#I'M VOLCANICALLY ERUPTING IM SOOOOSO DONE

[cabinette]

OKAY IS ANYONE ELSE NORMAL ABOUT ALIEN STAGE ROUND 6.

Ivan gave himself up for the purpose of saving Till- after the first and final profession of love he could ever give to Till, proceeded to irritate him- To choke him, to pretend to choke him, in order to get him to fight, to respond, like he always did in the past. It's Till's rebelliousness that Ivan adored, it's Till's willingness to go against the machine that had Ivan so infatuated in the first place. It's only natural for his expression to falter as he realises that TIll won't fight back, as he realises that Till has truly and fully given into the authority that Ivan had been trying his whole life to convince him against.

Ivan's final goodbye is a painful, angry one. A goodbye that pleads "Hate me so that you'll forget me, so that you can move up the ranks and defeat this hellish system. I'll hurt you for the very last time, so show me the fire in your eyes when you overcome that, the fire that is so inexplicably yours. That flame I fly directly into like a desperate moth."

Till's pliance in his hands was something that he's dreamed about but time and time again, it never feels right. It never will be right. His sun has turned black.

in other words: SOMEONE THROW ME INTO THE RED HOT HEAT OF THE SUN I'M NEVER GOING TO RECOVER