#I originally wanted this to be a short fic but it's over 4000 words lol

[theonethatyaks93]

Heartbeats (PaTB Valentine's Day Fic 2024)

Hi guys!! Happy Valentine's Day!!! This is the fic I made for my incredible friend @therealhayyhay as a little present. I'm so glad that we found each other! I'm gonna try and keep this short but I really put my heart and soul into this and I'm hoping you guys like it!!

Another botched plan, another night spent wasting away in failure. Even though world domination had been put aside for his marriage to the love of his life, he still felt that lingering guilt of a futile attempt. Why he kept pondering these negative ideals, he had no clue. But The Brain could only wish that he would pay attention to things that truly mattered.

Mainly his lovable Pinky.

He kept his head down as Pinky literally carried him back into the cage, his arm bandaged from an incredibly painful fall after an explosion. It stung mildly but he was certain it would be healed by tomorrow. Brain could only think about how fortunate it was that his husband hadn’t been harmed by the blast. He almost forgot that he’d been hurt himself.

“I’m sorry that the plan failed Brain. Narf! I’m sure you’ll get it tomorrow! I know it!” Pinky smiled, holding Brain gingerly as he slowly walked.

Brain winced a little at the slight pain the Pinky accidently inflicted on his arm with his movements, but he sighed afterward as he glanced upon Pinky’s calm expression. He found relief in the way his precious face was all scrunched up and cheery looking. “You have nothing to apologize for, my dear. Tonight’s failure was entirely because of my own volition. I…should have paid more attention to the fine mechanics in all honesty.”

“Aww!” Pinky purred, nuzzling Brain’s nose, touching it softly which caused Brain to let out a light squeak. “Don’t be so hard on yourself! I believe that you can do this! Or at least you won’t cause an explosion next time!”

“Thank you, Pinky.” Brain nuzzled back, pushing them as close as they could go in their current circumstance. “I welcome your support and confidence in me. And I couldn’t be happier with your loyalty…”

He stopped in his tracks when he got a good view at his husband’s reaction to his returning affection. His eyes lit up and his tiny smile grew wider. He could even notice a light pink dusting his face. Brain could feel a deep blush creeping up; suddenly his want for Pinky took over a desire for everything else. Even those nagging thoughts that were previously present faded away.

“Uhm…it appears that my previous temperament has left me. I seem to have become entranced by your loving stare, Pinky. I cannot finish my previous sentence, at least with the same level of slight irritation as I once had.” He tried keeping a straight face, but his emotions were starting to affect his entire body. Brain felt himself heat up more when Pinky responded with a flirty smirk

“Oh, Brain! Poit! Stop it! You’re making me feel all fluttery and gooooshy! I could so kiss you right now!” Pinky quickly batted his paw up and down, as his blush became even more obvious.

Brain lifted his non-injured arm to place his paw on Pinky’s cheek, causing him to look directly at Brain. “We are spouses, Pinky. We’ve been married for a year. You know you don’t have to say that anymore. I usually oblige to kissing in most situations.” He stopped briefly to pull Pinky closer, their foreheads touching. “And you are far too beautiful right now for me to resist.”

Pinky was about to respond, but Brain didn’t let him, their lips meeting before he even had the chance to speak. Pinky made a moan of surprise when Brain made his move, but he soon began humming contently as the kiss continued, his tail happily swishing. Brain felt himself swoon a little at Pinky’s quiet sounds, one of his favorite parts of kissing by far. He savored the moment, deepening the kiss at a speedy pace.

When Pinky parted for air, Brain didn’t waste any time and locked their mouths together once more. He loved kissing his husband. It always made him feel better about himself and about his difficulties. Pinky was so placid and caring with him, it was almost unreal how this mouse had become all his. But just as their kiss was about to take a more intimate turn, Pinky’s legs gave out as he tripped on the entrance to their cage, causing Brain to tumble to the floor with an obnoxious thud.

Brain yelped; the fall had caused a searing pain to return to his injured arm. He hissed, biting back embarrassment that the kiss had distracted Pinky from seeing where he was going, but also fighting back tears that began to prick his eyes. Brain knew it had been an accident. Yet somehow, this little slip caused all the built-up emotions from before to come crashing back, even more spiteful, and harsh than before.

Before he could fully lose himself in his agony, he felt himself be held tightly. Brain eased a little when he saw his husband’s worried face in front of him, his apologetic appearance radiating immense trepidation.

“Brain, are you alright? Zort! I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to drop you. I always forget about that nasty-wasty step. I’m such a dunce. How’s your arm?” Pinky spoke chaotically and quick, inspecting Brain’s arm gingerly. He seemed to grow more troubled when he noticed the slight swelling, his distress growing. “Oh no! It’s even worse! Your arm’s all swelled and angry! I’m sorry, Brain! I’m a bad husband!”

The megalomaniac felt his stomach churn a little at Pinky’s sudden outburst. It was not his husband’s fault that he was injured, it had just been a matter of occurrence. “No, Pinky. You are certainly not a bad husband. You just happened to not pay attention to your surroundings, which is inane. But you are mostly not to blame. Even if the pain is immense” Brain snuggled closer to Pinky, doing his best to soothe his spouse’s woes. “You are a remarkable partner, dearest. Don’t ever doubt that or I shall have to kiss you.”

Pinky placed a paw on Brain’s cheek, rubbing it tenderly. He giggled, carefully setting Brain’s arm down before dragging him closer. “I love you so much, darling. I want you to know that every day! But can I kiss and hug away your boo-boos so that you feel all happy and good again? Pretty please?”

Brain was hesitant at first, mostly because he knew that kisses didn’t provide any real healing and that his arm was still hurting quite a bit. But the prospect of more kissing from his lover was so tempting, he couldn’t pass on this opportunity. “Alright, Pinky. You may proceed with your attempt at comforting me. Be careful though.”

“Yay!” Pinky cheered, slightly shaking Brain in his excitement. “I promise this’ll make you feel all better! Troz!”

Wasting no time, Pinky immediately lowered his head and began peppering kisses along Brain’s arm, making sure not to miss a single spot. It was a little crude, but Brain was not paying any attention to the more awkward factors in the matter. He was far too lost in the pleasant sensations invading his body. “P-Pinky. It-it’s perfect.” He struggled saying anything coherent. Pinky’s kisses proved to incapacitate him in every single feasible way.

Pinky briefly looked at Brain, adoration shining in his eyes. “I knew you’d love-love-love it! And I’m not done!”

After a little while of Pinky simply kissing Brain’s arm, he sneakily worked his way up to Brain’s neck and chest, leaving a couple smooches there. Brain held in a reaction as best he could, though he failed to suppress light chuckles. His husband noticed this, kissing him even faster and deeper than before. Brain had a feeling that Pinky didn’t exactly want to relieve his injuries anymore. Not that he cared, Pinky kissing him was a benefit no matter what. But he could clearly tell that things were shifting.

Brain let out a slight whine when Pinky left him, though the two remained close. He felt his spouse’s arms wrap around his waist, as he began being pulled into an embrace. He was about to protest the crushing contact, feeling like the kisses were enough. Just as quickly, however, that initial unease was completely replaced when the side of his face was gently settled on Pinky’s soft chest.

He could hear the soft sighs and hums elicited by Pinky, which he found quite adorable. Brain tried his best to situate himself to where he could be in a better position so he could hold Pinky as well. Obviously, he couldn’t raise his bandaged arm, but he supposed that one would suffice enough. He did his best to keep Pinky close, but his husband was nuzzling and kissing his head and it tickled just a little. While he tried at first to tell Pinky to stop, Brain suddenly froze when he sensed an unusual, yet loving feeling began seeping into his mind.

That’s when he noticed it.

The noise that he’d grown quite accustomed to over the past few years. This time, though when he heard it, something was different. His reaction was different.

Pinky’s heartbeat.

It was like he was hearing the gentle thrum for the first time. Which was simply not true. It had been so many years since Brain first rested against Pinky’s chest. The first time, he’d been shocked and even a little confused. He knew Pinky had a heart. Every living being did. But he still hadn’t heard one beating so close. Brain was even a little fearful about it at first. Pinky had been so comforting though, helping him feel more secure in their newfound relationship. It was one of the best days of his life.

Following that, whenever they would get close or fall asleep within their shared sponge bed, Brain would always listen for Pinky’s heartbeat. He felt like it was a sign of their love for each other, their connection. Without it, Brain felt insecure and trepidatious. Almost scared, though he wouldn’t admit that. When they’d been married, Brain sought it even more. He hoped that for as long as he could hear Pinky’s steady heart, they’d be together.

And yet, currently, he was feeling strange. Something wasn’t adding up to him.

Brain stayed as quiet as possible, trying to absorb the sound into his mental capacity as a dark blush appeared on his cheeks. It was a steady rhythm, quick and yet soft. Noisy but peaceful. Energetic and a little erratic. Just like the mouse that it resided within. How a heart could match someone so perfectly Brain did not know. Still, his usual calmness during these kinds of moments was nonexistent currently; he was thinking about a lot. But he had not a clue as to why.

Was it because of the failure? Was he questioning his relationship with Pinky? What was happening to his emotions?

A sudden rush of anxiety crept over Brain, hitting him like a rock. He hastily pulled away from his husband, backing away slowly as his breathing increased in vigor. Pinky’s calm face sank into one of confusion, cocking his head to the side at Brain’s peculiar reaction.

“Brain, is something wrong? I didn’t hurt you again, did I?” Pinky murmured with a little hesitation.

Brain mustered up his confidence, trying to respond to Pinky’s questions with an excuse. “Yes, I’m fine, dear. I…uh…I just remembered that we haven’t had dinner yet.” He looked off to the side, hoping that Pinky wouldn’t make assumptions. Brain wasn’t even hungry.

“Egad! You’re right! Narf! I knew I forgot something! Silly me!” Pinky got up from the ground and immediately dashed for the cage door, a slight skip in his step. “Would you like me to use the three-in-one oil again for your food pellets? I know how much you like that.”

Brain nodded, hoping that he’d be gone for a while so he could process what was occurring in his thoughts. “I would like that very much. Feel free to take all the time you need. I’ll be here waiting for your return.”

Pinky squealed, waving flirtatiously and winking as he walked away. “Don’t go anywhere, love! Or do. I’m not stopping you!”

Brain did his best to smile, but when Pinky turned around, his face fell.

Now he needed time to ponder for sure.

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It had only been five minutes, and yet Brain had already found himself in an intense emotional spiral, his mind whirling and scattered thoughts giving him a mild migraine. He was sitting on the edge of his sponge bed, staring out into the empty space beyond the cage bars. He hadn’t heard Pinky in a while so something told him that he was very busy making the food pellets just the way he liked. But that pleasing notion was doing nothing to stop his uncertainty and worry.

He didn’t understand why he’d reacted like that. Why he’d panicked upon hearing Pinky’s heartbeat. That had been happening for years. Why now suddenly was he nervous? Why now had he felt odd?

Somewhat bewildered.

Frightened even.

It had been three years since he and Pinky had become a thing. Romantically speaking that was; they’d been friends for decades. He’d first heard Pinky’s heart only a few days before the big confession. That had been the triggering point for him. What pushed Brain to confess his affections to his partner. Their first kiss was breathtaking. The snuggles that followed over the next few days were glorious. Things only grew from there. Days in a relationship turned to weeks, which turned into months, which eventually led to their marriage. Brain’s love for Pinky knew no restraints. He loved Pinky. He loved Pinky so much.

Yet, he questioned why Pinky would stay with him. How had the most incredible being to ever exist ended up with him? He was a simple laboratory mouse who constantly failed at taking over the world. And still he got a loving husband? Why him? He was a failure. And his abrasive behavior towards Pinky occasionally could be seen by others as abusive.

Through all the plights, Pinky cared about him. Loved him unconditionally. Showered him with warmth, late-night cuddles, and tender kisses that made him feel rather invincible. Through all the peril and despair Brain encountered, Pinky was always there to offer him support. He hated to acknowledge it but without Pinky, Brain wasn’t so sure he’d still be alive.

He could feel the tears pouring from his eyes, could sense his labored breaths. Brain didn’t understand why he was so afraid of confronting his love for Pinky or what exactly made him question it. Pinky was his world. They were married and had been together for what felt like a lifetime. While it had been so long since they reached non-platonic levels, Brain still questioned if and why he even earned his husband. He questioned if Pinky would truly stay with him forever. Or would he leave him at the first signs of trouble. Right now, those thoughts were prevalent more than ever.

All this started because of a stupid heartbeat. What a preposterous reason to be upset.

He held in a sob, closing his pink eyes to resist the sudden urge to start crying and never cease. All these questions were killing his emotions, making him feel unworthy. Brain hated weakness. He tried to never show it. Though now, it seemed like all he could do was be vulnerable and get lost in his own beliefs.

“Brain! I’m done with the food pellets! Poit! We ran out of the three-in-one oil, so I had to use that stuff in the cupboard that tastes like soap. I hope that’s okay with you!”

Brain didn’t even look up when he heard Pinky calling out to him. He couldn’t glimpse at him directly with all the emotions that were building. He tried to ignore Pinky, but as always, his spouse knew something was wrong instantaneously.

Pinky approached slowly, a clear apprehension prevalent in his expression. “Honey, is something wrong? You look like you’ve been crying.”

Brain lifted his head so he could finally glance at Pinky, not trying to hide his tear-stained face anymore. Pinky seemed to notice Brain’s upset state, rushing over to him, and sitting on the edge of the bed. He immediately pulled him into a small hug, using his paws to hold Brain’s face.

“No, no. Don’t cry. Please don’t cry. It will be okay, I promise. What’s wrong?” Pinky gently wiped tears from Brain’s cheeks, kissing his nose softly. Brain tried to hold it in but to no avail.

“I’m sorry Pinky. About everything,” he quietly sobbed. “I’ve been having these ridiculous doubts lately about us. About why you stay with me. Why you chose me to be your husband out of everyone else. It’s inane, yet I still have these questions.”

Pinky gasped faintly, tilting Brain’s head so that they could stare at each other face to face. “We’ve talked about this so many times, Brain. I chose you because I love you. I’ve always loved you since I first met you.”

“You’re just saying that.”

“I’m not.” Pinky’s tone changed from sympathetic to stern in a matter of seconds. His usually soft blue eyes were now filled with some hints of irritation. “I would never not be honest Brain. I’m not a good liar. Zort! Why are you feeling like this? Did I do something wrong?”

Brain snapped. His emotional barrier came toppling down much quicker than usual as he moved from his husband, eyes flaring. “That’s the problem! You’ve done nothing wrong. You act so kind and considerate of me, Pinky, and I’m afraid that I don’t deserve you at all! That you’d leave me someday because I hurt you! I can’t risk that.” He tried to keep from making a scene, but not much could quell his vicious and sudden sobbing.

Surprisingly, Pinky didn’t overreact. He barely whimpered. He wiped a few small tears from his face before holding onto Brain’s shoulders, making sure not to cause pain to his injury. “You do deserve me, sweetheart. We’re a happier-than-happy couple and we’re in love! I couldn’t think of anyone else to be all mine. You’re amazing! What made you think about all these spooky scary thoughts?”

“Surprisingly, Pinky, it was that.” He pointed to Pinky’s chest, a little hesitation present at revealing his reasoning for his brief emotional crisis.

“My chest? How does my chest make you nervous?”

Brain sighed, rubbing his temple a few times in annoyance. “No Pinky, your chest is…nice. It’s…uh well…it’s your heartbeat.”

Pinky’s confused face shifted to one of slight alarm as he examined his chest. “My heart, Brain? Is something wrong with it? I try to tell it to not be so chatty, but it just can’t help itself. Poit! It loves making those funny noises.”

The megalomaniac couldn’t help but blush and smile a little at Pinky’s naïve nature and trivial comments. “It’s just…set some feelings in me that weren’t there before a few moments ago. That’s really it.”

“Oh! Like the day we became a couple! That was so fun! And so sweet of you! I remember that all the time!” Pinky nuzzled Brain after saying that.

“I appreciate your comments and your unbridled affection for me.” Brain nuzzled Pinky back and pulled him nearer. “But would you ever leave me for someone else? I’d hate to make you feel like I don’t love you when I do…”

“Pish-posh!” Pinky interrupted, happily chuckling afterward. “I love you no matter what happens! Narf! And I’d never leave you! I married you because I knew I’d never hate you! I don’t know how many times I need to say it, but I love you! I love you so much!”

Brain felt more tears coming, but they were far from unhappy ones. He gave his husband a soft kiss on the lips, before settling their noses together. “I love you too Pinky. And I don’t suppose I could…uh…m-maybe do that thing again?”

“Do what?”

With a slight eyeroll, Brain changed his position, so he was sitting perfectly in Pinky’s lap, wrapping an arm around his spouse’s waist. “W-what I meant was that I would…like it very much if we shared an embrace again, like before.” He held his breath for what Pinky would say.

“Of course, darling! I always love hugging you! Even if you grab me by the nose afterward because I almost killed you! Zort! C’mere!”

Without saying another word, Pinky pulled Brain to his chest, settling his head on Brain’s. It wasn’t long before the room grew quiet enough to where Brain could hear Pinky’s heart. However, instead of feeling bizarre, Brain felt a pleasant warmth conquer his senses, leaving his face in a deep red and his eyes widened. The sound was just loud enough to be audible but so soft that he could have easily drifted to sleep. It was the same thing as before, yet all the sweeter. Brain could sense his own heartrate increasing. How was it possible for him to fall more in love with his husband?

When Brain finally lifted his head, he was met with the warmest look he’d ever seen Pinky give him. He couldn’t help but softly smile. They just stared at each other for what felt like hours until Pinky finally spoke up.

“C-can I try it too?” Pinky asked with so much hope.

Brain was very puzzled. “Try what Pinky?”

“Can I listen to your heartbeat thingy? I wanna hear it too. Troz!”

He wasn’t sure how to respond. It had been so long since Pinky had made any remarks on his own heartbeat; ever since they’d gotten married, he remembered. But Brain wasn’t going to tell him no. He wanted Pinky to feel the same way that he’d just felt. But he was still a little apprehensive about how Pinky would react.

“Yes, Pinky. You may. As long as you don’t suck all the oxygen out of me. And please remember my injury, okay?”

Pinky cheered, instantly settling his head beneath Brain’s, and laying his ear against his chest. Brain let out a slight gasp at how quickly his partner had hugged him, but he didn’t want to complain as he planted light, tender kisses on Pinky’s head so that Pinky could feel his love. He already knew his heartbeat was fast, so he hoped Pinky wouldn’t mind.

He was surprised when Pinky pulled away so quickly. Brain was worried he’d done something wrong, although by the way Pinky was staring at him, he could tell Pinky was more amazed than anything.

“Brain! Your heart is sooooo cute! It’s making me swooooon! Poit! It sounds so soft and sweet. Kinda like you!” Pinky purred, his eyes fluttering.  

Brain was flattered by Pinky’s charming words. Though he still thought that their embrace was far from over. “Pinky, dearest, if you’re still up for more… I guess you could continue listening if you so desire.”

The taller mouse perked up, clear excitement showing. “Really? You mean it?”

“Certainly, Pinky. I’d be keen on it if you kept going.” Brain could feel the blush returning to his face.

“Well then I better not waste any more time!”

Pinky was true to his word, grabbing Brain and resting his head on his chest, humming softly as their embrace continued. When Pinky had made the sound, Brain shuddered a bit, his entire body heating up. His husband was very adorable when he was like this, so loving and cuddly.

After a few moments of silence, Pinky finally said something again. “Y-know, Brain. I could stay like this forever and ever. I love your heartbeat. And I love you! I wanna stay with you beyond forever! Narf!”

For once, Brain agreed with his lover, and though it was only one paw, he tried to hold Pinky as tightly as he could. Before he could finally silence himself and just sink into the moment, he responded with words he felt like he’d needed to say all night.

“I love you too, Pinky. And I agree with your statement. I want to remain with you forever too.”

“You mean it, love?”

Brain smiled brightly and kissed Pinky’s head. “Yes. Always yes.”

[peninkwrites]

hey, so as someone who is very normally obsessed by tddd and possibly inspired, how do you go about writing a longfic as opposed to oneshots? how do you keep the momentum? I really admire your work :)

Thank you sm!!!

This is a very good question lol. I've had to think about it for a bit. I've written quite a few long fics over the years– some of them actually taking years lmao– so I should probably have an answer! I love this stuff so if you ever have questions/wanna talk about fic stuff my ask box is always open!

(this is probably much more than what you were expecting so I did put a tl:dr at the end!)

This is both true for something that motivates me and a warning: The cheap and dirty answer is positive feedback. It is a nice thing and one I value Very Much but there's a difference between enjoying it and depending on it. It's not good to depend on the support of others to write. It will always eventually stop being enough. (this is also a reminder for myself tbh.) I've been trying to teach myself that people reading my work is more like a nice bonus/side effect of me writing rather than the goal of it.

But some actual practical advice from me–

Write what you'd want to read. If that means throwing away what you originally had planned or writing something you don't know if people will enjoy reading, so be it! Write what's fun. That is always the goal. Give Yourself brainrot ! Write what occupies your mind and let what you write make you happy! I like writing horror, I like building tension and seeing how I can make suspense or surprise, so I write that!

That advice might feel useless when even though you're really passionate about a project, in the long slog sometimes it's just hard. If you're having writer's block, feel unmotivated to work on this project anymore, take a break, try writing something else. If you still find yourself not wanting to work on this project, change it up. Even if you don't want to make any drastic changes, writing a chapter from another perspective, writing a oneshot off of the same fic, talk about it with someone else, making a web weaving, stuff like that can help get you a new direction.

I set a loose goal for myself to post a chapter once a month. It's not set in stone bc y'know life gets in the way, but just having a vague idea of "oh I last posted 3 weeks ago I should sit down and see where I left off" can get me moving again. This may sound odd but I advise against strict update schedules. Those tend to psych me out and make me procrastinate on what's supposed to be a fun hobby! And another thing on the 'technical' side of it, chapter lengths are a balancing act for me between two things: I aim for over 4000 words, but if that is stopping me from moving forward, I finish when I like where I've left off!

And as for keeping momentum, I tend to have a Goal for each chapter. It doesn't have to even be a plot related event, it could just be a bit of dialogue I want to get to or an emotion to be had. Sometimes it's just something I want to try writing, like a chapter psychological horror that can almost be treated as its own thing. My chapters are distinct sections with something I want to have happen, not stepping stones to the grand finale or whatever that may be. That's especially helpful if you usually write oneshots, treating a longer fic like a bunch of oneshots that are connected type deal. If each chapter has A Goal, you have something short term to aim for.

That goes for overall stuff too. For me at least, if I know where I want a fic to end up I refuse to quit until I get there. I've never given up on a work that I know how it's going to end. It's easier to write horror than recovery for me, but I know where I want that recovery to lead so having short-term and long-term goals makes that easier to work on. I rarely have a proper outline (actually probably never do tbh) but if I Know that all of this is leading to the happy ending, revelation, moment of hope, moment of horror, etc that I want to get to, that paired with having fun with where I am in the story, it's easier to power through.

I hope that was somewhat helpful? If you have specific stuff that this didn't answer feel free to send an ask about it and I'll see if I have any ideas!

TL:DR

-write for yourself/write what you want to read/what you have fun writing

-when you get stuck work on something else

-have a general schedule (I suggest not a strict one) of when you'd like to update

-have a specific goal for each chapter and the overall fic.

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Fanfiction Reader Tag

Tagged by @eyeliner-vampire! Thank you! :) Originally by AO3commentoftheday!

1. When did you start reading Fanfic (How old you were or how long ago)?

Let's see, I started my FF.net account in August 2010, so I would think around then. I started way later than most people, lol!

2. Do you have an AO3 account?

Yes, I'm RaisedonRadio! (and FortressofmyPast)

3. Do you read WIP (work in progress)? Why or why not?

Once, when I was so very new to the concept of fanfiction, I started reading a fic that drew me in. Loved it. Found it hadn't been updated for years in a cliffhanger. This has scarred me greatly. I rarely pick up a WIP. XD I’m so sorry.

4. What time of day is your ‘fic reading time’?

I don't really have a set time! If something catches my eye, I read it. I'm more likely to browse in the evening.

5. How much time do you spend reading fic per week?

Not as much as I like! My schedule has been packed. ;_;

6. Do you listen to podfic (fanfic recorded like an audiobook)?

No, but probably because I just haven't come across one in my fandoms!

7. What’s your favorite fic genre to read?

Romance, angst, slice-of-life, fluff, hmm...almost anything I'd say

8. Are there any genres that you tend to avoid?

I do tend to avoid heavy AUs. Some canon divergence is fine, but I'm normally too invested in the main story to be interested in alternate universes.

9. What tag(s) do you track?

Ghost Hunt :)

10. How do you find new fic?

Look at the archives on FF.net and AO3, and the tags on Tumblr

11. How do you organize your fic bookmarks?

I...don't. Should I? XD

12. Do you subscribe to authors or stories?

I think I have some subscriptions! The only problem is I always forget to log into my accounts besides Tumblr.

13. What is your favorite fanfic trope?

I just...love tropes in general.

14. What kind of plot line are you always here for?

Taking a scene from canon and extending it or changing the point of view.

15. What can an author do to make you love them?

Well written one shots.

16. What can an author do to make you avoid them?

Pushy attitudes about how their way is the only way to write the characters.

17. What do kudos mean to you?

I love kudos! They mean to me, 'Hey, I finished this!' and I see them as a "liked it!", where the reader didn't have anything else to say.

18. What kind of commenter are you (No comment, short comment, keyboard smash)?

I'm really bad at commenting. The ones I leave are too short I'm sure.

19. Have you ever stopped reading a fic? Why or why not?

Yes.Normally poor formatting like no paragraph breaks, or strangely out of character (in my opinion) will do it.

20. Have you ever read a fic more than once? What is it about that fic that makes you want to read it again?

Anything in my bookmarks is something I'll read again, or already have. When it makes me feel like I'm reading something from the source material!

21. Do you like sequels?

Sure!

22. Do you like dabbles?

Yes!

23. What do you wish more fic authors would do?

Don't apologize: for your ideas, for your grammar, for your ships, for your summary, for your absence, for something being too long or too short.

24. What do you wish more authors would stop doing?

Writing notes on 'how horrible' their fic is in the summary or first note. Let me decide for myself, lol!

25. Do you like one-shots or multi-chapter?

I love one-shots ^^;;

26. How long do you like chapters to be?

Over 4000 words start to make my eyes glaze over, though that's certainly my own opinion.

27. What’s your favorite POV (point of view) to read (first, second, third)?

Third, though a well-written first is great too.

28. What do you think of OC’s?

I love OCs that fill in gaps, and support the main characters, not overtake them.

29. Do you download fic?

Actually, I don't. No real reason, except the internet is so accessible (which is a dangerous attitude, I've heard of people having favorite fics deleted on them)

30. Tell me something else about your fic reading! Anything else!

If I finish a show or book and feel the slightest bit of something was missing, off to the archive I go. Can I tell you how disappointed I am normally when I go looking for kdrama fanfics? There's often nothing there. ^^;;

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(most of my) writing updates beginning May 8 2014 (as found on my Lunaescence profile (afaik no one reads AO3 profiles, so I don’t post on it). I had just started updating after about at least five years iirc. I didn’t start recording these updates until May 8, but they actually began whenever I added chapter 2 to both of these fics (Dec 2013 or Jan 2014), which I had culled down most of the bad original writing (including the entirety of chapters past ch. 1) from in the years before.

Writing Updates: May 8/14- Insanity and BnF both had chapter six added April/24/14, and are now approved (May 4 and 8) May 18/14- Both sevens have rewritten, completed, uploaded, and are awaiting approval. July 28/14- Sevens both approved and posted. Aug 6/14- Working on typing the eights. Taking my time a bit since the queue's closed. Aug 20/14- Now that I note the queue is open, I'm hurrying up again. Insanity 8 is almost done, I'm not sure where I want to put the chapter break. It's over 1000 words but I wanted to cover more plot than I have. Working on BnF 8 now, expect to upload this weekend. Aug 21/14- BNF 8 finished (3220 words) and uploaded, so here's hoping I didn't screw it up and it goes through. Insanity I'm still not sure where to end, but will be uploaded soon. Chapter 9 of BNF is plotted on paper. Aug 28/14- Insanity 8 is very nearly ready for uploading.  Around 2700 words, just needs to be wrapped up, which I'm not doing at 2:30am on a weekday. Plus, giving the mods some spacing what with the rush right now and stuff. Sept 9/14- BNF 8 is up and readable Sept 22/14- I've been sick. I'll try to get updates done for both stories soon. I'm having second thoughts on what's done so far in Insanity 8, which is why it didn't end up just wrapping up and getting posted. Sept 23/14- Insanity 8 is uploaded, awaiting approval. Starting the 9s today. Oct 9/14- Somewhat unexpectedly I am moving, so that will slow down the next uploads. Nov 21/14- Moved in, internet, etc, and not completely buried in stuff, and so BnF 9 is written and has been uploaded. Assuming no grievous errors on my part, it should be approved within a couple weeks. Insanity's 9 has only begun. Nov 26/14- Insanity Ch. 9 is at about 2000/2500 words, so it should be uploaded to await approval within a couple days. Dec 17/14- Validated! Awesome, except that now I'm the only one to blame for slow updates. Dec 22/14- Insanity 9 is finally up, working on both 10s. Feb 12/15- BNF 10 is up Nov 17/15- BNF 11 is uploaded Dec 1/15- BNF 12 is uploaded Dec 2/15- Insanity 10 is framed and started, BNF 13 is framed Dec 3/15- Insanity 10 is uploaded. Insanity 11 is somewhat planned. Dec 17/15- Started a Mushishi one shot. 540 words of probably 2-3k. Dec 29/15- Added further plans for BNF and Insanity's upcoming chapters Dec 30/15 Started a Hellsing one shot, planned an Inuyasha one, and started BNF 13 Dec 31/15- Insanity 11 is started. Jan 4/16- BNF 13 completed and posted, 14 is written. Jan 5/16- BNF 14 edited and posted Jan 7/16- BNF 15 started. Jan 23/16- Insanity 11 is posted Feb 15/16- Insanity 12 is started. 1200 words so far, expect 2.0-3.5k total Apr 18/16- [2am] Insanity 12 is up. BNF 15 will be next up Apr 18/16- [morning] BNF 15 is completed and up. Ins 13 and BNF 16 vaguely planned. Working on Hellsing fic as a refresher. Apr 18/16- [evening] I'm very excited by my Hellsing fic, currently at 3000+ words. Apr 18/16- [late late] Hellsing fic complete [6600ish words] awaiting editing and optional epilogue. This was a very accomplished day. Apr 20/16- Hellsing fic (Wingates Manor) complete and up at 7100 words May 9/16- BNF 16 written and posted. ~1500 words. Insanity 13 started May 12/16- Insanity 13 is 2100/3000ish words. Need to review some material to write Izumi. Starting BNF 17 while I find that. Aug 18/16- Insanity 13 edited and posted Aug 19/16- One shot Gravity Falls drabble written and posted Aug 24/16- BNF Chapter 17 written and posted Jan 27/17- Been on Lunaescence for 10 years! Mar 14/17- Updates for BnF and Insanity written in anticipation of Lunaescence launching. Started Insanity ch. 15 Mar 15/17- Luna is back! Mar 15/17- Various continuity/time corrections for Insanity and BnF. Hoping to upload new chapters, but getting an error. Mar 16/17- Various errors sorted out and both BNF and Insanity are updated Mar 17/17- Realized I've been on Luna for over ten years May 3/17- Worked on Insanity ch. 15 and better tied it together. ~2000 words now, will either be a little longer if I split it, or a lot longer if I fit the next piece into the same chapter. Jan 22/18 - Wrote and uploaded Insanity chapter 16 Nov 18/18 - Wrote short chapter 17 (~800 words) to Ins, uploaded to Ao3 Nov 19/18 - Reformatted and uploaded Ins chapter 17 to Luna Nov 20/18 - Insanity ch. 18 written (~2100 words) and uploaded Dec 2/19 - Insanity ch. 19 written and uploaded to AO3 Dec 4/19 - Insanity ch. 20 started Dec 5/19 - Insanity ch. 19 reformatted and uploaded to Luna Dec 5/19 - Insanity ch. 20 written and uploaded to AO3 and Luna Dec 5/19 - Insanity ch. 21 plotted, first sentences down Feb 13/20 - BNF ch. 19 completed and posted to AO3 Feb 20/20 - Insanity ch. 21 completed and posted to AO3 Apr 24/20 - BNF ch. 20 completed and posted to AO3 Apr 27/20 -  BNF chs. 19 and 20, plus Insanity ch. 21, reformatted and posted to Luna. Worked on Ins ch. 22 Apr 29/20 - Finished and uploaded Insanity ch. 22. Started Insanity 23 Sep 21/20 - Started BNF ch. 21 Sep 22/20 - Finished BNF ch. 21 Sep 23/20 - Proofread and formatted BNF ch. 21, uploaded to Luna and AO3 Sep 24/20 - Completed, edited, uploaded Insanity ch. 23 to Luna and AO3 Sep 25/20 - (will probably remove after next update is added) immediately willing to continue both stories but very very tired and hoping to have the effort on the 17th or 28th (lol watch that not happen) Sep 27/20 - started BNF ch. 22 and Insanity ch. 24, both in the hundreds of words Sep 29/20 - started Fruits Basket fanfic (untitled, transmasc readerxayame), finished and uploaded BNF ch. 22, started BNF ch. 23. finished Insanity ch. 24, but need to edit, especially for repetitious language. Sep 30/20 - realized I spelled 'colonel' wrong almost every time throughout the entirety of Insanity ('colonol') and manually corrected both uploads (here and AO3). Edited and uploaded Insanity Ch. 24 and made notes for Ch. 25. Worked on BNF Ch. 23. Finished ch. 1 of Ayame fic, but waiting to make some buffer before uploading. Oct 1/20 - [2am] finished and uploaded BNF Ch. 23. please note the author's note is not working Oct 2/20 - [~1am] Standardized spellings and italics use for swords 'Jyakotsutō' and 'Banryū' in BNF. Added umlauts to 'führer' throughout Insanity. Started work on chapters 24 and 25, respectively. Oct 3/20 - [~1am] Worked on BNF ch. 25. Started ch.2 of Ayame fic. Oct 4/20 - [am] Wrote much (half? two thirds? one third?) of Insanity ch. 25. super horny chapter, already noting new chapter/story warnings. Also worked on ch. 2 of Ayame fic (still not uploading ch. 1 yet) Oct 4/20 - [late] Worked on BNF ch. 24. Oct 5/20 - [2am] Completed and uploaded Insanity ch. 25. Read the warnings. Oct 5/20 - Completed Ayame fic ch. 2. Still need a title and the will to upload Oct 6/20 - Wrote the first five parts of 31 Day Horror House challenge. Oct 7/20 - Caught up with 31 Day Horror House (days 6 and 7 written) Oct 8/20 - [am] Continued BNF ch. 24, started Insanity ch. 26 and Ayame fic ch. 3. Oct 8/20 - [pm] Continued all active stories, wrote and uploaded day 8 of halloween challenge. Oct 9/20 - [am] completed Ayame fic ch. 3 Oct 9/20 [pm] completed day 9 of Horror House challenge Oct 10/20 - completed day 10 of Horror House challenge Oct 11/20 - completed day 11 of Horror House challenge Oct 12/20 - completed day 12 of Horror House challenge Oct 13/20 - Completed day 13 of Horror House challenge. Made Insanity and Ayame notes Oct 14/20 - finished this day of halloween challenge. Nearly completed BNF ch. 24 and a good amount of Ayame fic (but Aya fic may need a lot of editing) Oct 15/20 - finished and uploaded Horror House 15 and BNF 24. Worked on Ayame fic (no longer really bothering to mark chapters) Oct 16/20 - 31 Day Horror House 16 up, lots of Ayame fic, some of Insanity ch. 26 Oct 17/20 - Horror House 17 up Oct 18/20 - [2am] added about 1000 words to Ayame fic Oct 19/20 - wrote/posted horror house 19. wrote a few hundred words to all fics. Oct 20/20 - wrote/posted horror house 20 Oct 21/20 - wrote/posted horror house 21 and touched on Insanity ch. 26 Oct 22/20 - wrote/posted horror house 22 Oct 23/20 - wrote half of horror house 23 Oct 24/20 - finished and posted horror house 23, wrote/posted horror house 24, and did some work on Insanity ch. 26 Oct 25/20 - wrote and posted 31 day horror house chapter 25. It's short, sorry. Oct 26/20 - wrote and posted 31 day horror house chapter 26 and 27. now episodes will be posted so they can be read on the correct day, instead of at the end of or after that day Oct 28/20 - [2am] wrote and posted 31 day horror house, chapter 28. Oct 29/20 -[1am] write and posted day 29 of horror house, longest chapter yet Oct 30/20 - [2am] wrote and posted chapter 30 of horror house. Oct 31/20 - [2am] wrote and posted ch. 31, completing 31 Day Horror House. Nov 5/20 - some longer progress made on BNF 25, finally. some work on Ayame fic and Insanity 26. Nov 6/20 - worked on BNF ch. 25 and Insanity ch 26. Nov 7/20 - worked on BNF ch. 25 and some Ayame fic Nov 9/20 - worked on BNF ch. 25 Nov 10/20 - worked on BNF ch. 25 and Insanity ch. 26 Nov 17/20 - worked on BNF. Aware I missed noting some of the days this week that I worked on Ins, BNF, and Ayame fic, but don't remember them so can't add notation now. Nov 18/20 - (and Nov 19 early am) worked on Ins, BNF, and Ayame fic. Posted Ins ch. 26. Nov 19/20 - worked on BNF. Nearing 4000 word chapter (ch. 25), but no good places to split it so it is what it is. Nov 21/20 - [2am] completed and uploaded BNF ch. 25