#I'm excited to paint all afternoon and improve my skills

[greppelheks]

I do have my lust for life back since the new year, and a newfound acceptance of who I am. I'm so excited for all the books I'm collecting and reading, the painting I get to do, the new music to discover, the new foods to make. The opportunities for joy seem endless suddenly.

[leftdestiny-posts]

Ooooo I didn't know Cherry was also a traditional artist 👀 Have you ever shared it on your blog? I imagine that your paintings/drawings looked incredible!!!

nah not a traditional artist XD you flatter me, my drawing skills have always been pretty average, but i really pride myself on my painting and designing skills! i really want to share some of my stuff online, but most of it is pretty old so i'll do it when i make something new!!

SAME!! I definitely improved my art, but I used to be unstoppable a while back. I drew long comics, world maps, created my own animals and monsters... I wish I could go back sometimes XD Only a part of my brain is creative, and most of the time it likes to hide rgebhjslngj

you seem like a really creative person! when it comes to art, i am really bounded by practicality so it puts a halt on what i can and cannot do! you sound so imaginative though, i can only wonder what a wonderous place your mind must be!! 🥺💕

Your school was WILD. This sounds like something you'd see in a movie, not irl 😭😭😭 WHY DID THEY THINK FULL GROWN HORSES AND KIDS WAS A GOOD COMBO AT ALL?? wjkesanfjsa Also that principal is so WILD

nah fr😭 the worst part was that some children were actually good with horse riding so i spent most of my elementary school years wondering if i was physically weaker or sick😂

that place was itself was amazing though, the timings used to be from 8 in the morning to 6 in the afternoon because it was a boarding school of sorts, so we'd have all the time in life!! i remember when we snuck out together and ended up getting lost in taller shrubs and discovered a carton full of drugs😂

Sorry for the late reply Cherry ;; This one accidentally got pushed back into my inbox by sunflowers orz BUT I'LL STILL REPLY :3 I hope that's okay!!

!! If you end up posting something, I'd love to see it 🙏 I'm always excited to hear when writers are also artists. Something something the creative mind is endless 😭💙

My mind is complex in a way where it's a little mad XD but in a fun way!! Stories has always been my escape from the real world, hence the development into art, comics, writing dnndnfn

STILL NOT OVER THE SCHOOL EXPERIENCE,, Horse riding sounds like the wildest classes (though sad they had grown horses for kids 💀 seems counterproductive). Aaaa I love that <3 I'm happy you had many good memories from that time!! I do believe that when kids are away from home for a longer period of time, they'll create their own family. I've been in a vastly different situation, but the feeling is familiar to me. Its really a one of a kind thing imo!!

[pbandjesse]

I was exhausted all day and honestly did not have a very good day. But I guess I really needed the rest. It honestly makes me think back to when I always got the Saturday sads. This was just a Sunday sad. My body holds it together best it can all week. I'm high energy for work. People literally comment that. And then I fall to pieces when the week is over.

I honestly slept okay. I had pretty rough dreams. And when I woke up I told myself that if it was before 10 I wouldn't be upset. I hate waking up so late.

But it was only a little after 9 so I wasn't to mad at myself.

I went and got washed and dressed. A little in a daze. Just uncomfy and dizzy. My allergies had made my eyes swollen but they would calm down eventually. I wore my little romper and a sweatshirt and was glad it was cool enough for that.

I had cereal and half a pbandj for breakfast. I got to use the jam I made!! It came out really good!! I am excited that it actually worked out. Much better then last year's batch. That batch was to runny. It still tasted good but I'm glad I improved. I would love to actually try real canning sometime and not just freezer and pectin but this was still fun.

I played Stardew even though I told myself I wasn't going to. I just didn't have the energy to do anything else. I did open the back door and watered all the plans but I just couldn't get out of my head and get the energy to do anything else.

So I played my little video game. I watered my fake plants. I made cheese. I spun cloth. I went to the mines. It was fun. But I was just. Still so tired.

So around 1130 I laid in bed. And absolutely passed out. I would sleep for about an hour and wake up very hot. The sun had moved. So I took off my sweatshirt but then fell back asleep.

I basically slept the rest of the afternoon. I would wake up at 330. And went and had a snack and tried not to feel stupid. But I felt dizzy and exhausted and just not very fun.

James would get home soon. And they tried to make me feel better but I could feel myself being short with them and that isn't fair. Just because I am tired. I didn't feel like myself. I felt bad.

James made pasta for dinner. Sweetp stole some. I painted my nails again because having them all copper wasn't working for me.

Me and James would play video games for a little. And then go work on the Lego guitar. But I got upset and had to lay down again on the couch. So I mostly scrolled on my phone and watched James build the amp. Which actually has parts inside and is super cool. But I was just being such a baby. I tried to help but then I heard a name in the podcast we were listening to and I had to Google if it was who I thought and it took a lot of archive and way back searching but I found that it was a YouTuber they were citing and I was so proud of my research skills. I wish I knew how to make that a job. Professional googler.

I got a shower and still felt sad. But now James is making me a little sandwich and we are getting ready to sleep. They are determined to make me have a good day tomorrow because we have the day off together. I hope they can.

Sleep good everyone. Take care of yourself!