#I'm a fucking mess and I have 0 ability to shut the fuck up about Flip at the current moment and its aha...IT'S A PROBLEM! :D

[cosmic-ships]

Maybe I wanna sit on his lap and feverishly make out with him- Maybe I wanna tell him he drives me fucking insane as I run my fingers through his hair - Maybe ya'll mind your business and pretend you didn't see this /lh - [sweats nervously]

[bats-after-dark]

I don’t think Huaien wants to get Xiaobao too drunk because a) he doesn’t want to give him a hangover and b) doesn’t want to make him feel sick. Puking is not sexy (I ASSUME, FOR THEM. What do I know.) It's probably more about the thought of him having the power to get Xiaobao drunk rather than the fact that he is drunk, and in my head Xiaobao is a lightweight anyway. So he doesn’t need much and probably feels way drunker than he actually is because of the horniness of it all. And Huaien ABSOLUTELY will drink from Xiaobao’s mouth only, it's not "anything" but everything.

Brain is too busy to think about drunk Huaien rn because you CANNOT just say you had a THOUGHT about Huaien bottoming and not elaborate? I'm afraid that’s illegal. I am a supporter of Huaien bottoming and Xiaobao having to work for it. I feel like the reducing Huaien into a blabbering mess type of thing doesn’t involve actual fucking but other types of body worship, a certain fic of yours burnt this image into my brain. And they absolutely do this on the regular and probably both cry, but ANYWAY, I somehow have this idea of Huaien being pretty stoic when he bottoms, or at least pretending to be? I'm thinking pillow princess but unsettling and brooding, commanding Xiaobao to go harder and do this and do that and getting really specific with his commands, telling Xiaobao not to come and making him fuck him for a really long time. Looking for a reaction and following orders lead into Xiaobao becoming more and more of a mess but he soldiers through because doing this for Huaien activates his dutiful husband mode, his wife only deserves the best. Bonus points for if Xiaobao can very well see that Huaien is desperate and hanging by a thread the whole time but ignores it for horny reasons and to save his face, and maybe Xiaobao reaaaaally loses it only when he notices Huaien's mask slip. I don’t think Huaien will get loud or whiny or anything, probably he just sinks into it, shuts up and pulls at Xiaobao to make him go deeper. Is this anything??? Help? Why do I keep putting Xiaobao into a subby mindset in everything he does? He's just shaped like that.

If you had a completely different idea I am sorry AND very curious to know.

Also do not think I did notice Huaien taking Xiaobao home or "somewhere else." I am fed on these crumbs of exhibitionism (or Huaien taking Xiaobao out somewhere they cannot immediately fuck just to be a bitch.)

A pleasantly buzzed Xiaobao!! Sweet and clingy and syrupy but not, you know, blacking out or vomming. I would absolutely write Xiaobao getting so drunk he threw up and Huaien taking care of him after, but it would not be sexy, no. But I think Huaien generally makes Xiaobao drink responsibly because the alternative is not historically fun for him (brothel) and also, if Xiaobao gets drunk enough, he stops making the really good noises. 0/10. Not Huaien’s preferred Xiaobao railing experience. (Okay, maybe 3/10 bc he’s still fucking Xiaobao. Is this grade inflation? It’s something inflation all right—I MAYBE SHOULD GO TO BED?!)

I’m weirdly convinced that I’m the only person deeply invested in Huaien bottoming?! Obviously this is not true. That fic definitely skirts up to the line of Huaien bottoming and then cheekily winks at you while saying it doesn’t count if it’s just Xiaobao’s tongue—which I stand by as how Huaien would initially justify it to himself. It doesn’t count if it’s just Xiaobao eating him out! It’s fine! This is not a loss of control! Huaien is very in control. Xiaobao is begging to fuck him and Huaien is saying no and Xiaobao is whining and crying about it. So Huaien is definitely in control!

I’m so into your vision of Xiaobao service topping a Huaien who is absolutely refusing to emotionally participate. Huaien’s ability to get up in his own head while Xiaobao makes big sad eyes at him and dutifully fucks him is unparalleled. When Huaien finally gives up the ghost and starts to let himself enjoy it, Xiaobao has to work so hard not to come on too strong about it. Can’t startle the wild Huaien who might accidentally become too self aware and cycle back to pointedly critiquing how Xiaobao is fucking him. (I don’t even fully believe that Huaien is always giving accurate feedback. Sometimes he is just telling Xiaobao to do something different bc he needs to be a bitch about getting fucked.) it definitely ends with Huaien getting a little clingy, wrapping himself around Xiaobao and holding on as Xiaobao shoves his face into his throat and keeps fucking him and sobs because he isn’t allowed to come first, but he wants to so badly.

ok so what I was imagining was Huaien in full ice princess mode putting a plug in Xiaobao and riding him and watching him absolutely fall apart, maybe while quietly berating him not to come? but could also go in a more tender direction where it’s abt how much he can drive Xiaobao out of his head with overstimulation. Idk I don’t have big thoughts here; I was just rotating that one idea like a rotisserie chicken.

the somewhere else wasn’t even impatience in my head! (BUT IT COULD BE.) I just think Huaien sometimes gets them a rented room for the night bc he can’t face the possibility of Zhaocai and Xiaoyu cockblocking him. Huaien is inventing date night actually.

also I just found a draft with something abt a threesome??? I can’t believe I forgot abt that.