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lithariel · 20 days ago

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Oh for fuck's sake, because I only just recently got a much better income, banks don't want to give me a loan since my account history says that the last few months/years I had little to no amount of money at all

Finally I have something of my own but it's not worth shit since I don't even have a fucking bed

#And yes it's a substantial amount of money I'm applying for but fucking Christ #I have laid a budget I know exactly how much money I will spend per month from here on out #I know I have enough to pay back a loan #But they don't care about my future plans #They only give a shit about what they can see in regards to the past #Which fucking. My ADHD ass could not see a fucking reason to save up maybe 50 dollars a month if I could spend it on something #That would make my current situation a little better #My fucking ADHD medication costs just about that per month and I cannot live without that #I cannot fucking stay here for another few months saving up just for a bed #I literally have no money at all for the entire month of April since there's a few loose ends that I have to deal with #Meaning I can't even begin to save up money until May #Meaning I'm reliant on my previous roomie for another fucking month #Whom I've relied on for like. Two years now come April. Who's got his own situation to deal with #I'm fucking borrowing his laptop so I can continue my education #A laptop that I can only borrow until August when he begins himself #If I'm extremely lucky I can Maybe borrow a laptop at school #That's a big maybe #If I don't fucking crash and burn before then as I've done several times in the past under better circumstances #Even in a fucking country that's got the best educational system in the world according to USA?? WHAT?

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