#I think people really don't understand the repercussions Ran has to go through if she actually finds out

[etude-in-citrine]

It's not really she'll gossip but it's more of her actions. I have a ton to say about telling Ran about Conan=Shinichi and confirming it but to keep things short, I think even if Ran might not actually tell anyone if she finds out, but she might unconsciously show it in her actions that can give it away. Because that's her childhood friend who she was stuck with for years end. There's no way it wouldn't bleed out and spell out to others why she's acting differently to Conan from the before and after knowing that's Shinichi.

kinda fucked that the reason to not tell Ran transformed from protecting her to "she's a fucking gossip don't tell her anything"

[mewtwoandme]

I mean I don't think Mewtwo is unjustified at all. I'd have a hard time forgiving and being nice to someone too if they tried to hurt my friend and beat me to a pulp. Even if Newtwo has a really tragic backstory with humans it doesn't entirely justify how she acted either. The only thing I think he's being a dick about is how he's treating Mew tbh

I keep seeing this fight going on in the comments here and there about who's actions are more justified based on what they went through...Let me clear this up. In truth, all 3 of them are in the wrong here.

None of them handled or is currently handling things the right way. None of them are more right or more wrong than the other in this situation.

Mew just straight up ran away because she didn't want to deal with the repercussions of her mistake keeping the truth from Mewtwo. Which is a very child-like thing to do when faced with a problem.

Newtwo disowned Mewtwo basically because she didn't agree with his lifestyle and his choice of companions and because his views didn't match up with hers.

And Mewtwo, even though his anger towards both of them is understandable, his lingering dickish attitude and grudge he's gonna hold is not good on his part either, he'll be an ass just for spite.

People are even getting upset at Lakota for "taking Newtwo's side" in this, when all she's trying to do is give Newtwo an opportunity. She can tell something has changed with Newtwo, given how Newt clearly stated what she thought of humans last time they met, Newtwo saving Amber AND herself just then, her change in behavior, the sudden docileness she had as Mewtwo started going off on her, all that was not lost on Lakota, she noticed. It's not "toxic positivity" as some have said. Lakota had her own experience with Newtwo when they met, Lakota is just handling it in her own way. She's not the type of person who holds grudges like Mewtwo, she's more open to giving others second chances, especially if the other person is showing effort to be better like Newtwo is. In the comic, Mewtwo's stubbornness and grudge clashes with Lakota's own actions and points of view.

[baekhyunja]

It's been such a long time- it may even have been years since I've lasted posted something on my Tumblr. Mostly because I only use it on mobile, never tag anything, never make friends with anyone, and had neglected how my page looked like on web or whatsoever.

But today I wanted to make an exception. It's been five days since Sulli had passed away. An angel gone too soon, she might have not been an angel to you, but she was to me personally.

When I first heard the news, I almost laughed. I was in a state of disbelief, my blood ran cold- shit didn't make sense. I was just fawning over her Instagram posts a few days ago. I just read a netizenbuzz article on her getting bashed for practically breathing a few days ago.

I guess that's the thing about celebrity deaths. Since you're so inherently disconnected with them as a real, breathing human being separate from the pedestal you've set them upon, it becomes impossible to understand that they could cease to exist. Death doesn't seem so scary when your digital footprint is a bottomless pit.

I couldn't register it. How was it possible that a girl I loved since I was twelve years old had ceased to exist anymore? And then the hurt settled. It creeps slowly, settling heavily onto the bottom of my stomach like jagged stones. All the signs were there, and that's the worst part. The way the news had felt like an inevitable that had arrived way too soon instead of a shocking tragedy.

It shouldn't have felt like that. No one should think of a person as so broken that it wouldn't be surprising to hear them drop dead one day. The realization hit extra hard, extra close to home.

I felt... complicit.

It's been so long since I went on those shitty forums to defend Sulli as a human being because I saw it as a futile attempt since always spoke ill of her actions. I knew it was unfair, but sometimes I can't help but think to myself that this is the shit that comes up with her job- if she didn't want to be criticized, then she shouldn't have had expressed herself so freely when living in a pretty conservative society. I was wrong. No one deserved to live with the kind of hate she gets.

And then I felt sad. Because the media had covered the news so fucking terribly and explicitly and everyone was tweeting about her like they knew who she was as a person and why she'd done what she did and that fucking angered me so much. Everyone was busy pointing fingers on who did what, trying to find out why this happened, posting stuff about the signs everyone had missed, quotes on what Sulli had said when she'd been alive, how are her celebrity friends grieving over her death- yet none of them really delivered the most important fact that she's gone. She's no longer here.

It's true that when someone dies, you think about life. Death reminds you about life and how fragile it can be. But that doesn't mean you forget to register that a person has left this world and continue to act without any repercussions just because you don't know her personally. I don't even know if I'm making any sense right now but that was how I felt.

When the anger passes, I finally grieved properly. Took time off for myself to think about how this impacts me, how my heart hurts so much for the one person I thought had been strong enough to power through life's constant shortcomings. I always knew that what celebrities show on camera and behind are vastly different, but it was hard to register it.

Grieving, time and time again, made me learn of how time doesn't stop for anyone. Shit hurts, and life goes on. You wake up and face the fucking shitty day.

I don't even know where I'm going with this post. It's such a mess. In the end, I just want to say how much I loved Sulli. How much I loved Choi Jinri. All the words I said before this was a wordvomit on my feelings and mostly my anger because I had no one to vent to the whole time I'd been grieving over her. This was a journey I had to go through alone because I had no friends that shared the same f(x) fandom as I did, and frankly no one in real life cared enough to think that her death had impacted me the way it did.

I loved Jinri. I loved her for her beauty, her smile, her laughter, and the way she'd put on that mask and made everyone think that she was invincible. She'd made me so happy. I may not know her personally at all, but I believed that she'd always done everything with utmost sincerity. There are some things you can't fake, I guess.

I loved her so much. And I thank her. For being born, for being that beacon of light to so many people in this world for continuing to be herself in the world that never stops trying to mend her, and for existing.

Jinri, I love you so much. Thank you so much. Good bye. I'll miss you forever and ever. I've posted this on every platform I could think of posting. We'll meet again in another life.