#I’m sorry this is taking me so long 😭🧡💛

[tadpolesonalgae]

Can't wait for Cbmthy part 15

Hello hello!!

I feel like I’ve been taking ages on writing chapter 15 (it’ll still take a little longer, but I wanted to offer compensation since it’ll be a while more) so I’d like to offer a short snippet from the beginning of it 😳🧡💛

‘ She glances at him reproachfully, another look he withstands passively, and then she’s turning sharply on her heel, making back toward the light, back toward the laughter. Silent as a shadow, Azriel catches her upper arm, having to exert surprising force to keep her still. “Where are you going?” He asks coldly.

“Where do you think?” She counters sharply.

“They have enough on their plates,” Azriel mutters. As if on queue, Nyx’s laugher giggles through the halls, a stark contrast to the gloom lurking just beyond the light’s end. Mor snatches her arm away. “You have enough on your plate,” she says lowly, eyes glinting as they cut through him, “we could have made room. You should have told us.” But Azriel stands his ground, not giving an inch. “It was the right call.”

“You have no idea where she is,” Mor counters. “No idea where she is, or what state she might be in. What makes you think that was the right call?”

“You’re questioning my judgement?”

“Yes, I’m fucking questioning your judgement,” she hisses back lowly. “She told me she didn’t want any of you to know,” he counters coldly, “she’s reclusive anyway, suddenly outing her wouldn’t have done anything helpful.”

The wording seems to strike something in Mor, ire banking, eyes shuttering briefly, before she’s gritting her jaw again. “You should have told us.” ’

[writingstoraes]

Hi! I’m just wondering if you could tag me in all future smaus? I’m in love with you account ❤️🧡💛🤍

hey lovely! sure hehe sorry for taking so long to answer this 😭 thank you so much for loving my works!

i'm thinking of establishing a permanent taglist, would anyone want to be included ><

[kpophubb]

Hi lovely ☀️, how’s your Monday ?

I see you have being posting that you are not doing good mentally , I am worried :/ you can always talk to me about anything that bothers you , uk. Just write a kinda ✉️

Sorry I feel disconnected , it’s so hard to provide for myself with no additional financial support :( and this job , they always find some new ways to deduct smth from my payslip 💔

I slept 4h tday , and I feel so not working tday ., such a hard zombie day for me.. I hope you are doing better ?

I wanted to share a new song with you , I like the lyrics and it’s so smoothing (?) let me know if you like it

Also hv u seen txt Comeback,? Your thoughts ?

What’s up with your life now dear ?

I wish you a good week , have a good rest & get better , I’m here if u need me 🧡💛🧡

🐁

Hi hi my 🐁 anonie !! 😘🤍 BEEN A LONG TIME WE LAST TALKED?😭 I’m so happy to get another sweet ask from you. First of all, happy jungwon day 🎉🎂🎁🎈🎊😽

♡…first of all I’m really sorry for the late reply. You sent this on Monday and it’s Thursday already, I’m so sorry I was at my nana’s place and didn’t check tumblr for that while. :(

♡…second of all yeah.., I’m not doing very great atm😓 emotionally or physically. It’s okay please DONOT worry about me or stop talking about your rants just bc you feel like you’re disturbing me and being one sided. I know people who love to help others like you have this tendency, they shut out if they feel like they’re taking too much from someone without giving anything in return! Well i always disappear when I’m feeling bad, bc I like to deal w my mood swings alone but one thing I can tell you is that I have severe levels of social anxiety😓 which makes me really unable to maintain interaction/communication/relationship with people. Well..a lot happened and that caused this problem with me and so, even replying on tumblr, posting fics, answering asks and dms seem so overwhelming to me since the past few weeks. I can’t even open this app OR ANY OTHER APP, just any sort of interaction frightens and drains me so much 💔 it’s not w the people, or the way they talk to me it’s just me and 99% of the times my anxiety and fear that cause me to ghost people and just disappear sigh.

♡…but don’t worry, it’s not that bad cause I don’t mind being away from people, in fact I love it in a sense bc I like spending time with myself so much and it’s honestly very healing. 🤲🏻 🤍

♡… oh anonie everytime I hear about you having a hard time it really pains my heart :( cause you’re so dear to me. 💔 that sounds so rough I wish I could help you in any way and make it all magically better for you! Job life experience seems so hellish I hear so many people talk about it. Maybe I’ll be able to understand you better when I enter that life myself and earn to provide for my self, but that isn’t until I’m 24-25 when I graduate my bachelors program so yeah. I really hope god makes everything better for you, my love. I’ll be sure to include you in my sincere prayers.💗

♡… oh no 4 hours really seem so tiring and exhausting!😭 anonie I hope you can sleep better in the upcoming days! Being zombie sucks I know, I was zombie yesterday. I came back from a 5 hour car journey with the worst kinda sunny weather, so I was so sick 🤢 I passed out before 10 pm and woke up at 5:58 am today so I can tell I had an amazing sleep 🤲🏻

♡… new song huh?🤩 born again, okay I’ll be sure to listen to it. Also here’s a song suggestion by me that I feel like you’d love, it’s my current fav. It’s “skeletons” by Keshi! Also about txt, I don’t listen to their music unfortunately. Sadly, our music taste doesn’t align, that is exactly why I don’t Stan them. I just love them and their personalities a lot!!

♡… my life is so-so rn but I’m still so so grateful for everything I have! My life is still loaded with many many blessings so I’m always thankful for where I am, who I am and what I have! ✨ anonie, know that you can always talk to me too and I really cherish and love you. 🥺💜 life will get better please do not stress and look at the bright side no matter how small it is. Sometimes even being alive is a gift we should cherish. Cause as long as you wake up, everyday is a new chance. 🌟

𝕴 𝕷𝖔𝖛𝖊 𝖄𝖔𝖚 𝕾𝖔 𝕸𝖚𝖈𝖍

[mybiasisexo]

😍 MUTUAL APPRECIATION 🤤

HELLO~! So this is my first ever mutual appreciation post. ive been wanting to make one for a long time bc whether you've been following me for years or weeks, I genuinely enjoy the connection that is a mutual following. most of yall ive never talked to before but thats not gonna stop me from showering you with affection!! I hope we can all stay like this for a while!! im giving you a virtual hug rn and its gonna be long so dont get uncomfortable!!! bless you all and hope you have a great 2019!!!!!  💓❣️💕💖💗💘💙💚💛💜💝💞🧡❤️🖤😍💟

@baekberrie - soft 😌. so so soft for bbh and I appreciate that and need more of it in my life. your stories always make me feign for him in the worst/best way! Keep up the good work!!! *standing ovation*

@baek-me-right - you say you're a suhoe I say where??? no but tbh you have a url I just know when I see it. a rare multi fandom blog I can obviously tolerate, its not too much. Well balanced like my diet lacks. Anyways, I hope that in the future we can get well acquainted 😊

@baekphia - tbh???? im still shooketh. You’re one of the most popular exo blogs and you follow lil ol me. I feel bad tho cause I'm always late to the party so you'll prob never reblog anything from me but aye hopefully my tags make up for it 😬! I hope that we can talk soon~🙃

@bitten-by-the-kai-lovebug - RIN! you were the first friend I made on here so you will always have a special place in my heart. you are also the only friend on here that has a tag name with me in it (if you ever want to revisit our convos its under rinjin). hope all is going well! I know you out there grinding! hit me up whenever you're on so we can catch up!!

@blvenight - a shinee mutual. You keep my heart full and I love your tags, especially ksoo ones cause SAME

@brokeandjetlagged - I want to be your friend sooooo bad 😭. you're not on much but your stories are a1. when I first found you I was reading one of your sehun stories and it was so similar to the one I had just posted and I remember hoping you didnt think I stole the idea from you cause I didnt!! I promise!!! anyways I look forward to more of your works and hope to see you on more!!

@byunfirstlady- you are one if not the biggest supporters of mine! Whenever I post any of my writings its def with you in mind!! I hope that you continue to enjoy my stories, cause I will always enjoy your feedback!! Thank you!

@cave-0 - lmaooo idk if I should actually be tagging you in this but since we are mutuals it is what it is. the only person I know irl that follows this god awful blog. I love you. I miss you. thanks for not reading my tags to me in person lmao

@certifiedtostaystrapped - well, you're me. I love you binch!!! lets get this bread!!!

@chaisoo - a cutie??? a cutie 😌. we love a stan. I’m happy you were able to be blessed by yixing’s presence and love watching you fangirl haha. 

@chanbaektiful - you're as multifandom as it gets and I respect that!!! Its odd bc I feel like I dont see you a lot on my dash :/. if you ever need to fangirl with someone over exo--particularly chanyeol, you know where to find me 👀

@g-exo - firstably you are so adorable. Your writing is adorable. the way you ‘talk’ is adorable and im sorry im a shit replier. take care of yourself girlie and hit me up whenever you need to vent about anything. I’m not that great with advice BUT im an awesome listener

@jeulgi - you're perfect. thats it!! haha but yeah I feel like you havent really been on here much this year. I miss seeing you on my dash! But I get it. You’ve introduced me to so many things and I appreciate the love you have for all of it but most importantly exo of course 

@jhopeismybutthole - GIRL!! we've been mutuals for awhile. we havent talked much if at all but I still consider you a close mutual lmao. See you're still doing the reactions, keep up the good work!!!!

@jodecicryforluna - live for the url live for the quality blog 🤷🏾‍♀️. you're right and you should say it!!!

@jongiinns - IVY!!!!! a long time mutual whom I love and adore. I see you popping in from time to time but I dont wanna harass you lmao. know that I miss you tho and am always thinking of you ❤️

@kais-ride-or-die - pretty sure you're inactive but still a mutual nonetheless. hope all is going well!!!!

@kanye-hyung - first I am LIVING for your url. everytime I see it I just like get hyped yknow? we've been mutuals for a while which is wild bc idk if we've ever talked but thats ok! maybe some day in the future that'll change! keep up the quality content bb!!! 

@korean-ninja-penguin - everything about your blog is so nonchalant and like yeah and I adore it. you stick to your word on bringing us quality humor and Kpop even sometimes blending the two and I respect that ✊🏾

@ksoosheaux - you're so pretty! and you remind me a lot of myself cause we the same age and both have October bdays and are both from Florida and our lil sisters are the same age too!! You're another one I find really intimidating which is so lame cause I feel we have so much in common! 

@kyungsooskhakipants - I forgot we were mutuals cause I didn’t think you followed me :/. I live for your tags!! I’ll try to hit you up often to fangirl with haha

@kyungtoe - did you change your url recently 🤔??? imma be honest I have no idea who you are and ive been following you for a while. im sorry :/. hopefully we can change that tho!!!!

@kyungwhore - you're on hiatus rn but hopefully when you come back you'll see this 😊. You're lowkey intimidating haha you seem to have a great circle of friends on here which is nice! I hope all is well and that you come back better than ever!!!

@laysoo-l - imma be real with you rn... I love you. we barely talk but I love you and thats that on that!

@mininjas - JAS!!!! now im not gonna be mad that you left me for a real life man. I understand like thats the ultimate goal. but 2016 really bonded us and I mean we facetimed each other when I was drunk and tbh nothing will ever beat that for me 😭. I miss you so much and hope that we can meet in person some day!!!

@oh-ottoke - Hello??? I feel like we’ve been mutuals for a while. I KNOW your icon haha. You are one of the few bts stans I follow, which says a lot lmao. Glad you’re doing your thing. Hope to continue seeing you on my dash!!! 

@panic-hispanic-at-the-disco - you are my meme queen!!! whenever I need a good laugh your blog will never disappoint!!! thank you for your service lmao 

@park-chanyeezy - you're not on much but I think you mentioned something about changing that???? if so it will be great to see you on my dash again. if not, I understand, be free my lil birdie!!!

@puervy - I live for your aesthetic. Everything about your blog is so beautiful. We’ve never talked before, but I've been watching out for you. Glad everything seems to be going well!! Hit me up whenever you want to talk about life or just fangirl about exo!!!

@ravyeolii - another one of my writing supporters!! You’re awesome! and we def need to talk more outside of the writing realm! Hit me up whenever! Lets talk!!

@sehun-ist - I dont think you're on here anymore but there really isn't anyone that I know that loves sehun with as much passion as you and thats the tea on that!!!

@simplesunbeam - do you know what Kpop is?? lmao well either way you have a beautifully inspiring blog and thats why im still here!!!

@sleepytea5 - dimon.... you are literally the only person who I tried desperately to get to follow me lmao. I remember trying to impress you for so long cause I wanted to be your friend so bad!!! you are one of my og mutuals. its interesting to see how you've grown throughout the years. I know you've been going through it, but I believe in you and hope for your happiness. love you 💖

@stars-in-the-galaxy - now correct me if im wrong but you're kind of one of those silent bloggers. I see you. I appreciate you. lets make this bread!!

@the-pizza-lich - STEVIE!!! I feel like you're my older sister lmao. we need to fangirl over exo more thats a FACT ☝🏾. you always speak your truth and are so intellectual yet so funny. you always have me dying!!!! we've been mutuals for a long while and im so glad 💜

@timetohajima - the astrology queen! I want to get into astrology so bad ever since I found your blog! I really want to get my chart read also so I need to learn quickly. I’m glad you’re feeling better and pray your health stays on the good side! 

@tinypcy - no complaints here! awesome blog! we've been mutuals for a long time but havent ever really talked which is a shame 🚶🏾‍♀️

@xiuminsmygrandpa - your blog is a1. its quality content across the board!! Unfortunately thats all I got so we def need to talk and change that!!

@yeolaconda - you're not on as much but its ok bc that url will forever be #Iconic

@yourmajestyqueenchelseachels - jbs goddess!!! You are so funny and pretty and lovely. A breath of fresh air!! I know you out there rn grinding and im hoping for the best!! next time you go to Korea tho pls take me thanks!!! haha

@yubarikai - NIKKI WHERE ARE YOU?!!?!? I miss you :/. pls come back so we can fangirl over kai more pls thanks love you 😥

[tadpolesonalgae]

As a sucker for sad endings I love the new chapter😍 THE ANGST, THE DRAMA- GIVE IT TO ME😫 I mean, I know our girl won’t kick the bucket, but I will certainly enjoy everyone thinking that she will😈 Can’t wait for more of her relationship with the sisters and to see what will go down with the other members of the inner circle (kinda hope to see some compassion from Azzy💙).

Now let’s see… I can imagine the next chapter starting with the members of the IC that left the room. Like them sitting on the dining table and trying to think of anything that could save/prolong Reader’s life, and Amren just being like “There’s nothing that can be done” and everyone suffering😌 What can I say, I’m a masochist😍

I also think that Eris was the first one to find out about her powers, and maybe that’s what he wanted to tell Lulu🤔 I don’t think he and Reader are close enough for him to go out of his way to save her… except if he wants something in exchange… *evel laugh*😈

The new chapter was PHENOMENAL🤩 Can’t wait to read more of your story! I swear I just can’t get enough of your writing😩

Anyway, hope you have a wonderful day and don’t rush yourself with the next chapter!🫶🏻

-🔥

(I’m sorry for taking a while to respond to this—my brain was in a funk. Also this was sent in prior to chapter 22 so again—sorry! 😭)

I love that people still have hope for reader surviving despite almost all the odds being set against her—it’s honestly kind of heartwarming even if that’s probably just because of storyline stuff and being used to characters having plot armour 😭

Honestly with Amren I’m torn between thinking she’d be kind of insensitive, or being kind of compassionate? Or maybe caring in a slightly detached way? I haven’t really written much of her in cbmthy because I just don’t see reader being in any way comfortable around her 🫠

Oh! And I can now clarify that what Eris revealed to Lucien in that little meeting was about the Prison being unstable, which is then how Elain found out since Eris decided it was time to speed things along—I imagine the IC won’t be happy that Eris told Lucien but oh well 🤭

Well, again I’m sorry for taking so awfully long to respond to you—August has just been insanely busy and my head has been feeling like it’s been full of cobwebs—but I really hope ch. 22 was a fun/interesting read and thank you so much for writing in and chatting!!! 🧡💛

[tadpolesonalgae]

SOOO WE SAW SOME REGRET IN RHYS MIND AT THE END OF TWO FACED

BUT! WE DONT SEE MUCH OF THAT IN THE OTHER FICS FOR HIM! SO MY QUESTION IS, DID HE JUST STOP GIVING A FUCK? OR DOES HE STILL HAVE REGRET? OR IS IT YET TO BE REVEALED🤔🤔

(love ur writing sm) 💖

Little warning note: discussions of dark Rhys and also vague reference to noncon below! Please take care when reading 🧡💛

So, this is just my own take since it hasn’t really been shown in the series, but Rhys does regret having to be forceful with reader. After Amarantha, he’s lost and alone and realises how isolated he’s become from not being able to see his family for fifty years—then reader comes along and he finally has someone new, someone who hadn’t really known what he was like before Amarantha so he isn’t constricted by a preconceived image.

Through this freedom, he’s able to latch onto reader more swiftly than under normal circumstances and becomes dependant of having her company, or just really existing in the same space. As long as he can see her and can be with her, he’s fine.

However, as we saw at the beginning of Two-Faced reader was seeing someone on the side as her and Rhys weren’t together and hadn’t even expressed feelings toward one another. Because of this uncertainty, Rhys had to choose whether he would be willing to risk possibly losing readers to someone else but going the ‘romantic’ path (the sane, legal one), and taking her for himself to make sure she would always be his. In Rhys’ mind, he knows how people break from his experience of being daemati, and he knows how to put them back together for that same reason—therefore he believes even if he does cause reader significant mental damage, he will be able to essentially manipulate her into slowly (emphasis on slowly) forgetting what he’s done to her and trick her into becoming grateful to him when he begins to change from his Court of Nightmares persona into his kinder one, the idea being reader will be relieved he isn’t being so rough with her anymore and will end up ‘behaving’ so Rhys will show her more affection and relieve her from the nightmarish life he’s been forcing her to have.

I’m sorry if it’s a little out-there 😭 Desk Pet isn’t a very plot-heavy series so a lot of this isn’t touched on and is just what I’m using as the foundation to write all the smut 😭

I love getting to talk about it though, it makes me so happy you are genuinely interested in knowing their backstory, and finding out about their past, and Rhys’ motivations and true intentions! Thank you so much 🧡💛🫂

[tadpolesonalgae]

are you planning on updating cbmthy soon?

So, I don’t want to jinx anything, because writing ch. 15 has stumped me in parts multiple times, but I’m hoping to have it ready for Friday? It’s been proving difficult where the story doesn’t read as I want it to, or I simply struggle to see how to progress a scene, but I think the end is in sight 😭

Thank you so much for being so patient by the way, I know the last proper update was a while ago, so I’m sorry it’s taking this long and thank you for sticking with me without hassle, I really appreciate it 🫂🧡💛

[tadpolesonalgae]

Pls make the next chapter of cbmthy longer!!!! I know 5-6 K is considered long to some, but when you drop the newest chapter I fly through it so fast because I’m so exited to read it 😭😭😭😭 i love it so much. I was so excited to finally read Azriels POV again especially since he knows she’s gone now. I need more of it i want to see him in anguish over reader like pls I’m ready for the next big step whatever you have planned idc 😭 also if you do happen to write it longer, how long do you predict that would take to write? Sorry no rush I just check your blog every day for any sign of an update!! Anyway hope you’re having a good day/night!!

I’m insanely flattered to know you read through them so quickly! 😳🧡💛🫂

I’ll experiment a little—I’d say it mostly depends on how much there is to happen? I don’t want to stuff a chapter full on nonsense if it doesn’t aid the plot in some way so i’ll have a think about it :)

‘I need more of it i want to see him in anguish’

Please totally feel free to remind me of this because I think having Az’s pov after the Long Chapter will be really nice just to get both sides of the story and to understand how each of them are feeling! I’ve written some planning out for the Long Chapter and it does have a couple of sections from his pov in which I’m really enjoying getting to write!!!

‘like pls I’m ready for the next big step whatever you have planned idc 😭’

Girl you might be ready but I am NOT

I don’t want it to happen but they need this talk to truly understand what’s going on since they’ve been keeping things from one another 😭😭😭

‘also if you do happen to write it longer, how long do you predict that would take to write?’

Um, so ordinarily probably between 1-2 weeks since I still need time to do non-tumblr-related work, however at the moment I am working on some other series I have since I think I’ve kind of neglected those, so maybe closer to two weeks? It’s hard to tell though?

Also with the possibility of having a flashback chapter (cbmtry), if I decide to put that before the Long Chapter then naturally it’ll get pushed back a little :)

‘Sorry no rush I just check your blog every day for any sign of an update!! Anyway hope you’re having a good day/night!!’

It’s absolutely no problem!! I’m so happy you’re enjoying it so much! I hope to keep you on your toes for just a little longer before things start to cool down before speeding up again 🧡💛🫂

[tadpolesonalgae]

this is such a late reply, but hi! this is the anon who sent you that one ask about “tag, you’re it” on sep. 17 and said i was torturing myself with dark fics 😭 you’re completely correct and i didn’t mean it seriously! 💕 i love reading darker works but i also am such a huge sap and love fluff to a sweet tooth degree lol so you could say that i enjoy two very opposite ends of the spectrum

i’m not someone who gets off to non-con but cnc is appealing to me. for stories like “tag, you’re it” where reader is obviously being forced, i always immediately switch into “okay, her main goal here is to escape and the only form of a happy ending would be that.” when it becomes apparent that reader will never reach that goal bc she’s terribly outmatched, i always get all mad and sad for reader 😭

however !!! i never considered stockholm syndrome to be a sort of happy ending. this was pretty long but lol i say all this to say that you’ve opened my eyes to new horizons and i very much appreciate that 🥰

That’s great! 😭

I’m sorry for kind of making it into a big deal, I just wanted to make sure you were taking care of yourself so thank you so much for bothering to write back in and clarify 🧡💛