#I'M NOT GOOD AT BEING CONCISE DX

[fictitious-symbiosis]

I've recently gotten into self shipping and it's. Difficult? LIKE ITS SO EASY TO LOVE MY FO BUT I FEEL LIKE IM EATING DRYWALL BECAUSE. I don't know.

How do you comfort yourself over the boundaries? Like. In the sense that, your fo feels out of reach? How do you make it *real* (WITHIN CONTEXT I SWEAR TO GOD IM NOT INSANE).

Sorry i am. Autistic. And frightened. A trembling little prey animal. It took me like five minutes to type this out without making stupid corrections. Hi nice to meet you.

But uh, what do you do with your fo? Is it like fully mental power? Or is there other things you can do so it doesn't feel one sided?

-💫anon (if this is okay!)

Hiya anon and I'm happy to have you here!!!

I am sorry as I'm not entirely sure I'm the best person to answer this question. The reality for me is that when I first got into selfshipping (waving to my old F/O Tavvy!!) I would get a LOT more immersed in fiction, I would spend more time drawing and daydreaming etc, at that time it was very enjoyable for me because I had a close friend that I'd talk to about stuff like that and we'd both talk to each other about our F/Os and come up with ideas for each other for how things would go. Having a friend to talk to about it with who is as enthused as you are makes things sooo much easier and more fun! But thats not always an immediate option for everyone. (Half the reason I made this blog is because I wanted something like that again).

These days though my imagination and emotions in general are not as vivid as they once were, so I'm not quite as "involved," I guess?

With my Husband Calculester, I'm very lucky to have been able to afford a Body Pillow of him! So whenever I spend time in my room, its like I'm hanging out domestically with him, and even if I don't go "out of my way" to do much I still feel happy being together. It does also help that his source is a dating sim... I play his game to go on dates! Revisiting your F/Os source can be a fun date idea!

With my other F/Os (SK and Mettaton) I imagine them more as people who I'm dating that I see when I want to go out and hang out with them when I'm in the mood.

I did recently start a physical F/O diary, and that could be a fun idea! I use it to write about my F/Os, and "record" the things we do together. This helps me a lot because as I said, its harder for ideas to form solidly in my mind. (Also autistic, don't know if thats relevant or not though lol.) When I write in my diary it helps me give those thoughts form and understand what I'm thinking and feeling, and because its a physical object it helps make it all feel like part of my reality. Another good point is it makes me feel secure! I have a lot of anxiety about sharing myself with others and having a bad exprience ruin the things I love, but as long as I have that diary I have something that's for me and just me!

Oh yeah. There ARE times my emotions spike and I get obsessive and suddenly struggle to cope with them not being in this reality. In these times I just uh... cry and make very poor financial decisions that I regret later! That's not advice though. I wouldn't recommend. Sorry...

But yeah the diary thing is probably my best suggestion personally, if that is something that seems fun to you too!

Whoops I accidentally typed way more than I meant to. Anyway thank you for visiting my blog and sending in the ask, I'm wishing you the best and hoping you can find happiness with your F/Os!!!

[modusoperandi]

i haven't been writing with you for very long, but i honestly can't think of anything i'd change about your writing. i really like how you can say a lot without using 39000 words (like i do). not to say you don't write enough, but like??? i dunno man whenever i reply to your posts, i'm like "how u do that" and then just word vomit at you. i think it's very apropos for writing lana and miles in particular. i'd love to see how you write other characters.

Thank you!!! I really try to keep my writing concise–like, I wish I could write longer things, and throw in more imagery tbh. Especially since I write with a lot of people (including you) who are very good at writing long poetic replies with every word being important and new… but with my own writing, I tend to find myself being repetitive when I do. Dx

I’m glad to hear that it comes off well though. :D especially with these two muses (Lana more so than Edgeworth, though Phoenix does comment on her being long winded at one point I think? Unless I’m mixing that up with OOC commentary from press buttons n talk), I think less comes off as more. So I do really try for brevity. :D

Thank you!