#I won't lie and say this hasn't affected me in a fair amount of ways

[silverlulus]

A warning to the community with a certain zine and who to trust and not trust when letting people in projects or anything fandom related ⚠️

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Reminder that I no longer run the zine and I tried to close it down due to a rat in the community who used someone's death as an excuse and wanted me gone as founder due to their petty behaviour.

It has now sadly been hijacked recently by them and two other ex admins of my one.

I had no issues if they made their own zine but that has not happened and they are now running amock and did not contact me prior for my consent in this matter, they just point blank ignored how this can further the damage.

So I have to warn and urge folks is please don't engage at all with users such as leechysmile and the other two who have taken over and claiming it as their own now.

The name they go under for it is "into the depths" on tumblr on the zine.

There is little I can do now as I have been blocked, but I will warn when I can, that I had shut the discord group down and that I wanted to end this zine and again, had no issues if they or others made their own from scratch with a different name.

Whilst they did change the name, they are still running the same zine, which is that part that I did not want to happen.

So due to this all, I am officially warning the ygo community of those mods on the now hijacked zine.

It is not safe and more so with a user called leechysmile and the lies they have created and putting out either false information or not enough to back up their claims with a screenshot from someone who passed away days ago and some issues they had to me prior which I was not aware of and they refused to listen to me when I tried to explain my side.

This led to me force shutting the zine down because I did not feel safe with them around me or others because of the toxic and how leechysmile reacted in the wrong way to a simple matter and the project was severely damaged by them and in the case I had to shut it down to try and stop anything further from happening but in the end it did nothing and now it's become bigger problem if anything else with how they've handled it.

The other mods made no effort to contact me to try and sort this issue out.

I wish this did not have to end like this with the zine, but I have been left no choice and I urge others to abandon it, don't let the folks running this get away with it.

Having something like this ripped away from me has been traumatic a fair amount, it was a love letter to the ygo fandom and it was taken away like this in a blink of an eye.

Folks like that need to be held accountable in fandom spaces and that it's not okay to act like this , it needs to stop.

Don't engage as I said though with these three users, just walk away, let what is left of the zine I made just die and let this one just rest in peace, that's all I want.

Seeing it still run even though with a different way hurts, this is not what I wanted and they need to understand that this is not okay.

Please spread this to warn others and stay safe, more so with the type of people that are in the hijacked one .

I never wanted it to end like this, but after being backstabbed repeatedly by folks there, I thought I could trust, but it was all a lie, and i won't tolerate this nor let them get away with this and neither should anyone else.

And I'm sorry to whoever is left contributing for that hollow project, I never wanted this project to end like this but it has been defaced and poisoned.

I know folks won't like me for calling the ex admins out , but I can't sit here and allow this, it has fcked a bit with my mental health and I'm having to keep certain emergency numbers aside in case during this.

This was a simple matter though, either create a new one from scratch and cut all ties with this or don't bother at all in the zine area.

It's that simple but carrying on like this just makes things worse and more uglier, so just end this like I wanted to, it's not difficult.

[yedlihmad]

sends you way too many questions for a meme you never posted because what is friendship if not escalating a casual joke

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?) H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?) E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?) S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect their partner? How would they like to be protected?) T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

' A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?) I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?) R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in their relationship?)

ur the funniest person alive (and u know it)

C = Cuddles He actually does like to cuddle; he's not physically clingy or drape-y but he will hold hands, put an arm around you, let you lie on him, offer himself up as a cushion/pillow… The most passive cuddling he's fond of is heads-upon-shoulders or leaning against someone while sitting.

H = Hugs To friends, he's an enthusiastic hugger; he's not beyond the classic 'hug-and-lift-and-spin' if he hasn't seen you in a very long time.

E = Ending This one's tough to answer, as it means admitting that Rafi poignantly understands the pressure to ghost someone, often yearns for it—and has to force himself not to do it. He begins with a firm and honest cut-off—he will often use some variant of "it's not you, it's me," and mean it—but he doesn't let things linger. When it's over, it's very over. He won't circle back around to unresolved threads, even if he's the one getting dumped.

(A lot of this is an echo of what happened with Cam: their affair lasted many years, but when it was over, it was over—and with no small amount of resentment, guilt, and anguish on his part.)

S = Security Less so now than he was with his first (and, so far, his only) partner. He was admittedly overprotective of Cam; though she did not need his safeguarding, she still was not above manipulating him to use it to her advantage and defense. Admittedly there's a romantic part of Rafi that can't resist the urge to play hero—perhaps all three Eryut brothers are susceptible to this—so any potential partner would still have to put up with him dashing to their aide if they're caught up in a perceivedly-perilous situation.

(He himself would only be comfortable with protection if he feels like it's a team effort: a 'by protecting me, you're also protecting us' sort-of sentiment.)

T = Try A fair amount; he's meticulous about dates and gifts. He'll prepare weeks in advance, and make sure the event is a memorable one. A lot of this is a learned habit from none other than his brother Refr, whose zeal for Dalmascan courtly etiquette often leaked over to his brother's sympathetic ear.

A = Affection Friendly affection he shows through chats, errands, check-ins, compliments, gifts, and familiar warmth. Closer affection shifts towards the physical: he hugs, holds hands, touches arms and elbows and shoulders; he fusses and nudges and pokes; the occasional spar will have a new element of (humorous) physical comfort. Romantic affection, however, is in the voice, the words, and the way he looks at you. He's not above tormented stares of longing, black moods, sulking face-down in agony over these hot, submerged emotions. I joke that Rafi is that guy who realizes he's madly in love with you six months after it's actually happened, and spends a whole week freaking out about it—but it's not entirely a joke!

I = I love you He says it a lot sooner than you'd think. "Love" among Eryuts was a living, pulsing thing—enmeshed with frustration, camaraderie, conflict, irritation, adoration, yearning, and joy. In some ways, Rafi loves everyone he ever meets; he loves his brothers and friends, and will tell them so. But the deeper, more compelling bonds of love pull on him slower, like a dragging tide. Once he's under, he's under. If he can still breathe, it's all he'll be able to say.

R = Remember One muggy evening, after thoroughly trouncing his ass in a training spar, Cam offered to show him how to spearfish. Rafi did not tell her that he already knew how to spearfish—that Eryuts practice the craft as early as childhood—but pretended to be bad at it so she would keep teaching him, and thus allow him to spend more time with her.