos
#normal Saturday morning behavior#redacted spoilers#redacted audio#redacted sam#Seven.txt#rp audio stuff#well. crying over one singular blorbo in particular. Sam's still got me in an emotional chokehold#and i'm too sad to even make a stupid little joke abt how i wouldn't mind if it was a physical one too. ayeee *insert sad eyebrow wiggle*#no but seriously. i have so many feelings abt him and i can't even say it all bc some of it isn't public info yet#eh fuck it i'll just draft this until the audio goes public and then i'll post it once it's no longer Exclusive Info#bc i dont wanna leak Early Access stuff but i have to get this out of my system rn and the new audio is part of what sparked these thoughts#which is funny bc i. literally haven't even listened to it yet. i'm not Ready 😭#where's that tiktok screenshot that's like. 'hyperfixation so bad that i can't even engage with the source material' bc that's me rn#like bro Sam only won the poll like. 2 or 3 days ago and Eric is Already dropping a new Sam audio?? hello? Mr. Redacted i wasn't prepared#anyways i was spoiling myself by perusing the comments last night trying to get a feel for if it's gonna be more angst or comfort#and i saw a comment that absolutely shattered me. and it reignited all my sad thoughts about Sam's eventual. uh. y'know. death.#apparently they plant a tree together or smthn in the new audio (which already has me & my beloved 10y/o orange tree feeling some kinda way#but to the individual in the comments who brought to all our minds the image of Sam sitting beneath that tree in 30 or so years time#when he's decided that he's ready to die and sits out there waiting for the sun to rise..................... 🥲#i'm gonna need u to compensate me for all of that unexpected emotional damage /j /nm#i'm Still not over what he told Darlin' while they had their talk about the future up on his roof together. that audio killed me#then yesterday i was listening to my Sam & Darlin' playlist while cleaning. and Malibu Nights by LANY came on. which i always skip bc Sad#but i let it play and just started crying. standing in the middle of the room all disheveled and holding a broom. as one does.#iirc that song is one that Eric himself said is applicable to Sam which is why/how i found it and put it on the playlist. and god. g o d#hm. i hope that wasn't Patreon exclusive info. i can't remember if it was a public post where he said that or not. hope it's okay to share#but if we can take that song as like. unofficial canon for Sam then that also confirms my idea that he used to drink to cope#which makes the opening lines of Fix What You Didn't Break by Nate Smith even more applicable. i should go edit that post actually#anyways i'm just. feeling a lot. and i love Sam very much and i don't want him to die. but i want him to do what he wants at the same time#Alexis took so fucking much from him. he deserves to live - and end - his life on his own terms. ... i think i need to go write something#*casually fishes this post out of the drafts 3 and a half days later* hi so uh. i wrote a 4k oneshot :) and will hopefully post it tomorrow
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First day back at the university and I still suck at this exactly as much as I did 4 years ago
#i wish doing something over and over actually made it easier from then on#how come i've done this so many times and i'm still as horrified by the prospect of group projects and exams and all as in the very start#can they invent a higher education that doesn't require you to prepare a group project for every damn subject that exists#can they also invent an intercating with people#in a way that doesn't leave me feeling like the only person on earth who somehow doesn't get it#how do people just start talking and becoming friends :( it's literally impossible for me#it's such a mystery. how the hell do they all do this. what's your fucking secret !!!!!!!!!#not that i expected to become friends with anyone in one day#but one day was already enough for me to start feeling as alienated and othered from everyone else as i've always felt#like god it's always the same damn thing. each year i hope it'll be different and it's still the fucking same#i try to appear nice and approachable and chime in to the conversation whenever i can (just like i've been doing for the past 4 years)#but i guess there must just be something deeply wrong with me that makes everyone avoid me in the end anyway#am i really that unfriendable. can anyone tell me what i'm doing wrong#and why no one is interested in holding a conversation with me for more than 5 minutes in total#it's literally back to the same thing that i've done over and over before and i truly don't see any point in any of this anymore#it's just so ridiculous 😭😭😭 why do i even keep trying at this point#back to school so back to crying alone in my room every evening i guess#how beautiful how poetic. i almost forgot this was the daily standard for the entire past year#never getting out of this ok i get it :))#friendship was meant to be for everyone but me i get it now!!!#worst year ever everything bad is happening. going to my first funeral on thursday i'm definitely going to take that well hahaha#it's been only a day and i'm already so done. ok.#i'm freaking out man what am i even supposed to be doing anymore. it's all pointless
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do you have a favourite portrayal of a character in the gotg game!! who is it and why <3
Oh I think they're all great honestly!!! Part of why I love the game so much is that genuinely, the whole team + supporting characters are written with such obvious love of the source material and equal attention between them all. When I see comments of people saying who their favorite character was from the game and the answer always being different from each person I'm like!! That's how it SHOULD be!!! They're the Guardians of the Galaxy (plural) the focus shouldn't all fall on a singular character like most other GotG media usually ends up as 😭
The two (sorry I can't pick just one) whom I think benefit the most from the game though are Drax and Gamora because they're almost always sidelined both in-and-out of universe by most of the various writers (especially as of late) and in turn the viewers/readers. I've been told plenty of times that they're the most boring members of the "main" team, BUT IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE THAT WAY! The amount of love the game versions get (by the few who've played it at least) proves that 🥺
I've never really liked 616 Drax shifting to being a complete clown during the 90s and such (and even less so when the MCU followed along 💀) So I appreciate the game taking a bit of his seriousness from the DnA run and just making him struggle with nuance and context clues in a less exaggerated way (autistic Drax I still believe in u) and I feel the focus put on him and how losing his original family + the aftermath deeply affected him hits pretty hard here because it's treated very seriously and shown in depth, especially with how his family (wife) gets actual focus. I cannot tell you anything about Yvette in comparison to Hovat, who actually seemed to have had a personality lol (AND she was on their village's council like omg imagine having more to you than just being The Housewife) Though I will say I flip and flop on my thoughts about Heather being disconnected from Drax's life in this universe... The TLDR is that I think his arc here specifically works stronger when he has to come to terms with losing his entire family and accepting the life he currently has with the Guardians. BUT!!! I very much appreciate that Heather is still confirmed to exist within this universe, even if that means her dad issues would have to be dealt with in a different context if we ever get to see her.
Also? Shoutout to the writers actually bringing up the intense paranoia that always kneecapped 616 Drax but having that be a turning point in his backstory here, with that conversation he has with Peter where he talks about how he was becoming so paranoid of everyone being a chitauri/Thanos conspirator to the point of literally turning into an obsessed maniac like Thanos, and realizing that he desperately needed to turn his life around, it's so ough.
Out of the already many great conversations throughout the game, I think the ones with him are the most poignant. My favorite scene in the whole game is Drax and Pete's little moment on Knowhere... makes me go wahhh
(l also love that out of everyone on the team, it's his headspace that we quite literally get to go into. You KNOW that if this was any other media it'd be going into Rocket or Groot's head and likely treated as a joke.)
And oh my god, Gamora...
I find it so extremely refreshing that her role in the plot doesn't revolve purely around the men in her life, and instead, it's nearly exclusively her connection with other women. Or in the most direct obstacle she has to deal with, being how she starts projecting to the millionth degree on Nikki's situation for reminding her of what happened to her and Nebula. I find that infinitely more fascinating as a reading of her character rather than just dating drama or her arc getting completely overtaken by a man's instead.
And especially in her friendship with Mantis, who, despite having all these futures she's constantly seeing and having to navigate, still makes time to do her best to help her 🥺 From saving her life and being the one who put her on the path to healing on Lamentis, to getting her to join the Guardians and still checking in on her when she's able 😭 Friendship between women can be so powerful... u love to see it (🏳️🌈)
I also find it nice that there's this emphasis on her recovering mentally, and the comparison between Thanos essentially teaching her to just Deal with the shit in her life through very simplistic meditation versus the priests of Pama actually teaching her something to help soothe the mind :^( and that she still has moments of relapsing essentially. I find that to be a realistic take on recovery because that's just part of the journey since healing is not linear... and I think it's very sweet that she finds comfort in collecting something ---girly--- like dolls. Love to see a person reclaim a part of their childhood that they weren't allowed to experience. And how she's allowed to make BAD JOKES?? Imagine a woman being written to have multiple dimensions, crazy and absolutely unthinkable, I know.
There's this extremely specific theme in relation to Gamora across media that's been rattling around in my brain since first playing the game. When near the end during the revisit to Knowhere, she's about to completely lose it when Peter tries talking -for- her on what she's so upset about before immediately shooting him down, and she explains what happened between her and Nebula and she starts crying. It really struck me right then that she's never given a moment to cry elsewhere (or in the 616's case, the quite literal inability to.) aside from her shedding a Single Manly Tear (Original Sin) or a single moment out of legit fear (MCU 💀) because she's a hashtag Strong Independant Woman who can't be vulnerable etc etc. But for her to cry in front of the people she's come to care about, It gives her a moment of true vulnerability that I don't think she's allowed ever in most other media.
That and all of the above hits hard and is what makes me genuinely believe that the writers cared about her in the narrative and tried to do right by her when every other bit of media really hasn't nor cared to the majority of the time since the 90s :'^/ Brings a tear to my eye that she's allowed to just... exist in the narrative on her own merits and not on what she can provide to someone else's story.
#lex thoughts#gotg thoughts#universe: eidos game#gotg2008#sorry for asking for a question then immediately disappearing for a month 💔 I'm on the most stressful roadtrip ever#i 🫶 you for asking about them though the Eidos gotg are my everything and i won't shut up about them if given the chance#very funny to me that all these important moments happen on Knowhere. Strange things can happen at the end of the universe.#The end page of W&tIW 09 is the only other Gamora moment of vulnerability across media that i can specifically pinpoint#But it's more self reflection in a way of a heavily traumatic experience that I don't feel ever truly got resolved within the 616 IMO#And I find it a specific point to be made when Gamora is/isn't allowed to feel or literally denied things that are stereotypically-#-categorized as -feminine- (which is dumb to assign gender roles to a simple human emotion such as CRYING.-#-But you get what I mean I hope) We play fast and loose with gender around here pardner I think all of the gotg should cry more#but in Gamora's case specifically it Hits Different knowing her past and treatment throughout media#i could also heavily go into the way the game adapts Peter's character in relation to his element guns but that's an essay for another time#just because -i- find that extremely fascinating doesn't mean i think he should particularly be the main focus (and he isnt)#bc pete rocket and groot are the ones that already get all the attention (even if i dont agree with how they're written elsewhere)#i just find it more engaging for the other two main characters of the team that always get sidelined by the writers actually being put in-#-the spotlight with equal attention given to them for once to be sooo -shakes fist#sorry for the intense word salad i hope i make sense lol ESSAY/RANT OVER .🤐
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idk I had a very interesting therap today but I just
like it's all very well to recognise that I gotta have a fucking open-ended breakdown and jump face first into the Sadness Bog sometimes instead of sitting on all my feelings
but like
I still have to go to work, you know? it's like. ok yeah have a breakdown which like until you jump into it you don't know if it's going to last an hour or a year. yeah go ahead that's all grand. you do have to get up in the morning and go to work though. you're not allowed to not do that. or to not pay the rent or not shower or not eat.
like all my friends and loved ones are constantly like 'you know you're allowed to be sad right' and it's like. AM I??? because I STILL HAVE TO PAY RENT.
#red said#the thing my therapist keeps pointing out is like. i got on this adulthood thing WAY too early#metaphorically i have Had To Go To Work In The Morning since i was like. 4. bc i am congenitally incapable of#Not Thinking About Consequences. and it's so important to be Good and Tough and Have It Together#but like. maybe if id done more crying and melting down when i DIDN'T Have To Go To Work In The Morning bc i was a Literal Infant#i might be a more balanced adult now that i actually DO. Have To Go To Work In The Morning.#what do people like. do. when they have to have feelings but also meet adult responsibilities? impossible. gotta choose.#i think it doesn't help that i already really struggle to work a full time job. like I'm already late basically every day bc i a night guy#so it's like. there's no give in this. maybe if i was back into a 3-4 day week? but idk if i can afford that#but also the work is only partly work. it's also like. having human relationships. eating. washing. being a person.#but idk. like. until i have some genuinely open-ended time i think I'm gonna always find it impossible to actually let go#i said in therapy it's like. like sadness specifically is like a thick muddy bog. and i can dip a foot in it#but bc i know i need to be able to keep moving#i can only stick a foot in and deal with a bit of it if I'm holding onto something. so in practise i can only cry#right before it becomes inappropriate to cry. so like. end of a therapy session. heading to a train station after seeing someone.#that kind of thing. it's a safety thing.#it would be much more effectively Dealing With to go dive into the bog and plough through it#but I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG THAT'LL TAKE and i have to like. come out all muddy and deal with that#and there's always somewhere i gotta be soon. i can't just jump into the mud. not cause I'll get hurt i just Don't Have Time#anyway. feelings. how do they work. embarrassed about having them. embarrassed about suppressing them. generally just embarrassed.
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I'm seriously hanging on by a thread right now I might just go drop dead 😭
#work has just been really overwhelming today I'm going to crack#I hate people#I almost broke down in front of the usher manager today because our radio died while we were falling behind becaus3#one of the theatres got out slightly late and set us back for like 45 minutes because everything was gettinf out one on top of the other#on complete opposite ends of the theater#amd it's not a small building guys#and I was already angry because there was a huge spill in a theater earlier I had to get a mop for and it was a pain in the ass#then we started falling behind and when we fall behind I get really stressed so I jad to ask the usher manager for help to catch up when we#were switching radios and even with his help we didn't catch back up until JUST NOW because we're on a 30 minute set break#and I've jusy been stressing and running around the theater and I want to go home and cry and drop dead#I'm so hot and tired and drained amd my legs have been sore for DAYS and this is NOT helping and I hate it here and I qant a real job#like I'm fucking 24 years old this shouldn't be the best I can do but trying to find anything else to get out of here has been IMPOSSIBLE#and I just feel so hopeless and helpless and trapped and miserable#I'm so angry and sad and tired and in pain and miserable all the time now#and it's awful and I hate it I don't wanna be that wah anymlre#I can't even type oh my god#I'm dying#abby's having a crisis
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#will probably delete this later but I needed to get it out somewhere#like I am so goddamn lonely. and it is making me feel LITERALLY as if I'm about to descend into genuine madness#but the PROBLEM is that. in order to not be lonely. you need to find other people. and you need to have reason to believe that those#people will keep wanting and making an effort to communicate with you#and the thing is THE THING. IS. that you cannot control what people do or feel. I have no say in what people think of me.#I have to rely on other people to build new relationships. and that is just not. something that I can do.#it's not something that makes SENSE for me to do anymore. so I try to figure out how to just not want human connection at all#you know maybe if I intentionally isolate myself or grow my cynicism on a regular basis I'll get desensitized to the point#where that's just genuinely not something I want anymore. so then I'm not lonely but I also didn't have to rely on anyone else being#trustworthy and accepting and willing to care about me to get to that point#but. I mean maybe some people can do the denial thing but I can't. I've been trying for years. and that carved-out-hole in my chest#hasn't gotten any better. it hasn't filled up or healed over or gone away. it's just gotten bigger.#but if you're genuinely convinced that you're just built in a way where no one is ever going to really love you...what the fuck do you do?#if connecting with other people is something I want but it's (in my probably-biased estimation) completely inaccessible because I am#an inherently shameful and unpleasant person just by virtue of existing...then I'm just stuck at an impasse. and I'll always be crying#over something I can't logically ever have. why bother pursuing it if I am just going to be rejected or hurt or disparaged or tossed out or#neglected or sidelined or any number of bad outcomes? if that's how pursuing any kind of new interpersonal relationships is going to end#then why bother? the only thing to do would be to learn how to be completely unreliant on other people in any way forever right?#but THAT'S not logistically feasible EITHER and I've already proven that I can't fucking do that so what's left? just always be miserable?#I DON'T WANT TO RESIGN MYSELF TO THAT!!!!#sorry. it's. getting to be late december & around the new year is when it always gets Bad™ so we're just. gonna be like this for a few week#In the Vents#ugh all of this would be better if I still lived near Best Friend™#anyone who gets to live near/with their Person™ PLEASE know how lucky you are and don't take that for granted
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trying to check out to see if i'll ever manage to get top surgery this year and. let's just say i thought the delay would be bigger but. the price is still always such a big ass problem i kinda wanna bash my head against a wall but. anyway
#living with 600/month and having no idea if i'll ever get a job after this semi-work that ends in march but. oh well!!!#already tried to calculate if i could ever save any money from the little time i get to work there but!!! only make me wanna cry#im afraid this will be another year w/o top surgery 😀 dying in the summer and wishing to rip my skin off. w/o the hope i'll at least#get a date some day. cos at this rate i have absolutely no hope ngl.#the whole organisation to get to one of the potential surgeon 2h away is already making me want to explode#i have absolutely no idea how i'll ever be able to pull this off. ever. i don't even know if we'll be able to stay in this flat by the end#of our contracts. so. yeah#i can't see past 4 months away how can i think i'll ever be able to start this thing going. trying to but i stay silly ing the situation but#!!!!! im so desperate i feel so drained and exhausted. the mere idea of summer makes me wanna kms i'm dreading going through it another year#smh.#absolutely no one gives a shit i shouldn't vent in da tags for the 1 day of the yea#but im suddenly hit with an enormous wave of despair that i know won't go away cos it's always on my mind#and seeing the facts once again that i'll prob never be able to afford it is not helpiiiinh#yes i live in france no not everything is paid by healthcare cos it's still considered as non vital </3333#dental/ear/teeth problems started to get fully refundable (on specific little things) only a few years ago#so we're like decades of getting top surgery refunded 100% im afraid</3#i shouldn't complain but then again what's the use of cool healthcare if we can't ever have access to a doctor. of any kind.#smh smh smh#rent over I'm sick of myself i'll shut up sorry
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feeling sick to my stomach after that finale, actually, wow
#i. think it may be time to drop off tumblr for a while again#lmao as if i'm that active anyway#ik this is quite reactionary but i can already tell that i'm in the minority opinion here since everyone else seems happy soooooo#i dont wanna rain on peoples' parade#anyway. most of the posts i made prior aged like milk huh :))))))))#i'm just. kinda speechless.#i've been in a state of shock since this morning#there are no words#am i living in a fucking fever dream?? am i high??? is this an alternate reality???????#who fucking knows#i'm just......... so numb i dont even know what to feel or say#wow. man. Man.#i'm just. going against everything i'd been assuming the last few weeks.#and praying to all that is holy that this doesn't end up being canon in the manga#i have to cling to that because that's the only hope i have rn#i just really want to fucking cry i'm so angry and hurt and upset at how horrible this was wow#bones has always sucked ass but for the first time ever i don't know whether this is all them or asagiri too. and that's. that. well!!!
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#arrrggh#i have a MRSA infection and it hurts soooo much#y'all it looked NASTY#It's draining now but dear lorde#i showed it to my mom and she said it made it look kind of like my pin up bride of Frankenstein tattoo had a hair piece 🤮🤮🤮#ew! it's so red around it too y'all i can't#before anyone worries i get these all the time btw. I'm dealing with it i get ointment prescribed because i get it so frequently#usually that does the trick but i do go to the doctor if it gets worse instead of better it just usually goes away when i use the ointment#i did end up on antibiotics a few times ago though that's how i found out i was allergic to bactrim#fun fact if you get mrsa once you basically have it for life#so once this goes away my doctor told me i could try decolonizing my skin but that's going to suck hard#a week and a half of hibicleanse baths and i have to put the ointment up my nose twice a day while i do the baths#so idk if I'll even bother like yeah there are super annoying because they are very painful ESPECIALLY if you have to get one lanced#but that's just so much work#i had one lanced on my butt when i was a kid and that is one of the most painful experiences I've EVER had in my life#it already hurt to sit it hurt a lot#but after the numbing wore off? i was screaming and crying in my siblings lap in the car on the way home#i literally can feel the pain getting close to 20 years later if i remember it hard enough
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My dog has a double ear infection, my dad is in the hospital, my period cycle is so fucked up right now that there might actually be something wrong with me but it's likely gonna be weeks before I get to see anyone abt it, and I just found a goddamn bed bug in my bed.
#like when I tell you I am about to become hysterical. im not even joking#I genuinely can't do this.#it's too much all at once. I am not able to handle this#I don't even know how I'm going to pay bills this month let alone deal with a potential bug infestation????#I just wanna die. really I do.#I've never even seen a bed bug before but I saw it and I just knew. in my soul.#like yeah. this is something that would happen to me when I'm already dealing with a lot#idek what to do. kill myself maybe. scream and cry but it's 1am so I shouldnt do that.#god. goddddddd. why me.#I'm so close to ending up institutionalized I can just feel it.
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