#I said nothing intentionally disrespectful idk what he's mad about

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and on today's episode of What Did Bear Do This Time; stepfatherly frustration on an ambiguous "she"

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NSFW OC Talk

Okay so I woke up this morning and my first thought was what kind of lover Atamu would be (not a good one). So I guess I’ll start with him.

The simplest words to describe Atamu is ‘rough sex’. Actually, the first thing I thought of when I opened my eyes this morning is “Atamu is the kind of guy who wouldn’t eat someone out” -- not because he thinks it’s gross or anything but because he’s really not interested in pleasuring his sexual partner. He’s an angry fucker (meant as both a derogatory word for person as well as a word to mean someone who engages in sexual activity). Sex with Atamu just feels like hate sex because I feel like he’s just always kind of mad and torn up inside? I feel like he’s the kind who might end up crying after sex (just pent up frustration, using sex to vent, and then just kind of wanting to break down afterwards), but idk if he’d really be the crying type. Maybe dry tears. Sex for him is just that though -- a venting tool. It’s like punching walls for him. Just a carnal act of violence to release energy.  Eh like I said, he’s not really interested in pleasuring whomever he is fucking, but if he does go down on a girl, I feel like he would use teeth. He’d probably be a decent lover to someone who really likes being absolutely fucking wrecked, horrendously marked, bitten, torn up, etc. The only danger to that is, he’s really really not doing it for your pleasure. Whereas in BDSM or rough sex type situations, the dominant partner checks in with their sub, he would not. And there is no safe word with this guy. He doesn’t have trouble finding a sexual partner, being a fairly attractive, very well built man in a decent position of power and comfortable finances. But he also certainly doesn’t really experience sexual attraction (I can hesitantly say he might be asexual?). He’ll fuck women with no interest in ever knowing their name and also with little interest in ever seeing them again. Idk. If after sex with him they want to come back? Sure, he’d welcome that.  But eh, also he has the potential to really hurt someone. Not intentionally, just... being too caught up in his own emotions to care or hold himself back. I’m sure he has the potential to be caring and thoughtful -- he just.. has to work extra hard to think of it. Probably on the asexual spectrum. Probably also aromantic. But labels don’t work too well for my characters because it’s all kind of blehh eh. None of them identify with any of these labels.

Atumu is the second person I thought of, only because his is such a contrast. Whereas Atamu would be rough sex with no foreplay, Atumu would be able to give you a full hour of nothing but foreplay -- full body touching, kissing, sucking, licking -- until you’re dripping wet, aching for more...but he really doesn’t want to give you more hah. I mean, even all that - the sensuality - he doesn’t feel it. He can perform the motions - and he can perform them well. He has years of experience pleasuring women and is a receptive partner who is good at listening. But none of it is pleasurable to himself, and as for penetration, he would honestly rather not. He has a rather complicated relationship with sex for a great number of reasons and has no positive association with it. He does not consider cunnilingus to be “sex” any more than, say, a solid back massage. Sex to him is... probably what Atamu does actually. It’s carnal and vicious, and people get hurt. He experiences no sexual pleasure whatsoever, and would rather not .. have anything to do with it. But if you ask it of him and the situation warrants it, he would allow you to use his body as you will for any sexual purposes. He’ll provide what you want and how you want it. Basically, his traumatised ass does not want to have sex with you. But he can and he will and it will be a good time for you if you want it. I can just guarantee it won’t be a good time for him. If we’re giving my character labels, he would be sex-repulsed asexual and aggressively aromantic.

Atymu is the next person I thought of. Atymu... despite all the thirst people have for her... I feel like she doesn’t merit it. She gives absolutely nothing in sex. About as receptive a partner as fucking a flesh robot. Which would seem entirely undesirable except that sex with her just feels ungodly? There is some sort of immeasurable and inexplicable pleasure that comes from being inside of her that is absolutely not like any other experience in the world. The feeling of entering her is this intensely overwhelming spiritual sensation that permeates through the whole body and is almost paralysing. That said, she doesn’t like repeat sexual partners. She’s interested in new experiences, so unless you go through some sort of metamorphosis, if she has fucked you once, she probably has no interest in doing it again. Oh man, cunnilingus with her is in the same realm of indescribable. Her taste simultaneously satiates a void that you never knew you had but also generates...essentially that insatiable void that you now will never fill again. Basically, sex with Atymu is simultaneously going to be your best and worst lay of your entire life. She is a life ruiner.  Fun fact about Atymu -- she’ll rate your sex game. Immediately afterwards. Which is kind of unfair and terrible for her to do, considering she doesn’t put any work into it and is hardly receptive in terms of feedback during the activity. But she’ll give you a rating - let you know that you were good or -- very bluntly -- terrible, a regrettable decision -- and then promptly kick you out of her house. You don’t get the spend the night, laying in her arms, feeling her silky dark skin against your body. Nope. You’re gone. She’s kind of pansexual and probably also aromantic.

I can’t talk about Atymu without mentioning Atimu. Atimu is actually where Atymu gets all her sexual partners from (like Yelp recommendations). Sex with Atimu is almost always guaranteed to be a great experience. She’s energetic, athletic, into just about anything. The girl is fun and wild in bed. Kind of universally loved? I guess there are some girls who might dislike her or call her a slut, but she harbours no ill will or resentment. Whatever the opposite of a kinkshamer, Atimu is. She’s fine with maintaining you and/or any number of other people as long term sexual partners, so there is plenty of opportunity to try different things with her. She’s down for just about anything. Hmm.. I should say she is probably not too into being too submissive or humiliated. She has no problem calling you out on your bullshit and also has no problem kicking you out/slamming the door on you. She’s fine with whatever kinks or whatnot, but don’t you go and disrespect her. She knows she deserves better than you. She’s bisexual/pan. idk how she feels about romance.

Atomu is a small baby leave him alone.

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Episode Thoughts

Poor Kyle... he was just trying to help Heidi. He got so excited... brushed and gelled his hair and everything.

Not a big fan of Kyle x Heidi but seeing her be all racist towards him made me sad for Kyle. He was just trying to be a good boi and he got disrespected :(

I really hope Heidi ends her relationship with Cartman soon but I still don't want her with Kyle if she can be so easily influenced by what others think.

I think it would be better if her and Kyle end up being just friends. Heidi said that she was in a really dark place before Cartman, and the poor girl clearly needs some proper support. However, I don't think she should be in a relationship with anyone right now. She's too suspectible to being heavily influenced and manipulated by whoever she's dating. Look at how (almost creepily) easy Cartman was able to 'get her back' after giving some racist, half-assed reason about Kyle trying to manipulate her 'unconsciously' just because he's Jewish. She needs support, but I think she relies too much on her partner and goes along with whatever they're doing. That's not a healthy trait to have if one is in a relationship.

I would really like to see more of her own thoughts. If she dated Kyle, she would just follow his example, even though it's usually a good one, it's still not her own opinion.

ALSO WHEN THE GIRLS WERE ROASTING CARTMAN I WAS LIVING, but I felt bad for Heidi too. Her staying with Cartman is mainly out of pride, since she doesn't want to be wrong. The girls were speaking the truth, Cartman's a fucking shitshow, but you don't talk about your friend's ex like that right in front of them (ppl the rule is that you don't talk shit about your friend's ex until they start doing it) and they were fucking rubbing it in her face. It made her feel more isolated and was eventually the trigger for her to go see Cartman (and get manipulated) again.

ALSO THE FACT THAT CARTMAN FUCKING PUSHED HEIDI IN FRONT OF A CAR AND CALLED HER A WHORE, YET DEFENDING IT BY BLAMING HIS SUGAR LEVELS AND HIS MOM WHAT DA FUCK IF THAT WAS ME I WOULDVE BEEN LIKE B Y E B I T C H.

ALSO THE WHOLE SEQUENCE WITH CARTMAN REALIZING KYLE WAS 'BEHIND' HEIDI LEAVING HIM WAS HILARIOUS IF NOT SOMEWHAT DISTRIBUTING. Kyle was speaking mad truth when he said that Cartman legit believes he's the victim in this (and every situation). SPOILERS BUT A BIG EXAMPLE OF THIS CAN BE SEEN IN THE FRACTURED BUT WHOLE. Cartman's the fucking villain, but he tries to spin it a million different ways to make it seem like it's not his fault by having it be Mitch Connor (which is his fucking hand that he voices). EVEN THOUGH HES THE ONE DOING ALL THIS FUCKED UP SHIT HE TRIES TO BLAME HIS F U C K I N G H A N D.

I loved how realistic this episode was about with toxic relationships. People (like Heidi) who get sucked into this relationships are not blind to the truth, they're just scared and feel alone. They feel like it's better to be in a fucked up relationship with someone than be in no relationship at all.

The ending had me shook, not gonna lie, but remember Heidi's only like 10. I think she'll eventually move on from her toxic relationship with Cartman and find happiness somewhere else. I also really, really, REALLY hope that the kids stop being friends with Cartman. I know people give the argument that "oh he's only 10," and shit, but this different from using that argument to defend Heidi. She's never fucking intentionally killed and feed some kid his own parents or called people a bunch of racist or homophobic slurs or is a complete spoiled brat. When Kyle said that, "we're all kind of dating Cartman," I almost fucking clapped. He's so right, because throughout 21 fucking seasons, the boys don't always nesscarily support Cartman but most of the time they don't ever really try to stop him. They see him doing fucked up shit, like manipulating Heidi, and they turn the other way and do nothing about it. They let themselves be treated like shit and yeah sometimes they'll protest and say something mean back to Cartman, but they never do stop being friends with him. Idk if it's outta fear and just because they've been friends for so long that they have a strange connection with him but yeah.

I just hope they have another episode that continues off of this one that ends up with Heidi realizing that Cartman's manipulating her and dumps his fucking ass.

I'm not looking for a debate or anything, I just had really no one to discuss the new episode about bc my sister fucking loves Cartman, which I kind of get. I understand his vitality to the show, and he can be hilarious at times, but that doesn't make up for the fact that he's an absolute piece of shit.

Also I'm not touching the Garrison parts of the episode bc I think they speak for themselves (extremely disturbing and fucked up).