#I will never be crushin' it. I will never be able to hustle and be career oriented and Succeed. | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

imwritesometimes · 1 year ago

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I get so tired of feeling like shit for giving myself "break" days and even weeks at this point. I'm tired of feeling like shit for giving myself a little buffer time after a really bad episode when I know if I didn't I'd end up back in a hospital but I feel lazy for not pushing myself all the fckn time 😞

#this year has been. personally. really fuckin unbearable. and I'm just like totally and completely burned out. and it's only August.#but I feel totally done. just totally and completely done. and I hate that admitting #hey getting out of bed and taking care of the cats and cooking dinner in the evening IS giving 100% rn #makes me feel like a fuckin goddamn loser #I will never be crushin' it. I will never be able to hustle and be career oriented and Succeed.#I'm always just gonna be kinda meh. and it's like I'm fine with that and also not. I feel like such a loser.#but also I *do* kinda want to be alive still. so. 🤷‍♀️. accept the mediocrity.#erin explains it all #this is probably #delete later

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