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𝙥𝙖𝙞𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜(𝙨) - Ellie Williams x Fem!Reader

𝙬𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨 - Cursing, smut, ab/muscle riding ( reader on ellie ), voyeurism ( phone call sex with unaware 3rd party ), kissing, nudity, joel showing up, mention of shower sex, showering together, fluff

𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙤𝙛𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙 ? - Yeah/Nope

𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙧'𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙚 - I've been in such a bad writing funk so I'm sorry if this is horrid and sucks ass, life has been awful.

𝗔𝗨 - Modern !

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All you could hear was her breathing, soft and mixed with quiet snores that she didn't care to correct. Her eyes shut but you knew the rest of her was awake, the telltale sign of that being the fingers running against your bare back in a circular motion.

The glassware and utensils had been left out on her coffee table but the food had successfully been put away late last night. It was the last time either of you had gotten up from the couch up until now, the mid-morning sun greeting you both.

A channel you didn't know the name of played on the screen in front of you which kept you slightly entertained. Half in a haze of sleep and the other partially awake. You were just basking in the fact that you didn't have to do a thing today but lay there if you really wanted.

Then again, her phone had other plans, beginning to ring just as your eyes had began to shut again. The sound was excruciating, so much so that you had shoved your face into her body and groaned into her belly by the time the pattern repeated, trying not to smile at the sound of her throaty laughter while she reached for the device.

"What?" She answered.

You peaked up at her, resting your chin on the backs of your hands.

"You always answer the phone with 'what' or do you just really not like them?" You mocked her voice in a whisper earning you a tap on your blanket covered ass and a smirk.

"No I'm busy." She replied to whoever was talking, watching you as you looked away and at her hallway, trying to decide whether peeing was more important than your current comfort.

"I said I'm busy, Cat. I will later or something." The mention of her name made you peer over and meet Ellie's eyes once again. "Cat, huh?" You teased, this time feeling her pinch you, hand dipping underneath the fluffy layer and running itself over your warm skin.

"I dunno, call Dina. I'm really busy right now, Joel needs me to help him set up his new cable shit or whatever, you know him." You giggled, sitting up on her torso in order to swing your legs on either side of her body.

"Wow, using your old man as an excuse. Diabolical." She squeezed the bottom of your butt, bringing her warm hand over to hold your hip. "I don't know about later anyways, Joel wanted me to stay for dinner."

Her gaze was fixated on your face, biting the inside of her lip when she moved to push your lower half forward. Humming almost inaudibly when you seemed to get the message.

"Listen I gotta go, I don't know what you want me to do about that. I can't keep helping you out when it comes to these things."

You went slow at first, grinding your bare cunt against her pelvis followed by little moans tumbling from your lips. Little puffs of air coming with which Ellie found adorable tending to focus more on your mouth than whatever her ex was saying.

"Ellie..."

The whimpers were unheard on Cat's end of the phone though, standing outside her ex-job place whilst praying to God Ellie could show up and sweet talk her boss into letting her stay.

"I can't keep getting you jobs if you're gonna lose them. It'll fuck up my shop name if I keep getting others into bullshit." You covered your face to muffle your noises when she bucked her hips, but she quickly tugged your hands away to meet your pretty eyes and accidentally caused you to fall forward.

"You got your ex a job?"

"Was trying to be nice-" she smiled as you shifted into a better position. Tilting her head as you humped your clit against her muscles again and again while she gripped your thigh,"-ended in me getting fucked over, as per usual."

"How sweet of you.. oh fuck–" That had come out much louder than you intended but your mind had become a foggy mess that hadn't noticed. But Ellie had.

"What? Nothing Cat, I gotta go." You sped up, feeling your belly begin to tighten whilst you dug your nails into her shoulders. Clenching your teeth as to not be so fucking obvious.

"M'gonna... Ellie.."

"Bye Cat, I'll talk to you later." She hung up before the other girl got a chance to say her farewells. Tossing her phone onto the carpet with a soft thump, but her attention was all on you.

You moved, sitting up once more to arch yourself into her abs, rotating your hips so that your clit hit every delicious spot. Mouth wide and hung open, Ellie admired not only that, but the way your head fell backwards and your eyes closed.

"I- fuck-"

"Let go already... you're pretty when you come y'know." The sound of those few words sent you flying over the edge. Body stuttering and shaking, Ellie helping you out by guiding you back and forth again to make it easier.

You couldn't make that out though, laying your head on her chest once you'd begun to come down.

"I think you are just as pretty " You replied after a moment, taking a deep and unleveled breather while staring at the back of the couch. Then shifting your head to peer up at her, a question on her tongue that she was resisting the urge to ask, but that failed.

"Are you gonna stay?"

"If you want me to."

It was quiet for a second, green eyes looking into your own. Hand returning to it's earlier dance on your back.

"I'm hungry."

You moved to slide off her body, stretching out while feeling her eyes rake over your body like you were a treasure chest just waiting to be opened.

"We both need to shower before we do anything, so either you say no and I leave, or you can join me." You didn't have to say it twice before she was off the couch, pulling you into her tiny bathroom and then right into the hot water.

You'd stayed until your fingers began to become pruney, giggling at stupid small things each other would say. Ellie and you both poking at each other when the other wasn't paying attention.

Then her fingers went other places then your hips, creeping between your thighs and after a few moments, in and out of your body. Soon after you stood with shaking legs while rinsing the soapy suds from your torso.

Ellie's hands on your back helping with the rest before she kissed your neck and told you that she'd order food. Leaving you alone with nothing but the stream of warmth and the quiet rest of the bathroom.

You baked in its warmth, the smell of Ellie's body wash that you liked and her shampoo and conditioner which she claimed she only had because Dina had called her a monster for using a two-in-one. It had made you giggle, that you can admit.

Finally you shut the near cold water off and stepped out, grabbing the fluffy white towel she'd told you from the behind the curtain was for your use. Wrapping it around your body before looking at yourself in the foggy glass.

Water droplets falling down your skin, not a tired glint in your eyes, instead you looked alive. You couldn't remember the last time that was, not a though actually, not even at the beginning of the last one.

You turned, going to exit the bathroom when you nearly ran right into a man going to walk into the bathroom. Ellie beside him trying to grab him back but all you could focus on was how startled he was and how absolutely bare you were.

"Holy shit, I am so sorry!" You practically squeaked, clutching the fuzzy fabric with everything you had to offer. "No, shit, that's my bad." He looked away and tried to avoid making eye contact and backed up, turning around and away.

"Could've warned me, kid." He directed to Ellie who grabbed your arm lightly to tug you away and into her room.

"Fuck I am so sorry." Ellie began while you shook your head, trying to avoid thinking about what could be going through that man's head. "He just showed up-" "It's okay. I promise."

Ellie stared with worry swirling in her eyes, anxiously playing with her fingers while her cheeks burned bright red. Watching as you sat down on the edge of her bed.

"Do you want me to go-" "No, no he's only stopping by. You can stay in here until he leaves, or if you want I can drive you home once he does." You shrugged, smiling softly to get her to calm down. "I was kinda looking forward to watching that show you suggested. Can't leave before I see it, right?"

"Fuck... okay, now I gotta... go out there." "If he asks, tell him what he wants to know." She raised her eyebrows, noticing the goosebumps of the cold appearing on your shoulders and arms.

"Just be honest, it's more embarrassing getting caught in a lie later. Especially if we make it as far as meeting the parents. Which is around, what? Month three, maybe four? We're in month one, going on two in two weeks. And judging by how much we seem to get along we'll probably end up there and that is a horrible conversation waiting to happen if it starts as some shitty lie."

Ellie snorted and rubbed her eyebrows, finally shaking her head.

"Alright, I'll be right back. But if you wanna make an escape, window is not an option." You giggled, standing up to go to her closet which she'd offered before she'd gotten out. "Definitely don't feel like falling seven stories so I'll just wait to run out the front door when you're not looking."

Ellie left, the muffled sound of her voice and the man's outside the room and down the hallway. Inaudible due to the length between them but close enough to where you heard him chuckle, smiling as you put a shirt on that was probably made for a seven foot tall man instead of Ellie's five-five stature.

It was huge, on anyone that wasn't a giant anyway.

"Christ." You muttered, biting your lip to muffle your amusement. Putting on an equally large pair of pants that you were sure were hand-downs from someone she knew. If they weren't, you wondered what possessed her to buy them.

After a moment though you got curious, creeping over to the door to listen into the conversation. Knowing it wasn't good, but how bad could it be?

"You like her?" "Joel-" "C'mon, she ain't a stranger. Her shoes all nicely places over there? I ain't an idiot." You covered your mouth to hide your sounds, shifting your weight with the anxious feeling of being caught.

"Yeah, I do. It hasn't been that long, though. Alright? So you're not missing anything." It sounded as if he got closer, probably teasing her in his expression which you too from the sound of her scoff. "I wanna meet her when I do start to miss somethin'."

"Okay, okay, now please, send a text next time." "Nah, maybe I'll just walk in instead of knocking. Catch you by surprise and scare the shit outta all of your friends." "Alright, that's enough, door."

You shook your head while laughing, sitting back down on the bed to wait for her. Watching the TV's rest screen turn from nature sight to nature sight until the door opened once again and her blushing face became visible.

"I miss him already." Ellie playfully shoved you back, laying next to you and staring up at the ceiling. "Shut up." "Just saying, you jinxed it."

She turned her head, furrowing her eyebrows in confusion.

"Earlier, when you told Cat you were helping him?" You could see the hilarious realization in her face. "Oh fuck I did. Damn it." "We have to work on that." "Work on what?"

You looked at her, deadpanned.

"Your excuses."

"What's wrong with my excuses?" You let out a loud 'hah', pulling yourself to sit up. "They're cliché. And you always sound slightly panicked, it is adorable though." Messing with you, she rolled her eyes. "Can't we just watch The Mandalorian now?"

"Fine, we'll work on your lie game later." "Great! You're gonna love this show." "I bet I will." You smiled.

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Prompt 39: Death wants you to be terrified. But the scariest thing is wanting death.

13th Doctor x female curvy reader

Warnings: mentions of suicidal thoughts, alcohol and drug abuse, domestic abuse, fat phobia

I'm sorry for this. Its really depressing and I've been hesitant on letting you guys see it but I kinda like how it's written. I've made the abuser gender neutral as females can also be abusive. I promise the next one will be much happier!

"Come on (y/n), you can make it! Just jump across and reach for my hand. I promise you won't fall." The Doctors voice echoes across the widening canyon. If you looked down, you would only see pitch black. You didn't know how long you'd fall. Maybe this would be the perfect time to just go for it. Its not like you'd matter, you're only slowing the team down as is.

They wouldn't even be in this mess if you didn't slip and hit the world shattering drill, turning it on full blast. Unfortunately, you smashed the button making it unable to turn it off. Of course the only way you'd be able to turn it off is to actually go towards it. Everyone in the room screamed at you and some raised their tentacles to attack you if the Doctor didn't step in front of you. You know the Doctor noticed you flinching and your eyes gloss over and noticed you bracing for the impact.

You learned over the years to just accept your fate. You can't run from anyone when you weighed this much. You couldn't hide either, which often left you to just accept what was coming and hope nothing broke. Bruises were always easy to cover and so were any cuts but broken bones, that was always on display and you'd have to break your number one rule: never lie. You hated lying. The truth always comes out anyway so why hide it? If you hide it, you get punished worse anyway so why bother?

If you jumped and actually went with the team, you'd get questioned about earlier and about hesitating at jumping. But if you fell, would the Doctor miss you? As much as you hated to admit it, you were absolutely in love with the adorable alien. Why did you hate to admit it? Because she was a goddess and you were a waste of skin and bones. You weren't skinny and you didn't fit in with the team at all. You were only here out of pity.

You remember when you first met the team. You were the only person alive when they searched underneath the hotel. Even the spiders didn't want you. You were at the hotel because you heard about killer spiders and you wanted an out. You could never do it or something would come up stopping you from ending all your misery. You were the complete opposite of the Doctor. She was so brave and said whatever she wanted and didn't really care for the consequences.

You focused on the Doctors sparkling eyes. Despite the situation, she still sparkled with hope and encouragement. She wasn't upset with you. You really wished she was. This would be such an easier decision to make. Your head was pounding and your heart was going faster than her two hearts. Did you even want her upset? You couldn't tell, your head was spinning wildly, one thought going to another without a chance to process the last one.

You had come to a clear decision. You ran back and let momentum do its thing as your feet left the muddy gravel. You felt so free as you glided in the air for a few seconds. It was the most beautiful feeling. No punishment, no tears before going to sleep and no terror of going back home. Just you and gravity.

Then with a clearer mind you regretted your choice. You were horrified. You weren't ready. It wasn't time yet. Graham can't lose you. He'd only recently lost his wife. He'd feel the same as you and that thought terrified you. He'd survived cancer and gained himself a new family. He can't be like you. Ryan needed him, wether he was willing to admit that or not.

Suddenly you panicked and last minute reached your hand out hoping you'd grab something. Anything. You felt a soft warm object and latched on for dear life. You were then lifted up and onto soil. You focused on your breathing a moment and waited for your heart to calm down. You looked up and saw what, or rather who, saved you. You shouldn't have been so surprised to see the Doctors worried face above yours. She gave you a questioning look, knowing the question, you nodded your head and she straightened herself and helped you up.

"That was great (n/n)! So brave of you! Let's go gang, we've gotta turn this drill off before it splits the planet in half!" She shouted as she ran forward, seemingly knowing the way. She didn't let go of your hand until you reached the drill about 10 minutes later. You couldn't help the blushthat formed on your cheeks. The Doctor quickly opened a panel on the side of the drill.

The drill was massive, bigger than the Eiffel Tower and that what was on surface level, it went down much deeper that it had reached halfway to the liquid nitrogen that ran in this cold planet where our magma centre would be. The drill itself was purple and spherical. The panel box was the size of a human head which was about the size of the civilisations sucker pads. Inside were 3 buttons and 1 lever. You needed to type the pattern that would gain the access to the drill and force stop. If it goes wrong, it speeds up rendering this planet uninhabitable.

You watched as the Doctor quickly typed the pattern in. Red,blue,red,red,red,blue,black,black,blue. That was the pattern she quickly pressed in and held the lever down for 10 seconds. Soon the drill came to a halt and the planet was peaceful once again. You all let out a sigh of relief as it stopped.

You made your way back to the chief of the race and explained that they should dismantle and never use that drill again unless they plan to empty the panet of everything it has within. He quickly agreed and the fam made their way back to the TARDIS.

As soon as tye TARDIS was parked on the edge of your solar system, you got into your comfy clothes ready to nap or maybe play a few games to slow your adrenaline until you were tired enough for a full nights rest. You played a few rounds of uno and some poker where you used some bits of metal instead of chips. Eventually everyone had left except you and the Doctor.

You made your way to the doors of the ship and settled down just watching the stars in front of you. If the sentient machine hadn't already been aware of your darkest thought, you would have jumped out there and been amongst them. Just floating eventually turning to nothing but bones drifting, maybe to never be found. All the sights you've seen and yet this is where you were the most impressed. This was your home, your galaxy and because of all the light pollution, you had never been fully aware of how many neighbours you had because you had been literally blind. This was only stuff captured and faked and now, it's forever in your mind.

You heard movement and a shuffle next you. You knew who it was because she was the only other person awake and you knew she was going to ask and not let it drop until you tell her truth. And you were going to give her it but that doesn't mean you were ready to do so but you had to, someone had to know. Maybe you wanted help or maybe just someone to listen and know everything making you mentally naked in front of them.

The Doctor waited a few moments. She was figuring out how to word it without sounding horrible. "Is everything alright at home?" She asked her voice laced with genuine concern. "Sorry if this sounds a bit abrupt but let me explain. You've been really weird lately. You hardly speak and when you its with as few words as possible, you keep going elsewhere mentally and Rassilion forbid anyone getting angry with you! I also noticed how you hesitated today when jumping and I saw your worry and panic when you jumped. I think I know but I can't help you if you don't at least tell me what is going on! And don't change the subject or anything, just answer me please. I lo-. I can't lose you too." Her voice raised a little as she panicked just speaking about it. Halfway through she grabbed both of your hands and continued her speech.

You looked deep into her eyes for any sign of a lie but there wasn't one. Just like at the canyon, her eyes showed nothing but love. Maybe you should tell her, just her. No Yaz, no Graham and no Ryan. Just you, The Doctor and the TARDIS. You looked away for a moment as you collected your thoughts. However, as you opened your mouth and tried to speak, you found no voice. You couldn't tell her about them. Lord knows what she's capable of. But you've been looking for an out for so damn long. Maybe this is it. She's your out, no death involved.

You walked towards a panel in the console and pushed your hands inside and focused. You focused on the worst time it happened. You concentrated on the fear and everything attached. You couldn't tell her, but you could show her. The TARDIS disappeared into the vortex but didn't seem so sure on landing. She was picking it all up, she felt everything you did and she did not like going. "Please baby girl, I need her to know. I need help but I can't tell her. She's my only out that doesn't involve death and that terrifies me! Please. I understand your hesitation but she needs to see." You spoke mentally to the sentient blue box. She made a sad sound as she gently landed in the moment.

The Doctor looked at you bewildered. Her eyes were wide and her mouth agape. You walked up to her and grabbed her hand reassuringly. You led her to the doors that separated her from your darkest secret. You took a deep breath and slowly opened the door.

You appeared to be in the basement of your house. You walked up the stairs and took her to a storage room where she could see it happen. You sat in silence for a few minutes only the sounds of breathing and your heartbeat could be heard.

You knew this day off by heart, it plagued your nightmares often. It all started to sweet and went sour so quickly. At this time you were currently on your way back from doing your weekly shop to Tescos making sure you didn't forget their vodka and gin on your way to pay. Thankfully, the shop was only 10 minuets away and you doubted that the TARDIS would make you wait longer than nessacary. Just as the Doctor opened her mouth to speak the door opened and in walked an 18 year old you.

You set the bags down and started sorting the items into their new places. The canned foods go in the cupboard and the meat goes into the fridge. There were loads of food and stuff to go through and place properly. After you placed the last can of baked beans into the cupboard, the door swung open, nearly breaking the door.

They came home from their dealers place early. They stunk of weed and alcohol and had a little white powder around their nose. They looked like they had a good time until they had to come home. It was their dealers birthday so he was having a brothel themed party meaning there were strippers, pole dancers and prostitutes as well. The dealer was a rich guy who practically ran this city. The cops couldn't do anything as he could always bail himself out of jail.

They looked you in your comfy clothes and scoffed. They looked angry. "Why aren't you in your normal clothes babes? I thought I told you to throw away all of that shit. Come on now. Don't tell me I wasted all my well earned money on those clothes I specifically chose for you?"

You shuddered, both in the past and now except now they only made bile rise into your throat. You were so young and vulnerable. Now you know better.

The past you quickly scampered off to get changed. After only 5 minutes you reappeared in what was sexy school girl. The blue miniskirt covered less than most underwear so you were forced to wear a thong. The shirt was a bralet that barely covered your nipples. Your hair was in pigtails and you wore thigh highs. The sight made you silently sick in your mouth. You looked pathetic and weak.

You looked at them expectingly. You were waiting for your next order from them. They seemed to drool at the sight of you. "That's better babes. Why didn't you go shopping like that? Show the world your fat ugly figure? I want you to walk out there and see that no one else wants you but here I am, loving you. I am the only one who will ever like you in the way we have now. Your lucky I've had some fun tonight. All I want is my vodka and a new blunt darling"

You quickly went and grabbed their stuff and walked towards them as they settled in front of the TV. They turned the TV on and put Love Island on. How you hated that show. It made you feel bad for being the size you are. The women on there were beautiful but you also knew that, that kind of beauty costs money. So while your partner had fun watching the show for the romance, you watched it to spot what part of them was bought and what was real. Almost all the women had fake teeth and breasts. You hated how your partner would make snide comments on how they looked compared to you.

"You should be looking like Becky ya know. Beautiful teeth, big perky tits and a fucking great ass. What do you have? Flabs!" And there was the first comment of the day. The first of 30, you counted.

"Yeah well you are fucking broke so I can't look like fucking fake ass Becky or the others!" You thought. Then the Doctor gave you a look of shock and pity and then you realised you said that aloud. Not loud enough for them to hear you but enough for the Doctor.

"Make yourself fucking useful and make me some dinner. I fancy a steak and chips." They ordered as you got up and waddled over to the kitchen. A few minutes in you realised you put too much oil in the pan for the steak but the steak was already in and cooking quick. So quick that it started to smoke just a little bit. You tried blowing it away from them before they realised that you fucked up their dinner but ut was too late. They were already on their feet a marching towards you.

"I'm so sorry. I accidentally poured too much oil in. I'm so sorry. I have a spare steak, you can have my meal for tonight, I could do with skipping a meal anyways, helps me lose weight!" Past you was panicked and present you wasn't much better. Even though you were safe from them, they still made you uneasy. If you were to ever see them again, you'd freeze. They made your blood run cold. Even their voice sent unpleasant shivers down your spine.

"You better make me another steak but I still have to punish you. You fucked up, a lesson needs to be learnt." They said scarily politely. They grabbed your left arm and marched you towards the sink. They also grabbed the burning pan and pinned you so you had no escape as they poured the boiling oil onto your skin. You knew not to scream do you bit into your other arm knowing a bite out of it is better than causing more punishments for screaming.

When they were done left to watch the TV and you knew what that meant. You had to cook the spare steak and make there meal before you can get proper treatment at the hospital. Through your tears of agony, you quickly ran your burnt and bleeding arm under the cold water of the sink. You bit deeper into your other arm and tasting blood, but thay didn't stop you until the left one had cooled down. Then you got an old shirt, ripped 2 pieces of fabric off and wrapped them around both arm Injuries. You then continued their meal.

Once they had the meal they kicked you and punched you in the stomach because the chips were slightly cold and then they drove you to the hospital as they promised. When you had left you didn't realise you had been crying until a drop fell on your arm. You walked out of the storage room and sat on the sofa, turning the TV off.

The Doctor looked shocked for a moment before walking over and kneeling in front of you. The Doctor went silent for a moment. Before she could speak, you decided to speak first.

"I couldn't tell you because I couldn't think if a nice way of telling you. I didn't want to appear weak to you." You cried as your voice cracked in the middle due to the tears and the strain. The Doctor looked at you in pity and disappointment.

"This does not make you weak. Being abused does not make you weak. Because being abused is like being tortured by someone who supposed to love you and cherish you. They are meant to protect you from danger not be the danger. I would never hurt you. I know that I put you in risky situations but believe me, I would never intentionally put you in danger. You mean too much to me" The Doctor softly spoke with tears making a little river down her soft cheeks and onto your black carpet below.

"Before I met them, I was like you or Yaz. I was so happy at everything. Very little could bring me down. But I met them and started dating them and suddenly, my world of sunshine faded to grey. There was no light. I wanted to die Doctor. When you found me at that spider hotel, I wanted to be free from them as I couldn't do it. I can't because they'd kill me. I don't want to be alive whilst I'm with them. I have so many scars from either them or me trying to end my own life and that the scariest thing. Death wants us to be terrified but wanting to die is so much more terrifying Doctor, I know that." You cried as you emptied all you could to her. The Doctor was silent for a moment, taking in everything you said. Waves of emotion flashed through her, anger, sadness, pity and something you couldn't quite place.

"You said wanted. That's past tense. You said wanted to die. What changed? What made you want to live?"

"You did. You saved me from the spiders. You gave me a temporary out of the relationship for a while. You made me smile for the first time in 3 years! You made me laugh. The world of grey is now full of sunshine and rainbows Doctor. You also saved me today. When I jumped across that canyon, I jumped to end my life. I made a mistake that nearly ended a planet! If I wasn't so fat and clumsy maybe i-"

"Don't you dare say that! You are not fat (n/n). Yes you have more plush to your body but you are not fat. I hate that word. Its such a nasty word. You are gorgeous, amazing and so brilliant. You can't see what I see and I really wished you could for just one moment. You are worthy of being loved and cared for. You are precious, rare, one of a kind. I've never met anyone like you. There's always some skinny, fake bodied and caked up women but there's no one with as much natural beauty as you! Let's get back to the TARDIS and we'll talk more when looking at the stars because I can see that being here isn't doing you any favours" The Doctor spoke with such passion that you started to believe that her words held more than those of a supporting friend would.

Once the TARDIS was parked in the Milky Way you settled by the door once again and found yourself accompanied by the sweet alien. You both sat there for a moment just content with wrapping your heads around what's just happened. You looked over to the blonde and noticed how the stars made her glow in such an ethereal way that you felt almost compelled to worship her. Maybe you should after everything she's done for you. Her eyes sparkled with si many emotions from the past senario.

"Are you still with them?"

"Why do you think I never left this place? I mean even if could, I wouldn't want to but it's mainly because if I go back home, I'll come back with more injuries. I feel safer with you. You are my sunshine and rainbows and they are my storm clouds. Whilst I'm here, I'm alive and mostly unbroken. Whilst I'm there, I'm as alive as a puppet and severely broken. I can't leave, not on my own anyway."

The Doctor looked at you in thought. "The starlight compliments you. You look so pretty and almost angelic. I just wish they never hurt my angel. My innocent angel had broken wings and I'm going to fix what the Devil broke, I promise. Just hold on, I'm going to take us somewhere."

You held the nearest crystal as the TARDIS transported you somewhere but it seemed like the sentient machine was determined to take you there as quick as she could. As you opened the doors you noticed a familiar smell of weed mixed with alcohol. You heard the familiar tune of Love Island and knew exactly where you were. You were home. The Doctor saw your hesitation and whispered softly, "I want you to pack everything you want. I've written a note for them to find. I'm going to put it on the bed. If they notice you scream for me and I'll be there. They will not hurt you much, hopefully not at all. I just need to do something in the TARDIS before I help you." She turned and left into the TARDIS and disappeared down a corridor.

The atmosphere sent chills down your spine and you were frozen. The TARDIS seemed to notice and words of encouragement were sent into your head which helped you move towards your bedroom. You quickly buy quietly opend your suitcase and started to fill it with clothing and hygiene products. As you entered the bathroom a bottle of their shampoo fell into the tub giving you away. You knew you only had so long before they came in and hurt you so you closed the door and barricaded it with whatever you could.

As you pushed the last cabinet to the pile they roared through the wooden door. "Let me in you fat dumb bitch. You've been gone for 3 weeks and you've got some balls coming back! You're lucky I haven't burned all your shit! Where have you been?"

Your heart ran at an extremely fast pace nd you knew only one person could help you now. And so you screamed her name so loud it hurt your throat bit that didn't stop you. You screamed until you heard talking. You couldn't understand what was said but suddenly a thud was heard and then silence.

"Hey Starlight! It's only me. I've taken care of them. They're not dead but in a venishion aikido. They can't move, they're paralysed. You can come out and finish packing"

You moved everything out of the door and opened it to a view you expected. The Doctor with 2 fingers to their pulse point on their neck. The Doctor smiled at when they saw you. You finished packing and zipped the bag up. Then Yaz walked in with her police uniform on and arrested them for domestic violence and many other things. Now you understood why The Doctor left, it was to get Yaz as a back up option to completely take them out of your life.

The Doctor helped open doors for you as you got your room and you set the suitcase to one side to empty another day. You both sat down on your bed. The sound was filled with nothing but 2 lifeforms breathing and the TARDIS faint buzzing. You two stayed like this, staring into each other, trying to read the others emotions. But we all know what The Doctor is like, she can't stay silent for long.

"I had to save you because as long as you were with them, you weren't ever going to be truly happy. I didn't want my big bright star to turn into a black hole, I wanted her to be a supernova. My Starlight deserves to be happy."

"You keep saying my Doctor. And you asked if I was still with them and then when I basically said yes, you quickly, as in a rush, sent us home so I could leave them. You keep saying all these things about me. You held my hand from the canyon to the drill. You are always the first to check on me and you always make sure I'm OK first even if I'm the farthest person from you! Doctor, be honest, I don't want any more bullshit. Doctor why?" You spoke softly but with determination. The Doctor blushed and shifted her gaze to the stars and quietly gulped. She knew this day would come. The day her secret was revealed. And she dreaded her answer and she dreaded your reaction. And whilst she figured out what to say, you already knew the answer.

You gently grabbed her chin and made her look at you. Once her gaze caught yours, you smiled and placed your lips to her soft ones. Quickly she caught up and kissed you back with all the love and passion she could muster. She wanted to relay that she did love you and that she would do exactly as she said earlier, she would cherish you.

As for you, you smiled. You finally had an out that didn't end in death but instead ended with the same love that you yearned for, for years.

[doux-ciel]

Blurb *COMING SOON*

CURRENT WIP: Gift of life

Release date: January 1st 2019

Summary: Charlotte and Nathaniel have the perfect life, a beautiful house, great jobs and a beautiful daughter. But there was always something missing, another child. They wanted to conceive but they had some complications so they hire a young surrogate but as they soon find out things take a unexpected turn.

Literally took me all day to find pics that I like to create this mood board...lowkey stil hate it

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After getting out of that unwanted conversation with the Ice skating coach Harmony; I walk over to the office where my bag and personal contents lay. As I’m taking off my socks I notice a red blister start to form on my right heel. I wince as I examine it, touching it lightly.

I haven’t skated in a couple months and boy was it showing, I knew my skates were a little tight but I didn’t think I needed to go out and buy a new pair.

Sighing, I place my now sore foot down on the cold tile floor. All of a sudden I hear my phone ringing. I don’t recognize the number but I answer anyways.

I immediately hear a woman's voice on the phone,“Hi this is Kim from Gifting Miracle’s I was wanting to speak with a Yesenia Cervantes?”

I was caught off guard, I didn’t think they would call this soon. It’s only been a couple days but I was happy the company called me back. I answer, “This is she”

Kim’s voice was bubbly, “Oh great, well I was calling to set up an appointment with you to meet?”

I was smiling so hard I thought my face would crack, I can’t wait to tell Nova that I booked an appointed to potentially be a surrogate and get the check that comes with it. I then tell her that next week on a Tuesday is ideal, since I only have a 12 p.m. lecture and I’m free for the rest of the day. While I hear her on the other end typing my information in the computer I realize; I don’t even know where these people are located. I then ask Kim, “Where are you all located?”

Kim clears her throat and says the address as if she memorized it off a script, “389 Riley Drive, its going to be the building on the end of the street” While trying to repeat the address in my head I was also trying to find piece of paper in the office but my eyes weren’t spotting anything. “Hold on I need to write that down” 

Kim says she will hold and I dig in my bag, grabbing a napkin from the pocket that holds all of my miscellaneous items. I then spot a pen on the desk I quickly grab it and ask her to repeat the address again. She happily does so; even though the napkin is somewhat damp I write the address down. Placing the napkin on the arm of the chair I’m sitting in. 

I quickly thank Kim for being so patient and we say our goodbyes. I hop out the chair, not even worrying about my sore foot; I start to do a little victory dance in the 10x15 space. Not even 3 seconds later I open my eyes and the napkin is gone. 

“Shit” I whisper to myself, as I’m scanning the ground to look for the slightly damp and now probably dirty napkin. I can’t wrap my brain on how I lost the napkin in 2.5 seconds but I have to find it. 

I’m on my hands and knees; I look out the office door only to see the feet of the various people walking by. Some of the students laughing at me and the mom’s/dad’s of the girls probably puzzled as to why I’m on the floor in the first place. 

My eyes now scanning the floor of the lobby, I spot it.

Not only is it underneath somebody’s feet, its underneath the feet of Natasia Monterro. I rise up from my prior position on the office floor, now walking with no shoes on to retrieve my napkin. 

Natasia bends down to pick up my napkin, her eyes narrow observing the piece of linen she slowly rises back up. I stand on the lobby carpet waiting, my eyes travel up and down her body examining her attire. A cream colored blouse, brown slacks and a nice shade of nude lipstick. My eyes focus on her hands, a bit blotchy; some discoloring in the skin but her nails look amazing. The polish is burgundy perfect for the fall weather we are experiencing.

She finally realizes I’m standing in front of her, Natasia’s brown eyes slightly puffy looking like from lack of sleep look down upon my petite frame. “Is this yours?”

“Yes” I nod.

She hands me the napkin, afterwards she brings out some hand sanitizer from her purse. Placing a few drops on her hands, her eyebrows knit together as she puts her left index finger just below her lips. “Serena?” She points to me.

“Its Yesenia” I remind her.

“Anyway! How was today”

I give her a tight lipped smile while focusing my eyes on my napkin reading over the address. I bring my free hand grabbing some hair; that was falling into my face tucking it behind my ear. “It was hectic but it was fun teaching the girls”

I hear her voice sightly, taking on a more silvery tone. While placing her hand on my left shoulder she says. “That must be an important address, you were running after it like it was an $100 dollar bill”

I slowly remove her hand from my shoulder, my eyes looking at hers while my voice is low. “Well it could be my ticket to freedom”

I slightly jump when her granddaughter Adalynn comes running from behind me and stops right near Natasia’s feet. “I found my gloves Grandma!” Adalynn’s cheeks are now a nice shade of red, while holding up her Elsa from Frozen gloves. 

She promptly grabs the 8 year olds hand,“Come on lets go.” Turning around to exit the building, she shifts her purse from her forearm to her shoulder while waving goodbye to all the other parents following right behind her. I see her open the back seat of a very expensive looking truck placing Adalynn on the right side. While another man with a suit on comes from the drivers seat, grabbing Adalynn’s bag and placing it on the other side of the truck. Swiftly moves to open the passengers side door to let Natasia in the truck, they drive away. 

“She definitely comes from money” I whisper to myself.

Just then I hear my best friend Nova call out to me. “Yesenia?” Why don’t you have on shoes?”

I laugh while peering down at my bare feet. “Don’t ask” I playfully roll my eyes as I run back to the office to grab my bag and follow her out the door to get into her Volkswagen beetle.

After bringing Adalynn back to her parents home, I just couldn’t do anything for the rest of the day. So I told the help to leave me be and I would be in my piano room. I was just messing around with my piano, while playing I remember when I was 14 and just learning how to play. My own mother would want me to play in front of guests and of course every night after dinner. Even though I was no good, eventually I got better with practice of course and the right teacher. By the time I was 23 I was Playing with the Chicago symphony. 

Taking a deep breath I focus back on playing when someone interrupts me, opening the door. I throw my shoes at the body not realizing its my life partner Wallace. 

He is quick but the shoe hits him in the shoulder, he chuckles as he picks up the shoe. Wearing a grey turtleneck, some black slacks and only white socks he walks up to me bending down on one knee. Placing my house shoe on my right foot, I bend down kissing him softly on his cheek. “Wallace honey can you bring me some tea?”

Rising up his eyebrows raise, “What kind do you want?”

“Chamomile would be just fine.” I say while sliding to the right to get up from my piano bench. I saunter over to my cream colored velvet chaise I have sitting in front of one of my many 1920 arched ceiling to floor windows. Looking out into the outside world, seeing the different color leaves fall to the green grass. I remind myself later to tell my maid Jenny to tell the Gardner to come back tomorrow morning and get the leaves from my property. 

After a few minutes of waiting, I see Wallace out of the corner of my eye with a teacup in one hand and his tablet in the other. I grab the handle of the cup and bring my lips up the edge taking a slow sip. “How was your day?” I ask him while he sits at the edge of my feet.

“It was gruesome as usual, I'm actually getting sick of these people leaving us with the blood bath” He grumbles while looking down at his tablet. 

“Well that’s apart of your job, I saw what that girl wrote on the napkin it looks like she’s with the agency. Did you handle the other thing I told you about?”

He nods, pressing on his tablet he brings it closer to me. I reach over to the side table that holds my reading glasses placing them on my face; I begin to read the file he has made on Yesenia Cervantes. “Yeah, she went to juvie couple times here and there but since she graduated high school her record has been spotless. No drugs, she drinks a little other than that she seems like a damn good-”

“Wallace!” I gasp at his use of profanity. 

He quickly apologizes while taking the tablet away from me. “I mean she seems like an appropriate woman for the job.”

“Perfect”

A/N: I hope you all are ready for this book as much as I am because when I tell you shit hits the fan real quick, I’m not playing!! Anyways stay tuned for 2019✨🖤👼🏻

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IU x Ellemen Youth November 2020

Translate: by myself from chinese to english. My own ellemen magazine.. i will add photo later..

Become famous when you are young, take your time.....

In the twelve years of her debut, since the age of 15, IU has been watched enthusiastically by people through her adolescence and slowly matured. She made her debut as a singer, was exposed to performances, and tried to be a producer. She accepted and digested every result. She became more and more brave and gentle after maturity, like gardenias in the wind. In September, we completed IU exclusive interview and the first exclusive cover shooting for her in China. When IU was filmed remotely in South Korea, she was able to quickly get into work, even finishing the work 3 hours earlier than expected. The weather is good, and she has a distant and exciting future.

Qualified Idol (Li Zhien = Lee Jieun)

IU has liked listening to music since kindergarten and often followed her father to sing karaoke. But it wasn't until the first grade of middle school was fined to sing in physical education because of her mischief, that made people around her realize her singing talent, and then she was recommended by the teacher to sing at the sports meeting. After a few years, Li Zhien stood in the mature Korean entertainment At the door of the industrial system, ready to step into it. At that time, she was still a middle school student and participated in 20 selections, including the trainee selection held by JYP Entertainment, but all were rejected. In October 2007, she passed the audition of the current agency LOEN Entertainment. The trainee lasted ten months. Later, when I remembered, Li Zhien felt that that period of time was short, hardworking, and full of "uneasy feeling of nothing."

"I was able to debut earlier because I was too young. Even if I failed a few times, I still have time, so let's try."

"So when she was 15 years old, Li Zhien wore a black costume, stood on a cable music program and sang a song "Mia", and made her official debut. The coveted debut stage did not seem to go as smoothly as she had imagined. She rushed to the TV station excitedly , I saw a lot of fans supporting the boy group, but when she started singing, the people underneath began to scold her,

“After someone scolded me like this, I was scolded in all directions.”

And because she chose a lyrical quiet song, She could hear her voice clearly.

"I feel that the three minutes of singing were really long, and I totally lost the feeling of hope."

IU said in a show, "Probably because of the failure of "Mia", even if the audience hasn't reacted since then, It doesn’t matter. So, if there is a little cheering voice, I will be very excited about it.”

In December 2010, Li Zhien released the album "REAL", and the single "Good Days" from this album finally won her many honors and loves have also reversed people’s previous perceptions of her: She won the Melon Music Awards in 2011 for the best song of the year; won the Mnet Asian Music Festival Best Solo Singing Award in 2011; more and more people recognize her , I heard her singing... During the performance this winter, a fan came to give Li Zhien a support. When Zhien sang, she shouted the slogan of support. Li Zhien once again heard the voice from the audience on the stage, and it was completely different from the day of her debut. She sang "How blue the sky is, and the wind is so perfect today" almost to tears. She was not originally an ambitious singer.

"Although it is good to get the first place (in the competition), it doesn’t matter; it’s great to be the best female singer in our country, but it’s not okay."

After that, she became the first goal after being a singer: at least to become a singer who can take care of my fans.

She worked hard to play a qualified idol and gave herself the stage name IU- I for Li Zhien, and U was for the audience who listened to her songs. Participate in more activities, sing more songs, and start acting. Li Zhien often sleeps only four hours because of too many announcements, and because of this job, she has irregular sleep and insomnia. Even ten years later, she felt that she was too pleased at that time. It seemed that no matter good or bad, she would take it as long as it was an event that could show up, "survive anyway." Popularity also accumulates under such circumstances. The three high notes shown in "Good Days" are praised, the young face is cherished, and the title of "National Sister" is closely related to her.

Young Mental Crisis Until the age of 22

Li Zhien encountered a mental crisis. She is filming the TV series "My Uncle" with director Jin Yuanxi, in which she plays the role of Li Zhian. Zhi'an is a small clerk who is heavily indebted and burdened with crimes and lives with her elderly grandmother. Like the lonely and bleak character, Li Zhien herself is in a downturn. One day, Li Zhien found the director and said,

"I'm very sorry, because the TV has not been broadcast yet, I will stop shooting here (probably the best choice). I will compensate for the content I shot before, no matter what method I use."

She fell into a trap. In the doubt about herself, nothingness and fear searched her. At the same time, her physical condition deteriorated and she even needed hospitalization. This was the first time she had to suspend her trip

In the talk show "The Joy of Dialogue", her mood at the time: "In the eyes of the public, it was a very successful year for me. When "Meaning of You" was popular, the cover album of "Flower Bookmark" was released. , I have achieved good results since "Good Day".

But at that time, from the perspective of my spirit, it was the worst year. The reason is still not clear. From the debut stage, I was on the stage I’ve never been nervous before, but at that time I started to be afraid of the stage. When I was recording a show, I was also scared when I watched the camera. As long as I was watched, my face would turn red and sweat, and I couldn’t sing on the stage... All the things I experienced suddenly disappeared. Can I really do this? How did I do it before? These thoughts surfaced, I was too nervous, and even tried to take a neuroleptic after going on stage When performing. Because I started (being an artist) when I was very young, people always said *younger, good job', but the age will grow slowly, so in the future, if you think of'younger' If this part is removed, can I still get the "good job" evaluation? It's really deep.

Thought about this problem carefully. But the smoother the business, the more I feel uneasy. I feel that bubbles have been created. If all these bubbles burst at a certain moment, when I condensed all these things, I am afraid that I only have this little bit. , In that year, I was really afraid of being like that. For me, I felt "too beautiful to be packaged?" In this case, "How many crimes I will redeem in the future."

Li Zhien of that year performed very well. She covered classic songs such as "Meaning of you", which was included in the album "Flower Bookmarks". Among them, "My Old story" Reached "Perfect All-kill" within days (six real-time charts, six daily charts, ichart real-time charts, and ichart weekly charts). The single "Zhaoge Cave" was released with good results, GENIE The real-time list broke seven times in a row, and the Melon real-time list broke four times in a row. However, popularity and praise turned into pressure, making her almost impossible to move. In 2014, Li Zhien even withdrew from some programs that were originally a regular host, such as "SBS Popular Songs".

Reveal the nature me

In order to overcome these emotions, she made up her mind to make songs by herself.

"Rather than live decently and uneasy, it is better to be pitiful but peaceful."

At the age of 22, she released her first album "Chat- Shire", which she had produced herself. She became Alice, in seven songs composed of seven songs. Shuttle through a story. It’s also because she was misunderstood by others on this album, and she confronted these malice in a restrained and empathetic way:

I don’t want to make the conclusion that “this is right, this is a misunderstanding” on the interpretation of the song, I feel that my freedom is very important. If you want to protect it, you should also protect the freedom of interpretation by others. I still like this song just like before the album came out.

At the age of 24, "Palette" was born. Now, looking back after three years, IU still thinks "Palette" is precious.

"Maybe if I choose a very thankful album in a long time, I will also choose "Palette". This album makes me more like myself and makes me understand myself better. It is a way of realizing the most natural self. The album revealed without any extra decorations and hidden purchases.”

The process of creation and production is not easy, but because I can express what I want to express, I still feel happy without regretting singing,

"It’s like sitting on an amusement ride. same". singer Lee Hyori said, if you want to know IU's true age, just listen to her songs. Li Zhien has the habit of keeping a diary, sometimes in the diary.Some part of it will become lyrics. She values ​​the expression of the lyrics. If it conflicts with the melody, then change the melody. Each capital in "Palette" is like a piece of Li Zhien's body, reflecting a certain part of her.

In the title song "Palette" Li Zhien sang: Now I seem to understand myself a little bit. Compared with long hair, I like neatly cut short hair, but when I say "Good Days", it is really beautiful. Because she often suffers from insomnia, she thinks that the best care for a person is to let the other person have a good sleep time, so there is "Night Letter": I have been in the sea, written on the beach, you It seemed to disappear completely into the distance, making me miss it more and more. Although I can't tell you all the words in my diary, the phrase "I love you". I will show the fireflies of that day to your window this night, hoping it will be a good dream. And "people" has also become the theme of this album, not only the narration of personal stories, but also "surrounding the people around us, as an ordinary person can say". "We will all have a lot of labels. We are women and entertainers, not focusing on a certain aspect, but as a person, not based on my profession or my gender, but just want to tell what I think and experience as a person. ."

IU once said in an interview. In that interview, the host met Li Zhien for the second time. After six years, he said: (the first interview) I didn’t directly tell IU how I felt, but I didn’t think I knew IU at the time. Is it because I didn't sleep well, I felt a sense of liveliness that I wanted to conceal my exhaustion. So what should I say at the time, I felt a little distressed after it was over. But compared to that time, it has really changed a lot now.

The career of an entertainer means the glamour in front of people, and it also means the other side of cruelty. A few years ago, the news of the death of young Korean artists always made people sigh. In 2018, the "32nd Golden Record Awards" was held in Ilsan, Gyeonggi Province. Li Ji-eun won the award in the music department.

She said thanks, luck, and sadness. "In fact, it is still very sad now. Why is it so painful? I seem to understand some. It is not a strange emotion to me. In addition to me, there are many people who are sad for this. But we all have to run for tomorrow and live a month from now. Distressed, we must prepare a plan for a whole year in advance.

Standing on the podium, facing so many artists and fans, Li Zhien continued:

"Laugh when you are happy, cry when you are sad, these are all natural things, so I hope everyone can accept them naturally. Although professionalism is very important, as a person, we must first face ourselves, face our own hearts, and hope that there will be no more painful things because we endure it alone. It would really be nice not to happen again.

"These words are like those of her songs. They convey a clear voice of self in a gentle tone, as well as gentleness and strength. Li Zhien is still moving forward. 2017 is better than the year when "Good Days" was released. In a year that made her even more happy, her self-produced album was loved by everyone. She participated in the variety show "Hyo Lee's Homestay". During the two weeks in Jeju Island, she often wore loose sweaters, stared in a daze, or read a book with chocolate .It was quiet in front of strangers, and always took time when doing things. Lee Hyori joked that she looked gloomy. In fact, those few days were rare times for her to sleep well, relaxed and happy.

In the music part, each song is filled with her unique emotions. Rather than using music as a product, she hopes to return to the music itself.

“Although I’m not sure whether all the works have a high degree of completion, there is one thing. I can confidently say that no piece of music is compromised because of trends. In any case, fans know me better than others, so I feel that kind of sincere words in music, regardless of style (subject), everyone will Accept that this is'IU brand' music.

When she couldn't go out because of the epidemic this year, she wrote songs, deleted songs, watched scripts, and watched TV every day. If you ask Li Zhien what her ideal life is like, she will respond like this:

"Because I am in a profession where people's reactions or comments to my actions are taken for granted, I often look at other people's colors when I was young. But from the age of 25 Realizing that “I’m me” is more important than “I am in the eyes of the public”. Many fans feel that being “I’m me” is more comfortable and more attractive than they think. This makes me very moved and surprised. I think The ideal life is to have a loyal life every day. The homework of this life is "I", I just want to be loyal to this."

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A few of The Earth 's Many Powerful Anti-Aging Foods

Research studies have been concentrating a great offer in current years on determining which kinds of foods have one of the most considerable anti-aging characteristics. One element which has actually helped this process has actually been the invention of the ORAC (Oxygen Radical Absorbing Capacity) score for food products. This sophisticated-sounding name just suggests to the total antioxidant degrees for a specific food and also it 's unexposed potential to soak up the various complimentary radicals which are liable for so muc cell damage as well as premature aging. Certain foods that we eat which have actually been selected as having a really high antioxidant consist of such items as black beans, strawberries, sweet potatoes, irish potatoes, pomegranates, most leafy environment-friendly veggies, pumpkins, zuchini, squash, cherries, raspberries, blackberries and also lots of various other kinds of berries. One berry that definitely sticks out from the rest is the goji berry, undoubtedly where goji juice is made. It 's Latin name is Lycium Barbarum or simply Lycium. Goji berries are so remarkable since to their balanced polysaccharide account. In fact, Dr. Earl Mindell, R.Ph., M.H., Ph.D (among the globe 's leading nutritional expert) claims that the Goji Berry is just one of our most powerful anti-aging foods that we have available to us. He likewise states that scientific research has actually proven that numerous of our earth 's lengthiest living individuals injest regular everyday servings of this reasonably little fruit which could actually be the most powerful food of it 's kind. Goji berries as well as therefore goji juice come from the ' Rooftop of the World ', the hills of western China where water and air high quality is at it 's most beautiful. Dr. Mendell, that is not only one of the greatest account nutritionists on the entire world but also the writer of some fifty-odd books concerning health and wellness & nourishment such as ' The Vitamin Scriptures for the 21st Century ', ' The New Herb Scriptures ', as well as ' Peak Efficiency ' to call simply a couple of has actually stated that The role of goji berries and also juice in the human body has actually been medically examined with strong results. After gathering goji berry examples from throughout the globe, Dr. mendell as well as his clinical personnel have used a spectroscopic analysis, which is essentially a molecular fingerprinting strategy, to pick the first-rate as well as most nutritionally rich wolf berries that have the greatest absorption prices in individuals. Some people ask yourself what does it cost? Goji Juice they should ingest daily, and Dr. Mendell has asserted that in between one to 3 ounces each day is perfect for most folks. The good news is, there are no well-known negative effects from drinking excessive goji juice. It is just all-natural to intend to restore out bodies with healthy food. Goji berries and also of program it 's juice is merely among the most respected anti-aging foods that we have offered to us on the planet today. As Rodney Collin was estimated as stating from ' The Concept of Conscious Harmony ':. " A physique was provided to us by Nature at our birth. Somewhere exists the original Divine spark introduced from God as well as which refound, will certainly be his aware spirit. ". On top of that, an old proverb goes something like this: ' The happiest of individuals do not always have the best of every little thing but they just take advantage of everything that comes to them. The brightest future will always be based upon a neglected past and you will certainly not relocate onward until you let go of your past failures in addition to sufferings.

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welcome to the webinar everyone so in this webinar we're going to talk about anti-aging I want to teach you so great things if to actually reverse aging process is it possible I think it is I've been working with a lot of people over the years and I found that they do get younger as they get healthier so the goal is to make you younger every year that you age so that would be cool um so um I'm gonna just go to some slides right now um let me just share my screen here make sure you can see everything ok so so here's the thing when we talk about anti-aging you know if you do research on the internet you're going to see there's a lot of information about just skin creams taking vitamins looking good on the outside using different facial scrubs in that type of thing but there's a lot more to anti-aging than just a superficial putting a cream on your face try to get rid of wrinkles so we're going to talk about two things one is how to look youthful as you get older but we're also going to talk about you know the heart of anti aging which is to postpone your life to prevent dying in early age we're going to talk about that because it makes no sense to you know try to look young why you get cancer and dropped it a heart attack so I'm going to cover both things today and I wanted to mention that one of the things that really emphasized is to increase a health reserve to build up kind of a health insurance reserve and there is a test that can be measured to look at the internal health reserve and I have one of my patients that we just today we're evaluating we're looking at her health reserve and trying to build that up and I just want to kind of show you this little graph here you can see there's a there's this taller dial in a small dial the tall dial should be straight up and down and the small dial should be all the way to the right so if the small dial goes to the left that that's indication that the person is losing their their kind of their recovery Reserve and I look at that as kind of like that the deeper health reserve this test just to keep it really simple without giving you a lot of big words is it's called heart rate variability it's a test that measures the data in between the heartbeats it measures how elastic the heart is it measures how the heartbeat varies from one beat to another and it's one of the best indicators of overall mortality from heart attacks so I don't use it for that but it will give a prediction on how healthy you are overall but also for the heart the reason I'm bringing this up is because it probably taken 10,000 of these graphs and there was only been one person that has ever had a perfect graph and he was 80 years old yeah and I'm like who is this guy he was walking down the street with his dog he falls in a hole hit knocks himself out he lays there for three hours knocked out unconscious wakes up his head's bleeding goes back home he has a stiff neck he sees me three days later his wounds are almost healed um he has a slight stiffness in his neck so he had a perfect perfect graph and I'm like who the heck is this guy so apparently when he was younger he took the Olympics in water polo and he's maintained his health ever since that so he could basically hold his breath three and a half minutes underwater at this point so out of all the things all the workouts all the sports events I would say that water polo is probably the most incredibly difficult I almost drowned right up through the sport in college with my roommate was into water polo he would just hold me underneath water until I let go of the ball he would anchor his foot into the drain pipe until I you know cooperated so it's an intense workout so in other words I'm trying to just let you know that it is possible to measure your health reserve and it is possible to improve it so let me go to the next slide here so I think we should probably start this whole webinar by isolating what are the top causes of death if you look it up this is ill they'll go ahead and tell young WebMD it's the heart disease cancer chronic respiratory accident stroke Alzheimer's diabetes influenza pneumonia nephritis that's kidney problems and then suicide so those are the top causes of death but they forgot to mention one big cause of death and that's probably the number one it is not probably it is the number one cause of death and that is conventional medicine now in the next slide you can look at the links because I'll send everyone needs a these PDF files but the point is that seven hundred seven hundred thousand people a year die of reactions to prescription drugs and necessary antibiotics unnecessary medical procedures hospitalizations so that actually ranks number one so I guess the therapy the best therapy is to avoid doctors if you want to live longer probably you know the question is how many people actually die the vitamins in 2010 not one person in 2004 there's three people who died of mega doses of vitamin D and vitamin E but I would in their synthetic and of course the one person died as a result of overdose with iron and fluoride but I don't consider fluoride a nutrient so there's been a huge push you know by certain people to pretty much make alternative care dangerous you know it's quackery it's scams but I personally think it's just a way to camouflage just like their own secrets or skeletons because the amount of medication Pumped in young children nowadays even psych drugs that are pushing and the soldiers there's 23 suicides every single day in the military and that's from the side effects and psychiatric medication so I wanted to just share a story by a client she told me today she can you tell us what happened you you basically went to the doctor and you wanted some help and you started to you had a whole list of problems because we're working with you but there's some other issues that you wanted to kind of evaluate can you just tell us a little bit about you walked in there and you saw the nurse and what what was the first thing that she said well um first I she asked me what I was there for so I said well I have a list of things and I had had some symptoms going on so I'd been keeping track of them and writing them all down and I started list listing them off to her and she looked at me like I was crazy and she said ma'am you're gonna need to pick the top two because she's not going to have time to to deal with all of those issues look I'm a little shocked like it's like when you go to a doctor you have a list of problems all those are connected yes suffer problems yes yes and that's what I tried to tell her I said no the doctors going to need to listen to me because these are all connected and I need her to to help me figure out what is going on so she left the room sort of hurriedly acting very like almost rude but when the doctor came in I did make her sit there and listen to me with every single one of my symptoms because they are all connected like you and I spoke today yeah and so so one of the things that what's lacking in in health care I mean look at this you got the top cause of death is over medicated patients unnecessary procedures with everything has become so specialized into um if you have a digestive problem you go to this doctor and er come problem you go over here but they're not looking at the whole picture I think even with you you had I think you had some history of panic attacks or something right yeah and they bet what do they what do they say about that um so I talked to her about that and told her that I have been having some panic attacks he basically said okay so here's a script for you to go to the psychiatrist and I didn't go to the psychiatrist and they said okay well here's some lorazepam or I don't remember what it was and you know um there wasn't any let's talk about why you're having panic attacks or what might be going on it was well here's this medicine go ahead and take it so it was very disheartening and frustrating yeah yeah I know it's um it's you want someone to listen to you to a by way to come up with some solutions um and then I think you eventually saw the doctor okay did he really what did he do did he say none okay so so as I went through my list of symptoms he she it was a woman she says okay so you're having um some panic attacks and and feeling like this so here's your referral to go to the see the psychiatrist and oh you're having hot flashes okay here's your referral to go to the gynecologist and oh you're having some joint pain here's your referral to oh in your hip and in your back so here's your referral to go get some x-rays done oh you're you're having constipation so take some fiber thing you know what I'm it just she was treating each one of the things as as a symptom as opposed to as opposed to looking at everything that was going on that's going on with me as a whole that there might be something happen um she just singled each of them out and sent me to other places and tried to treat each symptom individually yeah and that's why I wanted to do this webinar just to give you guys some real basic things I mean even one thing with you with your hip I did some muscle testing I found out I asked you a question I said do you cross your leg a lot on one side and yes you do yeah I mean you constitute and then that's the muscle that is weak because you keep crossing it and throws off the pelvis so um the some of these things are really really really um 'is obvious but the problem is those are the sometimes hardest to identify so I wanted to get through so I'm going to come back to that point but I want to just go through a couple things about the third leading cause of death since we're trying to live longer because I I kind of protest getting old I don't want to get old I know it's inevitable but I want to slow it down but it's important to kind of know what people die of that they're losing leading cause of death after heart disease and cancer is psychiatric medications I didn't even know that I looked that up and this is um in the cancer in USA and Europe over a half a million people die of either suicide or psychiatric medication that reactions to that I think that's why the drug companies are being sued by the billions so there's a lot of corruption going on with psychiatric drugs in the military all over the place and then you have this guy Stephen Barret Beret whatever his name is in quack watch which basically says he says most diseases have a little of nothing to do with diet it's not um and he goes into saying that it's most things are placebo you know don't take vitamins you know alternative practitioners oversimplify he says when they say that milling that's like rindy grain removes the B vitamins they don't bother to tell you the enrichment and back so you can see that here is a person who is very anti natural vitamins he's a psychiatrist which causes the third leading cause of death there's no it's just a joke so the philosophy that I wanted to teach you guys today is really going beyond the outside in and going the inside out working on the inside of your body if you want this the entire body to look youthful I think probably the one of the biggest in your seat industries out there is skincare and makeup and hair care and it's all just superficial you're just dealing with a layer of a very tiny layer on the outside of your body there is much better things to do to get the skin youthful prevent wrinkles and I'm going to cover what you need to do a better strategy would be to just really look at the quality of materials that you're putting in your mouth and your digesting I will say that certain parts of your body are replaced at different rates for example like your your skin cells sometimes you replace every four days the liver is replaced every three years so the red blood cells are replaced every four months the colon cells are replaced every three days so you're constantly replacing your cells and the question is what are you replacing them with I'm going to show you the best material to replace them with but there's one thing that doesn't rejuvenate or doesn't replace itself and that's the brain so once you kill off your brain cells you don't replace them they don't come back so what I want to do is I want to ask everyone who's on the webinar um a question what food and I'm going to just make this what is the food that gives us the highest nutrient value okay it's a category of foods and I want you to go ahead and I'm looking at your answers right now want you to take a well guess what category of food gives you the highest amount of nutrition out of all food categories I'm going to give you a second to answer that okay kale leafy greens vegetables kale veggies plants protein fats veggies protein okay well this is interesting because this is something that's kind of unknown um yeah berries no I always like that when you ask a column in I'll ask a question I'll say um okay does anyone know this and you know they're not going to know it so you just know that's not right so you're wrong you're wrong you're wrong so um what about you you have any idea what Leslie would what the highest nutrient food is on the planet that you can get all of your nutrition I should know this ah I'm thinking um I'm thinking yeah I don't know why but I could be wrong all right let me I mean I'm eating all the things on the side everybody's saying good stuff yeah oh sure the one that one thing I'm not sure what the one thing with me um okay so now I'm going to tell you um it is I thought I had slide on it but I don't organ meats oregon means up then yeah liver heart brains kidneys for it personally um I can't eat those foods I just I just can't eat them I think I was as a child that was forced to eat liver and I just can't eat it I don't know I have a hard time eating brains and kidneys but I'm just letting you know those foods I know a lot of them are toxic because of the animal feeds but I'm just telling you as far as the nutrients that are in those foods like it's it's really hard to find one food that has all the nutrients but there is one food that has all the and that would be the organ meats so if you like liver and you have an organic or free-range you know animal and you consume that it's not you will get a lot of nutrition especially like iron and there is one type of nutrient types of vitamin e treants that are better for looking young young than others and that would be the fat soluble vitamins and that would be like vitamin A D e K those vitamins yes they're in vegetables but they're actually in vegetables they're pre vitamins so in other words they have to convert into the active form and you have to have a good digestive system to consume that so you may if you're lucky convert about 5% of those true fats and vitamins to help division to the skin even vitamin A for your skin if you don't have vitamin A you actually dry out your skin you and you actually look older going on a low-fat diet is very very bad for anti-aging so let's go into some of the the foods or the nutrients that will help you stay younger or look younger the first thing I want to talk about is foods for college and support whisk collagen collagen is like the glue that holds the body together it's the UM it's in the joints it's in the skin if you lose collagen your skin gets thin and it sags and you get wrinkles and you look older so you can consume the collagen itself or bone broth or grass-fed animal products but you also need trace minerals to actually utilize that collagen you also need vitamin C to use the collagen so I wanted to show you something this is a grass-fed collagen that I got online Great Lakes gelatin I mean it's it's good if you have like a lot of joint problems arthritis and you don't consume a lot of animal products especially grass-fed that would be something you can try and but I found that most people are not really deficient in collagen it's not something that are not eating that's not why they're losing your collagen I'll get to the why but the point is that it's not a bad supplement to take but just by taking this doesn't is does not mean your skin's going to look youthful you need several things to to make that work um the big thing is trace minerals as trace minerals are not in the soils I've done seminars on trace minerals use a version I use trace minerals it's a plant-based it's not sea salt plant-based minerals have our fifty fifteen thousand times smaller than regular minerals so they it go in like a rocket ship so you need the minerals you also need the vitamin C complexes and I I wanted to show you a food that's very high in vitamin C but I want to first find out I'm going to ask you what foods are high in vitamin C what are the top three foods that are the highest in vitamin C let's see who can get that one right okay people are saying camu camu yeah that's a great citrus carrots broccoli kale spinach so you guys you you guys are doing pretty good on that one so I think you got that one down there the three foods at the highest in vitamin C which would be number one up ayah number two Kiwi and number three peppers now these are not from the grocery store these are from the farmers market these are freaking amazing peppers they're crunchy there's they're loaded with vitamin C and vitamin C you got to be careful about vitamin C because most of it is synthetic and I'm talking about ascorbic acid if you buy Ottoman C and it has over 100 milligrams of ascorbic acid it's just synthetic they make ascorbic acid from corn starch which has no vitamin C in sulfuric acid and you take this stuff you're not getting any / C complex it's not going to help your collagen if you do something like this you're going to get the complete complex because in the complete version of vitamin C you have enzymes a copper enzyme called tyrosinase you have the J factor the bioflavonoids the route ins all the different great complexes provided and C to help build collagen and organic copper it's a mineral in that thing and so it's and by the way a lot of the drought the vitamin C is stored in your adrenal glands so the dream glands are tired you won't have enough vitamin C to use that and the other thing is that when you take vitamin C in high dosages and synthetic versions it will create deficiencies of the other factors about and C causing spider veins and I'm going to talk more about this in the next seminar but Linus Pauling recommend large dose of vitamin C notice he has these spider veins around his nose that's a vitamin C deficiency because one of the side effects of scurvy is micro hemorrhaging of the capillary blood beds and so the scoop the bleeding gums the spongy gums that you have when you brush your teeth that's a vitamin C deficiency so and also fatigue is a vitamin C deficiency but also the arteries the arteries can in high-pressure areas have a micro hemorrhage hemorrhage and so the body puts a bandaid on it called cholesterol and calcium plaquing and that's what makes the clogged artery but the first thing that happens is the micro damaged hemorrhage from the vitamin-c complex deficiency so those are some vitamin C things that you can look at and especially for your skin I mean you need that collagen so now I'm going to go back to my slide if I can do a screen share let me see here okay so we have collagen bone broth if you took an org let's say some bones from and um let's a cow or something and it was grass-fed and you were to cook it over a day or two and make some bone broth and there's a great recipe that would not be a bad idea to drink that stuff it's really good for collagen especially if you want really strong nails and hair um I can actually if I can either use trace minerals to make hair stop falling out or sometimes collagen or the combination of both but because trace minerals also help the collagen form correctly so the combination is very very important especially for a hair loss so the most important thing to do is to make sure that your animal meats are grass-fed and I'm going to show you I use them like here's an example I do a lot of beef myself this is grass-fed um and the reason why I do grass-fed is because it has loaded with vitamin k2 if you've seen any of my videos you basically know about k2 it's going to be the next super vitamin it improves elasticity of the arteries it decreases blood pressure it gets calcium out of the joints it's quite amazing and of course we have the grass-fed Kerrygold butter that's vitamin K it's loaded with vitamin A and of course I'm showing all my food here um these are my eggs from the farmers market from a farmer that basically I have a video I'm going to put a video of this farmer because he has these cages in the grass field in the clover fields and they're like the human lawn mower they will eat all this grass and then he rotates them I mean talk about a pasture raised grass-fed chicken I mean those things are those eggs it's hard to even break the shell it's silt loaded with calcium so it's quite amazing um there's a couple questions I want to just go right to the questions um said the webinar keeps cutting out nope no worries I'm going to record this and I'll send you the link right when I get done what about fermented cabbage I love it I think that's a great idea and vitamin I mean cabbage is is really huge in vitamin C and it has a complete complex can spider veins be repaired by taking proper amounts of vitamin C well I wouldn't worry about the amounts I would worry about the type of vitamin C that you consume and yes it can be reversed if you have the whole complex just make sure you do not consume ascorbic acid um let's see what else grapefruit has some vitamin C but it's a bit too sweet if you're trying to lose weight I always have to talk about that because fruit tends to slow down weight loss okay good what what if you have autoimmune and can't do nitrates well then you can use the you know there's camu camu is a great vitamin c complex you can do that there's a lot of other things that you can do other than nitrates not a problem okay so there's three things for collagen support one is you need you possibly might need collagen you might need trace minerals and you you might need to support your your stomach because if your stomach has um if you have like acid reflux or you have bloating or burping and you don't have enough acid that could be the reason why you can't digest protein and collagen is your stomach has to be really really acid to to trigger those enzymes in the stomach to break down collagen so as you get older especially during menopause you lose your stomach acids so if I were trying to improve my collagen and I was female and I was menopausal the first thing I would do before anything is I would make sure that I correct on that digestive stomach pH so if I had like indigestion or s reflux or heartburn that means that I would have to add more acid to that stomach to correct it so the valve gets closed called betaine hydrochloride so if you're listening now and you have any digestive issues at all take some betaine hydrochloride maybe three with a meal get it from the help of store and then within a week or two watch what happens to your hair nails and skin it will improve because you'll start absorbing more of the collagen from the food you're already eating so we just have to look at those factors the next thing I want to talk about is very important and this is for those people that want to change the not just their health but the looking youthful and that would be the fat soluble vitamins and all the oils you don't want to go crazy you have to be able to digest them you need to have a good gallbladder to digest them but the point is that when people are pushing the low fat stuff that's when you start looking older you want to look at the shelf and get whole fat not low fat anything so if you're going to do some yogurt you know make sure it's whole fat of course you go watch out for the sugars and yogurt nowadays um so there's not a problem using the butter it's good for the skin because it contains vitamin A so the first item I'm going to talk about is vitamin A and that is in egg yolks grass-fed butter shrimp cheese sardines to nuts and fish it's in all the fatty stuff I'll show you something here um I'm going to show oh yeah cheese I'm from Wisconsin so I love cheese and of course Kerrygold here we go Kerry gold butter Kerry gold cheese this is my favorite cheese right here it's at BJ's in Costco now I can't believe it it's all grass-fed here's another grass-fed cheese from Trader Joe's I do a lot of cheese that has the vitamin K it has a vitamin A even even some vitamin D those are fat soluble vitamins that you need for your skin for your hair to prevent wrinkles so those are things that will really really help you and take them from the inside don't rub the butter on the outside of your skin that's not going to do it I used to crave butter as a kid I used to eat it of course I had no idea why now I know why I was deficient in vitamin A hmm so so vitamin A it's in these fattier type things that you were told to avoid mm-hmm so the other thing you can do is up coconut oil you can cook with it you can eat it fish oils the best fish oil that you can have is either krill or cod liver oil yes your grandmother was correct cod liver oil has a wonderful blend of vitamin A and vitamin D so don't I mean just I would start consuming just you don't need a lot of it you just need a little bit of it okay now let's talk about vitamin E why is vitamin E important you've heard vitamin E for scarring for skin health for sex hormones vitamin E is a precursor for hormones and it's stored in the pituitary when women go through menopause they don't use their ovaries very much anymore so they're not going to baby so what happens is that that dynamic that pituitary release every month is no longer it no longer has to work as hard so the vitamin E reserve tends to dry up in a lot of women and I find they end up with a vitamin E deficiency and they start getting unnecessary wrinkles so I fire you what I would do is I would don't be afraid to start consuming some of these fats but the foods that are highest in vitamin E are almonds other nuts sunflower seeds very high but they have to be raw sunflower seeds because when you cook them and you roast them you destroy the vitamin E because vitamin E is very sensitive to oxygen and heat okay fatty your fish like halibut salmon shrimp sardines lobster um and it's also in the leafy greens the spinach chard kale some eggs it's an avocado so it's an olives so those are just some some common things course vitamin D is the Sun fish oils eggs cheese um but other than that let's say you're not eating any officials or eggs or cheese because you're in a low-fat diet you don't get much Sun and you're going to low vitamin D levels vitamin D is necessary for the aging anti-aging process okay so what I'm going to do now is I just want to double check just to make sure that there's I'm answering any questions so someone says they love sardines cow's milk allergy well if you have if you're allergic to you know milk not a problem I've given you a list of other things you consume as well dandelion greens for vitamin A yeah well the the problem is the plant sources provide them an a they're all pre vitamin A so you're only going to absorb five percent and that is the challenge that we do if now I consume a lot of yes kale okay I eat kale I cut it chop it up my salad so that's loaded with vitamin pre vitamin A but it's C the cruciferous vegetables have other nutrients we'll get into that but the point is that you need to be eating them but you're not going to be getting the majority of your vitamin A from leafy greens because you only absorb 5% yeah I'm sorry okay let me just check these questions right here um you say BJ's has good caracal yes BJ's does carry the Kerrygold in bulk so yes tuna is is fine I know there's some problems with mercury um but I think there's certain time I'm actually going to do a video on tuna because there's certain types of tuna that are actually good and some tuna that it's not good I'm going to do a complete video because I don't want to get into a side thing on that right now fermented cod liver oil is the best and you can get that online you can get it from Amazon I do take that it's pretty good um I was given cod liver oil when I was a kid lasted until Easter yeah it's really good stuff um I found I sweat really bad with out my vitamin D interesting graying of the hair mostly after exercise well that's a stress see one of the things that we'll get into next is stress so I'll talk about that then can you get enough vitamin D from foods you need supplement that's a very good question I think you can maintain your body with just with vitamin k2 foods but if you have high blood pressure stiffness you have tartar on the teeth soft tissue calcium you have arthritis or types of joint problems then you're going to have to take extra and then once you get rid of that you can then maintain it after that so it is possible but not as a maintain maintaining thing okay now I'm going to show you something see if I can pop back over here now the accelerated aging of cortisol the hormone cortisol here's a new word that I want to teach you is called catabolism catabolism what does that mean catabolism catabolism is a breakdown of things it's something that breaks down in the body your body naturally uses the hormone cortisol to break down tissue but with the adrenal stress hormone being activated what happens is you get too much breakdown and not enough build up so you get this overall catabolic effect that means a breakdown effect on the on the muscles specifically your thigh muscles in the quad group so when you get up from a seated position or from a chair it might be difficult to mount this time to get up also the skin is very thin and almost paper like and I'll see that with people I'll look at their skin you can just see it's like very very very thin that's that's the problem of excessive cortisol with stress and you're losing your collagen you also have a disappearance of the elastic fibers and that's why your joints it's so brittle all the time as you age and that's just one of the effects of of course now I did a whole seminar on cortisol that was the last seminar I did and I talked about stress and if you did not see that webinar go ahead and watch it but I will give you some tips on stress right now because I would say one of the biggest things that ages people is stress specifically losses loss of a person loved one loss of a job loss of a marriage threat of loss financial threat of loss bad economy all that will add stress and so you do have to constantly work on reducing corners so there's a couple nutritional things that I recommend for cortisol I do recommend the adrenal day formula because it has a natural b1 and there that does not it's from nutritional use but it doesn't give you a yeast infection like some of the nutritional yeast out there and it's not synthetic like a lot of the nutritional yeast are enriched with synthetic so if you did um a that product and you take the that natural b1 with all the other things in it it'll tend to pull a lot of stress out your body you feel very very calm and chilled out so b1 is necessary to rid stress from your body and you'll feel a difference how do you know if you have a b1 deficiency there's a couple ways number one you feel a lot of nervous tension in your body you just like you can't relax you have a low tolerance to stress you have a Deema and swelling yes a demon swelling is that b1 deficiency many times as well you have nightmares where very vivid dreams so if you have any of those we know it's a it's a b1 deficiency and stress will cause that another thing you can do is get space go up for long walks because stress tends to inhibit your space and you get it's like you need to get outside and just get some space because that calms the adrenal gland down you're just a picture of how proteins and different things can break down fat can break down sugars can break down call it catabolism and just a breakdown okay we're shifting gears now to cancer control because one of the things that um which is a process is dying early from cancer I mean there are people all around me that are dropping dead with cancer patients patients relatives family members so it is a problem and there are things that we can do to reduce the risk of cancer and I want to talk about that um let's first define what cancer is cancer is a cell that is out of control it's it's duplicating at a very fast rate and the question is why there's a mechanism a machine in your body that is constantly keeping these extra cells that are radically growing out of proportion in check so there's a there's another word I'm going to teach you it's called apoptosis apoptosis and that that's basically controlled cell death your body is killing between 50 and 70 billion cells every single day which they need to do that because they need to clean out all these you know mutated cells the cells that we need to get rid of so we can replace with the new cells so for an average trial between the ages of 8 and 14 about 20 billion to 30 billion cells die a day so that's called apoptosis so now if we have if we're getting cancer we want apoptosis to work correctly to kill that cancer so apoptosis is a mechanism that's an important defense against cancer okay so that's the foundation I want to talk about so there's certain things that dis destroy this mechanism in block the your body's ability to kill off these cells and there's certain things that do it and this slide is out of order it's called endocrine disruptors so I want to just touch on this for a second what's an endocrine disruptor an endocrine disruptor is any chemical in the body pesticide herbicides fungicides insecticides heavy metals country-and-western just wanna see if you guys are awake that was a joke that was a dry sense of humor heavy metals country-western was a bad joke okay so endocrine disruptors are any chemicals in environment that alter your genes and cause disease there's these I have this book it's about three inches thick it's called the modern text toxicology's the basically the textbook of poisons okay the study of poisons and what poisons do with it to the body we are bathed in so many chemicals it's it's insane from walking out in the yard to our food to the air we're just bathed in all these chemicals I mean there's over four billion pounds of toxic chemicals releasing into our environment every single year that's 72 million pounds of recognized carcinogens which actually cause cancer so our bodies are constantly hit with these endocrine disruptors okay well guess what these endocrine disruptors mess up the normal process of your body controlling cancer so you may have known that already but I'm just refreshing your your mind I'm just touching right now I want to see if there's any questions real fast because oh yeah someone mentioned des diethylstilbestrol here's a there's a tongue twister diethylstilbestrol was used in the 50s from morning sickness I think over like millions of women were exposed to it and it caused problems not just in the offspring but in the third generation it it really destroyed our bodies and they did not test the long-term effects of that very very similarly to what they're doing now with the GMO foods so they made a lot of money and then now they banned it okay that's des so des is called endocrine disruptor destroys your how your hormones okay so now this really amazing car called the cytochrome p450 now I'm just this is another bad joke but it sounds like a car doesn't at p450 now a cytochrome p450 is an enzyme that has incredible capacities to turn those endocrine disrupters those poisons into harmless particles yeah so cytochrome p450 enzymes are these special enzymes in your liver and they're in different cells in your body that can break down thousands of chemicals toxins drugs and poisons and they basically just turn them into water-soluble particles that can go through the urine and it just so happens that the cruciferous vegetables increase your livers ability to make this enzyme that's really cool so here it is right here insecticides pesticides going to the liver and your liver if you're eating the right foods will basically dismantle those chemicals so your liver is like robust but if you have a fatty liver or it's a liver that's a bad liver from some type of virus or something then what's going to happen is that you're not going to get that breakdown how do you know if you have a fatty liver um a lot of people have it and they don't know it one of the biggest clues is your stomach being too big and that's causing visceral fat around the organs and especially the liver I sent five of my patients to the radiologist to get an ultrasound of the liver and they all have guts in five hundred a fatty liver so when you lose the capacity for liver you can't detoxify as well and you get a lot more toxicity and what do you have to do if you have that condition you have to basically start consuming a lot of cruciferous and avoid the junk you need to get the junk out of the trunk all right so if someone check the questions here dr. Berg isn't it more of a function of minerals actually being in the soil before you can assume that they're part of the plant in a plant or an animal that is eat it yes well that's why I really want to consume grass-fed animal products because our soils are so bad now that we need to and that you feed these animals corn and soy they're not getting a nutrition from that at all and it's all genetically modified so at least if it's grass it doesn't it's not genetically modified if you have a lot more nutrition in the grass especially like clover okay okay let's go back to the slides here okay at the liver very important with with your skin if you really work on your liver and you start consuming a lot more of these cruciferous vegetables your skin will start to change and you'll start looking better and better and better especially with acne and dry skin and youthful skin I mean the liver is really the hub of all the digestion of of your amino acids your proteins so we're going to talk about cruciferous for a second let me just fix the slide here cruciferous what does this moot word mean Chris crus which means cross it's basically certain plants that have these little crosses in them okay and here's some examples of cruciferous radishes Brussels sprouts kale cabbage bok choy and Swiss chard mustard greens arugula now I have some other vegetables in here too but I wanted just to mention the cruciferous family and this is this brings me to the next topic which is going to call um which is a different type of nutrient we talked about the fat soluble vitamins but we now we need to talk about the other nutrient that will not just help your skin and all that but it will help postpone your life cruciferous was studied by the World Health Organization and it was found to create some serious anti-aging effects and anti-cancer effects on your body each type of food is thoroughly tested to decrease the risk factors of many different types of cancer so one type of cruciferous will maybe handle like several type of cancers another one will handle a different other ones garlic is probably the top of the list that probably will that's like the most anti-cancer properties these are two different types of kale tumeric is a an amazing final nutrient it has phytonutrients I'm sorry turmeric is kind of a root that has phytonutrients so the category of nutrients that we want to talk about next is called phytonutrients plant chemicals these are different than vitamins and minerals and amino acids they basically are natural plant chemicals that have extra health factors or properties so they're there like they'll actually help with macular degeneration prostate cancer many disease states and so the question is why are not what why are we eating these foods I mean very few people consume these foods here's some good ones parsley cabbage and seek help seek help is great for minerals and iodine um but these are the foods that I consume on a regular basses if you don't consume them you need to start doing it for your liver and your skin will start to change as well even though these do not contain a lot of the fat soluble vitamins they do contain a lot of the phytonutrients which there are anti-cancer and again the GMO foods genetically modified foods are basically spreading all over the world right now and the two big ones are corn and soy and the animals that are consuming these are getting all sorts of inflammatory conditions and even the the pets that you have like even the dogs and the cats if you talk to a vet on these animals that come in with arthritis heart disease diabetes and inflammation in the gut it's because they're consuming GMO food when you just simply change the food not on GMO these things clear up but 90% of all the GMO corn and soy go to animal feeds that's pretty sad so in the grocery store that so-called natural chicken that you have from Purdue it's all GML unless it says organic it's GML now what does GMO GMO is genetically modified organisms and what they do is they they actually have them resistant to the herbicide called Roundup Ready and so you can spray more the Roundup Ready on these crops and so you bet they do that and it's around already the chemical name is called glyphosate and glyphosate is um pretty nasty stuff but of course they say it's safe so I think it might be okay um there's this French researcher by the way that was just a sarcasm um sometimes people don't get my dry humor I don't think they're safe but there's this French researcher who did studies animal studies and glyphosate and he found some serious problems with glyphosate and I'm on a semi I'm going to send you the link to it says that GMO and glyphosate causes tumors liver and any damage and rats within a week a smear campaign was mounted by the biotechnology industry with scientists primarily plant biologists and not toxicologists and they basically forced this study to be extracted from some of these journals so here the study comes out saying that GMO is bad and then it instantly was retracted not because they didn't find a cancer link but their reasoning was it was inconclusive because the type of rats used were prone to tumors so now here's the thing if they can do that you know that how they're so powerful they are so powerful so um I mean you can this is totally political so the point is that you know the GMO food is pretty bad if you look at from 1990 to 2012 you can see how many millions of pounds of glyphosate is being put or GMO plants are being created and you can see corns going up soybeans is going up wheat actually some of the wheat is genetically modified cotton uh certain vegetables and fruit rice grapes alfalfa pasture and hay other crops oh my gosh it's just kind of going up it's just crazy so what happens is these chemicals GMO foods herbicides they can mimic hormones and they go into your glands that die right the ovary and it can go into the breasts the uterus and cause cancer so if you take a look at like they always say that disease is so mysterious and it no one knows what causes this take a look at any of the toxicology books they will list all the diseases and tell you what pesticide or chemical causes this illness or this cancer and they don't really like you said Leslie they they do not connect the dots they don't Connect toxicology with cancer and natural things everything is like their own Island and so it's very obvious to me that all these things that are related to the toxins and we we don't actually we're not making the connection there of course we have psychiatrists like Stephen Barret without beret whatever his name is pushing out there that oh no that's fine just keep eating the stuff I was a released a video I was on sports talk live and I had a dietitian and her husband was an MD get on the air and give me a hard time about the whole water meth so you can watch it on my website but um it was ridiculous there's like oh yeah the tap water's fine it has minerals to keep drinking it everyone's dehydrated I'm like yeah okay alright so you just see the next slag here okay be the hormones like estrogen from the environment and all these endocrine disrupters act like estrogen in the environment they actually block the thyroid function so endocrine disrupters basically are chemicals that mimic estrogen and that's why females it way way too many cancers in the in the areas that they have receptors for estrogen which are breast uterus and even the thyroid african-american women have a lot more receptors for estrogen which gives them a different shape and that's one of the reasons why even African American women are getting more cancers than other cultures because of the estrogen so you really need to increase your cruciferous make sure you do consume things that are you know make sure they're organic hormone-free because it's going to create a problem sooner or later so I just wanted to put this slide up I had it created you can see if you go down the grocery store you see these incredible I delicious cookies and doughnuts and breads it's all the same ingredients I purchased corn syrup hydrogenated oils chemicals high-fructose corn syrup artificial flavoring it's all the same thing pretty sad so phytonutrients those are plant-based chemicals that have all these really amazing properties and all these different plant chemicals that do many things like even vitamin A for example vitamin A is not a single vitamin it's a whole bunch of complexes like there's over 600 parts of vitamin A so if you take a synthetic vitamin A you are not even getting close to what you should get that's what I'm very much against synthetics so cruciferous vegetables help protect the cells from DNA damage they help inactivate carcinogens they're antiviral antibacterial anti-inflammatory I mean they create all these wonderful benefits now I'm going to check check the questions here what do you think of wild yam well if you um have a problem with hot flashes with menopause I think that would be something you should take because that will it's a natural source of it's called phyto estrogens which are actually will help you there's some other ones to call the clover leaf that's actually very good as well um let's see okay how much difference will it take to take a cruciferous supplement um here's the thing it's always best to consume the food but it is hard to get that so what I'm going to show you is a the cruciferous product that a lot of you are already taking right now and of course you probably have not been taking because I've been out of it since March but I wanted to explain kind of a combination of ingredients that I'm not even I'm just but I'm not even showing this image here okay so you can see right here there's a product that I I created it's called the Creuset organic cruciferous food and it has organic beetroot Brussels sprouts collard green organic asparagus organic kale organic parsley and parsley is probably even has more vitamin of vitamins and kale and then we have organic red radish cabbage garlic and tamarick so those are all the things that I personally think are the the superfoods and I put them in in one combination was 250 tablets in this and this is something that is convenient if you don't have all the different variety of nutrients because it is hard to get all these nutrients so like it has all these these products in there has seek help because some people we go because oh my gosh is there's cruciferous it's going to cause a deficiency of iodine for my thyroid I'm gonna get a quarter no you're not I put the sea kelp in there so it's a really awesome product and and in these webinars I always get people at discount if you wanted to get some cruciferous um the bottle is 250 capsules and here's I have some good news and some bad news what do you want to hear at first the bad news or the good news let me see what you guys say there's a delay in this thing okay Leslie us you want the good news or the bad news um bad news look at good news okay good the good news is that I'm giving you a discount on this product $10 off and here's the coupon code and here's the link and the good news is that it's fun it's almost in News is not in yet it's in tomorrow morning's coming tomorrow morning so but the good news it's almost in and I've had people wait since March for this product because because here's the problem I ran into um it is almost impossible to find a local farmer or something United States that has the soils that I want to get these products unless you go to China or you go to some other country I don't I don't do that so it's taken us forever and so what will happen this is March March March April May June July August is it August or September September ok that's seven months I haven't had this product I'm getting it tomorrow morning it's coming tomorrow morning Percy so what happened is I would get it would have like one ingredient tested would be it would have too much lead in it and like I can't do that and next one I have like too much I don't know another mineral that we don't want in there that's toxic or something like that so we had the thoroughly test every single ingredient and make sure that it's all really really high quality from the exact farms that I wanted it from so it's finally done so the good news it's almost here the bad news is not quite here and so um there's some more bad news which I'm going to tell you right now the other bad news is that um the cost of this product went up severely so I have to increase it a little bit more so that going to be five dollars more but the good news is if you wanted to get the product at the lowest fee you can actually buy as many of these as you want with on this on this webinar so that's the good news so you don't have to pay the big raphy if you don't want so you can get some reserve if you want the only catch-22 is that I only want you to order this tomorrow morning not tonight because I do not want to sell you is product unless I am 100 percent sure it's available yeah even though I'm tracking I'm tracking the guy who's like pulling up in my offices I know what state he's in he's going to be showing it tomorrow but until it shows up I'm not going to take I'm not going to take the block off my website so no there was no one can really buy it until I actually have it in hand so if you wanted to check in early the morning in an infant actually everything works then it's in if it doesn't work then you know it's not in yet so I just want to let you know that I've been really behind the scenes trying to get this thing out for a long time so so the good news is I'll have it in tomorrow is a 99.99% chance and the bad news is it's a little bit more expensive but the good news is you don't have to pay that because I'm giving you a discount so anyway this is a good product to take for your liver it's the best anti-aging because it fortifies the inside of the body and it also protects against a lot of different types of conditions that people are at risk just from the pollution in the environment so so now what I want to do is I want to give you a link and a code coupon code you can just highlight that coupon code and just yeah just save it for tomorrow and you can go to my website and get a discount you get as many as you want I I will be increasing lean the prices already increase but if you use that discount which is going to be good for the next three days I know it says the offer ends in one hour but that's not true because I don't even have the product in so no worries on that okay now if you are watching this as a webinar replay just realize I already have it in okay because I'll have it in by tomorrow for sure um someone says can I piggyback on auto-ship order with my wheatgrass juice yes I think you could do that but you may want to call my office with that how long is to keep an offer for the next three days how long is the shelf-life the shelf-life is is good for a year but I think it's actually longer than that but we we tell people a year at the because we're being very conservative mm-hmm someone says don't go to commercial I'm not I'm not going to commercial don't worry I'm just good people asking me I'm giving them a discount um can you provide the price of the hoaxers food yeah the price was thirty thirty 4.95 now it's 39.95 but there's two hundred and fifty capsules in there um but the problem is that the the price trying to get these ingredients is off the charts even if you go look for a cruciferous product it's hard to find um all these cruciferous and you may find them like in like broccoli or something like that but it's only like 90 pills and it's probably it's going to be the same it's like thirty dollars it's the same thing so it's it is a good a good program with with the quantity that you're getting into quality as well if you shift candidate yes do they lose any vitamins when they are processed um well you're not going to lose that much with the processing but if you keep them in the heat they keep it open you may even want to keep in the fridge to have them last a lot longer what is the dosage how many pills per day it depends if you want to make maintenance dose I would take three but if you want to correct something you want to take six personally this is just my own opinion if I had cancer I would take 15 a day Wow I've had a lot of people that just take them for weight loss but that's just because it improves the the the fat release on the liver and it allows the liver to function better which is really connected to actually a thyroid being working better but so it doesn't actually burn fat by itself um what if you have a thyroid problem well we have seek help in there so you have the I then that's not going to be a problem is it safe to take if you're pregnant absolutely because there's there's nothing else but those ingredients can I give it to my toddler depends if he's like 1 or older just give them maybe one a day but of course if it's a baby you're not going to give him that unless he can swallow capsules yeah so so anyway I covered a lot of data a lot of information I'm going to send everyone a link to all these slides because I have a lot of references that you can see and I will send it out probably a little bit later on probably in the middle of a night you'll go go to you and that way you can see the webinar I mean all the slides and I'll send you the webinar replay too if you want that but I want you to apply some of the information that I shared tonight and I want to thank Leslie for being onto sharing her story of the wonderful example of trying to get some help of treating one person at our once condition and time so thank thank you very much next Tuesday we're going to do another seminar and this one's going to be on energy and it's going to be really awesome I'm going to cover the topic on insulin very heavily you need to what you need to see that if you have any insulin problems and even eat if you don't if you if you are fatigued you need to come to this webinar as well um so I'll show you some techniques as well I'm going to show you an acupressure technique that will literally increase your energy yeah so I'm demonstrate it right in my office right here and then you could do it on your friends and family just don't mention my name now I'm fine you can you can do that so I want to thank you guys for showing up tonight I and I will see you next and the next webinar so I'll send you a link on that too and I will have someone reply to a lot of your questions because some people are having specific questions about this and that so I'll try to answer those or go to my blog but I want to say thank you and have a great evening thanks Lesley we'll see you next time thank you you're welcome