#I'm doing these in procreate so I have the recordings too if anyone's interested

[ailexdecidua]

commission for @rixathegolementalist

[mmmoxielady]

*Oh and ONE MORE THING* Now that I've had a night's sleep on it and some food....for anyone wanting to gouge my eyes out and chop my head off over this, consider the message you're going on the record to send to everybody else. Cause you'll be sending that out clopping on a horse for all to see. Is that something a GOOD HONEST PERSON would do? Anyone with a lotta complicated kneejerk hurt feelings have choices here too. Your homework is different and your responsibility. Not mine. I am a stranger to you. Instead of asking yourself how can I hurt this person? Try asking yourself the question, why am I so ride or die for literally the LEAST good honest people in the game?

Sit with that. Gift yourself the time and mistakes it takes to get to know what that says about you and who you let influence your choices. And the effect your choices have on other people. Especially those who don't agree with you. The reason is too big and too important to ignore. How does it serve your best interests at a healthy happy life to want to mate with a white supremacist and their shitty friends? Does it benefit you if it's isolating you from anyone that doesn't think like you? Or is it possible that it guarantees white supremacy has a new generation to pass it's dusty rusty heirlooms down to? Cause if you settle for blocking and ignoring the people who don't agree with you, that's tryna make a home out of chapter 6. That isn't sustainable.

Shutting you down and cancelling you shouldn't be the goal. That is already being acted on you by white supremacy and it's shitty friend the patriarchy. It's been made easier for you to live that way than getting to know yourself apart from what white supremacy and it's shitty friends have given you permission to be. I'm a stranger to you, but I used to be you. I stanned HARD for Kylo Ren. Ben Solo was definitely a part of it bc poor wounded sad boy just needs love in his world, but the darkness of Kylo was the kink. I GET IT. But he also did unforgivable things like murdering his own father and entire fucking planets. Dude was LITERALLY Hitler. I'm not cancelling the ways he was hurt, but:

questioning why he chose to hurt others,

in the ways that he did,

in context with his own unhealed hurt

is the work women need to be doing. Let's learn from it and heal from it so we can do better than repeat it. Just like Abigail does.❤️ Don't reward them with our wombs to make more of them.

That shit was a wake up call for me. I know that kind of kneejerk make-a-Kieran-message-out-of-you hurt when I see it. That's a hurt from the ways white supremacy damages all women, but eats its own white women specifically. It weaponizes us and only gives us permission to be a tool doing it's dirty work. Just like Bill. Just so it can stay protected long enough to survive. While brilliantly letting us think we aren't doing racist work. It's a problem much bigger than you or me. But it doesn't have to have a home in you. You don't have to be cancelled and ignored. Who are you aside from the parts of you that want to rescue and procreate with insecure men? Men who are so deeply insecure like Dutch, who chooses to be influenced by white supremacists like Micah bc it makes him feel better about himself. Despite the cost that it isolates him from all the good people in his life and hurts everyone around him. And kills his best friend.

Think about what you may need to learn and grow from in order for this fandom to be an epilogue beecher's hope instead of chapter 6 at each other's throat tryna silence and hurt each other. Now do you wanna be a tool like BILL about it digging foxholes in the dirt or build something better using your own hands like CHARLES, AND in the company of people who are encouraging you to believe in yourself instead of belittling yourself? Get honest with yourself and choose how good of a person you want to be through your actions. Just like the game that all brought us here. Instead of staying stuck here, maybe try a new playthrough with these new questions in mind. Play through something you already love, but with new eyes. This game is gonna give you a whole world of good, I promise you that. ❤️ We just want the fandom to be a space where other fans can come talk about all the good things this game has to deliver. And how that can make us better people. That's the goal this Kieran has.

I didn’t mean be quiet about racism AT ALL. Just could we please not reignight the drama from a few months ago with that one toxic POS that wrote slurs in their fanfic. I’m not defending them in the slightest I have them blocked for what they did/said. I don’t think gentle outlaw needs to be quiet about racism in the fandom or being uncomfortable. It just seemed like a very specific attack on a very specific POS that was bound to restart fandom discourse if that person or their friends see it. I was just hoping to not restart the bullshit that scared so many good, honest, people out of the fandom in favour of the POS thats still here and very popular despite being horrible. I don’t want the fandom to completely dissolve into only being racist assholes because all the good people left due to drama. 🤷🏻‍♀️

If people leave a fandom because they classify racists being called out as drama then they're not good people 🤷🏻‍♀️